#anyway im not sure if this is 100% understandable i apologize im not rhe most eloquent with words

[10yrratiolover]

Hello! I hope you're doing well! 😁 Ratio question for you on this fine day, provided you haven't talked about it already (sorry if you have!)

In your opinion, do you think he's still trying to get into the Genius Society? Or has he resigned himself to the idea that it won't happen? And if so, what do you think he feels about the whole thing now? I imagine it have been hard for him to accept if so.

Hi! I think I mentioned my thoughts on him and the Genius Society in passing in one of my posts but I've never really gone too into detail on it.

So, I believe it was in my character stories post that I said this

Which does pretty much capture my thoughts on him sort of giving one final attempt to prove himself worth of the GS and instead receiving a letter from the IPC.

However I will absolutely go more into detail on what I believe his thoughts on the GS to be.

So, I believe that deep down Ratio was always at least somewhat aware of the fact that he wouldn't get into the GS, though as I stated in my character story post I don't think he truly swallowed that pill until he received that letter from the IPC.

Ratio knows himself well and it's easy to tell that he sticks out from the members of the GS (that we know of), not only in just his achievements and research, but who he is and how he acts. He was always subconsciously aware of the fact that he perhaps cared too much about people, but individuals and humanity as a whole.

His Planetary Weapon was a last ditch attempt of sorts to try and prove that he too can seek knowledge without taking life into account, though the letter he did receive made him realize that wasn't the type of person he wanted to be.

(There's a wonderful post by @/overdressedcarp that incapsulates my thoughts on the Planetary Weapon in much better words and I'd recommend reading that as well!)

I think a deeper part of him may still hold onto a bit of hope that he still can make it, however he's mostly forced himself to drop the ambition.

This heavy rejection would certainly brew a lot of conflicting emotions, especially considering getting into the GS has likely been a goal for years for him. I believe Ratio wouldn't have the greatest skills with emotional regulation considering most of his life has been centered around logic and things that tend to be black and white, yes or no. Emotions are confusing, complicated, and often they don't have one solid answer.

I think he may have been bitter for a while afterwards, not towards the GS who he holds a very high amount of respect for given his interactions with them, not even towards Nous, but towards himself and how soft-hearted he is beyond the hard-stone of his alabaster head. Bitter is the best word I can think of if I had to only use only one. Melancholic, spiteful, depressed, I can imagine his students noticed he was a bit snappier following this event.