#anger for anger's sake isn't interesting to me but anger that's used to cover sadness or fear. that's the gOOD SHIT.

[scare-ard--sleigh]

okay but isn't it so much more interesting if the love really is there????

[tireddal]

Her heart's flower {douma x reader}

Y/n L/n- famous samurai's daughter, who forced do become warrior because of cruel fate. So she has got usual life, but losing a bet has given her interesting chance.

•warnings: may include grammar (English isn't my mouther-language) and historical mistakes, female reader, prostitute's and human deaths mentions.•

Part 1: Red Light's District

Evening's sky was beautiful. You smiled while you were looking on it. Red and gold have mixed and created something incredible.

You shook your head. "Collect, Y/N. No extra thoughts,"-you said for yourself mentally and kept going to Red Light district.

"Y/N!"

You sighed heavily and tried to hide yourself in crowd, but your friends didn't care about it.

"Y/N! Ha-ha-ha, I caught you!" Shiro Akyama, your best friend, gave you a strong hug, so you stared coughing.

"My, my, Y/N, with such weak lungs and bones you wouldn't be able to become a samura." Said serios voice. Takashi was standing behind you and Shiro.

Shiro let you breath, so you inhaled happily.

"However, I can fight with katana." You harshly scolded. Takashi kept silent and nodded.

"You're right, my apologies, Y/N. But I swear, that one day I will win in our competition..."

"Yeah, good luck." You have smiled and fixed your f/c kimono.

"Nah!" Shiro huffed, he doesn't like when his friends sparring. "Hey, Y/N, what are you doing here?" Friend looked at you. "This district is dangerous. "

You thought about his words. God, why you have so loyal friends? Why they just couldn't go further?

You rubbed your right sleeve nervously.

"Im...I have some deal here, so you can go to the corps without me." You smiled for your friends. Takashi and Shiro looked at you with fear.

"Are you stupid?"

"Ha?"

Takashi frowned.

"Y/N, I understand, where you going. At least, say, why you're doing this, because otherwise I should tell your father..."

"Well! I...I lost a bet." You whispered. "Are you satisfied now, Ishikawa?"

Takashi bowed in agreement, shot his green eyes.

"Ha! Loser!" Shiro started laughing, so you caught your breath because of anger. Takashi has seen your expression and elbowed Akyama.

"Can we help you with your task?"

"No. Don't worry, I will be fine." You refused Ishikawa's offer, but your friend didn't care.

"Hm. Let us to be near you. Some slavers will try to kidnap you, Y/N."

You sighed, because Takashi was right. It was dangerous as much as it could ever be. You were going to the most expensive brothel in the Edo and you must get the most famous prostitute's pin. Funny.

Shiro and Takashi were waiting for your answer. You inhaled deeply.

"Well, you can go with me. But...I will be inside while you wait for me near this house. Boys bowed in agreement.

"Understand. I will beg gods for luck." Takashi fixed his haori.

"We won't let you down." Shiro gave you a smile.

You nodded and your trinity went to Eternal Paradise-fantastic brothel, about which you have heard a lot of rumors.

***

Men with long blond hair laughed loudly and took a sip from little black cup. Then he smiled-tea was good today.

His guest, stranger with pink hair, however, didn't look at any of delicious dishes in front of him.

Blonde put cup on the table and with keeping smile looked at guest.

"Akaza-dono, what's the matter? You don't take my girls, don't taste meal and tea...Its rude." Man pretended that he is sad. Pink-haired frowned.

"Don't make fun of me, bastard." Harshly growled he. Blonde sighed dramatically on this. "Do you know about near events?"

"Hm...I know, of course..." Blonde smiled and looked around. After his quick hand's gesture all girls fast went out from room. His smiled features changed in calm and cold.

"Good. Master said that I should help you with transferring business. If you need something, I will be on the other street, in Gokko's house. Hope you remember him."

"Gokko?" Blonde said lazy. "Yes. But I think we won't move our business, don't you think similar, Akaza-san?" Man took his fan from his wide robe.

Pink-haired kept silent.

"It's none of my business. I'm only warrior, and you are dealer. Good night." Man has stood up and went to the door. Blonde smiles, were fanning himself.

"Good night, Akaza-dono!"

***

You, Takashi and Shiro were in front of big house, which was decorated lavishly. Near doors you have seen two tall and muscular guards. Ishikawa yanked your sleeve.

"Y/N, it's very dangerous. Please, for God's sake suppress yours pride..." Takashi tried to reassure you from going in this brothel. You were going to listen him, but suddenly Shiro pushed you to the doors.

You yelped, and have turned back to shout at him, but guards called for you.

"Hey, you!" You inhaled and turned to face men. "What do you want?

You opened your mouth in frustration. You were scared, because guards looked at you furiously, and you could see their blades. You were good swordswoman, but you weren't sure that you can handle with two gangsters. You were in trouble.

"I...I need to meet with Upper Moon Two!" You shouted. Some people near another houses looked at you with fear, surprised.

"With Upper Moon Two? Aha-ha-h..." One of guards started laughing uncontrollably, but another immediately covered his colleague mouth, before they both bowed respectfully. Another people hurried to hide away.

"My, my." You have raised your head and saw blonde man, who looked at you from balcone. "So, do you really wanna meet with Upper Moon two, darling?" He chirped.

"Y-yeah. I...I have some deal for her."

Man smiled, keeping fan himself.

"Come in." He bowed slightly and went back to the room. Guards now looked at you with interest and...Pity?

You started to pray mentally.

[fly-sky-high-bug-games]

Hi! I saw you answer an ask about your OC Alyssum and I was instantly pulled in. I went to your list of muses to go read some stuff on her but the link isn't working for some reason. Care to share? 😁 also what other hcs do you have about her (optional w/mugo) 👀

I THINK THAT’S MY FAULT, I keep tagging her as available muse but she’s technically listed as “npc” on the muse post because I didn’t want to introduce her yet (so far story wise, she only appears through dialog and hasn’t popped out yet, hard since she’s at Highgrove and setting is in Hallownest). However, her muse has been... oddly strong lately, I keep drawing and doing tiny rp scenes with her with few friends just to test the waters with her and BOY IT’S KIND OF... INTERESTING.

She might be “oopsie haha murder” kind of character but she’s also playing the nobility part quite well. She’s “polite”, invites bugs for a tea, a little chatter (maybe even a friendly one, she’s capable of it), possibly propositions, no refusal, nice job offers~ or death. One always gets to choose, acting like they have an option but forcefully narrows it to few and plays on mental and emotional state at such circumstances. Tricky~

I have yet to develop the details of her faction and who’s in it but very few people will be. Wasps I already covered, I just have to work around clan leader that’s in contact with Alyssum. Others would be black market dealers (lead merchant), underground snail-mail (postal snail), one of the weavers who’s good with seals and couple of others~ I need to brainstorm on this still. :0

Damn, I already rambled about this and didn’t talk about her much, hold on *throws Alyss tidbits under read more if tumblr allows it to work...*

She was looked after by Magnolia and basically raised by her, some time after she turned to be a queen. Fun tidbits about Magnolia family as a whole, they are not related to one another (mostly) but consider themselves a big family because they took down the previous queen and king of Highgrove while raising from poverty. However, Magnolia and her followers were never kind and forgiving, but with promises that there will be change in balance of the hierarchy, they got a lot of followers and supporters from commoners to usurp the royalty and did so successfully.

Alyssum was young when this happened so while she was somewhat birthed under poverty, she was fully raised as a noble. I don’t have much of her childhood worked out but there isn’t much to say aside from that she was raised and thought under the cruel but rich conditions of the kingdom.

The binding seal on her wings she earned not long before she met Mugo, almost like a sign for maturity and set under higher position in the family and not just as a student. The seals are powerful magic that uses soul, sewed in with magic by the weaver and afterwards trained to use it. It manifests through the shape of petals: swirling, cutting, chipping, slashing or severing, depending on the number of petals created, used, how fast, how they’re choreographed... It’s all soul but she can use regular flower petals that make less damage but not much soul required. Alyss can also use the wings as a shield since the binding is right on them and actually getting through them with anything is worse than trying to cut the metal open. (like, I imagined in game moves, if you know how THK blocks twice then slashes, she does similar things with wings, where she blocks two times but then bursts open the wings to blow the opponent back to the other side of the screen)

But you know, she’s a lady~ Of course she won’t get her hands dirty. :3c She has others to do that for her~

As for her and Mugo... (OH BOY HERE WE GOOOO~!)

I have to say, their relationship and love was rather genuine, it kind of makes me sad it ended up the way it did... With Magnolia, Alyss (and even Zeeke and his family) still visiting Hallownest some time before Pure Vessel was sealed and before infection went crazy (I canonize, by human years, that that was 20ish years before current events, since Hornet seems 15-18ish years old but who knows with bugs~ I just needed approximate idea for the setting). They were at City of tears but Mugo met her somewhere close to it, as she was hiding away from the nobles to explore the outside on her own and spotted Mugo.

Sure, Mugo crushed on her first but when she tested him by giving away her symbol necklace and pedant of White Magnolia for him to sell at black market and get good money, he refused because it was a memento from someone dear to him. It still is... he didn’t take it off because this is when their love was true and pure... Alyss never forget that either. It was very touching to her.

Their relationship was fine, both shared nothing in common but that was such a fun time for both because of it. They were clicking because they were like two different puzzles pieces that do fit together... but sadly, the pieces didn’t give the right picture when one by the other. (don’t you hate when this happens when you’re trying to puzzle grass or sky together?? *shot*) 

Alyssum explained to Mugo how Magnolia works. He didn’t like it one bit, as he ran away from Highgrove partially because they usurped the old rulers and rendered his family’s status almost homeless. Meanwhile, Alyss didn’t like that Mugo kept throwing himself in danger for his job, even if it’s a hobby that means a lot to him, all for sake of survival and geo.

They dated for some time, had fun, but slowly things started kind of... falling apart. The closer Alyss was to heading back to Highgrove the more she pressured Mugo to come with, become part of the family and live with her under riches the Magnolia offers. His counter proposal was, if they’re really in love and she is aware of Magnolia’s wrongdoings, that she would leave them instead and live with him while making the adventures she loved hearing about from him, together. Basically, Mugo put his love for her over riches or anything but Alyss wanted him for herself under the comfort and safety of Magnolia. She couldn’t throw that away, not after building the status and becoming a favorite to Magnolia herself. She thought this was selfish of Mugo but Mugo tried to explain it was for her changing a new leaf and starting over as something good, not ruled by fear and power.

So they started to disagree... argue... and finally physically fight. Of course, Alyss won. Mugo isn’t a fighter. At that moment, it was either she has him or no one does. For Mugo, he could only bark threats. So he did, angered, throwing words he couldn’t even imagine himself doing. When she lighted up her wings, he threatened he will cut them off. So in retribution, she cut him, scaring his face. He saw something or someone completely different then. Mugo ran for his life, leaving Alyss alone.

That was the last time they saw each other, 20ish years ago. Mugo hid away at the lake of Unn and suffered depression and withdrawal for a very long time. As for Alyss... she pulled off something she shouldn’t and Mugo didn’t know about...

He only got one last letter from her, to met her one more time at the Crossroads before she leaves for Highgrove, saying she wants to try one more time and... that she had a surprise for him. He didn’t respond. She waited for him there then left when he never showed...

That was that. :U Until now, at least~ :3 She got to hear about her ex thanks to Zeeke’s shenanigans at the Colosseum~ Oh, what are the odds of the noble meeting and having issues specifically with a certain, scruffy moth~

20 years is quite a bit of time for someone with a heartbreak and power to grow... kind of crazy. Of course she never let go of it. And now she knows he’s still alive too~ Wonder what Alyss will do. :3c