#anyway i'm almost up to my assigned 50 pages for today. very soon i can attempt to relax and at the very least stop reading

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this arc of my academia adventure is truly difficult but i cannot get over the fact that i literally get psychological damage from reading. the act of reading. i open a book or a pdf and if i read for long enough my focus starts to dissolve imperceptibly until my thoughts are full and overflowing with the horrors. it always ends with tears and a choked up soliloquy about my misery