#anixious

[eurovisionart]

🇬🇷 Sofia Vossou - I anixi / Η άνοιξη

[eurovision-del]

The epic highs and lows of esc250…

[sonicblueartist]

FORGOTTEN

❝𝗪𝗵𝗲𝗻 𝘁𝗵𝗲 𝘀𝘂𝗻 𝗵𝗮𝘀 𝘀𝗲𝘁, 𝗻𝗼 𝗰𝗮𝗻𝗱𝗹𝗲 𝗰𝗮𝗻 𝗿𝗲𝗽𝗹𝗮𝗰𝗲 𝗶𝘁.❞

Part 1

【𝗧𝗮𝗶𝗹𝘀 𝘅 𝗥𝗲𝗮𝗱𝗲𝗿】

Part 1, Part 2, Part 3, Part 4, Part 5,

Masterlist

Summery:

First his hearing came to him, his sensitive ears twitched with picking up a ritmic beeping sound. Then his touch, he feel the soft meters of sheet and the warmth of blanket surrinding his body, a soft pillow behind his head. His body aching only a little. And then his smell... he grimace softly with the bitter smell with undertones of the artificial fragrance containes soaps and cleaners... is this antiseptic? Where... is he? He had a bitter taste in his mouth. His throat pretty dry, hurting him when he try to swallow. Then finally his sight... blinking the blur away, his eyes opening to a white room, he squint his eyes because of the sunlight slipping in through the window next to him, blinding him.

He slip out a groan out of his lips, after his brain start to work again, trying so hard to make sense of this situation. He hissed trying to starighten up to analyze around himself, leaning on the frame of the bed with a sigh. A headache piercing through his head. He forced his heavy hand up to his head and tried to stop the pain. With the pain, his memories became more confused and blurred. Still couldn't understand or remember what's going on, he felt more anixious by the minute.

Before he can panic, a hand softly gripped his shoulder, gently urging him back towards the welcoming pillows. Seeing a blurry image of a royal blue figure his rapid heart beat slows down.

Releazation downs on him, he tries to run his hoarse throat for the first time in months as he laid back with his soft touch, "S-Sonic...?"

Have Fun!

Amy's voice echoes inside the white walls of the hospital room, "Sonic!"

His ear twitched signalling he catch her words but he didn't give any effort to move an inch. Taking a deep breath he finally giving in to an answer to the pink hedgehog calling out to him for who knows how long."It's been a whole month today. Doctors said people who sleep for more than a few weeks have less chance of waking up." His voice somber but soft.

He stayed in that frozen state, his eyes connected in one spot on the ground, like everything would fall apart if he even blinked once. He heard the steps getting closer.

"Sonic." Amy's eyes soften up but her voice still stern, wanting to get Sonic out of whatever state he was stuck in. Being still and quite definitely not like him.

Sonic hums and slowly raises his head towards the pink hedgehog, not blinking, seems like still in a space out state.

Noticing her frown he quickly uttered out, finding it to be his fault she was upset, "Sorry didn't mean to let it all on you. What's up?"

Amy's frown deepened. Seeing her gloomy behavior he chuckles tiredly; taking his eyes off her, he scratched his neck numbly, "Hey, Don't sweat it Ames. I'm fine." Not giving any thoughts about what he worded. He looks back at the slowly withering flowers and all the get well soon cards on the stand next to the bed.

His ear twitches with Amy's sigh, "I'm worried about you, as much as I'm worried about him, Sonic." Amy stood where she is like a rose, rigid and full of prickly, but always bringing a beautiful sight and pleasant aura with her. Her emerald green eyes shining with worry as they observed the exhausted cobalt blue hedgehog.

Approaching towards the blue blur, she walked past the amber fox sleeping on the bed, his fur shining golden under the soft rays of sunshine. A lot of bandages covering that beautiful golden color of his. His sky-blue eyes had been hiding behind his eyelids for a long time, like the moon passing in front of the sun during a solar eclipse. His features looked serene despite his condition.

"You are spending most of your time with Tails..." she took a deep breath, pausing as Sonic slowly lift his head to give her a side glance, noticing the pain hiding in his forest green eyes. "It's also breaks my heart but... while you spending all your time here, Eggman never stops to take a break. The Resistance needs you. We need you. I need you." She swallowed and tightly close her eyes but continue with a serious voice, "He's safe here, but citizens are in danger. Our people in danger, while Eggman works on something worse everyday in his base, his bots creating havoc, me and others--" She abruptly stops herself when the azure hedgehog stands up gritting his teeth, "I know that." He tighten his fists.

She clenches her hand on her chest while pressing the other over his shoulder, "I know you do. I know you don't want to leave him alone. But he won't be alone." Her voice softened along with her eyes with a glint Sonic couldn't quite tell what, "You can count on me with that. You can count on our friends. I'll make sure he'll never spend any second alone. You can always come visit him whenever you want! He will be safe--"

He rubs his eyes with a deep sigh, "I know... If I don't leave and help out right now... we'll fall--" He lift his head towards the bed, regret stabbing his heart along with grief, he grimiced his face at the shape his brother in. He still couldn't bring himself to accept this situation. "But... what if he gets hurt again, and I can't be there to help--"

Amy's brows furrowed at his words and quickly interrupted him, yet her words came out softly to reassure him, "There won't be any what ifs. I promise. I'll be here for him while you leave. And after me, in turn, each of our friends will accompany him here. So, stop sulking already! This isn't you!"

Sonic froze under her words, staring up at her emerald green eyes' lit with determination. "Amy..." only a whisper come out of his lips. A sigh escapes them soon after, a smile forming on his muzzle, he looks back with glassy eyes, patting the hand on his shoulder to show his gratitude, "Thanks Ames."

"Anytime..." Amy step aside making a room for him to get up. Sonic smiled one last time towards her and rush off leaving the building in a flash, he didn't even wanted to take one last breath incide of that suffocating building. Beside he needs to get back to busines and he needs to be fast. He can't risk waiting around, not anymore.

He takes a big gulp of fresh air in his lungs, nearly gasping for air. It's been a month since he run around the green field like this. He missed this so much....

He skied to a stop dust flowing behind the ground, he took a final glance at the hospital, the place he used to stay his nights awake over thinking about what he could have done, now nearly invisibly to his eyes, with a shaky breath, he hesitate only for a moment. A moment that shall never happen again. Hesitation had brought him to this point in the first place. He quickly shook his head and glared up ahaed. Now on, he is only gonna think about what he can do for the world. Like he used to always do. The only difference will be, a piece of his mind will continue to stay with his little brother while he lays in there...

"Get well soon little buddy..."

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'Seven months have passed since Sonic's severe battle against Dr. Ivo Robotnik aka Eggman and the mournful day that touched so many people deeply. Sonic's little brother and mechanical genius Miles Prower known many by Tails, still in a coma and there doesn't seem to be any bright look on his side says Doc--'

Espio doesn't feel like listening to any news at the moment, closing the TV with the help of the remote, he sighed in relief.

His honey colored eyes finding the little bee with the same position in the couch next to the hospital's bed he was half an hour ago. Normally that's impossible to hold the bee in the same position for a minute but right now he seemed stubborn. Continuing to hold the book with determination, he read it outloud, even though he read and listened to the story for a thousand times by now.

'From out of the window, a big star twinkled bright. Geppetto looked out the window to the twinkling star.

"Bright star," said Geppetto. "If I could make one wish, it would be for a real boy of my own." But of course, he knew that was not possible.'

Espio sighed, still doesn't understand why he would want to read a story to the golden fox. Either way he kept quiet, it made him happy after all.

Their attention was caught by the door opening, walking in the crocodile with two cups of coffee and some bottle of water.

Charmy lit up, "Finally! My mouth was getting dry from all the story telling!"

Charmy quickly and excitedly flew up to the crocodile so he could get back to reading as quickly. He tried his chances on the coffee but Vector didn't let him. He tried to push the kid away while freaking out to not drop any drink on the tray.

He hissed through his sharp teeth, "Charmy you are not drinking any coffee. Don't make us live the same nightmare again."

He was about to protest until Vector shook the bottle in front of him, "Take it or leave it."

Charmy huffed getting his bottle and walking back to his seat to read more to the sleeping fox.

Espio quickly walked up to him, taking the tray while Vector put the coffees on the table in relife.

The purple chameleon thanked for the coffee even though he didn't ask for anything at all when he left. Vector nodded, taking his own cup, he knew Espio needed as much as he did. And he's not planning on leaving his friend like that.

Vector grumbled under his breath, as they both sat down, "You better drank that. Crap, this place is really expensive. We are here for half a week and my pocket is nearly empty."

Espio grabbed his cup with a half smile, he was thankful for it but he still prefers tea over coffee, but for now it will be a fine ally to help his disturbed sleep pattern. Like Vector said they were here for nearly a week, looking after the fox while Charmy sleeped in the next room.

This wasn't their first arrival at the hospital... The first time.... say the least was chaotic. He doesn't even wanna recall. It was a sorrowful day...

Espio took a sip from his bittersweet hot liquid, he grimaced his face with the burning sensation going through his tongue, "You shouldn't take too much time in here."

Vector grumbled rubbing his eyes, "I just wake up from my two minutes sleep. Gimme some time would ya? Not like he is goin' anywhere. But my appetite sure did..."

Espio sighed, although Vector expressed himself harshly, what he said was true and he couldn't say anything about it, and he didn't think he wanted to. They were all tired and deserved a coffee break. It wouldn't hurt to take time for themselves. But still...

It wouldn't hurt to be sure either. That was the task he was put on after all...

He didn't even take one final sip from his cup and get out of the room with a tired look from Vector. He didn't need to say anything, he already knew too well what he wanted to do.

Patrol outside the hospital.

He needed some fresh air and a little walk to settle his mind.

"Espio! Damn it, I paid for them, at least take the coffee with you while it's still hot. Don't make me regret paying it! You only took one sip!!" Vector called after him one more time, sighing after hearing no answers, it's too early for this, he shook his head grumbling.

He looked back at his cup about to sip his coffee until his eyes widened, noticing a missing cup.

"ChaRMY!!" He got up from his seat causing it to drop with a loud thud.

Laughing, Charmy stealed Espio's cup and runs for it, "If he doesn't want it, then it's mine! Let me drink it while it's still hot so you won't be wasting your money!"

"NO!!" Vector sprint after the flying bee in a panic.

Espio walked down the corridors and stairs. His mind is fuming, swarming with thoughts. His state is stable. I don't know why they are saying his chances of waking up are slim. The probabilities are equal in both cases. They're trying to talk people out of him. Creating false variety. Breaking peoples hopes in him which the truth was on the opposite even though Sonic himself gets on the news telling them to not worry and stay strong for his sake.

He halted in his walk, his eyes caught something outside from the open window. Or if he says 'someone' it will be more decisive. Concerned, he jumped out of the window. It's fine he was on the first floor anyway.

He approached one of the benches neatly placed in the garden of the hospital. He stopped until he could get too close.

He changed his mind and took a deep breath. He sits next to the person who's been staring towards the damp grass in what seems to be in dark thoughts.

"How long have you not had a well-rested sleep?"

Came a husky voice, "...I don't even recall wanting to sleep."

Espio sighed and leaned on the frames of the bench without minding its dampness staring deeply into the cloudy sky.

Espio knew the answer to the question of whether his friend was shaking from lack of sleep or because she was too weak from crying so much. It was unnecessary to ask a question he knew the answer to. He was clearly upset that his friend was blaming herself and harming herself in this way. But arguing was useless.

It had rained in the evening, and no matter how stubborn she was, he got her into the hospital and arranged a room for her to get some sleep. But it seemed that as soon as the rain ended, she settled back into her bench like glue and shivering from the cool breeze. Espio doubted she'd been able to get even a little sleep at night. He caressed her back, ignoring her red and swollen eyes. He knew she wouldn't listen to him, but he wanted to try his luck. "Come inside. Eat something warm and rest. You will get sick."

"I don't want to. I'm fine like this." It was obvious that she was not.

"Don't do that. If you don't care about yourself, at least do it for him. What will he think if he sees you like this when he wakes up?"

"I think he'd like it. I deserve it..."

"And what if he doesn't?"

She paused, "It's true.... he had such a weird way of thinking that I can't understand. Damn it... why did it have to be him? What if he never wakes up?" she hugs her knees.

"Don't give up on him now. He's strong."

"I know..."

There was a pause.

She took a breath and rubbed her eyes, "Damn it, I must look pathetic." She chuckled bitterly.

"It's nice if I can get inside your head." He smirked to himself.

She playfully showed his shoulder, "You're the worst. But thanks. I needed to stop thinking about it already......" She took a deep breath trying to clear her head further. "I guess... I am going to take you on that offer.... But I still doesn't feel ready to stay inside the hospital."

Espio nodded with a sigh. He gets up, "I'm going to get you some blankets and warm food."

She smiled at him warmly, "Thanks, Espio. You're doing me a big favor."

"Anytime Y/n." He walked off.

She sighed, leaning over the bench. She glanced down and picked up her phone, swiping it open, she entered into her gallery and open the folder named "memories".

She smiled at all the photoes and videos she took along with his friends. But she was holding one so dearly to herself. It was very difficult to find all his friends in the same place, it's even impossible to gather them together. But that day was her birthday and all his friends came just for her sake. Even Silver and Blaze were there. She just got lucky about that they were nearby. And she took a big family photo, feeling that they should keep this memory alive forever. Since everyone couldn't be seen when she held out the phone, she got help from a flying device Tails had, and after the photo was taken, the phone fell down due to the wind and its glass broke, and you all laughed about it. Tails promised to fix her phone and he made it even better. Sonic had dunked her head into the cake just after she had blown out her candles, and a food fight ensued right after. She manage to spill some food on Shadow and he grabed the whole cake and stuck it on her head. It was a nice day...

She missed the times when they burst out laughing.

[secret-bastard-daughter-of-wdf]

instead of astrological signs or Myer-Briggs types, i firmly believe you can tell almost everything about a person based on their favorite MUPPET muppet & Sesame Street muppet.

take me for example:

GONZO and MR. SNUFFLEUPAGUS

GONZO- ridiculous queerdo & nonbinary style icon!!! has a weird obsession with chickens. feels like and outsider for most of their life. totally neurodivergent. has a propensity for over-the-top, questionably safe dare-devil stunts.

ME- enby queerdo who wants to raise chickens. has felt like an outsider/ alien their whole life. neurodivergent as FUCK.has a propensity to do stupid things without thinking it through-- like jumping down a flight of stairs, in rollerskates while trying to jump rope [true story].

MR. SNUFFLEUPAGUS- Big Bird's imaginary friend who could only be seen BY Big Bird for the first 14 years of his tenure on Sesame Street. Semi-anixious and almost always depressed. Coded queer [from an interview with former Sesame Street writer Mark Saltzman]: "“This depressed person nobody can see, it’s sort of Kafka,” Saltzman said. “It’s sort of gay closeted too.”"

ME- semi-anxious and always depressed. felt invisible/ unseen until my teen years, and still do sometimes to this day.

[didyoutrydynamite]

So I just played some vermintide 2 and the Norsca music is amazingly terrifying. They are be fun villains to write. What would the JNRZ AU folk think if they saw them?

Funnily enough, as a bit of fun JNRZ Au Remnant history there used to be an old viking civilization known as the "Anixi-Sunto". They were a nomadic sea faring people that specialized in the use of Ice Dust create these giant ice barges or fortress icebergs to take to war on the seas. Like imagine if the Water Tribes from ATLA decided to become viking raiders, and terrorize the arctic waters.

[honeytonedhottie]

Hi my birthday is 3 days I’m manifesting friends & best birthday i don’t really go anywhere fr im so

Anixious 😭idk how I can pull this off any tips ? I tell myself I have my dream bestow & friend group but always think of the how or look at my phone see who texts me get discouraged any tips

hi anonie, in this case i'd saturate cuz when im manifesting something i feel anxious or iffy about, when i saturate constantly it becomes more familiar and less "impossible" in my brain.

[camryemerald]

despite the horrid sax solo I Anixi really should have placed top five in 1991 that song is so good

[vcgabonds]

☆ –– (hwang hyunjin, he/him, cismale) who is walker (kwon) miller anyways? ew. you don’t know about him, we’ll bet you watw:nt to. they’re feeling twenty three and skateboarding feels like a perfect night to them. rumor has it they’re taciturn and perfectionist because they care, but they’re also loyal and charming in the best way. he works to make a little money as a barista. they’ve rented on a place on cornelia street in the form of woodvale roommates. safe and sound (muse a) is the song they could dance to the beat of forevermore. 

BASIC INFORMATION

full  name : kwon wonbin walker kwon miller  nickname(s)  : n/a birth  date  : december 25th 1999 age : twenty four  zodiac : capricorn gender  : cismale pronouns  :  he / him romantic  orientation  :  biromantic  sexual  orientation  :  bisexual  nationality  :  korean-american  ethnicity : korean

BACKGROUND

birth  place  :  seoul  ,  south  korea  hometown  :  new york social  class  :  middle class  father  :  kwon min chan  michael miller mother  : yang soo young  laurel miller sibling(s)  : muse b, safe and sound  pet(s)  : lillian ( cat )  previous  relationship(s)  : tba.

SKILLS  &  ABILITIES

physical  strength  : weak  intelligence : walker is naturally bright and never really had to work hard to succeed  .   language(s)  spoken  :  english drive  :  no  ride  a  bicycle  :  yes  play  an  instrument  :   piano

PHYSICAL  APPEARANCE  &  CHARACTERISTICS  

eye  color  : dark brown  hair  color  : black  glasses  /  contacts  : doesn’t need them but will sometimes wear glasses without prescription for the aesthetic  height  :  5′10″  build  :  lean    habits  : can never fully be still

MANNERISMS

accent  :  american quirks  :  drums on everything using either his fingers, pencils, cutlery or anything that can remotely resembles drum sticks, hums all the time , can’t sit still  hobbies  : thrift shopping ,  he enjoys being outdoors  .  habits  :  will tug at his hair when he's nervous / anxious   ticks  : fidgets a lot  ,  rambles  fears  :  heights , being abandoned  positive  traits  :  friendly , charming , witty  negative  traits  :  anixious , perfectionistic to a fault

IMPORTANT  /  BACKGROUND

accidents  .  they happened to everyone  .  walker kwon grew up knowing that he was just that  .  an accident . born to parents who weren't ready for the role . the few memories from before landing in the home of the miller's still to this day have him waking in a cold sweat , as fragmented as they are. the sound of glass breaking causes him to shrink in on himself . yelling and fighting are often the cause of an anxiety attack that can only be calmed by the right voice singing the right tune .

walker couldn't remember the faces of the people that brought him into the world , only that they were not the same as the one's who had raised him . there was no resemblance between himself and the miller's . as a young boy it bothered him , he couldn't explain why he didn't have the same eyes as his mother or nose like his father . as a teenager it was a source of shame and kids were mean . now as a young adult he only wanted to make sure they never regretting their decision to raise him .

perhaps it was all of these factors that led to walker being the anxious child he was , always worried he could lose them all . his parents who weren't really his parents , his sibling who wasn't really his sibling at least not by blood -- but at the same time the person he loved most in the world . what if some day the people from his nightmares , his memories , came back for him ? what if someday the miller's decided they didn't want him either and sent him back ?

therapy started too late and was now working to not only help with childhood trauma but also get past all the walls he'd built for himself over the years . walker had a series of coping mechanisms he'd created on his own to make himself try and feel more secure . if he was perfect enough , always getting the top marks , involved in school sports , class president , never too loud , always polite , didn't show too much emotion , and never stepped out of line -- there would be no reason not to want him . maybe they could even love him .

HEADCANONS

carries a paper bag in his backpack at all times incase he hyperventilates. it's been known to happen at the worst times.

often found at the skatepark when he's not at college or work, throwing himself off the ramps on a small wooden board is one of the moments he feels carefree

stops to pet all the dogs

comes across as very uptight at first, rule follower and closed off, but will let you see glimpses of the real him the more you get to know him

wants everyone to like him

is annoyingly good at everything

if he is bad at something first try though he will never do it again

he can't cook so as if to prove the above point, he doesn't do it ever and would rather starve then attempt to make himself a meal or will walk an hour away to buy food

has a cat named lillian that he found abandoned on the way home from school one day and couldn't just leave behind... they had too much in common himself and the kitten

is taking business and art courses in college because he has a passion for drawing and is considering jobs in that field but wanted to please the miller's so went into the reliable choice of business

[xxavmiller]

he thought he was getting into the flow of things. there was something about the day in, day out that he could appericate away from earth. the boredum might set in at some point but his new normal was working for now. it helped that he made a few connections. that he had time to spend with people. even if it was currently making him a little anixious. ezrah had been hanging around the kitchen, and that was fine. but sometimes he would offer to help out.

and xaiver couldn't help but hover.

he tried to stop himself, he did. focusing on the food he was currently prepping for tomorrow. he kept a careful eye on the other man, forcing himself to stop out-right staring at some points. conversation, that's what they needed. "so, now that the day is winding down, did the day go?" it was lame but it was something. "i told the other's they could leave so thanks for helping me out. though, i'm weird enough to find cutting up peppers and onions comforting."

@lunareborn

[stars-webcore]

Art I did in ms paint

Featuring:

Anixy

Skippy (the third picture)

[reallittleblobrp]

(reupload)

for palestinians,who's texted me in ask box,i'm sorry for not answering your asks,maybe the link didn't work,or i thought that it was scam or something,or i forgot,until i lost my account,sorry for being coward (i'm not zionist,i'm just anixious)

[eurovision-del]

Del’s Favourite Songs Poll: 1990s

You don't know how much it hurt me to have to exclude Somewhere in Europe

Songs under the cut:

[excedrinpm]

Anixious

Fuck

[52feasts]

Vegan Mediterranean fanfare at Anixi NYC (Chunk Foods steak! 😱)

There’s a whole lot of pomp and show in the ambiance at Anixi, a vegan and Kosher Mediterranean restaurant in Chelsea NYC. Royal purple drapes hang floor to ceiling and blue velvet curved bench snake down the middle of the main dining room. A couple sparkling chandeliers dripping in strings of crystal dangle above and a couple mirrors hug the walls around. There’s a whole lot of fanfare in the…

[samanthacausey]

Vegan Mediterranean fanfare at Anixi NYC (Chunk Foods steak! 😱)

There’s a whole lot of pomp and show in the ambiance at Anixi, a vegan and Kosher Mediterranean restaurant in Chelsea NYC. Royal purple drapes hang floor to ceiling and blue velvet curved bench snake down the middle of the main dining room. A couple sparkling chandeliers dripping in strings of crystal dangle above and a couple mirrors hug the walls around. There’s a whole lot of fanfare in the…

[residentraccoon]

I've been obsessed with Anixi (Greece 1991) a lot recently so I wonder if I should put it as my winner for that year...but man Fångad is also really good and I love it...why do I have to choose smh