#and was like ‘😔this is way too niche; I hope someone’s posted it online; there’s no way my library has it’

[spending-life-pretending]

Everyone on here always talks about the tangible ways public libraries provide resources to their communities (as we should), but nobody talks about the invisible community reinforcement they provide too. No one talks about the warmth that comes from going to recommend your deep-south library purchase a newly-released, niche queer fantasy and seeing they’ve already added it. No one talks about the validation that comes from the knowledge of what other people in your community are reading. No one I know irl has read Robin Hobb, but when I was reading The Liveship Traders I would check them out from my library and I noticed books from The Farseer Trilogy and Fitz and the Fool were checked out at the same time, and I knew someone else, somewhere my hometown, was just as in love with this story as I was. When you see your favorite books are circulating, it reinforces that you aren’t alone; you aren’t weird; there is a community here even if it isn’t very vocal. I think that’s such an important type of community libraries provide, even if you have to read between the lines (pardon the pun) to see it.

[eddiemunsonsmiddlefingers]

Let me preface this by saying I am a little drunk. Okay? ok

Eddie would be Susie I think. There’s also a little sister that’s a computer genius and -come on- that’s so Dustin. 😂 obviously I’d tune it to be more its own thing but still heavily inspired. I guess more of a modern remake with our soft boys. But I feel like it’s so niche and also there’s a ton of ghost!Eddie fics that are just so good. I’m also working on an out-of-time, semi medieval/renaissance fic with a soft magic system and maybe a kind of soulmate kinda thing going on? Also, it'd have so many ships and lots of dead characters that are alive because AU so why not? It’s a mess 😂 Again, super niche so idk if people would even like it but 😂 it’s what my heart desires to write

So, my job pays for college and as long as I work part time I can get free schooling. My courses are online and self paced. So time management has been a huge thing for me. But yeah it’s been about 7-8 years since I’ve been back to college. I do really miss that feeling of being on campus though.

I’m so glad you have that luck! Sounds like your classes are heavy loaded so it’s good you have more time for them! As for what I’ll do with my degree. Well, when I was a kid going to the public library with my grandmother was a really big thing for me. So, I think I’d like to do that. I live near the city where there’s a lot of government jobs so most people ask me if I’ll work there. Tbh I wouldn’t want to work for the government. I know the pay is good and the benefits too and no shame to anyone that does! I know plenty of people that work for the government and they love it! but like… not my cup of tea. Granted most libraries are funded through local government or nonprofit but that’s different 👀 Honestly, libraries are some of the last kind of socialist thing we have. I like that it’s for anyone and everyone and I just want to be someone that can help people. Idk 😂 I just want a welcoming environment that can have knowledge and books for whoever needs it. What’re you trying to master in if you don’t mind me asking?

Also, I just went to a prog. metal show in said city and oof may have had a little too much to drink 😂 up until this part I was mostly sober 😂😂😂

Anyway! I saw your post about how you’ve grown! I’m so glad for you! I’ve only recently kind of realized I’m gender-fluid and I’m not really too out about it. Just some coworkers that I trust. I’m glad you were able to get out of toxic relationships and really discover who you are 💜 I’m sorry that it had to happen that way, though. I’m sure it was extremely hard. Also! I’m glad your pain has lessened! Geez I hope I sound sincere 😔 I’m over here trying to sober up 😂 just know that I’m super happy for you! I feel like there was something else I was going to say but it’s blank up there in my brain.

Something something old cartoons playing. Snoopy dancing maybe?

Samwise has def had a pint too many

Confession: the first time I read this ask I was so high that I kept getting lost in the words and thought I was reading a movie. Yes you read that right. So I guess we were two peas in a pod last night eyyyyyy

I almost responded then but words were difficult. So. Trying again today!

A) Write it! Definitely write it. Who cares if it's niche? Do the thing! Have fun!

B) That's awesome you get free education, but I totally get missing campus. I'm literally not allowed to take online classes for my grad degree (the ones I'm taking online currently are to finish my bachelor's...I'm overlapping my senior undergrad and first year grad) which is simultaneously pretty cool because it forces me to be social, but could end up being kinda frustrating with the whole needing a job thing next year. We'll see.

C) Libraries (and librarians) are amazing; I am super duper happy for you and hope that it works out! I also have no desire to work for the government, which is hilarious given that I'm getting my BS and MS in political science, with a specific focus on peace and conflict (more so the conflict than the peace). I want to get a PhD in sociology and then spend my life yelling about how politics can't be separated from society and the subaltern needs a platform to express itself in politics and academia before we go down in literal and/or figurative flames.

D) Who'd you see? I just went to see chvrches last weekend but I want to go to more shows I'm so jealoussss

E) So good you're finding yourself. Don't be afraid to take your time so you're comfy with each step you take. <3

F (in the chat) ) Pain will be resolved eventually I'm just a big ol' baby who isn't used to actually feeling anything. Coming out brought down a lot of internal walls for me, and one of those was pain tolerance. I used to feel nothing (literally, even burns were like "meh") but now I feel everything and I have no coping skills. Something something unexpected side effects.

I hope your day is hangover-free and wonderful!