#and when it doubt who cares! we’re all gonna die anyway xo lmao

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I’m feeling talkativeeee💞 how are you dearest? I really admire how you’ve been sticking to a routine lately! What motivates you to keep it up? I find it really hard to follow through sometimes

Anyways hope you’re well!! ✨

devvvyyy babyyy❤️

i’m always feeling chatty alskdkk as you know from years of me never shutting up in your dms.

i’m good actually! working on not letting bad days ruin my entire week recently and it’s kinda helping 😂… a little

i admire every single thing about you so i’m just a reflection of youuuu my lady😤❤️

🧘🏾‍♀️jesus chRIST the amount of trial and error that has gone into creating routines. i have like licherally 10 failed calendars and checklists and to do lists and Notion pages that i never ended up doing. i’ve been on on on and off and on this healthy game consistently since like college but this is the first time it’s not felt so horrible. i think what has helped me the most is changing my mindset (lmao who is she)—like i used to try to workout to be ⚡️skinny⚡️ or do my silly little routines bc they are what i thought i was supposed to be doing. like what tik tok or instagram told me i should be doing. and then i’d get so pissed off bc i wouldn’t see results EVER and i was still unhappy. buttt that’s bc their routines didn’t work for me. i’m never going to be a low body fat naturally slim influencer with built in abs and that’s ok. i was never going to wake up at 4 am and run 29 miles and lift crazy heavy and be vegan and never eat out and inject kale. it’s just not me. so i just picked like 3 things i wanted to stick to that i liked and did those and stopped with all the comparison/ outside noise. less focus on the results and more just working on me for myself only.

🧘🏾‍♀️i also tried to stop seeing it as such a negative thing/ torture. and more like, what i deserve. like i deserve to take care of myself and i deserve to move and i deserve to be happy and my stupid brain can’t make its own serotonin so i rly gotta work hard to make extra and that’s ok! i feel like i am constantly screaming at others to take care of themselves and i was like..oh wait..self ? love??? hello?????

🧘🏾‍♀️the main shift overall though was to just start trying to do stuff that’s better for my mental health. bc if i’m gonna grumble (and i do be grumbling) about how much anxiety and depresh sucks i gotta at least try to make myself better and then once that’s done i can complain all i want and be validated 💅🏽😂

🧘🏾‍♀️when in doubt, dont think about it and just do it bc the SECOND i give myself one (1) moment to think about how i don’t wanna do something it’s game over 😂