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[fellshish]

I watched another episode of cabinet of curiosities and the one where the woman takes all the cream to try and fit in hit kind of hard because I remember in primary and high school I tried so hard to fit in and never did (I don’t talk to anyone from school nowadays and I to quote Misha ‘was cool but the other kids didn’t think so’). I would throw out clothes or shoes that I felt like weren’t ‘popular’ e.g. pink sperry thongs or a colourful jacket from bennetton because people would look at me funny. When ever it was casual clothes day it gave me so much anxiety because I never wanted to go in fear of what people would think. I look back and think why did I worry so much and honestly I should have given my clothes away to charity just because I felt like other people thought id would look weird (one time I wore this jumper and this girl who had a similar jumper on saw mine and she gave me a death stare and then later took it off)

so when I first heard about Misha it really meant a lot to me that he was like all death to normalcy and I want to live in a world where normal is boring. Misha ‘hot mess’ Collins aside, it’s crazy what we go through to try and fit in or impress others when really everyone seems to try and do that. Secondly school is unfortunately not the best place for someone who is ND. I mean I know I should say yeah I’d tell my younger self blah blah but I like Misha Collins maybe not throw deodorant at my younger self but tell her that you’ll always have jackles derangement syndrome (okay joking idk, maybe I’ll go with the deodorant).

No but for real this episode reminded me so much of how I would try to fit into school but never did, and thankfully I never went THAT far in that I lost myself (instead I’d go eat lunch in the bathroom like Cady from mean girls or go sit with my learning enrichment teacher for lunch).

Hey! Thank you for gifting me the gift of telling me all this. I’m glad you stayed true to yourself! I’m glad school days are behind me because it IS hard, and it IS human to want other people’s approval and friendship.

Anyway i think misha collins would totally high five you for being you.