#anyway thats why i could never switch from tumblr to twitter

[corancoranthemagicalman]

Just saw a Twitter post that said "damn I hate being a Cas stan cause everyone in this fandom either hates cas or is an insufferable heller who makes everything about cas about Dean :/" and it's like sweetie maybe if you got yourself a tumblr you'd see that all the casgirls are just literally on castiel dot com and not on j@rpad central.

[xyouaremylifedelena]

Some thoughts after seeing The Last Jedi

I’ve been a fan of Star Wars for as long as I can remember. I liked the prequels, but the acting was cringy at times (I’m looking at you, Ep1&2) but still enjoyed the tragic love story between Padme and Anakin even though Anakin became an ass at the end of 3 (still love Vader though). 

With that being said, I was always in the Rey & Kylo fandom but didn’t interact that much with you guys. I was always liking an rebloging stuff, other than that, I tried to stay as far away as I could from the fandom (or every fandom for that matter). I used to talk with other shippers on twitter and tumblr, interacting with them between 2010-2014, because for me, thats when the ‘fandom culture’ wasn’t that much toxic. I’ve shipped damon & elena since 2009, I’ve always made fanvids with them on youtube and the shipping wars we had was about which couple was better, (for those whose been in that fandom, remember that Delena and Stelena we’re craaaazy) but for some twisted reason, it was fun having a ‘war’ with the other fandom. Probably because we didn’t insult each other, we just didn’t like the other couple, that was that.

But from 2015 to now, I’ve seen the fandom culture changing into something that wasn’t healthy at all. Insulting each other and throwing the words ‘abuse’, ‘toxic’, etc. everywhere wasn’t my cup of tea, so I stayed away for a long time. It’s fiction first of all, so it isn’t that deep and second, I’ve grown up with worse tv shows, games and movies than that and didn’t turn out to be ‘fucked up’. I’ve had an ex-boyfriend who was mentally abusive to me, but didn’t stop liking certain ships because  ‘they we’re presumably bad for each other’ or ‘(insert character name) fucked up’. Yes, I changed the way I viewed my relationships with everyone. I did let some people go because of it but I never paired fiction with reality. EVER. Because liking something doesn’t make you a bad person, change your morals or whatever. It’s like saying we should stop making Star Wars as whole because it promotes war? Humans aren’t that dumb. Yes, some people make bad choices, but that’s not because they go on tumblr or twitter and ship a certain couple. Like wtf. You do you guys. 

All of that to say that, I couldn’t stay away from the Reylo fandom because I just can’t get enough of them. I’ve shipped them since TFA got out (I even whispered to my best friend ‘is it weird I ship those two?’ at the interrogation scene) and never looked back since then. 

Anyways, I have some things I have to say about the movie so here it is: 

I absolutely loved every Rey & Kylo (Ben?) scenes. Driver and Ridley we’re so amazing in this one, I couldn’t help but REALLY stare at the screen for every scene they shared. Seriously, they’ve blown my mind. The movie could have been better in my opinion but everything was perfectly executed and believable, I would go and see it a second time for sure (Overall, I give the movie a 7.5-8/10).

The force bond

It was really well done. It felt like they we’re in the same place at the same time, even though it was totally different scenes. I have to give a thumbs up to Rian Johnson for that. One of my favorite moment is when they touch their hands and Luke explodes the hut. It was sweet and not something I was expecting from them, or at all actually. I loved that Ben is transported into her surroundings instead of his, mostly because the lighting in hers is really warm and just feels safe and comforting instead of his who’s more cold and dreadful. It clearly states that she is okay with him being near her and found a friend who can actually understand her worries when she thought she was alone. They have each other.  I’ve seen some post worried about the last scene, when she is shutting the door of the falcon on him as if destroying the force bond. But the thing is... You can’t destroy a force bond unless one of the two dies. And even then, it feels like a piece missing in you, a wound you can’t heal. Also, when she sees him, she hesitate for a moment, opens her mouth as if to speak but chooses not to. She looks more mad at him for his poor choices dans than hating him just because. She knows he won’t hurt her, she just want to make a point by closing the door that she can control when she can see him or not, shutting him out of her mind like she did at their first force visions. 

Ben’s redemption

It’s happening. I seriously didn’t thought he would be after the little tantrum he did on Crait, but there’s one moment, a little moment that can confirms you that he will be redeem. It is not a scene with Rey though. It’s the scene where Luke and Leia talks when they see each other for the last time. She says something along the lines that her son is not himself anymore and Luke respond by saying that he can still be brought back. I have no idea why, but the fact that Luke finally see this calls back to when Rey tells him that Ben is their only hope after the hut scene. Rey lost that hope at the end of the movie, but Luke finally understands her words and believes it more than ever. Even when he’s in front of Kylo, he tells him that he will always be with him like Han is. I’m pretty sure that we’ll see Luke guiding him and Rey in IX together, because she’s the only one who can bring him back now that Carrie Fisher is gone. Maybe Kylo knowing that his mother is dead will affect him dearly, but I don’t see that happening in the first act of the movie.

 There’s subtle hints here and there that he’ll come back, like the fact that Hux wants to kill him and side eye him when Kylo pulls a tantrum on Luke. My theory for this, is that the real villain of IX will be Hux and not Kylo. The fact that Kylo is practically begging Rey with his eyes to not reject him does not make him the baddest villain, it’s a call for help. If Rey would have taken his hand, Kylo would have turned around and run away with her, so he wouldn’t have lied to Hux about who killed Snoke. Pretty sure he would have exterminate the dude. The guy is still conflicted about himself being in the dark side or light side, and ends up being grey at the end of the movie even if he’s still trying to be dark (we all know he loses his chill when Rey rejects him, not because he just wants to be dark).

I’m not sure yet if Reylo will be endgame yet, I’ll have to wait for more inteviews but they’re not dead for sure. They’ll have a final showdown and all that and then Ben will probably switch side by the end of the second or third act. I just hope they don’t do like Anakin’s story and kill him at the end.

Also, J.J. Abrahams is the one who compared Rey and Kylo to a Princess and a Prince, that star wars was a kind of fairytale and that they wanted to explore that relationship further down the road. Plus, he still had to approve the idea of Johnson with TLJ. If he didn’t want this to happen, we wouldn’t be seeing any romantic Reylo in the movie AT ALL. 

(Sorry if I made some mistakes while typing this, French is my first language so if you didn’t understand a shit of what I said, don’t be afraid to tell me!) 

[whenittt]

good lord, trying to think while my dad is driving like a bat out of hell just because and my dog trying to get comfortable and my headphones not being loud enough to block out everything- honestly i don't recommend it. it's cool i came across your tumblr because for a while i had been checking it more often than i'd like to admit. when i found out i worked with Ciara actually. and i thought i worked with you. turns out there's more than one Justin Green in the world. although there's only one you? which is confusing. fuck, whatever. i deleted the tumblr app. i sorta stopped using other people's twitters to creep on you. mainly because i knew you didn't tweet how you felt. when you'd post pictures of her, i always thought it was weird because you never had shown me off like that. it wasn't like you were showing her off either just stating she was there. i don't know. maybe it's not that deep and i'm just a headass. she posted some pictures of you on your birthday and Monique, my best friend in the entire worlds of worlds told me it was supposed to be me. that she saw me with you in that atmosphere. i didn't really think anything about it. i guess because i've forced myself to be alone. i wish i could tell you all about how things ended with Eric but i don't remember. i blocked it out. i don't write anymore. i shove everything under my bed. i lock it, set it on fire and leave it there. until my hormones switch up and then i get sad and remember things again. i'd like to say i'm content but i think i'm just good at hiding now. hiding how i feel, what i'm thinking. it's become a routine. whether that be healthy or not it's just sorta how it is you know? as for you, today i wanted you with me. i want you to find time to visit me. Oklahoma is full of possible adventures, some of course id like to take alone. some i need to take alone. others with company. you mainly. because you're usually the one i think about when i'm up here. since it's not like you. you're so into these other types of cities and community life. i can find something beautiful no matter where i go. that's why i would want you with me. id point it out. things you might never have noticed before. i could just see it happening and that's what is difficult. i don't know if it ever will. i can't even bring myself to watch Comet anymore. Or One Day?? i think that's the movie. see, like i said. i block shit out. i avoid it all. it's not like me. i don't let my emotions feel anymore. i've let most of them turn to anger. it's very confusing. i think i'm growing up. or growing away. i don't know. i'm not lost though. i'm just traveling. you though you're lost. you know that. when you have ties within people, deep ties and surface ones they clash. because within you, you want the surface one. the one you've formed attachments to. the sleeping together, staying the night. the sex. the adventures and the time!!!! oh the time. it's very different though as hard as you try to form that chemical bond, the connection the whatever the hell you and i had it'll never happen. how? no clue. it just won't. you can walk the face of this earth looking for me in anyone and everyone just like i did you. nothing, don't waste your time. maybe you need her. maybe you don't. right now you're with her. physically and just in a situationship. i can't tell you how many times i've looked at her twitter, or her herself and asked myself why. why her. but then i sat back and asked why Eric just like i'm sure you have. we both have literally been through the same exact thing. finally being with other people. understanding the connection will never be there, somehow staying with them anyway. i know you won't leave her. not anytime soon. you can't. do you know how many attachments and memories that is? you do now. so please try to understand how i felt, last summer when i told you i didn't know what i felt. that's you right now, leaving her in the next two days. texting me and texting her. kissing me but missing her. it's very confusing. that's why i'm not mad or upset with you. i can't be. because i sat there and i was SO torn last summer after i drove off. don't make the mistake i did. don't leave just because i'm here. don't break something that isn't meant to be broken. i know you may feel compelled to. of course i'd love it if you did. but you'd need time. just like i still need time to be alone. you can't just jump ties to ties. life doesn't exactly work that way. you sure did snatch my soul, but i have that hoe back. i've become more in tune with me. i haven't lost you, but i have? in a way. i know this is sorta contradicting. i have a feeling we won't be talking much longer. that you'll realize youll stay with her. and somehow you'll find your way back. for the next two years i'll be in Oklahoma. for the next 39 days though i'll be in Texas. i'm going to go out of my way one time, one time with my best friend and try and see you. not going to say where or how. (oh also one time i drove to the skate park when i was at Cabellas and i didn't see u and i was like hell ya) anyway. Monique and i are gonna go together. if i see you at this place, then i'm meant to you. if i don't then i'm not meant to see you. fuck ok that's crazy as hell. i don't know if i'll go through with it Justin. lmao it's crazy. i go out of my way for you an get all anxious and nerdy. this time though i'm not confused. i understand where you're coming from. i understand when you go back to blocking me. i understand an it's something you have to feel and experience. who am i to take that from you? to ask you to do something i want you to do? i won't. i can't? what the hell thats rude. i just want you to continue your journey. whatever i end up, wherever i end up with you i just can't shake the feeling it's not now. that you'll come back to tumblr and tell me you can't talk to me anymore. and i'm going to say okay and let that be. because you don't need to feel so torn inside. don't leave her and expect to jump into it with me if you do that. give yourself time. let yourself have space. most importantly look yourself in the mirror and be true to you. really, look at yourself and just think. just stand there and think about anything and everything. it's scary and intimidating tho. fyi.