#anyway let me drink my coffee n eat my bagel and actually wake up

[bylertruther]

not to start problems ten minutes after i wake up, but it's okay to need help. it's also okay to need more help than other people. will is strong and capable on his own, yes, but he does canonically say that he will always need mike and he's always welcomed and cherished the way that mike dotes on him, and thanked him for it because he recognizes that it literally has saved his life in so many ways. like... it doesn't make will any lesser or a Bad Stereotype or whatever to need, want, and welcome help from someone else, especially the boy that he loves. it isn't an unfair scenario if this is how mike shows his love, something that he enjoys doing for others because it's in his nature, and if will returns the favor and cares for mike, too, which he clearly does.

i take issue with the way that so many people in this fandom run in the opposite direction of canon (and straight into antithetical and regressive stereotype territory but i digress lmao) because they somehow think that's better representation or whatever. well, guess what, dude!!! not only is that not canon, but sometimes !!!! people !!!! just need more help than others !!! and that's fucking okay !!! it does not make them weak or bad people. it's not a character flaw that you need to overcorrect! it does not make will Bad Representation or whatever! that is the way that their relationship has pretty much always been and it clearly works for them because it's a relationship that is otherwise (when you erase the whole hiding your romantic love thing) filled with honesty, intimacy, and acceptance, making it canonically the most special relationship they have!!!

like. will is entirely loveable and fine just the way that he is. mike has been shown to be an ultra nurturer, and he does it because he wants to and feels it's the right thing to do. he does it without expecting anything in return, and he does it just because he wants to see the other person be well. because if he has the ability and resources to help, he feels it's his duty to. you do not have to erase that and, in turn, erase very important and necessary parts of their character!!!! i promise you that it's fine!!! they like this!!! mike literally lit up like the fucking sun when will said he would always be needed and will said it without any shame, so please for the love of god stop trying to fix something that ain't broke!!!!! mike knows will well enough to care for him in a way that canonically no one else can and in a way that he actually enjoys AND FEELS EMPOWERED BY (!!!!!!!!!) and will is the only one that can know what's up with him without words needing to be said, that makes him feel safe enough to open up, that somehow always knows exactly what to say and what it is that mike needs to hear!!! just stoppppp stop meddling with the text stop stop stoppppppp i Beg u, brother

[queerlynx]

tagged by @elinaline​ lets fucking go 

1. What is the colour of your hairbrush?

my what (have you seen my hair, seriously) 

2. name of a food you never eat?

garlic and i WILL die on that hill 

3. are you typically too warm or too cold?

always too fucking warm. im literally never cold. people ask me 10x/day ‘arent you cold’ even tho ive told them 1000x that no, i am never cold 

4. what were you doing 45 minutes ago?

i think i was still at the shops or maybe getting ready to go to the shops? 

5. what’s your favourite candy bar?

always a slut for a snickers 

6. have you ever been to a professional sports event?

i dont think so? what would i do there anyways ……oh wait no i went along to a professional tennis game w my ex’s brother i think? i can barely remember it was like 6 years ago 

7. what is the last thing you said out loud?

genuinely can’t remember even tho it was probs less than 15mn ago to my flatmate. most likely something about the cat being cute. or maybe it was TO the cat. who knows. 

8. what is your favourite ice cream?

chocolate probably? or banana? banana and chocolate is also good 

9. what is the last thing you had to drink?

lemonade cause thats all i drink 

10. do you like your wallet?

it’s BB-8!!! so yeah of fucking course 

11. what was the last thing you ate?

a bagel w blue cheese laughing cow, ham, and one of them shitty toastie super processed cheese slices 

12. did you buy any new clothes last week?

me and whose money lmaoo i can barely afford food rn 

13. last sporting event you watched?

nope 

14. what’s your favourite flavour of popcorn?

recently ive discovered you can drizzle maple syrup on popcorn and oh boy. other than that probs salted caramel sauce. but like i almost never have popcorn 

15. who was the last person you sent a message to?

im gonna assume this is any message and not just tumblr, in which case it was my fiancé @yearningcurve on whatsapp 

16. ever go camping?

i love camping but last time i went was at least 6 years ago ): 

17. do you take vitamins?

lol no 

18. do you go to church every Sunday?

………moving swiftly on 

19. do you have a tan?

i avoid sunlight like the plague so i’ll let you figure that one out 

20. do you prefer Chinese food or pizza?

probs pizza but i like both 

21. do you drink soda with a straw?                      

i chug it straight from the bottle lol who’s got the time 

22. what colour socks do you wear?

im almost constantly barefoot unless i HAVE to put on shoes and even then i won’t always put socks on if i’m not gonna be outside for long 

23. do you ever drive above the speed limit?

im always p much 5mph above the speed limit (fun fact, the display in cars shows your speed as roughly 2mph higher than it actually is, you can check it against a gps on your phone; AND speed cameras allow for +5mph anyway, so why the fuck wouldnt i be) 

24. what terrifies you?

like in general?? people leaving me, rejecting me, abandoning me, cutting me out, hating me in secret; not being a good person or liked or useful; people thinking i’m annoying or embarrassing or ridiculous or boring; the list goes on 

25. look to your left what do you see?

a very roumd and somft kitty :3 

26. what chore do you hate?

anything administrative or on the phone. i dont think it counts as chores but i genuinely enjoy tidying and cleaning so. 

27. what do you think of when you hear an Australian accent?

i cant tell an australian accent when i hear one 

28. what’s your favourite soda?

lemonade, or fanta 

29. do you go into fast food places or drive thru?

ever since ive gotten a car p much always drive thru cause why would i sit in a crowded fast food restaurant w screeching kids and angry karens when i could enjoy my disgusting feast in my own home??? 

30. who was the last person you talked to?

IRL that’d be my flatmate 

t31. favourite cut of beef?

sirloin 

32. last song you listened to?

Echoes by the Rapture, it played on my shuffle in my car and reminded me of how good Misfits was lmao 

33. last book you read?

it would’ve been over seven or eight years ago. can’t remember. 

34. can you say the alphabet backwards?

z y x w v u t s r q p o n m l k j i h g f e d c b a 

apparently so but it took a while tbh 

35. how do you like your coffee?

i mostly drink flat whites w hazelnut when i drink coffee but tbh despite being a barista w a professional grade home coffee machine i barely ever drink any outside of work lmao 

36. favourite pair of shoes?

grinders boots AND my trans pride converses. can’t pick between them soz 

37. the time you normally go to bed?

really is no normal. anytime between midnight and like up to 5am esp rn during lockdown. i never went to sleep last night actually i’ve been awake for like 28h now 

38. the time you normally wake up?

see above. anytime between 10am and like 6pm depending on when i went to bed. outside of lockdown i would wake up exactly an hour before i have work, so anytime between 5am-11am 

39. what do you prefer sunrise or sunsets?

sunsets but i really love both 

40. how many blankets are on your bed?

one bedsheet and one soft blanket 

41. describe your kitchen plates?

they’re green. nobody is surprised 

42. do you have a favourite alcoholic beverage?

cider. i be drinkin that shit like its juice 

43. do you play cards?

not really altho on lockdown i’ve taught my flatmates a french card/money game called Nain Jaune and they enjoy it so that makes me happy 

44. what colour is your car?

dark red like……burgundy kinda? 

45. can you change a tire?

probably not lol 

46. your favourite province?

province of what lol. either way it’s Brittany. 

47. favourite job you’ve had?

ive only ever had the one lmao so, barista it is 

48. how did you get your biggest scar?

top surgery (’: 

49. what did you do today that made someone happy?

fuck if i know. i guess i made coffee for my flatmates but like i do it everyday so they p much expect it by now i dont think it makes them any happier or like if it does they dont really say it rip 

not a big fan of tagging ppl so just. do it if you wanna lol 

[elejah-wonderland]

How To Hold My Heart/2

Fanfiction

Part 2

AU TVD/TO

Elijah Mikaelson x Elena Gilbert

Short story

a/n: I changed the name of the story from Are We Just Friends? into How To Hold My Heart. Sorry for the confusion. Thanks so much for reading. Luv ya, guys!

tags @rissyrapp20 @dendrite-lover @cassienoble2000 @captainshurley @elejahforever @hides2000 

👔

Morning found Elena, waking up next to Enzo. She rolled her eyes, puffing silently. A Tequila shot too many. Never again. She thought as she now sneaked out of the bad, picking up her clothes and disappeared in the bathroom to get dressed.

Getting out of it in a little while, she was met by Enzo smiling with a charming smirk on-

"Morning gorgeous."

"Hey"-Elena said with a little gulping smile-"I - ahm- this is just one of those things, right? Not that it wasn't good -"

"Relax - yeah."-Enzo said.

"Ok. Ahm - I got to go. Later."

"Later." - Enzo said as Elena kind of rushed out of his apartment.

Elena hated that she let herself go that way. She was a woman, who actually loved the romantic dates. To be wined and dines. Dreamt of a big white wedding. Dreamt of Elijah. Even though she knew he was not into serious relationships. She knew his track record. Aya, Celeste, Sabrina, Camille, Antoinette, Gia, to name but a few, and now Hayley, one of her bffs.

But was Elijah such womanizer, really? Or has he not found the one?

In Elijah's apartment

Hayley woke up finding the bed empty. There was a note, saying 'Glorious night.E.' 

As she wondered in the kitchen, she found coffee ready and a bagel with some strawberries in a cup.

'You got style, I give you that"-Hayley muttered taking the bagel-"No wonder Elena is so into you."

General Flashback for readers

Years back

A church in Chicago

Elijah waited at the altar

The woman he was about to marry left him jilted. Breaking his heart. He vowed not fall for anyone again. Ever. Or?

___

Months later

"Elena left!? Still can't believe it!"- Tristan said to Elijah surprise.

"Yep. She so deserved this promotion- heck she worked her ass off. She is brilliant. Maxwell is so lucky to have her. Smart move"-Elijah said.

"Yeah, and she has to coordinate her own office and still helps me with unfinished business- I am not complaining- but, it's like she lives and breathes law."

"I wished we could have topped Maxwell's offer, but I just couldn’t offer her partnership just yet, even though she is one of the brightest young associates we ever had. Do you know anything- I thought you two were friends?!"- Tristan continued.

"We are friends, but she never told me anything about Maxwell approaching her."- Elijah said.

"Ah, well. Good luck to her"

“Yeah”- Elijah said somewhat pensively, leaving Tristan’s office. He now thought of Elena. 

Flashback

"I will be working late"- Elena said on the phone-"One drink? Yeah, and then we will end up in Nova Scotia like the last time- I've got to get back to work, Kai- Later"- 

"Hhm-"- Elijah coughed a bit making a funny face sort of apologizing for the intrusion on her private call. Elena was sour-faced tossing the phone aside.

"You go - I can go through the files with Klaus and leave you notes about what we discussed"- Elijah suggested.

"No - hey - this is important! We have to slay tomorrow! Hey- thanks- it's just Kai being Kai as always- trying to make the world a carefree place- but in an ass-way sometimes- like now"

"Yeah, Jo said he just doesn’t feel like he wants to ever grow up-" Elijah said.

“Is there something you needed? I am sorry but I don’t have the deposition ready yet. I told your assistant that you will have it at the desk first thing in the morning.”

“It’s not that. I though you might want to grab something to eat?”

“I have no time. But, hey- later tonight - meet you at the bar. It’s karaoke night. And you have to work your bet.” - Elena said.

“I am not singing”- Elijah said.

“You owe me. And I am collecting.”- the brunette smile cheekily and then got up from her desk taking the files Klaus needed and they walked out of her office.

“You are not going to let this go, are you?”- Elijah smiled.

“Nope. You are singing, mister”- Elena tapped on his shoulder with her pen, before she disappeared in Klaus’ office

"Anyway, Saturday- your big day. You and Hayley!"- Tristan said making Elijah snap out of his flashback.

"Me and Hayley!"- Elijah repeated pausing for a minute- and then as if reality descended  upon him he jumped up -"oh, I need to get to my suit fitting! She will kill me! What time is it?"

"12:30"- Tristan said.

Elijah now took off. 

**** In Toronto

Elena was in full working flow and that is the way she coped best with her floating emotions. Nothing was important. As Caroline said- she had shut her love life down. Or has she? How to give up on your heart? How to stop it beat for a love that crept in from nowhere. 

And the Saturday came. The one where Elijah and Hayley married. 

And Elena took a walk the hour the ceremony was taking place. The wind was harsh. But she wanted it to bash her, as if it was some kind of ritual of letting go all of her heart. 

  Does anybody know how to hold my heart How to hold my heart? 'Cause I don't want to let go, let go, let go too soon

I want to tell you so before the sun goes dark How to hold my heart 'Cause I don't want to let go, let go, let go of you

I'm not the kind to try to tell you lies But the truth is you've been hiding from it too I see the end sneaking in behind your eyes Saying things no words could ever do  

She didn't want to let go off of him. Her heart felt like it was literally stopping its beats. She took a deep breath and took a paper heart out of her jacket pocket. She unfolded  it  and slowly ripped it in  half at first and then into tiny pieces  letting it go flying out with the wind. As they flew away  she turned around and walked away.

Tell me how to hold my heart?

[xkpopobsessedx]

Hello love

- Gif belongs to me.

- Kisu Master list 

---

~ 3 years earlier ~

I pulled my scarf up, covering more of my face, silently cursing the chilly fall day and the fact that my coffee maker died this morning, “Stupid cheap coffee pot.” I mumbled walking through the crowds of people; all I wanted to do was drink my coffee while finishing up papers for work, but here I am with my bag secured on my back while I make my way to the coffee shop. As I got closer, the smell of coffee and sweets filled my nose making my stomach growl.

“Aish, finally.” I whined, my eyes reading the sign that said ‘Busy Bean Cafe’, my body finally reaching the front of the shop. My hand wrapped around the handle and pulled it open, the warm air greeted my chilled bones when I stepped in.

The barista smiled at me as I wandered closer to the counter, “Hello welcome to Busy Bean, I can take your order whenever you are ready.” I nodded scanning for seat so I could set my bag down, I quickly found a booth and discarded my bag while taking off my coat and scarf.

I made my way over to the counter, leaning on it as I looked up at the white and black menu boards, “I would like an large iced caramel coffee and the breakfast burrito with hash browns.”

“Anything else?”

I shook my head smiling, “That’s all for me.” I paid for my order, giving the girl my name for when my order was ready.

“That will be ready shortly.” I smiled, thanking her and pushing off the counter, returning to my seat the vinyl squeaking under me.

“All right let’s get this done.” I flipped open a file looking it over while my computer booted up. My drink and food came out just a few minutes later, the steam carrying the smell up to my nose.

“Is there anything else I can get you ?”

I shook my head picking up my food, “I’m all set.” The waitress bowed slightly and left, I took a big bite, a small groan leaving my lips as the taste of the food spread across my tongue. I dug into my work, tuning everything out until the bell on the door dinged again.

A group of six very rowdy boys came in, I picked my coffee up drinking it as I watched them. The younger ones kicked and tripped each other while the older boys looked over the menu. One of them turned around scanning the other people—our eyes met causing me to squeak, but I couldn’t look away, his dark eyes had me hooked.

I set my cup down blushing as I smiled at him, a smirk came across his face as he turned around, the sharp features of his face showing as he looked up to read the menus. I tuned back out until once again a noise close to me caught my attention, “Is this seat taken?”

I quickly looked up from the file that rested in my hands, letting out a yelp, my eyes meeting his once more, only this time he was sitting across from me, “Uh, no.” I laughed feeling my face heat up once again.

“Awesome.” He sunk back against the booth, sipping his coffee.

“Goodness he is handsome.”

“Oh why thank you.” He wiggled his shoulders, pretending to fix his hair.

I slapped the file against my face, “Did I say that out loud?”

“You sure did, I could say the same for you. Only you’re not handsome, you’re way too beautiful for that.”  He placed his arms on the table, leaning on them.

“What?” I laughed squinting at him.

“I’m Kisu, by the way.”

“Y/N.”

“Beautiful name, too.” I shook my head looking down at my computer, my eyes landing on the time.

“Crap! I’m gonna be late for work.” I shut my laptop and began to gather my things.

“Before you rush off like Cinderella, can I by chance get your number?” I grabbed my pen scribbling my number down on a napkin, my heart pounded in my chest watching him smile, “Well Y/N, I’ll be talking to you later. Get to work safe and have a good day.” He slid the napkin in his coat pocket, moving out of the booth.

“Kisu! Stop bugging the pretty girl and come on!” He looked over his shoulder smiling, my knees giving out when he winked at me.

____

~ Two weeks later ~

5:30, the last half hour til I am out of here, out of this uncomfortable desk chair and I can ditch these heels that make my feet throb every time I walk.

My eyes burned as I finished up my last file, “Come on time you can move a little faster.”

Ping ping

I clicked my home button, waking my phone up, a text from Kisu on my screen his nickname making me laugh.

Coffee Bean: There’s a new restaurant I wanna try. Be my date?

I smiled, quickly typing back, my heart pounding at the thought of seeing him again. We have only talked and texted since meeting at the coffee shop.

Me: Currently working until 6, I can meet you at the place?

Coffee Bean: Actually I’d like to pick you up, if that’s okay with you?

Me: That’s okay with me!

I texted him the address of my work and finished things up so I could freshen up, this last little bit needing to hurry up.

____

I just finished putting my things in my car when Kisu pulled up, the soft purr of his cars engine filling the air. The passenger window rolled down with a squeak revealing his smiling face behind large black framed glasses.

“You ready?” He asked, a smile taking form on his full lips.

“I am!” I made sure my car was locked and got into his, my body settling into the leather seats, the woodsy smell of Peru balsam filling my nose.

“So how was your day?” He asked pulling out of the parking garage and onto the main road.

I sank back into the seat looking at him, “It was okay, super busy all day. I had two bites of my food before i had to leave for court.”

Kisu’s head whipped around, “Court?”

I laughed gently grabbing his arm, “I’m a lawyer, I guess we never talked about what each of us do for a job.”  

He laughed, “No we haven’t.”

“I promise i’m not some crazed criminal.” I squeezed his forearm then let it fall back into my lap.

Kisu wiped his forehead laughing, “That's good.”  

“Did I make you a little nervous!?”

“I mean someone as pretty as you could get away with just about anything.”

I clicked my tongue looking out the windshield, “I'll have to keep that on mind, anyways, how as your day?”

“Well it was okay, I was pretty busy, too. Jeonguk showed us a new dance and I worked on some solo music.” He explained, shrugging his shoulders.

“I take it you're not a lawyer.” I laughed

“That I am not.”

I sat there for a second, “Are you an idol?”

“Yes, I’m fortunate enough to be in a group called 24K.”

“That’s awesome, you get to travel and experience all these things!” I turned in the seat so I was facing him more.

“I love it, wouldn’t trade it.” We drove a little bit longer talking about a little bit of everything before reaching the restaurant, “Ahhh we are finally here!”

I looked out my window, ‘The Hive’ etched on the wooden sign came into view, the soft lights making the parking lot glow.

“This place looks amazing!” I unbuckled opening the car door, my eyes taking in the rustic theme.

He held his hand out smiling, “I hope so, but we will find out together.” I couldn't help but smile back as I placed my hand in his.

---

~ One year together ~

Kisu pov

Beep beep beep

I groaned, rolling on to my back, the sound of y/n's alarm pulling me from a sweet slumber. I laid on my hand on her shoulder gently shaking her, “Cheonsa, time to wake up.”

“I hear it, just five more minutes please.”  She tapped her phone silencing the sound.

“It's 4:30, you have court at seven. You should probably shower,you smell like our romp last night, and you might wanna cover the nice love marks I left.”

Y/n sat up quickly clicking on her lamp, “Kisu!” She rubbed her hands over her neck and collarbone, “You better not have, I don't have enough makeup.”

I pulled all the covers on me snuggling down into them, “Maybe I did, maybe I didn't. Anyway, you better get in the shower, time's ticking.”

She huffed rolling out of bed, “All I wanted was five more minutes!”

I laid there, watching her stand up, her bare bottom barely covered by her night shirt, “Does it help that I think you have a nice butt?”

“ A little.” She pouted, disappearing into the bathroom.

“Good because it is!” I rolled out of bed, pulling my pj pants back on, and leaving the bedroom to head downstairs. I wandered into the kitchen my first stop being the coffee maker; I pulled the cabinet door open grabbing the bag of grounds, “One, two, three…” I counted as I poured them into the sitting water and the switch clicked under my finger, making the machine come to life.

“Cup, cup, where is it?” I opened the dishwasher, finding the cup right away, my fingers wrapped around the handle as I also grabbed the lid, sitting them both on the counter, “Okay time to pack a lunch.” Turkey wrap with all the fixings, chips, a little bag of sweets and a couple water bottles.

--

“Kisu what time is it!?” Y/n shouted, jogging down the stairs.

“5:45 babe, you have a little time.” I looked up from what I was doing, “ Wow.”

No matter how many times I have seen her in courtroom clothes, she still takes my breath away. The black pencil skirt hugged her body perfect while her light pink flowy blouse added a touch of innocence.

“What?” She whined, still pouting as she sat her black platform high heels down.

“You are just beautiful no matter what you have on or don't.” I stalked over to her, circling her once, the smell of peach body wash making me weak, “Are you sure you have to go?”

“Oof, I do.” Her hands rested on my chest as I nuzzled into her neck, “We almost have this ca- Ahh Kisu stop!”

I nipped at her collar bone one last time, “I'm sorry.” I lifted my head up looking at her.

“I gotta go get my stuff together.” She mumbled, pushing out of my hold.

I turned her so she was facing the door, “I gathered your stuff. You have lunch, coffee just how you like it and in your favorite cup along with some fruit and bagel to eat when you get to work.”  

“Thank you.” She leaned back, kissing me a few times, “I'll text you if we go to recess at all.”

“Sound good to me, go get them Ms. Lawyer. I love you, have a good day.”

Y/n laughed grabbing her things, “Thank you, I love you too handsome.”

-----

-Two years together -

The crowded airport bustled around us, the boys pulled their luggage behind them as they made their way through the crowd—time for a short tour and a few fan meets.

“You know it's to bad you couldn't come with us.” Jinhong sighed as he walked next to me.

I nodded half smiling, “I wish I could but things just didn't work out.”

“ Kisu wouldn't be so moody if you did.” Cory added, Kisu lifted his foot grazing Cory's backside.  

“I’m not moody.”

I snorted pulling him back to me, “We will be okay, I think”

Kisu nodded sighing, “This time isn't as long.” We finally reached the check in counter and the boys got checked in and luggage was taken, the time to part was now.

“Aww babe, please don't cry!” Kisu pulled me into him, rocking us back and forth, “I will get a hold of you when we get settled in.”

I sniffled nodding against his chest, “I can't help it.”

“Kisu let's go!” His manager shouted

He quickly pulled his mask down, kissing me gently. “I love you so much, and I promise we will talk later.”

“I love you too and we better, now go before we get in more trouble.” One last kiss was placed before he ran to join the group. They all waved before turning to walk away, as I made my way back through the crowd my phone vibrated in my pocket.

Kisu : I miss you already, please get home safe. Also make sure you are eating and sleeping. Do not let work consume you while I'm gone.

Me: 💜I miss you more! You also be safe, see you in a few weeks.

I slipped my phone back in my pocket and left the airport. Now to keep myself busy for two weeks.

[writing-in-the-impala]

You Always Hurt The Ones You Love (Part 6)

Pairing: Bucky Barnes x Reader

AU: Professor!Bucky Barnes/ Teacher!Bucky Barnes

Series Summary: You fall for your smoking hot literature professor Bucky Barnes (quite literally) what follows you never predicted would happen.

Warnings: Swearing, Drinking, teacher-student relationship (but like it’s all legal chill) and mentions of PTSD because it’s Bucky, SLOWburn we’re in for a long ride

Word Count: 3k

A/N: Get ready, this is gonna be one hell of an emotional roller coaster for the next few chapters, enjoy :)

MASTERLIST | SERIES MASTERLIST | Part 1,  Part 2,  Part 3,  Part 4, Part 5

You- Hi, Nat told me that you carried me home all the way from the subway when I fell asleep and I'd just like to say thanks! :)

You texted Bucky in the morning right after Natasha filled you in on what happened after you fell asleep, however she did miss out Bucky's freak out over you being his student and him drunkenly admitting he had feelings for you. You weren't sure if it was the right thing to text him, yes he gave you his number but that didn't mean you could just text him any time, it may have been just for you to send that video.

Bucky- Hi, it wasn't a problem, I'm getting used to carrying drunk you home now ;)

You- Ha Ha 🙄 very funny

Bucky- How's the hangover?

You and Bucky ended up texting for a while before you had to go to work. You went from talking about the party to talking about random stuff, you honestly didn't understand how you could talk to Bucky so much it got so bad that Natasha was noticing. "Who you texting?" She'd ask and you'd just lie but she knew it was Barnes she knew, but she didn't tell you. On Monday you were ill, so I'll that you decided you're staying home, or more like Nat told our to stay home. So you emailed all your professors for the day saying you won't be in due to sickness and straight away Bucky texted you.

Bucky- so I'm guessing you're hungover?

You- Nope I'm actually ill, I know a shocker for a student

Bucky- Get well soon!

You- Thank you, now you should probably get back to work or whatever 😂

Bucky- Pop quiz, I get to sit and do nothing

You- I'm so glad I'm ill

Bucky- 😂

You decided to go back to sleep as you were feeling light headed and tired, when you woke up you finally took a shower for the first time that day, put on some short shorts and an old hoodie, then wrapped yourself in a blanket relocating yourself on to the couch and began watching your favourite TV show. You were surprised to hear a knock on your door so you stood up with the blanket still wrapped around you and you plopped over toward the door you checked who it was and you saw someone turn around and walk away, you recognised him instantly so you opened the door and said "Bucky?" With a hint of confusion.

"Oh good I thought I went to the wrong flat." He said in relief turning around to face you. "Hi." He said with a smirk probably caused by your state of confusion and your outfit that consisted of the puffy blanket.

"Hi, do you wanna come in?" You said still confused, standing to the side to let him in and he walked in. "Not to sound weird or anything but how do you know where I live?" You said in your state of confusion.

"The night after Bruce's party I carried you home, Natasha lead the way." He simply explained while taking his back pack off.

"Ah right." You said remembering the day.

"Anyway I'm not here to take up your time I just thought you'd probably want some stuff since your ill." He began opening his backpack. "So I got you tissues, chocolate I hope you like it, tea, you said you liked, cold medicine and I went to the bistro not too far from here and got you some soup." Bucky said and your jaw litterealy dropped, this was the man of your dreams at that moment you knew.

"Wow Bucky, if this is something you do when your friends are ill I'm gonna be ill more often, thank you so much." You said in amazement.

"It's honestly not a problem, oh and I bought over some work you missed from my and Steve's class so bring that in whenever your back." He said in more of his "teacher" voice.

"I take that back how dare you, I bet this was all a test of you checking if I'm actually ill." You said jokingly plopping down on the couch with a fake angry face and Bucky laughed.

"I bought you soup! Doesn't that like equal out with the fact that I'm making you do work?" He tried to negotiate.

"It's not fair I'm ill I don't want to be writing essays I'm so gonna email you telling you I've lost this." You said turning Netflix back on.

"I'm glad to know you value your education." Bucky said sarcastically and you laughed. "Anyway I've got a meeting to head to so I've got to go, enjoy the soup... and homework." Bucky said with a slight smirk.

"Thanks professor." You said rolling your eyes and saying it as if Professor was the most vile word to ever exist making Bucky laugh. "No in all seriousness thank you so much for this, mostly for the food, I'd hug you but I'm ill." You said standing up and walking him to the door.

"As I said it's not a problem, get well soon." He said with a smile.

"Thanks, bye."

"Bye." He said walking out the door and you shut it trying to comprehend what just happened. You didn't know how to feel, Bucky was perfect, if he wasn't your teacher you would be non stop flirting with him in hopes of him liking you but he was your teacher, he reminded you of it constantly. You did end up finishing his assignment or "homework" li he called it. At the end of the next lecture you had with him you wakes up the the front of the class where he was packing up to give him the assignment. "Hey you feeling better?" He asked noticing it was you.

"Yeah, just a bit sleep deprived because I was finishing this." You said putting the assignment down on his desk.

"Wow, I honestly didn't think you'd ever do it." Bucky said honestly.

"Yeah I wanted to prove you wrong that's why I did it." You said with a smirk and he laughed.

"What did Steve say when you have him the assignment or did you not?" Bucky asked.

"He was basically as shocked as you are." You said and Bucky laughed.

"I knew you'd do it." Bucky said confidentiality.

"No you didn't." You retaliated.

"Yeah, yeah I did." Bucky said with a smile and you rolled your eyes. "Anyway I'm heading to go grab a coffee and since you didn't sleep because of this assessment care to join me?"

"Yeah that would be great actually, I tried to get coffee at home this morning but couldn't." You said with annoyance as the two of you walked out the lecture hall in order to leave campus and go to a nearby coffee shop.

"Woke up too late?" Bucky questioned.

"No Wanda,"

"The one I met in the bagel place?" Bucky questioned.

"Yeah her!" You said happy for some reason that he remembered. "She and her boyfriend are remodeling their apartment so she's staying with me and Nat and it's SO crowded." You said your voice sounding exhausted.

"I can imagine." Bucky said with sympathy.

"The worst part is Vision, Wanda's boyfriend, insists to cook, but it's like he has no taste buds so it's usually bad and we just all eat it pretending that it's good, I miss food with taste." You said with a hint of saddens.

"I mean if you miss food so much you can always come over to mine for dinner." Bucky offered.

"No that's a lot of hassle." You said not knowing if he was being genuine or just trying to be nice.

"It's really not, since Dot I live alone it would be nice to have some company once in a while. I mean Steve and his fiancé visit often but it's just I don't know."

"It feels like they pay more attention to each other than you so you still feel alone?" You asked.

"You nailed that, yeah."

"Yeah I live with Wanda and Vision now, and I feel like I'm just a ghost in my own house watching them live their life."

"Wow this is way to deep before coffee.". Bucky said as you walked into the coffee shop and you laughed. "But honestly the offer still stands.

"I may actually take you up on that, do you want me to buy anything? What food we making?"

"I didn't think that far ahead." Bucky honestly said and you laughed. The whole time you were in the line you were planning what to eat, when you ordered coffee Bucky paid for it and you felt warm inside and happy that he's so kind to you. The two of you found a table and finally decided you'll make spaghetti bolognese for dinner. "Okay so what do you want me to buy and bring with me?" You asked and Bucky pulled a face like he's thinking. "Nothing I think I have everything, maybe something to drink."

"I think I have wine at home, do you like wine?" You asked.

"I love wine but don't tell Steve because I used to call it a girly drink but then I tried it, now it's my guilty pleasure." Bucky explained and you laughed.

"Okay I'll bring wine." You said with a smile.

You arrived at Bucky's that evening around eight, and he opened the door in just jeans, with wet hair and a towel draped around his neck. "Hi, sorry I lost track of time and just got out the shower." He said as he opened the door and it took everything in you not to check him out. "Ooo wine." He said with a smile.

"Hi, yes I bought the wine as promised you said handing him the bottle.

"Please come in, I'm just gonna go quickly, actually chuck some clothes on." He said walking out the room in his mind being shocked that you bit your lip upon seeing him - even though you personally didn't realise- he knew he was attractive as in he had the "good" body at least that's what society thought but he never thought you were in any way attracted to him. Although if he was being honest with himself he did purposely open the door top less in order to see how you'd react. When he came back into the room you were in the couch looking at your phone and making weird faces at it. "What you doing?" Bucky asked walking in.

"Telling Nat I won't be there for dinner and she needs to suffer alone." You simply replied.

"And you're telling her this be making weird faces into your phone?" Bucky questioned.

"No I'm using Snapchat." You explained.

"The all for nudes?" Bucky was extremely confused.

"No okay sit down old man." You said and he sat down next to you. "Look these are filters, the dog one is everyone's favourite." You explained clicking on the classic filter. "If you open your mouth see a tongue comes out." You said and Bucky opened his mouth and laughed unbeknownst to him you were recording and you kept recording for another few seconds while the two of you messed around with the filter. "Okay so now I recorded that, I can save it, post it to my story or send it to a friend or all three." You explained pointing at all the features, and also saving the video.

"But why would someone want a video of us playing with a filter?" Bucky asked honestly.

"I mean no you don't send stuff like that okay look I have a photo message from Nat because it's red and I got a video from my little brother because it's purple. So that's the two things you can send." You explained and Bucky nodded his head. "So Nat sent this." You said clicking on the snap and opening a selfie where she's rolling her eyes with the caption "vision thinks he can make tacos it's going to taste like shit again"

"So now I'd reply, so I take a selfie." You say taking a selfie with Bucky, and saving it just out of reflex. "Then I'm gonna add 'sucks to be you' as the caption, and send it." You said doing what you were saying.

"Right so it's texting plus selfies." Bucky said.

"Yeah or Peter my little brother likes to send videos because he's too lazy to type." You said clicking on a video of Peter, he was walking through the kitchen to the living room talking to his phone. "May is making dinner so if you want to escape Vision come over." He said with a smile. "Oh also." He added excitedly stopping and his eyes going wide. "Look at my new t-shirt it's a maths equation that says find X and X is circled and it says found it, get it? I love it so much." He said with a smile showing off his t-shirt to you and both you and Bucky laughed at Peter. You began to record a response straight away. "You're such a nerd!" You said zooming in on your face and zooming out and Bucky laughed. "But also that'sAReallyCoolTshirtAndI'mTottalyJealous." You said really quickly and under your breath and Bucky skilled as if he was trying not to laugh. "Anyway thanks for the food invite but I got this guy to cook for me." You said with a smile pointing the phone more onto Bucky and his eyes widened in a 'Really?' type of way as he said "that's what she thinks, but actually she's cooking." He said you scrunched your face up and replied. "Mean. See what I have to deal with Peter." And you shook your head before ending the video and sending it straight to Peter.

"Okay I get it, it's a fun way to talk." Bucky confessed.

"Exactly." You said.

"Anyway hungry?" Bucky asked standing up.

"Always." You said and he laughed pulling you up from the couch.

"Okay time to make some food I guess, I'll get the pasta and stuff out can you pour us some wine or whatever you want to drink, glasses are in the cupboard above the sink anything you want to drink is in the fridge." Bucky explained pointing to everything.

"Okay, you want wine I'm guessing." You confirmed and he nodded. The two of you ended up cooking in together harmony but also messing around. You were in charge of the sauce and he got the veg for the sauce ready and started to cook the pasta. Bucky turned on the radio in the background so you two had something to listen to although the two of you spent most of the time cooking talking, with moments where you two would sing along to songs or dance along. "Okay I think the sauce is ready." You said tasting it, the pasta was already done so Bucky was just sitting on the island counter behind you. You turned around with a bit of the sauce in the wooden spoon and bought it up to Bucky's lips. "Try it and see if you like it." You said and he did, his eyes going wide. "That is amazing!" He said and you smiled turning off the cooker. "Okay dinner is ready then." You said and Bucky jumped off the countertop. The two of you ate dinner with some light conversation it was really nice and you honestly forgot this was your teacher, it felt more like a date. "Do you want help with washing up?" You asked after dinner.

"I made you cook I'm not gonna make you clean too what kind of a monster do you think I am." Bucky said and you laughed.

"Technically we both cooked." You pointed out.

"I put water, salt and rice in a pot and let it heat up. That's all I cooked." Bucky said and you agreed with him.

"Okay fair point." You said. "Anyway I should probably slowly get going because I have an early shift at work tomorrow." You said with a hint of sadness you were really enjoying your evening.

"Okay I'll walk you to the door." Bucky said after putting the dishes in the sink. "Thank you for coming over it was nice to have someone around here again yano." He said opening the door and not making much eye contact.

"Honestly my pleasure it was nice to have a peaceful and tasty meal unlike anything that I'd ever get at home with Vision and Wanda around." You said and Bucky laughed.

"It tasted good because you cooked it." Bucky said and you shrugged. "Anyway have a good day at work tomorrow and thanks for coming once again." Bucky said as you stood in the doorway.

"Thank you for inviting me." You said as the two of you hugged goodbye. "Bye." Oh said in the hug before something unexpected happened as you pulled out from the hug Bucky leaned in and kissed you before immediately pulling away.

"Fuck! I'm so sorry." Bucky said in fear and shock and you didn't reply. "Old réflex from back when I was with Dot, I'm sorry bye." Bucky said closing the door as you still stood there shocked. He shut the door in your face and you just stood there for another few seconds trying to comprehend what happened. Professor Bucky Barnes just leaned in kissed you on the lips softly and immediately pulled away in embarrassment. It was a reflex he said that, it didn't mean anything you knew that but it didn't stop you from wishing that the kiss lasted a bit longer so you could kiss back so you could feel his chapped lips for longer however you knew how extremely wrong that was. When you gathered your thoughts from the shock you began to walk out the apartment building but you still heard a final "FUCK! FUUUUUCK!" Come out of Bucky apartment before hearing a crash. You decided to keep walking knowing that going back and asking if he was okay would just cause more awkwardness. You dreaded going back to class.

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