#anyway i'm going to sleep and idk if i'll be on much tomorrow since i'll be at an amusement park yay

[xdjville]

nct dream's voicemails

pairing: nct dream x gn!reader

genre: really all of them are different genres so idk buckle up; angst, established relationship (mark); comfort, established relationship (renjun); friends who have a thing going on and the dreamies are menaces (jeno); classmates, acquaintances but you're kinda cute (haechan); sick reader, fluff, established relationship (jaemin); basketball player and his "friend", bonus: he's drunk (chenle); idol x non idol, established relationship, kind of angsty if you squint but not really (jisung)

cw: cursing in mark's and jeno's, chenle's under the influence and he calls reader "pretty"

#mark

"i'm sorry. look, i... i know you probably don't want to talk to me right now, i get it. i shouldn't have said any of that and i'm so fucking sorry. i hate what i did and i have no excuse for being an asshole to you, but it's been almost two hours since you left and honestly i'm so worried i'm losing my mind. you don't have to come back yet, or call me back if you don't want to, but please, for the love of god, just let me know you're somewhere safe. shit, i'm so, so sorry. let's talk when you're ready, okay? i'll sleep on the couch tonight, so if you come back you can take the bedroom. i'm sorry. i love you."

#renjun

"hi, y/n. i'm sorry for calling so late, but, uh, i wanted to check up on you, you seemed a bit off today. maybe i'm imagining things, i don't know, but i couldn't stop thinking about it so i still wanted to ask. you don't have to tell me now, we can talk about it whenever you're comfortable, or not at all if you don't want to. just know i'm here for you, okay? it's normal to have worse days, so i'll try not to worry too much. i hope you'll feel better when you wake up in the morning. call me tomorrow, hm? we can go to that new ice cream place you told me about. sleep well, love you."

#jeno

"jesus, can you guys shut the fuck up– hey, uh, sorry for that, it's jeno. um, i'm calling because we're going to get some drinks at the bar down the street later tonight, and i– we were wondering if you maybe wanna tag along? we thought it could be fun hanging out outside of class since the semester is almost over. it's fine if you're busy though, no pressure. we're going out around, uh, nine, i think? so if you're up, call me back and i'll give you the details, yeah? alright, that's all, talk to you later. seriously, you guys are such fucking–"

#haechan

"uhm... hi, it's donghyuck. you probably didn't pick up since you don't have my number, but, uh, i called tell you that you left your sunglasses at the library yesterday. i asked mark for your number because we won't see each other untill chem next week and i thought you might need them, so... if you'd like to get them back just let me know? we could meet at the library again, or at get a coffee... or something. or i can give them to you in chem. whatever works for you! i don't mind either. just, uh, just let me know, okay? bye."

#jaemin

"hi, baby. how are you holding up? you must be sleeping, that's good. you need a lot of rest, hm? i hope by the time you're listening to this you will be feeling a little better. did your fever go down yet? there's food from my mom that i left in your fridge, you should eat that, i'm sure it's going to set you up. remember to stay hydrated too, yeah? i'll drop by with some groceries tonight, so let me know if you want anything specific. now rest well, love, i'll see you later."

#chenle

"y/n... you told me to call you when i get home, so why didn't... why aren't you pickin' up? well i– i'm home now, and, uh... renjun drove me there, so don't worry. anyways... i wanted t'say thank you, for coming to the game today. i honestly think we won only because you were there. you looked like... really, really... pretty. like... super pretty. when you, uh, hugged me after the match, i almost kissed you, you know? you're like my lucky charm... yeah, my lucky charm. i wanted to kiss you really bad. i wish you were here now so i could kiss you. can you come over tomorrow? mhm, 'm gonna go to bed now. bye, y/n–"

#jisung

"hey, how are you doing? it must be the middle of the night for you, you're probably asleep. i hope i didn't wake you up, i'm sorry if i did... i called you because i wanted to hear your voice. i, uh... i miss you, a lot. we had a day to ourselves to explore a bit, it was fun! it really was. but the whole time i couldn't stop thinking about how much more fun it would be with you there. i didn't want to kill the mood for the others, but i couldn't help missing you more today. did you miss me more, too? maybe it's like a soulmate thing... god, i sound so cheesy right now. anyways, the guys said they miss you too. chenle said we should all get hotpot together when we're done with the tour. sounds nice, right? oh, this voicemail is getting long... let's talk when you wake up, i'll call you after the concert. i lo– i miss you. sleep tight."

#taglist ➼♡ @bambisnc @suzayaaa

©xdjville

[am-i-the-asshole-official]

aita for offering to stay at a house that isn't mine?

weird title but bear with me. this happened a while ago. (most everyone involved is in their 20s except Grandpa who is idk maybe 70s?)

I, my Sibling, and their Partner went to a multi day event. we drove down together and stayed on site. my Boyfriend and his Brother were visiting their Grandpa who lives 2 hours from the event. since the last day of the event ended kinda late the plan was: we would stay that night at my aunt's apartment in the same city as event and then the next day Sibling would drop me off with Boyfriend and I would drive back home with Boyfriend.

we do the event. it's fun and all that and as expected the last day closes out around 9 or so at night. we get to my aunt's apartment closer to 10pm. staying there falls through for reasons. we need a hotel for the night but that's a lot of money so none of us particularly want to do that. but since we have to at least hotels are cheaper farther from the city. so we drive ~1 hour to the cheaper hotels. we stop at a fast food place to regroup and figure out which hotel is cheapest. it's around midnight.

I realize it's just another hour or so to my Boyfriend's Grandpa's place. Sibling and Partner know Boyfriend and they get along. they have also met Brother in passing. however they've never met Grandpa let alone been to his house. I float the idea to them: I'll first check with Boyfriend if it's cool but I'll drive us to Grandpa's house since that's where we were going tomorrow morning anyway and we can sleep there tonight. Sibling and Partner are cool with it if Boyfriend/Grandpa are cool with it.

I call Boyfriend and explain. he says as long as I'm up for driving this late and we're all cool sleeping on the floor it's fine. we arrive around 2 in the morning. everyone is understandably asleep but I call Boyfriend and he lets us in. there are air mattresses set up and we're all extremely exhausted so we all promptly pass out.

Sibling and Partner wake up before I do. they didn't really bring anything in and most of their stuff is already in their car so they pack up quick. I'm still waking up when Brother says to me something like "get them out of this house now." Sibling and Partner are just about ready to go as far as I can tell. they say thank you to Boyfriend and Grandpa then they leave.

I explain the situation to Grandpa then apologize and thank him for letting us stay the night. I don't know Grandpa that well but he doesn't seem upset that we crashed at his house. he's polite though so it's hard to tell. Brother is irritated. he's making snippy comments at me about being intrusive and putting a burden on Grandpa. Boyfriend doesn't say much. I ask Boyfriend if I was out of line and he shrugs it off and basically says it is what it is.

when I asked Sibling later if anything happened while we were at Grandpa's house they said no. they basically woke up, had a brief conversation with Grandpa and Boyfriend, then they left. they felt a little weird since they were crashing and dashing but neither Grandpa nor Boyfriend seemed to mind.

I know it's not okay to invite random extra people to sleep in someone else's home. and I know we had other options. and it was maybe manipulative for me to call Boyfriend so late at night. it turned out okay in the end but that's no excuse. so yeah: am i the asshole for offering in the first place?

What are these acronyms?

[aleksa-sims]

RL Simself Story

Finally arrived at home after a long day at the hospital. N. & I had planned to see each other later, but we'll catch up on our date tomorrow. I was so tired... My family was exciting waiting for me at home. My Mom made dinner. She and Ana immediately wanted to see my Baby's first Ultrasound pic.

My Mom took my Baby's pic and hung it up on the wall next to Ana’s and my photo in a empty, nice frame, where Daniel's & my pic was before.😔 A nice gesture to show me, that she is happy about my Baby. Though the situation was still a bit tense. My Dad wasn’t upset or anything, but he usually didn’t say anything, when we talked about Nico's & my Baby. He was also happy for me, supported me and all this, but he was more reserved when it came to my pregnancy. He was worried about my Baby’s development & health due to the meds I was taking.🙁

After dinner I played with my cat. Ana & I constantly took pics of Lucky. He’s so cute, he really enjoed posing for us. Lucky loved it at my parent's place. He was so happy here. Meanwhile it became his new home.

I missed my room & my bed, while I was at my grandparents. Here it's just more comfortable for me. My bedding smelled wonderful. Soft & pleasantly fresh. Idk how my Mom does it, but she, her/our home and stuff, always smells perfect. I was even often asked at work by co-workers, who sat next to me in the office, what kind of nice smell this is on my clothes? Anyway! Even though I slept well, the next morning I didn't feel good.

I realized that I usually felt nauseous in the morning after waking up since I was pregnant. I had to eat something to get rid of my nausea. I just didn't know that yet at that time. My Mom heard me in the bathroom. I coughed and choked, my stomach was empty but my body still reflexively tried to throw up. Anyone who’s ever been pregnant knows what I mean. However, after I was.... done, I was totally exhausted but I felt a relief. As I washed my hands, my Mom came to me in the bathroom. She immediately started scrubbing the toilet.😅🤦‍♀️She's such a neat FREAK!

Me: Mom? What are you doing? I was just about to clean the toilet.

Mom: It's ok. You can take a shower so you will still have enough time for breakfast before going to work. I just wanna help you... I know how you feel rn. It's.... not fair.

Me: Not fair? What do you mean?

Mom: Well, having a child... Everything always stucks with us women. Pregnancy, delivery and even later. But you're not alone, A. Your Dad are there.

Me: I know. Thanks. But N. will help me too. He wants that.

Mom: Why isn’t he with you? He promised to be there for you. But to me it seems... Nico doesn’t add anything to all this. I mean... your Baby will need a room, a bed, a stroller and many other little things. Like I said, your Dad and I will handle all this. But I think Nico or his parents should add something too. They are doing a lot better financially than us, A. I hope you don’t get me wrong. I don’t want to argue with you or him. But you should tell his Mom. They need to know you’re pregnant. He will soon have to go abroad again. His parents should also help a bit.

Me: You're right! I'm gonna talk to him later. But about N. & me, you're wrong! It was my fault.

Mom: When he was sleeping with you, he didn’t mind you being married. Now that it’s getting serious, you’re pregnant, he suddenly got doubts?

Me: Yea, that's right. He'd say I failed him. He trusted me, but I hesitated with the divorce. You know?

Mom: Look, I’m staying out of your.... relationship. But some important details, you should make clear to him!... For Nico nothing has really changed. He will continue to play soccer, live abroad and you will be here alone with your child. Make sure he will support you financially! Tell his family, A.!

And again, my Mom was right! 🙁I'll be here alone. I have to sort all these things out with him. We don’t have much time left. Only 2 months! In September he has to go back abroad.

Previous/Next

[characterworkshoppe]

Hi everyone! Just wanted you guys to know I'm going through a lot rn...

My future in my college course hangs in the balance due to ⭐️reasons⭐️

And it's making me panic so much more...and breathing isn't going well for me...and I'm nauseous...and my arms hurt...because idk...my doctor could explain it but I can't...

So if I'm quiet for a while, I'm sorry, I love you, I'm just really going through hell rn...

And tomorrow I have an appointment with a psychiatrist...and might potentialy get diagnosed with adhd or something...

Which might sound like a good thing, but my mother isn't exactly disability friendly and is especially not nice about people with adhd or add since my dad had it and she calls people with this particular condition names and stuff...

So on one hand...yay if I know more about myself the more I can figure out ways to help myself...on the other hand...yeeesh don't want my mother knowing about it...

I cried a lot today...

and it's hard for me...I'm either breathing weirdly breathing shallow like not taking a full breath or holding my breath and not realizing it...

And rn I can't relax at all...like I keep tossing and turning in bed and I just don't feel great....plus crying gave me a horrid headache...

I feel so scared and alone...and just not well at all...

Anyways sorry if I'm not particularly interacting for a while...it might take a few days but I'll talk more later...

Remember to drink some water, eat something, take your meds, go to sleep, and do anything you need to! You are loved! Just because I'm not doing so well doesn't mean I don't care about all of you, so please take good care of yourselves! Hugs!

Idk I'll tag a few people so you guys know what's going on

@funnypansexualanimorph @ask-crow-aus @slymewitch @kissmetwicekissmedeadly

Anyways...I'll be back a bit later, sorry

Sending love and hugs

[mamamittens]

Been thinking on it a bit and I might just nix the valentine's event. It's been nice having a breather and if anything, I may just do some art pieces as a mini celebration for the day.

If I could finally just get to it, I'd like to start making more progress reading One Piece. I'd say watch it but it's... Weird to describe, it's been so long since I've watched a series I've got no patience and a hard time regulating my... Energy? Like, I need to skip embarrassing, foot in mouth scenes or I can't watch. The older style of the beginning is also a bit... Weird to see after seeing so much modern anime. The whiplash I'd get going from start to finish would be something else, that's for sure.

Ah, overstimulation. That's what it is. Everything is new and in a format I'm unfamiliar with, a format I used to know well but not any more, so it's easy to get frustrated even as I'm happily watching it. Overwhelmed, as it were. Too much new stuff where I'm used to piecemeal.

That and it'd be 3 whole ass months nonstop and idk if I've got the focus for that.

Used to watch episode after episode of animes on bootleg sites as a kid and now I can barely bring myself to crack open the literal, physical copies I've got. (I've got so much anime on my shelves. If we did serious, no exception lockdown for a year, I'd probably be set without opening any streaming sites for at least half of that)

It'd be nice to actually be able to answer some of these asks rather than draw a total blank because I've never heard of them... Or I've completely forgotten who tf they are. Then again OP's cast is so massive I'd probably forget most of them anyway.

Then again, I've only recently started watching new movies in theaters. So for years my only exposure to new media was through second hand stuff. Memes and fanfiction, stuff like that. In light of that, it's no wonder I have such a hard time starting and sticking to series anymore. I collect the movie tickets and the stack is pretty thick (need to find a way to put them in a scrapbook to properly preserve them...)

Something about the jump and emotional investment exhausts and terrifies me... I don't know.

I've got a lot of things I need to do but tomorrow is always closer than it seems. And before I know it, today is yesterday with nothing to show for it.

Projects left unfinished that I used to spend hours work shopping before even opening Word. Passion projects gone cold and obligations that leave a stale taste in my mouth.

I wonder if this is just what growing old is. Hesitating at something new thinking about everything that's already there.

I don't know. But I do know I need to go to bed now or I'll sleep through 5/7 alarms for work in 5~ hours.

[reliquiicis-a]

ooc — sorry for not doing much at all tonight (i hope i can do more tomorrow) and sorry for all the ooc posts but... added the following hazbin muses for now: cherri bomb, angel dust, niffty (?), valentino, vox (stayed gone is already my goddamn favorite song so far), maybe vaggie?, zestial maybe??, maybe velvette but idk yet?

also can we talk about val's wings???? but then what happened shortly after... :( noo my bb angie. also i now think poison is a close second to welcome home... haha help

more below the cut.. i kinda rambled, oops?

those who have been waiting a long ass time for things, please please forgive me. i got them either queued or drafted and am slowly working through it all... this weekend i'll be able to do more since tomorrow is my last day of training and then i'm free for two weeks before i start going to centers. i'll try to make it up to you soon <3 i will give you all the pretty pretty art!

and for those who i still haven't reached out to ic or ooc, i will.. promise.. once i can finish what i owe because if i start anything new i will either 1. lose it or 2. get so overwhelmed things will build up even more and i will go into hiding and let things sit for even longer. i'm really sorry guys. i really do want to reach out to everyone it's just been rough mentally... :(

anyway if someone wants to give me some hazbin hotel ships, please.. feel free to dm me in the meantime while i sleep!

also i'm suddenly craving some angsty stuff for my angsty muses...

[egg-emperor]

also not spoilers actually but I did see Eggman but only twice. he's barely showing up in the scenes and he miiight have more dialogue around the island but I've only seen him once there since the scene at the start that the article screenshot was from because finding him around a map I can barely build and can't see him on at all is really difficult

it seems he can't be bothered to be involved much so far lol. maybe he will be more later and I'll be pleasantly surprised if he's part of the action as deserved but at the moment he seems a bit lazy and not into it which is strange but funny and understandable. I mean Sage is there to do the work and the old man also deserves to put his feet up sometimes XD

and trying to find him or just get to any scenes he's mostly not even in so far is a pain. Idk what the fuck he's doing or where he's going to off to to just sit there doing practically nothing besides observing and learning so far like the rest of the game. hoping he gets to do something cool after but as long as he's in character ultimately and I get to see more of his beauty I'll be satisfied

anyway despite all the exhaustion and pain and suffering it's always worth it for him. just a way to prove my undying love and devotion against all the tests hehe. I like the tiny amount I saw so I hope it continues. I wanna talk about it because I like the characterization I saw but will have to later in the day/tomorrow in other timezones as I don't have the files over on my phone to post about any yet. will mark as spoilers when I do.

and he was looking very handsome and I was the in character things was the one thing about this update so far that gave me that big smile and heart racing joy 🥰💜 I wish instead of playing all this just trying to get to him but struggling and barely getting to see him, I could just jump into that Egg Mobile with him when I saw him on the island once instead and say fuck all that ancient bullshit idgaf and just make out with him so deeply and passionately and then straddle him and he'd hold me in his big manly bear paw hands and then we- I'm really sleep deprived and that's all I can think about rn alright dfjsnngskgnskgh

I hope I shall soon proceed to dream about a more pleasant experience with this update where playing goes much more smoothly and I get to see way more of him way sooner. and if I had it my way it'd also consist of that scenario 🥴

[fizzingwizard]

I've had such an awful spring

Got the flu in March

Bad cold in May which hung around forever and totally messed up my voice

When my voice finally was coming back, I got covid!

I'm grateful that my coworkers have been supportive. But I'm dreading going back to work tomorrow, even though it'll be just one day, because I'm exhausted just lying down all the time and at work I have to be go go go pretty much the whole time.

I'm not sure what happened, but anyway, I was told that I had to self-isolate "until Thursday." That was vague, I wasn't sure if it meant Thursday is the last day of self-isolation or Thursday is the first day I go back to work. So obvs I just asked my manager. I made sure to sent the message in two languages just in case. She confirmed "Yes you must self-isolate until Thursday." Which didn't clear anything up for me. So I said, "Alright, see you Thursday?" and she said "Thank you!"

Well y'all, today was Thursday. I had a HORRIBLE sleep on Wed night. It was one of those sleeps where you're kind of awake still and there's a mental reel of nightmarish fun house images under your eyes that doesn't stop. Usually that gets my heart racing, but this time it just made me not sleep well.

So I woke up groggy and got ready for work. It took ten minutes longer than usual even though I did nothing that isn't part of my normal routine. The summer heat is setting in. All the yellow flowers that were by the river last week have died and the purple ones that only come out in the mornings in summer appeared over the few days that I had to stay home. Got on the crowded train, and I don't know what happened but after ten minutes of standing pressed in line sardines, I suddenly got light-heated and nauseous. It got so bad that I had to bend over, then eventually crouch down on my knees. At that point the nice man sitting in front of me was kind enough to give me his seat so I could put my head between my legs. The vertigo eventually passed, but I had a weird hot feeling in my head the rest of the way. The night before I had gotten light-headed in the shower too, but felt better after cracking the door.

I have passed out in the shower once before, but never on a train, so that was freaky. I don't know what caused it, I haven't heard that fainting is a symptom of covid, but who knows. But more likely I suppose it was the combination of having been home without much exercise for several days, not eating much due to not having an appetite, and then suddenly moving around a lot more in the heat. Hopefully that's all it was, I guess I'll find out tomorrow...

Anyway, I get to work and my boss says, "You're here? You're supposed to come back tomorrow!"

xD

Whaat but I thought I confirmed I was supposed to come in today. Lol. Idk man. Anyway, I just said, "Then came I go home??" and went aaaaaall the way back buhahaha. It was a waste of money since I won't be able to have my travel expense covered. But I did get to buy pancakes for breakfast. And strawberries for tonight's dessert. Tbh I was really grateful for the surprise extra (albeit failed) self-isolation day. I didn't feel up to looking after the kids at all. Don't wanna try tomorrow either but if lack of exercise contributed to the light-headedness then it's best that I try to get back to my normal life as soon as I can.

The doc did give me meds, but was clear that I couldn't have antivirals. I assume the best treatments are being rationed for the people most in need. So I have some meds to help with the symptoms at least. One is making me feel a little weird but I'm not sure which. However, it's not a big deal, just a weird feeling, my arms and back feel hot... idk. Will keep an eye on it.

Gotta say this bout with covid was anything but fun. The symptoms I expected were not the ones that gave me the most trouble. My sore throat is not nearly as bad as what I had in May, and the cough is just a cough. The worst of all was the body aches. They were nightmarish. I took ibuprofen but it barely helped. My head, neck, back, and joints ached and all I wanted to do was sleep but there was no comfortable position. Then after that is the phlegm. Mainly because it tastes horrible, is constant, and is making me always nauseous from swallowing it. I feel like I have constant heartburn. I do have meds to help with the phlegm, but so far they haven't made a difference on the nausea.

Le sigh

However, counting blessings. I have multiple friends who are immunocompromised for various reasons who have struggled so much this whole time trying to be safe. I'm lucky I'm generally healthy and I'm even glad being recently sick meant that I really haven't gone anywhere or seen anyone in almost a month, so I hopefully didn't pass the covid germs around. Fingers crossed summer will be better than spring.

[just-some-random-blogger]

hello angel! it's not night this time!! hope you're maybe just a little bit proud of your modern!nonnie. 'your shaving off time from your sleep to respond to me' nah i'd never sleep this time anyway. i was doing math... 'CHEW YOUR HEAD OFF' how would i read 10 parts of the modern au then??? bite off my cheeks instead. 'IM NOT THAT CREATIVE WITH NAMING THINGS' it's ok!! i'm honored to have a name in general hjhajhs okok so i feel like now i've really irritated you and made you angry. i'm sorry. genuinely. not teasingly or emotional. i can be too much at times, and i'm sorry it annoys so much. oh no you made me cry again TT I love you SOSO much!! thank you so much for tolerating this shit. you're the real angel! loveloveloe you!! bite that shitty thought and insecurities off me instead TT ok it's a joke... probably. no it's my problem. you don't owe me anything. bite whatever you want. 'MINUTE MEANIE' hgkfhadjkhdaha it sounds SO hilarious and CUTE!! yeah you are. love you for this. but you're still too mean to my heart... 'i want to change the world with music' i believe you will. big brain does big things. i believe you're doing great and will improve yourself into a music meanie!! (srry it was s a compliment in my head) maybe i'm a little hurt you don't care about me reading pt3. ok maybe. bc it's an empty threat anyway bc i'll read all works you' will ever publish. but i'm hurt but i love your works. and you. kisskisskiss 'you think people without big brains could get hints i think not' i'm bad with hints sister... 'I WOULD DIE IF I WENT TO YOU' i did die when i was out TT i need to pass only about 150 metres and i've been like 'frozen'. and a girl who studies with me needs to pass 600 metres?? and she passed it ON FOOT. crazy. INSANE. and tomorrow (11.01) it's going to be -50° C. lovely isn't it <з 'part of having a sibling is annoying them endlessly' why do we have only this part TT 'i figured youre younger than me' big brain. i see i see. you're really big brained. 'i will protect your heart always but not from my works' it's cute but MEAN. cutie meanie... i'd gladly read all the '100000 DOCTOR WHO FANFICS'. i love matt smith. i love doctor who. i love you. it's a perfect match. i care about your mental stability!! TASTE YOUR OWN MEDICINE Because tears taste good. give them a try. andand!! i've been really obsessed with cats since the very childhood! but i'm terribly allergic to them TT so i loveloveLOVE your pictures and gifs with cats so much!! they make me smile soso bad according to my calculations, it must be 22:49 for you rn so ig i'm late. and what about the timeline of my asks?? just like in dw hehehe. mysterious time yk have a nice day/night/morning/life!!! love you!!

OMG HI MODERN!NONNIE! you caught me just before i went to bed (im writing a fic rn lol)

LOVE LETTER TIME

hello angel! it's not night this time!! hope you're maybe just a little bit proud of your modern!nonnie.

YAYYYYY SLAAAAYYYYYY BESTIE SLAYYYYY

'your shaving off time from your sleep to respond to me' nah i'd never sleep this time anyway. i was doing math...

T_T HSADFLAHFHASHAH GOOD LUCK MY LOVE im kinda good at math ig so im sending brain cells your way (ok nvm i thought of what would happen if you asked me to teach you and idk if i could actually help so nvm what i said lol)

'CHEW YOUR HEAD OFF' how would i read 10 parts of the modern au then??? bite off my cheeks instead.

😤😤 i do what i want kid

'IM NOT THAT CREATIVE WITH NAMING THINGS' it's ok!! i'm honored to have a name in general hjhajhs

lol

okok so i feel like now i've really irritated you and made you angry. i'm sorry. genuinely. not teasingly or emotional. i can be too much at times, and i'm sorry it annoys so much. oh no you made me cry again TT I love you SOSO much!! thank you so much for tolerating this shit. you're the real angel! loveloveloe you!! bite that shitty thought and insecurities off me instead TT ok it's a joke... probably. no it's my problem. you don't owe me anything. bite whatever you want.

I'LL BITE OFF YOUR INSECURITES!!!! i dont want you to look down on yourself! TAKE HEART! THE WORLD HAS BEEN OVERCOME! YOU DO NOT HAVE TO FEEL THIS WAY. you dont annoy me. i find it annoying that YOU think im annoyed by you ///: girl-- has anyone ever put effort into something they hated? perhaps out of spite, but not me. i love you so pls dont compensate by hating yourself.

'MINUTE MEANIE' hgkfhadjkhdaha it sounds SO hilarious and CUTE!! yeah you are. love you for this. but you're still too mean to my heart...

'i want to change the world with music' i believe you will. big brain does big things. i believe you're doing great and will improve yourself into a music meanie!! (srry it was s a compliment in my head)

thank you my love T_T

maybe i'm a little hurt you don't care about me reading pt3. ok maybe. bc it's an empty threat anyway bc i'll read all works you' will ever publish. but i'm hurt but i love your works. and you. kisskisskiss

HAHAHAAHHAH is it an empty threat? HAHAHHAHAHA im so honored that you'd want to read all my works my love T_T thank you so much that means a lot even if you dont actually do that AHHAAHAHHA

'you think people without big brains could get hints i think not' i'm bad with hints sister...

CRYING HAHAHHA maybe you're not as big brained as you think HAHAHHHHAHAHAHHAH im kidding i jest i jest

'I WOULD DIE IF I WENT TO YOU' i did die when i was out TT i need to pass only about 150 metres and i've been like 'frozen'. and a girl who studies with me needs to pass 600 metres?? and she passed it ON FOOT. crazy. INSANE. and tomorrow (11.01) it's going to be -50° C. lovely isn't it <з

me. dang i hope that girl is ok T_T i send you an extra warm hug so you can hug her for me. i cant believe you still have to study in the cold T_T they should just let you sleep under warm blankets. but oh wait that's right you barely sleep anyway ///:

'part of having a sibling is annoying them endlessly' why do we have only this part TT 'i figured youre younger than me' big brain. i see i see. you're really big brained.

WHAT DO YOU MEAN WE ONLY HAVE THIS PART! i shower you with compliments more like my cat than my siblings (i compliment my kitty more readily than them) also yeah ur 100% younger than me therefore you MUST listen to me when i tell you to do smth (like sleep properly, straighten your back, eat your vegetables, drink water, exercise. 🤬🤬🤬🤬🤬)

'i will protect your heart always but not from my works' it's cute but MEAN. cutie meanie...

lol ok

i'd gladly read all the '100000 DOCTOR WHO FANFICS'. i love matt smith. i love doctor who. i love you. it's a perfect match. i care about your mental stability!! TASTE YOUR OWN MEDICINE Because tears taste good. give them a try.

HAHHHAHHAHAAHAHAA YOU SAID YOU CARE ABOUT MY MENTAL STABILITY BUT THEN URGE ME TO WATCH DOCTOR WHO HAHAHHAH WHAT A NUTCASE LOLOLOL asflahsfasf idk if i will, i really want to but hnnNNNNNNGGGGG IDK IDK IDK

andand!! i've been really obsessed with cats since the very childhood! but i'm terribly allergic to them TT so i loveloveLOVE your pictures and gifs with cats so much!! they make me smile soso bad

ITS SO FUNNY HOW I MENTION SOMETHING IN MY RESPONSE TO YOU and then by then end you talk about it. like the cats???? omg are we soulmates? i just use whatever meme i find that feels appropriate tbh. lol i reply to you on my pc, and i have less memes here than on my phone, so i sometimes have to download memes so i wont keep repeating them. its so sad ur allergic to cats. i have two! yushi and his son jinjin. i love them so much.

according to my calculations, it must be 22:49 for you rn so ig i'm late. and what about the timeline of my asks?? just like in dw hehehe. mysterious time yk have a nice day/night/morning/life!!! love you!!

I THINK YOU WERE RIGHT!!!! its currently 23:58 now and i only stayed up this late to reply to you. thats how much i love you.

i keep reading dw as dont worry before realizing you mean doctor who lol. ~~~mysterious time LOLOL

have an amazing day baby cakes

xxx

[thatcollegestudent133]

Year Ending...?

Omg you guys, I always remember I have an account on here by 2am on a random day. (I'm sorry😭)

The year is almost over! It's November and mama's ready to go homeeee! (Like seriouslyyy)|

This year has been crazyyy for real. Like I'm in my final year already and it's so crazy because I started this blog in my second year. I actually can't believe that in less than a year I'm going to be done with college🥹

It's been a journeyy fr🥹🥹

Anyways, it's 2am and I'm working on my research project that was due two weeks ago (sorry, supervisor😭😭) with a swollen cheek (my gums are swollen bad) blasting loud music (because why would I work without music?) and a bad backache (HELP)

Well, could be worse though.

I really want to send it out to my supervisor tomorrow because I have LOTS to do with so LITTLE time

I have a campaign project to do (100% of my grade in that course), two workbooks to finish (cover to cover, 60% of my grade), a 5-week internship to complete (includes writing a report, 50% of my grade for that course) another 3-week internship to do (the other 50%), pay a visit to the place I did my internship to interview them (40% of my grade), mock defense (idk how much of my grade it is), mid semester exams (30%) and tests (30%)!

Can I get a hell yeah? 😭😭

So, as you can see, your girl is SWAMPED, and that doesn't even cover it. I'm WATERBOARDED with work and I only have till December 7th to finish all of this, and some have specific deadlines. I also work on 2-5 hours of sleep per day and still have to check in on my little brother who just started his first year in college, but I'll be fine.

I just wanted to rant here for a bit since I'm frustrated and tired, and my cheek is throbbing and I have to get up in three hours. Let me go sleep now.

Thanks for the listening ear, babes! Ttyl!❤️

Don't be a stranger! (I'll try not to be lmfaooo😭😭)

Byee💕💕

[nathank77]

11/2/24

12:31 p.m

I went to the gym. Idk if I'm going to join. It's expensive. And I mean as stupid as this sounds I love my body the way it is. As much as I'd love to be cut and be thinner and fit into my skinny jeans.... I was happy at 200 pounds. I'm happy at 175.

Yea I want to hit 165 or 160 and fit into my pants but money is an issue.

Pros:

1) I'll lose weight

2) I'll get muscular and finally be the "best" version of myself. Like I said I'm truly happy with my weight and my body.

3) my chlorestoral will go down bc If I go im running 3 days a week, 60 minutes 2 days a week and 40-50 minutes the third day.

4) Just one session helped with my anxiety today....

Cons:

1) Money.....

2) it's a commitment and as nice as it was, it hurts and I mean it's not fun running. I kept asking myself why do people enjoy this? But then i thought about my waist line and my chlorestoral.

3) The Statin has no chance...

When I think about why I want to be cut and have a thinner waist line. It isn't to impress people honestly. I think I'm damn good looking and Idk whats wrong with people.

The reason I want to thin down a little and be cut is my entire life, most of it i had to pretend to be someone else. And since being able to have my inside match the outside... and having lost weight from dieting being cut and thin like I was in 2016 is possible... and as good as I looked then, I look better now bc of my beard and facial structure and whatever.

My ex and I used to go to the gym and that's when i was my thinnest and the most cut but it was her membership and we ended up quiting.... I didn't want to. But yea... at the time I was addicted to the gym. I loved it bc everytime I went i saw noticeable changes.

Anyways i obv need to lower my chlorestoral. It's dangerously high. I'd quit cigarettes but idk what my vice would be... it can't be weed...and I'm very lonely. I feel invisible. Like I'll never find a gf and like no one cares about me..

It was nice being away from the poison ivy house. And being away from the dog. And my mother. And having something to do. But it's expensive.

Sleep was awful last night. Real bad. I was scared I was going to have to pull an all nighter... I'll have to worry the next couple days cause I had to take more xanax and I could tonight worst case but absolutely not tomorrow if I need it tonight...

I also think what's the point in going to the gym and bettering myself when no one is going to see me anyways. When I'm a no one and no one will date me as I am.

Part of me is like go on that trip...and end it all.

Also idk if the statin is going to work ever since starting it and I only took it once, my forearm/Wrist has been in pain. BEFORE the gym... like 12 hours after taking it my wrist where my ganglion cysts is started to hurt and it hasn't stopped.

So idk what to do. I was supposed to take it Friday but I skipped it. Now that I worked out one day, especially if I continue... I'll always have slightly sore muscles and the statin has no chance bc I'll blame it all on the statin. idk what to do.. all I know is my diet is pretty decent. It must run in my family....

[brokenjaw550]

Girl might like me

So there's this girl in my speech class . When I first saw her I thought she was cool and well spoken, funny and had a nice style so on the first day each of us had to come and stand at the podium for thirty seconds and do whatever you want so I just pointed out to a few people and she was one of the people I pointed to and I told her that I liked her and she's funny. Anyway not much to think about there, it was just a compliment and I didn't mean it as more than that. Two weeks later we present our first speech and after I present mine we had a ten minute break. So I went out in the hall to eat my snack away from everybody just looking out the window and she comes up behind me and asks me about my speech and shakes my hand and tries to get to know me which I really liked and appreciated. I thought it was cool. Anyway 5 weeks in and we are about to present a 6 minute speech tomorrow. I went to the campus convenient store (where a students liketo hang out a lot of the time) and she was in there as well as a lot of other students in my speech class. I guess everyone was nervous because the due date is 11:59 today and no one had it done. Anyway, my other friends from speech class K and S were coming with me back from 1430 where we'd been practicing our speech. It was pretty late already like 8 PM. So we go to the convenience store and I see her with a bunch of her friends from our class and she stops me after we say hi and starts to ask me questions about the speech. I like to talk to people when they try to make conversation with me so of course I talked to her and she then invited me to practice the speech with her later on "if u wanna come and practice with us" and so I said alright but I'll probably eat first and so I had her give me her Instagram so I could text her when she wants to practice/ when i'm done eating. Then I walked away to the fridges to get a dinner and a few seconds later she's also where I am and asked me if the sushi in the fridge is part of a meal plan (it isn't, and everything in the fridge is part of the meal plan, so if one didn't know the sushi was not part of the plan, they would never be asking that question, so I think she probably already knew that). After, I went back to my dorm and worked on my speech and it's literally almost 12 AM and I get a call from her and I didn't pick up at first cause I was turning my stuff in but I called her back in 5 minutes. She picked up and at first said she has to ask me a stupid question and so she asked me if she should turn in the speech now, unfinished and alter it later, or just not turn it in? The answer to that should have been pretty obvious, and she's familiar with a lot of other kids in the speech class so I was wondering why she'd call me to ask me that question. Then she asked me if I wanted to come and practice speech with her now but I told her I was planning to just go to bed since it's 12. There are more details that I don't feel like writing out and so I thought it was a normal interaction til she said "alright well have a good sleep my love" .... excuse me? Then I looked at her instagram profile and she likes girls so. Idk how girls that like other girls converse with them but I never heard her say that to anyone before. Maybe because I'm a quiet shy introvert this is just how normal people interact and I'm just not used to it lol

[mamamittens]

Alright, ngl, I fully planned on writing this week but work decided it was time to do inventory again. At the literal last minute.

I. Hauled. Ass.

And tomorrow I'm probably going to be counting a fuck ton of shit sooooo RIP IG

Anyway, as a small apology lemme talk about the au of Sweet Child, Grow (now the nickname for "How our Seeds Grow"). And fittingly, I'll start with the name!

I actually didn't think too much about the name before rolling with that but it's kinda genius in hindsight because now the two read as "Oh, sweet child of mine, how our seeds grow" which sounds awful wistful don't it? And sweet. I like it. And it's very poignant considering the au is all about little reader growing up with the WBP.

Also! I did write a fair bit for the next chapter but it felt short and I thought I could more or less squeeze in a few chapters now that the narrator (child reader) is way less angsty about being kidnapped and not as observant so there's less wordage to get across here. And as I did I realized I accidentally wrote in a little plot hole in the first one.

See, reader's supposed to really love animals. But what happened to their den den mushi? The snail from the beginning? So I'm taking a moment to answer what no one has asked.

They didn't get to keep the snail until well after they returned since it's apparently pretty easy to convert them into 'phones' so to minimize shenanigans, they just withheld it until they felt they could trust reader.

And since in Grow the reader is just a scared kid, they get to keep the snail with a normal shell. Reader named him 'Cream' even though they weren't supposed to because it's not 'their' snail. It's the marine's snail. Little reader has gotten better at hiding how attached they are to their issued snail at whatever base they're on but not very well.

As a treat, here's a little snippet!

Oh! And before I forget!

I'll try to remember y'all that asked to be tagged in the next update but I make no promises! If you're super concerned about it though as soon as it comes out you can also read not only Sweet Child but Grow as well on AO3! Or maybe follow the tag for the story??? Idk how reliable that is, I don't really follow specific tags on Tumblr ngl

AO3 is currently experiencing some minor issues (8/30/23) though, so please be patient if it won't work immediately and perhaps check back later!

Anyway! Thanks for being patient everyone, as well as the fairly positive-ish neutral reaction to my new rule concerning asks for updates! It's a lot less stressful thinking about which fics to update now that I have a hard line. I'm afraid the personal clash between pathological demand avoidance and people pleasing is incredibly uncomfortable to grapple with at the best of times. And it leaves me feeling like either a raging bitch or a doormat 😬

I'm hoping to get some writing done soon but with inventory in full swing tomorrow I won't be surprised if I just pass the fuck out when I get home. Istg I opened cult of the lamb for a quick sesh and next thing I knew it was 9 (my bad entirely. I know damn well that game is very hard to put down- always one last thing I can do before going to bed but it's never just one is it???)

Speaking of which! I gotta go to sleep now lol

[darkmoonkestrel]

daily kestrel 17:

we ended up pulling out the giant 10 ft blanket for the bed last night, we deemed it cold enough (or rather, at least not too hot) to use it, and it was so cozy that i begged off making Peyton's traditional morning iced coffee to get an extra 20 minutes of sleep. had some really weird dreams about like... sanctioned dungeon crawling type of activities? idk how to describe it but it was an interesting alternate universe type of situation

i got to work early today and was bounced around for most of the day, including starting in the cafeteria. i then went to the early 2s room, the older 2s room, my room for a little bit, the kitchen to help unpack a food order, and did breaks for the mobile infants and infants teachers before going back to my room after break. it was a busy day, but overall pretty good. idk how i always end up doing lunch breaks in the mobiles room when it's spaghetti for lunch day though, this is like the third time and those kiddos get spaghetti in places you didn't know it could be (the back of the head??)

i stopped and got myself some whoppers as a little treat on my way home, a reward in advance for going to the optional chat my professor does for my online class every week that i've missed the last few weeks. turns out i was the only one there, so i just ended up chatting with my professor about AI and book banning and class assignments and diversity and stuff for a solid 30 minutes, but i actually enjoyed it, so that was good. at least it absolves my guilt for missing the next few bc I def don't plan to go back to them until the "highly recommended" one next month. i also noticed that my professor had steam on his computer when he was screen sharing with me and i really should have been like "so what do you play" but we were having an Academic™️ conversation so i didn't wanna ruin the vibes

i got Peyton & Paige little treats as well and Peyton's were gummy worms that we ended up using for a three way "throwing them into the other person's mouth" contest, with me still in the office, Paige on the couch, and Peyton in the office doorway alcove. he finally ended up catching one, after several rounds of both me and Paige missing our throws at him and him pelting us with worms. i net positive'd four worms to keep and eat, and one is lost somewhere in the office to be discovered at a later date. it's little things like this that make me appreciate how much i love living with my partners and the daily shenanigans we get up to

i'm still in the office and i was going to finish up this reading assignment for class but i'm not feeling it anymore so I'll just try to knock it out over lunch tomorrow. it is now time for some more slime rancher 2 before bed, and then another early day (7am work this time, so at least Peyton will get his morning coffee tomorrow bc i have to be awake at 6:15 anyway)

ETA: Paige bullied me into wearing my glasses at the house since we were talking about her eye exam tomorrow, and I took a 30 minute break in playing slime rancher to watch cat videos, the true purpose of the internet. i got really far in slime rancher which at my current place in the game just means unlocking a whole bunch of areas to explore, but i am being dragged to bed for my own wellbeing

except we're all super giggly tonight so we're playing around and haven't gone to sleep yet oops

[theycall-vn]

broke down a chunk of chapter 2's outline into pieces so i can write it easier, and started writing some bits of it

spent like an hour staring at the designs of different "toys" and comparing it to the rough idea i have for bb's dick. mostly trying to think of... texture. the design i have is...

okay i want the design to be a surprise, so... how to word this without giving too much away uhhh

based on. nature. but certain parts, true to form, are too delicate to really work so i'm trying to like... keep it as close as possible with these details, but making them... durable enough withstand usage

comparing toy textures to it makes it easier for me to figure out how to do that

anyway

poked around with how i wanna tally the endings, which is. complicated. idk how i wanna go about it anymore. not the endings themselves, just... how to GET those endings. i don't remember my thought process for it and APPARENTLY i forgot to write it down

maybe sleep will reset my brain, i'll see tomorrow

did some thinking for the itch page, but i barely count it as work because it was just that: thinking

lol

and i didn't even start it today, but i also plan to get a number for all the points you can earn so i can like... keep track of it in the future. tally that also, ya know

cause i don't want relationship progression to be too quick OR too delayed. but i still wanna make it so you can explore it as early on as possible since you don't even meet bb til chapter 1

it's just. considering Circumstances, being able to progress that almost instantly is... a lil too unrealistic with how i'm writing the mcOH MY GOD JUST HAD A THOUGHT FOR A SPICY SCENE ONE SECOND

okay added it to chapter 3. oof, got possessed there. anyway

uhhhh

yeah

didn't do much else and i'm stopping early today cause i have stuff to do afk

[hospitalterrorizer]

diary294

7/9-10/24

tuesday - wednesday

i think tomorrow i'll be done with the j-card design.

then i am on metadata duty on the wavs for my album...then uhmm,.... yeah. i should be good to send that over to the guy for cassettes.

but also tomorrow, i have to do errands w/ my gf, so we'll see i guess, that could complicate things, but probably not.

i'm pretty sleepy and today has not been too crazy, i did more stuff for the design ofc, i finished the drawing, and it looks good i think. i might as well just put it here since i don't think it's like, any kinda surprise, the j-card, since it's ultimately all based on the other album art.

no comment on the content i think it speaks for itself (mostly .... the censor bar... #lol).

anyway right now, before bed i am listening to pig destroyer's prowler in the yard for what feels like the first time. i think i've listened to terrifyer (that is how it's spelled) though actually. i really like it, one of these things that makes me want to mess around with riffs and stuff... #crazy.

one of the difficulties i am having with the cover art right now, for the j-card, is a way to keep it, i don't know how to phrase this in a way that really makes sense, but digital feeling maybe, is one way, tethered to the internet, or like, an image which contains some relation to the act of looking at disembodied things online. i think the original cover succeeds at that, especially with the collage at the bottom, i feel like i am getting there on this, but it's not fully there. it's also such a mess of things, to go for that, but also, to have so much else going on in my head re:images and things i am pulling from, just stuff i like, you know, though i guess also i am explicitly trying to use all these things in a way that is reminiscent of like, surrealist assemblages, their collage work, that kind of thing. idk, it is hard, is all i know. not too hard though. just a little.

today i had a dream about being stuck in someone's house in the u.k., playing the wii. that's all i will really get into. it was not a good dream, not a bad dream though. just strange how it clung to the wii as something.

anyway, i am tired rn, and i need to sleep for tomorrow, cuz errands usually will go on for ohhhh sooooooooooooooooo lonnnnnnnnnngggggggggggggggggggggggggg!

so

byebye!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!