#and with ambessa i fw her bc she reminds me a bit of my own family. esp as a blk person

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A part of me wonders why I fw silco so much and don't with caitlyn (I feel neutral about her), and maybe it's internalized misogyny. Bc while they are both bad in different ways, I can understand silco more/sympathize with his movement oddly enough. And while i also understand that cait is grieving the way she goes full on mask of facist over her mothers death kinda made me roll my eyes (emphasis on kinda) bc in my head I'm just thinking "well now you experience what zaunites go through by your men's hands every single day, you finally directly got to see the fruit of the institution you put no thought into. For these zaunites your enforcership mean life or death. For you, it was just a simple set of orders. " As soon as those things go awry, she turns to dogwhistles. She literally gasses out and terrorizes civilians. She's given a whole knew set of facistic equipment-the language, the hatred, and even the outfit. She turns into every piltie and abandons her empathy. And a part of me wants to get it. Wants to see that she lost someone so important to her and that this is an outburst, but idk I can't. Not when her outburst results in the death of so many.

With silco, I think I can sympathize more on the notion that I've seen revolutionaries like him. In pursuit of something beneficial, they turn to accelerationist ideals, hoping that by causing friction, it'll spark enough reaction for zauns independence. I get that though process, seen in the leftist kinda spaces I'm in, and I know where that comes from. The yearning of something is better now because at least you want to see it while you're still alive. While your loved ones are still here so you can enjoy it together. The only thing I dislike heavily is his hand in shimmer production, and even then, I can only think someone like him wouldn't exist without the hands of enforcers. Without piltovers oppressive resistance. If silco-if vander- if any of these people were rolled different dice and born in a much more kinder world that didn't stomp and divide them simply for what is effectively their zipcode. Forcing them into extremely dangerous labor, disease, and addiction.

I can see how that gets twisted and dulled down amd how at a certain point it just feels like a pursuit of your own happiness till the systems you also creat blow up in your face.

They have a lot or parallels in that sense

Idk I just kinda hate most piltie characters with the exception of mel and jayce otherwise fuck em.