#anyway i love your blog you just seem really cool & relatable

[kiirotoao]

HEYY YOUR SO PRETTY BTW AND I LOVE YOUR BLOG

the ask :

so, i wanted to get ur opinion on s3 mike. such as, what he was going through and his internalized homophobia. things like that!

maybe some things w/ him and his relationship w/ el too!

THANKS FOR ANSWERING IF U DO ANSWER :D

I’m gonna pretend that I’m fine after weeks of getting flustered just staring at this in my inbox! Thank you, anon!!! 🥺🥺 You’re making me blush! But, uh, anyways! Let’s talk about Mike Wheeler! 💙

I think that Mike in season 3 is the most interesting version of himself in the entire show because of how hidden his story becomes. In all other seasons, Mike cries openly with other people and expresses his sadness and fears over Will and El.

In season 3, though? Besides the finale, the tearful goodbyes narrated by Hopper, we never see Mike truly cry and explicitly talk through why. Sure, it can be pretty readily implied that it’s because of the Byers leaving, but we don’t hear that aloud. We don’t see exactly who’s on Mike’s mind as those cars pull away. We're left with silent and unsure stares, looks of seeming regret or something else unknown.

Season 3 is truly a huge turning point for Mike, he’s losing his girlfriend and arguably his closest friend in the Party, and it's so easily overlooked because it all happens at the very end of the final episode. Whereas El goes through hell and fights to connect to Billy and save her friends, where Max also feels the weight of his loss, where Will gets his heartbreaking scene at Castle Byers - all the Party members who are very linked to Mike get their emotional moments that season, and we know exactly why they cry.

But Mike dances around his emotions all season long. In consulting Lucas to deal with breaking up and making up with El, in trying to tell El that he loves her without ever saying it, in fighting with Will because "it's not [his] fault [Will doesn't] like girls."

Oh, Mike. I really don't think that Mike was out to hurt Will when he said that. Rather, it's a culmination of heteronormativity and the poor relationship that he has with El and trying to compensate for it. I interpret the outburst as him saying, 'it's not my fault that I'm in a relationship and you're not, so you wouldn't get it.' And by extension, Will being in a relationship would require, normatively, being with a girl.

But at the same time, for a jab that deep - I can't help but question more.

Mike could have said, "it's not my fault you don't like anyone!" or "don't bring her into this!" or even as simple as, "you wouldn't understand!" But no. Mike takes the direct train to sexuality station and brings up the fact that El is a girl. So it seems to me that Mike is very likely harboring something in his heart about why El being a girl is important for him to argue.

But we never know for sure. This moment is never addressed again due to the Mind Flayer’s sudden return. And so it’s up to us as the audience to decide what we think of Mike’s statement. And personally, as I’m sure many of you believe, too, I think that Mike is projecting and trying to hide the fact that he doesn’t like girls onto Will, pushing away his problems to someone he trusts who’s more similar to himself than he realizes.

Tied to his inability to say to El’s face that he loves her, to the fact that they've - reportedly from Hopper - kissed all Summer long with no mention of meaningful conversation, to the very surface-level relational mending his makes by calling El’s outfit “cool” and giving her candy, to the very end of the season where Mike once again denies saying that he loved El just before an open-eyed kiss and a face like this:

Mike doesn’t need to say anything about that kiss for me to know that that’s not the reaction of someone who’s perfectly happy to be back together with his ex-girlfriend. So do I wish that we had a moment of vulnerability for Mike where he expressed his heart in season 3? Yes, but his nonverbals spoke volumes.

So, yeah, I think that in season 3, Mike is very much gay, but he he acts cautiously and self-preservingly because trauma is drowning everything out.

And what is this trauma? I know that I’m working backwards, but I need to bring up that Mike was separated from El for so long in the time of season 2, and I think that that makes him so attached to her in season 3. Think about what else he says in that scene when he admits his love: “I love her and I can’t lose her again.”

As sweet as it is to be reunited to El by the end of season 2, it’s not a clean reunion for Mike. He’s in shambles when he learns that Hopper was lying to him and not letting El even tell Mike that she’s okay.

Not to mention that this isn’t his first but second time almost losing her to the monster that season.

Because of this unstable connection, I think that Mike has built a protective relationship with El, one that focuses on keeping her rather than knowing her, and we see how that all unfolds with his superficial “superhero” complex he has of her in season 4. Season 3 was just the beginning.

And so I think that Mike in season 3 stands as a version of himself that’s confused protectiveness with love. Even though he arguably behaves with that same mindset all the time, it’s at its highest during season 3 because of his never-ending insistence to help El even if she’s capable to do things by herself. Mike isn’t just clingy, he’s worried. Worried for her life. There’s no time to worry about where the problems in their relationship arise, there’s only time to fix them and go back to how they were at equilibrium - when things were normal.

Thus, Mike behaves rather stubbornly. He’s insistent and defensive, not letting a single thing slip through the cracks and risk any more hurt. In doing so, his personality is left far under the surface and unexplored. He only acts to stir up emotions rather than reflect on them, because any pausing to think will only confuse him more. He’s looking ahead, looking at the light, holding onto everything good he has with all the propriety of a 13/14-year-old who has a heart bigger than his head.

Simply put, Mike is a bit of an anti-hero this season. And I think that it's because of this that he starts to get most controversial for the audience.

I’m clearly a Mike apologist, but I genuinely don’t think that he’s out to hurt anyone when he argues with others this season. He’s just stubborn and loud about it, which can definitely be to his fault at times. But in the end, when it comes down to who he loves, I think that season 3 is the era of change, and that ending scene with Hopper’s letter paints the perfect setup for the next seasons to reveal that Mike has a lot more going on under the surface that’s causing all of this. Maybe some regrets, things he wishes he could “turn back the clock” on, regarding, say, Will and El and how he treats them platonically and romantically? Just a thought.

The question of the day for Mike in season 3 stands: is he being selfish or selfless? And I think that it’s a mix of both, blended in with some heavy confusion due to role changing (not needing to protect El) and uncertain affections (not knowing how to figure out what he has with Will).

So, yeah. All in all, I think that Mike is really closeted in season 3 and doesn’t realize it until the final episode, and I honestly love him for it. As someone who’s gone through similar hurdles of internalized homophobia as a teen, it’s really heartwarming to see him grow and figure things out, even if the journey is far from perfect. It’s a humble origin story. And if he somehow ends up being straight and Byler isn’t endgame, well. I’ll be upset at the writers, but the impact still stands.

[brb-on-a-quest]

Tumblr should really let you pin multiple things as a blog introduction. (I wish).

Anyway, hi, hello, (new friend?), I'm Brb/Birb/(real name redacted). I'm an almost graduated student from the general land of cornfields and more cornfields. There's not much around, that's why I'm here, lol. (Also I've met a bunch of cool people, so now I think I'm kind of stuck here - come join us!).

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If you happen to be a New Person Who Has Found Me (Hello!) and You Want To Talk to Me, I don't bite, I swear. I am a Birb with the heart of a Golden Labrador Retriever. Feel free to Tag Me in any tag games or haunt my inbox. <3 Come say hi! i love friends.

((Art by the amazing @mayamohini jfkfjjfkjgjgjgjfj it’s gorgeous)

(my "character sheet" that is based on my real life attributes--yes, I did roll all of these numbers. I use canva a totally healthy amount sometimes)

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Anyway, more information y'all should know: This is the main account; I do have a sideblog. I reblog a lot of friend's nonsense, post a lot of my own even more nonsense, kind of have a whole "I want to be a hobbit living my best life somewhere not here vibe" I think. You will also see posts about things I think are wholesome/sweet, writing, psychology, fantasy, whatever fandom I'm in (or a friend's fandom),....just general nonsense I suppose. I do post some amount of life stuff when relevant or whenever I find things funny. Although the pic above is an owl, I am probably more akin to a magpie with much reblogging of things I find "shiny" to add to the chaotic mess that is my tumblr dashboard.

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@brb-on-a-side-blog is also me! This was created to hopefully separate original writing content from the rest of the reblogging I do so it doesn't get buried in theory. This may not work out in theory as well as in practice, but I promise to reblog the cool writing stuff to my main blog if you don't want to have it clogging up your dash :).

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Tags to help sift through to find me in the hoard of posts!

#brb-rambles: Original thoughts about something (or at least as original as I can be).

#brb-(insert part of moots name here): interactions between me and said moot! I'm actually really not great at this but will get better and I forsee mass post editor being a BFF if I do this.

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#brb-writes: original writing content (this will be potentially moved to sideblog).

#brb-memes (i make memes sometimes).

#brb-library: posts that are either really funny/really struck me so I'm going to save them to print out

#brb-adventures: the hopeful travel tag for some upcoming trips (either the grocery store or New York who knows).

#brb-learning-things: Things I have learned (although it's from my school/classes so questionably but I reason sourced; if it's not, I'll include source link/some kind of citation).

#brb needs a laugh check: I am joking. Please do not take me seriously.

#brb vs the call of the academia: school posting?

#brb-asks/#brb-report:s hopefully new ask tag if I can remember to add them.

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[starz-4-mel]

hii!! hope you're doing alright :) your blog is super cute aand i have some questions for the ask game:

🪐; who is your comfort person in your dr? name three specific reasons why.

🍎; what are three songs that remind you of your dr and why?

🐞; name three oddly specific things you’re excited to witness in your dr.

Hii omg tysm im doing okay btw ^_^

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My comfort person is furina from genshin! Becuz 1. She's so pretty and I relate to her a lot 2. She seems like such a nice person to be around and 3. Cause she's just so pretty and cool and omg I love her sm

🍎

1. Ancient dreams in a modern land (Marina)

This doesn't really remind me of any specific dr it just reminds me a lot about shifting yk?

2. Headbangeeeeerrrrr! (Babymetal)

In my singer DR I just took a lot of babymetal songs and made them mine LOL anyway it reminds me of it because i just love imagining my dr self sing that song in front of a crowd and having the time of my life :3

3. Don't stop the music (Rihanna)

It makes more sense in my head ok ✋️😭

🐞

1. The scenarios I scripted

Because it's so cool witnessing smth you scripted imo !!

2. Going to school and wearing super cute uniforms ^_^

3. Hanging out with my DR friends a lot and having the time of our lives 💫

[ceruleaneclipse]

Hi! So, I’ve been scrolling through your blog (it’s very cool) and seeing all the book of bill related asks and stuff. I just wanna share my personal thoughts if you don’t mind, as they seem similar to yours. You made a post about buying the book and you should, I think. When I first read the book, I loved it. My immediate reaction was that I liked it. I was happy because the ‘ship’ content we got all seemed to be about Fiddauthor.

thennn I go online. I see so many bill ford posts? Like, wtf? That’s not what I got from the book at all. I never liked that ship and still don’t. I think bill was just obsessed with ford in an obviously toxic way and basically what you said in your analysis- it’s not love. Isn’t shipping wanting them to get together? I don’t understand. The things bill did to ford are disgusting.

so, anyway, sorry for the rant, but I was getting as stressed about as you where seeing all this online :( but the book itself, I enjoyed.

hope this all made sense! I’m bad at putting my thoughts into words sometimes. And I’m SO emotionally drained from this book rn😭

Thank you for liking my blog and my analysis! I'd love to form a more informed and cohesive analysis by reading it (and to solve ciphers and codes my beloved).

When I was looking through the spoiler tag, I was rather alarmed, people really focused on the "ship" content, and I couldn't care less about BollFird, but there was a joke in there where Bill said he was a preteen, and with the way people treat shipping, kind of in general, along with the way it was written, I didn't like the implications of those two possibly being an item.

It was thanks to someone in a similar predicament to me reassuring me that it was likely a reference to The Inconveniencing episode of Gravity Falls, so, a rather distasteful joke, which I found relieving, my anxiety/ OCD tends to get the best of me very often.

Shipping for me has always been wonky (Aroace) and once I fully grasped that people weren't being ironic with it/silly, I take the concept rather seriously.

I know we do get a fair amount of Fiddauthor, and that's nice! I don't ship a lot of things, but I'm passionate about Fiddauthor, I like to think of them as being in a QPR, but I'll ramble more about that and them on another post.

No worries, you made plenty sense.

[galraluver]

Erm, it has been literally a year since I've requested lmao. Anyways, I have a request while they are open.

One of the Galra (specifically looking for Thace or Kolivan) don't know that some humans dye their hair, so when they have a S/O who religiously dyes their hair purple they just assume they're half galra, until they catch them dying their hair. They hadn't actually said anything to their human S/O about assuming they're partially Galran, so it surprised when they say they thought that.

Thanks!

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I'm glad that you're still around, I apologize for the long wait for requests to be open 😅. That's actually a really interesting idea, I'll be happy to write them 😊

I think that someone else already requested something really similar on someone else's blog, but I'm still going to post this because I took my time to write it last year and I still want to fulfill your request

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Ever since (Y/n) was old enough to dye her hair purple she did because purple was her favorite color, other people didn't always like it but she didn't care. She dyed her hair purple each time the dye started losing its color, so naturally she always kept purple hair dye on hand in her bathroom. (Y/n) was glad that the Garrison allowed people to dye their hair, she would have died if she couldn't dye her hair. The students she taught always thought she was the cool teacher because she wasn't as old fashioned as the other teachers; that, and she allowed snacks in her class. After (Y/n) found herself in space with the paladins she thought that she would have to let her hair go natural since she didn't bring any hair dye with her, luckily she found a store at the space mall that sold hair dye for all hair types.

(Y/n) already wasn't expecting to end up millions of lightyears away from Earth; meeting aliens completely blew her mind and ending up in a romantic relationship with a buff alien man twice her height had seemed impossible until it actually happened. Kolivan, the man she would eventually be marrying after the war with the galra empire ended, was standoffish with almost everyone except for her and maybe Keith, depending on what kind of mood he was in. The reason Kolivan trusted her and Keith was because Keith was Krolia's son and he thought she was half galra too, only he was attracted to (Y/n) and wanted her to eventually be his mate. (Y/n) found it strange that Kolivan was so open to her ever since they got to know each other better, although she was glad that he reciprocated her feelings. One day while she was busy dyeing her hair in one of the bathrooms in the castle of lions, Kolivan went looking for her after attending a strategy meeting with the paladins; he decided to ask Shiro if he knew where his significant other was.

“(Y/n) is usually here waiting for me after our meetings, would you happen to know where she is?” Kolivan asked Shiro with genuine curiosity, wondering where his beloved was during that moment.

“I think she's fixing her hair in the bathroom near the bedrooms.” Shiro replied, telling the older man where (Y/n) was.

“Thank you.” Kolivan responded with gratitude before he started his journey to where his girlfriend was.

The corners of Shiro's mouth twitched upwards, he was happy for (Y/n) because she finally found someone who loved her; Kolivan might not have been the most social person out there, but he loved her and she loved him. One of (Y/n's) physical aspects Kolivan loved most was her hair, it was a beautiful shade of purple and he loved gently running his fingers through it. She obviously wasn't related to Keith, he often found himself wondering how and when another galra landed on Earth and had the time to mate with a human; he wondered if someone from the galra empire went to Earth before Krolia but had a change of heart after falling in love with a human. (Y/n) had the bathroom door open so she could have the proper ventilation, although she wasn't expecting Kolivan to be looking for her. Kolivan got the shock of his life when he saw (Y/n) dyeing her hair purple, his heart almost stopped when he saw her natural hair color; (Y/n) never knew that Kolivan thought she was half galra, she always assumed he knew that she dyed her hair.

“(Y/n)? What is all of this?” Kolivan asked (Y/n) in disbelief, hardly able to wrap his mind around the fact that she wasn't half galra; he didn't necessarily feel betrayed because her lineage never came up, although it was still a shock to him.

“Oh, hey Koli. I'm just dyeing my hair.” (Y/n) cheerfully greeted her boyfriend when she turned to look at him before facing the mirror again, not thinking much of it while she carefully rubbed the purple dye into her soft locks.

All Kolivan could do was stand there and stare, completely dumbfounded that he'd mistaken a simple dye job for galra genes. It made a lot more sense to him as to why (Y/n) was so nose blind and why she wasn't as strong as Keith, but it ultimately didn't matter what species she was because he would always love her no matter what. He watched as she finished putting the purple dye in her hair before she took off and placed the reusable gloves in the sink after she washed them off, watching his future wife dye her hair unnerved him a little. (Y/n) looked at Kolivan's reflection in the mirror and saw the conflicted expression on his face, she felt bad for not telling him sooner that she dyed her hair purple. She turned to face him after she set the timer on her phone, prepared to answer any of his questions.

“How long have you been dyeing your hair?” Kolivan questioned when (Y/n) fully faced him, trying his best not to offend her; he didn't want to make her feel bad, he just wanted to understand why she enjoyed dyeing her hair and for how long she had been doing it.

“I've been doing it for a few years. I- I'm sorry that I didn't tell you sooner, I just didn't think it would ever come up.” (Y/n) apologized, feeling anxious when she looked her boyfriend in the eye while she spoke to him.

“I thought you were half galra- I never considered that you simply dyed your hair. I don't love you any less, but it's a lot for me to take in.” Kolivan explained before he gave (Y/n) the wrong idea, he didn't want her to think he would break things off with her from a simple misunderstanding.

(Y/n) never would have thought he would think she was half galra, although it definitely explained why he was so friendly with her when they first met each other. Since Kolivan didn't seem too upset she began telling him why she began dyeing her hair purple and when; she didn't necessarily hate her real hair color, but she liked having purple hair a lot more. For a moment she was worried that he didn't like her dyeing her hair purple, thankfully he didn't hold it against her and accepted her sense of style. Kolivan knew about hair dye, he remembered a time when Ulaz accidentally dyed the fur growing out of his crest pink instead of dark purple like he'd originally planned, the memory would always be burned in his mind. He still thought (Y/n) looked very attractive with purple hair and offered to help her with the dyeing process if she needed his help in the future, (Y/n) appreciated Kolivan's offer to help her very much.

[arliedraws]

Sooo sorry if I seem like a creeper, but I love your blog (is that what it's called?? I never really got the hang of Tumblr lol) is so enjoyable to read through! I personally really love wolfstar, which I know you don't really care for, but I also just love stories! You have so many cool AUs and ideas that are genuinely just fun & interesting to read :)

I also wanted to say that I totally agree with what you said about including homophobia in fics. As someone who lives in a very liberal state—but it's still completely surrounded by bigotry and ignorance in my own community/family—it can feel isolating to see posts that imply we're in this newer, more tolerant age and don't need to discuss homophobia/bigotry in fandom spaces or in fiction (this isn't what the original ask said at all, but I have seen this discussed before). I didn't really come in to my own queerness until I was a fully grown adult, and before I was out to any of my friends, fiction/fandom spaces were really the only places I was able to work through the over turmoil I was experiencing. I always enjoy reading about different characters—especially ones I admire or relate to—struggle with their identity, or to find self acceptance!

Anyway, that was kind of word-vomit that I don't really think made sense, so absolutely feel free to ignore! I just wanted to let you know that you're thoughts are appreciated :))

Thank you! 💕

I’m glad you’ve been able to find out more about yourself as you’ve gotten older. I am so happy for people who know who they are at a young age, but there are many wonderful things about ourselves we can learn as we get older. I think stories about older people learning about their queerness and unlearning prejudice are incredibly important.

[crystallinestars]

Hello! I stumbled upon your blog (I dunno still pretty new to tumblr despite being here for years. I don't interact much >_<) while gobbling up the Avenstelle buffet here in tumblr <3.

Anyways. I read the anons asks and your response and omygosh…I've never felt such a relief to find people who shares the same sentiments T_T. Especially the ones with Kaveh and Alhaitham? Gosh. I've never felt so validated about my feelings. Let me get started with Alhaitham.

Okay so in gacha games, (wuwa, hsr, gi, ak, r1999, etc.), I'm a husbando collector. I love collecting the men because they're hot and my eyes love them lol. So…essentially, I also pulled for Alhaitham. I loved him so much, like his personality, his design…I'm smitten. But after how I am bombarded with haikaveh shipping almost every socmed I go, twt mostly, I began to loathe it. Like, I don't really care about shipping. The shipping I only liked is Avenstelle in hsr, yet the incessant shoving of Haikaveh as canon to my face, even though they are not really canonized, just turned me off with Alhaitham, and subsequently, Kaveh as well even though I wanna love him too :(.

It makes me sad that the fandom pushes the only "correct way" to see this characters. How about us, who just wants to have some pixel husbandos for ourselves (lol sorry for the self insert). Kaveh also looks nice and he seems nice and I wanna love him too seeing as we are of the same profession (I'm an architecture student, hopefully passing our thesis and graduating next year!). I am also still on a mission of finding his mom in Fontaine rn (still waiting, hoyo, still waiting…)

Anyways, I am truly glad to see the same sentiments and knowing that I am not alone in noticing this toxicity happening in the fandom coz, what happened to platonic relationships? I dunno, but I really wanna see a heartmelting one and not a shipping one. Aaa I rambled too much haven't I? I'm nervous since this is my first asks. But I just wanna say that you made me feel safe and my heart is overjoyed. Thank you so much. <3 I'm gonna go for now because it's 12:51 am in my country and I need to sleep hahaha! Have a great day!

(Ah, may I please be 🌊 anon? Thankiees!)

Hello 🌊 anon! Thank you for working up the courage and taking the time to write to me. It made me so happy to read that my discussions with other anons made you feel safe. You are definitely not alone in feeling ostracized by the loud portion of fandom. And oh my gosh, you're an architecture student?! That's so cool! Good luck on passing your thesis!

I completely relate to your feeling of losing the love you had for a character due to their popular ship. I'm a Kaveh girlie, but I also like Alhaitham quite a lot since he's a very interesting and relatable character. Unfortunately, the prominence of haikaveh on every social media I visit, and the obnoxious claims of shippers that they're undoubtedly canon, tainted my view of him. I want to love Haitham, but some days it can be hard because seeing him triggers some negative feelings, though I try to push them down. I didn't care for the ship originally, but the behaviours of it's shippers really ruined my perception of it and BL as a whole.

It's only natural you feel that way since so much of the fandom looks down on self-shipping and gatekeeps characters from us. The way Mihoyo handles Haitham and Kaveh in particular doesn't help the situation for yumejoshi, which makes it feel worse.

The only way I find I can have fun is to block and mute all accounts who support the ships I don't like, and peacefully enjoy the content I like. Don't look at comments or the character tags for the sake of your mental health. It sucks that you have to restrict yourself so heavily, but sometimes you gotta do what you gotta do to keep yourself happy.

If you want to find more people with similar sentiments, feel free to join my discord group! There are lots of people who share your views (and who love Alhaitham), and we also have discussions about fandom and characters, and share fanart and fics. It's a bit like a support group for those of us terrorized by the toxicity of fandom. If you don't want to join, that's perfectly fine. No pressure.

I'm glad you found me, though I'm really curious how that happened lol I don't post any Avenstelle here (though my twt is basically pure Avenstelle and Kavehlumi), so it's a wonder how you found my blog by browsing Avenstelle posts. Regardless, welcome! I'm happy to have you here 😊

[chnt-confessions]

i've never submitted to this blog before, and i truly do apologize for being negative immediatly, i'll follow it up with some positive stuff cus i have some things to saayyyy!!! (also please ignore any spelling or grammar mistakes i do genuienly struggle with that)

but i do dislike ppl who hate joshua, is he immature? yea, can he be annoying? yea, BUT THEY NEVER DISLIKE HIM NORMALLY YKNOW??? you either like him or you hate him with all your being and i think thats unfair, like is he THAT bad?? cus i never found him annoying, tbh i found him super relatable, he's just kind of immature and overdramatic, but there are much worse characters?? like i see more joshua hate than elijah. like ppl hate hearing joshua or want to beat him yet they dont want to do that with elijah?? maybe im just generalizing but its sad to see :(

on the topic of elijah, i actually really like his WRITING.... whenever i say i like elijah i mean how he's written, he's pretty realistic, the antagonists writing in chnt is great, i love the way they act and talk, like up and adam is very cool and i look forward to seeing a lot more of him!! and elijah is very well written and ryan did a very good job with the voice acting and the way elijah speaks GOD. its great, like he's GAHAHFDJFDSHD i love elijah's writing so dearly, and i feel people water him down, like he's a horrible disgusting person. like he's rlly bad and IN MY HONEST OPINION he shouldn't be shipped with ANYONE. because he is that toxic, he has terrible mood swings (and i dont mean to villinize that, but in his case, its not a good trait to have when dating.) and he's obsessive and he's a literal stalker and manipulator and he quite literally dehuminized sydney, he didnt see sydney as a person with feelings, he saw him as something to worship, and who said he wont do that to anyone else??? like yes he would be that way with joshua and up and adam and literally anyone, because he's not mentally well.

ANYWAYS SORRY FOR THE RANT!! i might use this blog again might not but its still fun to look through and the blog runner seems cool and chill!! so just know, this random anon who is obsessed with elijahs writing and rlly likes joshua is with you at all times

no need to apologize fam!! (AND ALSO THANK YEW FOR CALLING ME COOL AND CHILL)

[yakuzacanons]

Hallo! First of all, thank you about headcanons, even though I found this blog just a few days ago, I already read mostly everything and they are wonderful!

And secondly: what do you think about the characters' love language? I get some ideas, but it's very interesting what you can write about it.

Thank you in advance, and have a nice day!

This is so sweet and YES love languages are very good. I'm just gonna be operating off the big 5 basic love languages: words of affirmation, gift giving, acts of service, quality time, and physical touch. I know there are probably other specific offshoots of these but I'm keeping it simple. Thanks for your patience and have a good one!

ALSO I am done with Yakuza 6 and am on Yakuza 7 so 6 related asks are officially ok. Ichiban coming soon, promise.

Kazuma Kiryu: Words of Affirmation

Kiryu isn't always the best conversationalist but he's a really good emotional support person. Great at hearing people out and even better at comforting or motivating them. In his most romantic of moments, he can be quite expressive, even if a little blunt.

Majima Goro: Quality Time

You'd think by the amount of weird and cutesy nicknames he gives everyone, especially his significant other and Kiryu, that he'd be a word of affirmation kind of guy but Majima actually just wants to spend the most amount of time possible with his boo. Spends the night as often as possible. Plus, spending quality time means he's got time to do all the other love languages and more.

Akiyama Shun: Gift Giving

Bless his silly stupid head but Akiyama is sorta no thoughts head empty. Less of a smooth talker and more just really lucky at saying the right thing. Great at planning gifts though, especially experiences like vacations, concerts, or festivals.

Saejima Taiga: Acts of Service

Out of all the boys, Saejima is the most traditionally manly man. Holding the door open, walking on the part of the sidewalk closest to the street, paying for the bill when on a nice date, etc. It's a total contrast to the brutish vibe people tend to get off of him but in reality Saejima is just REALLY nice and he figures there's no better way to say it than just showing it.

Tanimura Masayoshi: Gift Giving

In an ideal world, Tanimura would actually be a quality time type of guy but work gets in the way too much for that to be realistic. He compensates by getting you lots of gifts. Nothing too lavish but lots of small things, like your favorite snack while he was at the store because he thought of you or surprising you with a new CD by your favorite singer. For fancier gifts, they usually have lots of cultural significance than monetary value.

Ryuji Goda: Physical Touch

Even though Ryuji can afford to spoil you rotten with gifts, which he will do anyways, his love language is actually physical touch. The gifts are a nice gesture but its the physical intimacy that carries way more meaning to him personally. He won't go full PDA on you but he'll still hold your hand in public or have his arm around your shoulder. He always finds some way to gain physical closeness to you, even if it's not the most upfront or obnoxiously romantic way.

Nishikiyama Akira: Quality Time

He pretends his love language is gift giving because he wants to impress you but in reality he just wants some one-on-one time, just you and no one else. That becomes rather apparent once he realizes he doesn't have to try hard to seem cool in front of you. Secretly just a cozy little guy.

Mine Yoshitaka: Gift Giving

Total gift giver and not ashamed of it. Has a gift for everything. He's also pretty gentlemanly to acts of service sometimes end up going hand in hand with his gifts. In the bedroom though he's a words of affirmation type of guy. Probably the only one of the guys who distinctly changes his love language when having sex versus just spending time with his romantic partner.

Dojima Daigo: Words of Affirmation

Don't be mistaken, Daigo values quality time a lot but is often not available consistently to actually be with you due to how hectic his work is. Behind his somewhat quiet and hesitant demeanor is actually a man who just wants to sing you the praises you deserve and he will do his best to say so whenever he can.

Shinada Tatsuo: Physical Touch

Cuddle buddy supreme. Would smother you with hugs and kisses if he could. Loves laying his head on your shoulder or just snuggling up to you. In colder weather, he'll totally find excuses to be even closer to you, like holding your hand and putting both of your hands in his coat pocket before saying something dumb like "Now we can hold hands AND be warm!"

[wherewhereare]

This is especially for the newbies. @formdetective went under the the guise of @shefaniscience. She was one of the very early Shefani blogs/fans. I have used a lot of her posts to work on my timelines. I always found that in very many cases, in the beginning, she was not very far off on her discussions of the relationship. She still follows on occasions, but I have not seen her post anything Shefani wise in a very long time. At the request of her followers, she took the lyrics of GAABMH and put forward what she thought were the thought processes that Blake and Gwen were having in relation to, in my opinion, the most important Shefani song. It is the only song written by them with their own personal thoughts deriving the lyrics. It is in keeping with every song Gwen has written to this date. Even though, NBY and HA really fit them, only GAABMH lays out their very real thoughts at the time.

There are a couple of others she did, and if your interested, I can share those also. Her discussions about the lyrics really bring out, from her opinion, what Gwen was feeling and thinking about when she wrote them. Let me know if you're interested. I have found that her most profound statement, paraphrasing a bit here, is that when she met Blake, it was the first time she could write a love song without caveats. She put that out in 2016 while writing the TIWTTFL album.

formerdetective May 13, 2016 Go Ahead and Break My Heart Lyrics Analysis Okay so a bunch of people requested this but I didn’t have any prompts that really fit with what I wanted to say, so here is a text post!!

First of all, I don’t think this song had anything to do with HOW they figured out the next step of their relationship. I know he said he was trying to impress her and “get somewhere with her,” but I think he was just trying to sound charming. I mean, I’m pretty sure he tries to “impress” her like almost every day. Remember when he bought his and hers horses? Or flew overnight to go to her son’s birthday party. Anyway, I think this song is about that process obviously, but I don’t think it’s a part of it. I’m sure it did help solidify things though. <3

So my interpretation of the song comes in the context of all the other things we know. Splash was July, then I’m pretty sure Getting Warmer was in early September, and then Make Me Like You, Misery were September 22 & 23, and Truth was October 23. Also in mid and late September, Blake and Gwen both said some pretty cool/magical things were happening in their lives during interviews.

So anyway that’s kind of where I’m coming from with this analysis. To me, the emotional vibe is the most like Getting Warmer. I recommend listening to that right before this for more of Gwen’s mental state.

Go Ahead and Break My Heart

Blake’s verse: Most people seem to be assuming that Blake’s lyrics mean Gwen was trying to ease off or actually tried to break up with him or something like that. But I disagree. I think Blake’s verse is mostly the result of his own insecurity. Like we know obviously that she was really scared, but I think that was stopping her from communicating, rather than from seeing him.

You know how I’ve gotten what feels like dozens of messages asking/complaining about how Gwen won’t say the word boyfriend/doesn’t want to talk about Blake/isn’t a good speaker? Imagine if you were the person she didn’t want to talk about, trying to talk about it. I love her so much but she is not good at expressing herself in situations that make her uncomfortable. And she was so nervous and confused herself. If you needed answers and were getting sort of circular, non-committal responses, that would be confusing as hell.

Trying to navigate all of that would be especially confusing if you were already super insecure yourself, and in particular were 100% convinced the woman you fell for was out of your league.

So this is the situation they’re left with. Gwen avoids the conversation or muddles her way through it, and Blake takes her nervousness, not as a sign that she wants more, but as a sign that she doesn’t know how to break up with him, because he literally can’t believe she wants to be with him. (poor babe.)

The sun is setting on your last good try: So we know based on her lyrics, and and interviews and how happy they were on the voice in battles/knockouts, things seem to have been pretty great between them…but then I imagine Blake would start to have the dreaded DTR (define the relationship) and she would start to stumble and second guess everything and leave them both thinking WTF:

Here I am with a half goodbye, wonder if you’re really gone this time: See to me this is where his own insecurities come in. Gwen is being wishy washy and unclear, and he assumes the worst. Gwen talks a lot about being broken but she wasn’t the only one who was damaged by their previous relationship.

The problem, too, is that this isn’t the type of partner he’s used to. He’s used to someone more assertive, and not as much of a sensitive cinnamon role. And based on comments he’d make, I don’t think he was used to being the one who needed to lead discussions. Plus, go back and watch some late 2014/early 2015 B interviews. He’s not used to someone being this sweet to him or being so intensely emotional over him.

I mean, because if Gwen’s problem was she was in love with him but didn’t know if he liked her as much, that’s not a reason to dump someone. It’s a reason to be hesitant in messing things up that are already going well. But Blake doesn’t know any of this, so he just thinks she’s too sweet to let him know she wants to break up. Like I said, he assumes the worst because he’s insecure and a bit broken himself. So when she doesn’t give him a straightforward answer he assumes the worst. But it’s actually the opposite.

And just when I’m about to lose my mind

He said in interviews that they were having trouble opening up and letting their guards down, and I think that definitely went for both of them. So he probably didn’t want to push the issue too much, so when he didn’t get the answers he wanted when he tried to talk about it, he just tried to go with the flow even though it was driving him nuts. Like he didn’t want to scare her off, so when he still didn’t know what she wanted at the end of the conversation, he’d just leave it because it was scary to push too much.

There you are again on my phone, moon is rising and you’re all alone: So basically Blake is going crazy worrying but she calls him like right away and wants to hang out some more. Because of course she does. She’s obsessed.

Maybe we can just hang a while, maybe we can make each other smile: But he’s still confused, still insecure, still doesn’t know what she wants, so he’s like we can just hang and see what happens! Like basically, I’ll take anything.

Oh no, here I go: I think ‘here I go’ is here i go falling in love, and it’s a problem because he doesn’t know what he’s gonna get from her. Like maybe she’s just gonna break his heart.

Chorus: So the lyrics of the chorus pretty much sum up Blake’s frustration.

Literally he’s like, “if you want to end this, then just do it.” I’m not gonna type out the whole thing because they are pretty much just one thought. Except for this:

Why are you waiting is it way too hard? See this line especially makes me think it was as much Blake’s insecurity as Gwen’s that was causing them “problems.” She was waiting because she didn’t have any interest in breaking his heart. She just didn’t know how to tell him that (and was also terrified to admit she wanted more.)

But the rest of the chorus just kind of sums up like, I want you completely. So if you don’t want that too, then you gotta go.

Oh but also: You can’t tell me that we’ll still be friends, and maybe someday we can try again. To me this is emphasizing that bb is in DEEP and he’s gonna be so heartbroken that if it’s not gonna continue then that has to be the end of it.

Gwen’s verse: So gwen’s verse is a combination of reassuring him that his insecurities are for nothing, she is literally in love with him, but she’s scared of how much she’s into him. And the lyrics of her verse are why I don’t think she was ever actually trying to say goodbye or whatever. I think she probably had no idea what to do and word vomitted her way through that conversation(s) and he took that to mean she wanted to breakup but felt bad about it, when it was really the opposite.

I never ever meant to get so into you, thought I was using you just to get me through: I think when they first started hanging out and then unexpectedly switched from friends to romance or more likely, some kind of facebook style it’s complicated, gray in-between situation, and she was trying hard to just keep on living in the moment, without thinking about what might happen between them down the road.

You know I’m broken I don’t trust anyone, last thing I needed was to fall in love: So she didn’t start hanging out with him with the intention of falling in love. She needed time to heal, and between that and everything else in her life it’s actually hella inconvenient, but that’s what happened. But it is scary because she has trust issues…which kind of takes me back to what I said about Getting Warmer…she’s not sure she believes she can trust him to love her the way she loves him…the problem she’s had in the past. But that doesn’t mean she’s not in love with him.

You got me dreaming, got me thinkin I’ve got some hope; there is nobody else I wanna get to know: So it’s not like she wants to break up at all. She doesn’t want to see anyone else, or even be without him, because it’s exciting and she’s starting to move beyond living in the moment towards maybe this is gonna be forever. Or maybe this can be what she’s always wanted, unlike the other two tries.

But I’m so scared I don’t know what to do, how did you get me so into you? And this is back to her struggling to let her guard down. Feelings are not the issue. It’s just fear. But still she does have that shred of hope so she doesn’t want to break up.

Then again, with her trust issues, she’s not that confident he won’t break her heart either. But oh no, here I go: it’s pretty much too late for her. She’s too in love to give in to her fear.

Chorus again: So frankly, it would probably be just as well for Gwen too if Blake isn’t gonna come through and give her the love and partnership she wants then she doesn’t have time for this.

Bridge: So literally, those are the reasons each of them are acting how they are. They’re both scared, both having trouble saying exactly what they want (until now), but they’re both in love with each other. There’s your cards: Cards on the table, everything exposed, it’s scary but maybe it’s worth it.

Because even though it ends on the chorus, I take a pretty optimistic view of the end. The bridge asks What are you waiting for? And to me, that’s really the conclusion. They aren’t waiting for anything. Even though it’s hard and it’s gonna take maybe a little time, they have no interest in breaking each other’s hearts.

-the end.

[plumadot]

Fried egg anon, I am also holding your hand <33 We could become beautiful breakfast pizza together... (in a totally normal way) (also breakfast pizza is a thing it has biscuit crust, gravy as the sauce and then like cheese and egg and sausage on it it's so amazing)

ANYWAY PLUMADOT I HOPE THAT BECOMES USEFUL INFORMATION TO YOU ONE DAY. I, like another ask said, saw your art and was like "holy shit that's so soft and squishy and OMG THERE'S MORE BEAUTIFUL ART ON THE REST OF THEIR BLOG" and then I thought "wait, this also seems to be a really cool little internet person. And they say things that can be melancholy in a relatable way, and also things that are wonderful and wise and make my heart happy. You don't find that online very often, if ever..."

Then I followed you and then you made the DND AU WHICH IS AWESOME and you have cultivated such a sweet little community! I think so anyway. I like being a little ant-cat!

I apologize to be cheesy or gushy, but I think you spread light through your wise, kind words and your beautiful art. So thank you plumadot :)

-love anon 🍕

(whatttttt that actually sounds incredible somehow gjfdkgjkdfg)

crying noises,,,, i guess i will try to continue being me then if that's alright ;v; <3 you're really really sweet and ugh i just feel a little comforted now hehe <3 thank youuuu

i really like having such kind and clever folks around gkjfkgjd even though we don't really know each other i love hearing all your thoughts :D thank YOU, pizza <3

[mrs-monaghan]

Hey! Really enjoy your blog.

I don't put a lot of stock into social media interactions as indicators of closeness but then as one of your anons rightly mentioned - the members are also co-workers and public figures who have a responsibility (kind of) to keep up an image of ot7. Given how vocal almost all of them have been about returning as a team in 2025… how does that tie in with the perceived lack of closeness and basic congratulations (on SM) for vmin?

Wouldn't there be some kind of hesitancy from v and Jimin if such a possible lack of closeness existed? Especially since they've been very loud about their friendship/soulmate status and it maybe does hurt on loosing friendships (or maybe not loosing but cooling down of) ..

Also I haven't been here in the fandom for a long time (less than a few months frankly, so maybe my opinions are not that well formed or accurate) but is this lack of closeness something that has been observed by you since some time or is it a new development?

It's a new development for me tbh. For some people they think there has always been something shady going on with Vmin. Like when V said Jimin likes men at a radio station, something that had the potential to go really bad if Jimin hadn't been quick witted with his reply. "I don't like you." But that could be chalked to immaturity and the fact that BTS did not have mouth filters back then. I mean, can u imagine 2023 BTS admitting they watch porn?

Coz I sure can't. The bigger they got the more careful they had to become.

Another example from the past i see people giving is this one. As u can tell from Jimin's face he wasn't expecting that question

I would go as far as to say he was taken aback. As we all know Jimin is sensitive with the weight topic. So some people think V should have known that. But as usual Jimin diverted the situation and the interview continued.

But what if this was just their dynamic back then? Picking on eo? Like when every member was asked who they would introduce their sister to and they all said Jimin except V. And that other time Jimin was asked what he would do if he was king for a day he said he would make V his slave so he could stab him?? 😂😂 I can't remember exactly what he said but it was something along the lines of making V suffer. For soulmates they sure used to fight alot. 😂

I have always found them to be cute and adorable but even as u watch their early content u will notice V treats JK now the way he used to treat Jimin. He used to be all over Jimin, used to tell him I love u all the time, used to always choose Jimin, etc. But Jimin seemed to have put up some boundaries between them in recent years. If this has to do with JK, idk.

Because Jimin is not as touchy feely as he used to be... with all of them not just V. So this skinship part of things could be Jikook related. Yes I know he kissed Jhope on his birthday but I dare u to find JK "jealous" moments when it comes to Jhope. Real ones, not out of context ones. They are close to none. Very, very, few. JK doesn't have an issue with Jihope moments.

While we are on the topic have u guys ever noticed when Jhope hugs Jimin he turns his body so they're not hugging front to front but rather front to side?

So yes... I wonder what's Jikook related and what isn't. 🤔 maybe Hobi knows how JK can get? Idk. Just food for thought.

Anyway, I digress. Back on the Vmin topic. I honestly didn't see it as anything. Not even after Jikookers started having an issue with it. But now it's kind of hard to ignore. He really is doing it on purpose and I can't help but side eye him a little bit. U know?

But like u said, would Jimin want to come back as ot7 if there was animosity between them? I think from the latest ot7 content (Jhope BB) its safe to say there is no animosity.

I'm not sure i answered your question but I'm not the best person to ask this. Because I didn't have an issue with this until I saw he keeps doing the same thing over and over without fail.

But I still maintain my stand that I hold nothing against the man as long as Jikook continue to be okay with him. And that seems to be the case rn. So if Jimin and JK don't have an issue with V, neither do I. Haters will always hate no matter what. But I can and will listen to other Jikookers who have an issue and I do see where they're coming from.

[thefandomenchantress]

My DRDT Character Ranking

I’m not going to explain my reasoning for every character but I do want to explain some of them (I’m so nervous to post this but oh well).

-First things first: I don’t dislike any DRDT character. I think they’re all wonderful. However, for characters like Arturo and especially Mai I’m going to need more backstory to like/understand them. I feel like right now I can’t really like Arturo since we don’t know too much about him besides his whole beauty shtick, which I honestly don’t find all that funny most of the time. I really want to know what the deal with his sister is, though. As for Mai…We don’t know much about her at all, so she’s just kinda meh for me right now. I like her design, though.

-I’d be lying if I said Ace wasn’t on a whole tier of his own. The sheer amount of Ace content on this blog probably proves that. He’s definitely morally questionable, but that makes him so much more interesting to me!! I feel like most of the fanbase either loves or despises Ace, and I’m definitely on the love side. Not because he’s hot (He was my favorite even when he had that Jimmy Neutron hair style), but because I think his mentality and personality have so much depth and are so much fun to analyze and think about.

-I’m one of the people who only started really liking David after Ch. 2 Ep. 11. I thought he was interesting and all that before, I still liked him, but Ep. 11 David is so entertaining and I was cackling at most of his lines (Especially the ‘What else do you want, Teruko, my hand in marriage?’ and ‘Who cares about your stupid fish?’ Lines).

-Whit is probably one of my biggest DRDT kins, since I often deflect with humor and really like puns. Honestly I’m surprised he’s not my favorite character. I really hope he gets an arc about how it’s okay to be sad and stuff. I definitely think Whit’s going to be a survivor, but he may lose Charles along the way.

-J definitely has my favorite design of the cast, so she gets extra points for being very pretty. But I think her backstory is pretty cool, too, and I totally relate to hating dresses. In my opinion, they are pure evil and made only to make you suffer. >:(

-I really like how Eden isn’t portrayed to be naive or anything, she knows the world can be evil, but she chooses to see the good anyway. Pure sunshine characters like Eden usually get on my nerves, but she strikes the balance between optimistic but not ridiculously optimistic just right.

-If Min hadn’t died so early on, I probably would’ve put her even higher, but not seeing her character as much as I’ve seen the others definitely works to her detriment for me. Her bonus episode was super interesting, though, and I think she’s super cool overall. I love her design, too, because I’m a sucker for baggy clothing in character designs.

-I feel like I could grow to like Xander more, since it seems like he had some sort of role in the killing game in his bonus episode, but much like Min, limited screen time brings him down a bit. I think that since mirroring chapter 1 of TTH is such a common thing in fangans, I was sort of expecting him to die right away and therefore didn’t let myself get too attached. It was still a really cool spin on the chapter one THH murder, though.

-I have a love-hate relationship with Teruko. I love her because she really stands out among the hopeful, optimistic protags that we usually get. I hate her because thanks to her not trusting anyone, we can’t get close to other characters and learn more about them like we usually would. One time this really bothered me was when Ace was revealing Nico tried to kill him in the cafeteria, but we didn’t get to see most people’s initial reactions because Teruko left the room. But I still really like her despite all that, and I think her arc is going to be very interesting to watch.

-I really like Nico, they’re just not my favorite. Which is kinda weird since Ace and Nico are so similar, yet they’re at opposite ends of the list. I definitely think I’m going to grow to like Nico more, especially now that they tried to kill Ace. I can’t wait for the new character depth we’ll see from them.

-MonoTV is definitely one of my favorite fangan mascots ever. It’s both funny and has a creative design, and they casted the voice actor for it perfectly.

Aaaaaand that’s it. I really love the whole cast of DRDT so honestly the tier list was sort of hard to make. While my opinions will undoubtedly change in the future, I think this is a pretty accurate ranking for me at this point in time.

[starstruckserenity]

hello! i’d like to request an imagines of kokichi x reader that has quiet bpd. sorry if this costs you research on the bpd subtype, i was just really curious on this dynamic. you can either make them platonic, romantic or a little bit of both! idm ^_^

btw, your blog looks really cool! definitely interested in seeing more of your writing. /gen

hello!! ^^ thank you so much for your request. this request in particular stood out to me, as i can relate to what you may be going through. i truly hope you are feeling okay. you are VERY loved and very very important. you may not know me, but i love you. /p please remember that you are worthy of care.

thank you so much, again!! you really are so, so sweet <3

general trigger warning ; implications of suicide and s/h, deprecating thoughts and actions

*if you are triggered by any of these topics, please refrain from reading this! if you are comfortable enough, you may read under the cut. thank you! please take care of yourself!*

Kokichi tried to convince himself he didn't care about anything or anyone, forcing himself to laugh at others' misfortune. He practically blocked every important person in his life out, discarding them like needless waste. He was utterly selfish. He made himself believe no one deserved his precious time, much less his pity.

But how could he ignore you when you were struggling so much? When it was so blatantly obvious that you needed someone, anyone?

Ouma had always kept an eye on you from afar. He hated the feeling of utter worry you evoked into him. You two had barely exchanged any complete sentences to each other, your conversations merely consisted of Kokichi greeting you in the halls. You considered him to be a casual acquaintance. To all of your classmates, you seemed like any normal person. Sure, you were a bit shy, but isn't everyone a bit quiet from time to time? But Kokichi could see right through you.

There was something about you that made him feel the need to watch you. When you were alone, you were constantly nervous, constantly quiet, constantly deep in thought. He had this weird sort of mental complexity that made him feel he had the duty of protecting you.

It was a quiet morning, and you were sitting by yourself in the courtyard. It was cold, and you were sure no one was awake yet. You enjoyed the quiet, but in all honesty, you wish you weren't alone. You desperately wished you could speak to others, but when given the chance, you instantly backed out. This was such a common experience to you, that with every new person you meet, you instantly expect the worst to happen. You braced yourself for the most horrible outcomes possible.

You felt as though you didn't deserve someone to hold onto, they would just leave you in the end. They all did. As much as you wanted someone to talk to, you couldn't risk getting hurt again. You were sensitive. You didn't know what you would do if you got hurt again. Your heart has been ripped apart over and over and over and over again. All that is left is a painful, lump of muscle that ached and throbbed in your chest. The only thing you could feel was the slow, gentle beating that ricocheted from your chest and throughout your body.

Why did you have to feel like this, anyway? Why can't you just be normal? Happy? At the very least, why couldn't you be okay? Did you do something to deserve this?

Yes, of course you did. You deserved to feel this way. You obviously did something to disturb the peace of the world with your mere presence. You were a burden to every single individual you came into contact with. You couldn't handle the guilt anymore. You couldn't handle the pain you had to endure with every breath you took. You had to do something, and quick. You should just go to your room and do what you've done so many times before. Fuck. You should just end it all, no one would miss you anyway---

You suddenly felt the weight of someone sitting beside you. You panicked, struggling to wipe the fresh tears dripping down the sides of your face. You attempted to compose yourself, slowly lifting your head up to see who you were dealing with.

"You look rough." Kokichi muttered.

You tried your best to not let his snide remark hurt you, so you just stared at him with a bewildered expression painted across your face. He had never really talked to you beforehand, so why? Why was he here now? ...Was it fate? Oh god, is he going to make fun of you? Another tear slipped and made its way down your cheek, the fear of being tormented was contaminating your thoughts. You wanted to run, but you were stuck to the bench.

"I'm... so sorry that you have to see me like this." Was all you could stutter out. It took all of your willpower to not burst into tears again.

Kokichi's expression softened. "Hey, hey. It's alright. I'm not gonna hurt you, or anything."

Was he lying? He had to be. As much as you liked him, you knew he was a liar. You gazed at him intently, looking for any signs of insincerity but was left with a blank stare. So he really was being truthful, huh...?

"...Since I'm already here, you might as well tell me."

"Huh?" You questioned.

"Tell me... how you're feeling. I guess." He said, shifting uncomfortably. He knew he probably sounded so fucking stupid right now, mentally cursing at the fact he absolutely embarrassed himself in front of a person he liked.

"I'm fine." You said through clenched teeth, your heart beating quickly. You shook in surprise at the amount of attention he was giving you.

"Come on, don't be silly. I know you're not okay. Uh, even though we might not... know each other very well... yet... I'm willing to listen to you. So don't waste this opportunity, alright? It's one you may never get to experience again." He joked around, trying to be careful with his choice of words.

And after he spoke those words, you caved in. You did something you haven't done in so long. Something so terribly selfish in your eyes. But you were so desperate. You confided in him. You let out all of your thoughts, spilling your feelings onto him like a running faucet that refused to stop.

You got so lost in your passionate ramble, screaming broken sentences and profanities into the palms of your hands. And he just sat there and listened. He listened until you were still, until your tears dried and left wet patches across your face and clothing.

Once he knew you were calm, he wrapped an arm around you, pulling you in close.

"I'll be here for you from now on," He whispered in your ear before slowly helping you out of your seat. "Don't worry."

And so, you began talking to Kokichi every day. Since he was already aware of your situation, he decided to take the time to inform himself on ways to provide a helping hand whenever you suffered through a breakdown or anything of the sort. Your friendship grew stronger with every conversation you had.

If you were feeling angry, he let you ride out the anger until you felt satisfied and helped you work through the conflict as a pair. If you were feeling shameful or unusually quiet, he would implore you gently into telling him how you feel, so that he could reassure you that you hadn't done anything wrong and that everything you were feeling was totally valid. If you felt vulnerable, he would be there to hold you for as long as you needed.

He constantly made sure to tell you that you were more than enough. And when he finally, finally confessed his love for you after, he promised that he would never leave your side. And it is a promise he is more than willing to keep.

[simply-windy]

HI HI ITS SO FUN TO TALK TO YOU AGAIN!!! it’s really fun talking to you anyways :DD

how many times am i gonna thank you for feeding my phighting hyperphix with almost every one of your blogs? no idea. am i ever gonna stop? no, no i don’t think so

I LOVE YOUR ART TOO ITS SO COOL <3333 your style is super nice and all of your designs are pretty cool!!! especially with how you incorporate other characters’ elements / colors n stuff into to symbolize their relation!!!

how have you been these past couple weeks my friend?

- 💥🥭 (hehe questions questions!! always nice catching up :3) (can you tell i’m having fun the the coloured text? hehehehe-)

WHY DO YOU SEEM TO KNOW HOW TO PULL MY HEARTSTRINGS AND MAKE ME WANNA CRYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY WHY ARE YOU SO NICE TO MEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE STOOOOOOOOOOOOP IT <33333 Listen I'm not only feeding YOUR hyperphixation, but feeding my OWN hyperphixation as well!!!! We're both being fed well in this house!!!!! Also thank you for liking my art so much!!!! I love trying to put little bits of symbolism/elements into my designs bc it's just something I enjoy doing! If I ever make a personal design for Coil, I plan on trying to add little elements of Skate and Steampunk into it! Also I've uh- I haven't been the best if I'm being honest, still not feeling the best right now but I'm trying. I'm hopefully gonna push out a doodle or something today if I'm lucky!!!!! I should prolly reblog some of my old art as well. I might write somethin' up too! But I haven't decided what to write. I am happy with this new Phighting oc I made.... Cello beloved you're soooo girlboss people should TALK TO YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Hopefully you've been faring better than I have! [Also yes I can tell you're enjoying that colored text so much]

[arsonisticscholar]

Hii! I think I can kind of explain the hurricane family, but a lot of this is just from my experience, so idk.

The Hurricane Family is a Tumblr family! What does this mean? You decide for yourself!! Most of us have one common interest, which is LU (or just LoZ as a whole)! So this means that we make a lot of inside jokes about Link. I’m pretty sure the top favorite Links among HF members are Wind, Leg, Sky, and Wars? I do remember there being a bunch of Team Time-rs in here too lol. Anyways, most of the time people in the HF just. Do stuff on Tumblr ig. For example, Wars Angsting™️ (which you shouldn’t worry about), the scheming blog (you shouldn’t worry about this either), and the massive amount of Wind fans who take every opportunity to squish The Boy (this is very important)!! Most people here have big-time hydration issues though, so that’s a really good way get them back if you want revenge for any reason at all! Initiating spontaneous loving hours is also a really great option!! Sometimes we do fun stuff like having a HF feast (and maybe poisoning everyone with Parmexpiredmilkup shhhhhhh)!!! There is a fictional house called the Hurricane House where most family members live in the daydreams of myself and maybe others. You can really just make up your role and interact with people and you’re good to go! There is a Discord too!! Squiggle and Social are the “parents”, but they’re easily overthrowable, and unfortunately too responsible to spend all their money on a giant wheel of Parmesan. There are many people in the HF, and new members are constantly getting schlorped every day! Also, make sure to watch out for anti-Parm propagandists, and the Australians!! (You can tell who by them talking about fairy bread.) There’s also Baby Ornament Fanart, so many things related to Parmup, singing showcases, so many talented authors and artists who downplay their work for no reason at all, people who seem to be allergic to the idea of sleep, people who sleep too much, I’m just naming things at this point but I hope this was helpful to you!!! I’m sorry for writing too much if this was too much too. SOMEBODY PLS TELL ME IF I FORGOT SOMETHING

from a HF member who’s too shy to reblog the post because you. You are too cool for me.

Tysm!! This sounds sarcastic but I seriously appreciate the long winded explanation I really needed that lol

Also I’m torn between being touched and incredulous because omg someone thinks I’m cool~~ and …I’m literally the lamest person ever lol