#and you’d run into her at 11 pm at a walmart

[spirit-lanterns]

Hmmm what's Stelle like in the Celeb AU? I've seen a post or two about her being a goblin online but nothing about what sort of things she does or what she's like

Stelle is a rookie actor! Her, March, and Dan Heng are celebrities that are part of the “newer generation” of celebrities. They are the ones who only just recently got their names to be labeled as “big names” in the industry, so they are people who are just starting out on their major careers.

I can see Stelle starring in films as a background actor or a small side character, but people found her extremely attractive on set that she slowly started gaining popularity for not even doing anything 😭 and then when the fans found her Twitter, they fell in love with how blunt and unhinged she was, so they started falling for her even more…

She is the definition of that weirdo girl celebrity crush you had as a kid, but it worked in her favor <3

[babytaes]

All Night Long

➳ 𝚜𝚞𝚖𝚖𝚊𝚛𝚢: “you forgot about your daughter’s school project until the last minute, what happens when you join her partner’s father on a 11 PM Walmart run

❥  𝚙𝚊𝚒𝚛𝚒𝚗𝚐:  seungcheol x female reader

❥  𝚐𝚎𝚗𝚛𝚎:  fluff

❥  𝚠𝚘𝚛𝚍 𝚌𝚘𝚞𝚗𝚝: 3K

❥   𝚠𝚊𝚛𝚗𝚒𝚗𝚐𝚜:  just a cute seungcheol, we need more father content.

↪  𝚊/𝚗: It has beeeenn a while since I posted something like this. I wanted to finish at least 3 members before I post this whole series.... but I can’t keep stalling. The first of many series from here on out... Enjoy and much love- BT

➳  part of the song series

↳  Does it ever drive you crazy.

Just how fast the night changes?

Your daughter leaped across the parking lot, humming a melody in her head. You grinned as you squeezed her hand and walked up to the car door. Walking over to the side door you opened it, allowing her to get into her car seat.

You tossed your things in the front seat and climbed in the car while she fixed herself in her seat and buckled up for the journey. It was ice cream Thursday for both of you, so it was a special day.

“Mommy... Mommy, are we still getting ice cream today?” she inquired, her feet swung wildly in anticipation. You looked at her radiant face and gazed deep into her delicate soul, admiring both the good and the bad in her.

As you gazed at her, time seemed to stand still for a moment; your life with your daughter had been remarkable, and she was your pride and joy. Your life would be pointless without her. It was difficult for both of you to navigate this life without a strong father figure beside you, but she has been a trooper the entire time.

You looked up at the love of your life as he held her in his arms and asked, "Isn't she beautiful?" As he clutched her delicate fingers, a tear welled up in his eyes.

“I can't believe we made this little booger; I can't wait to see you grow up, my little girl,” you turned to the nurse, laughing at the sight in front of you.

“Is it okay if he stays in here with me for a while?” the nurse nodded her head as she walked out of the bed, dimming the lights. He then gently climbed onto the bed, holding both of his loves in his arms.

“You and our little creation, I love you.”

You paused and swept a tear that had escaped your dry eyes. You quickly turned around and composed yourself before answering your daughter's question.

Even though your daughter was only 5 years old she had the intuition of some wise old mentor, which came in hand occasionally. She extended her neck to the side and looked over to see what was going on.

Within minutes she was on your lap wiping your tears as you hugged her tightly. She gleaned at you and brushed your stray hairs forming around your forehead.

“Are you okay, mommy? We don't have to get ice cream if you don't feel well.” You chuckled as she leaned in close and poked your necklace, a habit she enjoys.

You took her hands in yours and kissed them as you straightened her clothes, trying to relax. You haven't had a panic attack in a long time, due to your busy schedules, and life hasn't given you a break.

“I'm fine, sweetie; I'm just a little tired, but we'll certainly get some ice cream. Okay,” As she looked at you, you peered into her eyes for a reaction. She lifted an eyebrow and cocked her head to the side.

“You know lying is bad, mommy.” She got up from your lap and returned to her car seat, where she strapped herself in and grabbed her toy while humming away, oblivious to your presence.

You started the car thinking about how much she resembles you. Justtt a little too much.

“It's up to you whether you want to go home first or go get our ice cream.” You raised your head and checked the rearview mirror.

“Let's go home and get ready, then we'll go get some ice cream,” 

You laughed as you pulled out from the parking lot on your way home.

(On the other side of the parking lot happening at the same time)

“How was school, buddy? Suengcheol took his son's hand in his as he opened the car door and helped Youngsoon into his car seat. He jumped into the driver's seat and started the car to warm it up. He then turned around and awaited his reply.

“Do you mind if we try something different today? You know my friend Hyejin, she and her mother go out for ice cream every Thursday,” Youngsoon said as he put his toys down. I really want to do something similar. “Do you think we can?”

He glanced at his watch and noted the time, nodded, and turned around to proceed to put the car in drive.

“How about we go get milkshakes like we used to when mom-.” He gulped as he remembered what he had said before restating it, “Yeah bud, we should go get milkshakes like we used to.”

As he pulled out of the parking lot and drove to their favorite restaurant, Youngsoon grinned and went back to playing with his toys.

“Sweetie, are you nearly ready? We've got to get going. It's a school night, so we can't stay out late.” For the third time today, she skipped down the stairs, reached for your hand, and walked with you toward the car.

As you both yelled the lyrics of your favorite song together on the way to the ice cream store, it became exciting and enjoyable. When you and Hyejin went out on the town, it was always a blast. Whatever the case might be, it was certain to be entertaining.

You pulled into the parking lot, parked your car, and unlocked the door, remembering to lock it again when Hyejin exited.

“Would you like your stroller or would you like to walk today?” As she figured out what she wanted, she looked around and pondered. She shook her head and crossed her arms, expressing surprise.

“Now that I'm a big girl, I think I'll be fine.” You smiled as you walked into the store. While we walked past the bright shops and tourist attractions, you saw her eyes widen.

You don't get much time with your daughter, so you want to make the most of it when you do. It was difficult at times to support her because you missed the other half of the support needed to truly make the best life possible for her. But you did your best to make her happy about what you had.

You were working two jobs at the time and rent was increasing as the days passed on.

“Are we going out for ice cream today, Mommy?” She raised her eyes to you as you rubbed your neck to relieve the cramp. As you squeezed her back, you shed a tear.

“Not this week, love; next week, perhaps.” Ms. Tzuyu is approaching the driveway, so mommy has to go to work. Make sure you behave and finish your work; can you do that for me?”

She gave you a slight smile as you embraced her and kissed her on the cheek as you hurried out the door, greeting Tzuyu as you pulled off and drove to work.

You wiped a tear thinking about how not even next week, you could get that ice cream for her. Bills were piling up and you had to prioritize. That is what you had to do not for yourself, but for her.

“So, do you want your usual flavor or would you like to try something new?” She peered through the window and investigated each flavor. For her, it was more of a new experience to see how many different flavors she could try.

Such an adventurous spirit.

“Mommy, I'd like to try a different flavor. “There's one named Rocky Road,” She grinned as she gazed up at you with her lovely almond-shaped eyes. You smiled and ordered her a small cone and an ice tea for you. On the way out of the shop, you grabbed some napkins.

You looked up as her hand swung in the air, admiring the bright buildings flecked with various artwork and taking in the fresh air as the cool breeze rushed through the city. It was fun, and you were thankfu-

“Oh no, I am so sorry let me help you.” You hadn't known it, but you'd unintentionally stumbled into a grown man and spilled your drink on him.

Your daughter laughed as she approached the stranger to embrace him, but you pulled her back and held her behind you before she could reach him. You felt her hand on your side, but you dismissed it because you wanted to see who it was.

“Please accept my sincere apologies; my daughter is extremely extroverted. I'm sorry, but do I know you.” As he spoke, a small voice leaped out from behind the figure and began giggling at your daughter.

“Hello, Ms., my name is Youngsoon, and Hyejin is my class. And this is my daddy.” He pointed up to the good-looking man if I say so myself. You drew Hyejin from behind you while covering your mouth with your hand.

When the man saw the kids hugging and talking about their days, he laughed and reached out his hand.

“Hello, my name is Seungcheol, and I believe we are meeting for the first time. It's wonderful to finally meet the girl my son keeps bringing up.”

While you sat down to meet with his son, you shook his hand and gave him a napkin to clean himself up. You stood up and held your daughter's hand while you waited to see what would happen.

Your daughter squeezed your hand and begged you to pay attention to her. She whispered in your ear as you bent forward and smiled at her appeal.

Youngsoon had the same facial expression as your daughter. You exchanged a smile and cocked your heads at Seungcheol.

“Would it be okay if we hung out with them today?” You grinned when you looked at her pouty face and saw Youngsoon doing the same to Seungcheol.

“If it's fine with you guys, I don't mind at all. We were on our way to the park.” Both of the kids let out a scream as they marched forward side by side, giggling and laughing as children do.

“Forgive me, but I'm so embarrassed that I have no idea who you guys are. My daughter is always talking about your son. I find it amusing that we are meeting up after such a long time.” He laughs as you both settled on a park bench, still in view of your children.

“It's the same here; with Hyejin, there's something different every day. Did you guys get ice cream today as well? He told me that you guys do this thing every Thursday.” As you took in his features, you peered into his eyes.

As his curly locks swept over his warm-toned skin, his plump lips accentuated his wide almond-shaped eyes. As you thought about him, a smirk emerged on your lips, and you lost focus in his eyes.

He is a father, his wife must be lucky.

As you and Seungcheol spoke about life and how it was impacting both of you, time flew by as you heard the laughter and cries of the numerous children in the park.

You'd discovered that he doesn't have a wife anymore. She died when youngsoon was just two years old due to a variety of health issues. You're not sure whether it was destiny or just a random ice cream day, but it seemed like you and he was communicating on a deeper level that only single parents could comprehend as the conversations progressed.

However, as time passed, the sun began to set earlier than usual, and the shops began to close. Your heart ached as it yearned for this, someone with whom you could communicate with.

“Daddy, my feet are hurting and I'm getting tired.” You laughed at his answer because Hyejin was in the same boat as him, dozing off by your side. You gently picked her up and held her in your arms while reaching out to Youngsoon with your free arm.

“It was a pleasure to meet you, Youngsoon, as well as your father.” You extended your hand to him, and he firmly shook it. Seungcheol then walked over to where their cars were parked, holding his son in his arms.

You couldn't see it as you both walked over in silence, but you could sense the tension in the air, and something had to be said.

“Why don-“

“We shoul-“

As you slid your sleepy kids into the car seat, you exchanged glances and chuckled. As soon as you've finished, you move over to the driver seat overlooking the door waiting for him to turn around. 

What can I say, we weren't exactly friends, but we weren't strangers either. Is it appropriate for me to invite him over for a play date? Is that something that kids still have? Why are you so anxious?

He cocked his head and chuckled at your strange head motions, and a laugh escaped his lips as he waved his hand in front of you.

As you swore internally, a wave of humiliation rushed over your face.

“Before I say something stupid, it was wonderful to meet you, as well as your son, who has had a huge influence on my daughter's life. I'm glad she's kept a smile on her face the whole time. It's difficult when, well, you know. I'd like to hang out with you again... I mean with our kids if you're not busy."

Great job Y/N

He smirked and reached for his phone, which he unlocked and handed to you, motioning you to enter your number.

You checked the time as you exchanged numbers and quickly made a mental note that it was way past Hyejin's bedtime. As you hopped into your car, mentally cursing, you waved a short wave.

Why does it feel like I’m a teenager again?

  You struggled to get all of your belongings into the house whilst looking for the light switch. A light turned on as you yelled at the intruder who did it. A tall figure emerged from the darkness, her brows scrunched as she took some items from your hands.

“You scared me, girl. “What are you doing here?” You noticed Hyejin's droopy neck as she slept through the loud introduction, a trait she inherited from you. Tzuyu smirked and slid Hyejin out of your arms as she put her drink down.

“I hope you didn't forget, Hyejin's project is due tomorrow, and you were supposed to get the materials for it.” A hand flew across your face as you gasped and rushed to the calendar, where you saw her project.

“I thought it was next week, and Hyejin would have told me?” When you realized the time, a sigh escaped your lips; all you wanted to do was take a nice bath and soak away all your worries.

Such a great mom move Y/N.

Tzuyu lightly checked to see if Hyejin was awake, her eyes fluttered as she stretched and rubbed her eyes. Her gaze darted around the room, searching for you. Her eyes fell on your worried expression.

“Are you going to tuck me into bed, Mommy?” You walked up the stairs with Tzuyu, pinching her cheek and telling her to brush her teeth and use the bathroom while you helped her get ready for bed.

A text message came through your phone as you waited for her on the bed; stunned, you quickly opened and read the message.

“I'm not sure whether you're awake or not. However, sleepy Youngsoon just told me that he has a project due tomorrow and that he needs some supplies. Unfortunately, all of the good supplies have run out at my house. Do you want to join me on this late-night trip to Walmart if you're up for it?”

As you answered quickly, a cheerful chuckle rang through your throat.

“So it wasn't just me; my lovely babysitter had just told me that I needed to pick up some supplies. Having a companion would make the journey seem shorter. I'll be leaving in ten minutes to meet you there.”

A more vivacious girl jumped into bed and rushed to your side, hugging your arm and waiting for you to move. It was a family tradition to have a kiss on the forehead and tuck covers, as well as a bedtime story if you were lucky. You had never failed to do that one job for her, no matter what the circumstances were. Not only did it make her happy, but it also brought you closer together.

“I don't want to hurry, but mommy needs to run to the store for a few supplies for your project. That is why Ms. Tzuyu is staying with you until I return. Okay, could you please be a good girl tonight and not cause her any problems?” She kissed your lips with a giggle before returning to her side of the bed and nestling into Tzuyu's embrace.

“I love you, mommy, and goodnight.” You returned the kiss and said a soft "I love you" as I closed the door behind you, you dimmed the lights as you rushed to your car.

When you both died of laughter, it felt like the world was spinning. You nabbed a cart and headed down the school aisle, debating on whether a hot dog counts as a sandwich.

Seungcheol grabbed some glue from the shelf and tossed it into the cart, laughing as he whizzed down the aisle.

“A hot dog is a sandwich because it has bread and meat.” As you walked down the aisle, collecting materials as you went, you shook your head as you reached the next aisle, searching for construction paper.

“You are aware that a sandwich is made up of three parts: two sides of bread and the filling. There can't be just one side of bread. It's just basic math.” He turned around and waved his hand in displeasure as he shook his head.

As you observed his behavior, you were reminded of the days when you and your husband would go out on spontaneous dates once you were done with work. You yearned for him and the memories he brought with him.

“I'll get the drinks while you go get the popcorn on the next aisle down. Shall we go with tipsy or chill?” As you contemplated what you wanted, he leaned over the shopping cart.

When you looked at his face, a grin crept across your lips. “Why don't we do both? We haven't had much time for ourselves in a while.” “I'm cool with it.”

He took your hand in his and yelled at the top of his lungs as he moved the cart to the next aisle.

“Tipsy it Itsssssss.”

Seungcheol approached you and tapped your shoulder, curious about what had happened.

“Hey, are you good? You've been zoning out for a while.” As you looked down the empty aisle, he cocked his head and waited for your answer.

As you regained awareness, he shook your arms as you rubbed the back of your neck. As he observed your movements, he gave you a thumbs up. A light smile formed on your mouth as you followed him in silence to the checkout line.

As you took out your card and began putting your things on the belt aimlessly, you were already calculating how much it would cost. He shifted his hand around you before you could pay. As you scoffed at him, he grinned and swiped his card.

“Why di-”

“Before you protest, consider it a gift for joining me on this late-night adventure. Don't be worried.” You slapped his arm with a playful slap as you gathered the rest of the bags and loaded them into the carts as you both walked slowly toward your cars.

As you both loaded your bags into the vehicle, the walk to the car was excruciating. You didn't want the night to end, and you didn't know how to keep it going.

You’re acting like a child Y/N, you’re a grown-ass woman!

“So-”

“Do-”

You were the one who spoke first, as you laughed.

“We need to stop doing that, also I'm not sure if you'll be available next week.” But, if you want to invite Youngsoon over for a play date or something similar. I could call my babysitter?”

You fiddled with your hands as you leaned on your foot to relieve some tension, as he nodded his head with a grin on his face.

“I would love that, you know, some single-parent quality time together. Text me the details, and we should definitely do something without the kids!” 

“Definitely that's a must.” You were reminded of what your daughter said a long time ago as you stood there watching him.

“I can't wait to spend the rest of my life with you, Mommy.”

Something inside of you began to open up as if the grooves had restocked with enough oil to run again. As you both walked back to your car door, something blossomed in your chest.

You'd be happy to spend the rest of your life with him.

You chuckled as you waved goodbye to him for the second time today, thinking of all the possibilities of this unexpected run-in.

What a great way to finish the day.

➳ Navigate to the Maze

[laceandhockeyskates]

What the hell I’ve been up to?!

I don’t even know how to make an introduction for this hot mess but I guess we’ll go month to month more or less because let me tell you 2018.... really fucked me up. Both in good ways, but also in terrible ways? I don’t know... I feel like it’s all worked out in the end but damn was it a mess to get to this point. 

 January- lovely, lovely January. Aka the last time I’ve posted anything of real value on this blog. I had my first trip out of the country!! Other than that uneventful?! 

 February and March (since nothing happened)- I turned 25. I don’t remember anything besides grabbing lunch with my grandma for it... so clearly it was a huge deal. Besides that though.... nothing. 

 April.... this is when things got.... interesting- we found out in April that the retail company I worked for was going out of business. Which was absolutely terrifying. I had no idea what I was going to do, how long it was going to take to find a new job... I knew nothing. That very day that we were told I put in 25 job applications. Within a week I had 4 job interviews lined up for one day that I had off of work, and at the end of that day I had a new job. 

 May- and it gets worse. May 4th was my last day at the store before I started my new job on May 5th. It was somewhere that I had applied to several times and never got a call back from, and it was only a three minute drive from my house so I thought everything was going to work out. Right? Wrong. I HATED it. With every fiber of my being it was the worst. I sat in my car on my lunch breaks crying more often than I wasn’t. It was honestly awful, and some greater power that be must have recognized how miserable I was because I was only there for less than 2 weeks. I started on the 5th and I worked my last day there on the 17th. I was scheduled to have that Friday, Saturday, and Sunday off already which I was thankful for and had all these plans. So since about November-December I had these back pains that started right between my shoulder blades and wrapped around my stomach every few weeks. At first I thought I had a strange strand of the flu, and then I thought I was just sleeping on my back wrong.... well neither was accurate. That Friday night I was sitting on the couch watching tv when the pain hit me again and at that point it was more of an annoyance thing because like seriously?? So I just did what I always did and took pain meds and prepared myself for a night of no sleep and taking a hot bath every two hours to pour steaming hot water over my back (aka the only thing that really helped), by Saturday I wasn’t any better and my dad offered to take me to the ER. I thought he was just tired of listening to me whine about the pain and not really worried but I did let him drive me to Walmart to get a heating pad and more pain killers. Which again... helped.... but only for so long. I actually got to sleep that night and woke up at 3 am in literally the worst pain of my entire life. I quickly got in the tub hoping that the hot water would work or the heating pad or really anything. By 5 am though I knew that something was terribly, terribly wrong and that’s when I asked my dad to take me to the ER. Which I don’t think he took me seriously until 7 when my mom woke up and I asked her to go. It took less than 5 minutes at the ER to be told I have pancreatitis and gallstones and I’m basically screwed. By the time I came back from chest x rays I was being admitted. And let me tell you... that shit sucked. My Er nurse asked me how I was feeling and I literally laughed and told her I was just happy that it wasn’t all in my head. Which she very much assured me that it wasn’t. And that I actually have a high pain tolerance considering anyone else would be screaming in pain, and that if I had waited another few days I’d be going in with a raptured gallbladder. That first day... sucked to put it kindly. Because I had a gallstone blocking my pancreas I wasn’t allowed food (I ended up going from 5 pm Saturday to 2 pm Monday without food) or water (4 am Sunday to 2 pm Monday). Do you know it’s like to go that long? I was the biggest asshole because all I truly wanted was applesauce and water. To top it off though they couldn’t figure out a pain med that actually worked for me. Morphine lasted about as long as it took to get to my toes (a few seconds at best) so I was miserably in pain the entire time. Monday wasn’t too bad. My mom came and visited me, and for the most part I was left alone with the occasional check in minus my surgery consult. Tuesday.... was a day. I’ve never had surgery before and to say I was anxious would be an understatement. I had been waking up around 5-6 am anyways and was just watching the news when I realized there were two people standing outside my door.... I had originally been told my surgery was the 3rd of the day and I wouldn’t be going until about 11 am which gave my parents enough time to get my brother off to school and to be back in time to see me off... that’s not what happened. They had bumped me up to #1. Which meant my labs hadn’t been put in as needed ASAP and had to be run again but as soon as that was done? I was being wheeled away. What I didn’t know was that my mom had a nightmare that I had been taken to surgery early and that I died on the table... so you can imagine her reaction when I texted them that I was actually going to surgery early... needless to say my dad sped all the way to the hospital. Actual surgery though? I don’t remember a ton. I remember going to the holding room and being introduced to a bunch of people that I knew for all of five seconds before going into the OR. I remember moving from my bed to the table and then being wrapped up in a bunch of warm blankets and given the mask. I wasn’t told to count down or anything but within seconds I was out. I remember vaguely waking up to be moved from the table to my bed and I THOUGHT I had only fallen back asleep for the ride to recovery... apparently it was a lot longer than that. I woke up once in recovery and could have sworn they cut me open side to side but nope. It was a successful surgery with only four tiny incisions that hurt like a goddamn bitch let me tell you and then I passed back out... when I finally woke back up again I was awake long enough I was allowed to go to my room where my parents were relieved to see me. I was up walking within an hour (I was told I wasn’t allowed food unless I moved around and got the gas out of myself and had bowl movements. They recommended walking. I wanted food.) and that day was spent between doing laps and sleeping. The next day? The day I was suppose to go home? My labs came back with a high white blood count... and I lost it. Despite my parents visiting me every day I was tired of feeling alone. Luckily though Thursday I was finally released.... in time for my baby brother to graduate high school. Which was a fun ceremony when you’re hopped up on pain meds. 

 June- was a hot mess of dealing with medical leave at the job I hated, but mostly? It was spent enjoying the summer. Once I was cleared for activity I was swimming nearly every day and soaking in the summer with my two baby cousins who turn 12 soon. Despite the physical pain I had to deal with and the stress of work I wouldn’t have traded that in for anything. It gave me so many fun memories to look back on and enjoy. 

 July- I was suppose to go back about the 8th but medical leave was... a mess. And tbh at that point it wasn’t worth the stress to keep that job when for the time being I was making enough by doing side jobs for my family to pay my bills. I did start applying for new jobs though while I spent more time enjoying my summer with my kiddos. By the 27th though I was starting my new job, which is where I’m currently at while I type this long ass post but we’ll get into that a little farther down. Two days later though as I was about to start my first full day at my new job I got the text message I never wanted to get. I had to call my cousin/best friend. Long story short her mother had passed away meaning that she had lost both of her parents in seven years. Something I can’t even imagine. But not only that but it meant that my grandma had also lost her sister and best friend, and my great grandmother had to do the one thing no parent should ever go through.  

August- was honestly a really intense blur. Between two weeks of dealing with the fall out of losing my aunt and starting my new job I didn’t have a life. In late July/early August though I knew something was up with my car but I honestly thought it was just a tie rod going bad... no. Apparently my entire undercarriage was more or less rusting out and I was screwed. I didn’t have any money saved up for a down payment, I had no idea if I could even afford a car payment yet (despite working a better paying job with more hours but I was use to basically barely making ends meet with maybe $20 left over). Luckily my parents who are the real mvps of my life stepped up and helped me figure everything out and I had a new car within a week of starting to search (she’s my baby girl. I’m obsessed. She’s literally everything I wanted minus the fact that she’s white and my previous car was white and I wanted to avoid that: but besides that... I’m happy with her and she’s worth the pretty penny I pay every month). 

 September- was a goddamn mess work wise. It’s all I did. Work. 

 October- I took my first major road trip on my own (driving 2 and a half hours by myself on the interstate. It was a big deal.) and saw FOB in concert which was... life changing. I completely recommend seeing them if you ever have a chance (also machine gun kelly was there and despite the fact that I don’t care for rap.... he was pretty good.). Other than that though October was more work craziness. 

And now for November, and if you guessed work was insane... you’d be right. When I was hired in July it was all “oh it’ll only be busy until like October” and now my boss is like “maybe by March we can get our sanity back for two months?” Which don’t get me wrong I’m grateful. I’m making a $1 more an hour, actually working full time, and I don’t hate a majority of my coworkers (there’s still a handful though that if I had a shopping cart at work I’d run of their bare toes but that’s more because they make my life unnecessarily stressful) but I’m actually happy???? Like as stressed out as I am basically 24/7 I’m doing alright. I have a majority of my Christmas shopping done and wrapped which like?? And idk... I’m just.... I’m in a good place. And I won’t lie I still check myself once and awhile going “okay something is bound to go wrong.” But also maybe all the good is outweighing all the bad that I had to deal with. Anyways so that’s the life update. If you actually read that... bless your soul. Message me. We’re now best friends. And hopefully in the coming weeks I figure out what the hell im doing with this blog.

December update I wanna die lol! We had two people quit in three weeks leaving us with four people to cover 24 hours 7 days a week....it’s a great time. 

[consignmentsaleconfessions]

the story of Meagan, possibly the most confused and frustrating seller ever...

WHERE WE STARTED… 

8/10/18, 10:02 AM

Get Started

Hey Meagan! We are a seasonal children's "pop-up" consignment event. We have sales in XX and XX every spring & fall. We usually answer messages personally a few times a day. In the meantime, what can our autoresponder help you with?

Shopping the Event

Selling at the Event

It's something else

 Hey is to late to sign up for vip shopping and selling at the XX event

Are you interested in selling items or just shopping?

Both

The XX sale has reached the max of 750 regular sellers and we are now registering RESTOCK sellers who will bring their items after the sale has started so we can restock our sales floor.

Can I still purchase a vip ticket

Yes, there are a limited number still available.

8/10/18, 2:17 PM

What’s a phone number I can call so someone can explain to me how to register to sale and buy

Hi Meagan, there is only me, just the one person behind this whole business. Feel free to call me at XXX-XXX-XXXX and I can explain what I wrote above about being a restock seller. You do not HAVE to buy a ticket to shop the sale, but you do have to buy one if you are not a seller and you want to SHOP EARLY at our PRE-sale event. 

WHERE WE PICKED BACK UP THE NEXT SALE SEASON…  9:18 AM

Is there someone I can call for assistance with registering for seller and buyer vip

Hey Meagan! We are a seasonal children's "pop-up" consignment event. We have sales in XX and XX every spring & fall. We usually answer messages personally a few times a day. In the meantime, what can our autoresponder help you with?

Shopping the Event

Selling at the Event

It's something else

Hi Meagan, It's the same phone number as last fall. I'll be available for calls after 1 PM Central time today as I'm not in the office yet and I'm the sole person behind this business. Or you can click the buttons here now and our auto-responder will likely answer most of your questions. If you are planning to sell, you do not need to also purchase a VIP Presale shopping ticket. Which is it that you'd like to do. --Very Patient Sale Owner XXX-XXX-XXXX

I want to sell and buy. So what do I need to do?

You need to register as a seller. You do not need to also purchase a ticket for the VIP presale. If you will hit the button above for "selling at the event", instructions will magically appear courtesy of the autoresponder.

You may also visit our website to learn more: www.XXXXXXXX

Do I have to pay anything? Asking cause I lost my debit card this week

Yes, we have a seller's fee of $10 that you'll need to pay to get started setting up your account.

How much is it ? And how would I get u cash?

How would I get you cash!

we cannot accept cash for your seller's fee. we do accept it for payment at the sale.

I’ll probably won’t get my debit card until the week after next when is the deadline to sign up for this?

Sellers will use PayPal as a part of the registration process and you may use funds form a debit/credit card or PayPal account.

How Do I get a PayPal? What is that?

There is no deadline. We will continue to register sellers until we reach our max of 775 sellers, We are more than half way there in just 24 hours.

You can learn more at www.PayPal.com

Dont I have to have my debit or credit card for that also?

Yes, you will need to have a debit or credit card in order to sign up to be a seller

Neither of those will work I already said I’ve lost my card. Can my mom put hers on here for me?

yes, you could use anyone's card during the checkout process of paying your seller's fee.

Can I buy a prepaid debit card

Is there a way to do that

Yes, I suppose that would work. I really can't support you through the PayPal side of paying the seller's fee during the registration process as it is not under our control. We do not have access to what you do in PayPal, we do not access your account or your funding.

Does it have to be in pay pal?I was just going to go to Walmart and buy one of those prepaid debit cards

The checkout process is done THROUGH PayPal. It is literally the system we are using to collect your fee. You can put the money in by using any debit or credit card from any source. But the PayPal system is what processes the fee and sends the money to us. Does that make sense?

Yes thanks

1:01 PM

Can it be mastercard or visa?

I see it now

Would this work?

I don't see why it would not as all you need is to put in a credit or debit card number to pay the seller's fee.

 3:41 PM

I was just successful at registering and making the payment. When is the dates that I’m able to sell and buy

Meagan, Have you had a chance to take a look at our website to learn about how it works?

Here's a quick summary: 

Selling with us is EASY! 

Step 1: REGISTER online to secure your seller account and item check-in time

Step 2: Gather your Items 

Step 3: Prep your items - clothing on wire hangers, box & bag other items as needed 

Step 4: Create price tags using our easy online system (this also allows you to track your sales each night of the sale!) 

Step 5: Bring your items to check-in 

Step 6: SHOP EARLY at our PRESALE!!! 

Step 7: Return to pickup unsold items or choose to donate them 

Step 8: GET PAID via PayPal within a week of the end of the sale $$$

and there are loads of details here on our website: www.XXXXXXX

there will also be a great deal of information heading your way via email shortly.

Can you at least tell me the dates?

well... there are multiple dates involved, but sure, I'll detail them for you here.

Inventory Locks for Sellers: 

Friday, March 15 at NOON 

Item Check-In: Sunday, March 17 from 3 PM to 7 PM 

Item Check-In: Monday, March 18 from 8:30 AM to 7:30 PM Item 

Check-In: Tuesday, March 19 from 8:30 AM to 5:30 PM 

Presales for Sellers: Wednesday, March 20 (times vary) 

Item Pick-up for All Sellers: Saturday, March 23 from 1 PM to 4 PM

10:45 AM

What does inventory locks for sellers mean

Hi Meagan, The "lock" day & time is the deadline for you to enter your items into the online inventory system.

When is the soonest we can do this

You can log in RIGHT NOW and begin entering your items. It appears that you also need to select an item check-in time from the schedule. You should already have started receving detailed emails from us. And we also have our very detailed "how to" page right here: www.XXXXXXXX

Where and how can I select the check in time

You just need to log in to your Seller Home Page using your Username & Password you created when registering. This is where you will DO everything. You need to select a check-in time. You need to enter your items online and then you will print barcoded tags on cardstock paper. Please take a look at the How to Sell page where I've linked you, I do believe it will help answer many of your questions.

Please send me the link to do this

Please go to our website at www.XXXXXXXX

You can use the LOG IN link to access your account and DO all these things.

And we also have our very detailed "how to" page right here: www.XXXXXXXX

10:31 AM

When is the due date to enter our items into the online inventory

Meagan, I'm a little concerned that you don't have that info... are you getting our emails?

Idk I don’t see anything , but wouldn’t it be much simpler to just reply with the date?

What is the date please

Never mind just found the email! Thank you anyways

You must have all items entered by noon on Friday.

FEB 21, 2019, 11:33 AM

You guys aren’t taking any winter clothes for This sale in March in XX right?

Hey I have a question about some of these newborn and 0 to 3 month baby items that I have. Will y’all except the longsleeved onesies and long sleeve clothes? Asking because my daughter was born in May and we dressed her and long sleeve clothes and long sleeve and long pants onesies because they are used to being in the wombAnd babies like to stay bundled up at that age.

Lightweight cotton long sleeved items will be accepted. If they are fleece, velvet, or velour, they need to wait for the fall sale.

You may find our How to Sell page helpful as you prep your items: www.XXXXXXXX Spring Sales: Bring swimsuits, shorts, sleeveless outfits, and sandals to this sale. Long sleeved items that might be worn on Easter such as button-up dress shirts or light sweaters will be accepted, but heavy, wintry fabrics will not. Fall Sales: Bring snow boots, jackets & coats, sweaters, fleece, velour & velvet clothing, and warm fuzzy Halloween costumes to this sale. Cap-sleeved shirts and light, summery fabrics will not be accepted. Both spring & fall sales: Jeans, polo shirts, capri pants, and light cotton long sleeve sleepers & onesies for infants, and dress-up clothing are all appropriate for both spring and fall sales.

4:45 PM

How do I enter my items on the online inventory from this page?

Have you clicked the arrow beside "enter/print/manage items"?

3:58 PM

All I have is a few items to sell am I still able to shop vip

Meagan, you must bring at least 15 items or $50 of inventory to item check-in in order to earn your pass to the seller's presale which is actually earlier than the VIP Presale.

5:26 PM

Ok I have a babybassinet how much should I price that at ?

I also have a couple of rugs, and foam mattress toppers , one of the rugs has a run in it tho .

Meagan, we suggest pricing items at 1/3 to 1/4 of the cost it was new. You can read our website to learn all about how to be a successful seller at our events: www.XXXXXXXX

What about the rug with the run in it? It is not a big run only a few inches long

Can I bring my mother with me to shop?

Meagan, if the rug is damaged, it cannot be sold. Normal wear and tear is expected but not damage. 

Your seller presale pass is good for one adult shopper, you may not bring a guest. Are you receiving our seller education emails? We're sending all this info direct to your email for your convenience!

I signed up for a Sunday to bring in my items but not sure if that day is going to work out anymore . Is there anyway I can change my appointment day and time?

Sure! Simply log in to your account, unselect the time you have and choose another one.

It’s saying sorry but u have already selected an appt. how do I unselect it

Having a lot of trouble with this

On mobile, the appointment you have selected is on the top. You must select it and "delete" it before choosing a new time.

How long will check in last I have to be home to get kids off buss by 11 am

All the detailed seller "how-to's" are here on the how to sell page: www.XXXXXXXX

Reread my message please I didn’t ask how to do anything

All of the answers to your questions are on our website that we've worked really hard on. We've worked to make it mobile friendly and put all the details you need right there for you to refer to. We're also emailing most of the same information to you.

I’m not seeing that info

This has been so difficult and you all make it so difficult to even answer questions I probably won’t do this again next year

Where does it say how long check in will last

the answer to your question is on our website. It's in your email too. I will paste is here below as well for your reference. There are 790 sellers signed up for this event. Last week's event had 700 sellers. That's too many people for me to walk through the entire process individually which is why we have the website and send emails.

Allow 30-45 minutes Allow enough time to bring your items into the sale. Park and come in to sign your seller’s agreement and receive your presale pass BEFORE carrying items in. You may use our carts & racks to assist with transport. You may also want to bring your own cart or wagon. 

Look how much time was wAsted on that one question you could’ve just pasted it from the beginning and saved 7 minutes of both our lives . You just want to argue

I won’t do this again next year

I don't want to argue, I want you to spend just a moment looking at the information we've provided for you. I have done my best to be immediately responsive to all your questions - morning & night, weekday and weekend. But there is a ton of info available to you and you are not even looking at it. Please avail yourself of the resources we've created to help you. 789 other sellers are managing to find the information. There is just one of me.

Don’t keep on trying to argue w me hun

Where will the check in be held in XX

Are you asking where the event will be located?

Yea all that and reread my question

I read it. I'm clarifying that you are asking for the location of the sale. It is inside the XX Center, XX Street in XX Town. We use Entrance X. This information is all over our website, our Facebook page, and in the 10-12 emails you’ve received from us by now.  (screenshot of website with name, address, photo of building, and link to google maps)

 MAR 6, 2019, 1:51 PM

What about those?

From your photo, the toes of those sandals appear to be peeling off, they would not be accepted for the sale.

The lights and music function is not working on the bassinet. I guess u couldn’t accept it either?

if it is supposed to light up & play music, that part needs to work as well if it is not possible to remove it entirely. Shoppers want to buy items in good condition that work.

I can remove the box that plays music . Is that ok?

yes, if you can remove that part completely so that it is just a bassinet that is fully functional and not recalled, it can be sold.

MAR 18, 2019, 4:35 PM

Hey am I supposed be printing out some sort of tags or something to put on my items I’ve already added them to the online inventory hand tomorrow I have an appointment at 9:15 AM to bring my items to XX to the XX Center

Yes, you need to generate & print tags using the "print tags" tab inside your MyConsignment Manager account

I don’t have a printer

The tags generate into a PDF document. You can send it to a friend or take it to an office store for printing. Remember, tags need to be printed on cardstock paper.

I don’t know what that is and we don’t have it can u accept regular paper?

It’s asking for a print code????

It’s says to contact you all for a valid print code????

Need the print code now!!! Just drove 20 min with both my kids to print these!! You should’ve told me the print code earlier when I was asking you if I nee

You actually dont need it. If you will just go to OUR website at www.XXXXXXXX and use the seller login link there, you will never ever need to enter the print code.

 I am in the seller login

No, you are logging in via www.myconsignmentmanager.com which is a site with a green & white background

If you will just go to www.XXXXXXXXX which is a site with blue & orange background, you don’t need a print code.

 MEAGAN SHOWED UP AT THE SALE TO CHECK-IN AND HANDED US HER 24 TAGS PRINTED ON CARDSTOCK.  

All categories were “not available” and no sizes were listed.

SHE DIDN’T EVEN BRING THE UNPREPARED ITEMS INSIDE.  WE SENT HER TO THE STORE TO GET TAPE & BAGS FOR HER SHOES (16 OF THE 24 ITEMS WERE SHOES)

She did come back with bags, tape, and items. We showed her how to bag the shoes.

We gave her wire hangers for her 6 clothing items, then hung and pinned the tags on for her.  

 WED 3:31 PM

hello, will I be able to use my debit card at the sale this afternoon

We accept CASH and also Visa, Mastercard, & Discover as credit or debit! We do not accept checks. See you at the sale!

THU 10:14 AM

Any outdoor playhouses at the sale or how can I find out for myself , is there a way to check online ?

THU 11:30 AM

Hundreds of people are shopping so we’re not able to update about pricing or availability of items. Come in & shop!

FRI 11:31 AM

Could you please tell me the email I used for my paypal account ? I’m not able to log into any PayPal account. Not sure if I ever even created a pay pal account. I think I just used a prepaid visa that I bought to sign up for seller registration

FRI 3:44 PM

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We’re very busy at the sale trying to sell your items! All of your questions about PayPal and pay out or answered on our website on the how to sell page. They will also be answered in the email that goes out today and repeat it again tomorrow. Please look at the website and your email for the answers to your questions

I did look at the website. when is a good time to call you? I can’t remember If I signed up with a PayPal account or not but I know for sure that I used a prepaid Visa card. Will you please help me look into this when you have time? I keep trying to sign in PayPal account but it isn’t accepting any of my emails and I don’t know why.

We have no access to your PayPal account. All we are going to do is tell PayPal your email address and how much money we owe you. That means the email address that you put into the my consignment manager system, the one that all of our messages are coming too. I’m not sure if you’re getting a reading any of them. The funds will be transferred to PayPal at the email address you used when you signed up for your tagging account. If you are struggling with logging into PayPal, there is nothing I can do to help you. That is between you and PayPal. It is your account. We have no access to it.

I am using that email for my paypal account. The same one I used for my consignment website login and it’s not accepting it. I don’t remember creating a paypal account. Is that something was mandatory when I signed up to be a seller? I don’t understand why it’s not taking my email

Please can I just call you is there a good time?

No, I'm not able to talk you through this because I don't have anything at all to do with your PayPal account. I literally cannot help. You need to call PayPal and talk to THEM about your account. I don't know what email address you put on your PayPal. I don't know anything about it. All I know is what email address you put into MyConsignment Manager and I will soon know how much money we owe you. I will tell PayPal those two pieces of info and they will move funds from our account to yours. After that, it's on you to access those funds.

You can’t tell me if I used a paypal to sign up for sellers registration for my kidsignment?

Meagan, The fact that we use PayPal to collect the seller registration fee has nothing to do with the fact that we use PayPal to pay you out. The two have absolutely nothing to do with each other. It does not matter. 

I don’t know what email address you used to sign up for PayPal. That is between you and PayPal

All I am going to do is tell PayPal the email address I know that you used in my consignment manager and how much money we owe you. It is up to you to be sure that the email address you used in my consignment manager is on a PayPal account somehow, somewhere.

And our sale is not named “kidsignment”.

Did I use paypal to sign up for sellers registration? Yes or no please

It does not matter. That is irrelevant.

PayPal is a checkout system. You used it. I do not know if you have an account or what email address you used on your account. It is your account. We have nothing to do with it.

Can I just have a whole bathroom made in a closet that is big enough to be bathroom?

If you can find someone to do the plumbing, I don’t see why not... not my area of expertise...

Wrong person

I figured...

I don’t even have a paypal account out there I’m on the phone with them now are you sure that’s where my payment is going to?

You just need to create a PayPal account with the same email address that you use in my consignment manager. Once again, I know nothing about your account, what email address you use, or if you even have one. If you do not have one, make one.

That’s why I kept asking you if I had to have one to sign up to sell .... I couldn’t remember if I made one or not

FRI 8:54 PM

Everything about the sale has been so confusing for you, I don’t know how to explain any more. You don’t have to have a PayPal account to register. The checkout is done with PayPal but an account is not required to pay the fee. PayPal is simply a checkout system. We went through all this at the time. I have no way to know if you made an account. I don’t know how to explain the sale any better. 750+ other people are able to make sense of our website & emails. I don’t know how to provide more info than we already have.

It’s just confusing when I keep asking the same question but you explain everything else but you don’t answer my question. It’s done and over with nothing else to argue about paypal account has been made with the email that you have xxxxxxn@XXXX.edu.

Sale was great thanks for the opportunity to be included! Sorry for inconveniencing you so much. My life has been very stressful the last two years . Again I apologize for being hateful to you through messenger I wasn’t sure if I was talking to robot or I just through diff people was messaging me from this account. You take care !

Glad you were pleased with the experience.  It certainly has not seemed that way over the past several weeks.  Email is our preferred communication and the auto-responder is set up to handle quick questions shoppers have. We put all the seller details in email and on the website. I am sorry your life has been stressful. Since the participating has been so confusing for you, it may be best for you to find another way to sell your items in the future. I’m glad you ended up being pleased with this season in the end.

Thankfully, we never heard from Meagan again.

[theycalledmecrazy]

It's strange to say, but I'm one of the last people to shop in the wee hours of the morning at a Walmart. I finished my shopping and approached the cash register right around midnight. The cashier had just clocked in and had just been told that was her last night working the late shift as a cashier. Starting tomorrow, all the Walmarts across the nation will close at 11 PM. Third shifters like my cashier will be in charge of cleaning and sanitizing a store and assisting in restocking for the next day.

It's a strange thing to think about. Our lives are so convenience based. Anytime day or night, if you need something, there was probably a store within a reasonable driving distance that you could go to and find what you need, barring any specialty necessities. 

I wonder to myself if this move won't be slightly counterproductive to containing the virus. As it stands now, shoppers are spread out in the major big box stores over a 24-hour period. Now, with many stores taking 8 or so hours off in the middle of the night, shoppers will only be able to access the store within a 16 to 17 hour timeframe, naturally leading to a higher concentration of people during those times.

It's been a week of interesting firsts. Just the other day, Mike Dewine, governor of Ohio made the announcement that Ohio schools would be closed for 3 weeks. For the first time in history, every Disney park on Earth is closed at the same time. And for the first time in my knowledge, my job has authorized people who don't normally work from home to do so.  

I digress from my point. First, I suppose some backstory will be due. This is being written on the Ides of March in the year 2020. I am in Columbus, Ohio, United States. I am 37 years old. The country, state, and city have all declared states of emergency in the wake of the spread of the Covid-19 virus pandemic. As I dictate this to my phone, I'm driving home from Sidney Ohio, having just completed a route delivering medicine to nursing homes. I work two jobs.

I began researching this disease and the spread of it well before it hit American shores. I've been watching the John Hopkins 'heat map' since the second week of January, a time when the only mention of coronavirus you heard was your coworker telling a joke involving it going best with lyme disease. I've learned about its capability of spread in an urban populace, and I watched the drone footage of the "ghost city" of Wuhan several weeks ago, long before it went viral (ha!) via Facebook. A booming urban metropolis reduced to how London looked in 28 Days Later. I learned about the term 'Community Spread' before it was ever uttered on American live feeds. My productivity at work, my attention to friends, my normal functioning bottomed out as I became hyperfocused on the menace that I begged the universe in vain to keep overseas. I should have known, and should have been preparing. But, as humans are prone to be, I was a product of my environment. That culture of convenience and procrastination. But now there's no more convenience and no more procrastination.

I now know that things are going to get worse. These kind of rushes on product like we've been seeing is just the beginning. We are going to face days of true scarcity. I fear that even with my recent stockpiling, that my "preparedness" has come too late. I remember my father teaching me how to stockpile and prep for days when there would be scarcity, and I've failed to do so effectively. Over the last week or so, I've done my best with the small amount of resources I have. As things stand now, my shelves are stocked. I know how to ration in emergency situations, and although it will suck, I know that I can ration much smaller amounts because I have a lot of fat on my body that my body will live off of for extended periods of time. I always joked that being overweight was just a surplus Y2K survival kit. Turns out, that's truer than I'd like it to be. I thought keto was my path to losing weight. Turns out the coming days will be much more effective. 

The scenarios that we had always gone over in are prepping drills involved an attack on the United States or some uprising within. All that boogaloo horseshit you hear, or heard. Ways to make sure that your food was secure from people that might be looking for it. Making sure that you had weapons to defend yourself and those in your care. Safeguards against basic things like frostbite or heat exhaustion. Basic first aid. Foraging. Boy Scout shit. The drills never included anything like Covid-19. At first we were told that the illness was little worse than a common cold, just a little easier to spread the people. Now, we are getting reports that it creates a fibrosis in the lungs, and even if you recover from your bout of the illness, you can be left with up to 20% reduced lung capacity. People in Hong Kong are now reporting that healthy adults that have recovered from the disease now get winded by a brisk walk. In Japan, a recovered patient has tested positive for the disease again, making the medical community wonder about the antibodies that the bodies of recovered SHOULD be producing. Dad and I never prepared for anything like that. I think the best hope in the situation that we prepared for would be that any human we come in contact with will have also been similarly reduced in  capacity, since this disease looks to be one that will spread to a majority of the populace. I'm glad that part of preparedness is adaptability, but I'm still sitting here rambling.  

I've tried to focus on purpose in the last several days. I keep telling myself that it's important to stay positive and to still do the things that I love doing. Indeed, I still play cards with my roommate and my gaming group of friends, all aware that we may wind up having to quarantine once 'things get bad'. I watch people that I love still doing the things that they love, seemingly unaware of the world that's collapsing around us. What I like to go see a movie? Would I like to go to the mall? Would I like to go see a show in a theater? Absolutely. But while many do not notice, we don't live in that world anymore. Well, some still do. They'll live in that world until the very last moment they can - which is why I had to live in this new one so soon. Even now, when it's becoming apparent that the world as we knew it is over, social media is alight with blissful ignorance and vapid resistance to the world we find ourselves in. 

When the first cases were reported in the state, it was on a day I found myself financially unstable. I couldn't have prepared for anything that day if I'd wanted to - I had victoriously paid off two large pieces of debt and was done with an 'only has money' week until next payday, and even the next paycheck had obligations. Instead of writing a plan, I wrote letters to my loved ones with advice for the upcoming hard times, and an apology for leaving them(before you all sound the alarm, that's not what this is, and that feeling has long since passed). Reading the letters to myself, I realized the cowardice behind the words, and despised myself for a few days after deleting them. Though, admittedly, even now as I watch the heat map and watch the numbers rolling in, I somewhat long for cowardice, but steel myself and square my shoulders for the task ahead. 

Now this.

Some friends have asked me to promise to get their loved ones to them if I'm closer to them than they are, or even to keep them with me and keep them safe. For all my misanthropy, I guess people still see me as some kind of fringe guardian in many respects. I suppose it's because they know I'd die before letting someone I care about die. I wonder if it makes me exploitable, or if maybe that's just my purpose. It makes a lot of things make a lot of sense. Sometimes in the horror movie of life, you're the one that distracts the monster so the others can get away. I have no illusions of being the hero, but I won't turn down the opportunity if it happens. Ugh, this paragraph was self serving as hell, but I'm not deleting anything at this point. Watch me ramble. Maybe there's something valuable in it. 

That time is a bit off, but I know that I'm going to see loved ones die in this, and I know that my friends in my time that read this will think I'm being overdramatic(I'm sure some of them haven't even made it this far and have either called me or forwarded this to authorities - both unnecessary, I assure you). I know that I may not survive what's coming. So I think the best thing I can do is do what I've always done. Write. I will write and hope that my words will create a culture among those that read my words in a distant future. My goal is to make you, the reader, not make the same mistakes we made, the mistakes I made, the mistakes anyone made. I won't have an editor, most likely, so forgive my rambled mess of a memoir. Maybe someone in the future will edit and make sense of it all. 

I hope that this is all just me ranting and raving about something absurd and in the future this will embarrass me and we'll all laugh about it. If you're in the future and reading this, however, that means that scenario isn't what happened. I hope things are better for you. I hope that I'm talked about with good words. I hope some of my loved ones are the ones who saved these words and shared them with the world. It would be really great if it was me, but I'd probably edit out this whole paragraph, so probably not. That's ok. Either way, it's now 2:30am and I must unload groceries and get them shelved. Tomorrow is another day, and I'm going to play some video games while I can like the old millennial I am to escape for a couple hours before my nerves finally let me sleep. See? Rambling run-on sentences. You'd never guess I was an English major. Ms. Somers would be so disappointed (lol). I told my friends in February that we'd be ordered to stay at home soon. They called me crazy.

I didn't realize until just this moment that if anyone ever reads this aside from those I send it to in order to preserve it, I'll essentially have been writing my own eulogy. That's fine. I'll take that.

I decided to create this Tumblr on March 30, 2020. In the two weeks since writing this prologue, things have progressively gotten worse. I will write more tomorrow.

[meagansometimes]

148 Questions

What star sign is the last person you text messaged? Leo.

How did you feel when you woke up today? I felt pretty energetic.

Do you know what the person you have feelings for is doing at this moment? I don’t have feelings for anyone, I guess.

When was the last time you had an alcoholic drink? A few nights ago.

Who was the last person to make you cry with laughter? I’m not sure.

Who was the last person you talked about sex/relationships with? Probably Indi or Jenna.

How do you feel about answering sexual questions when filling in surveys? I won’t do it.

Who was the last person you Facebook messaged? Indi.

Are they in a relationship? No.

Which would annoy you more - a one-word response, or a long paragraph? A one-word response.

What first attracted you to the last person you kissed? He has pretty good style and I like his mustache and I dunno. He’s just kinda cute. 

Is there anything you would like to tell someone? I don’t know but I’m about to have to write a letter that’s gonna determine that I guess. I’m doing this survey to try to work up to it. Also known as procrastinating. I mostly just don’t want to drudge up those feelings.

How many months until it’s your birthday? Three.

How old will you be? A lady never tells her age.

Have you felt your heart racing today? No.

In your phone, who is the first contact listed under ‘R’? Rebecca.

How did you meet him/her? She lives next door.

Who introduced you to the person you have feelings for? No one did. We met online.

How many brothers does your father have? One.

How old is your oldest friend? It depends on who you really count as a close friend but lots of my friends are in their mid to late thirties.

Have you ever had a crush on someone several years older than yourself? Definitely.

Does your best friend have any tattoos? Yes. 

Do you still speak to your first love? I don’t think I really have had one yet.

What if the last person you kissed, accused you of no longer wanting them? I’d be surprised they even noticed.

If you find out someone’s been talking about you, do you confront them? I doubt it.

Do you think you act older or younger than your actual age? I don’t know or care.

What’s the nicest meal you’ve ever eaten? I’m not sure. Right now I’m obsessed with Eastland Cafe.

Do you ever do iPod shuffle surveys? I used to love them but haven’t taken one in years.

Do you ever do ‘Top Friend’ surveys? Do those still exist?

If you could relive any day in the past year, what day would it be? I honestly don’t know. Maybe live on the green or something where I was having fun.

Would you rather date someone taller or shorter than you? Taller.

Have you ever become friends with someone you at one point hated? Probably.

Does is make you uncomfortable when people compliment you? A little bit.

Do you have a favorite t-shirt? No, I have so many but tonight I posted my first t-shirt tuesday one in my new Velvet Underground shirt.

Shot of whiskey, or a bottle of Smirnoff? eh.

Would you consider yourself an adventurous person? Not really.

Have you ever snuggled with someone you weren’t dating? Yes.

What were you doing at 11 pm last night? Working on ebay stuff I think.

How often do you hold back from saying what you are thinking? Fairly often.

Are you doing this because you’re bored? No. I’m doing it because I don’t want to work on this letter.

Would you consider yourself heartless? No.

Do you ever wish you were the opposite sex? Occasionally.

If you could go on ONE DATE with any celebrity, who would it be? Maybe Slash.

Have you ever been afraid of being underwater? Well, I’d be afraid if it were for a long time.

Would you ever scuba dive in shark infested waters if you had the chance? I doubt it.

If you woke up and no one was home, would you wonder where everyone is? No. I live by myself.

Have you ever been drunk at work? I don’t think so.

Have you ever hit a parked car with your car? Yes. I backed into Mariah’s car once, right after she reminded me it was there.

If you just drank 15 beers, what would you be doing? Wanting to die.

What would you do if your girlfriend or boyfriend didn’t like your friends? I’d probably discuss it with them.

Have you ever slept on the floor with someone you like? Probably.

Have you ever woken up next to someone and were freaked out? No.

Would you take a road trip with your friends? Probably.

Which do you prefer: french toast, bagels, or cereal? Bagels.

Do you prefer light or dark haired? Light.

Do you have photos up around your room, of you? No.

If you’re extremely quiet, what does that mean? Usually that I just have nothing to say or I’m trying not to cry.

Do you have a hard time controlling your emotions? Sometimes.

Ever been suspended from school? No.

Does it make you mad when people stare at you? Sometimes.

Do you prefer pens or pencils? Pens.

Have you ever read any of the Chicken Soup for the Soul books? Yes. Many years ago.

Last person you were in the car with? Indi.

What time did you wake up this morning? 10:00 am.

Do you have a friend of the opposite sex you can talk to? Yes.

How tall are you? 4′10.

How many drugs are in your system? None.

What foreign language do / did you study? I studied German.

Do you own sunglasses? A lot.

Where is the next place you will travel to? The atm/walmart/my appointment tomorrow.

What were you doing at 8:00 this morning? Sleeping.

Do you say sexy a lot? No.

Do you want to cut your hair? Nope.

Do you have empty bottles of alcohol hidden somewhere? No.

You have to get a piercing, what do you get? A second hole in my ears or my nose.

Do you miss anyone? Yes.

Think back to your most recent relationship — Serious or not? Was it worth it? Exclusive but not serious and probably not worth it.

Have you ever sneaked someone over to your house? No.

Is it okay if you kiss people when you’re single? Yes.

Do you think it’s possible that you could move on from someone, and then redevelop feelings for them? Yes.

How’s your hair right now? I just fixed it and it’s down.

Do you only wish the best for your ex? Sure.

How are things between you and the person you like? N/A

What were you doing at 4 AM last night? Sleeping.

Who was the last person you talked to before you went to sleep last night? Chris I think.

What time did you decide to get out of bed today? 10:00

Did you straighten your hair this morning? No.

When was the last time you laughed really hard? Probably Sunday.

What do you hear right now? The heat running.

If you were breaking up with your girlfriend/boyfriend, what would you most likely say? It would really depend on the situation.

Do you think that once people get married, they eventually fall “out of love”? No.

Ever had a near death experience? Kind of but not really.

Where’s your cellphone? Right next to me on the arm of the couch.

What is the last thing you thought about? Where my cell phone was.

Do you regret anything? Kind of, yes.

If you found out you were pregnant who would you tell first? Probably the father or my mom.

Who would you like your next “fling” to be with? I don’t want a “fling.”

Are you slowly drifting away from someone close? Not really.

When was the last time you saw the person you last kissed? Last month.

Do you like your phone? Sure.

Last alcohol beverage? Vodka/Coke.

Have you ever slept in a bed with the opposite sex? Yes.

If you had to move in with a friend, which one would you pick? Indi probably.

What do your best friends call you? Meagan

Who was the last person to go to the movies with you? I think Joe. I never go to the movies. I don’t care for them.

Are you currently fighting with someone? No.

Last time you had butterflies in your stomach? I’m not sure. Maybe a few weeks ago.

Do you mainly use your house phone or your cell phone? I always use my cell phone.

Is there an empty place in your heart? Eh.

Do you count down the days till anything? Sometimes.

Are you looking forward to something as of right now? Some shows.

Have you ever been called a tease? Not that I remember.

What are your chances of getting with your crush? N/A.

Are any of your friends so close that you consider them family? Kind of.

Anyone told you a secret this week? Not that I can remember.

Do you hate anyone? No.

Last time you wore the opposite sex’s clothing? I don’t remember. Maybe a year ago. Geez.

What do you want in your life right now? Money and happiness.

When was the last time you laughed so hard you thought you were going to cry? I can’t remember.

Do you trust people easily? Sort of.

Proud of anything right now? Proud of myself for taking the steps I am right now.

Name a band you’d like to see live? Guns N Roses.

Have you ever been stalked? No.

Have anything on your mind? That I want to go to bed and not write this letter.

Name three things that meant something to you, but now doesn’t?

I don’t know.

Name three things that didnt mean anything to you, but now does?

I’m not sure.

Favourite type of music? So much.

What band/group have the most lyrics that represent you? Ugh.

Do you drive? Yes.

Own a car? Semi.

Best season? Summer/fall.

Who’s your best friend/s? Indi, Jenna, Craig, Cayla, etc.

Would you rather sing or dance? Dance.

One thing you really want to learn? How to sew.

What’s your favourite tv channel? I don’t have one.

Name your favourite programs? Girls.

What are you doing this summer? Nothing special.

How many times have you been on a plane? Many times.

Favourite song? Constantly changing.

Scared of anything? A few things.

One thing you wish for? Money.

Do you get jealous easy? Unfortunately, yes.

What colour is your hair? Blonde-ish.

What night club plays the best songs to dance to? I don’t know.

Made up with anyone recently after an argument? Not really.

Missing anyone right now? Kind of.

Do you use MSN? I use hotmail, if that counts.

[babytaes]

The Song Series

the song series

a series based on some of babytaes’s favorite (non svt) songs

♡ fluff | ☆ angst | ♢ suggestive/smut  |☾ slice of life

✧･ﾟ: *✧･ﾟ:* 　　 *:･ﾟ✧*:･ﾟ✧

S.coups

➸ all night long- ∙ ♡

↳  ⌊ Single Parent AU ⌋

 ↳ Night Changes - One Direction

« You forgot about your daughter’s school project until the last minute, what happens when you join her partner’s father on your 11 PM Walmart run.

✧･ﾟ: *✧･ﾟ:*

Jeonghan

➸ the arcane angel- ∙ ☆ ∙ ♢ 

↳ ⌊ Serial Killer AU ⌋

↳ A Kiss - Drivers Era

« Why is it that the good-looking people are always the ones with the mad minds? Several cases of dead bodies have been discovered, and they are all linked. They are often accompanied by a pair of angel wings.

✧･ﾟ: *✧･ﾟ:*

Joshua

➸ serenity- ∙ ♡ ∙ ☾

↳ ⌊ College AU ⌋

↳ Still The Same - SHY Martin & Boy In Space

« You run into an old friend on the way to pick up your delivery, who seems to be waiting for his pizza as well.

✧･ﾟ: *✧･ﾟ:*

Jun

➸ stay by me- ∙ ☆ ∙ ♡

↳ ⌊ Dystopian AU ⌋

↳ Next To You - Chris Brown & Justin Bieber

« Your eyes have been twitching for months now on and off again. Suddenly your vision goes black and a message displays, “error, maintenance required”

✧･ﾟ: *✧･ﾟ:*

Hoshi

➸ don’t leave me- ∙ ☆ ∙ ♢ ∙ ♡

↳ ⌊ Zombie Apocalypse AU ⌋

↳ Never Forget You - MNEK & Zara Larsson

« Over the past two years, the apocalypse has been raging, food has become scarce, and security has weakened. Will you survive as a small town girl living in a small apartment with your college best friend?

✧･ﾟ: *✧･ﾟ:*

Wonwoo

➸ afterglow- ∙ ☆ ∙ ♡

↳ ⌊ Soulmates AU ⌋

↳ Imagine - Ariana Grande

« You, too, lived in a colorless world, trying to connect with it. How long would you have to wait for that one to brighten it up and let you see the real world?

✧･ﾟ: *✧･ﾟ:*

Woozi

➸ toxic smoke- ∙ ☆ ∙ ♢ 

↳ ⌊ Mafia AU ⌋

↳ Temporary Heart - PRETTYMUCH

« You'd never expect your boyfriend to be the mafia's boss. The leader of a gang, of all things. What have you gotten yourself into, and do you think you'll make it out alive?

✧･ﾟ: *✧･ﾟ:*

The8

➸ my datsuzoku- ∙ ♡ ∙ ☾ 

↳ ⌊ Neighborhood AU ⌋

↳ Day & Night - Jung Seung Hwan

« Is it the little kid who cycles alongside you every day, the bright paints splattered over your jean jacket, or the new neighbor who seems to have a thing for wine that makes you feel loved?

✧･ﾟ: *✧･ﾟ:*

Mingyu

➸ how the heart breaks- ∙ ☆ ∙ ☾ ∙ ♢

↳ ⌊ Lovers to Enemies AU ⌋

↳ Happier - Olivia Rodrigo

« After being lovers, becoming enemies was easier than becoming strangers.

✧･ﾟ: *✧･ﾟ:*

Dk

➸ the cure- ∙ ☆ ∙ ♡

↳ ⌊ Hanahaki Disease AU ⌋

↳ Die For You - The Weeknd

« His smile can brighten the whole world, and he is everything you want in a lover. How do you inform him that the seeds have begun to spread in your lungs?

✧･ﾟ: *✧･ﾟ:*

Seungkwan

➸ second life- ∙ ♡

↳ ⌊ Ghost AU ⌋

↳ if we never met- John K

« You didn't expect a ghost to be so affectionate; you thought haunted houses were creepy, but this ghost suddenly wants to make you tea and give you a tour of the house.

✧･ﾟ: *✧･ﾟ:*

Vernon

➸ mad at you- ∙ ☆

↳ ⌊ Superhero AU ⌋

↳ Sunflower - Post Malone & Swae Lee

« You're paired up for a group project and he’s the worst partner ever because his crime-fighting bullshit takes up all your time.

✧･ﾟ: *✧･ﾟ:*

Dino

➸ my last chance- ∙ ☆ ∙♢ ∙ ♡

↳ ⌊ Time Traveler AU ⌋

↳ Happy Now - Zedd & Elley Duhe

« He's a time travelling biographer, who travels through time befriending historical figures to better understand them. However you get a little too close for comfort.

✧･ﾟ: *✧･ﾟ:*

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