#anw i am very sad rn

[jentlemahae]

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[fiskesprett]

*crowd boos* yea ok so i know i owe a lot of threads rn and as someone who is in as big of a debt as i am i have no place bringing in another muse but also i have no self control so. yeah im back with jaden fanning who's really the face of the formerly gifted child! he's an allara native paired with an unhealthy dose of escapism which brings him to terra! ...for work, of course! you know the drill: hit that LIKE button and i'll come running for plots again!

aquarius sun / virgo moon / libra rising

born and raised in los angeles! he's got a cookie cutter life with upper middle class parents who stuck together and 3 sisters, 1 older and 2 younger, and they're all relatively close in age! being the middle child and only boy means he basically gets to do anything he wants so even though his sisters pretty much gang up on him, life is pretty breezy honestly

jaden's also a really smart kid and he's one of those weirdos who genuinely enjoys maths so he really excelled in school! him and his sisters are all pretty high achievers in general, so growing up in that environment really helped foster his education

he gets into the compsci program in whatever version of mit is present a millennium later in allara and this is really where his life starts! living away from his childhood home, he was really able to break out of his mould! it's very much like if you've always been a class clown in hs, people expect you to only be a class clown and similarly in his home, people expected him to be jaden, their son / brother / whiz kid, but for once he was really able to just be whoever and do whatever he wanted!

absolutely bombs his first yr in uni thanks to his newfound freedom ( tho bomb in his family's standards is like a B- ) so his parents start calling, sisters start teasing him, everyone starts to get a little concerned for him and he kinda doesn't like disappointing people so he locks in! one thing he's learnt from this tho is that he kind of realises that he can never really be who he wants to be fully, because his family will always kind of be hovering over him ( like family ought to do but yk men n their need for independence )

anw he graduates thankfully and manages to snag an internship with allara's version of terrascape ( allarascape or sumn idk ) as an engineer! has been working there since and he's got some good critical thinking, work ethic & he's got an easygoing personality so he climbs the ranks pretty easily!!

only for things to grow so mundane again? his now 5y old job is very reminiscent of his childhood, how he's now shelved as a can-do engineer and everyone knows and expects him to always act in a certain way

at this point he starts looking for other jobs ( doesn't tell his parents tho bc they'd call him crazy and talk him out of it considering allara(scape) is like. the biggest company in allara im guessing ) and around sometime end of last year, he finds an opening at his company to transfer to terra as an inter-server compatibility engineer! it genuinely felt like the perfect opportunity for him so he applied immediately

doesn't tell his parents until he actually gets approved for the job and is told that he needs to relocate in like a month, and his parents are naturally sad about losing their son but he convinces them like hey, it's only semi-permanent and he can come back anytime if he doesn't like it, he's only doing this to move up in his career and what better way than to be in touch with the other part of his culture ( all lies btw he just wants some excitement in his life ) and his parents eat it up so they agree that he should take the job

but yes! that brings him to terra! he's moved over to the server for about a month or so now so he's literally a fresh face!

personality-wise jaden is really easygoing and has a very try anything once type of mentality! recently, he's been getting into the music of terra ( ngl he found it a lil rocky at the start but it's grown on him ), the games ( iron fist rocks btw ) and their cool dating app, but yeah he'll literally try anything to keep himself entertained!

in saying so jaden bores very easily... he's truly an aquarius at heart in that he loves to try new things but he also learns very quickly and gets bored of them once he does, so he'll run through many different hobbies and interests until he runs out then that jaded feeling leading into escapism comes creeping back in... luckily he's only on his first month in terra tho so the shine's gonna stay for at least 1-2 years still!

ironic but maybe the reason why he bores easily is because he's fostered a pretty boring life for himself 😖 definitely a lot more boy-next-door compared to some of the muses here so really, he's just your typical dude!

considering the event that just concluded i should also say that he's a terra glazer, given that he works with the code he does find it hard to admit that there's anything wrong with the code so if your muse is out here saying that terra is lying and all that he's treating them like scientists treat covid deniers : >> will kinda write them off eek but in saying this he's also not very self-aware lol prob rates himself pretty high on the nice, down to earth scale so take that how you will

you'd never imagine that i'd be able to rattle on about some random guy uve met on the street yet here we are... anw here's some plot bunnies for ya!

i'd love for him to kinda meet anyone working @ terrascape! whether it be thru their mentor-mentee program or if they're chillin at the canteen tgt, he's ur man! he also likes going out for tgif drinks w his colleagues so !

as i said he's getting used to a lot in terra so you can definitely find him in random spots across town! whether it be the quaint bakery no one knows about or that coffee shop everyone knows AND WARNS everyone about! i assume culture is quite different between servers too so maybe he does something that's a little outside of the culture of terra? like if he tries to tip a waiter and they find him rude as hell... ye come educate this white man

honestly he's really getting into iron fist at the moment so i can see him gaming a lot! would love for him to have gaming friends he met thru iron fist and maybe your muse has decided to take pity on this literal noob lol... maybe even games other than iron fist while we're here? he's really trying anyth rn gang! while we're at it i'm also looking for someone he's a big fan of!

speaking of fans and celebrities, he's a compatibility engineer btwn terra and allara, so your muse has thought to transfer to allara briefly for a tour / to go on holiday? he doesn't usually deal with the customer aspect of things and is more present behind the scenes, but maybe bc your muse is famous the ceo employs "a professional" to handle the case and greet you so you feel special and feel enticed to keep spending your merits using this service

he's also been getting used to coach rn so maybe you've matched w him! watch him bring u around to the lamest places bc he doesn't know any place...😌

because he's moved here for his job, (allara)scape's also placed him in the megabuildings! neighbour plots would be kinda cute huh?

[leaderwon]

Hii my favourite author <3

Btw I just changed my u/n. Axster —> wonxhearts like I am finally getting familiar with (thanks to you) but anws wanna tell you this cuz this is so imp

Did you hear about the kolkata dr case? If you didn’t, search it please cuz it isn’t letting me post the link TT .

It is so sad and scary cuz my school is nearby the area and so many case of similar crimes are being reported in the same month. I am so scared cuz just a few months ago I was so glad to be living in India’s safest city and the way tables have turned. Idk where in India you are from but I think we are around the same age. But what I am saying is that stay safe girly. I so hope that India receives the same faith as Bangladesh. I have never left so scared after any news. Yk what’s more scary. My school’s students (majorly age 15-17), including one of my friends, are being stalked by this one guy for like a few weeks. He was arrested but released the same day due to no clear evidence. Two days after the release he was seen nearby the metro station again.

So girl I hope you stay safe and that the protests have an impact on the govt. Stay safe and healthy <3

since you actually reply to your asks and are quite popular(I am so proud of you) I wished to spread some awareness about this

Ilysm and I am so very proud of you, cuz like I litch watched the hate that tag list go from 5–10 to so many. And you are still so underrated like hello? Your writing are literal masterpieces. Keep going and I agree SCHOOL IS TRASH🔥🔥

I did hear about the Kolkata case and alot of the other cases rn. It's absolutely devastating on how the country has become and to think that i used to live in that city once is what's scary.

I swear I do not know what mamata is doing atp

I hope you and your friends are safe. Please be cautious at times like this

Tysm for the support it means alot to me :)

[reynanghugot]

october recap

• ang lala ng relapse ko ng october i thought okay na ko after nung pagkakasakit ko nung last week september pero mali pala ko, ive been back and forth sa medical city for check up and labs

• i got another work achievement for the month of sept and na recognize sya early oct.

• naka 2 rtpcr and 2 antigen ako for that month too and good thing it's negative

• first time ko umiyak the whole entire work hrs ko sa 6yrs ko sa industry to the point na idgad sa mga nakakakita sa akin.

• i was able to had dinner with nikko and my fam in one table, which im very happy and grateful tbh.

• sad news came di naman maiiwasan nung namatay lolo ni nikko and need namin umuwi ng batangas tho ako nung libing nalang ako umuwi.

• after that ofc, nagkasakit uli ako azza mahina ang resistensya and everything.

• shempre despite of those lows na pinagdaanan ko this month, i am so happy na nakapag celebrate kami ni nikko ng first year namin together. ♡

anw, that's all my kwento and sh8 rn. happy first of the month again evr1.

[tartagliaxx]

first off, hello 🤷‍♀️ anon! sorry i missed you out

and secondly, dw, marius is my favourite too lol, he reminds me a lot of my younger cousin who i lived with when i was younger. i was always the one who took care of him and marius calling me older sister just set off so much memories of my childhood. the both of them are also vv similar in personality, attention seeking, playful and artistic so i always see him whenever i look at marius.

artem is probably my second favourite ngl, ever since i read his ssr where he was jealous and got drunk (what a good combination lmao) i just grew so soft for him. at the end of the day, he's just a vv soft sweetheart who's insecure that we'll leave him :(( i have like 3 ssrs at lvl36, two of them are artem cards and the other is luke. i vibe with luke too bc i love the childhood friends trope, it's top tier. and as for vyn... i have vv mixed feelings abt him. i feel like he could so easily see through me if he was real and i'm just like, how about no. he's rlly pretty though, like rlly pretty.

*major spoilers*

and you've finished the archon quests!!! personally, i feel like the ending felt a bit rushed(?). it's weird bc i thought the resistance war against the raiden shogun was supposed to be the center of the story, but it just devolved to us helping yae with the entire war being swept to the side. and i already knew somebody was gonna die, and as soon as i saw that teppei had become the captain, i just knew.

it's interesting bc i would love to explore what happened to la signora and scaramouche to make them so disregarding of human life. like, i don't like them, but i want to understand their minds. it's sad to read signora's artifact's background honestly. and the fact that her crown said she used to be called rosalyne, that she had perhaps once led a more innocent and naive existence. i dunno, to me it seems like a good ending for her honestly, she had already lost herself after her lover's death and brings pain to many others, i don't think she can rlly return to being her again.

and honestly, a lot of people are talking abt scaramouche not telling signora he already had the gnosis and saying that he orchestrated her death, i don't rlly think so. i feel like he's just that apathetic to human life, even if it's someone that stands on his side, he just doesn't care enough. it also says how he never got along with anyone, not even his fellow harbingers, so i don't know why ppl expect him to seek out someone he doesn't like just to warn her of danger.

i vibe with scaramouche and la signora as the antagonists bc they're good antagonists, but as characters, well. other than the fact that they're pretty, they have like one likeable trait and that is their loyalty. they would do anything for the tsaritsa even if it cost them their life. i'm rlly excited to see what the tsaritsa has in store for us in the future.

considering our sibling is nicknamed 'the prince/princess', i wonder if there's gonna be a day where we're gonna have to go toe to toe with them. if we had them backed them into a corner with no way out, i wonder if they would kill us. it would be an interesting twist if we could actually die, but i feel like the protagonist halo will prevent it lol and i'm sorry bc god, this is so long.

— r. anon

marius. that’s the tweet. man,, you dont realize how in love i am w him?? like,, this man was literally my only hope when i fell horribly sick. i cant w myself now that i’m hearing it w my own voice. it must be nice to remember the good ol’ days… i despise my cousins and i dont have siblings so i dont really have that sort of connection w him. to me, his onee-san is just a joke? a petname? idk but it simultaneously makes me so mad and giddy just like childe’s existence does

i like vyn bc his vibes are sus but at the same time, he’s cares abt our mental health 🥺👉👈 no one’s ever said shit like that to me… jokes aside, luke is seriously threatening his spot bc of his blushing bs like pls 🤲 i’m so weak for that shit give me more. artem makes me soft too like,, he keeps mentioning that he trusts us and he’s just…. HE’S A BIG TEDDY BEAR THAT BLUSHES AT LIKE ACCIDENTAL HAND BRUSHES GRRRR. in conclusion, i love them all.

but man,, give me ssr luck… literally, im in pain…

now that the excitement’s worn off, i can now judge things properly. i think that… the pacing is horrible. like the plot is good, genuinely, but there’s just,, so much to explore abt this. if you think abt it, this is the climax and yet we didnt get much. scratch that. we got a lot but it’s all underdeveloped that it felt like nothing. we go to sangonimiya, got promoted, became captain for like, one sec before we are sent onto an investigation that didnt really produce any results bc app teppei alr knows everything? and then the delusion thing is a good plot point but it’s not really explored? just… a lot of things are left unexplored and i think that story wise, a lot of the possible lore explanations went down the drain. it would’ve been nice if we saw more abt the rebellion and if we had gotten to know whats the real deal w the commissions but eh… idk… i would’ve rather done more quests abt this whole storyline than like… do that whole dance w the three people who lost their vision in 2.0.

if im going to be honest, la signora is such a wasted character. like maybe her death was just for the shock factor or maybe it’s to prepare us for more harbinger encounters in the future.. idk but she’s such a good character from what we’ve seen but we know jack shit abt her and her motives. we know a little from the artifact set but beyond that, what do we have?

precisely! that’s how i feel abt this whole thing when we’re talking seriously. like w ei, i dont really agree w whatever they’re doing but i want to understand why they do the things that they do. everything has a reason and their psychology is just interesting to me.

i think scaramouche’s nature makes it easy for him to disregard human life. call it arrogance or whatever but ultimately, he’s seeing himself as smth above all these people bc he’s more or less capable of standing toe to toe w a god. why should he bother telling signora? it’s not like he gains anything if he does. i think that when he got the gnosis, he’s just ‘well she dies if she dies. who cares abt that? i dont have any need for incompetent colleagues anw’ i agree and i dont think he orchestrated her death but at the same time, he just allowed it to happen too.

as for signora, i’m actually surprised? for the most part, i think that the harbingers took their posts for selfish reasons. for scara, it’s to entertain himself and pass time. for childe, it’s to fight and grow stronger. for dottore, it’s to conduct dubious research w/o anyone stopping him. i expected signora to have some similar motive like power or money but it seems like she does actually believe in the tsaritsa? it would be very intriguing if signora’s main motive in becoming a harbinger is simply bc she is loyal to the tsaritsa and her will. bc in contrast, i think scara and dottore are more loyal to the fact that the tsaritsa can give them what they want, not bc they actually like her. actually, idek if they’re willing to die for her lol. like i wouldnt be surprised if they suddenly abandon post in a life or death situation but who knows…

in any case, they are very good antagonists. i like yo think that the tsaritsa isnt as bad as the game portrays her to be… of all the gods, she’s the one im looking forward to the most but… haha… what version would that be….

i’m almost certain that they’ll make us fight our twin maybe before we face the unknown god? if one of them dies, i would be very sad. like legit. but knowing mhy, well, our twin is almost 100% a walking death flag.

anw i’m shutting up rn— i also spoke too much kahdjabdhakbsjansb—

[karasunology]

omg ma’am ur reply is so long i am: soft🥺 aAAA😭💞 anw timeskip oikawa be hitting different tho i cannot unsee like !!!!😔 abt the ending.. i was very sad but i just kept on thinking how the finale is going to be so good that it’s just meant for it to end. i haven’t read the manga bc i dont know how to read PSPSHSPSH im lazy to read but im probably gonna get to it. idk if theres gonna be new seasons kshsks i hope so🤞 - 💫

I LOVE THAT YOUR ASKS ARE ALWAYS LONG !! makes my heart go💞💓💗💕💘😩 so it's just unfair if i don't give u the same energy, right? 🙈💕 bro the manga just hits something different to you, i really recommend it !! but yeah, i used to hate reading mangas for??some??reason?? but then WHEN I DID, i couldn't stop myself. also lowkey a sucker for shoujo mangas😔✋😳 also i think it has been confirmed that there WILL be a new season in october? idk if it's just a rumor but MAN I CANT WAIT AHSJJSJSJS LIKE I WOULD PAY TO TIME TRAVEL RN

[xllxxrbxg]

hmmm gold digger prank yaya call my aliens from mars and tell them to get the gold

hmmmm idkkkk. update ko lang sa life rn may bebe na me. karlo is his name. he's a nice guy. takes me out (not as a hitman) occasionally. I like how he treats me; he gives me freedom. And it only means he trusts me very well. I dont have any idea where he gets the energy to trust me, but that's how it goes. Kinda shocking ba na may bebe na me hihi kakasabi ko lang sa las entry ko na ayoko maging taken GAGI tapos here i am parang clown. Pero anyways, masarap lang din sa feeling na may nakakaappreciate sayo nang ganun. Tho we just met palang and since day 1 of that meeting him personally, magkalandian na kami agad AHSDHAHDHA kasi sa chat di naman kami nag flirt in any way usap lang lagi. And di ko rin sya feel non sa chat kasi parang ang kulit na ewan, pero LOOK AT ME. So ayon naglaplapan kami the other other week pa. Make out game strongk naman kahit papano pero man his hands ... they long asffff. Anyway ayon I asked for a hickey, gave me one, and the next morning I was scolded by mom lmfao WAS FUNNY TBH BECAUSE i didnt even try to hide it. And my tito also saw it he was like "ano yang nasa neck mo? bat may pasa" and i was like "ah hehe yung ano kasi yung necklace" AHASDHHADHASH AND MOM WAS THERE SHE WAS LIKE "yung necklace nya nagtala sa pagtulog nya *sips coffee bites bread* HAHAHAHHAHAHA OMFG but later on when we went to camalig she noticed it was a real hickey and yeah I got scolded because Im so pasaway daa. Anyways LOVE YOU MOM UWU! HEHE. So ayon nga ayoko na magpromis na maglolog in ako dito daily kasi di naman natutupad. Pero kahapon kwento ko lang mars nagsakay ako sa big bike GARA PAREH as in lahat nakatingin sa tormots nung kasama ko. Nameet ko lang din sa bumble tho tig vibe check ko man sya for several weeks. And sya rin kausap ko nung time na suicidal ako so goods naman. Ok naman sya may dead air lang kaso sometimes baka nagkakahiyaan and stuff. nilibre nya ako ng milk tea, AND HAHA KASI ang weirdt tho nagtanggal ako mask. Di ako usually natanggal mask, heck si jeff na bff q never pa ako nakita personally na walang mask HAHAHAHA Anw ayon was fun tho napa Holy Mary ako habang nakasakay sa likod niya. Kasi first of all the ride was bumpy, second of all the seat was small ASS!!! and walang hawakan sa likod. Anyway people were staing hihi I DO LOVE ATTENTION! I was wearing a tank top, cargo pants, combat boots, and on top of it all I had a tatt on my arm. DAMN SHAWDDIE @ ME. LOL. Loved the temporary feeling of royalty. Gara ba naman ng motor. It was green and black in color and it was a cool ass expensive motor !! it was worth 300k+ if irc. ANW ayun had fun naman. Tho I mostly did it so that I would stray from depression but I am still depressed. I have to do something about it INTERNALLY and deal with it with myself. And stop going out with people as a shortcut to heal the depression. But anw ayun I am glad there are people that go out with me because I am sad. Plus I am grateful Karlo allows me to go out with my other friends despite that they are guys. Man that guy trusts me so much, I will not break it. Anyways he's a nice guy, but at the same time you cant have it all yk. I dont like it when he walks ahead of me just cause he has longer legs and bikes, but we can work on that. Anyways, people underestimate people on bumble. Some guys don't look like it but theyre actually rich. First example i have is AJ. he aint lookin rich man. If anything, he looks like he smokes 8 packs a day. But I was wrong he actually smokes 9. CHAROT. Mans was like teasing me most of the time and I GOT PISSED SO I FIRED BACK. but days passed he sent me 1.3k--- LIKE WHAT FOR WHAT????? I was mean yet he knew I needed something to cheer me up and HE SENT MONEY?? WHO THE FUCK SENDS 1.3K AHAHAHHAHAH SHET GANDALANGTALAGAMINSANMARS Then the other one I met just yesterday was dustin. He goes to school at UST manila and he treated me outside too. He owns the 300k motor BUT TELL YOU WHAT HE AINT LOOKIN RICH ON HIS PROFILE. If anything, I wouldnt swipe right tbh but apprarently, I did. So lesson here is dont judge people by their looks,

actually try to have a conversation with them, and treat them fairly and not be mean just because its online. Also, mostly the goodlooking ones on these dating apps are the asshole ones lmfao. Tho there are guys who look like literal shit and are assholes too. Lol anyway the third one is Karlo which I started seeing a month ago. I met up with him because I was visiting Naga temporarily and then I got bored. Supposedly I would meet up with miki because we were talking for sometime already but he was not making things happen so I just grabbed whoever was available that time and it was Karlo. Was hesitant at first, because I didnt match the vibe he had online and was too makulit for me. But to my surprise on our very first meeting, he picked me up with a fortuner. I thought he'd bring a clanky ass car or somn when he said he'd borrow from his father. Anw, was nervous when I entered the car because I was unfamiliar with the person and it was sinking into me that it could be my last day on earth. So I was like yeah he might have a car yada yada yada didnt pay much attention just yet. So we went to this field apparently people call it naga view. not much too see just overlooking the city. IT WAS A DAMN FIELD!!!!!! IDK WTD BUT HE TOOK ME THERE I WAS READY TO FIGHT FOR MY LIFE I HAD A CUTTER WITH MEEE anways.... was fun date. we had to return the car by 3 we were kinda late. so we went to his house was a nice house it had an office. was then again surprised to see a signange with their surname on it and it entailed they had a realty firm. And also turns out they own a damn resort. bro. both of his parents are engineers and are real estate brokers. and it ain even show on the pfffppp man people on bumble really be keeping it lowkey. Pero yeah he isnt rich, his parents are. that makes him a rich kid. But anw di ko naman habol money ew im not like that. I may like free stuf, but I dont chase people for money unless theyre my client or if i lent money lmfao. Just surprises me how people be rich. like damn his bike is like 130k...... man what in the wealth.... also theres zef. another good friend of mine. his dads a lawyer. idk but they seem rich plus his bike costs 65k...... thats cheper than karlos but like........... yall underestimate bikers too. man they RICH. tho you can get budget bikes but idk how youll keep up with guys that has feather weight expensive ass bikes that they hoist up single handedly LMAO. eat the rich. anyways i guess this is what this entry is all about. Me making kwento about people that are rich. I will get rich soon too. I know God will help us get what we deserve after all that losing, it is time to win. <3333

[mocha-tapioca]

swanee said ear so legally i have to now

this is gonna b long so im putting it utc

@swantosa bc u wanted to hear im tagging u

gonna preface this by talking abt said crushes, both of which r good friends of mine because i never fall for ppl imnot friends with

one of them is a demigirl that for the sake of anonymity im going to call kei!! very goth very much lesbian but shes the longest friend ive had since i moved to where i currently live ^^ despite seeming really intimidating and unapproachable shes actually the most adorable sweetheart u will ever meet and she has this habit of kicking her legs whenever she reads anything cute and specifically AVOIDS it for that reason and ALSO. ALSO SHE IS MY (currently platonic) WIFE I WAS THE ONE THAT GOT DOWN ON ONE KNEE AND PROPOSED SHE HAS MY BUTTERFLY RING RN AND THE SNAKE RING I FOUDN IN THE MIDDLE OF THE HALLWAY

the other one is a guy we're gonna call mac who is like. Very Very Different from kei. EXTREMELY different from kei. mac is a living himbo of a man and an absolute ray of friggin sunshine. AND SOMEHOW???? HE GETS BETTER GRADES THAN ME??????? HES ACTUALLY REALLY SMART AND HARDWORKING AND IT BLOWS ME AWAY??????????? weve known each ither for abt a year and we both thought we were gonna remain acquaintances forever but then we became rlly good friends!!!! he currently has me saved as "penguin" on his phone (bc i headbutted my friend once to get her to stop being so sad) n i have him saved as "puppy" bc its what animals we remind each other of haha

theyre both on good terms w each other even though they dont talk all that much, plus both of them are aware i hv a crush on the other person (but dont know i hv a crush on THEM too) ^^ not to mention both of them have seen me at my best and worst and have stuck by me anyway + theyre both like???? REALLY GOOD AT GIVING ADVICE???????? AND THEYRE BOTH ACTUALLY REALLY ADORABLE AND THEIR LITTLE MANNERISMS ARE SO CUTE AND THEYRE BOTH JUST SO AAAAAAAAAGH

tl;dr i like two very different people and theyre both rlly cute <3333

okok onto the dream part now

so irl we have a winter formal coming up where i am right?? so in the dream its the night of the formal and im sitting outside on the stairs that go up to the gym doors, which are outside the school parking lot. as far as i rmr i left the party to take a breather since the volume of the music was really overwhelming to me. for some reason its honeymoon un deux trois which like. DAMN OKAY RLLY SETTING THE MOOD THERE.

n then mac steps out and puts his suit jacket over my freezing shoulders bc THIS IS IN WINTER. MY DUMBASS IS COLD. anw he sits down next to me and we talk abt random little mundane things until i stand in front of him and stick my hand out, asking him to dance. he agrees but he doesnt know how to like waltz n stuff SO I TEACH HIM. I AM GETTING BITCHES KEFTA ND RIGHT IN THIS DREAM.

and at some point it switches to me dancing w kei and im the one in a suit this time AND SHES SO ORETTY???????? IN THAT DRESS???????????????? OMG???????????????????????? and we're both laughing and stumbling into each other because we're both so bad at dancing the way we're supposed to and keep jokingly flirting with each other and wondering if its actually a joke

AND THEN IT CUTS TO MEWANTING TO GO BACK TO THE OARTY AND THEY BOTH STAND IN FRONT OF THE DOORS AND YOU CANBSEE THE LIGHTS BEHIND THEM AND THEY LOOK SO DAMN GOOD HNGAHHHHHHHHHHH AND. AND THEN THEY BOTH TAKE MY HANDS AND LEAD ME BACK IN AND THE DREAM ENDS AND I WAKE UP AND UGHHHHH I WISH I COULDVE KEPT DREAMING LET ME SEE HOW IT ENDS PLEASE VRAIN AGH

and so concludes my dream pan rambles. panbles

who wants to hear my dream abt both the people im currently crushing on

[inktae]

The Train of Lost Souls was a masterpiece, I really love your writing style. Your writing , especially angst always have you own signature touch to it, which I can't find anything to describe it with. The storyline was intriguing and the bittersweetness of it all was painfully beautiful. Thank you for this wonderful piece of writing, it left me a lot to think about. Thank you again

thank you thank you ❤ it amazes me every time I post a story and it gets feedback like this, because I always go ‘this one is definitely weird and people definitely won’t read this one’ ahaha I’m genuinely thankful ^^

Anonymous said: WHy. dO. yOU. dO. tHIS. tO. mE. ??? T T legit crying right now because what is life without the sun aka Jung Hoseok??? As a Hoseok stan, that fic killed me T T it was so good omggggggg… As an anon that will probably be spamming you more about your writing in the future, could I be called hobay anon (that is if you don’t have an anon with that name right now) >

hii don’t worry, you’re the first anon with that name :)) and I apologize for hurting hoseok stans because if I was already in pain I can’t imagine how it may have been for you /hugs/ thank you for the compliments!!

Anonymous said: it’s 3 am and i just read the train of lost souls and holy it was so beautiful and i’m drowning in my feels rn !!! it really had me thinking, of the possibilities in our lives that would present themselves if we just let go of our fears (the OC was only able to do that when revisiting her memories after she died, where she honestly had nothing to lose or be afraid of. this is so relateable :( ) AND IT’S JUST SO BITTERSWEET WITH HOSEOK AND I’M AHHH RAMBLING BUT I LOVED THE WRITING THANK YOU

Anonymous said: I loved your recent story ahshd it was so sad, yet at the same time the ending was actually happy and satisfying? Personally I really liked how the ending turned out & how she had a chance to save jk even if she had to sacrifice her memories with hoseok. I just… that’s such a massive decision but in that situation it just seemed so right, and the greatest feeling of relief and just /awww/ when she approached him in the coffee shop ;-;

Anonymous said: WOW ! The train of lost souls is BEAUTIFUL!!! I cried and I’ve never cried over a fic ! It’s now one of my top 3 and I’ve read a looooot of fics lol i want to read it again and again ❤❤❤

Anonymous said: Mari thooooooo!!! That story??!!! Amazing plot, so heartbreaking but also so incredibly beautiful. And hobi i just. His character was my favorite. The way he changed/matured/developed under those years felt very real and I WANT TO HUG HIM TOO!

Anonymous said: Girl, i read your newest story. This is the first time i cried reading fanfic. Your story is beautiful. Beautifully written with bittersweet ending. I love the friendship between those three, between the reader and hoseok. It is just beautiful. When the reader lost her memory of hoseok, i cried. When the reader can’t remember hoseok again, i cried. ㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠ

Anonymous said: what the heckity heck i just cried my eyes out reading train of lost souls ;; thank you for writing such a beautiful fic. you are so gifted with your words. i didn’t want to send this on anon but i’m shy but anw you are an amazing writer and i love you ♡

I wish I could answer you all individually but I don’t want to bore people with my replies, so just know that I have the silliest smile on my face right now and that my day has been made :’) I genuinely keep expecting for people to get bored of my weird angst but I keep getting pleasantly surprised by the feedback every time. thank you so, so much!! *group hug*