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queerian · 4 months ago

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the cool thing about practicing mindfulness or something approximate to it is that im getting better at noticing my own thoughts

so for example i almost reblogged a kink post i thought was cute and fun and in real time noticed my thoughts tick through 'i shouldnt reblog that, what if the universe sees me imply i like that and then does it to me'

there is SO much irony here i just wanna pin them under a microscope and get out the tweezers

#queerianposting #i am not a theist and i wasnt at all raised as in a religious practice of 'god is watching you misbehave and will punish you'#and yet some quirk of my neurology and socialization has given me The Fear Of Sin #the very idea that wanting something will result in it happening to me But To Make Me Suffer Inststead #SLAPS YOU UNDER THE MENTAL MICROSCOPE #GET PROCESSED

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