#anyway just bugs when people act like their (probably better) more socially conscious definitions of alignments are like
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the idea that thinking alignment is a bad game mechanic = ānot being able to handle conversations about moralityā is a fucking wild take
#i dont hate alignment#but i do think trying to apply it to anything besides dnd#is doomed to fail#because the only reason it makes any sense in dnd is as a basis for a fantasy cosmology#and at the end of the day it doesnt do a very good job at that#because while functioning as the base understanding of reality within this universe#it also fails to acknowledge itself as a humano/euro-centric realization of morality#the centerpoint of alignment is not flexible or considered in relation to different cultures#alignment (as conceived) says bad is XYZ and good is getting rid of XYZ#ABC races do XYZ so are bad#you are therefore only good if you oppose ABC#alignment does not ask 'what does goodness or lawfulness look like in a goblin society?'#it says 'goblins are chaotic evil. if you are good you are obliged to kill goblins'#obviously you dont have to play your game that way#and there has been enough pushback against that mindset that the text is finally starting to reflect a new attitude#but it still remains the core of the concept#honestly i dont think there is any choice wotc could make moving into 5.5 regarding alignment that i would be totally happy with#leaving it as is or getting rid of it both feel like bad options#changing the way it is implemented is the obvious answer but there is no way to do that that will make everyone happy (duh)#anyway just bugs when people act like their (probably better) more socially conscious definitions of alignments are like#them /figuring out/ the real meaning of it and what they are supposed to be#rather than admitting this is how they like to homebrew alignment to better fit with their own sense of ethics#that is not really what the people i am responding to in this moment were doing#but something i see often enough
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200 followers special
includes: multiple characters (would add more tags but.. i reached 30 ;;)
your name is shortened to y/n, they/them pronouns
notes: thank you for 200 followers! this isnāt really going to be that long, but im just doing the characters i really like so ;; ALSO I MIGHTāVE GOTTEN KIRIāS ENTRY A LITTLE WRONG so ugh sorry ;;
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shouto todoroki
ā THE OBSERVANT SIMP
from the start, heās quite oblivious to certain things, (social ques, signs of romantic interest, etc.)
but when heās observant with someone, then that totally means youāre special to him. does he realize how much he pays attention to you? hmm.. maybe?
heās going to be the first one that notices youāre hungry, even if you donāt realize it yourself. heās quick to grab a snack and break it open to you
same thing with being thirstyā if he notices that your water bottle is empty, heāll quickly find the nearest vending machine and buy a bottle.
temperature is also no problem. he can immediately tell whenever someoneās cold; but he usually helps you first
too hot? heās slowly putting down the roomās temperature
too cold? his left palm starts emitting some sort of heat in your direction, hoping it creates some sort of aid
if your shoelaces are undone, and/or he notices that thereās a button undone on your shirtā heāll fix it for you
will ask to take your pictures on dates, and heāll also help you pick out the best photo (not that any photo of you is short of any beauty)
in shortā people will notice that heās actually a big simp for you; because of how observant he is with you specifically.
katsuki bakugou
ā THE TSUNDERE SIMP
just because heās simping for you doesnāt mean heāll treat you any differently. bakugou will be bakugou, and you eventually learn how to adapt to that.
but even so, his simp habits slip out sometimes.
when heās cooking, heāll accidentally make too much to eat, and heāll coincidentally put the extras in another box and hand it to you
heās a good student, even with studies. but would he say heās a good teacher? hm. probably not
but if he notices you need help, heāll sigh, feining annoyance as he decides to tutor yāall, because those āidiotsā are hopeless
rolls his eyes when he sees food on your cheek, but heāll grab a tissue and wipe it off for youā claiming how youāre so messy.
heāll act like he hates hearing your āannoying ass singingā but heāll lean against the doorway and listen to you rock out to whatever song youāre singing to.
denki will call him a simp for looking after you, and bakugou will just yell at him to āSHUT UPā >:T
he secretly likes taking care of you. his words arenāt the softest thing in the world, but his actions make up to it.
izuku midoriya
ā THE DETAILED SIMP
as katsuki bakugou would call him; he is a nerd
he definitely meant that as an insult, but his input on detail makes it very useful in things like relationships
he remembers every detail of your quirk, your limits, potential secret moves.
it wouldāve been stalker-ish, if it werenāt for the fact that deku does this out of admiration for his s/o
so if you so happen to collapse due to overusing your quirkā deku has a detailed plan on what to do. itās almost scary.
he puts detail in a lot of things, anniversary gifts, birthday gifts, and so on.
dekuās also the type to plan things weeks before it actually happens. like.. planning out the perfect birthday gift
and with this, his memory is really good. so itās very unlikely that heāll just suddenly forget anniversaries and birthdays.
i hc deku as a bad cook, so he eats takeout food more than his homemade food
but heās takes note of your allergies, your dislikes with foodā and he finds himself mumbling small details to recall what you like
when you walk out in pretty/good outfits for dates
his face will break out into shades of redā suddenly rambling all the good details of your outfit, complimenting you while heās at it
āy/nās looks fantastic as always. i might die from their beautyā
if anyone calls him a simp, heāll be really embarrassed about it. āme? a s-simp? is that a bad thing?ā
just tell him itās fine.
denki kaminari
ā THE HYPEMAN SIMP
a big simp
like.. really big
he worships the ground you step on, and hypes up everything you do
yāall know when irene from red velvet literally breathed in north korea, and the crowd just
*claps*
yeah, thatās denki to you
itās so blantly obvious that heās simping over someone, and everyoneās just kinda used to it at this point
heās just a big fanboy sometimes
whenever youāre sparring with someone, heās always in the background like
āgo s/o!!ā š¤©
and he has tendencies to go a little easy on you like.. whatās he gonna do when you get electricuted??
but that doesnāt mean heās never seriousā nah.
there are times where heās just a little bashful just being in your presence
sneaking glances your way, as he silently fanboys about you in general.
ās/o looks really good today. they always look good but !!ā
when yāall werenāt together, the bakusquad was just tired of the constant romantic pining
it was really obvious that he was simping back then, and theyāre not so sure as to how you didnāt say anything about it
mina always called him a simp
so yeah!! it was a big relief when you got together with him. he never makes you feel terrible, because heās always your #1 hypeman.
eijirou kirishima
ā THE HELPING SIMP (rip idk what to call this)
i didnāt really know what kinda name i went for this one but let me carry on
kiri upfront is very confident, and friendly. he never shows a mean side to anyone,
and there are rare cases of him being bashful
heās kinda almost like a golden retriever? since heās always nice and friendly to everyone
but then when you enter the room; he suddenly goes quiet, and heās left alone with his rather loud thoughts about you
he didnāt really know how to properly approach you at first
but him being kiri, heās still rather friendly to you (for now)
when heās messing around, practically sharing one braincell with kami and sero
and then you suddenly walk inā he snaps out of his foolishness, and greet you with his very warm smile
āhey y/n!ā he waves at you, and he hopes you donāt mention the teasing look on both kami and seroās face
sometimes when heās doing his close combat training, and he notices that heās getting too close to you
heāll be like āwoah man, maybe we should move locations.ā bc he doesnāt wanna hit you by accident ;;
kirishima prefers to not stand near you when his hair is all spiky. like heās never conscious about it, until heās around you
man poked sero with his hair before, and he doesnāt want to do that to you
kiri always looks at your hand, just to see if itās occupied with something. his thoughts linger to what your hand might feel like
ātheir hand looks really.. soft. argh! i shouldnāt be thinking about these kind of things in public! im sorry y/nā
bakugou really only notices kirishimaās simping ways
bakugou always mentions the fact that kirishima goes really silent whenever youāre aroundā
and heās secretly contemplating on having you around more so he can just shut up ćć»Ā°Ā°ć»(ļ¼_ļ¼)ć»Ā°Ā°ć»ć
moving aside all of that, kiri always carries your things.
youāll beg him to give you at least one thing, and heāll say no because itās ānot manly to let someone carry all of this.ā
if youāre sad, heās the first one to cheer you upā reassuring you that everything will be okay.
kiriās just wants to be at your service at all times! itās manly to help people, right?
hitoshi shinsou
ā THE DISCREET SIMP
no one would be able to tell that heās simping for someone
because unlike kaminari; heās not like IM HITOSHI SHINSO AND IM ACTUALLY A SIMP
heās a lot more discreet, and no one has really caught on, besides you and kaminari of course
heās a lot less sarcastic with you, asking you about anything thatās happened instead of just being there
he prefers it to hear you talk. the way each word and syllable rolls off your tongue smoothly, and the way you use your hands to emphasize things
heās amused.
oh and the way he looks at you? almost any normal person can sense the simp in him pop out (heās so contained though)
heās definitely the person thatāll get rid of any bug thatās terrifying youā even though heād normally just leave it to them
heāll do it, regardless if itās the biggest fucking spider heās ever seen, or the smallest spider
heāll do it to make you feel safe.
he has these random spurs of compliments during the day
the source mainly comes from his staring habit
and theyāre just so unexpected and out of the blue. hitoshiās amused whenever he sees your reaction to his compliments
like.. you could be really frustrated about something, and heāll just go āyour eyes are pretty.ā thatās his discreet method tO MAKE YOU TEMPORARILY DISTRACTED FROM THE ISSUEā
call him a simp, whatever. itās true anyway so he doesnāt why should he be ashamed of it?
heās discreet about it, since itās your business and his business. but you can definitely feel his feelings loud and clear
neito monoma
ā THE 180 SIMP
āiām not a simp!ā
[you enter the room]
*nervous laughter*
he had his last laugh, and he never thought heād be this soft around someone.
especially if youāre from class 1-A like.. i became the thing i hated, ugh.
relentless teasing is amped but this is his way of making sure you remember him loud and clear
but heāll never tease you in a condescending wayā like how he torments the rest of class 1-A
thatās reserved for them š
always compliments you, thatās the first thing he does when he sees youā
and theyāre never generic compliments either
āitās nice to see you here, y/n! you make the world better day by day!ā
āiām still wondering what youāre doing in class 1-A, youāre much better than them!ā
everyone secretly wonders how you got monoma to like you
monoma canonically likes pastels. spread the word
so sometimes, youāll walk over to your deskā and youāll just see this random pastel ornament sitting on your desk
you know who itās from
whenever monoma starts becoming annoying, kendo will definitely use you as a weapon to make him shut up
heāll be laughing at the expression on his face, thinking heās absolutely winning at this
but the smile is wiped off his face when he hears āok go on, iāll tell y/n about your antics.ā
āno, no! iāll behave now, please donāt tell y/n.ā
class 1-b literally use you as blackmail whenever monoma acts up, and itās because of how different he is around you
like.. his personality takes a 180, (besides the obvious teasing) itās alarming
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Trust - Kataang Week 2019
A/N: As you can see, these all seem to exist in their own separate worlds. In the last one, Aang and Katara were married young; in this one, they are still not married. But thatās the beauty of fanfiction, right? Anyway, hope you enjoy.
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Katara was pretty used to the way women looked at her boyfriend by now.
Aang had always been cute: big expressive eyes in an almost cherubic face. But in the last few years he had definitely moved from the āadorableā phase of childhood and even through the āeveryone-goes-through-itā phase of early adolescence to now being a very attractive young man. Katara definitely appreciated what Aang had grown into, and in a smug sort of way, self-congratulated herself on her āforesightā to snag him when he was still so young and awkward (although that choice had really had very little to do with āsnaggingā him, and everything to do with having fallen in love with her best friend.) But even she would admit to herself that the fact that he was such a looker now was satisfying.
Aang had a very distinct look ā from his shaved head to his uniquely air nomad facial features (which now equated to one-of-a-kind), to his orange and yellow robes and his blatant blue full-body tattoos ā everything about him was exotic and striking. It was pretty much impossible for Aang to go anywhere in public without being recognized. Even when he did try to ācover upā to blend in, that generally led to strange clothing (hard to cover hands and foreheads up nonchalantly) and something about it bothered him; he didnāt like doing it. Sometimes it beat being mobbed, but most of the time Aang just went through life as himself, which came with the natural consequence of too much attention.
Katara knew that Aang was gregarious and enjoyed meeting new people. But sometimes it did get pretty annoying to deal with her boyfriend being continually fawned over by fan-girls. Aang, for his part, was often oblivious; when he did catch on that a girl was into him, he instantly got awkward, self-conscious, and a bit bumbling.
Katara considered herself a much better gauge for flirtatious behavior than Aang. Even now at nearly seventeen, Aang often erred on the side of guileless and overly trusting; probably since his view of the world was similar to the way that he himself behaved. He was pretty guileless, so his natural assumption was that everyone else was as well. Even after years of political meetings and debates, Aangās basic MO was to be transparent and honest. He wasnāt stupid (as a boy he hadbe manipulated and pawned in the political arena by conniving leaders with forked-tongues and personal agendas, but since then he had wizened up and learned to stand his ground); however, he still opted for openness and sincerity in his own dealings. And being a bit shrewder in politics did not necessarily translate directly into social and romantic arenas. And when it came to women, Aang could be infuriatingly naive sometimes.
Like the time last year when the daughter of their host in a small village inland from the foggy swamp had waited for Aang in Appaās stable. When he came to feed Appa, the girl started untying her sash and taking off her robe. And what had Aangās response been? āOh, I didnāt know you were changing in hereā¦ Iāll just go thenā¦ā Katara had dropped her head into her hand in exasperation when he told her about it. Aang, what were you, raised by monks in an all-male monastery or something?
Or like right now, how Aang sat surrounded by three very forward, uppity Ba Sing Se noble girls; the girls were dressed to the hilt, but with the way they were leaning into him, they looked like they were not committed to staying soā¦ Katara huffed as she approached their table at the outdoor cafĆ©. She and Aang had both donned Earth Kingdom green, in an effort to blend in just a little. But Aang had not worn a hat, and even if he had, he was likely to be discovered anyway.
As Katara approached the table with two small bowls of soy sauce and vinegar in her hands, she saw that one of the girls was in her seat. Her blood started to simmer as she shouldered her way to the table, setting down the sauce bowls.
āOh hi, Katara! Girls this is my girlfriend, Katara! Katara, this is Qing, FengFeng and Miling.ā
The girls smiled, regarding Katara with veiled distain, looking her up and down before tossing their heads and turning their giggling attention back to Aang.
āYour girlfriend, huh?ā one of them said.
āWeāve heard so much about you... Katara, was it?ā the one sitting in her seat spoke with a fake smile and sickly sweet voice. āI didnāt realize you two were stilltogether.ā She said the word āstillā like it was some great annoyance.
Katara matched her tone, the two understanding each other perfectly, āYeah, we are stilltogether. And you three are interrupting our date.ā Then with an even sweeter voice, āNow run along now!ā
The girls huffed and shuffled to leave, telling Aang how āhappy they were to meet him!ā and how they āhoped to run into him again sometime soon!ā, touching his arms, and one of them even running her hands along his shoulders as they jingled away.
Aang rubbed the back of his neck as Katara sat down, āYou didnāt have to be so rude to them, Kataraā¦ā
Kataraās jaw set, āwell you didnāt have to be so nice.ā
āThey just said they wanted to thank me for ending the war. You know how that kind of thanks makes me uncomfortable, but it would be ungracious not to hear them out. Besides, I think they were just being friendly.ā
āUh-huh. Right. And what about that girl last night? What was it she asked you? Where exactlyyour tattoos go?Aang, donāt be naĆÆve. These women all have ulterior motives.ā
Aang blushed, āyeah, thanks for rescuing me last night. I was afraid she was going to ask to see them nextā¦ā
āSee them? Aang, come on, she wanted a whole brail tour.ā
Aang sunk deeper in his seat, his whole face turning red. āKatara! Why would you assume that?!ā
āAang, I just donāt get it. These girls hound you all the time. Would it kill you to just tell them to back off?ā
āI donāt think they mean anything by it. Theyāre just curious. I donāt want to offend anyoneā¦ā
Katara grunted in disbelief. Aang was the ultimate people-pleaser: way too polite and worried about causing disagreements. This went beyond the Air Nomad cultural principle of pacifism; this came down to Aangās own personality. He cringed at conflict and was always quick to step in as a peacemaker. Even when it came to women who threw themselves at him with varying degrees of blatancy, Aang had been known to go to ridiculous efforts to avoid confrontation with them rather than deal with it head-on.
āThey are notjust curious, Aang. They are flirting with you! I donāt want to be the jealous girlfriend here, but come on! One of us has got to have her head screwed on strait!ā
Aang somehow managed to look simultaneously disbelieving and guilty. But then his expression shifted to a wicked smirk. āYou think Idonāt get it? But what about you? What about how guys are picking up on you all the timeand you act like you donāt even know its happening? Seriously, Katara, talk about calling the tea-kettle black!ā
āThat rarely ever happens. And besides, they donāt mean anything by it.ā
Aang hooted in disbelief, āWhat?! How can you even saythat? What about just this morning in the market on our walk over here? I let go of your hand for one minute and the vulture-wasps descended!ā
āAang, I was shopping. Its their job to wait on me ā they want me to buy their wares.ā
āUh-huh. Now whoās naive? That one guy didnāt have to stand there stroking your hand just to help you put on a bracelet.ā
Katara looked a little shocked, āAang! He was just doing his job; and besides, he was way too old for me.ā
āDoesnāt matter. He was hitting on you. And not even subtly. Man, Katara, I canāt believe you couldnāt see that!ā
Katara sat puzzled for a moment as Aang continued.
āAll I have to do is look around; guys are checking you out all the time. I know I canāt really blame them (I mean, who wouldnāt? Youāre gorgeous, Katara!), but it still bugs me. I want to tear their eyes off you and tell them to stop thinking what theyāre thinking.ā
āAnd how do you know what theyāre thinking? Youāre just getting worked up over nothing.ā
āBelieve me, Katara, I know what theyāre thinking.ā Then he looked away shyly, a guilty blush rising to his ears.
Katara melted a little. Aang was so adorable when he was jealous. Katara reached out her hand, placing it on his. He turned his palm up to meld with hers, bringing her hand up to his lips for a moment; an air of sobriety falling between them.
Katara ducked her head to catch his eye. āBut none of that matters. We trust each other, Sweetie.ā
Aang looked at her, more intensity in his eyes than she expected, āI trust you. Its themI donāt trust...ā
āExactly!ā Katara jumped on this, āThatās exactly how I feel when I see these grasping women swooping down on you, while you act completely non-the-wiser!ā She blew out a forceful breath, āand with this separation coming upā¦ I justā¦ I donāt know.ā She struggled to put her feelings into words, āI guess I just canāt help but feelā¦ apprehensive.ā
Tomorrow morning Katara would be leaving Ba Sing Se for the South Pole. The ten-year anniversary of her motherās death was coming up, and in the Water Tribe, that was a ceremonial year. All the loved ones of the deceased needed to gather for Ten Days of Remembrance, each day being specified with specific activities for honoring the dead. The final evening, the closest family members would convene in the tent of the Shaman who would lite incenses made from special herbs and perform the Final Ritual. People were sometimes known to see the souls of their deceased loved ones on this special night. But it was believed that after this ten-year milestone, the soul finally left this world for good, never to visit again. This was an important and sacred ritual, and she needed to be there ā for her Dad, but also for herself.
Aang had to stay here in Ba Sing Se. The new Fire Nation Ambassador had figuratively burned a slew of political bridges in the Earth Kingdom, offending nearly everyone in King Kueiās advisory cabinet. The woman meant well, and she wasnāt wrong in her opinions actually; but she was brash and outspoken, and like her element, pretty hotheaded. Things had gotten so heated in the last meeting that Aang had sent for Iroh to come from his teashop to talk some sense into his Nationās ambassador and try to smooth over some bristling Earth Kingdom egos. As much as he didnāt like it, his life was not his own, and he simply could not leave Ba Sing Se right now. And frankly, he was over due for a scheduled meeting with Zuko in the Fire Nation as well; so as soon as he felt that the tenuous situation here was safe enough to leave, he would go directly there. So any thoughts of going to the South Pole with Katara were doubly out.
So the two of them were looking at anywhere from a month to two months away from one another. They had not spent this much time apart sinceā¦ well since before they met.
Aang squeezed her hand, āYeah, I feel apprehensive too. I hate being away from you, Katara.ā Aang picked up his stool and brought it around the table, so the two could sit closer, his knees flanking hers as they sat facing one another. āBut I donāt want you to worry about me andā¦ other girls. Thatās just ludicrous! You know youāre the only girl for me, Sweetie.ā
Katara grasped both of his hands, looking at them as she placed them in her lap, āI know. I trust you, really, I do. I guessā¦ I guess I would just feel a little better if you didnāt, I donāt know, let them flirt with you like that. I donāt like it when Iām here, butā¦ I mean what will they be like when Iām not here to chase them away?!ā
Aang brought his hand up to her face in affection. āWhat can I do to make you feel better?ā
A sly smile crept up to Kataraās mouth, āyou could try using firebending to make yourself hot so they canāt touch youā¦ā
āMake myself hotā¦?ā Aang asked incredulously.
āNo! I mean youāre already hotā¦ (thatās kind of the problemā¦) No, what I meant is make your body hotter so thatā¦ā Katara groaned as she dug herself deeper in this faux pas. āThat doesnāt sound right! I mean, justā¦ just burn them if they touch you! Or, heat up your skin so they burn their hands if they touch youā¦ or somethingā¦ā she trailed off lamely.
Aang laughed right out loud. Clearly amused by Kataraās mis-speech implying that somehow ābeing hotterā would help with his lady problems. āYou want me to start burning peopleā¦? If they flirt with meā¦?ā
Eventually Katara laughed too, admitting that her idea was ridiculous. But her feelings were genuine and she wanted to communicate that with Aang. āOk, so no need toā¦ burn anyone. But Aang can you really try to be a little more direct with these girls? Yes, they are being way too forward, and you arenāt exactly inviting them to hit on you, butā¦ well, you arenāt exactly discouragingthem eitherā¦ā
Aang sat back a little, stunned that Katara felt that way. Katara spoke again, āI mean, think about this in reverse, Aang. If I had been sitting there and three handsome guys were hovering around me when you went for saucesā¦ how would youfeel?ā
Aang sat for a moment, eyebrows drawn as he contemplating that.
Katara went on, āand how about if they were putting their hands on me like those girls did with you?ā
Aang answered immediately, āIād be steaming.ā Then cocking a smile, āMost likely literally.ā
āSee! Well thatās how I feel!ā
Aang looked at her again, kindness emanating from him, āIām sorry, Katara. I hadnāt thought about it like that, from yourpoint of view. I donāt like them flirting with me either, but I just donāt want to offend anyoneā¦ā He took her hands in his again, ābut I guess I amoffending someone when I let it happen. Iām offending you, and youāre the last person I want to hurt, Katara!ā
āAang, I know you are loyal to me, and I trust you. But I donāt like feeling jealous, and I do think there are things you could do to lessen the problem.ā
āOkay. Iāll be better. Iāll be more upfront in discouraging women who hit on me.ā Aang looked at her with a crooked smile, āand what about you? If Iām supposed to burn these girls, does that mean you have to freeze the guys that hit on you?ā Aang added cheekily.
Katara laughed, and Aang added, āThen when we are finally back together after this time away from one another we can compare casualty-counts; sound fair?ā
āDeal!ā
ā¦ā¦ā¦....
A/N: Anyone else feel like Aang is a little oblivious to girls flirting with him? We saw it in the show a little, and even more in the comics. I think that Katara would have a problem with this (and you canāt really blame her too much, right?)
Anyway, please leave me your thoughts!
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Strange, Embarrassing, and Small but Lingering Problem that could use some Advice
Sorry if it becomes rant-ish but i'm trying to include as much detail as i can so pls read all. Think i could use some advice. Am young so not much wisdom, especially in regards to sex which this stems from
Kicked off around 12-14 months ago. Girlfriend of a better part of a year said lets go straight to sex (bypassing other sexual acts). Went badly, couldn't get it up, happened a few more times. Was first few times trying to have sex. I believe this was due to us not being comfortable with each other, with sexual acts in general (hence bypassing), and rushing into it when we were kinda apprehensive at heart. This combined with the cycle of performance anxiety caused it to happen again and again with her. Although it eventually got better as we got more comfortable with everything, but then there were other hurdles to jump with her this time that aren't worth getting into. But before these all these hurdles could be jumped we broke up because of me getting cheated on repeatedly (cucboi i know).
Days pass and i'm able to deal with the break up but the sexual fuck ups and events linger with me and has been bugging me ever since in some form.
Initially it bugged me as i thought there was something wrong with me, and feelings of inferiority and doubt about future situations mainly sexual, were on my mind a lot. Whenever something sexually suggestive would enter my mind it would be met with a wave of anxiety.
Time went on and after failing to ignore it i did more research on performance anxiety etc etc, with me telling myself "well simply put if we don't want to do something, don't force yourself too" and other basic shit about keeping calm, and got more to grips with why it fucked up in the first place, which kinda calmed the anxiousness, but eventually it came back into the fold.
Now as everyone is getting older and more mature, and sex becomes a more common normal thing to experience for people, the anxiousness has only increased. Things are always on my mind now, i think a lot about future situations where i'm gonna fuck up, about the need to just get out and overcome it and find someone to stick my dick in but how this would fuck up, about how i think i'm digging myself into a hole where i'm forever going to be too panicked to get it up, about how this kinda makes me inferior. I think i may stress about the future quite a bit anyway but who doesn't
This all drains from my confidence and charisma and i don't like it. I'd like to think i'm a good person, iv'e definitely got a libido seeing as i beat my dick all the time, I've never had any real proper anxiety or mental health issues, maybe a perfectionist to a degree, quite socially conscious (never been terrible though, quite outgoing, but aren't all young people socially conscious), wasn't raised in a strict childhood, didn't have a complete lack of sex ed. I just want to stop having my confidence and charisma drained by this retarded problem and live as a teenager, I'm not saying i want to become an animal under the sheets, i just want to be able to have experiences and not have anxiousness about them, i'm never going to get these years back once they are gone and i don't want them dominated by anxiety. I also couldn't really go for a long term gf as i have very little spare time, cash, and am probably moving from my city to a university in a year or so, not ruling relationships of some kinds out though
Any advice would help, i just want to get something done about it, will answer any questions if need be. Apologies to people on here with more serious problems feels like i'm being insulting with this but i had no one else to ask, too embarrassed to do so
Edit: btw pretty much quit porn by now too
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