#anyway classic emo hours in the tags. gn !

[its-all-papaya]

Not to like. Patronize. But writing is hard and you're doing great and if you're struggling maybe take a break/ work on sth else for a bit because that's totally something you're 100% allowed to do. Writing is great until it isn't and you deserve to do it while it's something you love. Sending u strength in these trying times muah

i am objectively NOT doing great tbh. and i understand the concept of a break. but. every time i've left a wip for something else it's just never been finished? and also each fic has like a specific space in my brain that the energy of the writing lives. and i'm afraid if i leave dad lando i will never actually find that place again. also i just really want this fic to be done so i can share it, but now i fear it won't be finished bc i've ruined my own perception of it permanently. idk. bad week. i wish i could have had like 85 hours of uninterrupted time to bang this entire 60k thing out when it was all gelling in my mind, but unfortunately i do have a stupid real job and now it's just not all clicking like it was anymore.

perhaps i will feel better about this when it is not 2:30 am ?? who's to say. anyway, thx for your message, i unfortunately will never be kind to myself but i appreciate ur efforts anyway <3