#anything which has happened once in time is repeated ceaselessly through all eternity. so maybe some version of me is still singing | Explore Tumblr posts and blogs

luthienne · 2 months ago

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throwing severance & somatic memory into a room & letting them fight. if the version of me that was severed can't remember then she'll still be able to sing. the way i did before it became a precursor to something dangerous. & that means that some version of me would still be singing. even if i couldn't remember it. even if i couldn't experience it myself. maybe it could be enough to know that some version of me was still singing

#writing this as though the largest impediment now is not that i am evidently going to be chronically ill forever & no amount of #emotional division or compartmentalization or reconciliation with the past can alter the ongoing physical reality of that #throwing the unlived life & the impossible future into a room & letting them fight. also thinking about how erfjord said that #anything which has happened once in time is repeated ceaselessly through all eternity. so maybe some version of me is still singing #illness cw #opera tag #to be deleted

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