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fridayyy-13th · 2 months

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i really need to stop staying up late when my intrusive thoughts come up again, they always get worse at night. i wanted to do some writing, but i procrastinated too long and now i feel too bad and when i tried, i couldn't focus. so i'm gonna try and go to bed.

#friday chats #just. not doing great all around. lots of ups and downs in my mood.#i'm literally so close to finishing this oneshot but it might be another couple weeks before it's ready at this rate :/#sorry about that. i really want to complete it and i promise i'm trying #my mind's just been really funky lately and i don't know why #probably bc i'm still sort of sick. i hope it goes away soon #also i feel like i always have to clarify #i'm not upset that i'm disappointing readers by not posting anything #i'm upset because it takes me forever to write things #and i have a bajillion ideas that i really want to share but i'm just. so bad at completing creative projects #i'm worried that my interest in tma will wane before i finish them all like what happened with hermitcraft and double trouble #and if that happens i'll just be plagued with all these stories that never came to fruition #not to mention i really really really want to be a published author #and if i can hardly even finish oneshots how am i supposed to complete a book manuscript #let alone several; like the series i have in mind #it's just. a lot. easy to spiral down. it makes me feel bad.#anyway i'm gonna actually go to bed now. wahoo

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