#and uhhhhhh i went down a rabbit hole

[seaside-lovers-archive]

popping in from the void rq to say i have two new unfortunate crushes. i know i have terrible taste, pls dont slaughter me 😔 okay goodbye now

[6eetle]

;>_> went down a rabbit hole of my very old deviantart posts and am very concerned for the child that was me being actively depressed and liveposting about how much i hated myself and other things which i will not mention uhhhhhh Hey man are you okay! (She was in fact not okay)

[potsiefaerie]

💙❤️😮😍💟

💙 How did you first hear about polyamory?

Uhhhhhh good question. I remember finding the word but not where, and then falling down a rabbit hole and going "Oh." In like. 2008??

❤️ When did you realize you were poly?

Right then with the first "Oh" but also I thought I was like. Ambiamorous? Wired in that general direction but I could take it or leave it.

I realized I couldn't not be, as you well know, last spring.

😮 What surprised you the most as you’ve explored polyamory?

How much easier it is to communicate and balance relationships this second time. What a difference a decade plus of healing makes! 😅

[alternatively, how difficult it has been for my husband to adjust]

😍 What’s the BEST thing about being poly for you?

Authenticity 😭 Not feeling like I'm broken and a terrible person.

💟 What’s your cutest group date idea?

Oh hmmm... If I'm dreaming I've already moved to the Farm in Maryland and then big family dinner in the garden with bonfire to follow becomes doable. Failing that... Movie night cuddle pile? Y'all can see if there's anything in common on everyone's "I can't fucking Believe she hasn't seen ____!!" list 🤣

Thanks for the asks, love 💗

I wasn't sure if I wanted to actually post this or not, but I went for it 😅

[creatura-theanarchist]

Aight les fuck it up, buttercups

Last song listened to: Just… Went down the Hamilton rabbit hole tbh-

Favorite colour/s: Royal Purple, Pastel Yellow and most shades of pink

Currently watching: Harley Quinn the series (Season 3’s pretty ok so far)

Currently reading: The Alchemyst by Michael Scott (god, reading is hard)

Sweet/Spicy/Savoury: Yes, fuck no, sure

Relationship Status: Taken and monogamous.

Current Obsessions: Adventure Time and The Amazing Digital Circus but also so many others-

Last thing I googled: “Sundrop voice actor”

Currently working on: EVERYTHING AND NOTHING HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA-

Oh yeah I gotta tag ppl now uhhhhhh-

@rainycavedew @feralwizardbun @songbird-swordlily-blog

Idk many ppl on Tumblr so :p

9 people you'd like to know better

tagged by: @cregan-starks tyyyyy <3

last song: punk by gorillaz

favorite color: blueee

currently watching: good omens 2... slowly

currently reading: i am Not. whoops

sweet/spicy/savory: SPICY

relationship status: single :(

current obsession: narcos, my star wars au, volcanology, historical fashion, across the spiderverse, making chai

last thing I googled: does pots run in families (LMAO)

currently working on: to the ends of the earth, my hq star wars au <333333

tagging: @redrocketpanda @spacejammie-eimmajecaps @ashlingiswriting @spooky-kakashi @grasssme @autistic-ranpo @shizuumi151 @kiyohmeohmy @solitesse idk enough ppl for this lmao

[enbyleighlines]

Ive just been. Evil laughing in the background watching u get dragged deeper into this. but uhhhhhh characters lets go lwj because hes the worst wwx stan 10/10 my fav and xiao xingchen bc yeet city huh;w;

Well this is all your fault! But honestly it’s great because I’m very, very happy being stuck down here in this rabbit hole

Lan Wangji rating: 10/10

Best boy. Lan Wangji is absolutely amazing, I love him so much. I’m not usually too keen on strict rule-follower types, but somehow Lan Wangji has become one of my favorite characters in the cast.

Headcanons:

He absolutely went through a phase where he mimicked everything his brother did as a kid. He’d just watch Lan Xichen, studying him, and then do whatever he did. If Lan Xichen scratched his chin, Lan Wangji scratched his chin. If Lan Xichen let out a little sigh, then Lan Wangji let out a little sigh. Unlike most other siblings, Lan Xichen was delighted by this, and not at all annoyed

Lan Wangji is a huge romantic. He loved to hear stories about soulmates and love at first sight. His mother used to read him such stories, despite how much they hurt her to read. Lan Wangji even started his guqin lessons by memorizing love songs. However, the first time Lan Qiren made mention of Lan Wangji’s fascination with romance (not in a mean way, just as a neutral observation), Lan Wangji got so embarrassed that he never let himself outwardly show interest in romance again— at least, until Wei Wuxian

Lan Wangji knew about his attraction to men from a young age. When he read romance stories, he fawned over the valliant heroes, not the fair damsels. Lan Xichen noticed this, and kept Lan Wangji’s preferences quiet, while at the same time warning him that others might not be as kind to him if they knew. While Lan Wangji doesn’t feel any shame in his preferences, he heeds his brother’s words and keeps his feelings tight to his chest — again, until Wei Wuxian

Xiao Xingchen rating: 9/10

What a precious angel. Too good, too pure for this world. He deserved better, though I think there’s something interesting about the fact that he was so kind and virtuous that even the psychopath Xue Yang eventually developed (platonic?) feelings for him

Headcanons:

Xiao Xingchen grew up secluded from the rest of the world, so he’s surprisingly naive when it comes to some things, especially when it comes to large cities. He could easily get lost or taken advantage of. Luckily, he’s just so straightfoward and friendly that the townsfolk fall over themselves trying to help him

Small animals adore him. He’s like a real life Sleeping Beauty. They just flock to him, like they can sense his kindness. Sometimes he likes to meditate out on the grass, and when he does, birds are bound to land on his shoulders and head

Thank you for asking!!

[the-fiction-witch]

Your d*ck is fine!

REAL LIFE: COUPLE: TBS X READER RATING: CUTE

I smirked as we got sat at the table at the restaurant "You alright?" Thomas asks still with a smirk on his face "Fine, just still... A bit tried out" I smirk playing footsie with him under the table he smirked playing until a little "Good you enjoyed yourself darling" he smirked winking at me "Yeah it was nice" I smiled "Nice?" He asks a little annoyed "Yeah, nice" I shrug starting to read the menu as I was quiet hungry after that session in the back of Thomas' car before we got here "Why just nice?" He asks "It's not just nice, it was good, very fun" I shrugged "Good?" He asked "just good?" "Ughhh Thomas, it was great, very good back of car sex can we eat now?" I ask "Yeah, yeah sorry" he says "so... Just good?" He sighed "Thomas, we are not diving down this rabbit hole tonight" I sigh "you have lipstick on your neck" I giggled noticing he had some of my lipstick in his neck still he smiled wiping it off "it was very good Thomas I had fun now I'm hungry-" I began "So good? Or very good?" He asks me "Thomas, it was great" I smile holding his hand "Just great?" He asks "Great is a good compliment, it's a great compliment can we just not go there?" I ask Him "Well-" he began "Thomas! I am not going down this dam rabbit hole with you, it was great you where great" I tell him "I used to get I was amazing" he sighed "Thomas" I warn and I sighed "Your dick was very amazing Thomas can we eat dinner now?" I ask "Fine" he sighed "just to clarify... You enjoyed yourself?" He asks "Yes, I wouldn't have cum if I didn't" I shrug "sex with you Thomas is always good, you have a nice dick" I smile "Nice?" He asks "Ohh God dam it what have I done" I sigh realizing what I have caused "Nice! What is nice? Nice is what you say when someone gives you a birthday present your insantly selling in eBay, or a cake that tastes like shit but atleast it didn't kill you" he complains "nice!" "Thomas... Im not getting in to this with you again" I warn "your dick is nice your dick is fine can we please stop having this conversation ever time we have sex somewhere that's not our bed?" I tell him "Sorry..." He says "It's fine, just-" I began "Nice doesn't mean small does it?" He asks "Uhhhhhh! Thomas! For fuck sake!" I complain "we are in a nice restaurant please stop talking about your dick" I tell him "So the restaurant is nice ... And you describe my dick as nice?  So my dick is on par with this restaurant? That doesn't even have an open bar and that a shit tv playing the women's football match on and blurry?" He complains "Thomas..." I sighed "what do you want me to say? Your dick is lovely Thomas I like it very much it is enjoyable" I explain "you rather I call it cute?" I ask "Cute!" He complains "cute does mean small doesn't it?" He complains "Thomas... We are no going into this" I tell him holding his hands "you are very amazing during sex, your dick is huge, sex is wonderus now please I am hungry" I tell him "Awww that's sweet of you to say y/n" he smiles giving my hand a kiss as he went to reading too at last "One ex girlfriend says your dick is small and I'm still fucking dealing with it eleven years later" I sigh "What was that?" He asks "Nothing nothing" I answer "talking to myself" I shrug

[venus-says]

Aikatsu! Episodes 15-20

LOVE YOU POWER.

I almost had no post today because of Windows Update stupidity. But I’ve manage the issue and now I’m here. I’ll try to do 6 episodes to compensate for yesterday, but that’s not a promise. 👀 Anyway, Let’s Go!

Are the four of them making a team for the next special audition? Sounds nice!

How's that supposed to work? XD Oh yeah I forgot, last preview said that Otome would try to get her PR this episode. "I'm as reliable as the Titanic." Uhhhhhh... Do I tell him or do any of you wanna try? 😅 Are they gonna use this strict time limit trick every new Premium a girl tries to get? XD Damn these girls are strong. XD Can't believe a dude so is the main designer of a pop brand. Okay I'm even more curious about how a coord becomes a set of cards, I wish they gave us an explanation on how this system works. Trap of love again <3 Oh hey that's the first time we see a special appeal in a while.

PRECIOUS

I think I know what’s gonna happen in the next. 👀

Damn they're going all out on this concert huh? Ohhhh finally some special appeal training. "The only idol who can do 3 special appeals is Mizuki" I bet people who were able to play the arcade game started laughing here. XD Man this episode is HEAVY. I don't see why go through the clothes changing and the special stage just for a rehearsal, but okay 😅 Help I've been so focused on the episode I forgot to screenshot pics for the post. Help the audience is just a bunch of copy and paste just with different palettes. XD Ohhhhh the foreshadowing. I wonder how was to theorize about Ringo and Orihime back then. XD Ichigo went from doing one to two appeals in just one day, wow. This is dedication. OHHHHHH THEY DONE IT. THAT WAS GREAT. Is good to finally watch this performance of signalize and knowing the context of it and why it was so shocking. XD I don't know if she was really down after all that happened or if she was just amazed at Mizuki, but I'm glad that Ichigo seems to be dealing with everything very well. ^^ you go girl.

Valentine episodZzzZZZzzzz. I'm glad they at least introduced a new concept in this episode so it wouldn't be completely useless. I like this Good Coord concept, I wish they still used till nowadays in the new series. Can't believe Raichi's plan is really working. Oh hey new song. Even not really caring for valentine this was kinda decent. Next is Yurika's episode!!!!!

She's extra. Man goth idols are all about living the fantasy, aren't they? XD Can I just say that I love Yurika's school dress? Is probably my favorite after Mizuki's one. Yurika, just drop your character already, you're way better like this that your vampire persona. XD

I'M ALL HERE FOR OTAKU YURIKA. No way Ichigo's winning this one, I'm sorry. 😅 Called it. XD I really should go to bed but ending this on episode 19 would kill me so LET'S WATCH 20 AS WELL.

I believe this one is where Yurika gets her PR, right? They found out about Yurika's true identity? This is going to be interesting. Aoi talking about scandals like if they couldn't end an idol's career. 😅 (Though I must admit, most of idol scandals shouldn't be that big of a deal since most of them are about dating and this should never have been a taboo. BUT I'M NOT GOING DOWN THIS RABBIT HOLE AGAIN, back to the episode.) Hey that's the first mention to the starlight queen cup, right? Nice to see the seeds of it being planted so soon. Gosh "normal" Yurika is so precious, I wanna hug.

Damn Ran. Yurika, do you realize you're saying you gonna suck blood of dead souls? 😅 Glass Doll is really THAT song. Another set of great episodes. This show is really amazing, isn't? Now I gotta go, see y'all tomorrow.

[shylaaf-blog]

The day chocolate chip cookies almost killed me.

I want to tell you, before I almost died.. life was great...

When I say life was great.. I mean it was GREAT! Almost too great..

The kind of great that you feel uneasy about because you know something is bound to happen? Yeah well, don’t jinx yourself because IT HAPPENS.

Before IT HAPPENED, my wife and I were sailing along and kicking life in the ass. We just moved to a new state, 4 hours from her family and 10 hours from mine. No friends, no family, just eachother. We had just bought our RV(story for another time) and started to remodel it. I started back to school. Became a CPR instructor. We were planning our wedding reception. Stacking money in savings. Losing weight. Hitting the gym. Ya know, the shit that makes you feel good about life! Then IT.

One night I decided to make chocolate chip cookies because, you know...Womanhood. We made chocolate chip cookies and sat out on our back porch and was reading a book together. LIFE WAS GREAT.

Fast forward 45 minutes and here we are inside heading to bed. Now I don’t know about you but where I grew up, stairs weren’t a thing in houses.

I’m fixing to head down stairs to go to bed. (This is the good part) I take the first step on our narrow, carpeted, steep stairs that I’ve been walking down every night and morning for the last 9 months. BAM! Fall straight on my ass, cookies in hand and down the stairs I went. Halfway down my right leg somehow magically gets tucked under me and then I roll. Smashing into the wall I’m finally at the bottom of the (15) stairs, Cookies EVERYWHERE, I look at my ankle, look at the top of the stairs at my wife, look back at my ankle... PANIC. For those of you who don’t like descriptions close your eyes for 5 seconds. My ankle bone was popped out(not in the way like my bone is popping through my skin) and my foot was twisted to the side. It looks like a can of biscuits busted right there in my leg.

-I’m going to add in that my wife and I are both in the medical field, and in our house there is no sympathy for injuries unless it’s amputated or a REAL emergency-

Back to panic mode. I said “uhhhhhh ITS BROKE!” She comes running down the stairs. She looks at me..looks at the ankle...looks at me... looks at her phone...looks back at me... and I can tell you exactly what’s going on in that pretty little noggin of hers. She’s fighting her inner paramedic and trying to be a wife but the paramedic is winning. Remember what I said about sympathy? So I finally look her and I said “JUST FUCKING CALL 911”. I was not being very nice and I definitely never yell. She said “it’s just dislocated, I can reduce it then we can get you up the stairs and into the car”. Bless her heart. I said “ITS FUCKING BROKE AND YOU ARE NOT TOUCHING MY ANKLE, CALL THE FUCKING AMBULANCE”. My poor wife. Looks at me and says “I’m telling you, it’s just dislocated. They are going to reduce it before they take you to the ER. But if you insist I’ll call for an ambulance.” So about 5 minutes later the fire fighters arrive. Then the ambulance. Then I’m at the ER. BTW, they did NOT reduce it before we got to the ER because there ain’t a pain medication strong enough to let you pop my broken ankle back into place while I’m awake. Also- I’ve never broken a bone in my entire life so I’m slightly freaked out.

-X-RAYS-

On top of being severely dislocated. It’s broken (huh. Imagine that) not in one, not two, but in THREE places! I get the magical medicine that makes you forget EVERYTHING. The DR has to yank my ankle back into place and does it several times for it to be in the right position. Casted. Sent home.

Fast forward another week, and I’m having surgery. 1 plate, 8 screws and some sort of wire and “button” to pull my bones back together.

This is the story of how chocolate chip cookies almost killed me and how my life was ruined.

Okay, maybe that’s a little dramatic...

7 weeks on crutches, two more to go. 10 hours from all of my friends and family. My wife had to go back to work 5 weeks ago. So I’m stuck in a house. All day. Alone. I can’t do things I was able to do before around the house. For shits and giggles, have you ever tried to do all the things you did before using one leg? That shit is TALENT. I couldn’t cook my wife dinner, I couldn’t clean. I couldn’t ATTRIBUTE. And that killed me. I LOVE taking care of my wife after she’s been at work all day. She works well over 12 hours a day and came home and had to take care of me. I mean, I know that’s what she signed up for when we got married, but when you’ve just work over 12 hours helping other people... you’re ready to come home and turn into a zombie. Not do dishes, laundry, cook dinner, give your wife a bath, make lunches for the next day.. etc..

I will be the first to admit, I started down a DEEP, dark, depressing rabbit hole. I cried. I shut down. I didn’t(or so I thought) have anyone to talk to. I started to lose sleep. I stopped eating throughout the day. I didn’t have the drive to get out of chair. I consumed my time with Netflix. I felt sorry for myself and I let a damn broken ankle almost get the better of me and turn me into a person I didn’t recognize.

I’m here to tell you, no matter how shitty your situation is. No matter if you have a broken ankle or a broken heart. Feeling sorry for yourself is not the way out of it. I’m here to tell you that you’re a bad ass. You’re brave. You’re beautiful. You are so damn loved! You are more the depression. You’re more then what anyone else has to say about you. You are not alone! And most importantly, you are more then your situation!

-S

[notesofarichlycolorednight]

fairy lights, 1975, matte, cactus, oil pants, pastel, 11:11, and marble please!

i’m totes ignoring hw to answer this even tho i shouldn’t yikes

fairy lights: if a crystal ball could tell you the truth about anything, what would you want to know?

shit son. that’s a tough question. but…i guess if i had to pick smth, i’d ask it if and when i’d achieve my ultimate life goals.

1975: what is the first happy memory that comes to mind, recent or otherwise?

VEGAS BABY! okay but seriously. i know i’ve picked this for a lot of things for a several asks now, but like…this is what came to mind first.

i went to vegas for my 21st with my mom and we got to see criss angel live. i fucking love magic, you have no idea, so this was an amazing opportunity.

and may i just say for as edgy and dark criss is, that is seriously just his tv persona. like he’s a 50-yr-old who’s ripped af and looks like 30smth DORK

matte: if you knew that in one year you would die suddenly, would you change anything about the way you are now living?

i’d probably drop out of school and see if i had the funds to travel around the world. but that’s abt it. like if it’s set in stone, i’m for sure gonna die in a yr (i like living tho, really, so) and there wasn’t much i could do abt it, why worry abt my health or shit?

cactus: what is your opinion on brown eyes?

i have many feelings abt brown eyes yo

i’ll try to keep it…

anyway, uh they’re fucking beautiful and idk why ya’ll have to hate on them so much. i mean i do know, but that’s a rabbit hole i shouldn’t go down rn. like let them be fucking beautiful okay bc they are and you can meet me in the fucking pit if you disagree

i saw this fucking post going around abt how you should just idk let brown eyes be boring and common or some shit

and i was like…uhhhhhh, disagree. full stop. blocked.

i don’t see anyone just letting light eyes be boring or…uh,,,, un…common. they always have to cerulean or sea foam orbs, or some shit

so uh,,, fuck you, whoever wrote that

oil paints: what would you title the autobiography of your life so far?

fuck this shit

uh but seriously tho

this is actually really hard wow. my brain keeps making jokes and using memes

There’s a Million Things I Wanna Do, and Instead I Have Anxiety™

that’s the best i got. at this point in my life, this title is not going to be serious

lbr i think don’t it would ever be if i ever wrote an autobiography

pastel: would you describe yourself as more punk or pastel?

oh def pastel

i mean it really depends on whether or not you’re talking abt the Aesthetic™ of punk and pastel

or the actual punk or pastel

i mean i’d probs still be pastel (whatever that means in real life; i hope it’s not bad) but i am in it for hopepunk yo!!!!

11:11: name three wishes and why you wish for them.

to finish grad school, which includes my phd. bc grad school is so stressful

quick side story: one of my professors wants some grad students to come into his undergrad class to be on a panel (that talks abt possible avenues they could pursue w a psych major) and i haven’t volunteered bc honest to god i have nothing helpful to say. “grad school sucks. and then you die” he’d hate me

pillow-pet’s perry, the semi-aquatic, egg-laying mammel of action

i mean look at this cute lil’ shit

is expensive af bc disney is becoming a monopoly

DO YOU NOT SEE WHAT IS GOING ON

and lastly, to have the money to pay off my student loans. again, no explanation needed

marble: what is the most important thing to you in your life right now?

definitely my family and friends. like always my family and friends.

…and my writing.

thank you!!!! ^_^