#anyway expect more ramblings abt him when hes barely mentioned

[just-null]

noritoshi stansism so true

i love every character in jjk equally, Noritoshi (JR) and not Noritoshis! idk what youre goin on abt

[dastardlydandelion]

Where did the idea come from for primis tenebris flos? Did you imagine it would be such a hit?

uh, well, you! 😊 i mean, ur the reason it’s a series, anyway. more or less. but posting the first fic? mmm...shit, okay, so. i was running into a rut with some of my original stuff and i don’t think i consciously made the decision to take a break from gorror but it kinda happened anyway and around that time, i just so happened to watch some edit on youtube and that’s when i saw billy for the first time, like rly. like, i already kinda vaguely knew of him bc st is v popular, yk, and his lifeguard whistle is an add-on in dbd. but like, *this* was the first time i rly saw him, this mep edit with that clip of him screaming defiantly whilst being skewered at the fucking meat spider with all retro lightning and funky black blood, so i was like, ‘ooh cool, what’s this?’

(not to mention it reminded me of the p iconic “you can’t kill me!” scene in vikings) 

and then that set me off on this journey where i was looking at more st clips and reading on the st wiki and reading some recap/review stuff on misc internet spaces and like, ofc during that journey i saw susan and i was like ‘ooh, u pretty,’ and...and yk, the gears are kinda going now. and troubled familial dynamics are v interesting to me, not to mention smth i already had experience writing and then it’s like, okay, how do i get them in the same room?? 

running with the idea billy survives seemed like a p good bet. plus an interesting place to enter from susan’s pov since she’s gotta reconcile her perception of her stepson with his doing the last thing she’d ever expect him to do. and billy’s not in a position to escape interacting with susan even if that’s what he’d prefer. 

i’m aware this is a crack possibility itself, given that billy’s dead af, onscreen last breath n everything, not to mention the implication he was necrotic even before being impaled?? like, evidently this guy guzzled fucking bleach and fertilizer and some of his flesh looks...vaguely necrotic? i read different stuff abt this but tbh i wasn’t comfortable incorporating that part in any way bc by the time my own stepsiser died she’d had a significant amnt of necrosis and thinkin abt it hurts.

but crack possibility or not, whatev. the crack is strong in me. gonna hit my literary crack pipe as many times as i want. uh shit, am i even answering the question anymore? the first part, i did, okay, yes.

to recap: saw an edit ----> went on an st info adventure ----> got drawn to possible troubled dynamics ----> saw a good entry point to explore. 

i am so sorry i rambled all the way to such a simple point, smdh. forgive me. 

second part of the question. did i expect it to be a hit? 

heck no! susan barely exists in st, she’s in two scenes. i didn’t think anyone would want to read anything from her pov. plus i underestimated billy’s popularity. like, don’t get me wrong, i knew he was p popular but i didn’t realize *how* popular. and then, as far as my knowledge, gen fics tend to generate less traffic than ship fics, not to mention genre, like...it’s quiet? it’s mostly dialogue. not very much action.

so i was surprised when it got a bunch of hits! actually i almost got intimidated. felt sorta put on the spot and awkward knowing how many eyeballs were on it. but it was worth working past that. <3 <3 <3

tyvm for the ask! hopei didn’t ramble too much. 

[luciusrnalfoys]

             self-respect leads to self-discipline.              when you have both firmly under your belt, that’s real power

✧*:･ﾟ✧ merlin! is that SAM CLAFLIN? no, it’s just LUCIUS MALFOY the SIXTH YEAR SLYTHERIN ( PUREBLOOD ). we’ve heard rumors that HE ( CIS MALE ) is METICULOUS, SELF ASSURED & INTELLIGENT but can also be very ENTITLED, BIGOTED & SLY. if i had to pick one song to describe HIM it would SUPER RICH KIDS BY FRANK OCEAN. Good luck with the rest of your time at Hogwarts.

INSPO: pinboard and stats page.

TRIGGER WARNINGS: slight mentions of emotional abuse, but they’re not very explicit, terminal illness, murder

AESTHETIC: violin music, well fitted suits, falling asleep when high, polished shoes, lavish gardens, polite smiles, books with highlighted quotes, satin, white peacocks

history

lucius was born as an only child to abraxas malfoy and hemera malfoy néé rowle, who had very little in common. their marriage was political, loveless, a smart move for both parties involved, and with their house so big, their lack of love for each other did not matter all too much. lucius followed two years into their marriage, and was the only link the two had besides their ring and common house --- they both, after all, loved lucius.

whereas his mother’s love was genuine and deep, his father’s is more ... cold and distant and filled with expectations. the latter raised lucius to be the perfect heir, the perfect malfoy, the perfect future pawn in a war. ( abraxas had not joined the ranks himself, but was definitely involved and a supporter, and wanted nothing but to see his son join ). from abraxas, lucius has learned a lot of qualities that do and will make him into the shitty, successful death eater he becomes. from his mother, he’s developed a caring, family-oriented streak.

lucius grew up spoiled and loved, but not perfectly; there was an absence of love between of parents, a toxicity of his father’s love that he never really understood, but always felt. still, he was turning out to be the perfect son --- he kept his back straight and played the violin and read his books and listened, listened so carefully to every word that dropped from his parents’ lips. surrounded by people who were part of high society, lucius was also barely ever challenged to think differently or act differently: all the things he was taught were true, all the things he received, he deserved. the world spun the way it did for lucius, and he saw no reason to try and change any of it, not even then.

going to hogwarts was a good thing: it allowed lucius to expand his mind. he genuinely likes learning, too, and thinks education is very important ( he’d prefer to see him in that headmaster’s office, to be honest ). at hogwarts, lucius continued to mostly stick to the people he already knew, to the people who fit his ideals --- people with a good surname, with talent, with money, with pure blood, and preferably all of those at the same time. while he’s a pretty model student --- he barely ever misses a deadline, gets good grades, is polite --- he’s never been afraid to share the fact that he’s deserving of everything, whereas many others are beneath him.

[ terminal illness, murder tw  his third year was a turbulent one: his mother fell ill, fatally so --- it was a genetic disease, something incurable, and she very soon became bedbound. at the same time, his father took part in the plot that would cause the minister of magic ( a muggleborn ) to fall fatally ill, and lucius was let in on all the details, his father wanting lucius to learn ( there’s more deets abt this on abraxas’ wiki page bc it’s canon! ). it was a year where lucius learned that taking things slow and planning things out was the best way to go about things, but also learned that not even everything in his life was in his or his family’s control. his mother’s illness led to his mother’s sister moving in to help with things around the house, while his father started working more --- he’d no interest in looking after his sick wife, who he didn’t even love too much. it was something that enraged lucius, while his respect for his father was also growing due to the minister thing. anyway. it’s a mess. i can go on abt this for a long time!!! end of tw ]

currently

lucius isn’t really surprised that dumbledore was a drug dealer on the side and is damn glad that he’s gone. not that he really loves mcgonagall either, but he dislikes her just slightly less than he dislikes dumbledore, and knows that the castle could easily turn over a new leaf now that everything is so unstable --- he’s got very high ideals for hogwarts LOL!!! he wants slughorn to be hogwarts BUT OKAY. anyway, lucius is in his sixth year now, ready to work on his NEWTs and anticipate graduation. he’s very focused on his studies and kissing teachers’ asses, and besides that he doesn’t do much but be an asshole?? he sticks with his friends and his little circle a lot, tbh, and besides that mostly just is an asshole to people, lol --- he’s just?? a condescending, entitled son of a bitch, tbh

[ terminal illness tw his mother is still ill, which is very ... tough?? surprisingly? lucius does not like not being in control, is used to being in control of most of the things around him, and this is such an untouchable thing that it just ... IT DRIVES HIM MAD, tbh. he tries not to think about it, compartmentalises his worries, which is easy when he’s at hogwarts, as there’s a literal distance between him and his problems. his emotions/feelings towards his father have grown a bit more bitter, too, though still harbours a lot of respect for him end of tw ]

pretty much sure that he’s gonna join the death eaters once he’s out of hogwarts --- it’s not really something he feels he’s got much of a choice in, anyway. lucius does not think the death eaters are the best way to reach blood purity, but they’re the best way at this moment, and so he will join ( though he will prove to be more loyal to the cause than to voldemort himself, as we know LOL ). anyway, yikes. playing de’s makes me feel sticky

conclusion & ramblings

one time i played lucius in an rp and he was hit three times, which says a lot about him

honestly, while i think he’s an interesting character to write and stuff, i really, really hate him --- he’s the worst person, tbh? smart and capable but ?? out here wanting to contribute to this war in a terrible manner? willing to p shitty things? anyway just know that i will never excuse a messed up thing he does!!!! ever!! 

was once described as a chicken nugget: something that’s pretty good when you look at it without thinking about it, but when you do, you realise it’s nothing but pure trash.

plays the violin ??? loves mythology ??? lowkey a nerd but high key also a nerd, but he’s like “well i just want to better myself, wbu?”

pretentious ass motherfucker who will be condescending about everything -- from hair to gardens to the way your socks match your tie. judging is his favourite, number one hobby, tbh.

basically a rich white guy who uses his privilege to do bad things and get away with them. like, everything that’s wrong in the world rn basically. i Really hate him.

anyway plot w my problematic son and throw shade at him w me

[rurifangirl]

OKAY SOSO I RLY HOPE YOU LIKE READING RN BECAUSE YOU'VE AWAKENED UR LOCAL CATBOY FUCKER !!!!

First of all, he's actually not the one to have the coffee addiction; it's actually Vincent who has It, to mocha specifically 😭(To make this easier; Andrew Is the barista n Vincent Is the other guy)((whos also the investigator siren i think i mentioned a while ago wink wink))

He's. He's like, a golden retriver kind of dude, like not necessarily himbo but the kind of guy to bringing you rocks as gifts <3 Apart from being one of the most caring people I've created so far, he's also very passionate about his job; well if we have to be honest, he's very passionate of all little things. He tries to live everything at it's fullest, or at the very least try to. Even in his lowest moments, he still has something to look up to.

Andrew's more used to a simple kind of life anyways, one to enjoy it's upsides,but welcome it's downsides. To make It short; he's really just, indeed a guy. He has a living and loving family, though due to workjob, he currently lives away from them. They also have a cat named Sparkly who's 4 years old.

His interests include walking into forested places, marine biology and preparring drinks. His favourite animals are cats by the way <3 and he did get a diploma and Is currently still attending collage after taking some years off due to economical problems. (Forgot to mention but he's 24) That's also why he's a barista, since It sorta counts for a partime job and to mantain himself.

He never really expected the barista job, but in the meanwhile, it's not so unpleasent. Surely you always get those overthetop clients but It kinda does bring him satisfaction. There's always a few regulars he talks with; most if not all of them are at least acquantances with the guy.

Most clients are easably talkable, and he can engage in little chit chats with almost all of them. Well, almost all of them. Let's say beforehand in Andrews eyes Vincent was some kind of sketchy regular who wore black as if it's sum saturday cartoon villain and who at precisely 7 am orders his daily mocha, sits down and then walks away when he's done leaving no trace and barely a name to remember .

But yea i can ramble abt them too if you'd like

So sooo normal rn haha vry normal

[punkfistfights]

ok so i talked with @weekend-conspiracy-theorist about this awhile ago, but y’all don’t understand i have so many real, intense Feelings about the ot6 (bitty/jack/shitty/lardo/holster/ransom). like??? it’s such a fucking pure ship and idek if anyone else ships it but I Do and that’s all that matters??????? but also i need to,,,release my hcs to the world. so, here’s some barely coherent ramblings about them (also frog farmer will probs be mentioned bc Yes)

1) ok, so all the separate components got together first, right? zimbits, holsom, shitty/lardo. they formed the way everyone expects them to

2) idk if shitty/lardo or holsom started exploring polyamory first i Just Don’t bc like??? lardo is queer af and def interested in girls & i can see her & shitty having an open relationship but??? ransom is literally so in love with march and with holster and he’s really just,,,anxious abt it???? he feels like he’s doing something wrong, he feels like he’s cheating on holster emotionally and he’s just so stuck in a vvv monogamous view of the world and it makes me sad

3) anYWAYS but yea so zimbits is the last to do anything polyam related bc they’re just so grossly in love

4) and idk what even happens but shitty and jack end up kissing and jack freaks tf out, but when he tells bitty, bitty’s all ��I FUCKING KNEW Y’ALL WERE IN LOVE. I CALLED THAT SHIT” and jack is,,,,confused to Say The Least but yeah ot4 happens (bitty and lardo are the cutest fucking qpp ever, it’s honestly unfair, how are these Tiny Assholes so fuckign adorable?????? what is this shit?? - shitty, at some point)

5) and then one day bitty’s just like,,,,,guys i think i’m into ransom too??? and at this point they’re in a somewhat open relash (bc lardo needs her gfs ok???? she has a vvvv constant stream of gfs and enbyfriends and she has an on-off relationship with camilla) so his signifs tell him to go for it and bitty talks to holsom and long story short in ends with a threesome and an open invitation to join the ot4 whenever they want

6) and they all kinda congregated to the boston/providence area and are vvvv happy and decide to get a giant ass house together (bitty runs his vlog still but now he gets paid for it bc he managed to get a incredibly lucrative sponsorship ntm lardo’s p damn popular & gets lots of commissions & this is STILL ignoring jack’s nhl money)

7) they help ransom through med school and make it so shitty can go pro bono, as well as getting holster to open his own small business (idk what he does but he’s p successful too)

7.5) the frogs and farmer are all in cali and are also in a vvv happy polyam relationship & they’re hella cute and randomly send selfies to the ot6, bc why the hell not??

8) march & holsom have a long distance relationship and she’s with april. she & ransom end up having a daughter together!! march isn’t really interested in raising a kid though and april never wanted children, so she lives with the ot6

9) while the ot6 are all in one big relationship, they def have their primary relationships. so ransom’s daughter calls him papa and holster daddy, but calls the rest of them uncle (or auntie in lardo’s case)

10) eventually bitty & jack decide they want kids too and they have two through a surrogate

10.5) camilla is their surrogate!!

11) while lardo adores her partners’ kids, she doesn’t want any of her own, even a little bit and is perfectly happy to be auntie

12) bitty & jack’s kids (one daughter & one son) consider shitty their third dad (jack is papa, bitty is daddy, & shitty’s pops)

13) jack has def hooked up with tater on more than one roadie. everyone’s vvvv cool w/ it

14) ransom & tater have hooked up too, lbr

15) just,,,everyone is happy and fulfilled and it’s a gr9 relationship with everyone with hella communications and lots of visits from the frogs & farmer (even though they live on the other side of the country)