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Fic Writer Questions!

@oddsocksandstuff tagged me in this, thank you so much, sweetie!  ❤️

 1) How many works do you have on AO3? I’ve got 40 so far (of which 25 are SPN fics). There’s more to come! 

2) What’s your total AO3 word count? 486,667, apparently. That tells me each of my fics has an average wordcount of 12,166.675… Seems about right. I was never any good at keeping things short.

3) How many fandoms have you written for and what are they? Uhh… On AO3 I’ve written for Supernatural, Supernatural RPF, X-men (Cherik) and McFassy (James McAvoy/Michael Fassbender). But I’ve written a lot when I was younger that has never made it online, including NCIS, Pirates of the Caribbean, and lots of weird one-shorts starring everyone from Michael J. Fox to Kevin Sorbo from “Hercules: The Legendary Journeys”. 🤨  

4) What are your top 5 fics by kudos? “A Lesson to be Taught” – an SPN Wincest pwp fic where a dominant Dean fucks (and spanks) Sam and they discover that Dean apparently has a daddy!kink. Comes with a photo manipulation too! There be dick.    

“Taking Game” – a semi-dark medieval Cherik (Charles Xavier/Erik Lehnsherr from X-men) AU. Basically, Charles is a poacher hunting on king Erik’s land to his great dismay. And so, he’s captured and gets the choice between losing his life or serving the king for a bit… Dubcon and smut ensues.   “Only Like This” – a little SPN Wincest dub-con fic about hopelessly pining Dean doping Sam just so he can touch and kiss his oblivious little brother. It’s okay. Sam won’t remember when he comes to.   “It’s Only Carnal” – A dark SPN Wincest noncon fic where soulless!Sam needs to blow off some steam. And when it comes to carnal activities his brother isn’t exactly a novice – so why not use Dean’s body to make them both feel good?   “Demonized” – a long and dark af SPN noncon fic written in collaboration with the awesome @palishere. Sam is captured by some nasty demons who use him to lure in his brother. At first it seems the demonic scumbags are just really perverted and have a weakness for sexual torture, but they turn out to have ulterior motives…  

5) Do you respond to comments, why or why not? Yes, always. I think it can be a bit demotivating for a reader to leave a comment and get zero response – and so, they might not bother to comment on the next fic. At least, that’s how I feel personally. And besides, I really want to let readers know that I appreciate them taking the time and effort to actually tell me what they think.  

6) What’s the fic you’ve written with the angstiest ending? Oufff… Seriously? How can I possibly pick just one when 99.8 percent of my fics are not only dark af but have gut-wrenching ambiguous endings as well? I, err… I’m gonna have to think really hard about this one, hold on… *Insert buzzing cicada sound*… Uhh… Well, I guess it might be… “Play or Pay” – a dark female!reader-insert Wincest fic where demon!Dean has you and Sam trapped somewhere underground. Sam ends up being on the receiving end of the demon’s cruelty when he tries to save you. Using Dean’s body the demon ends up raping Sam while the reader tries to escape to get help... There’s a little twist in the end. Loads of dead dove here, including death (not Dean or Sam).     “The Orange Hour” – where undercover inmate!Dean has to rape CO!Sam in order to save both of their lives and get them out of the jail in one piece. It doesn’t go completely as planned. (Comes with an nsfw photo manipulation).  “Demonized” – loads of bottom!Sam torture, full of hurt and absolutely no comfort... It’s just… I dunno, I think I and @palishere had a collective meltdown in the noncon and angst department. Sorrynotsorry.      

8) Do you write crossovers? If so what is the craziest one you’ve written? Nope, I’ve never in my life written a crossover. Usually, I’m too laser-focused on 1 obsession at a time. I can’t multitask, okay?   

9) Have you ever received hate on a fic? Yes, the fandom purity police has visited me on AO3. The usual self-proclaimed know-it-alls vomiting their bullshit all over the comment section about how “problematic” noncon is and how “sick” I must be. I thought about moderating comments for a while, actually – but I just deleted their follow-up comments until they left me alone. 😤

10) Do you write smut? If so what kind? Yes!! Gimme! Usually, I write noncon smut or just good ol’ pwps that feature some sort of dominance. That’s it. That’s my jam. In general, the only smut I don’t write is the cute, fluffy, feel-good, cuddly stuff… My smut’s usually pretty rough and/or some sort of dub/noncon.

11) Have you ever had a fic stolen? Yes. Someone stole “It’s Only Carnal” and posted it as her own on some Portuguese fanfiction site. She even replied to comments, answered questions and talked about how much she loved writing it, etc… Luckily a sweet mutual on Tumblr let me know about it and I reported her for plagiarism. The stolen fic was taken down shortly after and the account deleted. Goddamn thief. 😡  

12) Have you ever had a fic translated? Yes. Honestly, I can’t remember which fic(s). But people have contacted me on AO3 and asked for permission to translate my stuff into Chinese. I have - of course - happily allowed them to. It’s such an awesome compliment to get, I think!  

13) Have you ever co-written a fic before? Yes, 2. “Demonized” and the fluffy Ficfacers prompt fic “The Masks We Wear” starring Sam and Dean taking their pranks a step too far. Basically, the brothers get angry with each other and they need to talk it out… No smut in this one, can you believe it?!! But that was kinda the prompt we received. The prompt was literally: “Sam and fluff”. Anyways, both fics are co-written with the lovely @palishere. You can find her AO3 here. 😊

14) What’s your all time favorite ship? Wincest!!! Definitely. Gimme all the brotherfucking, please. No contest. And coming in on second place I guess there’s Samifer – never paired consensually, though. I just love Lucifer messing with Sam’s head and torturing him in all kinds of cruel ways.    

15) What’s a WIP that you want to finish but don’t think you ever will? Oh, that’s a mean question… I have a noncon WIP where Sam and Dean are in prison. I wrote a whole story outline, gathered my own little dictionary of prison slang, etc… But I never made it past page 10 or something. Sam was supposed to get jumped by a gang of inmates and then Dean was supposed to helplessly watch from the sideline, offering to trade places if they’d just leave his little brother alone… And after that it’s all about a mix of healing and vengeance… But the story has been lying on the shelf for more than a year and I doubt I’ll ever continue it. Oh, wait! I almost forgot – I have a long Cherik WIP sequel to “To Have and to Hold”! Just checked, its wordcount is 18,729! Holy crap…. What a waste, huh? But I honestly don’t think I’ll ever finish it, because I’m not into Cherik anymore. That ship has kinda sunk for me…. So, now I’m hyperfixating on Supernatural, yeah?     

16) What are your writing strengths? Description, I think. I just love details and setting the mood. I like to think I’m pretty good at writing in English too even though it isn’t my native language… I wish to be better and expand my vocabulary but I’m doing okay nonetheless.

17) What are your writing weaknesses? Description, I think. Yes, you read correctly. I often describe things TOO much. Sometimes to the extent where the pacing gets so slowed down that I feel like the scene loses its ‘feel’. I don’t know if it’s just in my head, but that’s my major concern about my writing. That and my signature ambiguous endings, lol.

18) What are your thoughts on writing dialogue in other languages in a fic? Love it. It can be difficult to pull off, but if you get it right it can be magical. Just don’t overdo it and make sure that the reader can follow. I don’t think I have any fics online where I do it, but I’m not a complete stranger to it either.

19) What was the first fandom you wrote for? Ack, my poor brain trying to go back to when I was friggin’ 13… You know how many years ago that was?! 25!!! Okay!? *Huffs*…. Anyway, I THINK it might’ve been Keanu Reeves’ character in “Johnny Mnemonic”. Or maybe David James Elliott’s character as Harmon Rabb in the early seasons of “JAG”. I dunno. Either way this question makes me feel really old and I don’t appreciate it. Don’t @ me. 😅   

20) What’s your favorite fic you’ve written? That’s probably a tie between “The Orange Hour” and “It’s Only Carnal”. They’ve both got nice pacing and that’s my biggest challenge, I think. Also, I love the whole Morse code thing in “The Orange Hour”. I don’t even know what happened or how I came up with it, but hey, I can surprise myself if I want to, I guess! And of course there’s the smutty noncon and all of the hurt… So, those two fics are my personal faves. 😏  

I’ll tag @jackandthesoulmates, @pinkoptics, @palishere, @wrenseroticlibrary, @decadent-prince, @negans-lucille-tblr, @juinae and @impala-dreamer and everyone else who feels like doing it! Feel free to ignore, of course. 

[awesomeatitsbest]

finally getting around to watching Elseworlds 🙌🏼 so IGNORE THIS if long ass text posts are annoying lmao

fcking LOL at stephen’s face on grant’s body

they dont know each other’s big bad, they need weekly skype sessions smh

oliver and iris are just the weirdest thing lmao theyre both so easy on the eyes tho

oliver in the flash suit, gotta say, not a bad look

oh...no...oliver...u mess

barry finding out that he’s oliver is like when a kid opens a present on Christmas

barry and oliver are just the weirdest brothers

felicity and iris call each other??? fuq yes, im ready for the superheroes’ wives bookclub weekly meeting to be a thing

speaking of earth 38 and kara...is there such a thing a interdimensional skype calls¿

awh brother exchanging tips on their weird body switches how cute

are these west-allen tears in my eyes? maybe SO

kent farm fuck me up

kara and lois ganging up on clark, how cute :’)

ARGO CITY! phew i thought the writers forgot about that

aWH clark and lois are cute af

oh my gosh wait i forgot clark/kal was just a baby when krypton exploded and kara was the only one who remembered but now he’s been to argo city 🤧

a fcking robot that can mimic meta powers? ok then

barry just pRANKED oliver by shooting remote control bows, the brother dynamic i tell ya, they need to have more minor crossovers happen between all the shows smh

my three heroes, acting like each other, joking like kids🤧 warms my heart

wait so the robot can copy alien abilities???¿ hmm....also it just came to me, if cicada’s powers only work on metas, then why dnt they just SUPER him...wouldnt be much of a plot i suppose

oh my gosh this is the FREAKIEST friday ever

carlos’ hair is so beautiful, what does he use on it damn

lol wouldnt it be funny if oliver speed sketched but it ended up just looking like a rlly bad 2nd grade project

kate kane on top of that building? wig

oh my gosh they redid the beginning sequence of arrow w grant fREAKIEST FRIDAY

i love my idiot superhero trio, bickering like real super-powered/skilled siblings

lol these fckers rlly tryna rob the superhero trio rn...nvm the superhero trio are idiots

kate “im the rain on your parade” kane has arrived to ruin my life

hey! kara and kate both got superhero cousins! alSO was kate totally flirting w kara or was she totally flirting w kara OR do i have my gay goggles on but i mean cmon “those are the ones that you can see 😏” like cmon

the hero squad breaking into an asylum..i love it

omG IS THAT THE BANE MASK THING how cool

A GLORIOUS ENTRANCE BY BATGIRL

if batgirl and supergirl dnt interact more in the future ITS A FCKING HATE CRIME AIGHT

DAMMIT EARTH 90 BARRY, OLICITY WAS HAVING A MOMENT

mATCHING OUTFITS HOW CUTE

bro deegan himself needs to be admitted into the asylum dafuq

a second after typing that i realize that he technically briefly was heh

oh my fucking gosh his rat lookin ass transformed himself into hot af superman smh

barry “too pure for the world” allen and oliver “dark and broody” queen, what an amazing brotp

melissa/kara in all black? hAWt

kara “too afraid to be a woman?” danvers

who...who was in charge of chyler’s wig? i just...i just wanna talk

GARY IS HERE GARY IS HERE LMAO so i guess LoT technically was part of the crossover

awh alternate reality alex is still closeted :’( like not even sarcastically, confused straight alex legit makes me sad

any danvers sisters interaction makes me CRYilOVETHEM SO MUCH

“i guess my pod didnt land here” oh my gosh what is earth 1 kara like omg is krypton still alive omg wait that makes me sad that this earth doesnt have the danvers sisters

this faux italian mob cisco is giving me life its strangely fitting

alex “a badass in every reality” danvers

ah finally everyone in their respective suits but also couldnt they have used this opportunity to debut a new suit for supergirl

oh my gosh no the two super dorks wanna run around the world anD TURN INTO ASHES ALA INFINITY WAR

big brother oliver calling his little siblings kara and bara the best of us and the ones that inspire hope? maybe a bitch CAN cry

BRAINY, PAPA J’ONN, AND MISS LOIS!!!!¡

WHY IS THE IDIOT SUPERHERO TRIO SO WILLING TO DIE I HATE YUOU ALL

sooo....wtf did oliver do

CRISIS ON INFINITE EARTHS????? MOTHERFUCKER R U SERIOUS i mean i already knew this bUT IM STILL PUMPED AF??????

[adventuresofashli]

day five

i slept like poop. my throat was on fire. I was at the point where I had to swallow at every inhale and it made everything more inflamed. I wanted to cry. but I eventually fell back asleep. my sleep schedule is sort of normalizing. i’ll fall asleep at normal times but it’s the staying asleep that’s been troubling me. i’m sure it will fix itself eventually. I had class again today, buttttt not without my bomb ass green tea with lemon and some watermelon ayyyeee. we reviewed a lot of glycolysis and TCA in class which I was cool with because I really like biochemistry. he summed everything up pretty nicely for the short amount of time we had today. afterwards we went and picked up our lab coats and then grabbed lunch. alana has this really good fried rice yesterday and I really wanted that, so I made her take me, ashley, elyse, and emily to get some. it was fantastic and I would eat it every day honestly. I think this is where my food karma is starting to come into play. despite my terrible throat but it’s whateva. afterwards we went to some market that the locals go to and we picked out two samples to use tomorrow to plate. me and ashley chose some kind of fried bug that looked like a giant cockroach or cicada. we also grabbed part of some kind of animal intestine. this market was filthy though. there was so many rats and all the meat and produce was sitting out all day in this hot temperature where flies were globing all over them. i don’t know how people eat this stuff. the smell was putrid and kind of gave me a headache. hopefully we get some cool results though. i also tried jackfruit and mangosteen for the first time. both were super sweet. after going to the market we took a boat ride through the canal and rode over to the Big C which is another mall/market. me, addie, autumn, elyse, alana, and emily went to a bakery that was located outside of the big C and I bought some strawberry crapes and some sort of brownie/oreo thing. they were both fantastic and I wanna go back. we went back to the hotel and went swimming and then I ate my dessert in the pool bc I was hungry af. we decided that we wanted to go to the night market again and show elyse and emily so we went back to shower. this was the first time since I left that i shaved my entire body and now i’m so soft and silky. maybe that’s why I haven’t been sleeping well lol. so me alana, elyse, and emily head to the night market in a taxi only to find out that it’s closed! i’m assuming it’s only open on weekends then. but we found some kind of mall next to it called paradise palace and walked around. they were hungry and I want too hungry so I walked into an organic store called lemon farm that was super cute. it was like a thai version of whole foods or trader joe’s I was really liking it. I grabbed some mulberry jasmine tea and headed back to my friends. they bought some pad thai and i tried it and it was the most tasteful and flavorful and inventive pad thai I have ever haid. it had a slightly spicy peanut sauce to it with some tofu and it was all wrapped in the egg like an omelet. it’s definitely worth going back for more. i’ve never had pad thai like it. we then decide to eat these mini cakes for dessert. yes this is my second dessert don’t judge me. they had a promo where you buy 8 and get 1 free so we did that. the lemon and carrot cake were my favorite ones. they all packed so much flavor and detail in such a small thing. I will also be going back to eat more of those. it was a very good food day. my good karma kicked in! we headed back to the hotel and hung a bit in emily’s room where people were getting drunk. it’s nice because there’s super bad wifi here so everyone’s forced to go out and hang out with each other but I love everyone so much. I don’t wanna leave.

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( .. the cutest bean ever omg )

hey guys, i’m jules — a suffering uni student from the weirdest fucking tz — and i’m so excited to be a part of this rp !! i like watching crack vids of bts ( mY BOYS !!!! hmu if you’re kpop trash too so we can sob over wdta pt. 2 ), finding new memes to torture my friends two provinces away with, making my eardrums bleed bc i’m listening to some surfer rock on max volume, and bingewatching the canadian comedy masterpiece known as letterkenny for the umpteenth time. anyways, this is my precious honey girl mona who’s rly just trying to live peacefully ( for a young celeb in hollywood at least ) despite the intensity of her life. here’s some basic — & extensive, sorry lmao — info about her ( TW: abuse kinda ?? , brief hints of depression, insomnia & starvation ) :

( JEON SOMIN & CISFEMALE )— here we have everything you want to know about ( MONA GATLIN/KIM MONA ), the ( MUSICIAN ) that has been stealing everyone’s hearts for ( FIVE YEARS ) years now. her rep keeps pushing for the ( STEADFAST & GREGARIOUS ) persona, but a close source to her says she’s actually ( SYBARITIC & RETICENT ). i read she ( ABANDONED HER CAREER IN KPOP AFTER LONGTIME ABUSE FROM HER MANAGEMENT, CAUSING HER GROUP TO DISBAND ) but whatever it is that you want to believe, one thing is for sure, the ( TWENTY TWO ) year old has the world in her hands. — (( jules && gmt-2:30 && she/her ))

so here’s a brief bio for now

born on april 6, 1995 in incheon, south korea

she was given up by her mother just minutes after her birth, not even given a name as she was separated from her, but knows that her surname was kim

she ended up being adopted within a few days, as her parents had been waiting a while to adopt from this particular agency

was named mona haneul gatlin, after her adoptive grandmother.. well, 2/3 of the name anyway

grew up just outside of seattle, washington with her two dads, an editor at a publishing firm and a cop respectively, and was showered with affection

a ball of sunshine growing up, i mean she was polite and thoughtful af, would give a classmate the cupcake her papa snuck into her lunchbox if they didn’t have enough for lunch

p smart all things considered, but especially loved english and languages while physics could fucking choke ( well.. it could once she was in higher grades anyway )

she always loved to sing, knew that she was good too. especially when her dad gave her a couple of songbird-based nicknames that still make her beam when he calls her that

her dads were aware of the american auditions for korean entertainment companies and since mona grew up learning korean from her auntie — who was her papa’s boss in reality — they figured she would be capable of at least auditioning ( i’m.. so bad at explaining things, i’m sorry lol )

so at thirteen, she went to an audition in san francisco and got in the good graces of a company, so much so that by fourteen, she had moved to seoul and began training

it was.. intense to say the least, especially when she was still p young and had just moved to a different continent

some training exercises felt more like punishments than actual lessons or help, but she shrugged it off as she was determined to make it big, for her parents if not herself

attended an international school alongside several other trainees/idols and honestly felt a bit off about the huge changes in her life, causing her to have some issues with making new friends outside of those she had already made within the agency, which had already been few and far between if she were being honest with herself

at one point, she indulged in underaged drinking alongside a few other trainees because everything became so hard to deal with and it was a means to unwind in some way

but when more positive attention and energy was directed towards her, she stopped for the sake of her future now that it seemed brighter

finally was chosen for a co-ed group at sixteen with her being the maknae and debuted at seventeen

went by kim mona bc she was p much told to hide her english name since it would likely cause some backlash, if not for the fact that she was the daughter of two men so that had to be hidden too

but everyone knew her as MONA, since mononyms are p popular among idols and it felt a bit more genuine than going by her initial surname

they had a lot of success, even having a couple of subunits, some collabs individually here and there and co-hosting variety shows, up until january 2016 when she announced her departure from the group and, subsequently, led the group to disband altogether

she decided that the kpop music industry was a bit too much for the girl that wanted a bit of peace for longer than a week at a time, so she moved onto the western music industry and dragged a couple of her group-mates with her, alongside a guy that they’d crossed paths with while searching for new management

kinda earned a substantial following in their new project since they had quite the fanbase with DefY so they saw sudden success

anyways, to the rumour

mona’s former management company endured a lot of speculation regarding abuse of its artists ( if you’re not familiar with it already, look up the abuse/unfair treatment scandals with smtown and exo, and you’ll have the basis of my direction with this )

when she left the group, most netizens assumed that first and foremost, their contracts had expired and they wished to try something new

however once cavalier put out “trainwreck,” which mona co-wrote, many started reading into some aspects of it as her, and her former members’, history of abuse with her ex-management condensed into an almost four minute song

it also didn’t make sense to people as DefY was at its peak, but when a couple of onstage fainting spells and the hospitalization of one or two of her group-mates for “sudden illnesses” were taken into consideration as well, it made it seem all the more plausible and it became a huge scandal in south korea

honestly.. not gonna tell you if it’s true or not for the time being bc it would prob involve a couple of other muns and speculation is always fun lmao

now her personality/other little things

an actual angel™

who makes rly shitty, impulsive decisions that make her question her sanity lol

not annoyingly nice or cute or w/e though ?? like she’s a rather compassionate and enthusiastic person, but she’s p chill for the most part, unlike the slight shift in persona during her idol days where her positivity was more put on

dumb jokes galore

kinda going through her wild phase now, but also went through one during her trainee and debut days that was more so a means to help her deal with how straining almost 120 hours per week of constant activity was on her teenage self

bad influences hmu

endured depression before debuting, just realized i forgot to add that

she won’t tell you much about her past, v vague about her trainee days especially

the kind of girl that wants a simple life.. but will also splurge on some stunning louboutins

if you ever saw her at an awards show, she’s that person that befriends everyone

but she won’t take shit from anyone just because they’re generally in her good graces

pastries are.. everything to her, you’ll win her over for the most part if you pick her up a chocolate filled croissant or something

speaks korean and a bit of japanese and chinese, super basic though

has been an on-and-off sufferer of insomnia for years now, as well as a couple of vitamin deficiencies, migraines and the effects of a poor diet

so now she’s trying to treat her body like a temple.. by eating as much red meat and veggies, and drinking as much water, as possible, god help the girl

curses quite a bit

has a fear of living alone ?? kind of, she’s used to being glued to the side of her dads/group-mates that the idea of living by herself, although prob more fulfilling for her, is a bit terrifying

also has a fear of cicadas and ordering inside of takeout restaurants lmao

but first fear aside, she doesn’t rly have a dependency on people

has a very staunch standing on many things regarding her career now, finally — and properly — putting herself first for once

also has a problem with prioritizing herself in almost anything

i might add more later ?? for now that’s it tbh

so that’s mona !! if you’d like to plot, message me or like this and i’ll come to you. i’ll post a small connections ooc later on !