#anyway im sure im preaching to the choir. but this is something for which i feel quite strongly

[sharkthey]

queer is defined by The Norm and you do not have to align with Norm whatsoever-- even to align away from it.

It is actually way queerer to exist in no relation to it. Just do you, and let the words follow as needed.

while I’m saying controversial things: I don’t really care what makes people arrive at the decision to transition or to date someone of the same gender or whatever. I don’t care if someone completely medically transitions whilst identifying as cis and I don’t care if someone gets in a consensual same gender relationship without identifying as gay or bi or whatever. I don’t care if someone deliberately chooses to be gay or trans or queer of any stripe. I don’t care. as long as everyone involved is happy and safe and not hurting anyone? cool. chill. live your life

[sanjidysphoria]

You’re so right about the Fyodor thing. Like, I think he’s interesting in concept but in execution he feel SO flat for me. It felt like it was taking forever to build up to how cool and smart he is and then he died. I get that maybe he isn’t dead but it’s definitely not good writing to have an entire arc that supposedly masterminded by him and his organization and every character except for him (and dazai) is doing something more interesting.

I love some plots, characters, experiences, etc. I’ve had regarding BSD but in my opinion, Fyodor is an example of one of the things I hate most about any media: stories that show off how clever/smart they are. Not everything has to be some great masterminded spectacle. Like you said, the perfect crime arc was really entertaining and it was much more self-contained and well thought out. Idk if Asagiri is just concerned about being predictable (lol sorry girl but you’re not doing well) but at this point it’s kinda like I’ll take predictable, well-written, thoughtful, “cliche” stories over whack ass bullshit that’s hanging together by a thread.

I know I’m preaching to the choir here but it was nice to see someone else talk about how Fyodor just did not work for them.

THANK YOU FOR THIS ASK this is us rn

anyway yeah i feel like fyodor couldve been a really cool character, and for me he kinda was in the beginning i guess but then it fell so flat!! i much more adored characters that were introduced by him like mushitarou and nikolai and i dont know if that was what asagiri was going for?

and for the record i do not think he's dead. so little is known about him, his ability, his backstory and bsd always makes sure to reveal these before the /villain/ gets busted. i may be talking out of my ass here but yeah i dont think he died (if he did then im a clown haha).

HOWEVER neither of these possibilities are good.

if he did die then what was the build up for?

if he didnt then we are still stuck in the neverending dazai vs fyodor cycle which im quite frankly sick of.

[evellys--blog]

lol haven’t posted in a while, I got some new thoughts going around I just kinda wanted to share :/

Now one, I’m losing hope quick that Jasmine has any chance of winning. I fully support voting for her still, but a, she’s still way off cost-wise for the ballots, so unless she summons like 500k soon shes going to have to drop out, which I def understand that rant at the end of the last live there, bc I want her to run, and to win!! but then b, I feel like ppl are both confused abt her policies and/ or just won’t vote for her, which is also sad and kinda tied into the prev problem :/

Also, two ig, I feel just straight up dissolutioned with politics and philosophy. Like I had this talk with my friend abt politics and it almost made me give up this art project I was doing, then I talked with another friend and I felt lucid again, but it’s just like, annoying thinking through things, esp with the last thing I was researching, rabbit-holing lol, was accelerationism, but specifically Mark Fisher’s whole line of thought and anti-hauntology and all that, and it just came back to an idea of solidarity essentially, within consciousness. I wrote this crazy 4k word memoir-essay-analysis-email to about my highschool life, a fanfic I was working on, and the books this guy wrote I was addressing, Matt Colquhoun, after reading his books, and it felt incredibly lucid and it’s probably the best piece I’ve ever written, I might post it some day but it’s very personal and kinda only works w the context between me and the guy, idk. Anyways, the point is that I read all those books, I almost read Libidinal Economy, the most depressing book ever lol, and thought through all this stuff, and like I put it in the email I wrote, because of the social position I was in, but then I just came back to the same fucking conclusion. It’s so annoying to do all this fucking research and do all this, seemingly profound, thinking, all to come back to the same fucking thing. Like yes, capitalism is evil and Lovecraftian, like there’s not arguing at this point, like we need community we need friendship we need fucking resources for life, but like the whole fucking world jus keeps going rightward and powers at be fuck is over over and over again, all the art we see is saying “GET THE FUCK OUT OF THIS SHIT” and “STOP STOP STOP” and in some cases even how to fucking do it. And it is doing something, I do see a shift, a leftward shift, and it seems to be impactful, like people at my school speaking out about Palestine, people online, at least cool people, all that, and all the Breadtube and stuff, analyzing that art, showing people to the revolution. But like, I’m tired of explaining the same shit over and over, I’m tired of our fucking diagnostic relationship with capitalism, I’m tired of feeling like I’m preaching to the choir whenever I speak and nothing changes. It’s like, where the fuck is the action? Where can I fucking do anything?

I just started this (mostly native) food forest garden in my backyard bc I have the space, and I’m going to start getting them in more communal parks and rec areas if I can, in an effort to get the right of food out for free as much as possible. I was thinking of staying local in my state for college, but with Kamala or Trump getting elected? I feel like this fucking country is fuckin doomed. I do fuckin hope it falls, but if it’s by its own contradictions, it’s bringing everyone down with it, and it is already. What do I fucking do?

I keep fucking talking in circles, it’s coming back to why i was going to read Libidinal Economy, its thesis has to do with the lack of any true ‘unalienated’ Outside. I don’t want to keep fucking talking in circles. I don’t want to keep talking in circles.

The only hope I see in this world for anything is if the Palestinian movement is successful, and at this rate im not even sure if it will (we have to persist until it is!). FREE PALESTINE FREE PALESTINE FREE PALESTINE

[sparklymilks]

i know im preaching to the choir here but brex/it has made everything so fucking bad for me running my small shop. i’ve had to familiarise myself w/ these random collections of letters (i now have an EORI number, i DON’T have an IOSS number which is causing me slight problems bc it means that anything i send to the EU can be held at customs + the buyer will have to pay import fees unless i pay £300 to get one OR move back to a marketplace model of selling e.g. etsy or ebay or notonthehighstreet etc), i have become intimately acquainted w/ tariff codes) that i never had to deal w/ until a few months ago. fucking awful, genuinely. we all saw this coming, but dealing with it is an extra layer of frustration for sure. i hate the idiots who were like ‘LET’S CUT ALL THE RED TAPE!! BUREAUCRACY BOOOO!’ and now we, ofc, have an extra fucking 5 layers of tape

fwiw i am thinking i probably will NOT spend £300 on getting a personal IOSS number but that in the future i’ll reopen my etsy shop, which is permanently ‘on vacation’, and direct EU customers to custom order listings, bc then i can use the etsy IOSS code which is obviously free. the downside is that etsy takes a fee for selling through their site, however at minimum IOSS parcels cost £2 for me to send through a pay-as-you-go model rather than an annual subscription, so etsy would probably be a cheaper option anyway - and it’s not a problem to use etsy for a few orders here and there given that im very well-versed in etsy and know how it all works anyway.

i haven’t actually had any complaints from european customers, which is something, but i have this awful feeling that i’ve missed something very important and that im somehow fucking all these changing rules up, bc it’s actually really difficult to run your own shop w/o any kind of accountant to do all this admin for you :( like ive had to take on so many roles that im absolutely not trained for and it’s really stressful (social media manager! shipping and handling person! complaints department! accountant! artist, obviously! it’s just HARD)