#announcing it to the world so i actually follow thru in putting my computer away.

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i'm feeling a pathological need for attention right now but it probably won't make me feel better so i'm about to get out a coloring book and listen to a narrative podcast whilst i color. to do something concrete with my hands. i am so mentally healthy. everyone clap <-this is technically giving me attention but that's fine.

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Front Flip Gaming - Geoff “iNcontroL” Robinson - Transcript

Episode 4   June 22, 2020

[“Phaser” starts playing] Welcome back to Front Flip Gaming.  Today I want to talk about Geoff “iNcontroL” Robinson.

Have you ever had one of those days where you’re kinda just laying on the bed, and you’re on the computer or on your phone, and you just go down multiple rabbit holes that lead to multiple rabbit holes, and you google and google and it’s all just kinda random mess of a mess?  That’s the way I’ve felt for the past six months.

So there’s no real rhyme or reason why I googled Geoff Robinson this morning.  I kinda just did.  He just popped into my head.  The anniversary of his death is coming up, so maybe that’s why?  I mean, it’s about a month away.  But for those of you who don’t know, Geoff “iNcontroL” Robinson was an esports personality, he was a gamer, a streamer, a competitor, especially in the StarCraft scene.  I mean, I didn’t know him personally, but he seemed like a good dude all around, and he accomplished so much.  And actually, when I read the announcement of his death, it was July 2019, it affected me more than most celebrity deaths.  I think—well, first of all, he was my age, and I mean, he seemed more relatable I guess to me to most celebrities.  When I heard the news of his death, I talked about it to my therapist. And I said, there’s this dude, that, he was my age, and he passed away suddenly, and he accomplished so much.  He affected so many people in the world, doing what he did, being himself, showing his personality and soul to the world. He was amazing and it kind of inspires me.  I wanna do something that affects other people in a positive way.  I don’t know what that can be, I don’t know what I can do, what I’m capable of, but I want to do something in a similar way.

I met him once.  It was in Ontario, CA many years ago.  I wanna say 2011 maybe.  There was a StarCraft tournament, and he was hosting it for the NASL I think.  The North American Star League.  So I went by myself, as you do, and he was there and he did a great job hosting it and casting the competition.  But, when the cameras were off, I remember he stood up at the front, and a line formed so that people could go up to him and I guess just talk to him for a little bit, shake his hand, introduce themselves, and what affected me the most, what kind of took me aback, was—I don’t remember all the details, but…  I went up, shook his hand, I was kind of starstruck. And he asked me my name.  I think he asked everyone their name, and there’s no way he was gonna remember everyone’s names at the competition.  But it struck me as so surprising that someone would do that—for someone to just be like “hey what’s your name” that really struck me as something special and different, and that stuck with me, and that was one of the first things I thought of when I had heard that he had passed.

He seemed like a great dude, he affected the world in a great way, in a positive way.  I’ve read about his past and his story, and I look at past videos of his YouTube, and he spoke so clearly and boldly, and spoke his truth, and he just didn’t care about what anyone thought.  What I’m really enjoying is looking back at his movie review videos.  It makes me think how did this guy know that someone like me and people like me are gonna go back to his YouTube video and watch his movie review videos.  And he wasn’t known for his movie reviews at least I don’t think so, he was more known in the gaming scene.  How did he know that I was gonna go back and wonder what his thoughts were on Big Hero 6.  He just knew, he just wanted to put his thoughts and feelings out there in the world, and he spoke as if he knew he mattered and that’s a very enviable trait, that I wish I had and I wish more people had.  He was just so confident in myself and what he could bring to the world, and he was an amazing dude, and the world kinda sucks a little bit more now that he’s gone.

Next month will be his one year anniversary, and just to kinda quote on his twitter page, July 21, 2019, “With immense grief, we announce Geoff’s unexpected passing due to sudden illness Saturday.  To honor Geoff or comfort to his family, we suggest donations to SoCalBullDog, which he loved.”  So I go to the twitter page, SCBR is a non profit 501(c)3 non-profit rescue group in Southern California dedicated to the rescue, re-homing, and rehabilitation of homeless English Bulldogs.  So I go to their website and I kinda wanted to talk about this, if anyone’s listening and just felt like they wanted to contribute or check out their website and care about something that Geoff cared about, so on their website, SoCalBullDog Rescue.  I’m gonna put on my good reading voice.

Southern California Bulldog Rescue provides shelter, re-homing assistance, and funds for medical treatment for over one hundred bulldogs each year. These dogs come to us from animal shelters, other rescue groups, and owners who wish to surrender their purebred bulldogs. We help bulldogs in the Southern California area find suitable homes. Our network consists of many volunteers who foster, do home checks, transport, and place bulldogs who come into our program. Over one thousand bulldogs have been placed thru rescue in Southern California during the last ten years. We rely entirely on donations for support.

Our Mission.  The mission of Southern California Bulldog Rescue is to rehabilitate and find loving families for homeless bulldogs. Our goal is to provide the care and time needed to prepare unwanted bulldogs for placement. We pledge to do our best to make sure they have a good life.

Our Goals.  To accept Bulldogs whose owners can no longer keep them. To retrieve Bulldogs from shelters or any other source so they may live to see another day.  To find responsible, stable, loving new homes for all rescued Bulldogs.  To only place Bulldogs that have been neutered or spayed, to help reduce the population of unwanted pets, by having the necessary surgical procedures performed before placement.  To rehabilitate Bulldogs before placement by providing necessary medical treatment and training to increase the chances of successful placement.  To place Bulldogs in suitable homes as soon as reasonably possible, so they can start their “new lives” quickly.  To thoroughly screen applicants before making placement decisions. To inform prospective adopters about the rescue program and the requirements for taking care of Bulldogs.

So that’s a little bit, or a lot, of information about their website, and about something that Geoff “iNcontrol” Robinson loved and was passionate about.  I know he had a Bulldog, Barristan, that’s really heartbreaking.  So if you choose, you can check out their website, SoCalBullDog.  Maybe donate, maybe share, maybe look into it, just whatever you’re doing, take care of yourself, do your best, whatever endeavors you’re doing at the moment.  Maybe we can take inspiration from Geoff, to see a guy who really lived life to the fullest, like incredibly.  Just really pushed to follow his passions and always do what he thought was right and always spoke on what he thought was right.  He was a good dude and he will be missed.  That’s all I have for today.  Thank you.

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