#angstymuch

[the19thduckpotato]

*deep breath*  Ok, so, here we go.  Bunch of fangirl rambling n distressing thoughts but for those that need to know, definitely spoilers through Ep 60 (most of S3).  Proceed or not as needed, my lovelies.  

In case it isn’t clear yet, heh, I absolutely adore Toshinori in all his forms.  Have been from Day One.  This I cannot deny.

However, there’s something else I’ve been very well aware of since Day One.  And that’s that Toshi is either running out of time or he’s living on borrowed time.  

In short, I’m pretty much convinced Toshi is going to die before the series ends.

Where do I start?  

His appearance alone is a serious cause for concern.  Especially now with the movie out we know what he should be looking like.  He said it himself, his respiratory system is all but destroyed and he doesn’t have a stomach anymore.  He coughs up blood entirely too easily.  Even One For All is gone from his body because the vessel can’t endure or contain the Quirk any longer.

Then there’s One For All.  He returned to UA solely to find a successor under the guise of being a teacher.  Dunno if he was trying before the series started, but this seems the actions of someone starting to get desperate.  Was All Might slacking for a while, not wanting to face the reality of OfA and potentially, his own mortality?  Or was he trying to avoid finding a successor because it brings back too many bad memories of his own master? 

Instead of keeping his eye out for someone along the way--which he should have been, knowing OfA’s history--he instead opts for the massive group option.  With that many choices, someone’s bound to stand out, right?

Even Christopher Sabat is anxious, saying he has no idea what All Might’s fate is, that he’s gonna be pretty unhappy if/when the worst happens.

And then there’s the trope options.

Kohei Horikoshi has said that Naruto was a huge influence for him and it’s easy to draw parallels.  Jiraiya automatically comes to mind here.  Any wise old sensei example, really.  And for a teacher, the greatest honor they can have is for their pupil succeed their teacher.  Usually, the teacher ends up, well, dying and as a result, their student gets that extra burst of what have you to exceed their limits.    

Promising Inko you’re protect Izuku with your life is a classic “gonna die” fodder quote.   The “three days from retirement” speechifying isn’t helping, either.   “I WILL NOT DIE.” Hun, that--just--hun, no.  Saying it a bunch of times isn’t gonna keep it from happening.  In fact, the more he says it, the more likely it becomes.  

So... ...well...

I’ve already been accused of the second since I’ve floated this awful little fan theory to fellow fans....

But y’all...

y’all

I really really REALLY don’t want to be right in this.  And I know with every doodle of All Might I sketch, every episode I delight in, every happy exchange I share with fellow fans, I’m digging my own hole deeper and deeper.  I keep getting a little more invested in a character I absolutely love and if/when this happens, it’s gonna hurt.  I know that sounds dumb and ridiculous but it’s true and this blathering is partly me trying to accept this very possible reality, to prepare myself.

 And if/when it does happen, everyone’s gonna know.  Spoiler rules are gonna fly out the window because you’re talking about one of the most popular characters on the currently most popular anime in the world.  

But at the end of the day, just know this: I don’t want it but I accept that it may happen.

And if that day comes, then just know that I’ll be right here with the hugs.

Ok, I’m done!  Now back to your regularly scheduled tumblr scrolling :D

[atlasursa]

Stranded

September, 2016 I'm at that point. The point I knew it would come to. The point that it always comes to. I was a temporary fix. A band-aid. A momentary gift that got to experience the wonderment and adoration of a miracle. But having been replaced I can't help but feel like an outsider, an intruder. So what now? Do I bow out and remain faithfully theirs whenever they need? Do I remain silently their lover when it suits them? Do I speak my emotions and let them run rampant???

 ...... No. I am untouchable. I am the sea. I am a storm, a force that cannot be stopped. I will go on. Remaining forever more, the one that got away.

 I bow to no one.