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#needed to make this to cope#ahsoka spoilers#ahsoka critical#dave filoni critical#i'm so mad#congratulations on undermining the foundations this entire franchise is built on#being force-sensitive apparently doesn't mean much anymore#anyone can use the force if they just try hard enough đ#well then what is the point in EVERYTHING in this story#star wars
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Aaaaaand I'm back with the loooong ass reblog comments. đ sorry! đ
First off: definitly YES!!! Wednesdays and Sundays sound awesome! đđĽł
You're going strong with the word count again. đ¤ Will it be like this for all the chapters?
Unstoppable force meets immovable object.
Mary is already getting on my nerves. Why can she not accept that her friend is trying to forget... whatever has happend? (Since we still don't know) I get that she's worried and that she doesn't wanna loose her, is just trying to help her. But this is not the right way to do it.
You felt like you were going to topple off at any moment, even with Beau Arlenâs advice. (Which still made you blush whenever you thought about it.)
Oh, this man... How crazy is it, that whatever character Jensen plays, we just fall in love with him? Or is it JUST because it's Jensen? đ¤ how can he be even real?
You gasped when, upon entering the tent, you got your eyes seared. Mary and Luke were tangled together under the sheets.
Oh wow... đđđđđđ she really did not wait to long. But yes, why in the bed we have to share??? đ Exactly my thoughts...
âLukeâs actually a nice guy," she said. "You used to know how to have fun. But now youâve just become this bitter person who canât relax or let yourself be happy, let alone anyone else.â
Again, wow! đł this is not what a best friend would say. Where is your understanding? Where is your support? I'm beyond baffled.
In the morning, you stumbled out of bed after a rough nightâs sleep. It was hard for you to sleep in a new place by yourself, especially out here in the woods.
Me too! Always having problems with sleeping somewhere else than my own bed. đ But she's been left alone by her best friend because Mary wanted to get action on a horizontal level...
âYouâre really staying here, arenât you?â she asked.
She now get's it. Took her long enough. But I loved how you wrote this whole situation with these two out.
âEmily!â you uttered. The girl let out a breath of relief to see you too. You went to her and pulled her into a hug, and she hugged you back.
I always have to remember in which point of season 3 we are here. đ but I love how you have these two get along right from the start. This will he beneficial in the future. đ
âOh my God,â Emily said, voicing your thoughts. She was panicked. âOh God, sheâsâŚsheâsâŚâ
Noooo, you did not... Zep... are you serious????
He welcomed his daughter into his arms and held her tight. Relief was painted all over his face. You heard the rumble of his voice asking her if she was all right. She just burrowed closer in the safety of his arms.
We want a hug like that, too! We just lost our best friend! đ˘ (I still can't get over this...)
You didnât think youâd ever be okay again.
And again we have to deal with a loss. đ you like playing that card, right? đ I know you had to make up for a death but still... you got me good with that, since I did not expect you going down this road.
This was awesome, hun! Can't wait for sunday! đ đ
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Take Me Home - Part 2
Pairing: Beau Arlen x F. ReaderÂ
Summary: You are another lost soul at Sunny Day Excursions. Youâre aiming to settle in Helena, Montana, where Beau Arlen is the new sheriff in town. But youâve both got a past youâre running from.Â
AN: Thank you so much for all of your lovely comments on Part 1! I know many of you have questions, and I promise, all will be revealed in due timeâŚ
(Also, what do you guys think of new chapters releasing on Wednesdays and Sundays instead of just Fridays? A week is a long time, isn't it? đ)
Song Inspo: âCity Grown Willowâ by Radio Company
Word Count: 5,200
Tags/Warnings: Tension, hurt/comfort, major angst, and more comfort of a different sort.
â¤ď¸ Series Masterlist
Part 2: Itâs Not Right, But Itâs Okay
Tensions were running high at Sunny Day Excursions.
Over the next few days, Mary continued to press the issue of you staying in Montana with little passive aggressive comments that got on your damn nerves. You proverbially dug your heels in, and became even more stubborn and taciturn as a result.
Unstoppable force meets immovable object.
However, the entire camp was shaken the night Paige and Luke disappeared on a hike. Buck and Sunny assured everyone that they were doing their best to look for the couple, but come the morning, it was Emily who accidentally found Luke in the woods, bleeding from a head wound, and without Paige.
He claimed that theyâd gone their separate ways after a fight, and he hadnât seen her since. Paigeâs suitcase and things were gone from her tent, so Sunny could only assume that sheâd found her way back to camp and left for home by morning.
âLook, no oneâs a prisoner here,â Sunny had said. âIf Paige wanted to go home, then thatâs up to her.â
There was still something off about it though, you felt. Emily seemed to share your thoughts; youâd heard her whispering with Avery, and Dan, another camper in his early 40s.
You started to watch Luke a bit harder from then on. As did your friend Mary, if for different reasons.
It was still early in the morning when you caught her flirting with Luke in front of your shared tent.
âA personal trainer, huh?â said Luke. His gaze flit over Maryâs form, and she allowed it with a smile. âYou know, Iâve got a pretty good workout routine, but Iâll bet you can give me some tipsââ
âDrink lots of water,â you said dryly as you approached the tent. You carried your sketchpad and acrylic paints in your hand, and you pushed into the tent without giving Luke and Mary more than a glance.
You heard Maryâs voice outside the tent, all girlish and flirtatious as she apologized about you, and suggested they could keep talking later. Luke readily agreed. You sat down on the edge of your bed and watched his silhouette walk away from the tent.
Mary soon joined you inside, and she didnât look pleased. She stared down at you and crossed her arms.
âAre you kidding me with that shit?â you asked, gesturing at the scene you just saw.
âCould you be any more of a cockblock?â Mary shot back.
âNumber one, that guy is a little too young for you, Cougar Town,â you reminded her. Luke had to be in his early 20s. It had been a hot minute since you and Mary were of college age. âNumber two, he came here with his girlfriend, who he somehow lost in the woods.â
âShe left him,â Mary said. âAll alone in the middle of nowhere. Then she took off and went home so she didnât have to deal with what she did. I feel bad for him.â
âNo, youâre horny for him. Thereâs a difference,â you said flatly.
You loved Mary like a sister, but she had the tendency to let guys blind her to good sense. (Ha. Pot calling the kettle black, came your self-deprecation.)
Though you couldâve predicted the way she huffed and walked away, once again leaving you alone. You sighed.
Wasnât this vacation for us? you wondered.
Mary continued to bait Luke with coy flirtation, while you tried and failed to ride a horse again. Cormack had been kind and encouraging in trying to help you onto the creature, but once you were on its back, you were too afraid to let the horse move.
You felt like you were going to topple off at any moment, even with Beau Arlenâs advice. (Which still made you blush whenever you thought about it.)
So Cormack helped you down, and you went back to the mess tent for a mid-afternoon snack to make you feel better: a giant jelly donut.
You were really getting frustrated with yourself now.
âItâs not so hard,â Emily had said. You could imagine that her dad, the cowboy sheriff, had put her on a horse from the time she was a little kid. You were a city girl, through and through. The closest youâd ever gotten to riding a horse was a plastic oneâa carousel at a carnival when you were six.Â
While you finished off your donut, you realized that youâd spent the whole day alone. As frustrated as you were with Mary, she was your best friend. And after this week, you would be staying and she would be going back to Chicago. You didnât know when you would get to see her again.
So with a sigh, you wiped your hands free of donut icing and went to try and find her.
You started with the tent you shared with her. âHey, Mary? Look Iââ
You gasped when, upon entering the tent, you got your eyes seared. Mary and Luke were tangled together under the sheets. He moved off of your friend and rolled onto his back next to her when you came in. Mary uttered your name in shock. Everyone was shocked, really.
You were that, and angry.
âReally?! In our goddamn bed?â you shouted. Your gaze focused on Luke, and you pointed at him. âGet the hell out of here.â
He hesitated slightly, glancing at Mary, but your furious look scared him more. He grabbed his boxers and got dressed under the sheets before he left the bed, and then fled the tent, giving you a wide berth on his way out.
You then focused on Mary, who somehow looked both contrite and irritated at being interrupted. She said your name in a placating way, but you shook your head.
âNo. No. Donât even try,â you said. âThat guyâs girlfriend left him in the middle of a vacation! What does that tell you? Please, screw me?â
âYou know what?â Mary snapped. She sat up in the bed, making sure to cover herself with the sheet. She leaned over to grab her clothes from the floor and started hastily getting dressed.
âLukeâs actually a nice guy," she said. "You used to know how to have fun. But now youâve just become this bitter person who canât relax or let yourself be happy, let alone anyone else.â
That actually struck youâlike a physical blow to your chest. You tried to blink past the sting of tears in your eyes.
âYouâre a damn child,â you said, steadier than you felt. âYouâre not the one who had your whole world imploded.â
Maryâs lips pursed. She still looked angry, but also like she was hiding the sting of guilt. She gathered up some of her things and informed you that sheâd be staying at Lukeâs tent tonight.
Freakin�� fine by you.
Youâd also have to request some new bed sheets from Sunny.
In the morning, you stumbled out of bed after a rough nightâs sleep. It was hard for you to sleep in a new place by yourself, especially out here in the woods.
Especially after how you and Mary left things.
You were so tired, you counted it a small blessing that you were able to put on clothes and get your hair into some kind of normalcy before you trekked over to the mess tent.
There you accidentally overheard Avery and Emily arguing; sheâd lost her knife in the woods when sheâd happened upon Luke, but Avery was reluctant to let her go hiking by herself. Apparently, her mother was due to join them this morning as well.
It seemed like the day of late comers though. A new married couple, Tonya and Donno, had arrived late yesterday to join the trip. Theyâd requested a tent at the far end of the camp, closest to the woods. Apparently, they wanted to really experience nature.
All you knew was, they seemed a bit weird.
âThat knifeâs important. My father gave it to me,â Emily said, interrupting your thoughts.
It made Avery quiet, but they both greeted you more pleasantly when you had to walk by them to get to the coffee.
âHey, sorry,â you gave a little wave in embarrassment. You hated interrupting moments that had nothing to do with you, but you supposed it was unavoidable in this camp.
Once youâd gotten your coffee and filled your plate with some eggs and bacon, you joined them at the table. You pretended not to notice the way they both glanced at you with measures of concern. Did you really look that bad?
Avery wisely didnât comment. Emily wasnât as good at curbing her inner filter.
âHey, you okay?â she asked. You gave her a thin smile.
âJust a bit tired. Didnât sleep so well,â you admitted.
Of course, that was when the reason for your bedraggled appearance strolled into the mess tent. Mary came in and noticed Avery and Emily first with a smile. It turned frosty when she glanced at you. You gave her a mocking âsmileâ right back.
She chose to ignore you and went for the buffet table instead.
Right, you thought. You supposed that was how it was going to be for the rest of this damn trip.
âAll righty! Good morninâ, folks,â Sunny said, entering the mess tent. She surveyed all the faces gatheredâsome relaxed and jovial, and then your table, a bit awkward, a bit tense.
She moved on with a smile that matched her name and her shiny red hair.
âJust lettinâ you all know as a reminder, weâve got a bunch of activities for you all if there are any takers. Archery, kayaking, itâs gonna be a great time,â she said. âBut if you prefer, youâre welcome to keep to the camp have a more relaxed day. Itâs your vacation, so itâs up to you how you wanna spend it.â
You all nodded in understanding.
Itâs your vacation. You choose how you spend it.
That, you could get on board with.
You spent the rest of the morning alone, as usual. Either you were reading in the outdoor lounge area, taking in the sunshine and the fresh air, or you were painting, taking in the landscape of the tall trees and the great, big mountains peeking out from behind them.
You earned yourself some peace today, one that let you breathe and try to tune out your frustrations with Mary, and your worries about the future. You hummed along to a melody in your mind as you painted. Completely at peaceâŚ
Until a hand tapped on your shoulder, making you yelp and sending your paintbrush high in the air.
Cormack came into your line of vision with a barely stifled laugh and placating hands. While you took out your earbuds (and calmed your breathing), he grabbed your brush and handed it back to you.
âSorry about that. Just wanted to let you know that lunch is served,â he said, though he took a glance at your painting. âHey, lookinâ real good there. Nice landscape.â
You let out an embarrassed chuckle. âAw, you donât have to be so nice. Iâm still learning.â
He crossed his arms. âWell, if youâre interested in taking classes, I know someone who runs an art studio in town. Miss Peggy. Nice lady. Not too harsh.â
You laughed more genuinely.
âGood to know, thanks! Send me the address and Iâll check it out,â you said. Cormack agreed with a smile, and he helped you up from the long couch you were sitting on. The two of you walked back together to the central part of the camp, where the mess tent was.
There you met Emilyâs mother, Carla, whoâd just joined her family at the camp. She wasnât exactly dressed for camping in her pressed blouse and pencil skirt; professional and smart, her long dark hair a perfect coil.
This woman was immaculate. As you soon learned, she was also a lawyer. You didnât often feel intimidated by other women, but she could fit that bill, considering you were sweaty and dusty in your plain V-necked shirt and jeans.
And especially knowing that this was Sheriff Arlenâs ex-wife. Avery seemed like the âwealthy businessmanâ typeâthe kind of man youâd expect a high-powered lawyer to be with. You found yourself wondering how sheâd met the sheriff.
Thatâs none of your busineeeess, you sing-songed in your mind, while you speared more salad on your plate. As if that could disguise the juicy brisket burger right beside it.
After lunch, you returned to your tent to finally find Mary. She was lying on the bed, looking a bit listless.
âIâm surprised youâre not attached to Lukeâs hip,â you remarked, setting down your backpack and paint supplies on the floor. âOr his face.â
She shot you a peeved look. âHe keeps ditching me for that weird new couple. Tonya and Donner or something.â
âDonno?â you supplied. âYeah, heâs weird. He stole the ketchup bottle from the breakfast table this morning. He told me, âYou shouldnât ruin good eggs with sugary tomato paste.ââ
Mary raised a brow, but she turned to you when you sat down beside her on the bed. There was a moment of tension between you, even though your gazes were softer to each other. The truth was, you missed your friend today. You guys didnât fight often, and it had you hurting. Maybe she felt the same way.
âListen,â you said with a sigh. âIâm not sorry for throwing Luke out of our tent. That was gross as hell, and I didnât appreciate that. But I donât want to fight with you. I want to enjoy our last few days together before you go back to Chicago.â
Maryâs lips pursed, but she seemed to relent.
âYeah, that was a bitch move,â she admitted. She knew full well that her tryst with Luke couldâve happened in his tent, not the one she shared with you. She met your gaze with more resignation, as well as apology.
âYouâre really staying here, arenât you?â she asked.
You nodded. âYeah, I am. Iâm not saying thereâs nothing for me back home. Of course Iâm going to miss you, our friends, the rest of my familyâŚbut I need to do this. I need a fresh start.â
It took her a moment, but Mary nodded. She reached over and hugged you. You held her back tightly.
After a beat, she let you go and slid out of bed.
âOkay,â she sighed. âI need to do something. Iâm going stir crazy in here.â
âWhereâre you going?â you asked.
âJust for a run,â she replied. âI should be back by dinner.â
âA run?â you repeated, your brows furrowing. âIn the woods by yourself? Donât you think thatâs dangerous?â
âWell, you could come with me,â she offered. You grimaced. You and running didnât mix. You were more of a yoga girl.
Mary laughed and finished changing into her activewear and sneakers.
âThatâs what I thought,â she said. âNo worries, Iâll have my phone if anything. Iâll be okay.â
âBut your cell wonât have service out there!â you said.
Mary was already leaving. She blew you a kiss goodbye, though she did stop in the tentâs entryway. Her face sobered with a sincere apology.
âLook, Iâm sorry for everything, okay?â she said. âI know I can be a brat sometimesâŚbut we can talk more when I get back, clear my head.â
You were reluctant to see her go, but you nodded.
âJust be back in time for dinner!â you called after her.
Mary wasnât back for dinner. Even after the sun set, she hadnât come back from her run. You were really beginning to worry.
All the other campers were gathering up at the edge of camp for a Night Hike. It was an idea Buck and Sunny surprised you all with a few hours ago. You wondered if they were trying to make up for the strange way Paige left the camp.
âThe moonâs full tonight,â as Sunny had said, with a slightly too bright smile. âShould be a beautiful time.â
You asked some of the others if theyâd seen Mary, but they all replied negatively. Even Luke was nowhere to be foundâŚbut someone else was missing too.
âI still canât believe you let her go into the woods alone,â Carla snapped at her husband.
Averyâs frown deepened. âI had no idea she went off by herself. You know your daughter. Sheâs headstrongââ
âYeah, just like her father,â Carla muttered, turning away from him. Avery sighed.
You couldnât help but approach them.
âEmilyâs missing?" you said in concern. "Mary is too. Iâve been waiting for her to come back all afternoon.â
âIâm sorry to hear that,â Carla said. She frowned as anxiety continued to well up in her eyes. âMaybe they found each other.â
You touched her arm in comfort. âEither way, we can all look for them now.â
Sunny came up to the group with a flashlight and a smile.
âEveryone ready?â she asked.
âMaryâs missing,â you told her, âAnd so is Emily. Mary went on a run this morning and hasnât been back since.â
Sunny inclined her head. After she surveyed the rest of the crowd, she settled back on you.
âI see Lukeâs not among us either. Maybe theyâre together?â she suggested, in a leading tone. You frowned.
âNo, she left alone,â you said firmly.
âDonât mean she stayed alone, darlinâ,â Sunny replied, with that Oklahoma twang that so often made her words more charming. âBut weâll be sure to look for her and Emily while weâre out there.â
Carla shook her head and said to her husband, âThatâs it. Iâm calling Beau.â
âDarling, you donât need to,â Avery replied, shaking his head. âEmilyâs a responsible girl. She knows what time weâre meant to leaveââ
Carla shook her head and walked past him and Sunnyâtowards the hotspot for cell service. You agreed with her; calling the sheriff couldnât hurt, especially if you all couldnât find Mary or Emily on this hike.
You still went with the rest of them to start your own search. You tried to keep with the group, but after lingering in certain spots to call for Mary, you eventually realized that youâd lost the trailâand everyone else.
The trees were tall and dark now. The moon was filtering through them like the sun had during other day hikes, but it was much more ominous at night.
âShit,â you muttered. You gripped your flashlight in worry as panic started to well up in your chest.
Now you were lost.
You jumped with a start when the hoot of a bird passed by overhead.
Shiiiit. This was very bad.
You kept moving forward on what you thought was the trail. That was all you could do, keep moving forward. You made a few turns around some trees, occasionally calling out for Sunny, or Mary, or anyone to hear you.
The panic was back now, full force, and you felt the sting of tears in your eyes. And when you turned another corner, you screamed when you bumped into someone.
A girlâs scream echoed just as loudly as yours in the big, empty wood, but you got ahold of yourself, literally with a hand over your wildly beating heart when you realized who youâd run into.
âEmily!â you uttered. The girl let out a breath of relief to see you too. You went to her and pulled her into a hug, and she hugged you back.
âThank. God,â she said. Her voice sounded tight with emotion, and you held her a bit tighter.
âItâs okay,â you rubbed her back. âHow longâve you been out here?â
âI donât know,â she shook her head, pulling away from you. âCouple of hours? Maybe longer.â
You nodded and expelled a breath. Poor thing looked tired. She didnât even have any supplies with her. You gave her a protein bar from your backpack before you two started walking.
âSo the good news is, we found each other. The bad news is, weâre still lost,â you said, counting each item on your fingers. âBut the good news also is, Iâve only been walking for aboutâŚhalf an hour or so. Iâm thinking we can mark trees or other landmarks as we pass them, like checking them off, so we know where weâve been.â
Emily glanced at you with a smile. âYouâre a checklist person, arenât you?â
âAbsolutely!â you agreed. âChecking things off is satisfying. But itâs also good just to take an inventory of where weâre at.â
You two kept walking for a while. Emily explained that sheâd been following Luke, who took off by himself after giving her an ominous warning.
âThere are some bad people on this trip. Want my advice? Get the hell out of here,â heâd said.
You frowned in concern. Youâd felt that there was something fishy about that guy, pretty much from the moment he and Paige disappeared on that hike. Those newcomers heâd been hanging out with ever since, Tonya and DonnoâŚmaybe they had something to do with it.
Theyâd left camp today to go into town, claiming to check on the restaurant they owned and ran. But with everything now starting to come into perspective, you couldnât take any piece of information at face value around here.
Suddenly, Emily stopped short.
âWhatâsâŚâ Your words trailed as you followed her line of vision. There was a frilly pair of underwear on the ground.
That led to a hoodie strewn in the dirt and dead leaves. You continued on, until you found Mary, lying on her back on the cold ground. You and Emily gasped her name, but you moved first, dropping to your knees at Maryâs side. You pressed a hand to her cheek and found it cold.
You moved two fingers to the pulse point at her neck, but there was nothing. No life in her. Your mouth fell open in a silent, shocked cry.
âMary? Honey, can you hear me?â you tried, shaking her shoulders. When she remained unresponsive, tears burned in your eyes and blurred your vision. You finally saw a dark patch of wet pooled out from under her body.
âOh my God,â Emily said, voicing your thoughts. She was panicked. âOh God, sheâsâŚsheâsâŚâ
You turned to her and wanted to say, Donât look.
You had briefly taught highschoolers before you became a college professor. You were used to looking out for your students, and as the adult here, you wanted to shield the teen from the sight of this, no matter how much your mind was spinning.
Before you could say anything, Emily fled the clearing with a scream.
âEmily!â you shouted after her. You glanced back at Mary in desperation, but you forced yourself onto your feet and ran after the girl.
You had slightly longer legs, but she was fast. You only caught up to her because she screamed louder, after running into Buck leading a horse through the woods. She grabbed onto him while you caught your breath behind her.
âWhat? What happened?â Buck asked. You laid a supportive hand on Emilyâs shoulder, and she turned back to you with tearful eyes.
âMary,â you managed, despite the coarseness in your voice. âSheâsâŚâ
This isnât real, you thought. Itâs not real. Itâs not real. Itâs not real.
âSheâs dead,â Emily finished for you. âSomeone killed her.â
Buckâs eyes widened in shock. All he could say wasâŚ
âShow me.â
Buck brought Maryâs body back to camp on the back of his horse. The three of you walked in silence all the way there. You couldnât bring yourself to look at her lifeless body. It was wrong. And if you did, you knew youâd collapse.
Emily was likely in shock as well. Her arm was looped through yours, though you werenât sure who was steadying who.
Thanks to Carla, the police were already on the way to Sunny Day Excursions. When you reached the camp, Carla beelined for her daughter. Despite how happy she was to see her mom, Emily was a bit reluctant to let go of you, seeing how shaken you were, but you encouraged her wordless to go to her mother.
Carla pulled Emily into a tight hug, kissing the side of her head, and asked if she was all right. Emily just shook her head and pressed her face into her momâs shoulder. Carla looked up at you with a relieved sigh.
âThank you,â she said.
You gave her teary smile of your own. You couldnât speak though, especially when Buck passed by with Mary still on the back of his horse. Sunny gasped and grabbed a blanket to cover the body with.
She then went to you, whispering, âYou poor dear. Come âere, sit by the fire.â
She covered your shoulders with another blanket and steered you to sit by the bonfire in the center of camp. You stayed there and stared at the flames. All the while, you didnât feel the warmth. You didnât feel the silent tears that slid down your face and dropped into your lap.
âWhereâs Luke?â you heard Avery ask.
âThatâs a good question,â said Sunny. She turned to her husband. âBuck?â
âI donât know, but somebody better find him,â he replied grimly.
It was another hour before the police arrived.
You still hadnât moved from your spot in front of the bonfire on a hard bench, but it was Cormack who gently asked you if you wanted to go back to your tent to relax until the police got around to talking to you about what happened.
Youâd agreed, silently, and he helped you up. But you found that you could go no further than the couple of steps that brought you onto the platform outside of your tent. The tent youâd shared with Mary.
You couldnât go in, and Cormack seemed to realize that. He helped you lower down to sit on the platform, with your dirty sneakers planted on the step below. He gave you a cup of hot tea as well, which you held with both hands and sipped slowly.
You only raised your head when you heard Emilyâs voice exclaim in happiness. You watched her run to her father, the Sheriff. He welcomed his daughter into his arms and held her tight. Relief was painted all over his face. You heard the rumble of his voice asking her if she was all right. She just burrowed closer in the safety of his arms.
A blonde policewoman had come with him, along with a whole unit of officers. She went to question Buck and Sunny first, while Beau handled Emily, then Avery and Carla. It didnât seem like a pleasant conversation, between the two men especially.
Donât stare, you reminded yourself. You lowered your gaze to the dusty bottom stair between your feet. Your vision started to glaze over the longer you focused on that spot. You werenât lost in thought. You were justâŚblank. This entire night still didnât feel real.
Maryâs last words kept ringing through your mindâŚ
âLook, Iâm sorry for everything, okay?â sheâd said. âI know I can be a brat sometimesâŚbut we can talk more when I get back.â
You were interrupted from your reverie when two brown boots entered your line of vision. You looked up, and Beau Arlen was there to greet you with a look of sympathy. And yet, there was a professional set to his face that let you know you were about to be formally questioned about Maryâs death.
âIs that spot taken?â Beau asked, pointing to the space beside you on the platform. You shook your head and scooched over, so he could sit down. He sighed on his way there, greeting you with polite familiarity.
âSheriff,â you nodded back. You set aside your mug of tea and crossed your arms, holding yourself against the chill.
Youâd left the blanket by the bonfire, and your sweater had been stained with blood, after helping Buck set Maryâs body on the horse. Youâd ripped the sweater off as soon as you got to camp, leaving you in just your undershirt.
âYou need a jacket,â Beau remarked. He glanced back at your tent, as if he was wondering why you hadnât gone inside to grab one. But his gaze was perceptive. Instead of asking, he shrugged out of his faux fur-lined leather jacket and draped it around your shoulders.
âHere, you can borrow this for now,â he said.
âThank you,â you spoke in a small voice. You grasped one edge of the jacket and pulled it closer around you. It smelled like musky cologne and old leather.
Beau waved off his gesture of kindness.
âI hear you found my daughter in the woods and tried to get her back to camp,â he said. âThank you for that.â
You glanced over at him, and tears once again shone in your eyes.
âIâm sorry she had to seeâŚâ
Beauâs gaze was heavy as he sighed and nodded again in agreement.
âIâm sorry you had to see it too,â he said. âAnd Iâm sorry for your loss. For your friend.â
You took in a shuddering breath. New tears found familiar paths down your cheeks.
âBest friend, since college,â you said.
Beau took that in, before he asked you about the dayâs events. You had to explain about Mary going missing first, then Emily, and finally Luke, who still hadnât been found. You told everything you knew from your perspective.
When you were done, Beau reluctantly asked about the Mary and Luke situation. Your lips pursed, but your upset wasnât at the sheriff. You knew he had to ask these questions.
âWe argued about it,â you admitted. âMe and Mary. I warned her not to get involved with him, and the way Paige left camp was just one of manyâŚbut still, I shouldâve been there. I shouldnât have let her go into the woods alone! I shouldâve gone with her!â
By the end, your whole body wracked with sobs. You covered your face with your hands to try and get some semblance of composure, but you just couldnât keep it together.
âOkay, okay,â Beau said gently. He laid a hand on your back and rubbed back and forth. âIâm sorry, darlinâ. I am.â
You sucked in a few tremulous breaths, sniffling. You looked up at him with red, watery eyes. He gave you a half smile.Â
âSorry,â he repeated, this time for the endearment. âLike I said, got a bad habit of doinâ that.â
You shook your head with a weak curve of your lips, despite how your lower lip wobbled.Â
âItâs okay,â you said.Â
But it wasnât. Nothing was.Â
You didnât think youâd ever be okay again.
AN: đĽ I'm sorry about Mary, but I promise, it's all for a purpose, besides following canon. But let me know what you think! There will be much more of the reader and Beau in the next chapter, though you may not expect how their next meeting comes about...
Next Time:
âWeâre gonna start here in a few minutes, but until then, you can take a seat,â said Tom. âThereâs also coffee and cookies over there, if you like.â
Coffee. Coffee was warm, and it might settle your nerves and help you perk up a bit. You thanked him and went for the carafes on a small table in the back. You poured some coffee into a Styrofoam cup and poured a little sugar and creamer into it, but after you took an experimental sip, you immediately regretted it.
Tastes like damn soil water! You made a grossed out sound and spat it back into your cup.
âYeah, wouldnât recommend the joe,â drawled a familiar voice.Â
You turned sharply to find Sheriff Beau Arlen.
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