#and with covid and my health issues I can’t volunteer anymore

[tj-crochets]

Five donation beanies!

[kristinhoneywell]

Wednesday April 15 - Day 31

I’m extremely angry today.  I’m angry that my child is missing out on priceless experiences as a high school Senior that he will never get back. I’m angry that I have to make decisions on whether or not to pay our part time employees so that we can save the employees that depend entirely on their income from us rather than those who perhaps don’t.  It’s fucking Sophie’s Choice every day.  I’m angry that my workplace could potentially close to the detriment of the community that we serve. I’m angry that the unemployed are making $1000 a week while people working at McDonald’s or Meijer are making wages they can barely live on.  I’m angry that if this continues I might lose my job and I won’t qualify for unemployment at all.  I’m annoyed that protestors are working to impeach our Governor and rallying today in Lansing to protest her restrictions.  What good will that do?  Go volunteer your time at a shelter or the hospital or get a job at the grocery store if you want to “help”.  I don’t agree with the extra restrictions our Governor imposed either but she is following federal government guidelines for the most part. Why aren’t you angry with Trump?  This is not a political issue.  It’s a human rights issue.  Why are Republicans not angry about the $600 government handout to the unemployed?  I thought they were opposed to government handouts?  I guess it’s OK if Trump authorized it.  And all these Democrats who hate Trump are finding no problems with taking his handouts and cashing his stimulus check.  I guess Trump finally is “your” President.  There is no such thing as a free ride.  We will all pay eventually with cuts in the budget and taxes and everyone will cry about the unfairness of it all. You are all a bunch of whining hypocrites.  Again, this is a human rights issue not an excuse to spout your political party propaganda. I’m angry that my kid at age 18 is considered an adult so I don’t get an extra $500 for him.  He is still my dependent.  I don’t need the money right now because I’m working but what if I wasn’t?  The whole concept that once your kid turns 17 he is an adult in the government’s eyes is pure bullshit.  I don’t know many 17 year olds that are able to support themselves.  My kid deserves the money.  It won’t begin to compensate for what he has lost but it can at least help him out at college. If he even gets to go. This world and our government is completely fucked up.  This entire situation is ridiculous.  Kent County has a population of 650,000 and we have 300 cases and 11 deaths.  This is enough to ruin lives for?  I don’t accept or understand this and I never will.  Shelter the vulnerable population and let the rest of us live our lives, catch this virus, and develop the immunity needed to conquer it.  We have been told time and time again that we can’t prevent this virus we can only flatten the curve.  It’s about flattening the curve.  What bullshit.  We have flattened the curve in Kent County if there ever was a curve in Kent County. What is our master plan?  What is our end game here?  I’m told by the media that this virus hangs in the air for hours.  I can walk through it hours after someone coughed and I will get it.  I can bring it home on my clothes or shoes and it will magically waft into the air and infect my entire family.  If someone even breathes anywhere near me that has it, I will get it. Supposedly it spreads that easily.  If that is true, why doesn’t every health care provider in the country have it?  Medical personnel would have to change their masks every time someone breathes on them even once with this logic.  I don’t believe it.  It’s a scare tactic.  However, I do believe it is more contagious than other viruses and thus it infects more people which is why more people are dying.  I understand that it’s serious. But again, what is the end game?  If all of this is true “flattening curve”right now is only going to prolong the inevitable.  The minute we open up this country the curve will rise within weeks.  So then what?  We close again?  If what we are being told is true, that all of us have zero immunity to this, that it’s so contagious that we ALL will get this, closing the country for one month won’t help nor will closing for 2 months or 6 months.  The minute we re-open this whole process will start all over again.  So let’s assume that we all will become ill with COVID-19 eventually.  Why not let it happen now at least to the capacity that hospitals can handle?  Our hospitals on this side of the state are NOT overrun. In fact, they are under used.  Medical professionals aren’t working and people aren’t getting other medical treatments that they need.  We can handle more cases. If someone isn’t able to battle this virus now they won’t be able to battle it in 6 months either.  They are fated to die.  I don’t want anyone to die but I am being led to believe there is nothing we can do to prevent it this illness, only slow it. So instead we have chosen to prolong it.  For what purpose?  This is all futile unless we have a cure.  There is no logic to this.  We can’t close the country until we find a cure.  If we do that even the government will go bankrupt. We can’t financially support an entire nation on the government.  I know COVID-19 is serious.  I’ve seen all your “factual statistics” and your “science” and your advice from medical professionals.  For every statistic, scientific fact, and piece of medical advice you show me as proof to back you up, I can find something that will show the complete opposite.  So why are you all spouting this nonsense? There are no true statistics and data in this world anymore.  There is no such thing as an impartial news source. The truth is, no one knows the real truth here.   I ask again - what is the end game?  What is the master plan? There is none.  Let us go!  Let the kids go to school and let people work.  Let us get the virus.  We are only prolonging the misery.  Go ahead.  Come at me.