#anw I can't write nicely so

[erionella]

gay ass snippet of my oc lore

[ggukiepie]

one of your girls (pt. 2) (jungkook x reader)

we go 'round again, we jump back in bed that's what you do when you love somebody these bad omens, i look right through them that's what you do when you love somebody bad omens by 5sos

pairing: jungkook x fem oc

tags: smut, angst, fluff, fuckboy!jk, fwb rel, oc is...she thinks with her heart <//3, college au, jungkook is sus and a bit mean but is oc any better ? hmmmm

warnings: kissing, fingering, protected sex, mirror kink, backshots wooo but make it romantic, light choking, multiple orgasms, a little bit of aftercare, cuddling :o

word count: 6k

a/n: weeeee part 2 is finally here !! sorry this took so long yall. i have two more parts to release for this series (flashback then part 3). anw happy reading !! uhhhhhh the ending..dont scream at me :D / part 1 / drabble i (flashback)

taglist: @yuwaimo @haileycannotcometothephonern @hoseokteardrop @hoodrejects @agrika @joonwater @moonchild1

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It's sunny today which calls for hanging out at the quad. It's what you and your friends usually do to take advantage of the rare warm days. Jihyo's busy bickering with Mingyu, you don't know what they're really talking about because you're busy re-writing your notes. You haven't seen Jimin yet but he texted the group chat saying he's just buying food. And Jungkook...well you don't know if he's going to show up today. You haven't talked to him since that night. It's just been three days anyway.

You feel someone sit down beside you and you notice it's Jimin. He's wearing those skinny jeans he loves so much because he says it makes his ass look nice. You roll your eyes every time he mentions that.

"Cool guy alert," Mingyu suddenly calls out. You whip your head up to stare at Jimin who's wearing the biggest pair of sunglasses you've ever seen, it's covering half of his face already.

"Too sunny for you, Jiminie?" Jihyo teases this time.

You all watch Jimin silently as he removes the sunglasses. His left eye is bruised and it's ugly and purple and almost black.

"What the fuck," Jihyo says to break the silence. "What happened to you?"

Jimin doesn't say anything yet, just simply fixes his hair and shakes his head. You can tell he's trying not to get angry because his jaw is clenched.

"Jimin?" you whisper.

"It was Jungkook," he says gruffly. Your heart stops again at the mention of his name. Why would Jimin and Jungkook fight? Their friendship is pretty solid and they always get along well. You've never seen them annoyed at each other.

Your eyes flit to Mingyu and you think he knows what happened because he's silent, no hint of surprise on his face. He's looking down at the table while playing with his food.

"You guys never fight," Jihyo interjects. "What happened?"

Jimin turns to face you and you suddenly think you know why. You don't want to say it yourself but you think you've got an inkling why Jungkook punched him. You just hope you're wrong.

"You need to talk to him," Jimin tells you, completely ignoring Jihyo's question. You nod silently and check your phone to see if Jungkook has texted you at all. Of course he hasn't. Typical. But you'll find him today. You don't know exactly what went down but Jimin telling you to find him confirms your suspicions. It's enough to get you mad, your body heating and tensing up in simmering anger. You don't mind what Jungkook does to you, how he hurts your feelings without intending to, how he treats you like you're some disposable object, like you're just there always on the sidelines waiting for him. What you can't tolerate is Jungkook bringing both your friends into your situationship. What goes on between you and Jungkook should stay between you both and that's it. You can't handle him hurting Jimin as well.

There are a few places where you think Jungkook might be. You walk to the cafeteria first and search for him in the crowd. He's not there so you head to the library instead and your heart drops the moment you see him talking to some girl.

"Hey," you practically shout, suprising the people in the library and yourself as well, even. You're usually never this angry. Never address someone in such a venomous way. But you can't help but feel irked at what Jungkook's done.

He looks back and his eyes widen at your angry form. It only lasts for a second before he smirks and walks closer to you.

"Yeah?" he says, all smug and cocky.

"We need to talk."

Then you turn around and start walking out of the library, could hear Jungkook walking behind you already. Girl he was talking to all forgotten.

Surprisingly, you end up at his place.

You walk into his living room, ignoring him when he tells you to take a seat on the couch.

"Did you punch Jimin?" you ask right away, wanting to get this stupid issue over with.

You watch as his jaw clenches, tongue poking the inside of his cheek. He looks at you for a moment, eyes in slits at your hostility. "And what if I did?"

"What the fuck was that, Jungkook?" You look at him with stern eyes and could tell he's angry as well, chest rising up and down in quick breaths.

"Don't mess with my friends," he says.

"Jimin is my friend too!" you retort. "What happens between me and Jimin has nothing to do with you."

"Just—"

"Just what, Jungkook?" you cut him off. "You had no right to punch Jimin like that. Why'd you even do it in the first place?" You place your hands on your hips as you wait for him to answer you, puffing out a breath in frustration.

He looks a bit lost, eyes darting from side to side to look for an answer. The longer the silence goes, the shorter your patience gets.

"Well?" you prompt.

"Just don't, alright?" he says lamely. You roll your eyes. "You can sleep with anyone else except—"

"Who the fuck gave you the right to tell me who I can and can't sleep with?" You're almost screaming now but you don't care. This push and pull with Jungkook is making you so angry you want to punch him. You walk up to him and shove at his chest but he barely stumbles back. It just angers you even further. "I don't even give you shit when you sleep with other girls!" You continue pushing him back, practically punching his chest now. "It's not like you agreed to be exclusive. You said it yourself that you still wanted to fuck around. That was the agreement."

Jungkook grabs your wrists to stop you from pushing him. You watch him clench his jaw as he makes eye contact with you. "What if I want to take back what I said?"

"What?" you mumble dumbly, all the fight leaving your body.

He lets go of your wrists and takes a step back. You watch him pace back and forth in his room. "What if I want us to be exclusive?"

You say the first thing that comes to mind. "You're lying." He must be. He's just trying to lure you in, get him on your good side again.

He looks at you dead in the eyes and it seems like all the anger and frustration is leaving his body as well. He looks defeated and tired, and you're sure you look the same. "I'm not. I never lie to you."

"You do, Kook," you say quietly. But you're not saying it to make him feel bad. You're simply saying it because it's the truth and both of you know that.

He sits down beside you on his bed and buries his face in his hands. You watch him and try to keep your tears at bay.

"Kook, if this is some sick joke—"

"It's not," he says all of a sudden. "What if I want us to be exclusive?" he tries again.

You don't like it when he looks at you like that. Like you matter to him. Like he actually cares. Like he feels the same way as you. Looking into his eyes is too much so you turn your head away and stare at the wall instead.

"Why?" you whisper.

"Because..." he tries. "Because—"

"Because what, Kook? Suddenly you don't like the idea of me sleeping with other guys? But you can sleep with other girls? And if I say yes to you, what'll happen then?" you say harshly. "Huh? You're gonna forget about me? Just use me whenever you want?"

"It's not like that, sweetheart." He tries grabbing your hand but you shake him off. You stand up and walk to the other side of the room, suddenly wanting to be away from him. Being near Jungkook clouds your senses and makes you act irrationally.

"Don't call me that." You feel your lips trembling and you're pretty sure tears are streaming down your face. "I don't know what you want from me, Jungkook. You can't even explain why you want us to be exclusive."

He mirrors your expression, big doe eyes suddenly teary as well. "I'm sorry," he chokes out. It stays silent after that. You nod to yourself. Maybe this is the best explanation you'll get. You gather your things and mumble a goodbye. You exit his bedroom and Jungkook doesn't chase after you. At this point you don't expect him to anymore. You bump into Mingyu and Jihyo upon exiting Jungkook's apartment. They call out to you but you ignore them and speed walk out of the building.

Your heart hurts. Like, it physically hurts. You know you should feel happy with what Jungkook's just told you. It's what you wanted ever since you fell for him. But why are you pushing away? Why don't you want to believe him all of a sudden?

Because you used to. Believe him, that is. Used to look at him all starry eyed with whatever he said. Said yes to whatever he asked. Looked at him like he can achieve world peace. Something stupid of the sort. Wore your heart on your sleeve every time you were with him. Even when you weren't, now that you think about it.

You always showed your feelings through your actions. He just showed his feelings through his words.

It's different but it's the same. This time you don't believe him. Stopped believing his words some time ago. Always knew there was some lie beneath his words. Always doubted what he said. Or just brushed it over your shoulder. Never let it settle in the crevices of your heart, which is sadly just filled with him. Him, him, him.

Jungkook, Jungkook, Jungkook.

You should feel sorry for yourself for how much he's changed you without even trying to directly. You never thought you'd have to change yourself for a man. But here he is, making you doubt him and the world. You were never like this before.

You thought love was easy. That if it was the right person, everything would fall into place naturally. You didn't know love would be like this. That you'd always be cautious, always had your walls up, looking over your shoulder. That you had to fight for love, or that it hurt so much you found difficulty in breathing.

But is Jungkook the right person?

It's not something you want to answer yourself, because you'll get hurt either way. You just brush the thought aside like you do with your feelings.

You don't go back to your apartment because you know Jihyo thinks it'll be the first place you go to. Will barge in your room because she has a spare key. Is confrontational and protective of you like that, she'll ask questions right away.

But you don't want to think of what just transpired. You want to forget. Move on. Not sure if that means moving on from Jungkook entirely (you doubt you ever will) but you just want to forget about today.

So you keep walking. No destination in mind, you just let your feet walk you to wherever. Away from campus. Walking through some random park. Eventually, you end up at a Korean BBQ. Don't realize the meaning this place holds till you're seated. It's Jungkook's favorite restaurant. He brought you here twice.

Now you're here alone. You start feeling pathetic. Who the fuck goes to a restaurant like this alone? You scan the area—you see couples, friends, families eating together. But you're alone which means you have to grill the meat alone. Serve yourself. Eat by yourself.

You order two bottles of soju. Might as well be drunk while looking pathetic.

You think you've made a good decision. The food is good and you're doing everything yourself so you have no time to think about other things. Or people. Person.

You flip the meat only to see that you've flipped it too early. It's not properly cooked yet. Jungkook always knew when to flip it at the right time.

You sigh. That was what, twenty minutes of him being out of your head? At least it's progress. Somewhat.

After a while you decide you can't inhale anymore food. You'll probably explode. But a happy tummy is a happy heart. Or whatever people say. You're drunk, can't think straight. You're drunk but not stupid, so you ask Jihyo if she can pick you up.

She simply replies otw and is outside the restaurant ten minutes later. She comes in full force—which is really just Mingyu and Jimin with her in the car. It's Mingyu's car, anyway, so you expected to see him. You don't know why Jimin's with them, but you don't mind. Seeing your group of friends eases the ache in your heart even more. Even though one person's missing.

You don't mind. Well, just a little.

You smile at them as you walk to the car while Jihyo runs out of it to give you a big hug. She doesn't say anything as she rubs your back soothingly and you don't cry on her shoulder like you normally would. You're too tired of crying. Being sad.

You don't say anything as the both of you get back in the car. They don't ask about what happened and for that you're grateful. You don't want to process it yet, anyway. Don't think there's much to process. You love Jungkook and he doesn't love you back. Simple.

Your friends fill in the quiet pretty well. Jimin goes off on some tangent. You don't really know the topic. But Jihyo's interjecting from time to time. Mingyu makes a joke and it has all of you laughing. Eventually you get to Jimin's place. It's the usual hangout spot. A one bedroom apartment with a nice balcony. Not too big but not too small either. Just right for the four of you.

Usually five.

You don't know what transpired after you left Jungkook's place. How Mingyu and Jihyo saw you running out with tears down your cheeks. You don't know and you don't ask. You all watch a movie together. All fall asleep in Jimin's living room. Will complain about your backs hurting the next morning but you don't care. It's nice to be around them.

You leave Jimin's place the morning after. You, Mingyu and Jihyo leave because Jimin shoos all of you out. Says he has an exam to study for. He'll probably complain about it during lunch. Tuesdays are reserved for lunch with each other. Out on the quad, if it's sunny enough. In the cafeteria otherwise. You're not sure if Jungkook will show up. You doubt he will.

Mingyu and Jihyo walk you home. You shower and get ready for class. You move as if you're on autopilot. Shower. Get dressed. Get the right textbooks. Lock your door. Walk to class.

You put yourself in this bubble, in this false sense of security that things are ok. You'll be okay. You've been through a lot and you're still here standing, breathing, living. This? This is nothing.

You just have to give yourself time. Have to push your feelings away. Out of sight, out of mind. Don't think it works like that when it's about your feelings. Whatever. Your heart will mend itself back to place.

But what makes a heart whole? It's people, mostly. It's your friends. Your family.

Jungkook.

Always gonna be Jungkook.

And you're back at square one.

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jk (sent two weeks ago): can we talk?

jk (sent one week ago): hi

jk (sent one week ago): can we talk pls?

jk (sent five days ago): y/n?

jk (sent three days ago): im so sorry, y/n. i just want to talk. please.

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It's been two weeks since the incident and your group hasn't been complete ever since. Either Mingyu and Jihyo are with Jungkook, or with you. Things are starting to change for the worse, and it's making you sad.

At least Jimin and Jungkook have made up already. You don't know the details exactly (because you didn't ask), but you've heard that they've started hanging out again.

You and Jungkook?

You haven't replied to any of his texts. You haven't seen him for two weeks. It's weird. It feels like there's something wrong, something off. Like there's a small pebble in your shoe. Like there's a nagging voice in your head telling you to go back home because you forgot to unplug your straightener.

Like you're missing a piece of you. This hole in your chest that leaves you feeling empty.

You miss Jungkook. And not just the sex. You also miss the friendship. The intimate moments.

You don't have the courage to ask about him, to text him back or look for him. Frankly, you're still hurt from what transpired and you think you might just break if he hurts you again.

It's even raining today. The cold and gloomy weather dampens your mood even more. You baked cookies to try to cheer you up. You used to love baking but haven't done so in a while, you're not really sure why. But you needed an extra pick me up today.

You're holding the tupperware of cookies close to your chest when you walk in the cafeteria, looking for your friends. You always bake extra for them—love the looks on their faces when Jihyo counts all the cookies first and divides it accordingly, when Mingyu gets more than what he should have, when they all fight over the last piece.

When Jungkook would ask if you had extra cookies back at your place.

You don't think that'll happen anymore.

You spot your friends by a table in the corner of the cafeteria, next to a large window where the rain hits it outside in a steady patter.

You see Mingyu who's taking to Jimin, Jihyo typing something on her laptop.

And there's the missing piece, beanie-clad head hung low, tattooed hand busy writing on his notebook.

You feel your heart lurch in your chest. You stop walking, not minding that you're blocking the way.

You take deep breaths to calm your nerves. You have to see each other at some point. And also, you don't want your friends to feel awkward anymore.

You continue walking again and because the universe wants to torture you even further, the only available seat left is right across Jungkook.

"Hi," you chirp, trying to sound as cheery as you can as you sit down. Mingyu, Jihyo and Jimin all look at you in surprise, then Jimin starts talking about his day to fill in the awkward silence. The three of them try to make things go back to normal. You would've laughed at the looks of your friends' faces (sans Jungkook, because you refuse to look at him) if you didn't feel so nervous.

You join in the conversation as well, not an ounce of sadness shown on your face. You don't want your situation with Jungkook to affect the rest of your friends.

The both of you never address each other directly, but you do feel him looking at you from time to time.

You place the cookies in the middle of the table. Like old times, Jihyo counts all the cookies and tells everyone they can only have three pieces each. Mingyu eats more than three. The three of them fight over the last piece, Jimin proposing that they battle it out through rock paper scissors.

You're laughing at the scene in front of you. Good thing you saved some for yourself back at your apartment.

Amidst the chaos, you feel Jungkook lean over the table to whisper in your ear.

"You got more cookies back at yours?"

Your body stiffens at the proximity. Usually you'd say yes. He'd follow you home, make some small talk while you place cookies in a ziplock for him, then he'd hug you goodbye.

That was before the agreement. It was essentially the same routine when you started sleeping with each other, though of course he'd stay a little bit longer.

You turn your head and look at him for the first time. You will yourself not to cry, to steel your emotions.

He looks so soft, so comfy like he just rolled out of bed. He's wearing a beanie to tame his curls, and he's wearing one of his oversized shirts paired with gray sweatpants.

He smells good too. And you realize that you really, really miss him.

"Yeah," you say just as quietly. You feel your heart lighten, but your head's screaming at you to reject him.

Jungkook doesn't say anything else and neither do you. You wait for your friends to finish eating and once everyone stands up, Jungkook walks to your side. Jihyo looks at you quizzically but you just shake your head, silently telling her not to voice out anything out loud. You say your goodbyes and start walking towards your apartment, Jungkook right beside you.

It's silent. And a little bit awkward. You're thinking of what to tell him, whether he wants to talk about what happened, or he just wants your damn cookies.

You close the door behind the both of you and you immediately walk to your small kitchen, grabbing the container of extra cookies and putting some in a ziplock, like you usually do. You feel from the corner of your eyes that Jungkook's watching you, and you feel like your heart is about to burst at what he might say.

"About that night..." he starts.

You sigh and drop the cookies on the counter, turning to him to look at him directly. For the first time in a while, Jungkook looks nervous. Fingers fidgeting, shifting his weight from one foot to the other.

"You know I like you, right?" you suddenly say.

"Yeah," he answers right away without a beat of hesitation.

"Then I want to stop whatever it is we have between us."

You watch Jungkook's face for his reaction. How his eyes widen, how he clenches and unclenches his fists, how his chest rises up and down in quick beats.

"Why?" he simply asks.

You bite your lip in thought, thinking of the right words to say. "I can't let you treat me like shit anymore, Jungkook. It's not healthy for the both of us. I don't know how you feel or what you want but look," you sigh. "You punched Jimin because what? Because I slept with him?"

"What if I want us to try?"

Now it's your turn for your eyes to widen, for your heart to lurch in your chest, body seizing at the question. Acting the same way you did when he asked the first time.

"Try?"

Jungkook nods, lips pursed as he walks closer to you. "You and me. Let's try. No more fooling around with other people." He swears under his breath as he comes to stand in front of you, both arms caging you against the counter. He breathes out and rests his forehead against yours, eyes closed like he's tired.

You're tired as well. But you let him do what he wants. Like you always do.

"(Y/N)," he starts to say. "Look, I— The thought of you sleeping with someone else... It made me crazy," he laughs dryly.

You lean back and scrunch your eyebrows at him. "Jungkook, I'm not some object for you to be possessive over. You just can't—"

"I don't mean it like that," he says, looking at you directly now. Your knees would've buckled at the intensity of his gaze were it not for your body leaning on the kitchen counter. "I just mean..." He turns his head to look away. "I just mean I can't bear the thought of you being with someone else anymore. Doing the things we do."

You open your mouth in reply then close it again when you realize you don't know what to say. You've been waiting to hear this confession for so long, but now that you've heard it, you're suddenly not happy. You're unsure. Guarded. Hurt.

"Jungkook," you whisper unsurely.

He turns his head back to you, gaze right on your lips before he locks eyes with you again.

"We can try. Please," he whispers. It's weird seeing Jungkook this way, all vulnerable and desperate. Begging. Usually, you'd be in his position. Not the other way around. "I promise this time."

You feel your resolve slowly crumbling. All the walls you've built up from your last interaction with him come falling down. You should hate yourself, you really should. But you know where your heart lies. What it wants. That you'd take any inkling of love he'd give you. Even if he may not mean it. Even if it might not last forever.

"Okay," you say, and the moment you do, you see the most beautiful smile grace his face. It makes you smile as well, ignoring the little voice in the back of your head to say no. "But we start slowly, alright?"

He nods his head, smile still there, body slowly pressing against yours. He nuzzles his head in the crook of your neck and your arms automatically go around him.

"Kook," you sigh. "We should probably talk first—"

"In the morning, baby," he says in between the kisses he's placing on your shoulder. "I promise."

You play with his hair while Jungkook does what he wants. Kissing your shoulder, your collarbone, up to your jaw. It's playful at first, big smooches echoing in your apartment. Then it starts getting heated the moment you feel his tongue on your skin.

"J-Jungkook," you stutter.

He grips your waist and lifts you up so you're seated on the counter. "You drive me crazy, I hope you know that."

You smile at him and say nothing else as you grab his face towards yours, finally reconnecting your lips with his. It's soft and sensual, no sense of urgency like how you usually kiss. Like how Jungkook had somewhere to be after. Or that he wanted to get it over with.

He's taking his time now by the way his lips mold slowly against yours, like he wants to map out how you taste, how you feel, how your tongue feels like pressed against his.

You stay like that for a while, just kissing and basking in each other's presence. Jungkook holds your waist firmly like he doesn't want to let go. Frankly, you don't want him to either.

You start getting antsy so you grab the hem of his shirt and try to slip it over his head. He laughs at your impatience as you throw the shirt somewhere in your apartment, hands going to his back instantly. Scratching your nails lightly down his skin, leaving goosebumps in its wake. Then your hands go down to his pants and you start toying with his jeans.

"Sweetheart," he leans back and chuckles. He holds your face gently. "There's no need to rush, okay? We've got all the time in the world."

You lean back as well, exhaling the breath you didn't know you were holding. "Okay," you agree. "Yeah, sorry."

"Let me take my time with you," he murmurs as he leans in again to kiss you.

Jungkook does his take time. Practically kisses every inch of your skin. Takes off your clothing one by one. Fingers you slowly that you're seeing stars. Cleans you up with his mouth that you're left breathless and dizzy. Disoriented. You're both (finally) naked by the time you're in bed.

"Look at yourself, baby," he whispers right into your ear.

His words go in your ear and out the other, head too clouded with the mind blowing orgasm he just gave you. You don't understand what he's telling you to do until he gently grabs your chin and turns it to where he wants you to look. Your eyes spot your full length mirror. You see yourself, bare and sitting on the bed with your legs folded beneath you, thighs open and pussy on display. Jungkook's right behind you in a similar position, body so big and wide that you notice the stark difference of your bodies.

You see your chest heaving up and down, tits moving in sync with your breaths. Your hands are resting on his thighs. Jungkook slithers his arm to wrap around your waist. Finally, you lock eyes with him through the mirror.

"See?" he says, though you don't really know what he wants you to see. "You look so pretty. S'why I can't get enough of you."

"Oh," you breathe out.

"Yeah, oh," Jungkook chuckles lightly. "Gonna fuck you now, okay?"

You nod your head in reply and Jungkook lifts you up a bit to enter you from behind. You gasp when he fills you up right away, a perfect fit like always. He starts thrusting slowly but deeply, and you feel his tip kiss your cervix each time. You would've toppled forward were it not for his protective hold around your waist.

"Feels good," you finally moan out.

"I know, baby," he pants from behind you. "You take me so well. Like you were made for me. Like we were made for each other."

Your heart seizes at that, and all words get stuck in your throat when Jungkook picks up the pace of his thrusts, both hands going to your chest to cup your breasts.

Jungkook presses his chest to your back, practically molding himself around your body, you're starting to feel as one. He buries his face in the crook of your neck, lips on your sweaty skin.

"I might not last long," he grunts.

"Me too," you mewl. It stays silent for a while, just both your breaths filling the room. It's not like you need to say anything, to be vocal like you both usually are. It's different this time and you know Jungkook can feel it too. With the way his body is pressed to yours, to his tight hold on you like you might disappear into thin air if he lets go, how his mouth never seems to leave your skin, how your hand holds his. Like you're too overwhelmed with the events that happened today, the past few weeks—since this started. That it's all coming to an end, but an end with a new beautiful beginning. It feels overwhelming because you're entering new territory. You still have your doubts (you don't think those will ever leave), but at least now you're on the same page with Jungkook. Together. Jumping into the unknown. Even if you're not sure how this will turn out—being together with him, for real this time. If it'll end in greater heartbreak or will be your best decision yet. But you're here because you want to try. You've let him in because you want to try. Because your heart has been with his from the start, you realize.

You're brought back to reality when Jungkook brings his hand up to wrap around your throat—not tightly, a hold barely there but firm enough to know he has you in his hold. You stare at yourself again in the mirror, at Jungkook moving his hips from behind you. How you're so pressed into each other.

"Jungkook," you choke out, suddenly so overwhelmed and full of emotion. His gaze shifts from your body to your face, looking at you through the mirror so intently you feel like melting. You move your hips back to meet his thrusts, your body feeling like it's on fire and that you might snap soon. "Kook, I—"

"I know, baby," he murmured. "I know." Knows that you're close, that this moment feels different, electrifying. "I got you, okay?" he whispers so sweetly. You lean your head back against his shoulder. "Let go for me. Hm?"

"Okay," you whisper, eyes closing and focusing on doing just that. It doesn't take you much longer to reach your peak, to let go and let the pleasure take control of your body. It comes to you gradually, getting stronger and stronger, and Jungkook talks you through it all. Though you can't make out his words since everything sounds so muffled. Like you're under water and the wave's crashed.

"Gonna come too," he grunts. "You're so beautiful when you come, baby. I can't—"

Jungkook reaches his orgasm after and fills up the condom. Fucks you so slow and deep through his high it sets you off once more. Don't realize that his finger is rubbing your clit slowly. Like he wanted you to reach your high again.

"That's it," he whispers. "So good for me."

You almost fall face first on your bed, but Jungkook catches you with a hand around your waist. Moves you around the bed so that you're laying on your back with him right beside you. You curl into him instantly as his arm wraps around your shoulder. He brings his lips to the crown of your head and places a gentle kiss.

You close your eyes and listen to the beat of his heart slowing down, focusing on the rise and fall of his chest. "We need to clean up soon," you mumble after a while.

"I'll do it," he mumbles back. "Let me just— Let me catch my breath first."

You laugh lightly, your body slowly succumbing to sleep. You feel Jungkook stand up and for a second your heart seizes in your chest. You keep your eyes closed while you try to listen for any sounds of clothes being picked up, of him getting dressed.

All you hear is your bathroom door being open then closed, then you feel a damp washcloth between your legs, and only then does your heart start beating again. Jungkook's back beside you in bed a few moments later, and then you finally succumb to sleep.

..••°°°°••..°°••....••°°..••°°°°••..

An alarm wakes you up the next morning. You know it isn't yours since it's not the usual ringtone you use. You open your eyes slowly and smile sleepily at Jungkook's arm draped across your waist. You look back to see him sleeping peacefully, mouth slightly ajar. You reach your arm out to your beside table to look for the noisy phone, realizing it's Jungkook's when you bring it close to your face to turn off the alarm.

You notice he's gotten a few notifications since last night, are about to place it back on your table when a text stands out to you. Waking you up fully. Your tummy churning, your breath seizing.

You can't see the preview of the message, but the name is enough to leave you feeling dizzy.

It's from Iseul. You know her because she's one of Jungkook's regulars. And you know this because she texts him a lot, her name always popping up in his phone. Not that you secretly went through it before, but sometimes Jungkook likes showing his phone to you and your friends, either of a cool photo he took lately or some random meme.

You try to stop your thoughts from thinking of the worst, but you can't help it. You and Jungkook haven't talked much about your relationship, because there is a lot to talk about. You know it won't all be fixed in one sitting. So you don't know if they're still seeing each other. You don't know if he meant what he said last night.

You start feeling ill, your palms sweating and your head beginning to pound. You find yourself standing up, getting dressed and grabbing just your phone with you. Never mind the fact that you're leaving Jungkook yet you're in your place. That he might still be here when you're back, whenever that will be. For the first time since you started this thing with him, you leave without saying goodbye.

[ermespop]

Requests you say? Hmmm

How about something platonic with Yamaguchi or Ennoshita? Or any of the Haikyuu guys you feel comfortable writing for. I'm talking like almost sibling behavior less the fights and bickering, maybe the reader has always been by his side and functions as an opposite force to his negativity by cheering him up on her own way

I suck at asking for things, sorry /⁠ᐠ⁠｡⁠ꞈ⁠｡⁠ᐟ⁠\

YamaguchixReader (platonic)

warnings: idk, cringe? what's the pace of this? it's so empty Im upset with it

the day was nice outside, the sun was dimming and it was warm, there was still time before it got cold. school was over, now everyone was going home. the day was nice outside, until a little group of boys had to ruin it.

"hey, ugly-face, where's your bodyguard? did he get tired of you?" one of the snotty brats said.

well, thank goodness tsukki wasn't there to hear that. too bad he wasn't there to tell them off either...

"that's... that's n—" Yama cringed at his own quietness, can't even defend himself, wow. how useless.

"hey now, why don't ya ask me that? I'm standin' right 'ere." a kid spoke up to defend him.

'ah, what?'

she had a flowy, flowery blouse and some fresh shorts, looking like the little lady she is. and with the confidence to defend someone in need like a little lady would.

"what're ya? dumb? I'm telling ya t'leave him alone!" she ran after the kids, kicking up dirt and barking at them. she stood with her chin high, proud of scaring the meanies; very lady like.

'is she crazy or something?' the green haird boy sweatdropped. 'she better not have rabies… that's something tsukki would say'.

"hey, sparkly!" she turned around and faced the shy boy.

'is that supposed to be me?' "h-hello, please don't bother me too" the boy hid behind his backpack.

she tilted her head a little too far to the right, it looked like it was a bout to drop to the floor. "what's yer name, or do ya like sparkly?"

with curious eyes he peeked from behind his bag, "i'm yamaguchi tadashi".

"nice t'meet ya, dashi" her smile was so bright he thought he would go blind.

"um, yeah," he smiled, letting his bag fall to his feet. "nice to meet—"

"PRINCESS!" a man called from outside the school gates, "c'mon, we gotta run to surprise mommy!"

"ah, sorry," she bowed and started walking backwards. "see ya tomorrow, dashi!" she yelled, waving at her new friend.

author's note: I'm sorry I got carried away and ended up writing something completely different from what you asked😢 AKDHAKDHAK not that I like this piece of poopoo anw this took way longer than it should have for something I'm not satisfied with :'|

[kunikinnie]

hii could i request hc s for yosano, kunikida and chuuya with a s/o who has a small child (like 4yo) just lots of fluff kinda found family vibes (completely ok if you don’t wanna write it tho, you can just ignore it i’d totally get it)

a/n: sorry this took such a loooong time but no i did not ignore this this is sO CUTE HAHA i don't usually write for Yosano but i gave it a shot anw tho it might be ooc :')

with an s/o who has a young child

featuring: Yosano, Kunikida, Chuuya x GN!Reader

Yosano Akiko

She's the quickest to come to a decision when it came to entering both your lives. Perhaps it's her age or simply her disposition, but taking care of the two of you isn't a hurdle for her at all.

She loves teasing and spoiling you but especially your child. This is why they love her so much that an outsider might think that she was the biological mother. They're that close.

Going out to buy stuff is their your favorite activity together. Whether it's just groceries or more clothes, home decor, and toys, the three of you will go at the same time.

One of her qualities that was extremely useful when dealing with your child was her patience. It's probably not just due to her background as a doctor, but her life experience is just a huge factor altogether.

When it comes to protectiveness with the small stuff, she's not as intense as the other two on this list. Of course the child's safety is of utmost priority but injuries and the like are normal and, in her opinion, necessary to build their character. (And also there's her ability when it comes to it, so the confidence goes up tenfold)

She's not afraid to be more openly affectionate with either of you. She knows you two need it and nothing makes her happier than seeing you two happy and loved.

Kunikida Doppo

He was pretty hesitant to start a relationship with you at first. It's not that he doesn't like that you have a child, it's more of he's not sure if he's ready to play the role of a father as well. But he knew there was no going back once he's formed an attachment to your child.

It was easier to win over the child than it was you for some reason. As much as he likes children, he wouldn't say he's an absolute natural at handling them. It was a big relief and advantage for him, then, to have them on his side.

Theirs is a pretty standard father-child relationship - not that it's a bad thing. Kunikida is 100% dad material even if he's not quite at that age yet. He's quite protective, lectures (nicely and softly) often, etc.

His teacher side will come out as well. Explaining the world to them is essential for their development (or so he says). Plus children are naturally inquisitive so he answers their questions adequately most of the time. Goes in depth with them, too.

He's the least likely to go on frequent one-on-one dates with you. Don't get me wrong, he loves you very much, but compared to the other two he's more than content to spend with you two as a family. It's also because he's so concerned that something might happen to your child that he'd want to be by their side as much as possible. (Ofc just tell him if you want to go on dates more often he'll definitely listen)

Overall, he does his best to be a good partner and father. He may be strict with you at times, but that's only because he loves you two so much.

Nakahara Chuuya

Similar to Kunikida, he was worried that you being in a relationship with him might not be the best for you and your child. But his mind changed when he was once welcomed into your loving home: what emerged was the overwhelming desire to protect it.

Hence the spoiling. Lots of spoiling. Whether it comes to buying you two things or giving in easily to your demands, it's just so hard for him to say no. He doesn't want either of you to go through the poverty he went through.

He's such a sweet guy that I can't even begin to describe it. Every present and favor he does for you is done thoughtfully, and he definitely puts so much effort in becoming the lover you've always dreamed of.

Even if he doesn't visit often due to work, it only makes every moment more special. Your child looks forward to being with him (even if only to sleep together). They love sleeping on top of him to prevent him from leaving too soon and most of the time, it works.

You love seeing them play together. Chuuya's good at it, but most of all his inner kid comes out and it's such an adorable sight you can't help but let them indulge in it. The best part is watching him try to mind his language around them. The one time he let it slip and your kid copied him, he was mortified (while you were thoroughly entertained).

The mafia life is far away from your home. He rarely ever talks about it let alone think about it whenever he's with one or the both of you. During these times he's just himself - not a mafia executive, not the boss's underling - he's just Chuuya.

taglist: @irethepotato, @kisara-16reblogs, @thatdazaikin, @dazaee, @menshusband, @celestair, @bloobewy

[yonemurishiroku]

Give me a list of all your Nico ships,I don't care how long it is or even who you ship him with,I want to know (Favourite Nico Ship?)

Yeah I want to know too.

No seriously. At this point I can't even keep track of my pairing list. It also doesn't help that I can practically eat everything that has Nico in it - regardless of... everything else. Jesus Christ.

But since you asked, I gotta try my best. I guess it's also a good chance for me to wrap up my own messy thoughts too---

Welp. Let's see. A list of Nico ships I actively contribute in because I have no idea what I know of at this point:

Solangelo, Jasico, Percico: have written about/ have plans to write about

Nico/Alabaster: tons of ideas and headcanons but have yet to decide on a writing plan. I could kill for them tho.

Thanatos/Nico: written one fanfic. Would love to write more but I run out of ideas

SELFCEST NICO. I'M SERIOUS FIGHT ME.

Eros (Cupid)/Nico: once unhealthily enjoyed making Love-you-like-an-enemy headcanons. Still do.

Erebus & Nico: I wouldn't say this as a ship... unless the term 'platonic ship' exist. I prefer to think of them as... soulmates? What do you call two lonely souls seeking each other's company?

Now to the pairings which I leech from others' content, meaning: consume but yet to contribute

Magnus/Nico: It exists and it's true and it's AWESOME

Pollux/Nico: There're at least two fics out there that had me in a chokehold

Child of Persephone x Nico ahsdjkahdkjahdka it was just one fic C'MON

Cecil Markowizt/Nico: Again. ONE fanfic. And it was Portuegeues.

Lukico

Or just platonic in general because there's potential and no one's seeing it so I'm taking it.

primordial god! chronos x ananke! nico courtesy of @avaetin. I fell so hard for it and I'm not even ashamed

Poseidon/Nico: all's Happy's fault. Like. Really.

Nipollo ajdhsajkda Brig shares the blame ok fine I'm crazy about it too and just bc Apollo's a hoe----

Anubis/Nico: thank you @/LapisLazuli13 on AO3

Dionysus/Nico but only if it's by @/robindrake93 on AO3. They have a distinguished figure for Dionysus and I'm neck deep in it

Minos/Nico: shout out to @/silenttoad on AO3 because it's the softest thing ever omfg 😭😭😭 Just for the record, their Minos is worlds different from the canon one. He's actually really nice.

Tons of crossover ships: Arthur/Nico (legitimately my RELIGION), Ciel Phantomhive/Nico,... That time I say Nezha and Nico could be friends. Like I don't... quite ship them but akdsaksaj this proves that you should never hope anything from me

I'm sure this is not all of them... I mean. I have read more. And probably forget a bunch...

I wouldn't say I have a favourite ship... well there're times that I would invest more in a specific pairing, but that doesn't mean I like other ships any less. I have 5 drafts for Jasico and then I have a Nicobaster week and then a Percico-marathon. Generally speaking though, I would say I usually... prioritize (?) the rarepairs. Since you know, the canon one and the more popular ones alr have people building the empire for them. I might be the only one invested in a Son of Persephone with Nico, for example, so I tend to gravitate towards it, in hopes of contributing a small brick for this little tent compared to their nation; or sometimes it's just because there's someone else more invested in me and their dedication fuels me (yes you @drksanctuary).

Anw I hope this gives you an insight into how wild of a being I am LMAO. I'm a proshipper. I have no qualms when it comes to enjoying fiction - as long as I enjoy it. Be free. Trust me.

As I've said, I forgo everything when it comes to Nico. He's my exception. He's always right. If he's wrong I have a few words to Rick------ jk lol or maybe not---

[denournent]

Hello!! Love love love your Girl!!Charles/Carols fic ❤️ I have reread it multiple times. I can’t stop thinking what will happen between Charles and Carols. Will Carols try to get Charles’ contact from Lando and ask Charles out for a proper date? Will Charles initiate the contact with the excuse to return Carols’ coat? Will Charles completely forget what happened?

Please please please I hope you can write more

Hello, first of all I'm glad you like my fic (^ ◡ ^) Truthfully, I want to write more but I'm really slow and I tend to worry much about my english lol. Also, if any of you are architecture or civil engineering major please say hi to me because I have questions, the research kinda drives me crazy (ᵕ—ᴗ—) I also need to finish my ghost in the shell au fic and werewolf carlos soo idk when will I post another fic

fic spoiler(s) under

I dont' even remember if Carlos lended Charlie his coat lmao. Thanks for reminding me! Anw, Lando gives Carlos fake number (a group therapy number or sth) , so Carlos can't contact Charl and just Miserable.

They meet again like 2 weeks later after Charl visiting her fav professor; Prof. Vettel. Carlos offers to drop her home and Charles just like, well, no wonder Lando says everyone will fold after they see your car because wow Ferrari.

Charles is hesitant to start anything with Carlos, because Lando warns her and Charles is worried that Carlos will leave after they sleep together soo.... good luck Carlos!

Also, I need to add this. Carlos is a smoker, yes? Charles hates it but she can't say anything because what are we then again? So whenever Carlos wants to smoke she will like, I think I (or you) have to leave now. Carlos is confused, but then while they are eating outside they meet Lando. Charles excuses herself because Carlos is going to smoke. After Charles left Lando is like, go on, smoke! VERY EAGERLY Then Carlos understands! oH I SHOULD STOP SMOKING!! Well, at least not when Charles is around, but he is trying his best trust me!

Also @ everyone please don't hesitate to send me ask. If you're worried about your identity, no worries I always prefer to answer my ask privately. Have a nice day, everyone!

[sueske]

Please talk about what other issues you have with Kakashi! the Naruto fandom loves him so much but personally I think he was a terrible leader of team 7. also he was a walking hypocrite when it came to lecturing Sasuke (plus he pretty much ignored Naruto and Sakura as they went off like Sasuke to be trained by the Sannin instead to get stronger and was pretty AWOL in their training days) Plus there was that whole guilt trip of him thinking Sasuke was obligated to return Sakura’s selfish confession to him…..ick

well idk if I wanna do a whole proper analysis on kakashi, those take time to write, and I'd rather devote that time elsewhere.

I said that and I wrote quite a bit anw but it's very rambly and disorganised so you've been warned:

he did some things all right and other things not so good. personally I just don't get what the hype with him is beyond the surface level stuff. kakashi failed all of his previous teams from becoming genin so he didn't have much experience when it came to teaching 12 year olds. anyways, kakashi taught team 7 how to walk up trees/chakra stuff and taught sasuke the chidori because his battle was coming up. from my pov it's fine he prioritised sasuke, especially to also keep an eye on him at all times considering what with orochimaru and all. he did find ebisu to train naruto and the whole jiraiya thing happened etc. did sakura express any interest in training like naruto did? no lol. once they all went off to their respective sanin though I don't see why he would've butted in. all in all he kept his team alive and taught them some stuff. he later on came up with the shadow clone jutsu training method for naruto which was successful. so he did some things all right. he was flakey as a teacher overall but not everyone can be gai sensei 😔

but more about the emotional aspect of kakashi's 'teaching'. kakashi is a hypocrite about the 'comrades/trash' thing like I talked about in that previous ask. when tobi told them the truth about the massacre kakashi ordered naruto to keep it secret. his rationale was trying to figure out if what he said was the truth or not. and when confronted with sasuke, who said he'd killed danzo and his plans for killing the rest, kakashi just said that he'd stooped so low and that sasuke's just a product of the times they live in. but. comrades. trash. kettle. black? forget trying to talk to sasuke and finding a way around it (like naruto did LOL), his first actions were to kill him. kakashi himself acknowledged it was the times they live in that created sasuke, but why try and fix that when it's easier to just kill Sasuke? If Kakashi's ninja way is to never leave his comrades behind then what does that make him? Non-recyclable trash? As I said before, Kakashi should've clarified:

'leaving ppl behind means u r worse than trash (so you shouldn't) but only if it ultimately still suits konoha's (or my) agenda.'

well, kakashi doesn't really try to understand his students (like with sasuke). sakura is another prime example of that. kakashi also told sakura in part 1 that things between sasuke and naruto were fine to comfort her, and later lamented the fact he told her those words because they actually weren't. because he couldn't see sasuke's intentions. guess playing orphan olympics didn't work out for him too well. and then at the end of vote2, kakashi says things are finally back to how it was. I'm not sure about the Japanese translation, if he means 'they' or 'things', but WHAT? no. things can't go back to the way they were. ever. if by going back he means the trio not actively killing each other than sure lol, but so much has changed, namely naruto and sasuke have changed. there's no going back to the way it was. and of course the way kakashi tries to butter sakura up to sasuke. no one is falling for that but nice try. he did more defending sakura's feelings towards sasuke than validating any of sasuke's own feelings lol.

I also don't particularly like the way he parted with sasuke at the end either. 'NoRmAlLy U ShOuLD bE iN pRiSoN' like BOY. SHUT UP. SHUT UP SHUT UP U PROBS SELF-INSERT INTO JIRAIYA'S INCEL PROTAG PORN BOOKS. BYE.

[thenamesmobu]

"An Unfortunate Encounter"

[2/2] Forced Showdown

Devin's POV

DEAR GOD, I AM SO SORRY THAT THIS IS WEEKS LATE JXJSHD AAAAACCKKK WRITING FIGHT SCENES IS SO HARD. I'M SORRY CALLIX HDJDH. Aaaa I'm dividing this oart into two because holy CRAP is it tedious to write. Anw, CW//: this fic contains violence because y'know, two guys beating the life out of each other. Aa enjoy the fic<3

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A fight it is then.

BOOM! Beams of light were blasted towards the intruder. The blast had caused abit of an explosion, obscuring what aftermath it had cause. As the dusts settles, Devin waits to see the results of his attack, expecting the entity to stay there injured. The two large pair of hands shrunk by a little as they follow its user to investigate the aftermath.

...Nothing?

How is that possible? He could've sworn he hit the target precisely. Two people can't hallucinate the same thing, right? As the Narrator continues to observe the after math, he suddenly felt a gust of wind behind him. As he turned, he was kicked hard to the side and was knocked back quite the distance.

"Blasting someone who'd just arrived at your doorstep wasn't a nice way of greeting them" The intruder commented.

The Narrator grunted as he gets up on his feet, with his yellow orange hands assisting him. His orange hands disappeared after he was knocked back. "You..." He was irritated.

"Why don't we settle down and talk, hm?" The intruder offered with a sarcastic smile. "If you don't hurt me, then I won't hurt you–" Just then, he was cut off by the impact of a printer crashing into him. "Stop playing with your tricks!" The Narrator yelled, now with yellow hands added appearing with the yellow orange ones. He flexed his orange hands to summon an array of box cutters and aimed it at the intruder. With a snap of a finger, they were launched towards the target.

The intruder saw this and began to dodge his attacks as best as he could. Though he managed to get some bits of cuts here and there, he was mostly unscathed. "Aren't you a rude host?" The intruder taunted. He smirked at the sight of his attacker growing irritated after his taunt. The Narrator growled in frustration. The intruder's smirk grew wider as he stares at him. Though as he continues to do so, he could see an orange glow coming from behind him and hearing something charging up. The intruder evaded it again, but was hit by a punch as he dodged. The Narrator had done that on purpose to distract him.

Nathan was pushed back by the punch, but then he landed on a soft surface. For a split second, he thought he was safe, until he feels the soft surface squeeze him. It was one of the hands. It lifted him up and brought him near to Devin with his orange hands behind him. "You're a new one" He said. "I've never met any anomalies such as you, but that won't discourage me in getting rid of you" Right as he said his words, the familiar orange beams began to charge up. Nathan refused to go down so easely.

Devin suddenly felt his hand shaking for unkown reasons. It wasn't even a second later that his hand was pierced from the inside from the individual that he was holding. A dozen black inky spikes stabbed through his hand. The shocking pain sent waves through his body. All of the existing hands disappeared as Devin clutches his wrist and fell to his knees. He grunted in pain as he realized too late that he had let the intruder go. Looking up in horror, he was immediately kicked in the guts, he was thrown up in the air. Before he could process it, he was violently kicked again towards the ground.

The landing was horrible, he was slammed face first onto the concrete floor. "Are you done with your playfighting?" Nathan asked, he sounded exhasperated by this nonsense. "All I ask from you are directions, how hard is it for you to fufill such—" BAM. A hand slammed right from above Nathan's head. No warnings, no sound, it just appeared. Slowly and shakily lifting himself up from his rough landing, Devin stood up. "Don't think I would fall so easely..." Devin said in between his puffs of breath. Before he could continue, he took notice of the black substance oozing from his hand. It formed a puddle surrounding his hand, it then quickly formed what looks like a jaw and SNAPPED close. Devin shoutted in pain as he clutches his wrist again.

The hand that once smashed the intruder disappeared. Devin grunted in pain and fell to his knees, he slowly turned his gaze to in front of him with hate in his eyes. The intruder's body was contorted, broken, and damaged. It stood up, the cracks of its body bled out the black substance that bad chomped his hand. Its eyes were rolled back, it formed an eerie smile that drooled the same substance. As if repairing itself, the once bled out and spreaded substance that covered the floor began to gather itself and reformed the body as best as it could. Once all the goo were back together, it looked as if it was ready to fight again.

Oh, so they've made a new model I see

"FINE THEN! If THAT is how you want to play, then SO BE IT!"

The figure dashes towards Devin with its arms now morphed into a pair of scythes, ready to slice Devin into pieces. The man thought fast and clamped himself with a pair of hands to protect himself. He grunted at the harm recieved by the attack. Now airborne with a big hand lifting him up in the air, Devin is taking this fight far more seriously now. With one hand in front of him, he summons the orange hands behind him and blasted his Sunbeams at the intruder. It evaded the attack swiftly as it makes its way reaching Devin. With the yellow hands following the intruder in pursuit. It slammed itself onto the ground whilst forming a fist, a multitude of office drawers began to protrude from the ground and it chases after intruder. Inspite of the attacks being sent, it manages to full on leap into the air and took a hold onto the hand that was carrying Devin. It stabbed through one of the hands that clamped him up again.

Devin lost his balance and fell. His yellow hands cushioned his fall. When he looked up, he saw that his two other pairs were being tied up by the intruder. They were restrained by a web of the black substance. The web tightens, further constraining the hands. Devin feels the pain in his own hands and shouted again in pain. The two pairs then vanished. Whatever this thing was, it turned its attention back to Devin. He braces himself.

The intruder shoots its own arm like a grappling hook to reach him. Devin blocked the attack with one of his hands that he just summoned, making the Intruder reel it in and smashing itself againts it.

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I'm so tired bruh💀

Nathan belongs to @callixspod

[dojae-huh]

I've been binge-watching all NCT MVs, stages and dance practice videos, again :p Doyoung really has something that intrigues everytime I watch though he is not my bias. I have a soft spot for him since I watched some of NCT life seasons but I follow him just lil bit then. I have the complex that I can't leave the ones that I have so much time invested to watch them, even when sometimes I find other members much more intrigue me.

Ermm, when is the exact moment that you know Do is your ult bias and just focus on him? You are keen to observe him mature as an artist but also as a person, I mean both on cam and off cam. You must have a strong faith in who he is and what he gonna offer next I guess... Sometimes I realize that I am toxic to expect my biases to go the way I want and achieve this n that, kind of living by proxy mental. That's frustrated! Do you ever expect anything from being a Do bias? For me I think I am about to give up on the idol-fangirl relationship.. I mean I would still support them but I want to observe many other things besides that I don't notice be4 instead of screaming and crazily watch tons of videos with guilty pleasure. I admire people that can observe everything and offer ideas on things in general, hmm like the stuff you write about SM and kpop idols. Anw, thank you for your contents and sorry for this long confusing question. Thank you again!

That's normal. When humans invest a lot in something, they have hard time abandoning it. It's a problem in business. Most can't terminate a project in progress even if it becomes evident it will fail and won't be profitable (so it's better to drop it and stop spending money on it).

Life hack. If you'll make people help you somehow, they will be more ready to care about you, heh. You will make them be invested in you. Literally.

Anyhow.

You can take a break with your biases though? And comeback with renewed interest after some time. The good thing about k-pop is that content is saved on platforms. No problem in catching up after a few years. The time you invested in them won't become a waste of time in any case, your gained knowledge about them won't dissapear.

When I asked what should I watch to get to know NCT, I was directed to Idol Weekly with NCT2018. I'd already singled out Jaehyun, Doyoung and Taeyong after watching a few MVs and dance practices, but I hadn't memorised their names yet. By the end of the programme I was sure Doyoung will be my bias. You can read this tag for more info.

I usually "fall in love" very quickly and don't get dissapointed. Eventhough it happens when I warm up to celebreties/fictional characters with time, after getting to know them better, such cases never turn into a new obsession. So Doyoung wasn't an exception. And the fact that in Wish I like the members, but noone hooked me, most probably mean that there won't be a second Doyoung. On the other hand, it's nice to have a whole group to be appealing for a change.

Hm, eventhough I want Doyoung to achieve this and that, I'm still a passive observer, so I won't be dissapointed with any outcome. I'm an admirer, not an "idol-producer". Doyoung does, I observe and marvel. Whatever he wins in life are his achievements. I get from him the process, the journey to those mountain picks. A life story of an ambitious person and an artist. There are no other types of parasocial relationships and co-dependencies.

If you understood your problem of an unhealthy fan-idol relationship (living vicariously through someone is bad), you have the power to change yourself and your attitude. The first step to solving an issue is a recognition of the said issue. Likewise, if you feel like you outgrew fangirling, then move on to newer pastures.

Eventhough I can safely call myself a stan, I'm an active participant in the fandom, my interest in NCT (and Doyoung) is supported by much more than a pretty face and a nice voice. It's showbusiness, it's social dynamics, leadership, stage outfits, concept development, Korean culture and mentality, Korean variety, the fandom itself, afterall. Doyoung is the White rabbit that leads me to Wonderland where I encounter all other interesting things.

As for content. I skip "empty" content and make sure to watch "informative" programmes. Those that will show me the members from a new side, or provide me with a better understanding of them.

Pick up a topic that is either very interesting to you (brings satisfaction, joy) or can be very useful to you (develop you) and dig. If anything, you'll practice active search and choosing your own direction. In this age of algorythms offering us stuff and deciding for us, it's a needed skill. How to be proactive and be a manager of one's own life.

Like Doyoung-sonsennim.

[onlyjaeyun]

baby first off, the fuck you mean you stayed up till 5? ily and your writing but don't spoil your health like that darling :(( anw the whole chap was bomb?!

jayke back to black baby! fuma is so nice i love his characterization here 💕 and yayyy hoonie's here !!! her expressive eyes huh bud? he pays that much attention? man's is love already? (jk jk ik they still have a long way to go🤭) and ahh he's so honest wtf?? him wrapping his hand around her throat? calling her baby??? silly little ice queen???? oh kill me😵 her calling him pretty face 🤨 babe isn't that what you called fuma???? hmm??🤨 stop she's so cute, "cocky bastard" one min and "please, i need more" the next like i see ya my girl🤭😆🫣 ahhhh they kiss tooo??? dom!reader isn't my fave bc i can't relate to that character but it still was really good to read like the aftercare too? hoonie decided to man up finally i see🤨🤭

also the way you keep insisting that they were "only lil' kids when the big thing happened" makes me super scared like, what're you gonna do???😰 i hope it won't make me cry lol (im a big phat liar i actually hope it makes me cry cuz i love that shit)

ensies? that so cute 😄 i like to call them the hypens bc it is cute and cool at the same time, just like they are 💕

am gonna reply to asks i haven't had the time to get back to so these will be about previous chapters too!!! again, so sorry for my lack of interaction babies, i've been super busy but i love love love reading your guys' messages so much and am always so grateful for every word you send me 🥺🥺🥺💕🩷🫧

thank you so much for this baby, i still can't believe i really uploaded that chap at 5 am because what the fuck 😭 ngl i did struggle a little to recover from that BUT don't worry!!!!! im so used to messy sleeping schedules atp i dont mind at all!!

yk i had to get jayke back to black along with seung because i will be introduced black hair!CH!hoon very soon and it was needed, so happy you guys liked it as much as me 😚

omg i never realised i had y/n refer to fuma as pretty face too so dont blame my girl blame me 😭😭

STOP IM GONNA CRY VEKDNELF I LOVED THEIR DIALOGUES SO MUCH AND KNOWING YOU GUYS LIKED IT TOO MAKES ME SO HAPPY!!!!

hoon giving the bwre minimun of aftercare shouldn't be this celebrated and praised but its a huge step for him so we take what we get amen 🤕

honestly the reason why i always mention their age is because the reason behind their fall out was a HUGE misunderstanding plus a bit of a game from a third party and thats why i need you guys to know why they never takked about it: they were just babies and just didnt know how to communicate and as they grew okder that lack of communication turned into full blown hatred 😭 i do think i will cry but honestly idk if it'll be enough to get to you guys 🫠

ensies, ipeunies, hypens – i LOVE THEM ALL THEY REALLY AR EMY BABIES :(

[jentlemahae]

do you have any advice for self discipline? idk if you struggle with procrastination as well sometimes but you seem to be on top of your studies (i think in some of your tags you once mentioned that you finished all your assignments very early) i have very important exams coming up (if i fail them i'll have to repeat a whole year of school) and even though i know how important it is for me to study i just can't bring myself to even start.. i'm just paralyzed with fear bc i've already wasted so much time and it's impossible to catch up/revise everything now bc i'm running out of time. i think the sheer amount of material i have to study scares me off even more but the longer i wait the worse it gets obviously. i just hate that even though i am very aware of all this i just can't stop self sabotaging i hate myself so much 😭 another problem is that i'm such a perfectionist so if i know i can't do it perfectly i don't even bother but at this point i just need to pass bc i definitely don't want to repeat a year.. sorry this got so long and i know ultimately i just need to sit my ass down and study bc i'm the only one to blame (i had plenty of time to study these past weeks but i just rotted in my room 🙃) but you always are so sweet and insightful so i thought maybe you could give me some helpful advice? hope you have a nice day 💌

hiii! 🫶🏻 so i’ll preface this by saying that i’ve just always been used to having to do well in my studies so atp idek if it’s self discipline or more just a habit ? 🥲 but i also struggle with the same things sometimes bcs there are times where i put off studying certain things bcs im scared of failing TT so these are thing that imo help me!!

i always recommend ppl to repeat the stuff that u have to study/memorize out loud to someone bcs i think that helps u retain information, but i think that doing so by setting certain days to do so also helps in giving some organization! for instance i always repeat whatever im studying out loud to my mom (via zoom lol) and we do so by deciding to see each other on a certain day and on that day i have to repeat out loud to her a certain amount of chapters while she looks at my notes to check that im making sense. and we usually meet 2-3 times for that before my exam so first time i have to say half of the content, second time the other half, and third time i go through everything. does this make sense? and u can do it with whoever u want (parent, grandparent, friend, etc)! (tho tbh studying with a friend has never worked for me :p)

advice 2 sounds a bit odd and ik it doesn’t work for most but to me it works 🫠 when im in similar situations where i have So Much to study, first i read through all my notes* and then i take out a piece of paper and i write by hand** everything i remember. this way i see the main topics in the material and i go back to my notes and add some more important details to what ive written. this works especially well with courses where u just wanna pass and u don’t really care about the grade bcs this way u have a decent grasp on the main body of the course content! (**important to do this by hand bcs handwriting makes u retain info easier + *i always write summaries of the course content and the course progresses bcs then i know i’ll have my work cut out for me for the exam)

when u sit down to sit, put stuff that distracts u far away from where u are !! i kinda get distracted by listening to music lmao so when i study i make sure to put my headphones away from desk (lol), and then i hide my phone from my eyesight so then i can work for like an hour straight with no distractions 🤷🏻‍♀️

this is what comes to mind at the moment! anw best of luck for the exam !!! i know exams can be daunting when u are a perfectionist (😵‍💫) so i am rooting for u !!!!! 🥰💖🫂 as we say in italian, in bocca al lupo :)

[beautyofsorrow]

Would you ever write a Fix-it fic for snw? I've seen them be really popular in some sad fandoms but in others you can't hardly find any. I'm impartial to them but I just noticed that for all the suffering everyone goes through there isn't a ton of those in the ao3 anw tag.

[knocks on wood and spins around three times chanting to the winds that this doesn’t come back to haunt me next year] there’s not really much that i feel the need to “fix”? i am not a fan of the kirk/la’an stuff but i prefer to ignore that entirely rather than waste my energy on it. not a fan of chapel/spock either but i can do things with that in a way that is interesting and fun. same with pike’s accident—i may not ever write it, but there are ways to read disability joy and disability justice into his future in a way that still complies with canon

so—for now, no probably not!! it is really nice to have a canon i enjoy splashing around in so much. i’ve written for canons where i felt the need to fix so much and tbh that was exhausting. you do enough of that and it’s like girl just get a new fandom. anyway SNW has been a very nice break 🙂

would you ever write…?

[luvvixu]

well i really liked your story, I understood your characterization of satoru too, because there are people who are like that irl and it's okay to have characters who make mistakes and have faults but the only thing i didn't like is you using psychology as a way to defend satoru. Nothing justifies cheating, be it physical or emotional, and here it's both, that's just shitty, regardless of their coping mechanisms, it's ultimately a choice, and it's morally wrong, and I can't stand when people defend cheaters or let them get what they desire. So no thank you for your story....

hello, my dear anon!!

before all, thank you sm for sharing your thoughts and appreciation for this story! this could really helped me flourish the story further because comments like this are actually taken to make the plot improved.

now let's break down your concern. i actually made it clear that i do not tolerate cheating nor any damages shown in the story (especially in real life) because i, myself, have known these kind of things and the feeling is really devastating!

and wait, let me also made myself clear about this one. it's not my intention to defend the behaviors of satoru in the story and make it appear like i am on his side by throwing some psychology or philosophy stuffs that backs up the idea of me seemingly siding the cheaters or any damages happened in the story. what my point on that part (the psychology and philosophy stuffs) is just me explaining the root cause for their actions and i intended to give them explanations that were actually part of the story.

and if the psychology and philosophy stuffs would affect the reading experience of my dear readers, then i would not hesitate to lessen them and only made it minimal. by minimal means, it was just like a normal and smooth writing like we've all seen across the writing industry because i just want to have my dear readers to enjoy their leisure time while they are in my circle of writings. that is actually my purpose why i opened an account here (me being happy that my writings are getting recognized is a bonus part!)

but if i did not imply my stand well, then i would be delighted to restate my stand about cheating and how i don't tolerate that stuffs both in fictional and nonfictional world. with or without psychology or philosophy involved, i would never put myself in the side of dirty cheaters regardless of their reason. adultery is adultery and adultery is bad. cheating is cheating and cheating is bad.

anw, pls pardon me and forgive me if this concern causes you or anyone a sense of discomfort. i will be firm and be accountable for my words and i would face the consequences if there's any.

now, as i close this paragraph, allow me to thank you once again for reaching out your thoughts to me and i thank you too because this enable to make myself clear. so, my dear anon, if you still have any concerns, questions, or anything, please do not hesitate to approach me and i will respond to you however i can.

thank you sm and have a nice day! 💗🌷

[kunikinnie]

Hi!

I love your writing, they are so sweet and in character.

Could I request a fic with Poe where the reader (not neceserally in a realationship yet) reads one of his books, and after finishing it he gives it back and inside there are a bunch of pieces of papers full of illustrations/fanarts of the book?

If you don't want to write it or you don't have time, that's okay too. Don't owerwork yourself. Have a nice day!

a/n: thIS IS SO SWEET omg I remember when @amenemisa drew a Kunikida based on one of my drabbles adfjaldfkja anw here's some pure fluff!!

note: GN!reader is NOT in a relationship yet

There was nothing special about a nervous and restless Poe pacing around his room for God knows how long. Anything and everything that could potentially trouble him could trigger such a reaction, although lately the list has been significantly reduced to only two topics - namely, his writings and his crush.

That is why in this current episode, his anxiety has unfortunately doubled in magnitude.

A few weeks ago, you had shown interest in reading one of his very own works (not that it was a rare occurrence - in fact you've repeated yourself dozens of times) and were about to return his book and share your thoughts on it.

Both the panic and excitement were so intense that Poe thought he'd literally split into two different people: the serious writer and the hopeless romantic. The former was ready to brood over possible criticism while the other was simply happy to see you in person again. The only thing the two halves could agree on was the stress from receiving anything, let alone a review on his work from you.

A servant knocked on his door and announced that a guest had arrived, but before he could mention the identity of the person Poe had already scurried to the receiving room.

"Can't believe you had your decor changed just for Y/N..."

Instead of you, a nonchalant young man surveying the room was comfortably lying on the couch.

"It's good to see you, Ranpo-kun," Poe genuinely gladly greeted him. "But what are you doing here now, of all times?"

"Yeah, about that..." He sat up and handed over a familiar leather-bound hardcover book. "Something came up so Y/N asked me to bring this to you. The review's inside."

All the fire from until that moment's fervor had been dampened with a mere few words. Still, just holding the physical manifestation of your thoughts prevented from the disappointment from setting in completely.

He opened the book to where not one, but a few sheets of loose paper were stuck in between. Upon noticing that some of the papers did not contain words, he frantically looked for the one that did explain or summarize whatever you wanted to say. It was a small sticky note at the back of the front cover.

I really enjoyed this! Couldn't help myself so I hope you don't mind :)

That alone tugged a small but stupid smile on his face. However, further examination of the other papers nearly made his heart burst.

The characters, key moments were familiar... was this fanart of his work...? Drawings? For his work? No one has ever done this before...

"Looks like you'll need more that a moment so I'll just go straight to your game- wait, don't cry on my cape! I just washed it!"

tagging: @stygianoir

[ginnsbaker]

• ‌It's truly not surprising that R cheated on Lena and I find it sad that we're all kinda expecting it. I said it so many times in the past that R wasn't ready to be in a relationship with anyone, not even with Lena who she once had something with before Wanda. I hated that it had to end like that, but it was inevitable considering how unstable R is. The love between R and Wanda didn't just magically disappear. R wasn't able to process all her emotions due to her overwhelming pain and anger. Realistically, it happens. We all do stupid stuffs when our emotions are all over the place. Well, i'm glad R told Lena right away, but not the fact that she did it after Lena woke up, THAT'S WAY TOO CRUEL 😭.

• ‌I'm beyond angry with R, I don't even have enough words to describe how bad it is. I feel like I need to physically appear in this story to slap R myself. I'm very serious, btw.

• ‌You have no idea of how much damage you've done to me!!! I was severely devastated when I read the conversation with Nat. It was the most overwhelming part for me because Nat was my first ever favorite character in the entirety of MCU. She is my og, the main reason why I got to this whole mcu mess. I love Nat and Wanda with my whole heart! They're both my girls, always. So, for her to say "I loved you", "you just betrayed me, like I meant nothing", “So, no, we’re not friends. Not anymore.” The usage of past tense was already the final straw for me, but to end it by saying we're not friends anymore? just total doomed of my existence. I wanted to vanish completely, without trace.

• ‌I am on my knees begging you to have a proper closure with Lena in the future, a closure where Lena is finally free from the pain of R's betrayal. I feel so bad that she got caught up into this mess. She was just so pure and deserves nothing but love and adoration. R is so unstable to the point that she doesn't have the love that Lena deserves.

• ‌I am again on my knees begging you to write our reconciliation with Nat because I honestly can't continue to live peacefully without her. A platonic breakup for me is just as bad as a romantic one.

I apologize for taking so long to write my thoughts. I lied about needing 3 business days to sort things out lol. I definitely needed more time (It was THAT bad for me 😭). I also had a lot going on in my personal matters so there's that :) Anw, I still have a lot things to say but I'll save it for another time, if you don't mind.

P.s. I almost went out of anon when you updated because you stressed me out so much!!!!! So closed to purposely reveal who I was 🤭

- 🦄

Heyyy! First of all, I missed you! Second of all, you don't have to be sorry for MIA. It's nice that you're out there being busy and all! The chapters will always be here waiting for you :)

Yeah I guess it was inevitable (the physical cheating) because R was emotionally cheating right from the start

Lena moving forward is something she will have to tackle on her own, and I won't be able to cover it in the remaining chapters of ILGOSS because the story is about R and Wanda. But it's something I'm interested in exploring as a oneshot :)

However, yes, definitely, there will be a reconciliation between Nat and R but it won't be what u might be expecting

Again, you don't ever have to worry about not being able to catch up right away! Just keep doing your thing :)

Thank you so much!

[cythoughtsnmemories]

17.02.23

Done w GDL~ very grateful that we're able to delivered all xi bing on d day itself. Everything was smooth, except for some traditions restrictions (ah ma stand most left cos most senior and cannot 3 pple take photo tgt). Wonder how MIL wants to tell all guests, cannot this and that. Why can't i do it my way, its my wedding. Am so annoyed w all the restrictions and doesn't make sense traditions. No, idw to kneel for tea ceremony, except parents n grandparents. Anw, my Godma also requested us not to kneel for tea ceremony. Thankful fiancé nvr request me to move in his hse. He confirmed kena WW III

Ordered mini buffet for 10 for dinner for all crews on AD, but we had lots of leftover and we can only throw. Okay we kept for next day brunch then throw but it's still a lot.

I brought babe to Sura for course dinner n there was free wine paring. They even prepared flowers. When we arrived, d waited gave babe a pen n small card to write for d card. Since dinner was on me, I only took d card and ask babe to bring home d flowers hahaha~

Prolly having pms, I was quite emotional when babe didn't do anything for V day...except sent me an article from sg celebrity that advice for long lasting marriage is nvr celebrate V day.

I'm wasn't expecting anything expensive cos I know we just went Europe n we also spent a lot on wedding and soon we have to pay for hse too. But at least some special action? He was wfh so I tot he might pick me up from work. Nah~

Good news from sis! They're official! Look at that rose bear, definitely more than $100

So babe bought d shang tou set n we have to prepare out own candles stand. That's my parents covering the longan can w red paper. So glad, they both are participating the prep.

Really nice of babe to let his friends to pay additional softcopy to clock the amt for credit card. Right, babe bought 4 more softcopy cos I like it, although I said there isn't a need cos i already scanned it. He said quality difference. Lol

Wfh today and as usual, busy! Idk why Fri is always so busy T^T Had mala pasta n salmon tofu soup for lunch.

Finally, reading my new book, 7 principles for making marriage work. Nth wrong to get more knowledge and prevent marriage fail right? So I leant its impt that partner to have high EQ. Its okay, pple having low IQ, but EQ is the key.