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night-dragon937 · 2 years ago

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oh how i miss writing shamelessly thinly veiled vent fics wrapped in hurt/no comfort character studies

however it's been over two years since we've written fanfic (over two years since we've written AT ALL) and we've become acutely critical of anything we write so i don't think that ball is going to start rolling anything soon :P

#blog post #tw vent #i know that we used to take whatever big negative emotion we were feeling and project that onto the character of our hyper fixation #that we thought it fit best #like when we were in an abusive household and constantly in fear we wrote multiple one shot horror fear type fics #and we've written multiple heartbreak/missing people fics when relationship #s go wrong #however currently I'm feeling a sinking existential dread that everything in my life is going up in flames yet i still have hope that it #will get better. the hope feels delusional #like clinging to the mast of a sinking ship #and i feel like i could write this so well but with my current hyperfixations of hc s9/esmp s2 i am not mentally making the connection #between any character and these emotions #possibly because the content is nowhere near that dark #also it's more difficult when none of my main chatting friends have that same hyper fixation otherwise i could brainstorm :P #this is partially a vent and partially a cry for help but like it's also not that serious it's just like #I'm really missing a coping mechanism that was really useful to me #because like. when i project my emotions onto characters and over exaggerate them it helps me feel better for some reason #like helps me get it off my chest #:P

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