#anyway I'm ok now my little sister calmed me down

[oncominggstorm]

Had a shutdown, my sister got made about it like she always does, and decided to tell me she wishes she didn't have to live with me and can't wait til that's a reality one day.

So I was crying & feeling like I didn't want to be alive anymore, and like I NEEDED to get out, so I left, didn't know where to go, so decided to go to my grandma's (A little background: we've been told Grandma won't live past the end of the summer, and my mom lives with her to take care of her)

So I walk in to grandma's house crying and say to my mom "I don't know what to do, I can't do this anymore, I can't live with [my sister] anymore." And literally the first thing mom does is YELL at me and says "Absolutely not, you do NOT get to come in this house crying to me." Which was uh...the last thing one wants to hear when one already is feeling alone and unsupported.

So I lost it, and I said "Fine I'll just go drive into the river instead then like I was originally planning & you can pull my body out tomorrow" and my mom says "Ok good." LIKE?!??! What kind of fucking parent says that when their child says they want to kill themselves?

[rekino2114]

ok hear me out female Zenitsu Agatsuma simping for male reader

Fem. Zenitsu simping for male reader

A/n:art by stormin on pinterest. Zenitsu's name will stay the same...I don't know if that makes sense but I can't think of anything

You took a deep breath as you looked around you. You were finally back after a long mission, and you wanted nothing more than to relax

"Oh hey y/n!, you're back, how was the mission?"

"Hi tanjiro, it went well. The demon wasn't that strong, but it was still kinda tough. Do you know where Shinobu is?"

"Oh, she's probab-"

"Y/NNNNNNNN!!!!!!"

You two turned to see the rest of the kamaboko squad coming towards you, especially zenitsu who ran and tackled you into a hug

"I'm so happy you're back, I thought the demon ate you"

"Come on, zenitsu, did you think so little of me? No demon that weak could take me down"

"Y-yeah sorry, you're so strong, the strongest demon slayer I've ever seen, no demon could defeat you"

You blushed slightly from the praise and was about to thank her when you heard a groan

"Hmph! W/n (wrong name) Isn't that strong, I bet I could beat him in no time"

"Shut up, boar head, you don't know what you're talking about, y/n would wipe the floor with you"

"Really? Now I'm interested, hey w/n let's spar!"

".....A-actually, I just came back from a mission and-"

"Yeah leave him alone, y/n's probably so tired"

"Who cares? I wanna fight"

"I-inosuke, zenitsu, please calm down"

As tanjiro tried his best to calm the argument between his friends, you walked near genya and kanao

"Hi man, good to see you again"

"Hi, genya you too. kanao, do you mind telling me where your sister is?"

"...........Shinobu should be in the butterfly mansion, she's tending to other injured slayers"

"You didn't even use your coin, that's great, I'm proud of you"

You pat the shorter girl's head as she smiled slightly and you left to go where she told you, while you couldn't hear the commotion going on behind you

"Waaaaaaahhhhh *sobs*"

"Z-zenitsu what's going on?"

"D-did you see what y/n did to kanao, he pat her head, he never did that to me *sobs* y/n loves kanao"

"That's not true, y/n does not love me"

"*sobs* How dare you say that? Why did he do that then?"

"Oh it was because I didn't flip my coin to answer him"

"...........really?"

"Yeah, I can confirm that's what happened"

The blonde girl completely changed her attitude and jumped in the air

"Yay! That means I still have a chance"

"Sorry zenitsu, but might I say something? If you love y/n this much, why don't you just tell him?"

"Are you crazy? If I tell him and he doesn't reciprocate then I'll never be able to look him in the eyes again"

"........I.....see"

"Coward"

"Hey!......anyway, w-where did y/n go?"

"The butterfly mansion"

"Really? Great!"

Zenitsu disappeared so fast her friends thought she used her thunder breathing for a second

"Why did she go there anyway?"

"No idea"

Meanwhile in the butterfly mansion Shinobu was checking your wounds while you lied on a bed

"Alright y/n, if you're OK with that, do you mind taking your shirt off for me? I need to check if you have other injuries"

"Sure thing"

You did as she told you, but in that moment, you heard a squeal and the sound of something falling

"Hm? What was that?"

"I don't know, I'll check later"

"Ok"

Meanwhile on the other side of the door tanjiro found zenitsu on the ground with a bloody nose

"S-so muscular, I think I'm in heaven"

"........we really need to work on that"

[lixie-phoria]

ੈ✩‧ 🎀🩰 ➛ everything's going to be okay

genre : fluff, angst with a happy ending

warnings : descriptions of parental neglect

an : not my best writing :/ (+ his brother's name is haru)

lee know had been so excited. he'd been ecstatic, in fact, when his parents broke the news to the two of you. he loved you with all his heart, so finding out he was having another sibling sent him on cloud 9.

until he wasn't so excited anymore.

his younger brother was everything; the most adorable little baby he had ever seen. but he was a lot of work.

lee know remembers coming home from school one day, the widest grin stretched across his face as he ran up the stairs, with you just barely managing to keep up.

"omma! look!"

"shhh, not now."

he skid to a stop at the door frame, watching his mother rock his brother's cradle, trying to put the crying baby to sleep.

"but i have something to tell you."

"later, minho. can't you see i'm busy?"

the excitement drained out of him, but he nodded nonetheless.

it's ok. his younger brother needed to be looked after right now. he could tell her some other time.

he managed a small smile as you clutched onto his hand from behind, leading him away from the scene.

"it's ok," you mumbled softly, jumping over the toys scattered across the floor.

"but i was so excited to tell her about the dance competition," he grumbled, letting out a yelp as his foot landed on a lego and he was immediately shushed again.

"i know."

minho's eyes searched the audience for any familiar face. his spirits plummeted when he couldn't find any.

they had promised. his parents had given him their word. they said they would make it. then why weren't they here?

it was the dance competition. the same one he'd been so excited about. the same competition he'd been talking about for over two weeks. but somehow his parents seemed to have forgotten.

he had to ask a friend's mother for a lift home that night.

"minho-ah, you did so well!"

his ears perked up when his mother greeted him at the door, ruffling his hair.

"you were there?"

"of course! i wouldn't miss your performance for anything."

"why didn't i see you at the end of the program?"

"we had to come home early because of your father's work."

oh. maybe he had been overreacting, after all.

"did you like the cart wheel i did?"

"yes! you made me so proud."

nevermind.

the seven year old tried to smile as genuinely as he could, but gods he felt terrible. there had been no cart wheel. his mother had lied.

that night he tried to be as quiet as possible as he cried into his pillow, but when he heard your soft footsteps padding across the hallway towards his room, he sighed.

"oppa?"

"go away."

you were his younger sister. he didn't want you seeing him like this. but you slid into the covers beside his anyways, staring at him with sad, innocent eyes.

"i really wanted to watch you perform," you whispered in the silence of the night.

"then why didn't any of you come?"

"omma got busy. haru was having one of his tantrums again, it took all 3 of us to calm him down."

"oh."

lee know felt terrible. partly because he had really wanted his family to be there for his performance, and partly because in that moment he couldn't help but wish that his parents had never decided to have another kid. he loved his baby brother, but everyday he felt like his parents were slipping away from his grasp. things had never been like this when you were a baby.

"i'm sorry," you mumbled. "i know you did well. you always do."

minho hoped his smile was convincing enough as he reached across his pillow to link your hands together.

"thanks, y/n."

"but i want to have a party!"

"your brother is sick! how can you think about a birthday party at a time like this?"

the seven year old furiously wiped the tears from his eyes.

it was his eighth birthday. he wanted to have a birthday party like any normal kid his age. he wanted to call over his friends. he wanted to cut a cake and blow out the candles. he wanted people to sing for him as he cut into the cake. he wanted his old life back.

"but-"

"you can have a birthday party next year. no more discussion on this."

the boy didn't have it in him to fight back anymore. he ran back to his room, sobbing at how unfair his parents were being.

when he slammed the door shut, he wasn't surprised to see you sitting on his bed. this had happened more times than he could count over the past few weeks.

he would fight with his parents. they would send him back to his room. he would cry. you would comfort him. repeat.

"oppa-"

"why are they acting like this?"

he knew the answer just as well as you did.

haru. your younger brother haru.

minho knew bringing up a child was not easy. it was stressful. it wasn't entirely his parents fault. but he just wanted things to go back to how they were before. back when he could hold the attention of his parents for longer than just a few minutes.

"the two of us can go for ice cream instead?" you suggested, making space for him as he climbed into the bed.

"if they let us."

"they will."

he looked down to see you staring back at him determinedly.

"and if they don't, we will sneak out. it's your eighth birthday and we have to celebrate!"

"look at you. already becoming rebellious, huh?"

hearing you giggle made him feel better. only a little bit, but better nonetheless.

when he woke up the day after tomorrow, freshly turned eight, you were the first to wish him, running into his arms the second he stepped out of his room, a hand-made card clutched in your fist.

"i made you a card!"

minho smiled at the little cats you had drawn, the banner you had neatly scrawled happy birthday in and the chocolate taped inside.

"you're welcome!" you yelled, not waiting for his acknowledgement and ignoring your mother who shushed at you.

and somehow, minho felt lighter. he could feel a genuine smile pulling at his lips for the first time in months as he stared at your excited face.

yes, things were hard right now. yes, it would take some time before they would go back to normal.

but if you were trying, despite being in the same position as him, then he decided he would too.

he had you, and that made everything better.

©lixie-phoria, 2023

🏷️ @foxinnie8

[jinnie-ret]

HIII so I'm the one who asked Abt the sister reader and I wanted to rq a older brother skz x adoptive little sister reader where shes 15 and cusses a lot and is always getting into trouble like piercing her ears without anyone knowing, loud introvert, things like that and how they react to it? Love ur writing btw!🫶🏻🫶🏻

rebel

stray kids x adopted sister!reader

genre: fluff

content warnings: none

word count: 0.6k

summary: the boys are too used to their little sister's rebellious ways by now, but that doesn't stop them from worrying every now and then.

Hi thank you so much!! I hope you enjoy this one! :)

As always, like, reblog if you enjoyed, and my asks are open for any requests you may have. And let me know if you'd like to be tagged when I post :)

MAIN MASTERLIST

You had just arrived back to the dorms in the morning after coming back from your friend's house and spending the day with them all yesterday. It was silly of you to think that that boys wouldn't be awake at 10am in the morning.

"Ah, Y/N, nice of you to come home," Changbin says sarcastically, arms folded as he leans against the kitchen counter.

"It's not that late...?" you tried to get around the awkward situation, as you saw all of the boys eating breakfast with their phones out, and if you looked closer you would have noticed they had it open on the groupchat they had with you, waiting for a message to know when you'd be back.

"You could have told us you'd be ok," Han sighed in relief, coming up to you and affectionately stroking your hair back, but his fingers caught your ear, where you had gotten your second set of piercings done.

"Ow," you winced, causing him to raise a brow at you.

"You good?" Felix stood next to him, the September twins wondering what was the matter.

"Yeah, yeah, it's nothing," you shrugged them off and hopped onto the kitchen counter, nicking a piece of toast from Hyunjin's plate.

"I'll let that slide only because we were worried about you," Hyunjin sighed, still giving you the side eye despite his comment.

"Why were you worried?" you bit into the toast.

"Maybe because we haven't heard from you since 2am? What were you doing up at that time anyways?" Chan sighed, walking up to you and getting up from his seat at the table.

"Just watching films and that," you shrugged, mistakenly brushing your hair back.

"Oh, and what else did you get up to?" he frowned, huffing out a breath though his nose as his finger brushed against your new piercing.

"Ow... fine I got my seconds done," you admitted, looking away.

"With what money?" Jeongin laughed, "you only went to that local gig with your friends recently, and you can afford to have another piercing?"

"There was a discount! I got it done for ₩15,000!" you said happily, feeling like you had gotten a bargain.

"Oh dear, well hopefully you've got enough money left to pay for antibiotics when you get an infection," Minho wrinkled his nose.

"What do you mean?" you frowned.

"₩15,000?! That's too cheap, who knows if the metal is good quality, or if it was sterilised," Seungmin spoke up.

"Ah, well, I'm sure it'll be fine, only live once don't you?" you waved off their concerns.

"Yep, with infected gunky ears," Hyunjin patted your head.

"Stopppp," you whined at their teasing. But you didn't expect anything less from your brothers.

"Look, next time just tell us where you are and if you're ok, yeah?" Chan sighed, pinching the bridge of his nose.

"Yeah, Felix thought you died," Changbin giggled.

"I did not! I just thought she got kidnapped..." Felix trailed off after his attempt at defending himself.

"You do worry about me a lot," you laugh poking Felix's cheek.

"You're still a child, of course we worry," he hugs you to him.

"Ah, I'm not that young, I'm mature enough," you smile at them all.

"Yeah right, we still hear you cursing like a sailor when you're on the phone," Seungmin exposed you with a smirk.

"Who corrupted our baby y/n?" Han shook your shoulders, making you almost dizzy.

"Ok, ok, calm down," you giggled at him.

"I remember when you were 11 years old, so innocent, and now look at you," Changbin cried out, putting on a fake emotional voice as he covered his face.

"Such a rebel now," Hyunjin laughed, shaking his head at the scene in front of him, as Felix clung onto you and Han, Jeongin and Minho where now inspecting your piercings.

tagged: @skz-streamer @backintomykpopphaseagain @hannahhbahng @kiraisastay

[w2soneshots]

omg can you pls do a jj x reader where shes simon's sister and he catches them making out then gets all mad because he thinks jj is just being a playboy (im sry idk how to describe it 😭😭) but then realises how much they love each other

ty and i love your fics 💕💕

Not what you think -KSI

words: 0.7k+

warnings: angst, secret relationship, arguing.

summary: you accidentally fall in love with your brother’s best friend.

notes: hey babe!! I’m pretty sure you sent in my last JJ request (correct me if I’m wrong) so I’m gonna name you 💕. Anyway let me know what you think and I hope you enjoy!🙂🫶🏼

Me and JJ have been secretly dating for almost three months now. We've known each other for years since Simon's my big brother and they're best friends but just last year I realised I had feelings for him. I didn't act on those feelings so just kept them brewing inside for months because I assumed JJ didn't feel the same.

Until one night we were in a club, celebrating Calfreezy's birthday. We were both a little drunk so had some liquid confidence. He kissed me. But not a little peck, a full on make out session in the back of the club. I was shocked at first but when my brain registered that the person I'd had a massive crush on was basically showing me that he felt the same, I began kissing him back, with a slight sense of desperation and lust.

After that night we didn't talk for just under a week. Then I got a text from JJ asking if I would come round to his house to chat. I agreed, got ready and was outside his front door within thirty minutes of when he sent the message. We sat down on his couch, he was the first to speak. "How are you?" He asked. "Uh, I'm ok just a little confused." I fiddled with the hem of my top. "Confused about what?" "We kissed. You remember don't you?" I started with slight annoyance in my voice. He nodded. "Well you've been acting like it never even happened." He sighed "I'm just, you're- you're Simon's sister. We always agreed to 'never date the sister' but," he took a deep breath "I've liked you for a while now y/n, and I'm not sure if you feel the same way but-" I broke his sentence by kissing him, hard. "I'll take that as a yes then."

After that day we started dating. We already knew each other really well but he still took me out on a first date, then a second and well, now I've lost count. Since we decided to keep the relationship a complete secret we've both had to twist the truth a little. For example I told Simon that I had a boyfriend and JJ told him he had a girlfriend but we just avoided showing pictures or talking about each other.

We're planning on telling everyone this weekend at a party me and JJ planned especially, at my apartment. I'm really nervous and a little worried about how Simon will react. I spent the Friday night setting up so I could focus on getting ready on the Saturday. I bought a bunch of alcohol and some non alcoholic stuff for Tobi. When the day of the party rolled around I had a long everything shower then threw my hair in a towel while I had some lunch. By 6pm, I was fully ready. The party starts at seven. JJ came around forty five minutes early so we could talk about how the hell we were going to tell everyone (but especially Simon) that we'd be secretly together for months.

"It's gonna be fine, calm down." JJ gently rubbed my thigh as we sat on my sofa. I smiled up at him then moved myself closer to him "you're so cute." I whispered, our lips just millimetres apart. He closed the gap by pulling me into him and onto his lap so that I was sitting on his legs. My hands snaked around his neck and his rested firmly on my hips.

"What the fuck." I heard from the front door. I jumped up and my eyes widened when they met Simon's shocked face. In seconds both me and JJ were stood and making our way towards Simon. "We can explain-" JJ started. "No. You- I can't fucking believe this. She's my sister man!" Simon shouted, I flinched. "Simon we've been together for a while, this isn't something we chose. It just happened." I tried to soften the blow slightly. "What do you mean a while, how long?!" "Four months." JJ answered. "Four months! And you didn't think to tell me?!" I sighed "I was worried you'd react like this." "Well what do you expect when I find out my best friend's fucking my sister?!" My eyes widened. "It's not like that man. I love her." Simon's jaw dropped. "You love her?" JJ replied with a nod. "Oh."

"Hey guys! What's up?" Ethan burst through the door. "Uh, me and y/n were just telling Simon that we're together." JJ told him. "You what! Oh my god that's great! Isn't that great Simon!" He flung an arm round Simon's shoulder. Simon's face calmed "yea. I guess it is." A smile spread across my face. "I'm really happy for you too."

[marvel-and-chicago-fan]

Sick Sister

First Tumblr post ever, i work on wattpad but i want to also post my stuff on here. Anyways hope you enjoy

Requested: No

Warnings: Fainting, Hospitals, and one mention of ambulances

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Mattie’s Pov

“Mattie” you woke up to Jay pulling your covers off.

“Jay stop, it's so cold in here, did you turn the heat down or something?”

“No, I even turned it up last night cause I swear I could hear you shivering”. Jay said while going to feel Mattie's head.

“Gosh Mattie your burning up”

“I'm going to go grab the thermometer and call will, I'll be back”. Jay said while walking out of your room.

“Alright Mattie, I'm back”.

***

Jay called Will six times in the past hour taking the hint that he was busy or he just didn't want to answer so he called Connor in hopes that he would answer.

“Hello? Jay?” Connors tone confused on why his co-workers brother would call him

“Matilda has a fever of 103.1. I gave her tylenol around an hour ago and doesn't seem like it's working”.

“As her doctor im saying you should bring her in, but if you think she's ok then you can keep her at home”.

“I'm going to bring her in and-”. Jay stopped mid sentence hearing a loud thump. “Mattie, Matilda?”

Connor could hear Jay running up the stairs trying to figure out what happened.

“Jay-Jay, what's going on? Talk to me”

You felt a familiar feeling in your stomach, either it's because you're hungry or you need to throw up the crackers you ate.

As soon as you stand up get really dizzy you try to shake off the feeling but you can't, so you attempt to head down stairs but as soon as you take your next step you feel your body hit the floor and everything goes black.

According to Will and Jay you tend to faint every time you get sick but you don't remember so you just believe whatever they say and go with it.

The first time this happened Jay thought someone broke in since it was 6 in the morning. You swear you heard will yell that it was just you and not a criminal but your brushed it off thinking it was just a dream”

***

“It's Mattie, she fainted aging” .

“Make sure you put her feet up i'll let will know”

Before connor could finish jay hung up to call an ambulance”

***

“What've we got, Maggie”? Will asked as the paramedic handed over the young girl to the hospital.

“Matilda Halstead, 15 years old, found unconscious by her brother… Will you can't handle her, you the hospital protocols, I swear i didn't know”

Will was just left standing there as he watched his little sister being taken care of by other doctors.

***

Wills/No Ones POV

“At this point i think we should just put in the hospital with 24/7 surveillance everytime she gets sick” Will trying to make a joke

“First of all she hates hospitals and needles so that's a no, and i just realized that i forgot to tell voight i wouldn't be there. Haileys probably thought i've gone missing from not answering anyone's phone calls”.

Just then Connor walks in “Ok so she's ok now and you can see her now, she's dealurios but that will wear off soon. I wanted to run a few tests and it looks like she suffered from heat syncope. It looks like it's what causes the fainting every time she gets a high fever” .

“Thank you Connor”. Will replied

“Anytime guys, anytime”.

***

Mattie’s POV

Just then you saw your brothers come in and will told you to stop playing with your iv 

“Ha you two look alike for some reason”

“That's because we're brother mattie” Jay said while coming sit down next to you

“Mattie? But the doctors told me i was matilda am i impersonating someone” You whined

“No Matilda, we call you Mattie for short so you're not impersonating anyone, '' Jay said, trying to contain his laughter.

“Hey, stop laughing at me. Your so mean” You said almost crying

“Oh mattie jay just a 3 year old in an old man's body” Will sighed trying to calm down mattie

***

The rest of the night was filled with mattie making everyone laugh then connor discharged her

“Is she asleep?” Jay says when will comes down stairs

“Yep she finally let herself relax and sleep”

“She's just like you jay”

“And how she's more like you” Jay gasped

“She loves to be babied when she sick just like you” Will chuckled 

“Since you wanna keep coming at me like that you're in charge of waking her tomorrow morning”. Jay commented

“What?”

“See you tomorrow night will”

Will sat there thinking about how he's raising two children instead of 1 little sister.

[aleksa-sims]

RL Simself Story ⛈️

We had just arrived at Damien’s Mom's house. The thunderstorm continued, so Nico and I had to spend the night there. As I wanted to call my Mom, to tell her not to worry, Ana also called me, to tell me Daniel was back home. I was confused!?... I couldn’t believe it and I was annoyed by some things Ana did. Why was she at our place to talk to D.? Why is Ana meddling in my affairs? I mean, I get it! She was worried about him, she loved Daniel, just like my whole family did. But why did she have to mention that.... Lexi- shit? And why does she always think Alex is responsible for D.'s & my probs? Anyway, it pissed me off. And Nico was sitting right next to me while I was on the phone with Ana & my Mom. So he knew it too now, that D. was back. 😞

Me (to N.): I’m so sorry.... But trust me, it doesn’t change anything. I promise.... Uhm... I'll step out for a sec. I-...I have to call Ana back.

Nico: It's raining buckets!! Where you going? It's crazy out there.

Me: I-.... I just have to get out. Don't worry N., it's-... it's all fine. ok?

Nico: I'm going with you. 😟

Me: No! Please, don't. I just need to be by myself for a while. 😞

I'm so stupid!!! No one was out in the fucking weather, expect me, fool!... I had some questions for Ana. She said Daniel seemed high to her. I wanted to know why? Why did she think that? Well, Ana meant D. smoked, when she saw him. Actually, she was right. Daniel only smoked when he was high, or when we tried to get off that damn durg. I was worried about him, but at the same time, also mad. By now I knew, that Daniel saw Irena, just before he left 4 months ago. He was in her apartment. I didn’t know why he was there, at Irenas and his former place? Irena didn't want to tell me more.

Ana: Where are you anyway? Are you out there alone?

Me: Ah... yea, I'm alone.... Agh, Ana? Um... shit. The reception here's poor. Wait, I’m going in a different direction. Maybe it's better there?.... I think I’m gonna call Daniel.

Ana: You should go back to the house, to N. Just text Daniel. Tell him you'll be back home soon. But you don't have to call him, now A.!

Me: I’m afraid to tell him, Ana... And I feel so shitty about N., too. I'm so horrible. 😞

Ana: Yea. I get you. But Nico knew what he was getting into.

Me: Still, he also has feelings. N. is not an ass, as you all think. And I love him.

Me: Ana?.... Hello?... Ana!... Ugh, shit. 😨

Perfect timing. My phone died. 🤦‍♀️I was so absorbed in talking to my sister, that I got lost! I had no reception near Damien’s house, so I went in a completely different direction, but now, I did not know where I was? I decided to go back the way I went. Couldn't be so difficult, I thought....🧐

I was wrong! I got a.... little mental breakdown?... I wandered blind through an unknown area. Because of the heavy rain I could hardly open my eyes. I started to panic. I couldn’t use my phone to call N. He’ll think I left him, to rush home to Daniel. I was so worried about that. Nico told me himslef, just a few days ago, that he doesn’t trust me anymore. He's gonna hate me! 😨 And my Baby won’t have a Dad or a family bcs of me. 😭... I tried not to think about it, but about the tips my therapist taught me, to better deal with my panic attacks. And yea, I calmed down. I looked around again. I tried to concentrate to keep my eyes open. I saw two houses in the street where I was. I made my way towards the houses, to ask someone for help. But then I changed my mind. Somehow I didn’t feel good about ringing at strangers. I was afraid a psycho could lure me into his house. 😬 Yup, that's from watching so many horror movies, Ik!

Besides, I noticed that the road I was on, was a sign pointing to a bar and some shops, that should be just around the corner. I decided to try this first, before... well, I get killed by a sicko. Believe me, I have often run into some sick guys in my life. That’s why I was so insecure.

Meanwhile the others were starting to worry about me. Nico couldn’t find me outside and my phone was off too. He asked Damien to help him look for me. Oh, and the electricity was cut.  Allegedly, an important power pole was damaged by lightning. 🤷‍♀️

As you can see, I did not end up in a bar, but went to a shop that was open. I was so relieved when I saw other people there. They were surprised by the thunderstorm. Now they’ve been stuck in that small twon for two hours. They couldn’t get home. The streets were closed due to flooding and some other probs. Anyway, I was looking for the shop assistant to ask if I could use their phone. I just wanted to call N. to tell him where I was. Finally I found a young woman standing behind the counter, admiring herself in the mirror and taking selfies. I think she was about to go home? She grabbed her bag and hung it over her shoulder....

Me: Hi!... Um, excuse me?... Sorry, I don’t want to disturb you. Um, may I short use the phone here somewhere? I’m not from this area, just visiting, but I got lost. I just want to call my boyfriend so he doesn’t worry about me.

Girl: Oh, hi!... Sorry, but we are having technical probs with our phone connection atm. But, you know what? You can use my phone for a second. I hope it works. I just got off the phone with my brother and my mom. Let's try.

Me: Omg, I know you! (😡) Is your brother Damien?

Yes, I met Diana. Damien's Twin Sister. Let’s see if she remembers me? 😒... Oh, and btw, I didn’t really get lost. I just have a terrible sense of direction! Damien’s house was only 2 blocks away!!! So I went in the right direction, but.... somehow I didn’t recognize the surroundings. 🤦‍♀️🤦‍♀️

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[corvidae-corvus]

SOOOOO I'm watching frozen w/ my little sister, and it's bringing back fierce opinions younger me had. And new Opinions that I have now.

Hate that Hans was the bad guy smh. Worse thing ever, little me hated it, and bigger me still hates that even to this day.

My headcanon: Anna, Hans, and Kristoff are all in a polyamorous relationship! ☝️

Idk how it would have happened but it should have happened. I really like Hans as a character and actually now that I'm watching it, I guess it makes sense that he's the bad guy, he has the motives and shit, just the twist villain with him didn't feel right but also it kinda does? Like I can see it works but I don't like the execution? That's just me though.

Anyways my headcanon involves Hans actually caring about Anna and they kiss but it doesn't work. Like what Hans has for her isn't love it's infatuation. Or desire idk, so she thinks that she's actually in love with Kristoff and stuff and so she goes to try and find him. And she is kinda in love with Kristoff, and Hans and her talk and he's understanding and let's her go, or he acts like he's ok with her being in love with another guy and so he's conflicted but he ultimately chooses to let her go. He goes to get Elsa and Anna goes with Olaf to get Kristoff, Uhhhh the bad guy can be the little old man or someone else that was introduced in the beginning idk. Could have introduced another bad guy in the beginning (in this au) anyways everything happens the same towards the end only Anna stops someone who isn't Hans or helps Elsa in some way, elsa hugs Anna proving true love isn't just romantic it can also be familial or platonic or whatever. Kristoff and Anna are dating and Hans has to go back to his kingdom. Also Hans having 12 brothers? Hans saying that he could have caused an accident towards Elsa? Yea that man's family is probably evil. His family is probably more dramatic and evil and stuff. Where else did he get these crazy ideas?

Anyways continuing this au arendale gets more political, Hans has made an impression on the people soooo excuses on how he can go back to arendale, him and Anna catch up, uhhh something happens, now he's forced to spend time with Kristoff, they don't like each other and are jealous of one another, Kristoff fears that Anna will leave him for Hans especially since when her and Hans reunited they had such good chemistry. He calls him a pretty boy (motherfucker thinks he's pretty) Hans calls him a brute underneath his breath (he thinks Kristoff is hot asf) Kristoff is very nice and Hans is kinda like a snake. Anna likes them both.

It's is a "love triangle" Anna wants them to get along Hans Is in love with Anna and unknowingly falls in love with Kristoff, Kristoff is in love with Anna and is also unknowingly fallen in love with Hans. Hans realizes his feelings first. Is in pure agony. I think Kristoff is next actually and he at first thinks he just starts to like Hans as a friend, cue bromance, realizes he's in love with Hans, panics cause instead of worrying about Anna he's worried about himself. Calms down and becomes the most composed since he knows about Polyamory since he grew up with the love experts, now planning on what to do next.

Anna is the last one to realize (she's kinda slow when it comes to romance) panics the most. Goes to the love trolls, cue musical, realizes she is polyamorous and that she might be able to have both.

Hans is dramatic and hates himself. Tries to leave. Anna and Kristoff talk. Uhhhhh something something, Elsa is AroAce and discovers her true love is politics (or is lesbian, both? Her true love is still politics idk). Some bad guy causes trouble, something something Hans, something something Anna and Kristoff tell each other their feelings. Anna and Kristoff try to save Hans. Hans becomes the damsel in distress (Lol). They all tell each other their feelings. Now in a poly relationship.

Elsa's pov is a political drama and The others are a romance.

Hans is introduced to the love experts. (His in-laws)

Happy ending.

[luke-hughes43]

"What the hell dude?!" | Luke and Stella

this is a little more in depth abt trevor hurting stella's feelings abt her moving to jersey.

stella's pov

we're all hanging out outside and have the fire going. I'm curled in luke's lap on the verge of falling asleep. I'm vaguely listening to the conversation the guys were having. the only thing I really hear is trevor (very drunkenly might I add) make a comment along the lines of, "oh like stel going to jersey for Luke?"

my whole body just freezes. that just hits a nerve because him of all people know that I was hesitant about going in the first place and why. trevor then goes on to say, "it's like that girl, Sarah I think, from high school who followed that guy she was dating to college in like Florida or something and then they broke up like a month into college or something. that's the stupidest thing, moving across the country for your boyfriend/girlfriend. honestly."

that really strikes a nerve with me and so I just get up and go inside. Luke calls after me, I can hear trevor getting smacked in the head, and I hear the door reopen after I close it.

I feel a hand on my shoulder and I turn to see Quinn. he pulls me in for a hug and I just start balling. once I've calmed down enough to talk I say, "why would he say that? that's so mean and he knows that that was my biggest fear is transferring anyways. like does my own brother think that little of me and thinks that I just follow Luke around like a lost puppy? is that what everyone thinks of me?"

Quinn says softly, "stel, I promise that we don't think that of you. and I know that Luke doesn't. Trevor is just an asshole and he's drunk so he's a drunk asshole. I promise, he doesn't think of you like that either. and even if he did, I don't. jack doesn't, but more importantly Luke doesn't. he called me and talked me for like an hour a few days before asking about going to jersey in the first to make sure it was a good idea. he didn't want you to feel obligated to go with him. Stella, Luke loves you more than anything in this world, you are the oxygen he breathes, if you wanted to move to Mexico, he'd quit hockey and go with you."

I just nod and focus on the words he's saying. we stand there in silence for a while and Quinn just hugs me and holds me tight. after a few minutes he asks, "want me to go get Luke?"

I say quietly, "yes please."

"ok stel." he says and lets go to go get Luke. I try to wipe the tears away when Quinn leaves but they just come flooding back when I see Luke. he sweeps me up in a hug and brings to our room. Luke does his best to calm me down and eventually I fall asleep from exhaustion. Luke stays the whole night with me, never leaving my side.

Quinn's pov

after I calm Stella down, I get Luke so that he can comfort her while I rip trevor a new one. I go back outside and say, "Luke. she needs you." he nods and quickly goes inside after her. once I hear the door shut, I start ripping into trevor.

"what the hell dude? why the fuck would you say that? you know she's worried that everyone will think of her as some lovestruck fool that can't be more than 5 feet from Luke since she's transferring to be closer to him. she was just crying in my arms scared that we all thought of her as some lost puppy that follows Luke around. that's your fucking sister trevor, treat her with respect."

"ok I'm sorry. it's not that big a deal q."

"it is a big deal. get your head out of your ass and sober up before apologizing to her. get a grip zegras. your own fucking sister, who's the love of my baby brother's life, is a mess because she thinks that all you see her as a lost poppy following Luke around. the last thing she ever wanted was for people to think of her like and now the person who was supposed to protect her from the world and the monsters under her bed is the one making her feel so small and so bad about herself. fix it trevor, or I swear to god you're never welcome back here."

trevor's eyes get wide and so does everyone else's. he nods frantically searching for the nearest water to help kickstart his detox. jack looks at him with a reassuring smile and nod that I did the right thing. if her own brother is gonna be treat her like shit, then someone has to protect her when trevor's an ass so it's gonna be jack and i.

she's the little sister we always wanted growing up and we're gonna treat her and protect her like she is. 

[theonetruegnome]

Small epilogue-y thing

It's been another 4 days and I feel extremely guilty again. The ADHDemon has not left me yet... But anyway, I felt like the Chamomile story needed an epilogue, so here it is! Also, don't be mad, but I lightened Cham's font so it'd be more distinguishable from the rest of them. Sorry!

It was nighttime at the Featherby's house, and as usual, Conk and his mother were putting his little sister to bed with a story.

'...So there stands the pecking-bird in his corner, never moving.' Recited Mrs Featherby, 'But they do say that every now and again the kind-hearted clockwork mouse takes out his key and puts it into the pecking bird. Then for a little time the bird comes to life again - But he isn't allowed to keep the key for long! No, the other toys don't trust him anymore, and I don't blame them, do you?'

Chamomile lazily shook her head No and snuggled herself down deeper under the covers. Conk started forward but his Mum got there first. She gently lifted up her topmost blanket and wrapped it around Cham's small exposed shoulders. She looked so peaceful and calm, wrapped in soft linen and hugging her favourite stuffed platypus, Edward.

The two turned to leave the room, taking extra care to muffle their footfalls so the young chick wasn't woken. Cham didn't stir, even when the door gently closed with a soft *click!*

'Whew! Getting out of the room's always the hardest part. Thanks again for helping out Conk, she always likes having you around.'

She puts an arm around his shoulders and pulls him close to her side.

'No p-p- *Yawn* Problem Mom. I always love putting her to bed with you.'

Mrs Featherby frowns down at her son for a second. 'Bedtime for you as well I think Little Sloth...' 'Mom, I'm not tired! Can I please stay up a bit longer?' 'Hmmm... Tell you what; We'll go to the living room and watch one episode of something. If you stay awake throughout the whole thing, you can stay up another hour. That alright with you?' 'Yeah, sure, whatever...'

The two walked to the living room and sat down, She in her armchair near the window, Conk next to his father. Mr Featherby smiled as his son sat down and patted his thighs. Conk put his head in his lap and stretched himself out on the sofa. The screen shifted between colour pictures and complete blackness as they flicked through the Channels. Conk's mind wandered. He wasn't a bad person, by any means. He was kind, calm, he always had a pen... But scenes from the day's events kept playing over and over in his mind...

'That ok with you bud?' 'Huh?' 'We're going to watch Big bang theory. You fine with that?' 'Oh, yeah, that's fine.'

The episode came on and Conk almost immediately let his mind wander. Cham loved him so much, and that was the best thing about his life. But... the way she ran over to Leah and cuddled her at once, just a few hours ago... Was she happy with him? Things kept swirling around his head; him walking home alone. saddling the others with Cham. Not being the one to tuck her in earlier...

Mr Featherby straightens up, pushing his son into a sitting position. 'Alright, Conk, what's up?' 'Wha? What do you mean?' 'Sheldon just fell down the stairs, that kinda thing always makes you laugh!' He shrugs, 'I guess I just didn't find it that funny.' Mr featherby grabs both of Conk's shoulders and looks his son straight in the eyes. 'You're lying. I can always tell when you're lying. Conk, if you're upset about something, just tell us. Please?' Conk inflates his chest, puffing himself up. He then sighs and hangs his head. 'I just feel useless as a brother. I really don't do much to help Cham...'

'Awww, Conk, you're not useless at all! Cham loves you!' 'But earlier she was so happy with the others; And as soon as I left, she wrapped herself around Leah's leg.' 'Cham does that with everyone, she just loves everyone. But you are, and always will be, her favourite person.' 'But I don't do anything to help her. Earlier I left her with my friends so I could go home and take a nap!' 'Buddy, you were exhausted. You looked like you were about to fall asleep on your feet. How could you have helped her in that condition?' 'I guess I couldn't really-' 'And you already do so many great things that are really useful! You help us take her places, look after her when we can't, let her cry on your shoulder hen she's upset and you always, without fail, tell her a story, every night.'

The conversation is interrupted by soft rustling and tiny footfalls from behind them. All three turn and see Chamomile standing there, looking at them all while squeezing Edward tightly to her chest. She's got tears in her eyes and looks terrified.

'Cham! Why are you up? What's wrong?' '*Sniff* I had a bad dweam. D-Daddy said he didn' want me anymore *Sniff* an'- an' he threw me out int-into the road *Sniff* an' a big truck came an'-' 'Oh, Chicklet, I'd never do that. You're my beautiful baby girl, I wouldn't ever want to throw you into the road.'

Mrs Featherby gets up, but Conk has reached Cham first. He bends down and lets Chamomile wrap an arm around his neck. He then straightens up and supports her with his arms.

'It was only a nightmare Cham, it can't hurt you. I know it was scary, but it's over now, you're safe and we wouldn't let anything bad happen to you. Do you wanna stay up a bit with us? Or shall we take you back to bed and I'll tell you a story?' '...Story...'

---

'-But if you think this cured Mrs Pepperpot of reading her fortune in a coffee cup you are very much mistaken. The only thing is, she does take more care not to pick up the wrong cup and read her husband's fortune instead of her own.' Conk finished reading the story and looked up. He had gotten Chamomile back into bed, tucked her in nice and cosy and settled her down. She looked much calmer now, but still on edge, like she was fighting off drowsiness. 'Time to go to sleep now Chicklet.' 'I can't. I'm too scared of having another bad dream.' 'I promise you won't. These things never come in twos.' 'Pwease stay with me Conkie?' 'Of course. I'll stay here all night. If you have another bad dream, just cuddle up to me, I'll make it better.' 'Okie... I love you Conkie.' 'I love you too Cham. Now it's time to sleep. *Yawn* Go- *Ah* Go to... *Yawn* sleep...'

Before they went to bed, Mr and Mrs Featherby peeped in to check up on Cham. They saw her snoozing with a smile on her face. Next to her, slumped in his chair, was Conk. He looked peaceful, and his expression was a similar one of contentment. Silently, Mrs featherby entered, wrapped a blanket around her son's shoulders, and kissed him on the forehead. She left soundlessly and closed the door with a smart *Click!*

[yoyoslumodernau]

Chapter 3: Discovering Wind

Enjoy wind fans (though he's only mentioned he gets more backstory revealed here!)

Legends' first few nights were not too bad. Other than the occasional strange feeling or the awkwardness between him and Twilight, things were slowly starting to get into a routine.

He'd wake up with the others, which was quite early, they'd eat breakfast and when his two new roommates would leave for school, he'd help Malon with the dishes and wait for her to leave.

Time had the luxury of going to work a bit later and would help legend settle in a bit before leaving as well.

He'd do a bit of schoolwork on his computer, malon decided not to register him with Twi’s school just yet since the year was almost over anyway.

It was unfamiliar but he was sure he'd feel at home eventually. He had to, he didn't want them to suspect anything was wrong, not after everything they were doing for him.

He felt himself just getting annoyed at little things, he knew he missed his uncle. He wanted to be back at the orchard, but there was no bringing him back.

He found himself by a river in the nearby woods one day, skipping rocks and passing the time till someone came home. It was peaceful, calm, and uninterrupted.

“There you are! I've been looking all over for you. What are you doing here?”

Legend whipped his head around and saw Twilight standing behind him, a not so pleased expression on his face.

Legend rolled his eyes and went back to his leisurely activity.

“Well, don't ignore me. Look I know you're new here and I'm not trying to be overbearing, it's just not good to be out here alone. One of my moms students wandered in here and was almost attacked by some wild creature.”

Legend looked back, “how do I know you're not making this up just to keep me from ruining things for you. Let's not pretend we're best friends, ok? I'm not trying to cause trouble for your family.”

Twilight sat down next to him, “Sorry, I just don't want you to get hurt. I may have not been the most approachable person back then, but we're brothers now and I need to step up.”

Legend scoffed and looked at his hands. He couldn't just let go of his past. Twilight was acting ridiculous, he wasn't mean to him, they just never had a reason to talk.

“Don't take this wrong but, you're acting a bit like Wind.”

Legend snapped his head towards Twilight, “What do you mean? Wind is like, I don't know, the happiest kid on the planet. I'm just a big mess."

Twilight laughed a bit, “No no, he is. He always knows how to cheer people up. He's trying really hard to make you feel welcome. I'm sure mom and dad have told you he's adopted."

Legend nodded, not knowing where the conversation was going.

“He used to live on a small island, with his grandma and sister. Well, he said they were his grandma and sister, I think the grandma was a sort of caretaker. Anyway, one day there was a boat taking orphaned kids here to the mainland. He was eligible for the sign up and decided to come. He was brought here after maybe a year or two at sea. My parents took him in and he was very grateful. Sometimes he gets into these moods where he regrets making that decision, he wants to go back. He misses them, but he doesn't want our parents to think they're not doing a good job. So he holds it in.”

Legend looked back down, “Wow, I never would have thought that's how he came here. I'm sorry for acting really weird, I guess I just miss my uncle.”

He felt a hand on his shoulder, “Don't worry about it. None of us want you to feel like you can't grieve, take some time, just relax. Now let's get inside before anyone else gets home.”

With that the two boys headed back to the ranch. Legend now felt a bit better about his new brothers.

[spacejellycreates]

I'd love to read a oneshot in which the Winchesters have an older sister who watched over them when they were kids. After Sam went to Stanford, she and Dean teamed up as hunters. She's really buff, tall (just as tall as Sammy), tattooed , lesbian and proud. She and her brothers are really tight. Johnny- the sister- is quite the calm one but loves to goof around. Maybe you could write about a scene in which she and Bobby (who is like a dad to her) bicker about what whiskey is the best and Dean and Sam just be like "can't believe we're even related"- or something like that but you can of course come up with something completely different :D

I've never requested a fic or anything really and I just hope, my request is okay for you :D

Hi there! Thank you for the request :D

I'm going to post the fic here for you, below the cut, but with your permission I would like to post it to ao3 too! lmk if thats ok

I hope you enjoy it and that I did your idea justice :)

Dean hissed as the needle entered his skin. He was sitting on Bobby's kitchen table, having a wound in his shoulder stitched up by his older sister.

"Come on, Deano," said Johnny, gently, "you got this. You've had worse."

"Yeah, sure, I've had much worse," grumbled Dean, "Doesn't mean you gotta be so rough with it."

Johnny pulled the needle through. "I'm not being rough, quit whining."

Bobby barked out a laugh. "I'm getting a drink. You three in?"

"Yeah, I'll take one," said Dean, immediately.

"Sure, thanks, Bobby," said Sam, from the couch.

"What about you, princess?"

"That depends, what you got?"

"Bourbon." Bobby holds up the bottle.

Johnny wrinkled her nose. "No scotch?"

Bobby gave her a look. Sam and Dean shook their heads.

"What?" she asked, innocently.

"I can't believe we're even related to you," muttered Dean.

"Well, tough," she teased, "Can't argue with genetics, kid."

Bobby handed Dean his glass.

"Thanks." He took a large sip.

Johnny finished stitching Dean's wound and cut the thread.

"There, all done." She smiled down at him. "Want me to kiss it better, too?"

"No thanks," he shoved her away, standing up, "I'm good."

"Aw, shame. You used to love that when you were little." She grinned. "I mean, littler than you are now."

Dean rolled his eyes. "You always gotta rub that in my face, huh?"

"Sorry, what was that?" She cupped a hand to her ear. "I can't hear you from all the way down there, little bro."

"Yeah, yeah. Laugh it up." Dean lowered himself onto the couch, groaning a little. "Jerk."

"Asshole," Johnny countered.

"Cut it out, both of you," Bobby warned.

"Yeah, guys," Sam jumped in, "cut it out. You heard the man."

"Don't be such a suck-up, Sammy," said Johnny.

She settled on the couch in between her brothers, though it was a bit of a squeeze since they were all quite large individuals. Johnny laughed.

"Hey, remember when we all used to fit on this couch with room to spare?"

"Go sit somewhere else, Rambo," Dean complained. "We were here first."

Johnny sighed. "Fine." She got up and sat in one of the armchairs instead.

Bobby handed Sam his drink and sat down in the chair across from her, whisky in hand.

"How're things going with that girl you're seeing? What was her name, Lily?" he asked.

"Oh, right." Johnny grimaced. "Yeah, it didn't work out. Turns out she wasn't over her ex."

"I'm sorry to hear that, kid."

"Nah, it's fine. The job doesn't exactly allow for long-term relationships anyway, does it?"

"I guess not."

"You'll find someone else." Dean took another sip of his drink. "Any girl would be lucky to have you."

"Yeah," agreed Sam, "Lily doesn't know what she's missing."

"Thanks, boys." She smiled. "I guess we'll see."

[goddess-aelin]

This is going to be such a long post but I feel like I need to get my thoughts out after the angsty ending from A Light in the Flame.

Overall Thoughts:

Umm I thought it was amazing. I know a lot of people were saying it was repetitive and I definitely get that but at the same time, I would literally read 600 pages of Nyktos and Sera eating breakfast so.... Anyway though, I loved the character journeys. I think good characters are what makes a good book and even if the rest is confusing and angsty, it's those character-driven moments that redeem it.

I've said it once and I'll say it again. This prequel series is so much better than FBAA. Not hating on FBAA but I just feel like Nyktos/Sera is so much more well-developed than any relationship in the main series. I love every single side character (yes, even you, Rhain, when you're being rude).

I was hooked from the beginning. How can you not be when it starts with the whole prophecy thing and continues from there with almost constant action. The first half was definitely repetitive, I can totally see that. But I also think that repetitive-ness helped to get the point across that Nyktos cares about Sera. Not the embers, but Sera. Even before they had any convo about forgiving her, I think his actions were speaking louder than words. Though it was a constant battle of "Sera, no." *Sera does the thing.* "How dare you not value your life. *Fucks* Ya know, the usual. Lol. Some of my new fave sera/ash scenes came from this book.

- I adored when he set up a bath for her and everything- it was such a sweet gesture.

-When he took her to the pool and literally just played and had fun, especially because he knew she missed her lake.

- The "I want to be your consort, Nyktos." and Nektas just laughing and knowing.

-The way they both are always stunned by each other. Like they do such sweet things and they are always, ALWAYS, surprised.

-The entire scene of Rhain asking her if she was in love with him and her not being able to answer because she had no idea what it felt like either.

-Her whole breakdown in the carriage because "Oh my gods, I might be in love with him!" Loved every minute of it.

- And then of course, him trying to get her to breathe and calm down when she was about to freak out over this.

-THE FOREHEAD KISS AT THE CORONATION WHERE EVERYONE CAN SEE AND HE DID IT JUST BECAUSE HE COULD. I die

-The sweet but angsty talk about Veses that they needed to have tbh.

**Nyktos is literally the ultimate book BF, I said what I said. It's honestly refreshing to see this 200+ y/o male character that has like no sexual experience whatsoever yet it doesn't demean him or negate him as weak. Love that for him.

Non romantic scenes that melted/broke my heart:

-Sera holding Jadis when she fell asleep and Jadis feeling comfortable enough to switch into human form.

-Reaver then getting the blanket for Jadis and just being a weird little kid. I love it.

-Jadis giving a kiss on the forehead to Sera before going to Kolis. Sera's gonna be such a good mom even if one of her children is a giant piece of shit.

-Ector trying to calm Sera down in the carriage and just talking to her.

- The friendships with Aios and Bele and pretty much everyone just finally forgiving Sera.

-Ugh going back to see Ezra! I needed more sister love tho tbh. They didn't even hug!

Now for the painful parts:

-Aios dying. Like wow. This 100% is number one. I was devastated when Sera saw Ector's decapitated head. But then she saw Aios' red hair and I literally almost threw my damn book. I'm so happy she's ok in the end but RIP Ector.

-When Sera saw Nyktos with Veses. I know we got an explanation for it in the end but I was incredibly stressed and about to unstan Nyktos. I hate cheating (even if that's not what it was) as a trope and tbh I hate miscommunication as a trope. So this entire part of the book was just devastating to me.

-Sera's reaction to the above. She was in love with him already, she just didn't know it. I felt her reaction so viscerally, though. I suppose that's a testament to JLA's writing in this book.

-Sera constantly being told that she's going to die and there's nothing that can be done. Just when they think there might be another way, nope it's just death again. I love that Nyktos is fighting so hard for her and I have some theories that I'll make another post for, but I do find it very ironic. The entire situation was Sera was meant to make Nyktos fall in love and then kill him. Oops except he can't love. And now instead, she's the one who fell in love and now he has to kill her to literally save the world. What a 180. A fabulously done 180 but a shocking one, nonetheless.

Another post will be coming about theories!

[sleuthy-scientist]

A Mother's Love Part 2

*Another quickly written unedited chapter, that could probably use a lot of work. Anyway I am unhinged and unbothered, but I hope you enjoy anyway.*

Jack had been in his room when Emily got home, from her mother's, a half hour before. Jessica had informed her, he was feeling a bit down because of school. They were sharing stories about their moms and finishing their cards and gifts for Mother's Day that weekend. So he had been out of sorts since she picked him up. Not even Jessica's offer for icecream on the way home, seemed to have cheered Jack up.

Emily had wanted to give Jack space, not knowing if her presence would set him off and upset him further. She asked Jessica to check on him, and let him know she had gotten home if he needed her, before saying her own farewell, until Monday afterschool. Just as expected by both women, he needed some more quiet time to himself.

After Jessica left Emily went upstairs to her's and Aaron's bedroom, to be close by in case Jack needed her. She had been sitting on her bed, lost in contemplation about both Haley and her own mother, that she hadn't heard his bedroom door open. She was so caught up in her thoughts, it took her a few seconds to notice Jack standing infront of her. Glancing at his face, it broke her heart seeing the Jack sporting such sad eyes.

She wished she could take away all the hurt and pain she knew he felt. The five and half year old look just as lost and devasted as he had the day he found out Haley wasn't coming back. Emily wanted more than anything to pull him into her arms and smother him with her love and embrace him with cuddles.

But, she learned from experience, like his father, sometimes she needed to wait him out. Let him decide to tell her what he wanted and needed from her in that moment. He had obviously had voluntarily sought her out, and was ready to talk. So she settled for slowly and carefully raising her hand, to card her fingers through his growing hair.

Her soothing gesture gave Jack the push he needed to speak his mind. "I really really miss my mommy Emmy, can I have a hug?"

Emily didn't even hesitate to open her arms wide and pull him as close as her ever expanding stomach would allow her to. Jack immediately burrowed his face into her neck, in search for added warmth and comfort.

Emily waited for him to fully settle, giving herself time to try and get her hormones under control before speaking. The moment he loosened his grip around her neck, cuddling into her side, Emily knew he'd calmed down enough to hear her.

She still spoke quieter than usual, not wanting to by chance startle him in any way. "Jack honey, I'm sorry your sad about your mommy. But, you never have to ask for a hug. You're my favourite cuddle bug in the whole world."

Emily let her words linger in the sombre but comforting silence that settled between them. The moment Jack felt a tapping against his cheek, he couldn't help the giggles that escaped."Emmy why is your belly moving like that on my face".

Emily couldn't help but chuckle at his sweet little giggles and innocent question."Buddy that just your little sister, giving you love pokes. I think she's trying to cheer you up the only way she can right now. I bet she knows you're going to be the best big brother to her. I guarantee she's excited to meet you, that's why she's so squirmy, like a little worm right now."

Emily waited for the baby to finish moving, knowing Jack wouldn't be able to concentrate on anything else she said, until her daughter had finished reminding them of her presence. Once she was sure her little girl had fallen asleep, she tried to address Jack's concerns.

"It's ok to be sad about your mommy Jack, I never want you to hide that from me or your dad. It's going to take a long long time for it not to hurt so much. You are always going to miss your mom, because she was the best mom ever. I know she's looking down on you because she loved you more than anything in this entire world."

"I wish she could have met my baby sister, I bet mommy would have loved her too."

Emily could feel a tear or two slip out at Jack's response. She too wished Haley was still alive to see Jack grow and become an amazing big brother.

"Can I tell you a secret Jack."

Her statement caught his attention, Jack pulled back excitedly to see Emily's face. "Ok Emmy, I promise I won't tell anyone."

"I think your mommy may have sent us your little sister as a gift. So you will always have someone to play with. I bet this little lady is going to be your best friend, because you two will always look out for each other. And you'll be there for each other if you're happy, sad, scared, lonely, or even if you just need a hug."

Emily wasn't lying when she said she thought Haley sent the baby she was carrying their way. While she still wasn't sure if she believed in God, she couldn't ignore the feeling of fate. She hadn't even told Aaron, but she didn't know how else to explain the coincidences that were adding up.

Finding out she was pregnant basically on the anniversary of Haley's death, and having her due date shared with the other woman's birthday. She hadn't told Aaron the exact date she discovered she was expecting, but he must have noticed the due date landed on Haley's birthday.

Emily wanted to believe these were signs in some way from Haley, reminders she approved. That she was watching elated they were living out her last wishes. That Emily was helping Aaron laugh more and teach Jack about true and selfless love.

Emily considered the rest of what she wanted to say, having not discussed it with his father. She hadn't been sure if she should bring up the topic, or if it was entirely her place to offer. But Emily wanted to honour Haley, and could think of no better way.

"If you would like, I was thinking we could give your little sister your mommy's first name as one of her middle names. That way she always has a piece of your mommy too, and we can all tell her about the amazing person she was named after. Then we will always have another way to remember your mom."

Jack liked the sound of her idea, but didn't think it really counted as secret if his daddy knew about her idea too. Plus he knew his father usually got sad and quiet whenever he mentioned her. "Does daddy know you wanna name her after mommy."

"No buddy, if you want to share it with him, we can. And we can let Aunty Jess know next time she comes over. I thought it would be the best way to pay respect to her memory. Your sister's due date falls on to day your mommy was born too. Who knows they might share a birthday."

Jack grinned as wide as he could when he replied. "I love your idea Emmy. I think my mommy and baby sister would both want to do that."

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It sometimes drove Aaron nuts when Emily's insecurities shone through. He hated whenever she seemed hesitant and skittish, almost as if she was afraid to approach him. Yet he knew Emily's lack of confidence when it came to personal relationships stemmed from her upbringing.

He knew she was worried enough about her place in Jack's life, on top of her ability to parent a newborn. Aaron just wished she could see herself through his perspective, it made his heartache because she couldn't see how amazing a mother and person she is.

He knew if anyone should be worried about being the kind of parent to their kids that Elizabeth had been to Emily, it was him. For he shared a number of the qualities that made her a good leader, but he knew he isn't open, supportive, and approachable like Emily is.

Too stuck in his closed off, strict, grumpy, independent persona. Aaron knew he was good at pushing people away, ignoring his personal problems until they were unmanageable. That he often put work above all else, and didn't know how to turn that side of himself off to relax.

Yet Emily knew how to flip that switch for him and draw out the lighter, happy go lucky Aaron that was hidden inside. Because she saw the same horrors and darkness he did everyday and still chose to be a beacon of light, hope, strength, kindness, and joy for others.

With most people he had to hide behind his mask and pretend he was always ok. But with Emily she always understood his need to put up a facade and how to get past his mental defences. She just always knew what he needed, and how to make him feel a little lighter and brighter.

With Emily he didn't need to worry about what hat he was wearing for the character he was playing. She always saw him and the thoughts, fears, emotions, and insecurities he bottled up. She just cared for him, gave him the support he needed, and accepted him as he was.

That why as much as she worried about what kind of maternal figure she was to Jack and mother she would be for their daughter, he knew her fears we baseless. He had no doubt, Emily was never going to parent like her own mother. Fundamentally she was the most selfless, moral, supportive, smart, kind, sweet, funny, and caring person he had ever met.

Emily didn't have a malicious bone in her body, she only knew how to be the bigger person. She always smiled in face of those who hurt her, so they couldn't see her pain, and treated them with only respect and kindness. He knew first hand she was selective in her battles, knowing peace was sometimes better than being right. That some situations require strategy and tact, while others need humility and restraint.

Emily didn't have the capacity to hurt others as deeply as they hurt her. Literally and figuratively, she never actively attacked, used unnecessary force, or went for the kill shot, unless it was in defence of others, or she had no other option to do so.

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He had already been worried when Emily had gone quiet after texting him she was heading home from her mother's. Fearing she might be shutting him and everyone else out, to deal with her stuff on her own.

Shortly after Emily's vague text, he also received a heads up text from Jessica about Jack's mood, he wrapped up everything he could, hurriedly taking the rest of his work home. Aaron knew it was going to be a tumultuous weekend, but he wasn't expecting the sight he came home to.

It warmed his heart seeing the most important people in his life curled up together, smiling in their sleep. Knowing it had been foolish to worry, Emily and Jack loved each other so fiercely.

Aaron hoped whatever happened with Elizabeth earlier that day, that it had been an eye opener for the Ambassador. That for Emily's sake she proved her daughter wrong this once and finally tried to be the kind of mother Emily deserved.

He shook his head with a smirk in disbelief that Emily could ever possibly think she would be a bad mother. He felt the warmth of happiness to have them resting in such a carefree bubble of safety and peace in the home they created together.

On his way to make supper, Aaron took one last look back at the people who were his whole world and his future. He knew it wouldn't last forever, he couldn't resist snapping a few quick photos, before he left the room. Knowing the images and memory of this moment would bring him peace when he was away for cases, especially when Emily was on maternity leave.

He gave a quick and silent prayer to Haley, knowing if heaven was real, that she too was smiling down, elated knowing Emily was helping him keep his last promise to her. Jack was going to be ok, because he was surrounded by the selfless love his mother wanted him to grow up with and experience everyday.

[layanasstories]

Cause of Pain

Part 19

As soon as we return to the living room, both men have disappeared outside. They have taken a seat in the lazy garden chairs, on the table between them are two glasses and a half-empty bottle of rum. The garden lights give just enough light to see each other, giving it a cosy scenery. Lilly and I look at each other for a moment "They should be a couple huh?" she jokes a little. "Did you ever think those two would have a drink with each other?" I ask her under my breath. She laughs, "No, not now I know.". she sighs for a moment "But I do think it's nice to see those two getting along so well.". I have to agree, I never thought Jake would have wanted anything to do with Dan at all.

Or that Dan would see Jake as a friend. It's a good thing if he never finds out it's Jake. Unintentionally, Lilly and I stare at the men for a bit too long. "Do you see anything you like?" I suddenly hear Dan ask. I'm right back in the now "Absolutely" I answer him and look at Jake. "Seriously? You're picking him over me already?" a fake pout shows, only to laugh. Jake gets up to grab two chairs for us. "Here, sit down" he says as he sets them down. "Then I'll grab two more glasses". "I think I should eat something first before I drink that. I'm afraid if I don't, I'll drop down on the spot.".

In the kitchen, I stare into the fridge searching for something to fill my stomach with. When I feel two hands slide around my stomach from behind me. "I can also just order a take away?" Jake leans his chin on my shoulder as he says this. "But that always takes so long." I complain somewhat excessively. His laughter I can feel against my back "Sure, whatever you want. My kitchen is your kitchen.". He has not yet spoken the words or Dan is behind us. "Uhm, what's going on here?" his tone was not meant to be funny, but serious. Jake immediately lets go of me and turns to face him. "What do you mean?" "You can't really fool me, how long have you two known each other?" The way you get along is strange when you've only known each other for two days." he is not angry, just a little upset. I could beat myself up because he is right. We were too familiar with each other, for two people who have just met.

Jake and I look at each other, assessing what we should do. I don't know if we can trust Dan to really keep his mouth shut, he's shown before that he would notify the police with ease. That was maybe a year and a half ago now, but still. "Well?" urges Dan. "Can I grab some food before I tell you how it is?" I ask him. My stomach doesn't even rumble anymore, but it really hurts now. "Fine! I need more drinks!" he snorts as he stomps out of the kitchen again. "What are you going to tell him?" Jake leans against the kitchen counter as he follows me while I spread some sandwiched. "Well not that." I start to then clean the knife with my finger and put it in my mouth to clean the spread of my finger. "I don't know how much we can really trust him. He has said things to the police before, which is why Phil was detained." I let my shoulders hang for a moment, thinking what we can tell him. "And the half-truth?" he turns and grabs a glass from the cupboard to pour me a drink. "As in?" confused, I look at him, taking my first bite. My stomach immediately knows what's coming and starts bubbling like crazy. "As in, we've known each other since the incident." he shrugs and leans back against the kitchen counter. "But that doesn't explain our behaviour, does it?" I argue. "That's true. How did my sister react, by the way?" with his arms crossed he looks at me, waiting for me to finish my sandwich. "Pretty calm. Although, I think you should prepare for a scolding, if you guys are together one day." I can't suppress a laugh. "Great!" he sighs for a moment. "But I'm glad she takes it oke-like.".  "Anyway, how do we tackle Dan then?" I ask him as I put my glass, which I have just emptied, in the sink. "Do we have much of a choice, to tell him?" with his hand rubbing his forehead. "I'll make something up okay, and then just hope he believes it." I let out a deep sigh.

[my-daily-life95]

August 26, 2023

It's been a bit since I last made a journaling post on here. I kinda lost motivation to write anything on here and in my physical journal. It's a little sad since I miss it. A few times I pulled up this app or even my journal yet nothing happened. No words would come out. I'm in a journaling slump. Though right now I am writing. It's an improvement.

Anyways a small update on my life. Hurricane Hilary came and went. Where I live there are still road closers from it. I had to work on the Sunday it hit. I have never seen so much rain fall in such a short time. I was scared for that bit. I thought I would have to sleep at work. By 8 pm it calmed down and I decided to go home. I only worked six hours that day but I was anxious. I said fuck work and went home. There was so much water and a few fallen trees from the wind. There were also a lot of cops driving around since the line for 911 was down. I have lived in a desert my whole life and I honestly was scared of the Hurricane.

I wrote a letter to a friend of mine that I have "know" for a few years. We used to send letters pretty often when we were younger. We stopped talking for a few years but they reached out. Now we talk on a regular basis which is nice. I'm too much of a coward to reach out to people and I told them so in the letter. I never met this person face to face before. We met off Wattpad when we were in high school. They live on the other side of the country. We talked about meeting hopefully sometime next year. It will be nice to properly meet them. I hope I can meet them.

I have two job interviews this upcoming Thursday. I'm still looking for a second job. I'm really hoping one of them will hire me. I really do need that extra income. I can't keep relaying on loans. I'm going to do my best! I have to do my best. Show those people that I'm good at what I do! I got this!!

I builded a book shelf for my youngest sister. It was a struggle. Nothing was cooperating with me. I have builded plenty of furniture by myself and this one book shelf frustrated me to the ends of the Earth. Still the book shelf was built and it looks good. I don't know where my sister bought it from since the box was extremely beat up. No instructions but all the parts were there. Oh well.

Ah this is a bit TMI but I have a yeast infection at the moment. Man it's not fun at all. It's the second time I have had one. Luckily this one isn't as severe as the first one. The first one was bad bad. This one is ok just mostly itchy. I know it's due to my poor lifestyle of no exercise and bad eating habits. I just can't seem to motivate myself to do anything at the moment. I literally spend my days off laying in bed watching tiktok, reading the same fanfic over and over, or playing Tears of the Kingdom. How the hell was I able to do a whole workout routine before? I remember I had specific days I worked out and now I can't even get out of bed. Hell, I even used to do one dance a day since I'm always listening to music. I still listen to music but now I just move my head instead of dance. Oh well. I know my happy ass will just randomly start doing it again. It's a cycle I'm pretty sure of it. A terrible cycle for sure.

I think that's it for updates right now. I had today off and like stated before I spent it in bed. My bed really is comfy. I did just wash the sheets. Also the room has been cold recently so it makes me want to get off even less. God, I'm a mess. Anyways here's a picture from the day before Hurricane Hilary hit. It looked apocalyptic to me.