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[berryhobii]

Hey there :)

I came across you content some days ago and I fell in love with how you write. I have literally read everything you have posted and let me tell you, you don´t disappoint. Thank you for portraying us black girls in the fandom world and allowing us to feel involved in a world where it sometimes feels like we don´t have a voice, it really means the world and reading your work has genuinely made my weekend.

My favourite couple are Y/N and Jungkook from the Late for Work story, and if it´s not too much of a request, could you please write a drabble about them? I don´t have a specific subject in mind, I just like how you write about their dynamic and their personalities.

By the way, sorry if my english is not great, it isn´t my first language. Anyways, thank you so much and keep doing you, you are amazing <33333.

🤧🤧wow thank you so much for your incredibly kind words. And your English is amazing. Don’t ever apologize for that. You could have written it in your native language and I’d find a way to understand it and the words would still be just as special to me❤️I’m so glad you like my work and I’ll continue to do my best for you and every other underrepresented black/brown/dark skinned person out there!

Here’s the Drabble. It’s a Jealous!JK with some suggestive content and loads of compliments about reader/OC! Hope you enjoy!💜

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Jungkook wasn’t a jealous person by heart.

He was always grateful for what he had so he never found reason to be envious of what others had. His parents raised him well and taught him the importance of humility and compassion. He never felt the need to be jealous.

Even when he met you. You were already spunky and free, expressing yourself how you saw fit. You didn’t let anyone tell what to do or how to feel and especially how to dress.

Jungkook loved your sense of style; you could be girly and colorful, posh and elegant, alternative and dark, and so many more. You weren’t limited to one thing. You tried different styles and if you liked it, you wore it and that was that.

Everyone stopped to stare at you whenever you walked, your natural charisma and glow too powerful for people to just pass you.

And Jungkook felt so much pride being able to hold your hand. You were all his and he was yours, the sparkling diamond on your hand speaking volumes.

So why the hell wasn’t it speaking to this store attendant who kept staring at your breasts as you tried to pick out a bracelet for your best friend’s baby shower. You had already purchased gifts for the baby but you also wanted to choose something special for your friend.

You were focused on staring at the choices in front of you, trying to decide which one would match her skin tone the best. Jungkook was only halfway listening, his eyes staring daggers at the attendant who was assisting you. Jungkook didn’t notice the guy ogling you at first, all of his attention on you and trying to help the best he could.

It wasn’t until he just so happened to look up and realize the man seemed a little unfocused that he noticed. Following the man’s eyesight, Jungkook found him to be staring at your cleavage that was pushing against your arm as you leaned over on the display case. Knowing you, you probably didn’t even realize you were doing it, too deep in thought over which one she’d like.

You could be a bit unaware at times, especially when you were with Jungkook. He always made you feel safe so you never felt the need to be too aware. He would protect you no matter what and you settled into that.

And you were so in love and obsessed with him that you never even noticed when someone else was flirting with you or ogling you. Jungkook was the only pair of eyes you felt and/or cared about. You were also used to people staring at you so you’ve learned to drown out the stares. It was easy enough to do.

Good thing you had Jungkook.

“I think pink gold is cute but white gold is more classy. What do you think, baby?” You glanced over to your husband who seemed to be staring off into space. He did that sometimes. You called it his Jungkookie sense like Spider-Man. You thought it was adorable.

He hummed, blinking before looking down at you and smiling. “I think white gold is perfect, princess.” He directed his focus to the attendant whose eyes were still admiring your bosom.

Ugh.

You smiled brightly at your husband before nodding and turning back to the attendant. “I’d like to see this one in white gold, please.”

“Of course, miss.” He smiled politely and moved to retrieve the bracelet from a cabinet away from both of you.

Jungkook relaxed for a moment. He hated that gross feeling that was building in his stomach. He was very secure in your relationship; never worrying about you cheating or flirting with other people. Not when you’d come home and suck his cock just because you missed him. You were obsessed with him and you made sure he knew it.

He did. He truly did. He just hated how this guy was staring at you when it was obvious you were taken. It just felt disrespectful. Couldn’t he try to be more subtle or just not look at taken women like you were some piece of meat?

He couldn’t relax long since the man came back with the jewelry.

“I love it! Don’t you think it’s so wonderful, baby?” You bounced on your toes, clapping cutely. The motion caused your breasts to bounce, Jungkook’s eyes cutting to the man who was smiling sleazily at you.

Jungkook could feel his anger bubbling up but he swallowed it down. He didn’t want to make a scene even though he really wanted to punch this guy in the face.

He gritted a smile. “I do. It’s beautiful. Your friend will love it.” He directed his attention back to the guy, reaching into his pocket to take out his card. “We’ll take it.” He ordered, slapping his black card on the counter. The man flinched, finally locking eyes with Jungkook’s menacing ones. He gulped, sweat slicking up his palms.

You made a noise of surprise. “Baby, what?“

“Do you want something too, princess? I’ll get you whatever you want.” He never broke eye contact with the man who was starting to turn pink under the heat of Jungkook’s gaze.

You blinked a few times before a knowing look formed on your face. You hid a smile behind your hand. Adorable.

Leaning over the display case again, you pointed at a ring. “That one. It’ll compliment my wedding ring nicely, don’t you think?”

“I do. Could you wrap them please? With a nice bow?” The devilish smile he sent towards the man was enough to send a shiver down his spine. While the smile looked polite on the outside, the attendant could feel the intensity that radiated off of the hunk of man.

The attendant ducked his head, meekly whimpering out a, “right away” before scampering off to retrieve the boxes and wrapping.

After paying, Jungkook led you out of the store, making sure to deliver a slap to your ass that he’s sure the attendant saw.

“You’re cute when you’re jealous, baby.” You teased once you two had gotten back in the car. Jungkook started the engine, pulling off with one hand on the wheel and the other on your thigh.

He scoffed. “I wasn’t jealous. I just don’t like when people stare at you too hard.” His grip tightened on your thigh making you bite your lip. Gosh, your husband was so sexy. And him jealous took his sexy meter from a 10,000 to a 10 Million.

“They can look all they want. You’re the only one who can touch.” Grasping his hand on your thigh, you moved it between your legs, his fingers coming in contact with a wet spot on your panties.

He almost swerved the car, groaning as he tried to stay focused on the road. “How long have you been wet?”

“Since you slammed that card down on the counter.” You unbuckled your seatbelt, leaning over the console to come closer to him. Your tongue darted out to lick a broad stripe up the side of his neck, teeth biting at a fading hickey. “Now why don’t you pull over so you can take what’s yours?”

A wolffish grin spread across his face. Reaching a hand down, he rubbed over the bulge in his pants.

“I’ll start with your mouth. Get over here and show me.”

And you did. The entire ride home.

[causenessus]

GOOD MORNING 🗣️🗣️ i know its like 6 something am but we're gonna ignore that bc i physically cannot fall back asleep (curse insomnia)!! make sure you eat enough today and drink water! idk when you're gonna answer this ask but im assuming at nighttime like usual so dont forget to take your meds 🙂‍↕️

omg recently ive been having matcha a concerning amount like i went to an asian store like a WEEK ago and now like every day im making something with it... it's probably fine though?? i wasnt even a big matcha enthusiast before but i remembered seeing a post from you and literally all it said was matcha break and i was like "hm! that sounds pretty good tbh now i want matcha." so here i am, after buying matcha. addiction isn't pretty/j

ANYWAY when i was trying to fall asleep i randomly remembered when u put up a shelf and accidentally messed up a tag on your post about it😭 i think it said something like "if you're rintarou suna i don't care" and when i read it i was like oo that's not! and then u reblogged it with the correction BUT APPARENTLY IM THE EXCEPTION ‼️ i think we got married under that post LMAOAOAO so i remembered all of that when i was trying to fall asleep and then i js started laughing it was so stupid omg,, pushed back my sleeping like 15 minutes but it was worth it bc it was funny

SO ITS MY FIRST DAY BACK TO SCHOOL TODAY OH MY GOSH 😨 itll probably fine im just dramatic but theres sm people i do NOT wanna see. like keep them far away from me or ill flip my shit type of not wanna see 🥰 so thats always fun yk! we're in this together now ness 🙂‍↕️

HAVE A GOOD DAY!! <333

HELLO HELLO SAV!!! i'm sorry for how long it took me to answer your ask </33 PLEASE MAKE SURE TO EAT AND DRINK AND TAKE YOUR MEDS AS WELL!! THANK YOU SO MUCH LOVE <3

matcha addictions are really not pretty LMAO for my wallet or anything else but honestly i love it!! and i'm so happy to have converted you!!! they're super super good i actually love that their bitter and honestly i will drink any matcha no matter if it's sweet or unsweetened 😭😭 my addiction is so bad that i even drink like two a day usually but at least....it's energizing...!!!!! so i hope you're enjoying your matchas <33

AND LMAO THE WAY I BURST OUT LAUGHING ABOUT THAT STORY YOU WERE REMEMBERING 😭😭😭 I'M GLAD TO HAVE MADE YOU LAUGH BC THAT WAS NOT A PRETTY MOMENT WE DEF GOT MARRIED UNDER THAT POST!! <33333 but i went back to like read my post twirling my hairs like "omg i love suna so much 🥰" and then reread the post like "OMG HOLD ON WAIT I SAID I DIDN'T CARE ABOUT HIM </3" but he knows i meant well 😔😔 and i corrected it in the end!!

AND I TOTALLY GET IT YOU'RE NOT DRAMATIC AT ALL!! THAT'S HOW I FEEL LIKE 24/7 LIKE YES I'VE BEEN BACK IN SCHOOL FOR A WEEK and still everyday i wake up like "man i am not looking forward to seeing these people today" like they never get better </3 in fact, they get worse 💀 I HOPE YOU HAD A GREAT DAY!!! AND LUCKILY IT'S FRIDAY SO I HOPE YOU HAVE A GOOD WEEKEND AS WELL!! AND GET TO REST A LITTLE BEFORE THIS NEXT WEEK STARTS </3

[johnsbleu]

Hold My Hand: John Wick x Reader Chapter 124

warnings: smut lmao hmh masterlist

The weather today is actual perfection. It’s warm and sunny but just enough breeze that it’s not too hot, so you’ve been spending most of the day out on the patio reading a few magazines that John picked up for you. He’s at work today but he should be home pretty soon. He really didn’t even need to go in today, but he loves working at the shop. He’s probably worked there more than you lately -- to be fair, you are pretty pregnant.

Your pregnancy is almost over, which is a little bittersweet. It just went by so damn fast. You thought you’d have a super relaxed pregnancy but you feel like you haven’t really...relaxed. You got to relax a little in Greece, but it was cut short. Now that it’s the final few weeks, you hope to relax more. You still have a few things to get done, but you’re not going to stress over them.

Nope. Not at all. Well…maybe. Yeah, you probably will.

John’s Mustang can be heard from down the street, so you know he’s coming home now. Bleu perks up and begins to wag his tail when John pulls into the driveway, then he gets up, grabs his tennis ball in his mouth and quickly rushes over to John as he parks the car. You watch the neon ball as it gets thrown across the yard, then you laugh when Bleu takes off and chases it.

“Hey,” you smile as you look over at John, and he gestures to you stretched out across the love seat, “Yeah, I’m relaxing.”

John jokingly gasps, “What?”

“I know, right?” you laugh as you close the magazine and put it down, “I feel like I haven’t just chilled out, so I’m doing that now.”

“You picked a great day for it,” he says, kissing you as he lifts you legs and sits down on the loveseat with you. He rubs your legs as he looks around the yard, then he looks at you and rubs your belly, “So, what have my girls been up to?”

You gesture to yourself, “This is literally it. Remember, relaxing.”

“Right,” he laughs, nodding his head, “Well, I was thinking about it earlier and we never got in for our hospital tour.”

“John!” you groan as you tilt your head back and close your eyes, “I’m relaxing! I don’t need to go to the hospital and see everything I’ve already seen.”

John nods his head when you look at him, then he shrugs a little, “I get that, but I need to see everything. I need to know where you’ll be, who I go to when I need to get help for you, I need to know what floor to bring you to, where the baby is going to be and what they do with her if something goes wrong. I need to know every detail.”

You smile softly as you nod since he’s right, “Okay, yeah, let’s do it.”

“I just want to know that you two will be taken care of.” he says, and you smile as you nod your head. “I’m still going to be with you the whole time, but I’m putting a lot of trust in these doctors and nurses to take care of you and her.”

You sit up more and lean over to kiss him, “I know, I am as well. Doctor Mendez has our trust though. She knows what she’s doing.”

John nods his head as he looks down at your hands and rotates your ring, then he looks over at you, “I can’t lose you.”

“You won’t. I’m having a baby, not ripping myself open -- well, I…I mean, I kind of am,” you say, and John lets out a small laugh, “I’m just having a baby. People do it all day long, every single day. I’m nervous too, but I’m going to be in the best hands and I’ll have you by my side the entire time.”

“So, you’ll call them in a bit?” he asks as you laugh.

“I will,” you smile as you move to lean your head against his shoulder, “I’ll try to get us in tomorrow.”

“Thank you,” John whispers and leans his cheek against the top of your head.

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You were able to get a tour scheduled for today and John is thrilled about it. You understand why he’s so nervous and you honestly are a bit nervous too. This is uncharted waters for both you and John, but even more so for him. He never thought he’d be having a baby, so of course this stuff was never on his mind. He’s worried about what will happen if something goes wrong, which isn’t unusual at all. It’s completely understandable as to why he wants to make sure this place is safe for you. He loves the hell out of you!

Holding John’s hand, you walk into the front doors of the hospital and immediately spot a nurse in light blue scrubs with some sort of cartoon characters on them. She smiles when you look at her, then she walks over and reaches out to shake your hand.

“I’m Corinne. You’re the Wicks?” she asks, and you nod as you furrow your brow just a little and wonder how the hell she knew that.

“I’m Y/N, and this is John.”

Corinne smiles as she shakes his hand, “It’s nice to meet you two.”

“It’s nice to meet you too.” John smiles, then he places his hand on your back.

“So, you’ve obviously parked,” she laughs, gesturing over your shoulder, “If you aren’t able to park yourself and walk in, you’re more than welcome to pull up and the valet will park your car for you. Why don’t we head upstairs so I can show you around?”

You nod your head and take John’s hand, then you follow Corinne to the elevator, “Do you do a lot of these tours?”

“I do,” she nods as she stands in the elevator with you, “We’ll be going up to the ninth floor, by the way. Yeah, I do these tours twice a week all day long.”

“That must be exhausting,” John jokes, and you let out a small laugh.

Corinne shrugs, “Yeah, but it’s nice to help new parents feel at ease. Having a baby can be so scary, so if I can help them relax a little, it makes me feel like I’ve done a good job.”

The elevator dings when you get to the ninth floor, and John holds your hand and looks back to make sure you’re okay as he follows behind Corinne. You pick up the pace a little to keep up with John’s long legs, but he slows down when you tug his hand a little.

“Once up here, come to this desk and check in. A nurse will be notified and will quickly come out to get you and determine whether or not you’re in active labor.” she smiles, then she looks down at the papers in her hand, “It says here that you have a private birthing room.”

“We do.” you nod, and John places his hand on your back again, rubbing the lower spot that always gets sore. You’re pretty sure he just does it subconsciously now.

Corinne smiles, then she gestures for you to follow her down the hallway, “Since you have a private room, everything will be done right in here! Labor, delivery, postpartum. We have a comfortable bed for mom, a pull out couch for your guest to stay overnight, and all of the birthing accessories you may need, such as birthing balls, a tub, and squatting bars. We have large windows to allow some natural light, but there’s curtains if it’s too bright for you.”

“This is nice,” John whispers, and you nod as you look around.

You walk over to the bed and lightly touch it as you walk past, then you smile when you see the warming bed that your baby will be placed in after she’s born. There’s a whiteboard on the wall as well where they’ll write her name, time of birth, and her height and weight.

It’s starting to settle in a little more now. You’re having a freaking baby in a few weeks!

“Once baby is born, they’ll get an ID bracelet that matches mom that they’ll wear for their entire stay.” she says, and John nods his head as he listens intently. “We don’t have a nursery, so baby will be in the room with you at all times, which most parents love.”

“Yeah, I want her with us the whole time.” John says as he looks at you, and you nod your head in agreement. “Uh, what about any tests she’ll need?”

Corinne nods, “They’ll come here to do that.”

“And if something were to…go wrong,” John says, and Corinne smiles softly.

“A surgery room is just right down the hall,” she says as John nods and holds his breath. “We’re here to make sure that your labor and delivery goes as smoothly as possible. Your health and safety is our top priority. If you have any questions during, or even beforehand, just let us know. So many people worry about bothering us with questions, but we don’t mind! We’re here to help!”

You look over at John and smile, then you look at Corinne, “We have a nephew who is just over one, is he allowed to come visit? Wait, sorry, I made it sound like he’ll be driving himself. Obviously he’ll be with his parents.”

Corinne laughs, “Of course! We just ask that they check in downstairs on the ground level, then come up and stay in the waiting room until you’re ready to see them.”

You look over at John and shrug a little since you can’t really think of anything else to ask, and he takes a step closer to you and wraps his arm around your shoulder.

“Can she eat after giving birth?” John asks, and you laugh loudly. “It’s a big concern of hers.”

“Yes, absolutely! Of course if your doctor suggests otherwise, then we’ll take that into consideration, but yes, you may eat. We have a cafeteria here, but most people nowadays like to just order something from somewhere else. There’s plenty around here.”

John nods his head, then he looks over at you, “Are cameras allowed?”

“Of course.” she nods, then she lets out a small laugh when you playfully roll your eyes.

“And I’m allowed to stay the night?”

Corinne nods, “Of course, Mr. Wick. As for checking out, we like you to stay for 24 hours so we can get a good look at mom and baby, then you’re free to go.”

You nod your head, then you shrug again when you look at John, “I don’t think I really have any other questions.”

“If you think of any, just give us a call!” she smiles, and you nod. “If you’re ready, I’ll show you to the cafeteria.”

You’re not really sure you need to see the cafeteria, but John smiles when he looks down at you, then he nods his head and takes your hand.

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The rest of the tour went well, and John thought of about ten more questions that he needed answers to. Corinne was very sweet and did a great job at reassuring John that you and the baby will be just fine. He seems a lot more relaxed now, but he still seems like he has something on his mind. He, of course, hasn’t said anything though.

You just had a quick little lunch with your mom while John stayed back home to work on some stuff, but you’re excited to see him. These past few weeks you’ve been feeling a little more clingy than usual, but he doesn’t seem to mind.

“Babe?” you call out to John, “You downstairs?”

“Yeah, I’m down here.”

You smile as you head downstairs to see what John is doing, “Hey, so, I need some guns for hire.”

John sets his bookbinding tools down and looks at you with his brow furrowed and a hint of a smile on his face, “Excuse me?”

“Well, see, there was a really annoying guy at the cafe,” you say as John laughs, then you shake your head, “Nah, I just got a big box on the front step and I can’t pick it up, so I need some guns.”

John laughs when you squeeze his biceps, “That’s the worst joke you’ve ever told.”

“Worse than the time I printed out brown E’s and told you I had some brownies for you?”

“Well,” John tilts his head from side to side, “Maybe not.”

You laugh quietly as you cup his face to kiss him, then you look at the book he’s working on, “This book looks nice.”

John holds it up so you can see the intricate design on the spine of it, then he looks at you, “Think they’ll like it?”

“I do,” you nod, then you stand next to him and gently open it, “The Jungle Book.”

“The client’s wife is pregnant and they have a jungle themed room for their baby.” he says, and you smile as you look at him, “So, he wanted to get her this so they can read it to their baby.”

You smile as you look down at the book, “They’ll love that, and they’ll love this cover. It’s beautiful.”

John leans over to kiss you and take the book from you, but you pull it away and smile when he laughs, “Stop teasing me, Mrs. Wick.”

“You look very handsome today.” you whisper as a smile tugs at John’s lips, and he smiles wider when you lick your lips.

He knows you want him.

You hold John’s gaze for a moment, then you raise your eyebrows as John sits up more. You bite your bottom lip as you move closer to stand between his legs, then you lean down and kiss him, wrapping your arms around each other.

“I think you should take me to our bedroom,” you whisper in his ear, and he leans back to look at you, “Unless you wanna take me here.”

“Here will do just fine,” he says softly as he moves his hands up your thighs underneath your dress. He grips your ass as he leans up to kiss you, then he holds your gaze as he tugs your underwear down until they fall down to your ankles.

Inhaling deeply, you slide your hands up John’s biceps to his shoulders then down to his pecs before you reach down to pull his shirt over his head. John is watching your every move with the most intense and lust filled gaze, and you shiver a little when you look back into his eyes.

John slides his hand between your legs as you lean back a little and put your right leg over his lap, then you bite your lip to curb a moan when John flicks his fingers over your clit. You hum as you tilt your head back and close your eyes, then you laugh when John pulls your strap down on your dress so he can see your breasts.

“Come here,” John stands up and leads you over to the couch, and you bite your lip when you see his jeans snug against the erection in his pants.

“What do you want?”

John looks into your eyes as you pull your dress off, then he gently touches your cheek, “I want you to get on your knees.”

You smirk as you look at him, then you kneel down in front of him while he unzips his jeans to pull himself out. John lets out a small laugh as you look up at him, then you reach out to stroke him in your hand as he looks down and watches. You take him into your mouth while maintaining eye contact with him, but he eventually closes his eyes and tilts his head back, letting out a small moan.

“Fuck…” he whispers as he looks down at you, then he reaches out to move your hair a little before placing his hand on your head, “Yeah, keep doing that.”

You take John deep in your throat and nearly gag, then you sit back and stroke him as you catch your breath for a moment. He reaches down to help you stand up, then he sits down on the couch to get his shoes and pants off.

You wait for John to get ready for you, then you hold John’s hands as you straddle his waist, “You still think I’m sexy, right?”

“Yes! Absolutely. Always,” he whispers, and you smile softly as you lean against his chest and kiss him. He reaches between the two of you but keeps his lips pressed to yours, then he slowly slips himself between your legs as you let out a small moan. “Shit, you feel good.”

“You’re so hard. Fuck, you feel so good!” your eyes roll shut as you tilt your head back, and you suck on your bottom lip and hum when you feel John’s lips all over your neck and chest. The moment his tongue glides over your nipple, you moan loudly and roll your hips faster. “Mm, I love you.”

John watches you intensely as you look at him, and he looks down at your lips when you part them to let out a moan, which causes John to smile proudly. You rest your arm on John’s shoulder as he shifts in position a little, and you smile when you look at him.

“You’re so beautiful,” John whispers softly as he moves your hair away from your face, “I don’t know why you ever question it.”

You shrug, “Just get a little insecure sometimes.”

“Well, don’t ever think that I don’t think you’re beautiful,” he whispers as you smile, “You’re the most beautiful woman I’ve ever laid my eyes on.”

“Thanks, baby.”

“Can you lay down?” he asks softly, and you nod your head. You lay down on the couch and prop yourself up enough as to not put pressure on your spine, then you smile when John leans down to kiss you. He slips back between your legs with a low moan, then he leans down to kiss you again, “Perfect fit.”

Your eyes roll shut as John looks down at you, and you smile and open your eyes to look at him, “God damn, you’re perfect.”

“Yeah?” John leans closer for more as his eyes twinkle a little.

Any time this man gets a bit of praise, he can’t help but ask for more. He needs more.

Nodding your head, you reach up and cup his face, “You’re fucking me well. You always do. You always know exactly what I want and how I want it. You fit so well between my legs.”

John smiles as he leans down to kiss you, “And you’re such a good girl.”

“My man…” you whisper, then you run your tongue over your top lip as he smiles, “So good to me.”

Pumping his hips harder, John furrows his brow and closes his eyes, then he looks down at you and holds your gaze as you both feverishly grasp one another and kiss. You moan loudly into John’s mouth when he slows his thrusts so you can feel every inch of him, and your body jolts when you feel his thumb rubbing circles on your clit. Your eyes roll shut as you allow the pleasure to take over and you hum when John leans down to kiss your chest and neck, sucking on all the right spots. He moves up to the spot behind your ear that drives you crazy, and you moan loudly as you cling to his back, leaving marks behind on his skin.

“Harder, John,” you whisper to him, and he begins to thrust his hips at a more intense rate, which causes you to let out several loud moans. You look up at him and try your best to hold his gaze, but your eyes roll shut again, “You feel so good inside of me, baby. Please don’t stop!”

John lets out a small laugh, “Can’t promise that.”

You slide your hands up John’s chest and smile at him, “Come whenever you’re ready.”

“About to be,” he chuckles again, then he leans down and kisses you as he moans against your lips. He cups your face in his hand as he kisses you, then he reaches down and maintains eye contact as he rubs your clit, causing you to moan loudly and shake as you come.

“Oh, fuck!” you moan loudly, clinging to John, then you nod your head and look at him, “Keep going, keep fucking me.”

John puts his head down and groans as he watches himself, then he looks up at you before he clenches his jaw and squeezes his eyes shut, jerking his hips hard before they shutter as he fills you up.

“Oh, fuck.” John moans, then he lets out a big breath and looks at you before he chuckles a little, “Fuck, you’re amazing.”

“I didn’t do much but lay here.”

John shakes his head and kisses you again, “So amazing, baby.”

You smile as John kisses your cheek and gets off of you, then he helps you sit up so you can get cleaned up in the bathroom. You grab some tissue for him and bring them out, then you grab your underwear and dress to put them back on.

John lets out a small breath and looks over at you just as you pull your summer dress back on, “I really did need to do some work.”

“Well,” you laugh as you look at him, “My husband is sexy. Not my fault.”

Letting out a small laugh, John gets up and pulls his boxers back on, then he leans down to kiss you. As John puts his shirt back on, you catch a glimpse of the nail marks you’ve left on his back, so you walk over to him and gently touch them.

“Sorry,” you whisper, and John looks over his shoulder, “I left a few little marks behind.”

John chuckles, “I sure don’t mind. They don’t hurt.”

“Maybe I need to cut my nails…” you say, looking down at your deep red nail polish.

“No, no, I like them,” he takes your hands and kisses them as you smile at him. He leans down to kiss you, then he sighs a little, “I just need to finish these books by tomorrow.”

“Sorry to have distracted you.”

John nudges your chin, “I welcome any distractions from you, peach.”

You smile as you walk over to John’s workbench and sit down on the stool, then you prop your head up and watch as John sits next to you to continue his work. He reaches over and pats your thigh when he realizes you’re going to hang out with him for a bit, then he leans over and kisses you.

Taking your phone out of your purse, you set it down on the workbench, then you walk over to grab some paper that John keeps in a clear plastic container. You grab a few different colored pens and a pair of scissors, then you walk over and sit down beside John.

“What are you working on?”

You take a deep breath as you set everything out, “I was thinking about writing some reviews for books at the shop. You know, so people can see what other people think of the books. Like, something along the lines of ‘if you like Stranger Things, then you’ll love this book about aliens and…a misfit group of kids’ or something, I don’t know. Is that dumb?”

John smiles softly, “No, of course not.”

“I just thought it’d make people a little more interested in a book if they could see what other people think of them, you know?” you shrug a little as John look at you, “Is that okay with you?”

“It’s your shop too. Do whatever you want.” he smiles, leaning over to kiss you. “You gonna write a review about that one book you read?”

You laugh, “Yeah, just gonna write that I read it in two days and threw it across the room when I finished it because I hated it so much.”

“I’ve never seen you so upset before about a book. You throwing it actually made me jump a little, I wasn’t expecting it.” John laughs and reaches over to move your hair away from your face, “It was a pretty shitty ending.”

“I wanted them to end up together.” you whisper as he rubs his thumb against your cheek and down to your bottom lip, “I hate when they don’t end up together.”

“You little romantic.” he says, soft and quiet.

You close your eyes as you smile, then you look at him, “Yeah. You too though.”

“Yeah,” he laughs, nodding his head, “Me too.”

__

The nice warm weather didn’t last long since it’s currently storming today. You planned on inviting Jimmy and Tess over for a barbecue tonight, but you’re not sure that’s going to happen now.

You’re still trying to relax as much as you can, so you’re currently sitting on the back patio listening to the rain. You were reading a magazine, but the sound of rain always puts you to sleep. Your eyes grow heavy as you tilt your head back against the loveseat, but you jolt up when you hear the door squeak.

“Sorry,” John grimaces, “I didn’t mean to wake you. I didn’t know you were asleep.”

“It’s okay,” you whisper, then you sit up and lean against his shoulder when he sits next to you. You close your eyes as you curl up as best as you can next to John, then you hold his hand and smile to yourself, “I’ll probably fall asleep now for sure.”

John chuckles, “Go ahead. I just finished the last of my books. I’ll need to drop a few of them off this afternoon though.”

“Oh,” you look up at him and nod, “I can go with you.”

Nodding his head, John smiles, “Sounds good. Are we still on for tonight?”

You shrug, “Haven’t talked to Tess.”

“I was…doing a lot of thinking earlier…”

“Uh oh.” you tease as John laughs, “What about?”

John lets go of your hand and wraps it around your shoulder, “I think it’s time we let Tess go at the shop.”

“What?” you sit up and look at him, “Why?”

“She works only a few times a week, and half the time, she’ll make up an excuse as to why she can’t come in. I know she doesn’t want to be there anymore. When she’s there, she’s friendly, of course, but her heart isn’t there anymore.” he says, and you nod a little, “She’s staying because she doesn’t want to hurt your feelings. She’d rather be at home with Finn, and I can’t blame her for that.”

You look out at the rain for a moment, then you nod as you sit back and look at your belly, “Yeah, I mean, I’ll be the same once she’s born, but I don’t want us to get rid of the bookshop. I still love it. I still want to work there. It’s my dream to own that place.”

“It’s different for us. We own it.” he says, and you nod your head, “I just know Tess doesn’t want to hurt your feelings. I’ve talked to Jimmy about it as well. He’s more than happy for her to be at home with Finn.”

“Daycare is insanely expensive.” you joke, and John laughs a little. “I know she’d be so much happier with Finn. She only works like one day anyway.”

John nods, “And if she’s gone, we can afford to pay the other employees more as well.”

“That’s a really good idea.” you say, and John shrugs. You inhale deeply and nod your head, “Yeah, let’s invite them over for dinner and tell her.”

“Sounds like a plan, peach.”

You smile as you look over at him, “You don’t mind that I don’t work that much, do you?”

“No, of course not.” he laughs, shaking his head, “You’re pregnant for starters, and I don’t expect you to go there when you don’t feel well.”

“I know, but you bought the shop for me so I wouldn’t lose my job…”

John smiles softly, then he shakes his head, “I bought it for you because it’s your dream to own a bookshop. I wanted to help make your dream come true, and now it’s my dream too. It’s our dream.”

You close your eyes and jut out your bottom lip as John laughs, “That was really sweet.”

“The employees do such a good job there that half the time, I don’t even know what I’m doing there. Grace knows the place like the back of her hand. She’s good.”

You look down at your belly and nod, “I still plan on working there, but for the most part, I just wanna be a stay at home mom, so I don’t miss out on anything with her.”

“I love that,” John says, smiling when you look at him, “And I want that too. I don’t want to miss anything either. I’m not worried about the shop or how often you work there. I genuinely like working there. I like working there when you’re not there and when you are there. Well, I especially like working there when you’re there.”

You scoff when John winks, “Yeah, yeah.”

“I’m not worried about it, peach. The shop is doing really well,” he says, and you nod your head as you look over at him. “Wanna tag along while I drop off these books?”

“Definitely.” you nod, then you gesture to yourself on the couch, “You’re gonna have to pull me up.”

John smiles as he gets up, “I can do that.”

__

John and Jimmy have been talking for the past ten minutes about all the renovations Jimmy plans to do at home, and Tess looks a little nervous to say the least. You smile when she looks at you, and you furrow your brow a little.

“You’ve never been with a carpenter…” she says, and you laugh, “Their house always looks like shit while they work on 45 other projects.”

Jimmy laughs as he nudges Tess’ shoulder, “You already know I’m following through with this. Look at our living room! It looks great.”

“Yeah, true,” Tess laughs, then she shrugs, “Just don’t want you to bite off more than you can chew.”

“Nah,” Jimmy smiles as he leans over to kiss her cheek, “We finished the living room and we’ll be working on the kitchen next. We’re sticking with our gold and green color scheme.”

You nod, “The living room looks great. I love the color. I want us to get a little more bold with color in the living room. I’ve slowly been adding some color to the house. I think some really cool wallpaper would look good on that wall over there with some pictures and a shelf.”

John laughs as he shakes his head, “She’s changing her mind on everything lately. The other night I had to talk her out of changing the baby’s room. She suddenly wanted an animal theme in there.”

“God, remember how sterile and boring your house was before she moved in?” Tess says, and you look over at John and laugh. “It was so freaking boring.”

“Sure was,” you nod, and John laughs, “I’m helping John embrace color in the house and in his wardrobe.”

John looks down at his blue shirt and laughs, “It’s sort of working.”

“Did you have your tour of the hospital?”

“We did! It was really good. They actually changed quite a bit since you had Finn. They remodeled the private rooms and they’re super nice. The beds are bigger too.”

Tess scoffs, “Figures.”

“John asked every question under the sun, but the woman who showed us around was super nice.” you say, and John nods his head. “She knew who we were right when we walked in and I remember wondering how the hell she knew who we were, and it occurred to me about three hours later.”

John laughs when you gesture to him, “I can’t help it that people know me.”

“Yeah, she was super helpful though. Oh, when you come to visit us, you just have to check in on the ground level, then come up to the labor and delivery floor. And I asked, Finny is more than welcome to come as well!” you smile, then you look over at Finn on the floor as he plays with his toys.

Tess smiles as she looks over at Finn, “He’s gonna love to meet his cousin!”

You take a deep breath as you look over at John and take his hand, then you look at Tess when John gives you a small nod, “So, John and I were talking earlier, and Tess, we think that it’s time for you to…leave the shop.”

Tess’ smile fades on her face as she grows concerned, “Why?”

“You don’t want to be there anymore -- and that’s totally fine!” you say as you reach over for her hand, “You want to be home with Finn. We don’t blame you for that.”

“I don’t want to…hurt your feelings.”

You shake your head, “My feelings aren’t hurt at all. I want you to be happy. I want you to be able to spend time with Finn! We both know how important it is for us to not miss out on anything.”

Tess nods as she tears up a little, “We’ll still hang out all the time, right?”

“Tess, you rarely work now and we still hang out all the time. We see each other literally every day.”

“Well, I like it that way.” she says as you laugh, then she looks at John before she looks at you again, “Are you sure?”

John nods his head, “We are. Y/N won’t work much either once the baby is born.”

“I plan on spending so much time with her, and hopefully you and Finn.” you say, and Tess nods her head.

Tess sits up as she sniffles a little, then she smiles when she looks at Jimmy, “Are you sure?”

“I am,” he nods, wrapping his arm around her. “I want what’s best for you.”

You smile when she looks back at you, then you laugh, “I mean, life won’t be too different since you didn’t show up half the time.”

Tess laughs loudly, “Hey, parenthood is still really fucking hard a year later. I call Jimmy about 15 times a day when he’s at work.”

“I’m sure,” you laugh as you look down at your belly, “I’ll be entering that pretty soon, I hope.”

“Just a few more weeks,” Jimmy smiles, then he high fives John as you chuckle. “You nervous, man?”

John nods his head, “Very nervous. I’m trying to remain calm.”

“I’m trying to relax more,” you say, shaking your head as you grimace, “Not sure if it’s working so far. I feel like my pregnancy just went by so fast but it was so hectic, you know? I had my hemorrhage and was on bedrest for four weeks, which isn’t really that long, but after I was off of it, we had Benji and Harper, then everything just flew by. I feel like I haven’t really had time to just chill out.”

“Well, I was wondering if you wanted me to take some more maternity pictures of you…” Tess says, and you nod your head. “I found a few really cool places, so I thought we could do that this weekend.”

You nod your head, “Yeah, that sounds fun.”

John smiles when you look over at him, “That’ll be nice for you. I got a lot of work to get done in the wardrobe upstairs, so that’s perfect.”

Jimmy smiles, “Yeah, let me see what you’ve done so far.”

You watch as John and Jimmy head upstairs to the spare room, then you look over at Tess, “So, how are things?”

“Really good.” she nods, then she sits back on the couch, “Jimmy has a family reunion coming up soon, so I’m excited to meet more of his family. I’ve only met a few of his family members so far. I hope there’s some kids for Finn to play with. It’ll be nice for him to have some cousins. Obviously Jimmy is an only child but he has cousins, so you get what I mean. They’d be Finn’s second cousins, I think. I’m just excited for Finn to have some more family since…I don’t have any. He’ll never know my side.”

“Uh, excuse you?”

Tess laughs as she shoves your shoulder a little, “No, I mean my parents’ sides. Obviously we have mom’s side.”

“Yeah,” you nod as you look at her, then you rub your belly, “He’ll have a new cousin soon though!”

Tess smiles as she leans over and puts her ear to your belly, “I can’t wait to meet her!”

“Hopefully she can stay in there for a few more weeks,” you say, then you laugh as Tess kisses your stomach, “Hopefully she doesn’t stay in there for too long though. I’ve been watching so many labor and delivery videos on YouTube the past week, and I’m getting so freaking anxious to meet her. I just want her to get here already, but I know these last few weeks are really important.”

“Yeah, stay in there as long as you can,” Tess says to your belly, “It’s not that great out here.”

You laugh as you nudge her, “John is so excited. Every day he comes home with cute little outfits and shoes he’s bought for her. He keeps telling her to hurry up. It’s sweet.”

“It’s gonna be a brand new world for him soon.” Tess smiles, then she sits up and looks at John as he comes down to the living room with Jimmy, “He’ll love it. You both will.”

You smile as you look over at him, “I think so too.”

__

The whole relaxation thing hasn’t gone according to plan. You’re trying! You’re definitely trying, it’s just…not working. You feel like a ball of anxiety tonight and you can’t figure out why. Well, there is the whole having a baby in a few short weeks thing, so maybe that’s it. Yeah, that’s probably it.

You sigh as you toss a book onto the coffee table and get up, then you head up to the baby’s room and look around. You smile as you walk over to the dresser and see the outfits that John has bought lately, and you hold them up and laugh just thinking about how your tiny baby will be wearing these outfits soon and how sweet and proud John is every time he comes home with something new.

The smile on your face slowly fades as you sit down in the rocking chair, and you bite your lip nervously before you put your head down and begin to cry. You put your hand over your mouth to muffle the sound so John doesn’t hear, then you get up and quietly close the door before you walk over to look out the window.

There are so many thoughts going through your head lately, so many things to do, so many things that you’re worried about. It’s hard. It’s very hard to quiet your thoughts lately. As your due date gets closer, the more you feel this anxiety over everything.

What if something does go wrong? What happens if you hemorrhage again? What if something is wrong with your baby? What if you don’t end up being as maternal as you think you’ll be? John seems so natural at all of this, while you seem to just be fumbling alongside him. Will he think you’re a terrible mom? These are reoccurring thoughts that haven’t gone away throughout your entire pregnancy.

There’s just so much going through your head. You don’t regret getting pregnant one bit, so that’s definitely not something that you’re thinking about. But you can’t deny how scary life is about to be. It’s going to be so different. You and John are going to have a freaking baby! There will be a tiny little human just hanging out in the house with you two from now on. It’s terrifying! Her life is literally in your hands, and it’s really scary. It’s scary and you just hope that you do alright by her.

You look down at your belly and let out a tearful laugh, “I love you, bug. I hope you’ll be proud to be mine. You’ll love your dad, no doubt. I just hope you like me too.”

“She’s gonna love you,” John whispers, and you close your eyes when he wraps his arms around your waist. “Don’t even worry about that.”

“What if she hates me when she’s older?”

John chuckles, “She won’t. She’s gonna love you, peach. You’re her mom.”

“Yeah…” you nod as you inhale deeply and turn around to look at him, “Why did you sneak up on me?”

“Just because I’ve been busy all day doesn’t mean I haven’t noticed that you’ve been feeling anxious.” he says, and you roll your eyes as you laugh, “I know you like the back of my hand.”

You look down as John places his hands on your belly, then you hold his gaze, “You really think she’s gonna like me?”

“I do,” he nods, and you smile a little, “We’re both pretty crazy about you.”

John cups your face in his hands as you close your eyes, then you feel him pressing soft kisses to your cheeks and forehead. He wraps his arms around you and holds tight to you, and you melt a bit in his embrace.

“So much for relaxing.”

“Tell me what I can do to help,” John whispers, rubbing your back, “I’ll do anything you need me to.”

You smile a little over how amazing John is, then you tilt your head back and look at him, “It’s just anxiety over all of the what ifs. I’m sure--”

“The moment she’s put into your arms, I’m sure it’ll all go away.”

“That’s what I’ve heard.”

John smiles softly, “And if it doesn’t, I’m right here. We’re a team, baby. I’m not letting you go.”

You immediately tear up again as you nod, and John leans down to kiss you. You lean your forehead against his lips as you cry softly, then you cup his face and smile at him.

God, he’s the best.

“You’re my favorite.”

John lets out a small laugh as he looks at you, “You’re my favorite too. Always.”

Tilting your head back, you hold his gaze and smile a little, “Think I’m gonna take a bath.”

“Okay.” he says softly, then he kisses your forehead before you leave.

__

You’ve set up some candles in the bathroom and turned the lights off in hopes of it helping you relax and it’s working. A little. The bath is warm and full of bubbles, and the whole bathroom smells like flowers from it. You inhale deeply and sink into the tub more to rest your head against the little bathtub pillow, but you start to laugh when you feel your belly move a little.

“I know, you love when momma gets in the water. I think you’re gonna be a little fish.” you say as you look at your belly moving. You place your hand on your lower right side, and you smile when you feel her little foot press against your palm, “I can’t wait to meet you. I really think you’re gonna love it here. You have a great family. Grandma and Grandpa can’t wait to meet you, and Aunt Tess is going to spoil you rotten. You and Finny are going to be the best of friends too! We can’t forget crazy Uncle Jimmy. He’s a real goofball. You’ll like him. You have a daddy who is crazy about you, and I just know you’ll love your big brother, Bleu.”

Your belly continues to stretch and move as the baby practically does flips and dances around, and you smile every time you feel her foot press against your hand.

“It’s getting awfully small in there, isn’t it?” you laugh quietly, “You’re growing like a little weed in there, so I think you should hurry up and come out already. Well, maybe wait a few more weeks.”

The door squeaks open a little as John pokes his head in, then he puts his hand out and grimaces as he backs out, “Sorry, I just wanted to check on you.”

“You can come in, babe.” you laugh, looking back at him, “She’s moving like crazy right now.”

John comes into the bathroom and kneels down beside the bathtub to place his hand on your belly, then he laughs when he feels her kicking and moving. He leans up a little and presses his lips to your belly a few times, then he laughs again.

“She’s really moving right now,” he laughs, then he nods, “You’re in the water. Our little fish.”

A smile spreads across your face as John rubs your belly, then you look over at him and smile wider when he leans up to kiss you several times. He rubs your belly as he kisses you, then he sits down on the floor beside the tub.

“So, you and Tess are going to take some pictures?”

“Yeah,” you nod as you look at him, “It’ll be a good idea to get some pictures since at this point, she could come at any time now. I’d love it if you came too so we could get some of us.”

John nods, “Yeah, of course.”

Sitting up in the tub, you shift and get comfortable again, then you laugh when you realize John’s hand has not moved from your stomach the entire time.

“You’re gonna be such a great dad.” you whisper to him, and he smiles softly.

“You’re gonna be a great mom.”

You smile as you nod your head, then you look down as you both rub your belly. John reaches up and grabs your boob as you laugh, then you give him a disapproving look that makes him laugh.

“You can’t keep your hands to yourself, Wick.”

“My wife is sexy,” he laughs, then he winks, “Not my fault.”

You laugh as you roll your eyes a little, then you lean over to kiss him, “When Tess and Jimmy were over the other day, she told me she’s going to a family reunion.”

“Can you imagine meeting all of Jimmy’s family? Him and his dad are exactly the same.” John says, and you laugh, “I wouldn’t be surprised if they’re all like that.”

“He’s a good guy.” you smile, nodding your head, “I’m glad that Tess has him. She’s excited to go to the family reunion. She’s happy that Finn will have a lot more family since she obviously doesn’t have any on her side.”

John shifts on the floor a little and nods as he holds your gaze.

You take a deep breath and sigh, “You know, all my life, Tess has been there. She’s always been a part of my life. I’ve never known a time when she wasn’t. Even before her parents passed away, we were always together. I kind of forget that she’s not my biological sister sometimes.”

“Me too,” John says, and you look at him, “You two are a lot alike.”

“When she mentioned that Finn wouldn’t know any of her family, it took me a split second to remember that…she’s not blood related to me, so she’s right. He won’t know her family. She doesn’t want him to know that side of her family because they were so awful to her and my mom after everything happened.” you sigh a little, “And I get it. I wouldn’t want that either.”

John nods his head, then he cocks up his eyebrow a little, “I know where you’re going, but this isn’t one of those things where you think Tess is a better fit for me, because you tried that before.”

“No!” you laugh loudly as you shake your head, “No! You’re mine. No one else can have you.”

“Okay, good. Because she’s not a better fit for me. No one is. It’s you. Only you.” John smiles as he leans up to kiss you. “I don’t want anyone but you.”

You smile softly as you lean over the tub and prop your head up, “Good.”

John tilts your head down so he can kiss the top of it, then he sits back and leans against the tub, waiting for you to finish.

After a few moments of silence, you look at John and shrug a little, “You don’t think about your family?”

“Not really.” he says without thinking, almost like he was expecting you to ask, then he shrugs, “You can’t imagine not wondering because you’ve always had your family, so to think about not having them all of the sudden is weird to you. I’ve grown up with no family, I’ve come to terms with it.”

“There’s no part of you that wonders about it? Bug is gonna grow up and have no blood relatives on your side. That doesn’t bother you?” you say, then you close your eyes, “Sorry, that came out way harsher and more aggressive than intended.”

John squeezes your hand to reassure that it was fine, then he nods, “Of course I’ve wondered before. I don’t know them, so I don’t know what kind of people they are. I’m completely fine with only having you, our family, and our children. It’s enough for me.”

“Is it?”

“Yes, absolutely.” he nods, rubbing your hand, “If she doesn’t grow up and know my family, that’s fine with me. She’s going to be so loved by our family that she won’t even care.”

You smile as you nod your head, then you lean into the palm of John’s hand when he cups your face, “I love you.”

“I love you too.” he whispers, rubbing his thumb against your cheek, “Blood doesn’t mean anything. Tess is your sister whether she’s blood related or not. Dan is your dad whether he’s blood related or not. Your family is my family too. You’ve made it that way. It’s because of you that I feel that way. I love them all.”

Nodding your head, you look down and laugh since, of course, John made you cry with how sweet he is. You look up at him as he smiles proudly, then he sits up a little more so he can kiss you.

“Are you getting cold?” he asks, and you nod your head. “Let’s get you out.”

You pull the plug on the tub and get up while John turns the light on and gets a towel for you, then you blow out the candles and wrap the towel around yourself as best as you can with your belly. John heads into the bedroom and begins to get out some pajamas for you, and you smile when you dry yourself off.

“Hey,” you furrow your brow, “When have I said Tess was better for you?”

John laughs, “A while ago. You said her and I have a lot in common since we both have dealt with loss and we don’t have much family. You implied that we’d be a better fit.”

“Ew.” you scrunch your face up and laugh, “Sick.”

“My reaction as well.” John laughs as he sits down on the bed and watches you pull on your pajamas, “She really is like a little sister to me.”

You smile as you walk over and sit next to him, “She thinks of you as a big brother too. Big brother John Wick.”

John laughs, shaking his head, “Never thought I’d hear that.”

“How about husband?” you ask as he looks at you, “Well, I mean, you know…after.”

Shaking his head, John laughs, “No, definitely not after. Honored to be yours, peach.”

“Honored to be yours, babe.” you smile as you lean up to kiss him, then you cock up your eyebrow, “How about…dad?”

“Yeah, definitely never thought I’d hear that.” he says, placing his hand on your belly, “But I’m glad I get to. Really, really glad that I get to.”

You smile as you place your hand over his, “Not long now.”

“Can’t wait.”

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[inkykeiji]

oh my gosh, so many good touya-nii asks u all have sent in recently!!!!!! ☆*･゜ﾟ･*\(^O^)/*･゜ﾟ･*☆

i can’t wait to answer them!! i promise i’ll get to them as soon as this piece is finished <333 touya-nii smut will be posted on monday!!!

[psychedelic-ink]

hey sil!! sorry it took me a minute to get back to you, but i also think that nope was great, and i loved it. i think jordan peele did an amazing job, and i enjoyed it a lot more than the other two, mainly because i was less scared hehe. i'm usually not great with horror movies, so to see that this one has more sci-fi elements, it got me hyped up since i knew about it.

more thoughts below but spoiler warning!!

OHMYGOD THAT WHOLE HOUSE SEQUENCE!! i almost had to look away, but it was too mystifying that i couldn't. the buildup was just beautiful. when Angel and Em realized that JJ was above them, and then the way the blood first trickled on the windows and then we see how the whole house was coated by it?? MAN. and yeah, the screams of agony plus seeing them get swallowed up were also equally terrifying, but that was ingenious of peele, too, honestly. the horse scene also got me but if i'm being honest i got most scared when Jupe's kids tricked OJ in the barn and in the end when we saw the reporter's legs. for some reason i thought that when JJ blew up it also threw up the dismembered corpses of all the people it ate?? so i was just like.. ok if this is really happening, i can't handle it. thank fuck they were just normal, whole bodied reporters.

people thought Gordy's arc was unnecessary?? what?? can't relate either... the whole thing was pivotal, if anything, both to Jupe's story later on and to depict the way that animals are treated in the industry.

ok but the single shoe standing up after Gordy went on a rampage?? and the way we see it again in Jupe's little museum?? AAAA.

and i get what you mean about how jordan peele shows the horror portion. i also want to add that i love how the humor is on point too. when OJ was just like. nope. not doing this. and then locking the car door?? that was so fucking funny.

on the whole, i agree. there were seriously so many different ways to interpret the movie. the one my friend and i discussed after walking out of the theater, though, was how it commentates on how us (the audience, normal people) treat celebs. the TMZ part really sealed it for us for this train of thought.

anyway, i think that's all :)) hope you're having a good day, and as always, sending you my love <33 happy almost weekend!!

yes it was just so good! and the shoe thing was pretty cool too, like everything he does has a meaning

I think the TMZ guy was mostly a critic about those insane youtubers & influencers doing the most insane shit just for views (*cough cough* paul brothers *cough cough*) and apparently logan paul did not like the movie at all which makes me love the movie more dfbdfbfdbd that fool understood none of it lmaoooo

overall it's an amazing movie that can go all ways, which is the beauty of jordan peele movies

and thank you so much darling <33333 I hope you have an amazing weekend!!

[daisychvins]

｡･ﾟﾟ･ — introduction.

introducing ... violet’s demise ! aka grayson aka her big brother she’s been wiring money to stay away in europe <33333

name: grayson swag money jeon  age: 22 turning 23 (don’t ask me about his sign that’s for liza to figure out someday <3) gender: cis male; he/him hometown: baltimore, maryland sexuality: bisexual & biromantic

listen i was feeling rlly committed to completing his stats but i’m already over it so don’t ask dont tell xx anYWAYS let’s get on to the juicy stuff hehe

i tend to ramble a lot so this intro is gonna be probably a mixture of paragraphs and bullet points and everything in between but let’s start simple. also i rlly wanna emphasize a massive DRUGS TW bc his character largely revolves around his interest in and addiction to drugs

blackmails

grayson is claiming that he's been in a rehab program for the last year and is now completely sober and reformed when he really was just using the money to party and travel throughout europe.

without his parents paying to support him now, he's had to start dealing to make ends meet and keep up appearances. it’s mostly coke, but he dabbles in harder substances depending on what his connections can get him. 

grayson dabbles with calligraphy and was notorious for forging excuse notes and parent signatures all throughout high school and even now sells forgeries for a quick buck. the most notable of these was xavi’s letter of recommendation that helped him get into yale. 

background

grayson is violet’s older brother!!1 yes, that’s right, THE big brother who’s been out of the country getting LIT (and by lit i mean he’s been traveling europe on a series of solo trips w his parents’ money and doin lots of recreational drugs)

i haven’t fully fleshed out the dynamic he has w his parents but just know it’s ,, bad ASDHFJNK basically the jeons treated their children like accessories and expected them to be their little trophies and grayson just was not having that as a kid!!! so he acted out a lot and obviously got himself into a pretty bad scene (thank u goosie) and is basically the bane of his parents existence at this point <3 yet they still try to appease him to keep him under control but that’s for the family task to work out hehehehe

despite hating his parents, he adores both of his siblings. before the drug use started, he was always a big nurturer and would have done anything for either of them......now he wouldn’t be caught dead praising violet but he loves her in secret from afar HSJDFKG

yeah basically he met goose when he was around 15 i think????? and got introduced to drugs around 16 or 17 i wanna say and by the time he graduated high school he was just....a much different person than the soft big brother he used to be. his parents sent him off to europe pretty much as soon as he turned 18 under the guise of going to school internationally, but grayson obviously knew the truth and understood that he was being sent away so he wouldn’t be his parents problem anymore. 

he basically spent the last four years galavanting europe and just....trying to enjoy it???? but it’s hard to enjoy an extended vacation when u have no family or friends on ur side anymore </3 he basically used the money to stay in hostels and worked odd jobs here and there to stay afloat and keep supplied w the...special goods....but yeah lots of drugs, alcohol, sex, and recklessness but he DID learn a couple languages??? or at least enough to get through some pretty basic conversations in most european countries so <3 guess it’s all okay then!!!! 

anyways idk what else to put here that u won’t just find out in the family task so uhhhhhh idk lmk if u need anything else i guess

present/personality

so now grayson is just vibing at yale obviously ummm he actually got super into writing after high school, especially poetry. he used to carry journals full of just random prose about his addiction and his deepest thoughts, as well as probably some lighter stuff about his love escapades or maybe goose idk...basically he used poetry as an outlet and it allowed him to really ground himself and find his place in the world even if it didnt include who he thought it would SO with that being said, grayson got into yale due to a poetry competition he was a part of. he saw some big fancy competition being advertised and on a whim decided to submit some poem about his struggles with addiction and losing his family (a v raw piece that he didn’t expect to ever see the light of day) and he actually ended up winning! it caught yale’s attention and they invited him to apply and, knowing how much it would probably disturb his little sister, grayson very smugly applied and was pretty stoked to see he got in 

because that poem gained such publicity, it was assumed that he was a survivor of addiction and was writing from a sober perspective. he didn’t want to correct anyone, so he just went with it and has basically crafted this story about his massive success and has become an advocate for addiction treatment and rehabilitation. of course, none of the companies that sponsor him or the events that host him as a motivational speaker know that he’s snorting lines in the bathroom beforehand or dealing to half the elites, but that’s between grayson, god, and the blackmailer !

basically grayson showed back up because of violet’s blackmail being exposed. he was off in europe, unable to defend himself, and with a massive vendetta against his family so he decided what better way to reenter society than by publicly outing himself as a martyr <3333 his plan is basically to bash the family name to fulfill whatever angsty coming of age arc he has in store for him to make up for the pain of being sent away .... really angsty yeah </3 rip grayson 

anyways yeah he’s a total fake. he’s been using his status as a martyr to his advantage a lot, the best example being his recruitment into the elites. he guilted them into accepting him by discussing the PR benefits of recruiting a member that struggles with addiction and how supporting addiction treatment and second chances would be such a good look for them. like he basically threatened to publicly expose them for denying him due to his troubled past and accuse them of being exclusionary so they said boop ! ur in. now the elites are proud advocates for second chances <3333

i would describe grayson as fearless, overconfident, infamous due to his condition being exposed recently, a little gloomy, he’s kind of just got this chip on his shoulder and feels like he has something to prove....he’s gotta be better than his parents, gotta stick it to them and to violet and to everyone who doubts him. he’s a grumpy guy with a massive vendetta and a need for some kind of justice. he just doesn’t know what that is yet. despite all of the bad, however, he’s genuinely a pretty good guy. he’s really goofy and a genuine person, pretty friendly with literally everyone until they give him a reason not to be. basically, unless you are a member of the jeon family he probably likes you or is at least cordial to you (unless we plot differently ofc but u know). he’s just a big lovable dummy with some sweet drug connects and a knack for poetry. he also knows calligraphy but that’s beside the point . 

idk if this is enough to describe him but yeah if u have any questions just let me know hehe

this is probably gonna make things hard but considering violet was just exposed i think that he’s pretty new to yale ???? like probably just transferred in/started this spring semester rather than being here for the entire year/a prolonged amount of time so most of our plots will likely have to be newer/center on him first showing up OR we can establish their connections from pre-europe which is also fine w me....idk i didnt rlly think this timeline through so let’s just plot and see what happens aghbfjnd anyways i included some connection ideas to help us all just in case

wanted connections

i’d say he’s the honorary dealer of the elites aghbdfjn so literally anyone who needs a plug could be a potential connection. we can obviously tweak this and customize it to each character <3

maybe someone who met grayson in europe. they could have travelled together for an extended period of time or even just a brief encounter. he was over there for four years, so the possibilities are endless. 

building off the last one, this same connection could work with a romantic interest. maybe they were romantically involved for a time in europe and fell out of touch or maybe grayson/your muse just left in the middle of the night and they never saw each other again until now and maybe there’s some unresolved feelings/one-sided longing or need for closure. it could also be that they just hooked up whenever this person was in the area and that was that, no strings attached. 

maybe someone who genuinely believes that grayson is actually sober and really admires his strength and idk maybe they’re struggling w their own issues and seek advice from him or maybe they just make it harder for him to actually do his thing bc they’re constantly around and it’s not like they can catch him strung out and acting up 

someone in the literature department or with a background in english or writing. someone he could read poetry to, or share his favorite lines with. someone who’s taken the same professors and can tell him who to watch out for or what to expect. idk i just want him to have someone to share his passions with. maybe a little crush is forming? maybe they’re just friends who share a love of fiction? idk i’m open to literally anything 

he’s sort of a motivational speaker now bc he advocates for rehabilitation resources and stuff so like maybe ur muse saw him give a presentation or participate in some kind of seminar and they called bullshit on him after the show bc they were like,,, bro i literally saw u partying w max and avery last weekend what the fuck are u on about and now they could potentially hold that blackmail over his head hehe......

exes plots are always fun we love angst in this house 

fuck it let’s bring another family member BHJFNGKM no but grayson rlly is a nurturing guy and like....definitely develops unhealthy attachments to cope w his loss of family so he’d love all the sibling-like bonds he can get to kinda numb the pain of “””””losing””””” violet 

if none of these interest you i’m literally so down for anything pls just let me know and i’m happy to brainstorm always <333333 

thank u for reading this....smooch . 

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5, 70, and 77! <33333

Thanks, friend!

5. Something you enjoyed about lockdown?

Bristler and I really leaned into weekend nights in. Whether it was ordering a pizza on a Friday night, smoking pot and playing video games until 1 in the morning, taking an evening walk to look at holiday decorations (followed by a weekend night in, haha), learning how to cook or bake something new, or just watching comfort TV and snuggling on the couch with the cats, we have tried really hard to make the weekends something to look forward to even though we’re missing people and places a lot. I feel incredibly lucky to have someone like her, and to have a comfortable place to live. 

70. Any weird coping techniques you developed during or after lockdown?

I don’t think this counts since I was doing it before the pandemic, but (nearly) weekly bread-baking has definitely helped me cope. It’s a routine I can actually look forward to, since it smells good and results in bread.

77. Do you even plan anything for next year?

I’m going to make the executive decision to not count the many work projects, team goals, and professional commitments already planned at my job for 2021. I’m lucky to have those plans, I’m lucky to have job security heading into the new year, and I don’t want to spend any time thinking about upcoming work right now. 

On a more personal level, I’ve tried to think only very big picture for next year. I am hoping that sometime in the second half of the year it’ll be safe to make purely recreational plans to see various friends and family members (and yes, you and Telanu are OBVIOUSLY on that list). I really hope this ends up being true. My mom and I have been talking vaguely yet excitedly about finally getting to see each other again, but I don’t think anyone’s feeling confident enough to start thinking about specifics. 

I have similarly vague plans for my writing! 

TL;DR my plans for 2021 are people and words, but enough of that--especially at the start of the year, and starts of years are often burdened with pressure to be auspicious--is going to be via Zoom and otherwise unpredictable that I’m trying to accept the uncertainty and move forward anyway!

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hailmary-yramliah said: Wait I’m really tripping out. I realized you were following me on Tumblr and I didn’t even know?!?!?!? I ABSOLUTELY LOVE YOUR FICS LIKE WTF IM SO SLOW BUT THANK YOU YOURE LIKE ACTUALLY AMAZING AND ME STANNING YOU RN MAKES ME EMBARRASSED BUT I JUST WANT TO SAY THAT YOU ARE SO TALENTED!!! Ahhhhh I love your Arthur/Joker fics XD 

Thank you so so much!!! <33333 This means so much to me! <3333 I hope you continue to enjoy the works that I work so hard on x

Anonymous said:Ngl I feel like it’s wrong to like Arthur & read fics about him only bc my sis thinks it’s weird af. Our interests are complete opposite & finds mine very weird and it kinda makes me sad. I wish she loved the movie as much as me & understood my “obsessions” as she calls them. Anyways, love your fics sm! You’ve gotten me into this fandom so quickly and I love it! 💕

Your sister sounds just like my, and others’, family. They don’t understand because the film wasn’t for them. It was for people like us who see Arthur and who understand him. If you find enjoyment in something, darling, most especially if it’s fictional (though very realistic), then there’s no shame in indulging in it. Thank you very much, that means a lot! <3

insfirebunny said: Ok As you might see rn I make myself comfortable in your blog. Hope you don't mind. I enjoy every single one story of yours. You write so beautifully that it's magical. Take care of yourself, sunshine ☀

I don’t mind at all, I’m flattered, thank you so, so much! <33333 take care of yourself too!!!!

Anonymous said: Would you rather date Arthur or Joker??

To me, Arthur never went insane and ‘became’ Joker. He’s not the insane one; the world is mad. So I would date Arthur and I would love him and protect him and help him (everything I write about is everything I would do for him; the things I write for others are very self-indulgent lmao I have no shame) and if, in his own time, he grew into himself (Joker), then I would still love and support him just the same. I don’t think he went mad - I think he just dropped everything holding him down, holding him back, and said “fuck the world”. And honestly? That’s a big fucking mood.

Anonymous said: Okay speaking of the multiverse theory, what is your view on it regarding fictional characters. I personally believe that not only do they exist, but with the right skills you could connect with them in some way.

Since I was a child, for as long as I could remember, I’ve had this super vivid made up, carefully crafted world inside my head with all my most loved characters. I have spent my life inside my head daydreaming. I’ve never needed real life friends because I have my imagination and though I tried to make friends. I tried so hard but I never got anywhere because I was a freak, I was this and that etc. etc. (I was bullied for like 15 years lmao fuck ‘em) and so I stayed inside my head and didn’t bother trying to cross that invisible glass wall between me and everyone else. I’m 22 and I still haven’t bothered to try; it’s cosy here so I’ll stay inside my head where I can make others happy with my daydreams. But I digress - I like to think that our loves know that we love them. Every thought, every tear, every daydream, every squeal, every pillow we’ve squeezed wanting to be them, every imagine, everything we have done or do because of them, for them, they know. They see it; they feel it. I like to believe that Arthur Fleck knows how deeply he is loved and cherished he is by all of us and more than that - he loves us all just as fiercely, and he’s so, so proud of all of us. (Also lowkey I know it’s your skin shifting due to temperature changes etc. but you know when you think you feel a hand on your shoulder or fingers in your hair when you’re like half asleep and just dozing??? Or when you have a dream of him? That’s Arthur reaching out to us in the only way he can to say he knows, he sees and he loves us too.)

Anonymous said: I LOVE YOUR WRITING SO MUCH! Like it’s crazy how good you write

Thank you so, so much!!! <3333333 I work .v. hard (one piece can take up to three hours, though the longest I’ve ever spent on a piece (Coming Home To You) was six hours. I still say that is the best thing I’ve ever written, so that means a lot! <3

Anonymous said: I love Joker from our dearly beloved 2019 Joker movie as well as Joker from The Dark Night. I can't choose which I love more so why not both! At the same time! ifyouknowwhatimsaying 👀👀👀

Sksksksksksk I believe @gothamslittlejester can help you out here lmao she’s written for poly!readerxJokerxJoker so go check out her works; they’re phenomenal! <3

Anonymous said: There's a tornado warning in my area. We NEVER get tornado warnings, like ever, so I'm kind of scared.

Ohmygoodness please stay safe, darling!!! I’ve never experienced any kind of natural phenomena like that so I can’t imagine how scary that must be! I hope everything turned out well x

Anonymous said: I read what happened to you at work and deeply sorry. I’m sure you are more than aware of this but their reaction is a reflection of themselves than of you. You have the full power to enjoy and like what you please. Also, it is okay to bite back when it is needed. It may be hard to, but sometimes it’s healthy to stand up for yourself at times. Of course it is easier said than done. Remember you’re a goddess! Take back your power ✨

Thank you so, so much!!!! I’m not really all that affected by what happened anymore; it was only a week ago but already I’ve reached that nice part of apathy where you still care but you’re like, aa fuck it, I don’t wanna be hurt by it anymore. Standing up for myself is very hard; I’m a lot like Arthur in that respect: I put my head down, bite my tongue and take it because I hate confrontation. I hate it so much so I’d rather stay quiet. My parents told me I need to be a bit less Arthur and a bit more Joker; maybe in time that bite will come to me xp thank you honey! Your words mean a lot; I’m always here if you ever wanna talk about anything!!!

Anonymous said: I just read what you said about your coworkers. Honestly that's so horrible and I hope you're feeling better soon. ♡ I feel you so much, things like that happened to me all the time while I was still in school. But please, don't hate yourself. You have such a beautiful mind, you have talent & creativity most of them couldn't even dream of. It's not your fault that they can't see how beautiful being an introvert & a daydreamer can be. You're wonderful the way you are. ♡ ( @buried-in-windy-meadows )

I’m so sorry that you had to experience that, too, it’s an awful feeling when you try to be yourself and people are mean. I hope you know that they are no reflection on you, as the previous anon says - it’s all on them! Thank you so much; your words mean a lot <3 I’ve always been this way, for as long as I can remember I’ve lived inside my head, so I see no reason to change; I’m happy in, not necessarily myself, but my imagination and my creativity is my favourite part of myself (even when I’m at war with the rest of me, I can find solace in my imagination and I’m very lucky to have that) and I wouldn’t trade it for the world.

Anonymous said: I���m pretty sure you’re on the opposite side of the world from me so I just wanted to let you know your words and your attitude are making someone on the other side of the planet smile. We are all so lucky to have you and to have this movie to connect us. It makes me feel really human 🧡

This film is without a doubt the best thing that’s ever happened to me - we’ve all found a home, a place to go to vent and to write and to support each other and it’s so beautiful how such a tragic, grisly and dark film has brought light to so many of us. Arthur would adore it, I know he would. Thank you, darling, this means a lot to me! Please know I’m always here for you should you ever need anything or just wanna drop a line! <3

rafaelina-casillas said:Aw, I'm so so sorry that happened to you! People can be so nasty - especially to those who never deserved it! I hope you're feeling a lot better now! I can only say that in my country (where Halloween is not a tradition but more and more people are celebrating it) I saw at least 5 or 6 people in less than an hour who were doing the same makeup as you - and no one tried to mock them. I guess you had the worst luck with your colleagues but try to not mind them. They don't deserve your nerves! 💖

Exactly! I didn’t go out with my makeup, I just stayed home and enjoyed my private and personal display of love for Joker - I’m sure he’d have been flattered! And I dared to open up to my colleagues; it’s a mistake I won’t make twice, that’s for sure. Thank you, you’re always so kind to me and it means a lot - will have to DM you soon!

insfirebunny said: You look so cute and your writing is a pure gold. Stay strong

Thank you so, so much, you’re too kind!!! Take care of yourself, love! <3

Anonymous said: binge watching Batman: The Animated Series this weekend. Mark Hamil’s joker is amazing tbh

I’ll have to check that out; see if it’s on Netflix or Youtube. I hope you had a wonderful weekend! <3

theclownsqueen said: Hi! Im a new page, i love your page so much and your work is amazing! Sorry just thought I'd drop by. :)

Yeeeees ohmygoodness I gotta reply to your DM; I’ve got so many lmao <3333 thank you so much, you’re far too kind, I hope you continue to enjoy my works; I’m always here if you need anything x

Anonymous said: I relate to Arthur so bad. I’ve always been a loner and really shy, plus I’ve been helping out my mother a lot with financial problems. Once I saw the movie in theaters I just fell in love with it and it really brings me joy to read your fics. I just wish I wouldn’t get labeled a weirdo or freak for openly expressing that I like Arthur. Just makes me feel ashamed for liking something which sucks.

Thank you, darling - I’m glad my works can bring you joy; that’s really all I want to do with my writing is to help people in the moments they most need it. Even if all I manage to do is make your lips quirk upwards, that means I’ve done what I set out to do! I’m sorry you’re having such a rough time of it and I hope things start to look up for you soon! <3 The people who should feel ashamed are the ones labelling you for expressing yourself; truly, they’re the punchline of the joke Arthur was laughing at during the end of the film. Don’t let them take your sun from you, love - that means they’re winning. Please know I’m always here for you; don’t be afraid to drop me a line! <3

Anonymous said: I love your writing!

Thanks, honey! That means a lot <3

Anonymous said: Any tips for fic writers out there? Love your work btw!

There’s so much I could tell you but honestly, rules and guidelines don’t matter. Just have fun with it. Write what you wanna write in the way you wanna write it, when you wanna write it, and if anyone doesn’t like it, then who cares? Do it for you, even if you’re fulfilling requests for other people. Step back when you gotta, don’t be afraid to turn down writing requests if you don’t gel with them or you just don’t wanna or you’re not comfy with it, and really just have fun. If you have fun with the work you put in, then it’ll shine through and people’ll love it!

writings-of-a-gen-z said: hey love hope everythings going okay for you and the world isnt being too mean x

You’re too good to me, you always are. Thanks, love, and the same for you <3 sending hugs and love!

jibanyyan submitted:

I love your writing so so so so much you don’t even know it! I get excited each time I get notified that you posted again and I even take my time to read them in uni!!!

Just know that I love your blog and you can always reach out to me if you need someone to talk to even though we don’t know each other!

Much love goes out to you love xx

Thank you so, so much omgggggg you’re always so kind and supportive and it’s???? amazing ???? Please know the same for you; I’m almost always online when I’m not at work (even when I’m studying I have tumblr open in case people need me lmao) so I’ll reply .p. quickly! <3333 thank you so much omgggg sending you loads of love and hugs, I hope you’re well!

harlyquln said: when do you plan on opening requests again? 🥵

I’m not sure yet, love, but because I love to put myself under pressure lmao because nothing will make you work like an impending deadline, shall we say the beginning of December? That gives me just under 3 weeks to write almost 40 requests and honestly, that seems reasonable (ish). <3

Anonymous said: your comfort fics are always so beautiful 💕 i’ve never felt like i was actually IN an imagine before i read one of yours. you’re honestly one of my fav authors

Omggggg thank youuuuuu~ comfort fics are my favourite thing to write so that means so much! <3

kat-o-combs said: Good morning sunshine ☺️ I hope your day is going well. You deserve happiness, comfort, and contentment 💕 love ya!

Omgggg you’re always so good to me wtfffff <3333 thank youuu I hope the same for you too; you deserve all the best things in life! Love you too x

Anonymous said: Hope you're gonna feel better! I've discovered your blog... a week ago, I think, and your stories have helped me more than you'll ever know. I find a lot of comfort and support to keep me going when I read your stories and I'm so thankful for your blog. :)

Anonymous said: Hope you're gonna feel better! I've discovered your blog... a week ago, I think, and your stories have helped me more than you'll ever know. I find a lot of comfort and support to keep me going when I read your stories and I'm so thankful for your blog. :)

Helping people with my writing is a literal dream so thank you for telling me this! When I write the softer comfort imagines, they’re very emotionally draining and I have to dig deep to write them so usually I come away feeling old wounds and pretty tired in myself; I take care of myself in the ways I know helps (funnily enough, writing is both the issue and the solution) and I come back out on top. Thank you very much for telling me this, I’m glad I’m able to help you! <3

Anonymous said: Awww I hope you feel better soon!!

I do, darling, thank you so much x

Anonymous said: Sneaking up to nuzzle Arthur, then blowing a raspberry on his neck and watching him grin and shy away with a giggle.

Yeeeees~ lmaooooo it’s what he deserves!!!!!! <33333

Anonymous said: I saw joker for the second time and I think I've finally accepted in myself what you had a while ago. Arthur feels like home, he feels like comfort. When he would be dancing or just even smile I felt like I was there and I felt like everything was okay. I've fallen in love with a fictional character, but I can accept that. Because escaping with him brings me so much joy and love, I cant imagine being without it

Neither can I, nonnie. I’ve felt love for characters before but never like this. Never. I never wanna be without him or without this community again. We found a home in Arthur Fleck and fuck he’d love that so much. I’m glad he’s able to to bring you joy and love, it’s all he’d want for you and he’d be so proud of you!!! <3

Anonymous said: I had a dream about arthur last night???? Like I got into a car crash and he came and got me and brought me home and cuddled me and gave me kisses and honestly the dream was super scattered but so nice wow

That sounds like such a lovely dream omg loving Arthur and being loved right back??? Where do we sign up?? <3

Anonymous said: wish i could make Arthur a flower crown right now god damn

A) he’d look so fucking cute and B) he’d wear it around the apartment all the time omgggggg ~ he’d never wear it outside bc he’s scared it’ll get lost or stolen or broken but at home he’d cherish it so much and he’d look adorable ohhhh~ ;33333

Anonymous said: Hey, Ily and all though I'm not the biggest fan of Joker fics I just want you to know I still support and care for you

Thank you honey, this means a lot!!!! If this isn’t your scene, you’re welcome to unfollow, I won’t be mad or anything at all. Thank you for your continued support if you decide to stay, though, it means so much x

rebs-doom said:reminder that u r my fave person bye

Come here and let me love you, you precious, beautiful soul. I love you so much.

Anonymous said: What do you get when you cross a sad, touch-starved man with a blog that cherishes him and treats him well? I'll tell you what you get, you get what you fucking deserve. *smooch*

Can you imagine:

“Hey, Arthur?”

Arthur made a soft noise of acknowledgement from where he was sleepily cuddled into your side.

“Wanna hear a joke?”

“Mm,” He chuckled, “What?” He blearily opened his eyes to gaze at you fondly.

*You tell him this joke but swap ‘blog’ for ‘person’ and kiss him before he can react*

And see how fast he gives you what you deserve ;) ;)

(high key it’d become a way for you to say ‘i love you’ without saying it. Like, “you’re always so good to me” // “it’s what you deserve”) <333 sweet boi deserves the world.

Anonymous said: Can I just say how much of a blessing you are to the Arthur Fleck/Joker fandom!

Istg I’m drowning in all this love omggggg you’re far too kind to me I’m just a simple girl pouring out her love for Arthur/Joker into her blog because it’s got nowhere else to go <333333333 thank you so much!!! <3333

Anonymous said: I feel so sad for Arthur; he pretty much had the world against him from day one. I could only imagine some of the stuff he'd gone through when he was small. I just see baby Arthur lying in a filthy crib, crying for his mother's comfort or from hunger, and Penny just not even noticing it or caring.

I know :( it’s so tragic and dark and there are thousands of Arthur Flecks in real life who are unseen and defeated and broken down but they can’t get help but they’re trying and they work so hard and they just. Keep. Going. I left the cinema each time crying really hard and got home and cried some more for Arthur and for all the people, including myself, who watched the film and saw pieces of themselves in Arthur. When I think of Penny, I find it oddly funny that she always called him ‘Happy’ when he was anything but and it was only until she died that he became what she always thought he was. It’s beautifully ironic, in a strange way.

Okay, so uh... I gotta not let asks build up like that again lmao this took me two hours wowowowow <3333 I’m aiming to get some writing done today, there’s three or four pieces I’ve started and not finished so I’ll work on those. Thanks, loves, you have no idea how much you all mean to me! <3

[woozi]

henlo yza <333

it's so great to see woobin back on screen 🥺, i forgot to tell you, before homecha it was when the weather is fine which was ( still is shjddj) my comfort drama. i think the most favorite parts from it are the book club the characters held at this bookstore every week and everyone would bring something books, poetry to read aloud. the quotes and poems were so <//3 whole drama overall is is like hot chocolate <3 but unlike homecha which was warm and light, it's cold, sad and melancholic jdjdkd a slow burn tbh but it's the kind of sad which gives comfort? i hope i make sense 😭. not many ppl liked it hdjdkdkd ig it's not for everyone.

in a way ( the first two episodes) our blues reminds me of when the weather is fine but on lighter tone. it's like writers mixed both dramas and created this one hddjdk :3

ALSO ( im so sorry for ranting about drama lmao 😭😭😭 ) i checked what ahn hyo seop is working on next and it's remake of a taiwanese drama called " someday or one day" i watched it last year it literally blew my mind 😭 the plot was so goood. it's a time travelling drama! im very excited to see ahn hyo seop in remake of this. business proposal really made me like him (had never seen any previous projects of his).

speaking of which, what have been your current obsessions? dhjfkfk

japan + us tour 😭😭😭😭😭 SCREAMING, that's how it always is 😔

im so excited for the darling btw <3 ( little confession, i have never liked darling for nickname dhsjdjdkdk i've only liked variations of names as nicknames instead of an actual one hdjddk)

tonight's teaser was so pretty omg. honestly wasn't looking forward to it that much dhjdjdkd but teasers and all have been pretty decent so im excited. im afraid im gonna be bias wrecked hard by w̶o̶n̶u̶ 🤕 this is so sick and twisted i don't wanna go back to being bias wrecked again 😭 by him 😭🤕💀 anyway.

what are your thoughts on teasers <3?

OH MY GOD YOU'RE SO- HSHDHDJDJDJKDDK YOU'RE SUCH A GENIUS YZA 😭 i will definitely keep this in mind and ask my tattoo artist to add one of my bday thank you sm for the idea!! problem is moon on my birthday was barely visible 😭 2% waxing crescent </3 it still might look good on last end i guess <3

hdjdkfkf it's 6th july, when is yours? is it in late july? hdhdjdkd

has your break started already? honestly week offs should never end </3 hope you're enjoying and resting along with catching up w your uni work <//3, sending goodest vibes your way hehe <3 love you

"whole drama overall is is like hot chocolate" THE WAY YOU HAVE WITH WORDS OH MY GOD???????????

also SOOO so valid <3 you're giving me SOO many good reccs omg thank u ma'am i'll def keep u posted <3 AND NOOOO OMG dont be sorry at all i love hearing from u!! NOW i havent seen a t-drama im VERY VERY excited to check this out

also nothing new tbh my obsession is procrastinating JFDJKFDJKFD ok but to answer that seriously it's still gifmaking lmao 😭😭 it really is my outlet

i get why so many artists are going for us tours though (the restrictions are... very light if any, to say the least, on there) but still fdjkjfkfjdk idk

AND OMGGGGGGGGG HOW DID U FIND DARLING 👀 do u like it? not like it? meh? 👀 ALSO WIG FJKFJKJFKD darling kinda sounds like sumn an old lady will call u i get that JDJKF

AND I KNOWWWWWWWWWW!!!!!!!! the teasers aren't bringing something entirely new to the table, but i still like them! i think the video teaser was what made me the most excited though!! AND NOT WONU DFJFDJK WHY AM I ALWAYS SURROUNDED BY WWRIDEULS!! (i get it though.. I REALLY DO... HAS ANYONE SEEN THE DUDE.. thats why he's always topping the carat polls) the glitch on his name made me laugh 😭😭

OFC ANYTHING FOR U <33333 also 2% that is literally a line lmAOO

ALSO OH MY GODDDDDD YOU'RE ALSO A JULY BABIEEEEEEE!!!!!!!! im so obsessed w u <3 it really is thats why i have that as my main's url JFDJKJKFD VERY late july (29)

my break's ending this weekend and i have NOT done much for the past 2 weeks i feel so ASHAMED BUT LIKE FDJJKDJKDFJKDFJ I NEED PROFESSIONAL HELP ATP I THINK LMAO holy shit 😭😭😭

thank u for always catching up and sharing ur life w me 🥺 how have you been? i hope you are well and fine <333333 ily THE MOSTTTTTTTTTTTTTT

[riskeith]

you just responded and i nyoomed to answer. yes my days consist of waiting for you. yes i’m not ashamed to admit it. <3

that makes so much sense actually? like A Lot of sense. i don’t think you should feel bad about that at all i mean if you are comfortable with how you perceive them then by all means! haha! what’s fun about fanfics is that people can take one character and shape them in so many different ways. canon doesn’t anyways give us depth to characters yet writers do which 🙏🏽 godsent. but then again, it can feel weird if someone makes them behave like ~someone~ else haha. i remember it used to be a hot topic in voltron actually, where people would portray lance as a weak and emotional guy only even if he’s arguably the bravest and most bamf... people didn’t like that very much. do you know what i’m talking about?

I’M SO EXCITED TO READ ALL OF THESE. thank you so much you just set my late night weekend plans 😏. and oh god esselle is the ao3 writer. i love their bnha fics so much. can’t wait to read their haikyuu stuff as well. kagehina too... 🥺 dude, i saw some oikage things last night and i have my eyes open.. 👁 i know you like them a lot so hm... i’ll definitely read that as well i love the summary already.

he’s puppy-like so would he like to play in the water? i want to say so, just bc i think it would be cute for him to splash around 🥺

just one?? wow now i get what you meant in your earlier messages, shskdhsk. all my current friends i’ve known since we were children, i don’t even know how to make new friends irl tbh.... AND SAME!!!! CHILDHOOD FRIENDS TO LOVERS GO BRR. and god the best thing is how things change but at the same time they don’t? like they start to notice little things and realize they’ve always liked them? or the ‘i thought best friends felt like this towards each other’.... aaaaaaaah. 🥺 but then again enemies to lovers.. the tension and the yearning? the moment everything just snaps? god i couldn’t pick my favorite i don’t think. i just love those two so much equally hahah.

if it’s cyberpunk vibes i will combust. i love those aesthetics so much.. (waiting for ps5 to restock so i can run around in night city in cyberpunk 2077 forever.) but yeah it makes sense for it to be themed like that but it’s so funny to think about transporting from the whispering woods to like... large billboards and grungy streets. AR 35?? oh that’s must earlier than i expected. so i take it the main story isn’t done yet?

how sexy, even though this blog is just our messenger app at this point snskdhkddhj.. once again, i’m sorry riskeith stans.. 🙏🏽

i wish i could get you all the cotton candy in the world. and wow kenma HAIR!! sounds so cute but wait oh my god,,, do you have short hair,....... 😳💗💓💕👁💘💝💓😭💗👀💖💓💘💝💞 do you? 😳💢 how was it shaving everything? must’ve been such a big decision!! 😳

ikr? like most of the fics i’ve read portrays them as a angst ship which i do love a lot but you’re right it’s funny bc in canon they’re just.. supportive idiots. i think it’s the oikawa fangirls thing and iwa being annoyed by it that people get hooked on. at least i think since it’s almost always there in the fics... :+ DO YOU LIKE IT? i’m so obsessed with it i saw a edit on ig with klance and that song earlier and it fits them so well too... 🥺 anyway back to iwaoi, i think i like writing from iwa’s pov actually? i haven’t tried writing much from oikawa’s yet but idk.,, iwa’s personality just speaks to me. also i like that oikawa’s personality is so complex to understand, it’s easier to spice up the angst that way. (I DON’T 🥺 it’s such a sad topic for me bc it’s my ultimate dream to drive but it costs soo much money to get it here and i’ve been too busy to invest... 😭 wbu?????) I KNOW MEMO AND OH MY GODNESS? i’m sure the fic is sooo good oh god.... the vibes. 😭 please tell me what it’s about. please. 🙇🏽‍♀️

OH it means that i’m just gonna reread your fics until you post something new... here i thought i was being clever and cute shshskdhdks

STOP YOU KEEP MAKING ME SO EXCITED aaaa ma’am please... think about my heart. 🥺

here’s a new topic to discuss; are you a coffee or tea person? (or neither.. please don’t say so)

kiss, m.a. 💘

i keep forgetting to check whether you’ve responded or not before shutting down my laptop and i’m left to answer on my phone 😭😭 and i too spend my days awaiting your responses <333 but i always forget to check after a period of time HFJSKFKSKCKNC i swear i’m checking like once every 5 min but the moment i forget you respond NCKSNDN

bro (do you mind being called stuff like that lol) writers give us everything canon is too cowardly to give.… truly blessed 🙏🙏 yeah i do!! there are a lot of complaints about mischaracterisation in hq fandom too actually… which i think is fair enough but at the end of the day just let these people have their fun you know.. it’s not harming anyone and if you don’t like it just don’t read! lol

i haven’t read much of esselle’s bnha actually (aside from tdbk) but i just know they’re absolutely amazing!!!!!! absolute legend i hope (i know you will tho hehe) you enjoy her kagehina toooo. and yes oikage!!!!!! omg pls 😭😭😭 i wish they were more popular aaaa

🥺🥺🥺 razor in one of those baby pools.. RAZOR WITH POOL FLOATIES!!! my goodness 😭😭😭😭

fjksnxksndm yeah but i think i might be an outlier in that… LOL oops. and you’re so right like they just grew up together and like grew in love it’s so natural and just comes to them like they were always supposed to be together and they are <333 bc soulmates <33333 BUT YEAHHH THE MOMENT EVERYTHING SNAPS YOU KNOW IT!!!!! god when person A SAVES person B even tho they’ve “hated” them the entire time...… but when they were faced with a tough circumstance they realised they couldn’t bear the thought of being without them 😩😩👌👌👌👌👌👌

omg ps5.… ngl i considered buying a ps console so i could play the last of us 2 chxjjskskxjxjs. have you seen all the cyberpunk memes tho? lolol. nah main story isn’t done!! i think the main story is supposed to develop all 7 worlds until we find our sibling so like.… it ain’t gonna be over for a LONGGGG time (lol omg could you imagine if mih*y* pulled a me and like 4 worlds in was just ‘ok soz i’m uninterested now you can imagine how the game would’ve gone’ HFJSJFKSKFKDJ)

HAHAHAHHA it legitimately is. riskeith who??? more like marriage anon stan account. fjdkfnnd anyways to my other followers hope y’all are enjoying the show 🤪

i do have short hair rn!!! lowkey a bowl cut but i’m also trynna grow out a mullet djksndksnd. and having a shaved head was so nice.. i literally just couldn’t stop touching it after cjskckksnfks. and it wasn’t that big of a decision to me tbh i’m not that fussed about my hair like i know some other people are djskkd the biggest obstacle was getting my parents to agree 💀💀💀 (much like i am trying now..…) i used to have my hair long for ballet, but once i quit i just kept getting it cut shorter and shorter and then voila! shave. GJDJKSKDND

true.. jealous iwa.. i have that in one of my wips i believe FJSJJCKSKDK (it might even be in the memo fic?) AND UHHHH i didn’t love the song ;–; it’s just… slow HFKALDLAKDK and not the mood i was in when i heard it cjdkslxllskcjskcnkscnkzmxmcm omg no not klance 😭😭 they have a lot of angst too.. (i say, as if there isn’t a single klance fic of mine that doesn’t have angst JFJDJSKDJ) OMG YOU LIKE WRITING IWA POV TOO???? you 🤝 me iwa kin. i joke that it’s because i, much like him, am very much in love with oikawa. (aw no i’m so sorry for bringing it up 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭 but i’m on my learner’s rn!) IVE POSTED THE OUTLINE ONCE (not a good sign… LMAO) https://kaheyama.tumblr.com/post/190015338287/yall-want-some-iwaoi-angst THERE!! also wait i just realised it has manga spoilers.… maybe don’t look fjdknfjd (you could stop after “pining iwaizumi hajime” but i don’t want to accidentally spoil you 😭😭)

JFKSKSLAKFKSKCJLSKD IM so sorry it WAS clever and cute my brain was just not big enough at the moment to understand 😭😭😭😭😭 but thank u as always i appreciate 💗💗💗💗💗💗💗 so honoured you would even think about going back to them lord knows i don’t KFKSJSKA

HEHEHE NO MERCY!!! but ok ok i shall lay low until the day comes 😋😋😋

tea!! simply bc i can’t sleep if i drink coffee fjskfjsj. but that’s been happening with tea too so i haven’t even had tea recently 😭😭😭😭😭 flavour wise i think i like coffee more but also you get so much more variety with tea? hm. HAHA. hbu??

hugssss, c.r. 💝

[inkykeiji]

hii clari!!!!! i haven’t talked to you in sooo long, but it’s cuz i’ve been busy with school and work (now schools done tho lol). how have you been? i read your latest raver!dabi piece and the SICKENINGLY (affectionate) SWEET hawks one—both had me in near tears bc your writing is just soo insanely emotional. ive told you this before but seriously, thank you for sharing your work with us as it’s just...life changing. i’m also sorry to hear that you got gross and extremely vile messages. it never makes sense to me that others are that miserable as to want to cause someone they don’t even know pain. just know that us anons that message you constantly talking about how great you and your writing are mean it 1000%. i love you clari bae🥺 i’ll talk to you soon, mwah mwah<3

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HELLOOO MY LIL DROPLET BB <333

that’s okay sweetpea that’s totally okay!!! eee i’ve been okay, thank u for asking!! <33 SICKENINGLY (affectionate) SWEET hehehehehehe aw aw aw thank you this made me giggle <3 i’m literally overjoyed to hear that you enjoyed both of them so much oh my gosh!!!!! your compliments quite literally brought tears to MY eyes because i literally appreciate the sentiment and your words so, so, so much <3 thank YOU for reading it, and for sending me such wonderful messages, it means the actual world to me <3

aw thank you droplet bb, it’s okay!!! not everyone is going to like me, and that’s fine—no matter what you do or who you are, there’s always going to be someone who can find SOMETHING to dislike about you, or is just going to dislike you for no reason at all. not everyone is going to like my writing, and that’s also fine, because it very clearly isn’t for everyone. but it is, obviously, NEVER OKAY TO SEND HATE. to anyone. ever. often, though, hate is rooted in jealousy and insecurity, and the things they said reflected much more on them than it ever would on me.

oh my gosh i appreciate you, and every single other anon, every single follower, and every single silent reader, so so so much. i’m just grateful and happy that you are all here reading my work, giving me feedback and/or interacting with me; i couldn’t ask for anything else, i love you (and everyone else) so very much <33333 thank you again for such a thoughtful message droplet bb, you’re so amazing to me <3

[inkykeiji]

It’s finally Christmas time!!!!!!! Gonna reread all of my snowman and me and listen to Christmas music!! Was wondering what ur fav Christmas movie is?? I’m excited to start watching some again omg my fav is the family stone!! I watch it every Christmas I love it!! Anyways just wanted to stop by and say hello I hope u have a good weekend Clari!!! 🕊🕊🕊

it IS and i’m soooo excited!!!!!! i LOVE christmas!!!! hehehehe aaah dovey ur so cute!!! i hope you enjoy!!! i have another christmas series as a gift for you all this year!!!!!!!! <33333 i’ll be announcing it very soon!! (´∀｀)♡

HEHEHE oh my gosh i’m so happy u asked!!! i have a few!! i love the grinch, i love jack frost (the one with michael keaton where he comes back to life as a snowman!!), i love scrooged and love actually and literally all of the rankin-bass stop motion films hehehe <3 omg i’ve never seen the family stone!!! aw hehe thank u bb i hope you enjoy your weekend <333

[inkykeiji]

i forgot to mention but CLARI I PASSED MY FINALS. now i can use my one braincell to read fanfics and write im so happy 🥺. this also brings a question to mind: how do touya and dabi celebrate things? and is it different when the reader gets involved? i know you mentioned touya is a philosophy major (which ouch btw), but does he reward himself for passing? i can see him rewarding dabi and reader, but he reeks of the type to not do good things for himself 🤔(but maybe das just me)

MAY MY LUV THAT’S FANTASTIC CONGRATULATIONS!!!!!!!!! 🎉🎉🎉🎉 hehehehe YAYYYYYY i’m so proud of you!!!!!! <33333

OOOOH very good questions!!! I LOVE THE TWINS SO MUCH AAAAAH LET’S GET INTO IT

touya is genuinely and truly a Rich Kid in every sense of the word, and he loves luxury and extravagance. as such, his celebrations are very over the top. you got an 80 on your paper? time for a weekend getaway to an expensive spa in the mountains. you answered a question in lecture today despite having extreme social anxiety? you’re having dinner at your favourite and most lavish restaurant. you did something sweet and selfless for him? expect him to return it tenfold, because he loves you so much, and that’s just the type of person he is--which means he REALLY loves to go all out for birthday parties; specifically yours, and his + his twin’s (much to dabi’s distaste). touya literally finds satisfaction and self worth in spoiling those he loves (including himself!). he’ll buy himself a ten thousand dollar watch for simply closing a good deal or acing a test he knew he’d get near perfect on anyway, coming home to show you all of its glitter and sheen like babe, i’m fucking awesome aren’t i? he’s quite confident lmao he knows he’s smart, knows he’s sly, and knows he’s gorgeous as heck <3

touya also goes all out for all holidays, but specifically valentine’s day and christmas. especially christmas.

dabi shares touya’s knack for being extremely charismatic and manipulative, and can be quite sociable when he wants to be, but that isn’t how he prefers to spend a celebration. he’s an introvert by nature, so he enjoys smaller get togethers that aren’t so GRAND and expensive. his idea of the perfect celebration involves his close friends, his twin, and you, doing something fairly lowkey and just hanging out. he’d probably cry if he came home after a big (illegal) achievement to you having built a cute lil blanket fort complete with his favourite snacks/food and his favourite films ready to go. he’d also enjoy a cute lil grilling party or something, as he enjoys grilling!

when it comes to celebrating your achievements, dabi’s an absolute mess. he’s really not good at it, and he’s terrified he’ll mess it up and ruin your high, so he mostly just tags along with touya and lets his older twin handle the whole thing. but he’s still proud of you, and he always tells you so, even if it comes out a little botched and trembly, hacked to pieces by his nervous, uneven breathing. and, if it’s something BIG, and he knows it was important to you, he’ll make you something (as he’s quite gifted in the arts!). he spends weeks stressing over it, though, and his hands quiver when he hands it to you, jaw clenched as he spits something out through his teeth. but you get it, you understand the sentiment behind it <3 (and he always apologizes for being harsh when he hands it to you, later when you’re tangled up in that massive bed with the two of them <3)

dabi always feels a little awkward on valentine’s day, but he still tries his best, always gifting you and touya each something special, something thoughtful, because that’s how dabi is. he hates christmas, so he’s quite a bit of a grinch around december, but he’ll soften up a little if you feed him some christmas cookies <333

no no, you’re partially right!! touya thinks very, very highly of himself, but he’s also such a caregiver type (for very select people) and he becomes uncharacteristically selfless in their presence. and, because he’s with dabi + reader so often and truly takes care of the both of them in more ways than one, his own self-care does fall through the cracks. but!!!!! dabi and reader are always right there to catch it or pick it back up again <33 they’ll do nice and sweet things for him as well, because they know how hard he works. as such, touya regularly returns home to be greeted with his favourite homemade meals and mind-blowing sex <3