#and with discord as well I don't know if it's like a hate campaign or a fandom decision that I'm problematic or what?

[bharv]

It's such a weird thought that there are multiple people whom I thought were Beloved Mutuals and then I've done something so heinous that they just blocked me and I don't know what I did?

I mean it probably was something legit, I'm very annoying, but it's just... the never knowing.........

[percahliaweek]

FAQ '24

What tag should I use?

#percahliaweek is our designated tag - you can @ us @percahliaweek so we can reblog your contribution on the corresponding day.

Where are the prompts?

Ah, seems this has escaped containment then. You can find them HERE!

Will you be doing anything on Twitter/other social media?

We considered it! However, as other social media sites have proven unreliable (especially lately), we'll be hosting the event only on Tumblr. However, you're welcome to post your work wherever you like! Just understand that without a Tumblr post we can't exactly RB your entry.

Can I do _ for the event?

Yes. Yep. That too. Seriously, so long as it focuses on Perc'ahlia (and is appropriately tagged to avoid spoiling people), you can do it. Cosplay, inspired recipes, beadwork, podfic, go wild! Well, with the caveat that no hateful content will be permitted - don't use a joyous event to rain on someone else's parade or promote hatespeech, alright?

Is NSFW content allowed?

Given the ship in question and just how canonically horny they are for eachother - yes! However, we request that you tag this content as #nsfw and use the appropriate content filter on it. If posting in the Discord server, keep it to the 18+ chat. Be mindful of potential minors in fandom space + people browsing content in public.

I want to participate but haven't watched Campaign 1!

We welcome fans of The Legend of Vox Machina with open arms. As a result, it's requested that campaign fans do their best to avoid spoiling show fans for anything beyond what Season 2 has shown (Umbrasyl's defeat). That means late Campaign 1, the oneshots and any mention of them in other campaigns should be tagged as #cr1 spoilers (using just this tag for simplicity). Show fans, if you want to remain unspoiled, I recommend you block this on Tumblr and mute spoilery channels in the server.

Wait - what might get spoiled for me here?

The #cr1 spoilers tag should broadly cover anything TLOVM hasn't yet, but do note that Percival and Vex'ahlia pop up in Campaign 3 and so some fics might contain mild spoilers for the events of that campaign and the decades between their epilogue and now.

Is there an AO3 collection for the fanfics?

Yes! HERE it is, ready and waiting for your fics! If interested in last year's fics (which definitely deserve some love), you can find them over HERE!

Does my submission have to fit one of the prompts?

That would be ideal, yes! Anything freeform should be posted on Day 5 for Free/Random prompts. But fitting the prompt can be very loose - maybe you just use the word as a motif, or you take it in an entirely unexpected direction. We want to encourage creativity and fun more than anything else.

I don't know what to do for the Free/Random day!

We have a few recommendations (we are unaffiliated with the websites linked): Random page of the Encyclopedia Exandria Random word generator OTP prompt generator AU generator Ghost’s Spell prompts [roll 2d20?] Wild Magic Surge table Life events table If you've made prompt lists and would not mind them being featured here, reach out!

How did you choose the prompts?

Prompts were selected by a combination of admin discussion and voting in our Discord server to try and ensure a good mix of evocative prompts (we see y'all voting disproportionately for the Scars prompt! We see it!).

Where can I find last year's prompts?

You can find the list and links to individual tags HERE. Given last year was our first year, we unfortunately didn't think to tag Day 1 until after the fact (we'll need to go and clean that up).

Why late September?

On September 29th, 2016, the Critical Role episode 'Passed Through Fire' aired, which features an iconic Perc'ahlia moment (no spoilers for show fans!). Following Burr's poll last year on which scene is most iconic for the pairing, we decided to have the week celebrate the anniversary of that episode. And, with TLOVM S3 airing the next week, who knows - we might get the animated version to go with it soon! ;3

Is it okay if I only do one prompt?

This event is intended to be relaxed and fun - one entry, or seven, or fourteen, however many you want! We've tried to announce the event earlier this year, to allow for more time for everyone to work on their entries, so please don't feel pressured to do them all the week of. And if you can't finish on time, there's no pressure: late submissions will still be RB'd and added to the AO3 collection. Mind you, after a month or two we might stop checking the blog and tag regularly, so your best bet is to @ us or post in the Discord server!

A Discord server?

We have set up a little server for this event on Discord, mostly to hang out with other Perc'ahlia fans and motivate eachother to work on our respective projects. The current link is HERE - let us know if it's not working!

Who is hosting this?

At the moment the users running this blog are @burr-ell, @blorbologist, @crithaus, @essayofthoughts and @rightpastnowhere! If you have any questions or concerns (i.e. we didn't see your post and missed RBing it :c) please let us know!

Any more questions? Feel free to send in an ask and we'll do our best to answer in a timely manner!

[faulix]

btw, since people love lying about me on this website:

i have not known lolthia for a year like they claim. i first learned of lolthia about a month ago when i noticed their racist treatment of my friend. it was by chance we learned of their goretober list that had abuse glorification with prompts like medical/drugged torture, kidnapping, and stalking. we were able to see that lolthia had a pattern of writing yandere, murder, and other gross topics with a quick search of their blog. THAT is why i decided to say something and call them out. period

x

i find it kind of hilarious that you're claiming to have blocked me from servers and discord so you don't have proof. i wonder if you would even know my discord, yknow, the one handle i haven't changed in years. i mean, surely if you have me blocked you would be able to pull that up easy right? let's not forget the fact that you're claiming to know me personally when you cannot even get my pronouns right.

x

the funny part about this is that barely anyone who rb'ed your callout weren't even your mutuals, with a good amount of people actually adding in the notes how fed up they were with your bullshit. i am not a big enstars blog. i'm not even talking about enstars right now. i am a small blogger with less than 100 followers who ships with the only two minor characters in enstars. a majority of people who have rb'ed your callout are not big enstars bloggers. we are small time selfshippers just trying to have a fun time on tumblr dot com. the only one who is willfully taking themselves out of the fandom or even the circle of enstars selfshippers is you. you willfully create harmful content, you paint yourself as the victim, and you refuse to apologize for multiple things such as your racism and suicide baiting.

x

i am nice to others because they are not winding up their victim complex to make me look like the bad guy. again, if you have legitimate proof that we were once friends: look at your blocklist (or your server blocklist) and post my handle. i dare you. but then again, you probably couldn't do that considering you don't know what the username is. i think the funniest thing about it is that you can't even be bothered to post the server name, can't even bother to explain how we met (shocker considering i've only been into enstars actively for like barely a year now), it is you saying "well this is clearly my word against his" when you can't even provide the basic proof that you and i ever knew each other. you probably DON'T want me to post the ask where you said that you had finally found me and lamented that we could even be friends now if i would take back my words and be the bigger person. but then again, you kind of admitted that yourself when you said you didn't know who made the callout and even said it could be multiple people because you didn't know, but hey, let's take back that and spin it as a long rooted hate campaign by me. x

btw, when i first made this post, i held off on posting it because i haven't received nonanon asks for this, so i was able to chalk it up to you just trying to send more anons toward me to get me painted as the villain, but since this morning i woke up to you making a callout post about me that was filled with lies and fake screenshots it's about time i speak up. you may have deleted it, but don't worry, i made sure to screenshot everything you said and put it in an imgur album to refresh your memory. right here, don't worry, i took every screenshot word for word so you can remember what you said.

i'm not going to post every single screenshot to this. i think it would be insane behavior to make this post even longer. so let me just some up my feelings:

in your fake screenshots not only did you try to blur out what my name was (probably because these are not actually talking about me, but hey, you thought you could make it work, right?) but you proceed to, once again, continuously use the wrong pronouns for me, which is kind of weird since you're claiming to have known me for a year.

let me reiterate this so you get it through you thick skull: i use he/it pronouns and have been doing so for years now. your callout and screenshots repeatedly uses the wrong pronouns for me. do not even bother claiming you didn't know or that i recently changed them as my past blog and every single friend i'm close with will testify to my pronouns, and i'm absolutely sick of you misgendering and degendering me and my identity. considering you've been sending me several asks you could have easily looked and my pronouns in both my description and pinned, but hey, that's another lie for you, right?

then you post a screenshot of a server main chat, but it's very convenient of you to 1.) not get the server name and 2.) leave out the date you sent it, yknow, the things that you could at least say we shared together. i wonder why you didn't bother to get that information if it was so important. oh wait, i do! it's because you are deliberately lying about me to paint yourself as the victim.

i'm not going to even dissect the lies you weave together because, once again, you are speaking without proof. this is not a case of "my words against his" you are deliberately spreading lies on the grounds that you think no one will fact check you, you tool. again, if i was such a danger to you that i would deliberately make several accounts to surpass your "ban", why would you not post my discord username or the "alt accounts" i made to protect others for safety? why don't you do so now? oh! it's because you don't know them and are lying through your teeth.

i did not send you an ask where i told you that you needed to change your goretober list to get rid of the necrophilia. if i did, how about you post it with my url and call me wrong. not to mention the biggest thing i called you out on was the fact that you were glorifying and romanticizing abuse with drugged torture, kidnapping, and stalking. but sure let's gloss over that part because that would make you look bad!

there is nothing out of context in what you said or did, it is in plain english, several screenshots where you demonized a selfshipper of color because "they were more popular than you", pulled several excuses out of your ass to ship with a 16 year old, and put suicide baits in the main enstars tags, oh but don't worry! in your eyes the enstars fandom deserved it! and you want to paint yourself as innocent? give me a fucking break.

and the absolute gall of you to proclaim you acted like this because of your bpd, which you're still rb'ing sad bpd posts now. the nerve of you to assume i am not neurotypical when i have been struggling with autism and adhd all my life, and my own bpd for the past 14 years since i was diagnosed. it is not an act of ableism to call you out on your disgusting behavior towards people of color and abuse victims. i don't care about your backstory. you know exactly what you are doing and say that you are "exploring dark themes". no one believes you, and no one ever will. and miss me with that "i didn't know the shipper's race" as if you did not see the commissions you were directly complaining about them that shows them as not white very obviously. but hey, what's one more lie for you?

just so you know: every single ask you have sent me i have kept. from where you pretended to be 10 different people, all from your original ask where you think we should "just talk it out" without you taking any accountability, thanking me for the callout, pretending to be anons sticking up for you, and even threatening me with fake evidence that i have been in enstars servers sending death threats. but hey, since i didn't respond to those so you could have ammunition as so you could say i'm stalking you and villainizing you, i guess the next step would be a callout!

i will never be as obsessed with you as you are with me. you are the stupidest person on this planet if you genuinely thought i would not catch wind of what you were doing, from sending me and my friends and mutuals several asks to deliberately lying about me on your own blog. you have sent me over 50 asks in 24 hours, spamming my inbox with anons, but you couldn't even bother changing your typing style. you can't be bothered to tell people to watch out for this discord user because, again, you don't even know who i am. you can spin a web of lies to cover your ass, but barely anyone sees through it, and no amount of anons you send yourself will never convince anyone, especially strangers who has seen your blog. i do not care about how you no longer can look forward to your sick goretober where you glorify the abuse that real people go through. i am a grown adult with a job, school life, friends, pets, and so much more. maybe you could be the same if you shaped up and stopped being on tumblr. touch some grass for once. no one will believe you. i will not delete your callout. you have deliberately done horrible acts and acted like you were being demonized because "the enstars fandom and selfshippers are mean and cliquey", as if people don't see right through what you post without care and how you act. either apologize for what you have willfully done or log off and deactivate. i don't care which. leave me alone, leave my friends and mutuals alone, and grow up.

btw, i figured i would also throw this in the enstars tags so people would know about your horrible act and how you have treated me and demonized me for the past two days for standing up for my friends and the people you've hurt. here's the original callout btw, just in case anyone's new here! i don't care how badly you say this affects you because, again the only person trying to demonize you is you yourself. you lie about every aspect to save your ass and i will not take it. i mean, you tagged my "callout" with enstars tags (despite the fact that i never interact with the enstars fandom and have been talking about brc for the past month) but hey! if you wanna act like a clown i'll treat you like one.

you are an absolute moron if you think 1.) anyone would believe you considering your past behavior and 2.) thought i would just lay over and start crytyping for an apology. you are 20 years old acting like a spoiled toddler who got punished for throwing toys at others. i have more resolve, a backbone, and friends that will always care for me and support me, sorry if you can't relate. fuck you

[disgruntledexplainer]

**Facebook: out of touch boomers with unrelateable senses of humor and terrible judgement, corporate-funded misinformation campaigns, and a lot of dead accounts.

**Pinterest: has a completely unearned reputation as a refuge of wholesome internet users. that's just the surface. dig a little deeper and you will see a toxic landscape of hate-filled conspiracy theories, and misinformation that would make an american politician blush.

**Instagram: small businesses, people who like to take pictures of food, the incredibly vain, and """cosplayers""" who don't really cosplay, and their """devoted""" fans. the """cosplayers""" may or may not be advertising for their account on another infamous website. fake meme community that steals memes and claims they made them.

*Reddit: Memers, degenerates, fedora-tipping faux intellectuals with one brain-cell and a god complex. most users have an infantile understanding of all of the following subjects: science, history, religion, politics, economics, philosophy, morality, law, propriety, and basic hygiene; they also ALWAYS believe that they have a perfect mastery of all of these subjects. Mostly left-wing, kinda pathetic.

4chan: Memers, degenerates, people with a bizarre degree of programming knowledge and way too much time on their hands. everyone is an extremist, regardless of ideology, but they somehow seem to get along. Mostly right wing, kinda scary.

*Tumblr: Wasteland of dead accounts. Once dominated by porn addicts and their favorite artists, as well as the most deranged elements of various fandoms. used to be the domain of insane leftoids, but is now ironically probably the most centrist entry on this list. members are either moderately gay, moderately religious, very into witchcraft, or some combination thereof. also dominated by small echo-chambers with ideologies so fragile that they shatter the moment they try to interact with anyone else.

Twitter: dominated by insane rightoids. formerly dominated by insane leftoids, who went extinct when an asteroid struck. so insane that screenshots of their posts is a form of entertainment on virtually every other platform.

*Youtube Comments: The worst aspects of reddit and pinterest somehow rolled into one.

Discord: All I know is that the mods can't be trusted.

Tik Tok: I am too old to understand this site, but it gives me bad vibes.

*I'm currently on this site

**I used to be on this site.

[blue-eyed-banshee]

If you wish to roleplay with me, please send me a message and we can discuss the details. Just know I will not do the following: 

Smut

Roleplay with minors, this blog is run by someone in their late 20's and I do not want to have to deal with children

Roleplay with anyone who is homophobic and if this pertains to you, kindly find the exit closest to you ie: do not engage in conversation with me or I will block you, simple as that

If you disagree with how I portray Sylvanas, do not even bother to ask to roleplay with me 

If you write one liners, please don’t. I can’t send a reply when I don’t have details

If you do not agree with lesbian couples, please…. do not try to change my mind and I will block you

If you have a male muse that wants to be in a relationship with Sylanas, I am not comfortable with such.

Other requests

If you have an issue with me, please be direct and let me know

If you do not wish to roleplay with me any further, please let me know instead of ghosting me

Please do not spam me with asks and follows. It throws me off, and it causes me to get overwhelmed easily

This blog is not for children. If you see something that offends you; that is not my fault!

If you engage in an argument with me over anything involving any roleplays or anything else, you will be blocked.

As a personal favor from me; please include as much detail as you can. It will give me more to work with. The more detail, the better I will be able to reply

Please do not send me any hate asks but all other asks are encouraged! 

Do not ask for my discord or battle tag, those are reserved for mutuals only

I am open to crossovers or OC characters, all I ask is when doing a crossover; we brainstorm on how the characters meet

 If I forget to reply to you, please reach out! 

If I don't receive a reply from you for a month or more, I may ask if you are still interested. If not, I will be forced to unfollow you, but if I do unfollow you, please feel free to follow me back.

Please do not rush me for replies. I am a college student, I can not stress that enough! I may sometimes forget due to everything that goes on in college life and if that happens give me a gentle nudge. Please note, I also have a lot of replies to get to sometimes. Be patient with me and I shall return the favor. Keep pestering me and you will find yourself blocked without warning.

If I do follow you, it means I would love to plot with you! Don't be afraid to approach me first. All I ask for is your patience.

If you are unfamiliar with any of my characters, that's perfectly fine! My style of writing explains everything as we go along.

No toxicity / drama. I’m here to write, and I’m sure you are as well. This blog is FREE of toxicity and hate. Please leave me out of whatever drama. Remember, this is an escape as well as a hobby. Not a job. There is a human being behind every screen, be considerate and be kind. You never know what someone could be going through. 

There may be some days where I need to step away due to mental health, please respect that and do not pester me to reply. A reminder is fine but if it becomes constant, it will result in a hard block.

I do not have many triggers but please tag accordingly!

You are free to reblog from me at any time. I only ask that it's not constant, I would like to keep my notifications organized. Any more than 4-5 or more at a time is what is considered overboard.

Muses:

Laudna: (Critical role, campaign 3)

Sylvanas Windrunner: (World of Warcraft, Post-shadowlands)

Logan Howlett/Wolverine: (X-men)

Angel: (Buffy the vampire slayer) vampire with a soul

Xander Harris: (Buffy the vampire slayer)

Faith lehane: (Buffy the vampire slayer)

Colossus: (X-men)

Vax'ildan: (Critical role) half-elf and brother to Vex'halia DeRolo

Moggatorash: (WoW OC, orc shaman)

Giles: (buffy the vampire slayer)

Verath Windrunner: father to the Windrunner sisters and Lirath Windrunner, husbnand to former ranger-general, Lireesa, and Kael'thas' father's advisor

Baine Bloodhoof: (world of warcraft) chieftain of the tauren

Lor'thermar Theron: (world of warcraft) Regent Lord of Quel'Thalas/Silvermoon

Occuleth: World of Warcraft, chief telemancer of Suramar, memeber of the horde

Arcanist Valtrois: Nightborne mage, friend of Thalyssra and Oculeth, member of the horde

Lorna Crowley: daughter of Darius Crowley and commander of the Gilnean forces within the Alliance

Tess Greymane: Princess of Gilneas (formerly), now future queen of Gilneas

Senelstrasza (formerly Senelnoth): Biologic daughter of Alextrasza and Vyranoth, Frost Proto-drake

Jaina Proudmoore (daughter of the sea and Lord admiral of Kul'tirias)

Craigvaidney sith pureblood sorcerer, old republic era (SWTOR)

Lana Beniko human sith lord, old republic era

Jason Todd (Batman, any version)

Illyana Rasputina (X-men, little sister of Colossus)

[[Will edit this as soon as I decided on more characters!]]

[miqojak]

9 People I'd Like To Know Better

Tagged by: @iron-sparrow and @dragonsongmakhali

Tagging: The few people active in my orbit have seemingly all been tagged already...so do it if you want to and haven't, yet!

Last song: While it should be some classic crooner Christmas song...it's actually Doja's Paint the Town Red, because I finally have an ounce of inspiration and a moment's respite from being ill, and I'm working on something neat with XIV animation replacements and video editing. I've...had to hear this song on loop a lot, though, while figuring things out - and while I love it, it's about time to hop on that Spotify Christmas music playlist...

Favorite color: Technically, neon green (most shades of green tbh - I enjoy a nice, calming forest green, as well). But black and red are also favorites.

Last movie/TV show: Muppet Christmas Carol, because it's that time of year. (Next up is the movie that shaped my own preference for Christmas decorating: Rankin/Bass' Rudolph.)

Sweet/Savory/Spicy: No favorites, I like them all depending on my mood! I have a sweet tooth, but I also really like sweet + salty (catch me dipping salty fries into a frosty from Wendy's). I LIVE for spicy food...but beware...as you get older, your body hates spicy food and it will destroy parts of your insides you didn't know existed, so I've been suffering and learning the hard way lately how much spicy I can still have. Meaty/umami flavors are probably my least favorite - I actually dislike the texture/taste of red meat so much in general, I had to get iron supplements, lol.

Relationship status: Complicated to explain! I guess the best way to describe it is: I live with my queer platonic partner, whom I used to date/be romantic with. But...I'm the queer one, so...idk, I guess the term still applies!

Last thing I googled: I have no idea, most of my searches lately have been within various modding Discords. But my last online search was probably also in that same vein - looking for various XIV mods/animation mods, now that I've discovered those.

Current obsession: I've been far too ill of late to engage with much...uh, I got a bit obsessed with Adventure Time after finally watching all of it, and Fionna and Cake; I went hard on the Marceline merch. But I guess I'm also kinda obsessed with trying to find new hobbies, since there's been 0 interest in RP with my characters in a couple years now, and RP was my one big hobby for like...the last decade or more. Filling the time I would be RPing with is tough, when I don't know anyone local (and love tabletop and have a campaign world already made for Pathfinder...), and my health has bounced around, so I've gotten back into cross stitch (and I'm...trying needle-felting. It's...something.)

[balanceoflightanddark]

Alright. A while back, I answered a question regarding Claude.

The post was not good. I'll be the first to admit that I have problems with replaying games on multiple routes because I'm the kind of person that gets overwhelmed easily by so much stuff being thrown at me at once. Couple that with my issues in regards to playing games and actively making things worse (I mean I'll be the first to admit that I doom search stuff when I feel awful) AND my assuming I could just wing it without any regards to proper research, which led to a really badly worded and misrepresentation of the character. Regardless of my feelings towards Claude, nobody should get the shaft like I gave him.

For that, I apologize and I'm releasing this...I guess you could say an updated continuation of the post. I also rereleased the original and included a link so you know where I'm coming from so you can judge it in full. Here I'm just going to go through some of the big sticking points and screw-ups I made one by one.

A big thanks in advance for my friends on discord for pointing them out.

Not well-liked in either country due to his mixed heritage, he was raised in the Leicester Alliance and basically is representative of their policies.

Claude was actually raised in Almyra, not in the Alliance. He only made the transition till he was old enough to understand the situation between Fodlan and Almyra in greater detail. The two countries were political enemies, so the idea of somebody of Fodlan descent because of their parents (King of Almyra and a Duchess of Leicester) becoming king didn't win him any favors back home. Neither did his being from Almyra make him popular with the Alliance. Really part of the reason he made the transition between countries was that he wanted to open up borders and ease tensions between Almyra and Fodlan from within Fodlan's system. Which is an admirable goal, obviously.

Sadly, I screwed up since I inadvertently downplayed his childhood with Almyra by implying he was raised in the Alliance. While he definitely picked up a few habits from the Alliance, he also got a lot of his habits of secrecy since he likely wasn't all that well-liked back home. I mean he did have allies, obviously. Nader served as his combat instructor and was willing to lend his forces when called upon. But it wasn't universal. As such, I apologize for muddling up his motivations and downplaying his heritage.

Speaking of Nader...

Which comes to a head in the war. When Edelgard declares war on the Church, Claude effectively decides to stay out of it. Mainly, he essentially locks the nobility of Leicester in a bit of a stalemate for 5 years to keep themselves out of the war. His long-term strategy is to get reinforcements from Almyra so they could effectively steamroll the Kingdom and Empire who bloodied themselves from all the fighting.

And his focus on relying on his Almyran reinforcements isn't even foolproof in of itself since...well, he's relying on foreign troops arriving in a country that hates their guts. Even if the war goes in his favor, that's a bit of a hill to climb.

Yeah. I really screwed up here. While it is true that Claude probably would've used the chaos created by the war in order to restructure Fodlan similar to Edelgard and probably wouldn't have wanted to get involved in the war right away, I was wrong about the nature of his reinforcements from Almyra. Again, in Verdant Wind, he called upon Nader in order to take the strategically important Fort Merceus in his campaign against the Empire. In Crimson Flower, he only called them when Edelgard invaded Leicester. There was no indication that he would use his forces to steamroll Fodlan in a colonialist matter, which I implied. He was fit to rely mostly on Alliance forces until the need demanded help from Almyra.

As a result, I misrepresented his character, and I apologize. While I'm still not a huge fan of Claude and don't think Verdant Wind is the best route for Fodlan (it ends with another leader backed by the Church in charge with Byleth...which is the same structure that led to this whole mess to begin with), I got his character wrong and made him worse for it. I...understand why people weren't happy with the first post and feel free to call me out on that. I promise to do more research in the future on the other routes if I make any more Three Houses posts.

[niseag-arts]

On gender and warhammer: a personal account

Or: in light if recent events, I have been introspective for a bit. Personal history and shit. Feel free to ignore.

Let's start off here: I am nonbinary but largely closeted. I have large breasts that will not let themselves be hidden by a binder, and I have long hair (with an undercut, but I don't always have it tied up). The thing is, if I walk into a local game store, people are going to think I'm a woman.

I have been actively engaging with warhammer content for 5 years now. But let's start earlier.

When I was 14, my cousin introduced me to warhammer. I was obsessed with wolves so he showed me the space wolves and tried to get me to play. I asked my mum if I could get this game, but my mother told me that I was not allowed to play games in which people get slaughtered, and thus I had to disappoint my cousin and tell him that this wasn't for me. Life went on, my cousin and I lost contact, and I didn't think about this game he had been so passionate about again for years.

A lot happened. I went to university, came out as nonbinary to my friends, got in a relationship, and moved to a different country.

And then, one day, someone at the role-playing society I'm in posts a call for players for a Dark Heresy campaign. I find myself interested to re-explore this thing I only vaguely remember. So, I talked to the GM about making a tech priest. It excited me! I explain the concept to my partner, and she flips out at me about how this is disgusting and that if I play this that must mean that I want to be "less than human" as well. I play in the campaign anyway (the relationship was long-distance, so she couldn't actually stop me). We had a great time. I fell in love with the world building and dove into reading the novels on my e-reader. I couldn't do much more than that, not with the risk of my partner flipping out on me again.

After she broke up with me. I bought my first box of skitarii. It sat on my shelf. I lived in student housing, and I didn't have the space to work on them.

Now, something to know about me is that occasionally, I get dysphoric about my hobbies. I like arts and crafts and reading by the light of scented candles, among other things. And sometimes, when my brain is mean to me, it tells me that those are incredibly feminine and that they prove that I'm a girl.

So...one day, after I've moved into a rental property, I see those skitarii on my shelf and decide to open the box and put them together. I liked working on them, I love tiny detailed crafts! And, for once, that nagging dysphoria voice in my mind is quiet. It lets me paint my little dudes without telling me that this hobby is too feminine... because, well, it's warhammer. And, you know, I am fully aware that that is dumb and that warhammer is for everyone. But dysphoria isn't always reasonable. Regardless. I'm now very involved, happily painting my dudes and putting them on my bookshelf, reading the books, having a great time. I also make fanart and start talking to people on discord.

And then recently, someone in my social circle set up a demo game. I have about 500 points of admech at this point, so I pack up my dudes and learn how to play with them. I get beaten by his necrons a few times, someone else in the playgroup goes out of his way to read up on the specifics of my army so when I face his chaos marines he coaches me through, telling me things to do that I didn't even know I could do.

I returned to tumblr. And after a while I realise that I have lovely mutuals who appreciate me and I appreciate them and its all good. My experience with the fanbase so far has been great. Incredibly welcoming.

And then GW released female custodes. I am lukewarm on this, I like custodes, but I didn't really care at first... and then people started to spew hate. People are seething at the mouth at the existence of women. And it gets to me. I start feeling like maybe nobody wants me, a person assumed female, in "their" hobby. I look at my little dudes and wonder what i'll do with them now, if they'll remain on my shelf or if I'll give them to an irl friend.

But... no-one has been that way, irl. Nobody. I've met some folk with questionable political opinions, but even they were happy to talk to me about painting and things (even if they misgendered me all the way through, but swings and roundabouts). It's like the people yelling on the Internet are not actually in the lgs... but yeah, idk.

I've been having thoughts, and I needed to write them down somewhere.

And if you're my cousin reading this: It's not space wolves, but you were right. This is fun. Miss talking to you, man. (Didn't think you'd have a tumblr)

[youngster-monster]

i DO live like this and my discord wips are a mess, i have to literally tag names onto the end of them because my writing style makes me not use names for like 300 words so i have to keep shoehorning the characters names in so that i know which snippet it was and it is Awful you would not believe the sheer state of that snippets channel

sometimes rotting is a very necessary part of the creative process!! on occasion you just have to grow moss and become nothing but bones and after a while it’s like Okay i can write now :)

fic writing is so EASY compared to all the context and lore and world building and character growth nd MAN i just wanted to write my silly guys being silly but now i have a doc open to the lore of how gods work so that my stupid guy will make a little more sense!!! what IS this!!!!!! when i write fanfiction i just sit down and recount wow lore to myself for 30 minutes while making beastly noises and then i’m normal again and can write fanfiction!! obviously fic writing is still difficult because of.. the horrors.. but at least i can blame the faults in my fic on blizzard :)

i was about to fight for the honor of my Totally Organized Discord WIPs but then i thought about it and yeah.. yeah. they’re kind of. messy… they all have individual channels and i am too scared to look thru them lest the spirit of my old work come alive to kill me or something

my ships are always so stupidly niche i can almost guarantee you my wip would be the first fic in MONTHS if not EVER for some of these anime fandoms i had one for a ship that didn’t even have a TAG i didn’t even know what to do i was so startled!! on the bright side though by virtue of simply posting a fic it could potentially spur other people to write about it which would be a net gain so… perhaps!

that is so real of you.. i don’t have any right actually i just remembered i used to try to read fanfic on my 3ds and it was terrible it wouldn’t even load the page half the time and i frequently had to mess with the internet because my 3ds hated staying connected to wi-fi

They Are In Character To Me (putting a blanket over canon characterization) in my heart this Is how they are in canon and if you try to tell me otherwise? well uhhhh uh (i explode)

staring in fascination and dread at whatever you're doing with your fic organization. i cannot stress enough how insane it sounds. compels me though

you're 100% right. i don't write i mostly Shamble and Crawl, shedding moss and fungi after myself,

be careful anon. the line between "quick lore to make things make sense" and "oops! all worldbuilding!" is very thin. then again if you go over too much you can just turn the whole thing into a ttrpg campaign for your friends or something :)

independant channels of discord wips 🤝 one gargantuan wip document in your notes app striking the fear of god into the writer's heart at the thought of digging through the damn thing

being the one (1) person to write for a ship is Better Than Drugs actually and you should definitely do it,

[squishy-lombax]

Book reviews from my book club

I host a book club that has unfortunately been lacking in active members. If you're interested in joining, please let me know. We are based on Discord. Warning: I've very passionate about the book club and will get on your case if I don't hear from you regularly. If any of the books listed here that we've read previously interest you, our book club may too! 18+ only. I have relatives in the book club, so I'll kick you if you're being weird. Books are in order of how much I enjoyed them! Disclaimer: These, of course, are just my opinions based on my tastes. (formatted for PC, not app)

Strange The Dreamer by Laini Taylor ⭐⭐⭐⭐⭐ Unlike a lot of other high-fantasy books, this one isn't so overly complicated you can still enjoy it. The characters are all very realistic and lovable! This book dealt with a few very heavy topics, however, none of the situations presented were black and white. Especially with a character named Eril-Fane; he was handled so well in my opinion. Even the so-called villain of the story I was able to sympathize with and couldn't decide if I wanted her redeemed or dead. The the description doesn't do the book justice but I can't say much without spoilers. It's a LOT more interesting than it sounds, I promise!

Axiom's End by Lindsay Ellis ⭐⭐⭐⭐⭐ This book has incredible writing, world-building, characters, and interactions. It felt like something that could actually happen (or may be happening right now depending on who you ask). This book has wonderful descriptions and I went through the whole book confidant in how the alien looked in my mind. Any confusion didn't feel frustrating, like in a "I'm just a dumb human" type of way. The main character felt very relatable, and the author wasn't afraid to make her humanly-gross at times. Which I appreciate. I also appreciate the huge emphasis on understanding, communication, and consent present in this book. Things that feel like they should be common in most relationship based stories, but unfortunately, are not.

Lockwood and Co. The Screaming Staircase by Jonathan Stroud ⭐⭐⭐⭐⭐ The characters were relatable and funny, and the environments were described excellently! I was invested in the story from chapter one and remained invested to the very end! I especially loved the descriptions of the ghosts and how they were handled. Just the right amount of terror and mystery surrounds them. In general, I usually hate first-person books; but this one strangely did not bother me. Truly a talented writer! I don't know how this book is considered a children's book, though, because even adult-me found myself sitting on the edge of my seat with the sheer thrill and terror this book invoked!

Magnus Chase and the Gods of Asgard: The Sword of Summer by Rick Riordan ⭐⭐⭐⭐⭐ This book is based on Norse mythology and it did a wonderful job at explaining this crazy and cooky mythos as coherently as possible. I think if you're interested in Norse mythology (or are a kid learning history) this book is a must-read. The whole story read like a spirited DnD campaign. It was funny, it was camp, and it was lively! I actually laughed out loud a couple times during this book, or had to bury my face envisioning certain scenarios. Representation is abundant with the main character being pan-sexual, the leading lady is Muslim, the first side character is a man that is a fashion designer, and the other is a disabled character (deaf and uses ASL). None of these characters fall into the terrible cliché of the "third wheel, dumb, friend" and all representation featured feels organic and natural.

Waking the Merrow by Heather Rigney ⭐⭐⭐⭐ I worried this would end up just being a trashy romance. I'm so happy to say it was not! It had enough sexy elements to remind you that we're dealing with sirens but it was far above fanfiction equality. I enjoyed the main character because there is something refreshing about having a character be so fundamentally flawed and yet you can still tell she is a good person and doing her best. All the characters were arguably unlikable and yet I liked all of them! I find it far more impressive to write a character in this way. The merrow themselves had great descriptions of their appearance and savagery. Yet they also appear to have a depth and complexity hinted throughout that I'm sure is fully explored in the later books.

Silver Spoon by Hiromu Arakawa ⭐⭐⭐⭐ This manga was extremely cute and down to earth. All the characters felt real and alive, going through struggles that may be very personal to the reader. I also learned quite a bit about farming. I was invested in the relationship between Yuugo and Aki and couldn't wait for them to just hold hands. I also enjoyed the realistic take on the relationship with Yuugo and his father. There is no big forgiveness moment and them continuing to have a strained relationship is something that sometimes happens. The characters and morals I feel can connect to many people. Although, this style of story isn't for everyone.

The Guardians: Nicholas St. North and the Battle of the Nightmare King by William Joyce & Laura Geringer ⭐⭐⭐⭐ I was introduced to this series through the movie, Rise of the Guardians. Although this book is a very simple read, I still really enjoy it. It's filled with so much imagination, heart, and gorgeous illustrations. Plus I always love a reinterpretation of childhood characters. I can actually picture myself reading my future kids these books at bedtime!

The Naked Don't Fear The Water by Matthieu Aikins ⭐⭐⭐⭐ I struggle to write reviews for things based on actual events. I enjoyed this book, which surprised me because books that recount actual events have a terrible habit of being boring to me. However, I rather enjoyed the way Matthieu wrote. It was just the right amount of storytelling while also staying focused on the actual events transpiring. This book does a wonderful job of educating its readers while keeping them engaged in a story.

Yokohama Kaidashi Kikō by Hitoshi Ashinano ⭐⭐⭐⭐ A lovely and relaxing read that does a wonderful job at romanticizing the little things in life. I can definitely see Studio Ghibli making a movie based off this story; they would do a fantastic job with this concept! I especially loved Alpha! (she's autistic and you can't change my mind!) I'm very surprised that this manga is in the Seinen genre because it feels more like it was written for cottage-core lesbians then adult men. One issue is that this story introduced a lot of interesting world-building lore that I was super excited to learn more about. However, sadly, it doesn't dive into any of these concepts more; they are simply brought up and rarely mentioned again.

Room by Emma Donoghue ⭐⭐⭐ The book is very interesting and covers topics I like. However, there is a surprising amount of nothing happening. The five-year-old point of view was hard to get used it, then was okay, but became grating again as the story dragged on. However, after the second half I wasn't sure what the goal of the plot was anymore. The story kind of drags with basic day-to-day things, and having it be from a five-year-old's point of view was no longer interesting to me. I feel like it would have been better if the point of views changed at the half way point to the mother's.

Good Omens: The Nice and Accurate Prophecies of Agnes Nutter, Witch by Terry Pratchett & Neil Gaiman ⭐⭐⭐ (I read the book before watching the TV show) I found the book rather interesting in concept and I enjoyed the characters. Unfortunately, I personally have struggles with reading and thus the way this book is worded made it difficult for me. I felt there were far too many main characters to get invested in anyone, and just a general lot of nothing happening in the story. It always seemed like something was gonna happen, and thus kept my attention but it never really did, and thus left me feeling disappointed. There were plenty of funny moments but unfortunately, they just didn't make me laugh out loud at all. If you're going to read this book, do so as an audio book!

Lost in the Never Woods by Aiden Thomas ⭐⭐ This book was a disappointment. I loved the darker atmosphere with the murder mystery going on. I also loved the fluffy romance between Peter and Wendy. However, unfortunately, Wendy was dull as a protagonist, spending almost the whole book having things happen to her, rather than doing things herself. I do have a serious Anxiety Disorder but unfortunately, being anxious and sad all the time doesn't make for a very interesting character. The pacing was PAINFULLY slow! The direction I thought the book was going in was WAY more interesting than what actually ended up happening. Not to mention the characters didn't discover anything themselves, instead always having it explained to them in exposition dumps. It's a bad fanfiction quality book.

[maslows-pyramid-scheme]

black-pill lesbians: *organize months-long harassment campaigns to flood the inboxes of bisexuals and taunt them about their rape and calling them vile names*

piqued-curiosity: we need to have compassion for these women, I will always empathize with them no matter what they say, you have to understand they're angry about bisexual homophobia. and it doesn't matter what lesbians say to bihets anyway actually you're the bigot here for making such a big deal out of this.

lesbian: im so lonely because bisexuals are self-victimizers that don't understand their stupid rape and abuse aren't real oppression its so homophobic how they think they're real people

piqued: well you have to understand lesbians are really lonely so of course we're moved to just ignore rape apologia, I don't understand why you're demonizing me for no reason

lesbian: bi women are identical to TIMs, they're no more similar to us than het men, they're nothing but dick worshipers, their supposed abuse is just a ploy to weaponize against lesbians

piqued: well maybe I would have used different language, but ugh stop getting hung up on her calling you dick worshipers and belittling your rape and abuse and comparing you to het men. She's NOT a misogynist she's very insightful and you male worshipers need to listen to her.

bisexual: bisexuals shouldn't feel ashamed about having OSA, it's just a natural part of bisexuality.

piqued: what homophobic bullshit is this this makes me so angry this shows you people don't have any real issues

and this woman is supposedly the gold standard? soooo kind just because she pays lip service to the idea that most obviously crass behavior against bisexuals is bad (but then she says ok maybe its bad but it doesn't affect anything so who cares)? she's had excuses for them at every turn, but the most inoffensive words of bisexual positivity is proof bisexuals aren't really oppressed?

sorry this is so petty and random but no one takes anything against bisexuals seriously its all so clearly a game to them where they have to come out looking good but also put bisexuals in their place.

I think it's unfair to lesbians to take the actions of the and attribute them to the majority; lesbians and bisexual women (and gay and bisexual men) are the only people who will ever understand what it's like to have a 'different' sexuality in our heterosexist society.* I personally believe that this similarity far outweighs any of our real or perceived differences.

But I know the soul-crushing, hateful behaviour you're talking about. I've seen how 'black-pilled' lesbians treat bisexual activists on here - how they mock and harass bisexual rape victims, how they speak about us using degrading, sexualised, or biphobic language, how they belittle our experiences with discrimination ('it's just homophobia and misogyny' - that's from Piqued, if I'm not mistaken), how they shamelessly reframe bisexual mistreatment to attack gendies/misogynists/men ('Amber Heard is a victim of misdirected lesbophobia'), how they involve themselves in our business while simultaneously complaining about bisexuals involving themselves in lesbian affairs. I've also seen how their followers and the followers of their followers just... look the other way.

But it doesn't matter, does it? To black-pilled lesbians, an imperfect lesbian is only ever a well-meaning victim, and an imperfect bisexual is only ever a bad faith abuser/oppressor/handmaiden/what-have-you.

Anon, I'm so sorry if you've been on the receiving end of the black-pilled bullshit (and it's defo not petty and random - there's so goddamn much of it!). You're absolutely right - and feel free to reach out and vent anonymously/in my dms/to me on discord whenever you want.

[percahliaweek]

FAQ

What tag should I use?

#percahliaweek should work nicely - you can @ us @percahliaweek so we can reblog your contribution on the corresponding day.

Will you be doing anything on Twitter/other social media?

We considered it! However, as other social media sites have proven unreliable (especially lately), we'll be hosting the event only on Tumblr. However, you're welcome to post your work wherever you like!

Can I do _ for the event?

Yes. Yep. Seriously, so long as it focuses on Perc'ahlia (and is appropriately tagged to avoid spoiling people), you can do it. Cosplay, inspired recipes, beadwork, podfic, go wild! Well, with the caveat that no hateful content will be permitted - don't use a joyous event to rain on someone else's parade or promote hatespeech, alright?

Is NSFW content allowed?

Given the ship in question and just how canonically horny they are for eachother - yes! However, we request that you tag this content as #nsfw and use the appropriate content filter on it. If posting in the Discord server, keep it to the 18+ chat. Be mindful of potential minors in fandom space + people browsing content in public.

I want to participate but haven't watched Campaign 1!

We welcome fans of The Legend of Vox Machina with open arms. As a result, it's requested that campaign fans do their best to avoid spoiling show fans for anything beyond what Season 2 has shown (Umbrasyl's defeat). That means late Campaign 1, the oneshots and any mention of them in other campaigns should be tagged as #cr1 spoilers (using just this tag for simplicity). Show fans, if you want to remain unspoiled, I recommend you block this on Tumblr and mute spoilery channels in the server.

Is there an AO3 collection for the fanfics?

One can definitely be set up closer to the start date!

Does my submission have to fit one of the prompts?

That would be ideal, yes! Anything freeform should be posted on Day 7 for Free/Random prompts. But fitting the prompt can be very loose - maybe you just use the word as a motif, or you take it in an entirely unexpected direction. We want to encourage creativity and fun more than anything else.

I don't know what to do for the Free/Random day!

We have a few recommendations (we are unaffiliated with the websites linked): Random page of the Encyclopedia Exandria Random word generator OTP prompt generator AU generator 

Ghost’s Spell prompts [roll 2d20?]

Wild Magic Surge table

Life events table

If you've made prompt lists and would not mind them being featured here, reach out!

How did you choose the prompts?

Prompts were chosen over a day or two while talking with friends - they were intended to be open-ended enough to allow flexibility while also touching on key elements of the ship! Some obvious ones (ex: courage, heart, that sort of thing) were left out so that, hopefully, they could be included next year. If there's enough interest, future prompts could be chosen via fan poll.

Will this be an annual event?

We sure hope so! Hence optimistically keeping back some prompt ideas for the future. Let's see how this goes ;3

Why late September?

On September 29th, 2016, the Critical Role episode 'Passed Through Fire' aired, which features an iconic Perc'ahlia moment (no spoilers for show fans!). Following Burr's poll on which scene is most iconic for the pairing, we decided to have the week celebrate the anniversary of that episode.

So why did you announce this so early?

Because Maggie has been a gremlin about the idea since April. Also, most fans in this space are adults with jobs and responsibilities - allowing more time to create without a rush benefits everyone.

A Discord server?

We have set up a little server for this event on Discord, mostly to hang out with other Perc'ahlia fans and motivate eachother to work on our respective projects. The current link is HERE - let us know if it's not working!

Who is hosting this?

At the moment the users running this blog are @burr-ell and @blorbologist! If the event expands beyond our abilities, we will look into taking on other users to help out - you'll know if we need a hand <333

Any more questions? Feel free to send in an ask and we'll do our best to answer in a timely manner!

[justtransteenagerstuff]

So I have this one 'friend'. Most of this is behind me as I don't really speak to him much outside of when we occasionally see each other in the hallway at school and dnd.

Basically, he made my life last year a living hell. I used to run a gaming youtube channel and he also ran one. For most of our friendship I was better at making content and had more subscribers and viewers but last year he passed me and got better at making content and like a good number of my classmates started watching his videos and being his fans. He then used this to say that everything I made on my channel (and also off my channel) was bad and his was a lot better and because half of my classmates (i was/am in advanced classes so it's a lot of the same people) were his fans they just agreed with him and held it against me, saying things like "well your content sucks so you can't say anything" whenever I said something against him. I also started watching some vtubers then and he somehow found out and used it against me, and got a bunch of people to say that I was obsessed with vtubers and jacked off to vtubers and was a vtuber (nothing wrong with vtubers btw, but you know, teenagers) and just being really annoying to me. And then he started accusing me of being a furry (again, nothing wrong with furrys, but you know, teenagers) and again everyone joined in. When I got my dog he started accusing me of being a zoophile. One time at a sleepover he went on my computer and sent a discord message to the group chat saying something I forgot what but something 'bad' (not actually bad but, you know, teenagers) and he still uses that screenshot whenever i annoy him

His youtube videos aren't even that good, they are basic slop that everyone puts out. Atleast I actually made my videos out of passion.

We ran a minecraft smp together (multiple actually) and he kept on cheating and trolling and being annoying and then just saying 'its just a joke'

He made me stop enjoying a lot of the things I used to enjoy. Like Danganronpa, writing (i've gotten back into writing now but I wrote basically nothing last year because he said everything I wrote was shit), and my youtube channel, something that used to give me a lot of joy out of making videos.

He made me have to preface every argument with anything that might be perceived as a fault because if I didn't he would use it against me.

He likes AI, his one goal in life is to be rich, he is just a bad person.

Anyway, like I said at the beginning I don't really talk to him now outside of dnd, and even in dnd he is annoying.

As a dm he railroads everyone, and gets angry if you dont do everything he says, and as a player he completely derails everything.

He is probably transphobic, his brother is trans but he constantly uses the wrong pronouns. One time his brother brought a friend to dnd who was a trans man and my supposed 'friend' used she/her pronouns, and when his brother's friend got upset he said "I don't care." He misgenders people all the time, even cis people, as a way to annoy people who slight him in any perceived way.

He is so annoying and stupid and a fucking jerk, but he is also funny and also, when he is not being a fucking jerk, a person that is fun to be around. Some of my best memories are with him. Like the trip to the cabin I took with him and one of my best friends.

idk, I hate him but also he is a friend, and I can't cut him off because he is another member of the friend group and his dnd campaign is our big social event every month, and the only dnd campaign in our friend group to last more than 5 sessions.

also one time he threatened to force fem me????????? like he was going on a rant about being rich and then added that he would force me to live in his basement and stream for him as a vtuber and that male vtubers dont get enough views so I would have to be a female one.

[enigmaincrimson-personal]

I won't put this on the main blog because of reasons, so...

Imagine if you will... someone makes a verse for the Persona fandom. Simple, no pre-established relationships or anything like that.

Things seem to be fine at first until they encounter a certain roleplayer.

Now the idea was pretty simple. My muse had just moved into the dormitory and were meeting other students that were in the "club" (SEES) they were in.

It should have been a simple meet and greet first meeting thread.

Instead, the partner has their character scream "YOU DON'T LIVE HERE!" and run away to call the police.

Followed by them and their friends sending multiple rants in my inbox, callout posts over how I was harassing them, the partner who sabotaged the thread made a duplicate blog and told everyone I was crazy... people not even involved were sending nasty messages, making up things just to get attention, people pretending to be supporters were also sending them nasty messages.

Maybe I deserved it, I don't know, but in the end, I have a hard time approaching Persona fandom roleplay blogs as I'm worried it might start up again and people will get dragged into it.

Seriously though, I do try to read everyone's rules and muse information if possible and if we're mutuals, I presume that you've actually made the effort to look at mine as well.

You have no idea how much of a pain "why is my character even here?" is without some sort of pre-established connection that gives them a reason to be there is when it comes to writing in the long term.

However, pre-established relationships are considered a taboo in multiple roleplaying circles, even if having them can provide necessary structure if handled correctly and not ignored.

It an overly convoluted dance of being close enough to have a reason to be there while opening more substantial interactions and far enough that it doesn't get in the way of things.

And I totally feel sick inside whenever I think I messed this kind of thing up. It's not for a lack of trying, far from it, but many times it just feels like I don't deserve to be there regardless of how many times I've repainted the walls.

I delete a misunderstood post and apologize, suddenly the MLP fandom has decided that I was gaslighting. Which is ironic as the culprit behind that mess acted like I was doing all the harassing and deleted all of their posts. And that was after all the godmoddy "magic anons" wanting to rape my main muse.

Someone in the Fairy Tail fandom hunted me for years because I was somehow "ruining their investment" and another decided that I was somehow stealing their followers. Lots of stolen posts, callout posts, nasty messages and more came from there. Along the way, it also included several roleplayers that wanted to buy my main off of me exclusively for smut.

I haven't seen the majority of the Overlord fandom since they moved onto that discord server and got really crazy with the gatekeeping. Like... it was bad enough having to read the entire series of novels just to be allowed to say anything, being treated like trash if you weren't roleplaying a very specific set of characters was rather much. The whole thing was a blur.

The Index/Railgun fandom sort of imploded due to one of the members writing plots for everyone without actually discussing things, one of their friends deciding they hated my guts for simply wanting to discuss and plot things out, and getting kicked out of the discord server they made over it.

A chunk of the Sonic fandom hates my guts because someone was mad that I wouldn't trim my threads to oblivion like they wanted... which resulted in that person and their friends starting a harassment campaign over it. I don't know how my particular blog was at fault for their phone crashing, but somehow it was.

The Puella Magi fandom wouldn't have anything to do with me because I wouldn't let some popular muckymuck with a character called "Daisuke" godmod and rape my main muse. I told him no, pointed at the rules, then he blocked me, tagged me in his call out post, and threatened everyone to block me as well.

I've also been impersonated before because I helped kick a fetish miner off of Tumblr, called a creep by one of their victims because I wouldn't just hand over my personal information and explained why.

I'd keep going from here, but I've been through alot, both IRL and online and I don't hate you guys, it's just... I haven't had the best track record.

[menta11yi11]

Doctor's orders to pull back from social media as I keep having back to back panic attacks and wanting to kms.

I'm sure there's some folks on my public tumblr accounts that follow me only to get intel on me and not because they actually like me- and would love nothing more than for me to leap off a building. Yeah I'm a flawed person. I hurt a lot of people. I own up to that. I'm trying to be someone that at least tolerates my own existence in this realm. 🙃 but having folks on the Homestuck discord team telling me to "SHUT THE FUCK UP" and "DIE" for expressing a vague, nonconsequential fandom opinion (that wasn't even HS related) they don't like does not paint a good picture of how they'll handle knowing I've tried to kill myself over 8 times now. Bitch I'm like Deadpool the metanarrative will not let me end it. I'd love nothing more than to have never existed. You hate me so much, then fucking ban me from the discord and start your hate campaign like you did to my other trans system friends. Makin, you're pathetic. Just admit you have no compassion for folks with persistent mental health issues rather than acting like it's okay for you to harass people because you're the server administrator. You have enough simps laughing at your cruelty you think you're justified in these harassment campaigns. I don't think I've had a single positive interaction with you, and you can blame me being a 'snowflake' but at least I'm not inciting mentally ill people to kill themselves on your streams. I hope you lose the admin privileges and people realize what an actual asshole you are. I can't help that I have introjects of your friends. Do you think I woke up one day and decided to have amnesiac episodes where some brain ghosts take over my body and humiliate me publicly? That's like, a bit to you? I do have Andrew Hussie listed as an alter in my disability paperwork because they stepped up to stop me from ending things. Our (now) Hussie Royle is the reason we kept fighting to improve and become better people. You can think I'm cringe all you want, but it kept me alive. I can't know what source Hussie thinks of me as I've already attempted to reach out and apologize for crossing boundaries into parasocial delusional stuff. They didn't respond and they don't owe me one. I am, however, knowledgeable about what goes down in Homestuck VRC communities and have been helpful there as an informant and mod. You can dislike me and think I'm annoying and tight wound all you want but I'm not stepping back from my beliefs that people should be given compassion and time to be heard. I'm a socialist and I feel very strongly that we have a duty to protecting our communities and having transparency. Idk what weird shadow elder thing you've got going on within the HICU that I once wanted to be a part of, but I'm now realizing y'all are such a dysfunctional work family from an (outside but close neighbor) perspective.

I've been in enough grassroots organizing since 2014 that I can see the rot in the company.

I'm also a cult survivor, having been forced into the LDS (Mormon) church from 2001-2016 by my former legal guardians. I know what cult tactics are and I know how deep the abuse goes. Watch yourself before you have another well-documented video of abusive behavior. I don't play around with that shit. I held up my end of accountability, now it's your turn.

[keefwho]

November 27 - 2023 Monday

10:51pm

This morning I made a bologna sandwich and pasta shells for breakfast with an applesauce. The drama involving Vivsiepop was still going on since her weird fans were still bothering Daisy over Twitter. I made my peace by tweeting one thing, I don't care if it was seen or not. In stream I had a hard time figuring out what to sketch. I just don't have that many ideas I really feel the heart to do. It's not a motivation problem, it's a goal problem. Like I don't have ideas anymore like I used to. I finished that group commission for this month and had to work on something else to finish up my time. I just did some sketches. After stream I was gonna work out but did something with Daisy instead. I took a steamy second shower and cleaned up a little before making tuna spaghetti for lunch. I tried putting a little gravy mix in it but I don't think I put in enough to make a difference. The goal would be to make it a little creamier and give it a little more flavor. In the afternoon I tried to join David's server to work which went well at first but this guy joined who kept vaping loudly so I left. He also made no attempt to stop it because I brought it up once and his excuse was that his mic pics up everything but his voice and he hates it. I really think he just doesn't know anything about how mics work or how to adjust Discord's settings to account for it. It really isn't that hard to find something that works. For my hour of personal work I again struggle to figure out what to do but I worked on this Misty pic for a little bit. Daisy said she wanted to Just Dance so while I waited, I streamed Skyrim like I've been wanting to do. It didn't go great because I didn't have direction with my character and I don't know how to navigate the world yet with my modpack. Basically everything will kill me so I can't just take on any old quest and it's impossible to know which ones will be possible at my level or not. I also had to do some mod configuration. I'm sure next time will go better after I find my footing a little more. I stopped the stream to play JD with Daisy and we did the 2024 edition's campaign. Wild to me that there is a story mode to begin with but it was fun. When Daisy got on the computer, we watched 2 episodes of She Ra and a few Craigs. My tummy hurt a little so I got cozy with a rice a roni and chicken strip dinner. We looked at Zelda memes for a bit before bedtime where I played Neopets for her like I've been doing.