#and theyve just. still been there til now

[canyourlawnmowerdothis]

new hot groupchat discussion topic. The Geese Haven't Left

[indiegame]

i just napped for like 4 hrs. uh. hello.

[rk-ceres]

!DIRTY! Fantasies

George Weasley X _______ X Sirius Black

After an almost year long hiatus here’s a blurb I guess. Idk too lazy to go through it all just smut.

“George” she moans out as his fingers slowly go in and out of her sopping center his lips pressed against her neck sucking marks into her skin his body pinning her against the wall of a room in the other hand both of her wrists pinning them above her head in Grimmuald place theyve been doing this for hours. George has always been demanding in bed prolonging her pleasure in fifth year he noticed how she blushed when Sirius thanked her and harry for setting him free. At the meeting today he glanced over to see her staring at his fingers. Deciding to have some fun with her after the meeting has ended he’s been really handsy and bringing it up every chance he gets. Below the floor boards they can hear Sirius yell at Kreacher in the kitchen just below them she moans imagining the love of her life and Sirius yelling at her being sadistic fucks til she cries in pleasure. She bites her lip and It doesn’t go un noticed by George he speeds up his fingers in her wet heat the ball of his hand rubbing into her clit she whimpers loudly “what dirty fantasies are you thinking about now love?” He asks her biting her earlobe and sucking on it she moans out for him he smirks into her skin “quiet Baby girl. Dont want Sirius to know do you? Or maybe my dirty little whore wants him to hear how much of a slut you are for me. Are you hoping he comes in here? Get him to touch you like this that what you thinking of? Or are you thinking of us yelling at you?” He says raising his voice a little “cause believe me LOVE I CAN YELL AT YOU!” He yells louder eliciting a moan out of her biting particularly hard on her collar bone o out of her lips as she clenched around his fingers “George stop with that already. It was a little crush in fifth year. You need to let it go. you know I love you. Only you. But keep yelling please keep yelling” she moans out hands still pinned against the wall “judging by the way youre squeezing my fingers right now you like it dont you little bitch” his voice loud and harsh he releases her hands taking his fingers out of her as she groans at the loss he brings his hand to her mouth “open.” She obliges as he shoves the fingers that was in her into her mouth she swirls her tongue around them as he groans “kneel by the bed.”

” He demands as she gets down on all fours crawling to the bed that they shared “good girl. Now tell me without lying this time. Are you hoping that Sirius comes in here. To touch you?” He unbuckles his belt pulling out his hard dick pumping it in front of her face as she licks her lips “are you dumb? I asked you a question. Fuck. I’m thinking about your mouth around my cock” He strokes harder throwing his head back as he groans she stares at his hand as the heat pools at her center she watches memorized by his movements he glares at her hissing her name “yes sir, I was” she mumbles “fuck, _______.” He moans teasing her slowing his fist looking down at her staring at him “touch yourself” he orders her to do she frantically starts rubbing her clit “look at how pathetic you are. Youre dripping on the floor ______. Is this how turned on Sirius and I get you?” She starts to buck into her hand as she stuck a finger into her cunt “I want to hear you.” He says still pumping his hard length she moans loudly “you want to feel how differently he stretches your needy hole dont you?” She moans at the words he shoves his length passed her parted lips and into her throat groaning out at the feeling she moans around him as she rubs faster “how would you feel about Sirius fucking your tight sloppy hole while sucking my cock filling you up good” he growls out louder as tears prick the corners of her eyes bucking faster into her mouth “bet youd like that huh?” She looks up at him through her lashes her eyes roll back “dont you fucking dare cum” he roars at her she puts her hands up in the air as hes pulling his dick out of her mouth and yanking her up by her hair unbeknownst to them that Sirius was right on the other side of the door listening “I want to hear how much you want for his dick in you. I want to hear your dirty secret maybe then I’ll let you come”

He growls lowly into her ears “I want him to fuck me bad Georgie. I want to swallow your dick while his stretches me out. I want both of you fucking me at the same time use all of my holes my body is yours George” she moans out as the grip he has on her hair increases he turns her to where her back is pressed against his chest and the door opens to a surprised Sirius “good slut looks like you get your wish huh was kind of hoping you heard us mate. She was getting so wet hearing you yell” his hands wrap themselves around her body prodding her center she moans when his fingers come into contact with her clit heat rising to her face as Sirius watches him sit her down on the bed with him legs going over his spreading her wide open as his fingers rub into faster circles his other hand going to pinch her nipples “like what you see mate?” He asks as Sirius gulps down not moving his eyes from her nodding “Shes close. Ive been edging her for hours. Youre going to beg him to let you come ______” George says for the both of you to hear as he bit down on her neck “Sirius” she moans out dropping her head back onto Georges shoulder “if you want to cum you better beg him for it, you know what happens if you cum when youre not supposed to little whore” he licks his fingers lubing his head lifting her slightly positioning himself at her asshole he gently sets her down as George pecked her cheek lovingly watching his girlfriend whimper and shake she moans at the sudden intrusion “fuck” she cries biting her lip “fuck so close” she groans out shaking he walks inbetween her legs looking up at George he nods with a chuckle “dont cum in her cunt. Anywhere else is fine. anything else is fair game. Shes been crushing on you since fifth year at shrieking shack. She gets so wet if I mention you while im balls deep in her.” He drops down to his knees “is that so now?” He asks with a cocked eye brow he moves the hand on her nipple groaping her neck “answer him whore” he spits out “yes sir, its true” she moans out as George moves his fingers “if youre going to cum naughty girl. Youre coming on my tongue” Sirius growls as he shoves his tongue into her hole she screams out as his nose presses against her clit George pounds into her arse “shit” she screams as he sucks on her clit “FUCK can I cum please can I cum can I cum can I cum” she says in a screamed strangled voice rapidly as George slams into her

“I dont know what youre waiting for little lady. Come on my tongue” He slaps her cunt making her scream “such pretty screams for us little girl. Completely fucked out for me arent you” George taunts her as Sirius shoves his tongue deep into her hole bringing his thumb to rub tight fast circles on her clit the knot in her belly unties as white pleasure shakes her body George and Sirius fuck her through her orgasam “youre squeezing me so well Princess” George whispers as he flies her onto the bed “we’re not done with you yet little girl” Sirius said as he strips off his pants and shirt his erection hitting his belly as he stands at the end of the bed George walks to the front of the bed “how you want to do this Sirius?” He asks “lets give her what she wants huh” George grins at him as Sirius grabs her hips flipping her on her stomach she lets out a soft moan as he pulls her hips back to him “ready for him _______?” George asks as he grips her chin in his fingers making her look at him she bites her lip “words love” he says harshly “yes Sir im ready for him” a smirk plays on George’s lips “good whore” he says as he lets go of her face he holds his dick to her mouth as she drops her jaw Sirius shoves his length into her not letting her adjust he keeps moving as a strangled cry makes its way around George’s dick “feel good love?” George taunts as he starts to fuck her mouth “so tight” Sirius grips her hips hard bringing hers to meet his “fuck love youre going to make me cum if you keep hollowing your cheeks like that baby girl” tears start to prick her eyes as his hips start to become quicker and sloppier Sirius leans forward and whispers in her ear “you going to cum soon arent you” he spanks her ass slipping one of his hands to play with her clit “shes squeezing me so good mate” he says looking at George as he cums in her mouth “hold it” he whispers down as he looks back up to him “this is fun mate. If she behaves herself maybe this can happen again” George says as they share a chuckle she moans at the particularly hard thrust he gave her almost spitting out the cum in her mouth Sirius pulls her hair to where shes flush against his chest “open” he says to her as she does what he says he spits into her mouth a surprised look makes its way on her face “swallow” he growls in her ear as he wraps a hand around her throat he pulls out to lay on his back “what do you say Georgie. Fill up two holes at once?” Sirius asks looking to george who was watching pumping his length George smiles as he puts his legs over Sirius’s “well dont just stand there like pretty girl. Sit on out cocks” George coos out to her Sirius and George holding out their hands out to her she takes them as they positioned them to her holes

“ready for us baby?” George asks she nods he looks over to Sirius who grips her hips lowering her ass onto his cock she moans as George takes her shoulders and forces her down on both kissing her neck Sirius nibbling her ear tears prick her eyes “you like that dont you ______. Squeezing me so tight baby” George tells her as he flicks the tears off of her face with his tongue she nods as they start to move “Fuck George Sirius” she throws her head back on to Sirius’s shoulder “fuck…. Im not going to last like this” he growls in her ear hand moving to her clit as George keeps up the assault on her nipples nibbling and sucking “Fuck Sirius do that again” George whines “she squeezes so tight” he groans as Sirius speeds up on her clit. “your arse is so tight if you wanted to fuck me so bad you couldve just asked. I wouldve bent you over my knee and hit your ass til you couldnt sit straight for a month” Sirius said as he squeezed her thigh with his free hand speeding up his assault on her clit “fuck!” She screams out as she release all over the three of them her body goes limp in George’s hands “fucking hell ________” George says as he paints her insides with cum Sirius following not too far behind “help me lift her, shes exhausted” George says as he starts to lift her off of them she groans as George kissses her cheek “we’re just gonna clean you up lovely” he whispers as he lays her on the bed. Sirius pulls her into him while George gets a warm cloth cleaning her and getting into bed with them Sirius stands up and starts to get dressed “I love you _______. Theres no one like you. No one id ever love as much as you. You make my life so much better.” he whispers into her ear “i love you too Georgie” she gave him a weak smile “where do you think youre going?” George says with a raised eyebrow “oh… i just” “get back in bed. She needs us right now” he cuts Sirius off “mate you cant just leave her like this you helped break her. Now help me fix her” he chuckled He nods and lays next to her brushing his fingers through her hair humming soft melodies as George hums sweet nothings into her ear Sirius threads his fingers through her free hand “that’s it pup. Just let us take care of you” Sirius whispered

[eldritchmochi]

Hi its the anon that keeps poking you about cs again! All of those ideas are great and just so the pain of fanfic often sort of being what would be a novel first draft by being episodic, but I feel like you could so weave in a tonne of this stuff past now anyway. Especially the cane leaning, im a cane user too and I totally get it, how my partner handles my cane is just.... it feels different to anyone else. Like they get to touch my body differently to anyone else and that applies to my cane too since that really sort of a part of my body??

the inherent eroticism of ur partner touching u(r cane) i should make a zine about this lmao

rn i am considering how much if any retouching i wanna do of the existing 260k of coping skills cos yeah, the struggle of fanfic essentially being the first draft of a novel. usually it doesnt get me too bad since a) i generally fully complete a fic before posting so i do have a chance to go back and adjust things here and there & 2) i really havent ever cared to redraft something in the more traditional sense and iii) i basically never write things over 100k let alone anything substantially over 100k

one of the options im considering would involve a fairly big overhaul where i pull out the individual arcs and flesh em out with additional scenes for better pacing, and then repost as a series with shorter individual fics (with the og in tact as is, just with a note). ive had several people tell me theyve balked at the length of this damned fic, especially since its barely half done plot wise for JUST this specific already plotted chunk of the whole shebang. it has quite possibly gotten a smiiiidge out of control lmao but its been a great learning experience and i am Determined to finish it

however, i am ALSO considering filing the serial numbers off this fic once its done. i absolutely plan on redrafting the whole thing with a bunch of developmental editing work so the end result would almost certainly be a very different form of the story from the fic as it is now. im still unsure of how much of the rework i have in my head i want to put on the internet as Coping Skills: The Fic tho. its really important to me that, whatever i end up doing, i keep this monster available on the internet as a fanfic cos i am well aware of how much it means to a lot of folks

at the same time though theres a lot of backend stuff i could build into the cs2.0 idea that would make writing the rest of the story a LOT easier, which would make dev edits and redrafting easier bc ill be starting with something that has more structure, etc

theres balance somewhere i just haven't found it yet, HOWEVER im absolutely gonna be stuck til i figure it out. im a plantser when it comes to plot, im more than happy to figure out the path to a fairly nebulous endgoal, but i struggle to write stuff if i dont have a good idea of the overall structure of how i tell the story, like pattern of pov shifts and theming, which definitely got a bit away from me the last like 80k lmao

[charlottedabookworm]

Dawntrail Day 7+8 (part 1/2)

spoilers up to: lvl100 msq quest Dawntrail

original draft date: 4-5/7/24

scheduled release for: 31/7/2024

working on day 7 so i’m merging these. since i’ve only got a couple hours i'mma do my tribals on picto and then do the instance i stopped at yesterday, hopefully get close to a dungeon/trial unlock but really not got much time. day 8 i'm finishing up msq 100% no matter how long it takes me and then hopefully doing the two optional dungeons!

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…completely forgot that zoraal ja gave the order to kill all the civilians in solution nine

nice way to start the morning

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“I have no more use of you, begone”

hmmmm thats an odd thing to say considering you were claiming he wasn’t your son before

fingers crossed nothings up with gulool ja

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annnnd fade to black with the echoing sound of an execution shot lovely haven’t heard that since shadow ringers

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pfft that last one!

except i really don't care what sphene thinks ngl

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otis is back!

yes!

really didn’t want to kill him

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damn

he was a good guy

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okay but-

where is erenville?

they wouldn’t kill him off offscreen i know that much but we’d better not find him dying i swear to fucking everything I will-

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*stares at crying child*

fuuuuck i really hope you're not a trap

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oh thank fuck he's alive

also sorry your mums dead and has been a probably a long time mate

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huh

he didn't mention it

why didn't you mention it erenville, what are you thinking rn?

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no, please

this actually is important information to have

considering your mum is possibly the same sort of endless otis is and she had to end up that way somehow

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love looking at this ngl

so much easier and nicer doing it as you progress through the zones

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i made it to the fifth dungeon unlock but since there's almost certainly a trial afterwards and i have barely enough time to do the dungeon if i zoom through it, i'mma wait and do it in the morning

soooo wondrous tails time for picto ig

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oh

thats just rude we didn't need that

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ayyy alphi esti and shtola!

only reason theyve shown up just before i should be unlocking a trial is cos it can be done in trust? maybe? pls?

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fuuuck that looks like a voidgate to me

zoraal ja wtf have you been doing

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oh?

could it maybe lead to whichever reflection the alexandrian's are from

final zone in another shard? maybe?

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so ig it’ll be like ‘we beat him he flees we chase’

boom final zone and trial and dungeon?

either that or sphene will actually be the final boss which still wouldn’t surprise me

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the framing reminds me of hades ngl

like it tho

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i know you're having a crisis but has it occured to you that you were born because your dad liked kids? like i know your entire existence is like. a miracle and gulool ja ja didn't know he could have bio kids til you were born but that man obviously lived for being a dad

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this music-

just gonna sit here and listen to this for a bit before i enter the trial lol

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genuinely forgot that y'shtola used to run around as a conjurer

it feels like so long ago now lol and i half expected them to have rdm healer ali again

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okay his second phase actually looks cool

and isn't a massive floating head sitting at the edge of the arena which gives many bonus points

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zoraal ja looks pretty dead to me and we still have a dungeon and trial to go so-

sphene, cachuia, or some third unknown threat? taking bets now

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yeah it’s sphene 100% isn’t it

‘deliver my people’ huh

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yeahhhh there we go

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once again, i agree with ali

how many will you slaughter, sphene, so that your endless (yourself included) will live another day

how many children will you sacrifice so that your may live your hundredth lifetime

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but they aren't remembered

i'm gonna scream how dare you say that when your system removes the memories of a deceased person from everyone who knew them

how dare you-

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how dare you bring his mother into this

his mother, who everyone from his village has forgotten because of your system-

i-

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don't worry koana, it's not the first time

this is basically a tuesday for me i'll keep your sister safe

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i love him he's so sweet

i'm so glad gulool ja didn't turn out to be a trap

that probably would have broken my heart

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that graphics update really looking peak on the af gear

wow

look at that metal

(now to time glam back over it)

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so thw question is

another dungeon immediately?

huh nope

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ooooooo it so pretty

it has canals

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cachuia i'm guessing

i see where erenville gets the pretty from

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oh

oh erenville love you're not going to take this well

your mother is dead and alive (did she get a choice? did they just pluck up her memories adn make her endless?) and she wants them all to die again

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i love this

but also raha breaking my heart every expansion he's in

love him for that

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oh so we're continuing to traumatise both erenville and wuk lamat i see

great

wonderful

thank you very much for that square

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screaming crying throwing up why are you doing this to me

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"I'm put in mind of Lyhe Mheg"

a tribe quest reference? in my final fantasy 14 msq?

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this cutscene is legit one of my favourite parts of the expansion

sure we gotta shut down the memories of all these kids but we'll give them something nice before that

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ayo wtf

those are kriles bio parents

so i see we’re spreading the trauma to krile to join with erenville and wuk lamat

glad she can maybe get some closure tho

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love raha running up to krile and her parents and just chomping down on ice cream to break the ice between her parents

he’s such a good friend

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....oh i hit the image cap.

alright part 2 incoming

[toestalucia]

been thinking about main story today. as one does. something something feeling jealous towards urself in another time because they havent experienced their loss / didnt deal with otherworld at all / has been in other skydoms / is stronger, etcetcetc. like theyre relieved this all was possible Because theres timelines where different choices were made & different paths were taken, but i think during the time of having seen the timeline that died & up til the point where loki guides them (as well as once this is over) there will be times of 'why did /i/ have to go through that' (even if, ultimately, it ends up being a shortcut to estalucia <-which also is a topic, cuz gran was assuming 1) theyd be doing those last things with Everyone 2) theyd be gathering the sky pieces themself). like. not to wish ill on the me in the timeline nextdoors but what the fk. stuff like that.

i harp on abuot this nonstop, but since captain Has been shown to struggle with their own dilemma of wanting to forgive ppl but struggling with forgiving ppl who hurt vyrn & lyria, which is like? ofc? those r their besties? but grans so caught up in what they Should be that taking their own feelings into account is very difficult for a while (still is). 'why did this happen /here/' 'it had to happen /somewhere/' 'why would u wish this pain on anyone else' 'at least u & lyria didnt die / theres still hope'. and such. do u get where im coming from. not to mention the doctor quest with the whole 'ure just as scared of others dying as u are of dying urself' which is Another added hell now. like yeah theyve seen dead bodies before yes theyve seen ppl die (jsut recently too wtf......elmott&petras event), but when its the ppl closest to u.....................as well as almost dying Again when lyria got trapped in the otherworld cuz the strain between them got too much.

lots of negative stuff to work through due to act3 alone

[yuukei-yikes]

ive been thinking abt ayaki and shintaro post str lately. like i know realistically ayaki would dissapear since in theory the wish she was created from was fulfilled but i just think her staying creates an interesting idea on shintaro's problem with isolation and tendency to retreat into his own head. bc ayaki literally lives in his head. like ayaki and shintaro are the only two people in the whole world who will ever understand the things theyve seen at a truly deep level. so who else could shintaro go to when he gets flashbacks of previous routes. also the guilt he would probably feel for feeling more attached to the ayano in his head then the one actually there. a literal reflection of his actual feelings towards ayano i think. i kind of lost my train of thought uhm shrugs. i should probably write a google doc abt this

UGH UGH UGH.... THE BIT ABT SHINTARO FEELING MORE ATTACHED TO THE AYANO IN HIS HEAD INSTEAD OF THE ONE ACTUALLY HERE BEING THE SAME AS HOW HE LOVES THE AYANO HE MADE UP IN HIS MIND MORE THAN THE REAL ONE.... THATS SO FUCKING COOL AND REAL AND AWESOME..... YESSSSS shinyaki gets me so badly like. ough. they have been together for so long. i imagine yaki trying so hard to fight her humanity and even be cold to shintaro like!! ACT LIKE THE SNAKE EYE POWER SHE IS. and she does for the most part but Shintaro.... he is so difficult. he keeps being reborn and she keeps watching him grow up til activating her and remembering her again, and every single time shintaro's like Im so sorry for forgetting you again. and ayaki's like. AUGH. STOP IT STOP IT STOP IT. sorry they drive me a little crazy.

yeah i know ayaki would disappear but i dont like thatttt i think❤️❤️❤️ she should stay❤️❤️❤️ i think its a miserable existence and rly speaks abt ayano's character that she just stays there forever. i think there's something very cool abt an ayano tateyama who gets a happy ending in a mortal life at the cost of an suffering ayano who is alone for eternity, who sacrificed everything to be exactly where she is, watching another version of herself be happy. i dont think ayaki jumped into it knowing she'd find peace one day. i think once she is a snake she Is A Snake. Ur ass isnt dying. like she has a damn soul??

sorry the bit abt souls in kagepro drives me crazy. we dont know it with any other snakes other than awakening/konoha and haruka(and saeru but we dont talk abt it). the ending of mca is MESSY messy. personally i dont know if i Really understand it, I've always explained it to myself like konoha/awakening GETS ITS OWN wish bc despite being just a snake, it became its own person, and its wish is to have hiyori live which is how saeru "dies" bc it has to resign to be a surrogate life for hiyori right?? its never explained Why konoha gets a wish but that's it to me. awakening and retaining being opposites bc one is a snake that became a person and the other a person who became a snake.

anyways coming back to the soul thing, it's rly all in haruka and konoha's situation bc konoha becomes its own person, "gains a soul" lets say, and that very soul puts it in conditions of making a wish. haruka was the only one in the daze who wasn't PHYSICALLY there, and his wish never finished getting there bc awakening was like My body now. <- like this is so interesting there's a lot of potential to konoha being even more interesting, maybe being a snake that's always wanted its own body or something. i KNOW its bc haruka's personality wasn't strong for it but that's an ass explanation and it always has been😘

anywyas so haruka coming back by the end to me is explained thru his wish being Actually listened to and konoha retreating back to its original role though it is still a person. i think it becomes a case of reverse, from str onwards it is konoha watching through haruka instead of the other way around. this is kinda the logic behind why ive always loved the konoha reborn hc... with the whole soul thing. like konoha finally cutting ties with being a snake and not being awakening anymore, just konoha!!

god i got super sidetracked. basically ayaki is also a snake with a soul. yes she would disappear by all this logic, once shintaro's wish (and her own) is fulfilled. HOWEVER. i dont want to❤️ however if she DID. there is a HUGE prompt in here about shintaro dealing with the disappearance of ayaki. she has been with him for so long and he remembers it all bc just cuz retaining is away it doesnt mean he just unsees all the routes, yknow? just cant see them again but theyre still in his memory. so he remembers how he's been with her for so many lives and now she's just gone... and there's this other real ayano here. who isn't really another ayano she is the same person. he knows she is but she's still another. augh. augh augh augh. anyways no i dont like to think abt ayaki disappearing She needs to give the mekakushi dan a tour when they all jump in shintaro's brain to look at his memories western cartoon style

[atherix]

Dear Midnight readers,

We are gathered hear today to mourn the loss of Atherix after she was brutally murdered by both gnawing and shaking at the hands of Stitch.

Atherix was a lovely writer in their time, produce for us two quality chapters in a matter of hours and she will be missed.

The burial service will be on thee plot B at Fuck You Cemetery at Midnight Tonight.

I AM GOING TO SHAKE YOU SO MUCH. YOU ARE LIKE A SNOW GLOBE AND I AM AN OVERENTHUASTIC CHILD IM. I DON'T HAVE COHERENT THOUGHTS BC I READ THE FIRST CHAPTER WHILE INCOHERENT AND THE SECOND CHAPTER RIGHT AS I WOKE UP THIS MORNING. HOW FUCKING DARE YOU, FIRST OF ALL???????

GOD the glyph disappearing. The faCT THAT I KNOW WHY YOU FUCKING BROUGHT IT UP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I AM TORMENTED WITH KNOWLEDGE.

The comb, the memory sharing, the vulnerability as Scar puts it I am in LOVE

ALSO THEY SAID THE TITLE. I don't care that midnight is super common in the story it makes me happy anyway.

And Grian not getting the whole shadows are light but not thing is so funny. oh my god.

'the magic the gods hold' SHAKES YOU. SHAKING YOU. SHAKE SHAKE SHAKE.

OH AND THEN THE DREAM AT THE END THERE??? EXCUSE ME!!! I mean. I knew it would come back up. But the fact that its there is making me INSANE

and then the fucking. the ALLEY. 'Its been a few years' HOW MANY IS A FEW, GRIAN. I NEED TO KNOW, GRIAN. ARE YOU FUCKING SURE SIR???????? Listen. Listen. I didn't even think that maybe grian was in stasis or some shit til everyone else was like 'is grian actually like centuries old and doesnt know' BECAUSE NOW. I AM THINKING ABOUT IT. I AM CONNECTING DOTS. I AM FUCKING GNAWING ON SHIT. THE FACT THAT HE SPEAKS ANCIENT. THE FACT THAT SCAR'S TOME HAS ADDED LINES THAT WERENT IN HIS BOOK. THE STATE OF THE ALLEY. The crack was narrows but now theres a giant hole in the ceiling. Other creatures have taken up residency in the alley. Grian's constant 'hes a little confused but hes got the spirit' vibes about everything. MY GEARS ARE FUCKING SPINNING.

God the fact that Grian just goes in. That grian keeps gettingb pulled out of his own head by his mates. The fact that Mumbo pulls Scar and tubbo down because its definitely not safe for them to just stay outside the mountain oh my god but then. Then.

Why DO the Watchers want the Tome hidden in a city full of Observants is my fucking question that I still haven't cracked. This is like one of those geodes full of water - thunderegg? I think they're called??? But I have theories okay. If the watchers are supposedly all seeing but the Palace had them wandering around AND they were walking around in a physical enough form for Grian to kill THREE of them right. Right. And theres the whole - the watchers Grian remembers werent following the stuff inside the tome right. WHAT IF. WHAT THE FUCK IF. [I feel like im talking to like. a twitch chat bc I know you arent gonna say shit about it] BUT OKAY THESE WATCHERS ARE LIKE. DEVIANT. THEYVE STRAYED. AND THEYVE MADE A BREAK OFF WITH THE ALLEY. AND THEY MAKE PEOPLE HIDE THEIR TOMES TO HIDE THEM FROM THE EYES OF THE OTHER WATCHERS, WHO SEE THAT THE ONES WHOVE TAKEN FORM ARENT FOLLOWING THE RULES. IDK. LISTEN. I READ THIS HALF DELIRIOUSLY.

Why do I recognize the Magical Menagerie. And WHY does Grian take his Tome if he already has Scars unless theirs some like godling part of his brain thats just like, dragon hoarding all the tomes. What is going on. What the fuck.

I dont fucking know if I believe that grian's only been gone for five years at this point. Relatively recent abandonment my ass, Scar. Tubbo and Mumbo have already called it, I'm believing your anons, Grian is OLD. WHERE ARE THE REMAINS. 5 YEARS IS NOT LONG ENOUGH FOR BODIES TO DECAY COMPLETELY AWATY. ABSOLUTELY NOT. THIS PLACE IS OLD AS BALLS.

And the way Grian just FLIES off when he hears Tilly's bark and the fact that I fucking TRUSTED YOU!!!! THE PALACE LOOKED LIVED IN AND THEN YOU TORMENT ME WITH THEIR DEAD LOVED ONES?? YOU MAKE MUMBO WATCH AS ONE OF HIS MATES AND HIS COVEN CHILD HIT THE APPARITIONS OF HIS DEAD WIFE AND DAUGHTER????? EXCUSE ME HOW FUCKING DARE YOU????????

the watchers eat pets im calling it now. This is a completely baseless accusation. they eat the pets.

'They prey on your emotions and then consume everything you are' HEY UH. HEY THERE TUBBO. TUB TUB. HEY BESTIE. ARE YOU TRYING TO SAY YOUR PARENTS ARE ACTIVELY BEING CONSUMED??????

AND THEN THE FALLING. AND THE FACT THAT THEY ARE ALL SO FUCKED UP. I AM SHAKING YOU. YOU ARE A CHEW TOY TO ME RN.

Oh man, looks like I need to get fitted for the casket real fast hjkfgdhskg-

OKAY BUT THAT ENTIRE INTRO TO THIS MADE ME CACKLE LIKE A HYENA COME ON-

... Am I at least a pretty snowglobe- KHFSJKFHSJKFKSJ OKAY BUT I CACKLED MYSELF TO SLEEP LAST NIGHT JUST IMAGINING YOU WAKING UP AND LOOKING AT YOUR PHONE AND SEEING MY "YOU'RE GONNA KILL ME" AND THE UPDATE NOTIF AND IT WAS TOTALLY WORTH IT <3

HEHEHEHE :) KNOWLEDGE YOU CAN NEVER SHARE WITH ANOTHER READER HEHEHEHE. Idk if it'll be catharsis when it comes up again but HFKSHFKJSK :)

He's trying to be better for them <3 Trying to be more open and honest and let them in more <3 And the memory sharing- it means so much more this time because last time he shared his memories with them they were asking questions, but this time he volunteered the info himself- invited them to see it, and I am so khfdshgkjdfshgkjfd I am so NORMAL about them <3

I LOVE A GOOD TITLE DROP <3 And hey. Midnight is very significant in the Midnight series :) Cough cough a midnight sun.... the Midnight Alley........ a midnight Eclipse.................. :)

Grian over here like "LIGHT IS LIGHT AND SHADOW IS SHADOW" lmaaoooo I love him, magic is a conundrum to him.

🙂 Hehe~

LOOK. LOOK IT WAS A PERFECT CHANCE. HOW COULD I RESIST :)

Hey. Hey Stitch. Looks like there are some surprises I haven't mentioned to you yet LMAO <3 I will neither confirm nor deny anything, and I shall explain nothing <3 I will say this, though.... for someone running away, Grian sure hasn't met anyone looking for him, has he. :)

Grian is just. So. Stubborn. If he didn't have Mumbo and Scar to reel him in this would have gone So Bad hjfdkjk but also the fact that he LETS them help him I am just so hjkfdskkfds

You are speaking to a chat, yes, because I can answer literally NONE of those :'D And these are questions I will not answer in private either <3 I need to leave SOME mysteries for you <3

You know, if the last page of the Tome is different, I wonder what else might be. Just. Just saying. :) As for why you recognize Magical Menagerie, it was mentioned in Midnight Melody, so <3

*cough*alsostalactiteswhereglassusedtobe*cough* Sorry sorry got something stuck in my throat, but :) It's an interesting idea isn't it, my dear Stitch and readers~

Haha the Palace IS lived in :) :) TRUST ME. IT'S OKAY TO TRUST ME HAHA <3 Okay but also Scar having that split moment of like "oh shit what do I do I know it's not his dead wife but it LOOKS like her" and just hjfdhsjkghdskj BUT I FUCKING DARE <3

HFSJUKHFKJS LMAO baseless accusation but you know what, they don't deserve the benefit of the doubt.

:) Hehehe

WHERE WILL THEY LAND I WONDER? HEY STITCH. STITCH DO YOU REMEMBER. I MENTIONED IT BEFORE. :) But. But hehehe <3

[disabledcole]

okay seeing as tumblr is looking to be the Friend Place™ again i really need to get past my many neuroses abt tumblr so I Will Post This If It Kills Me

this is gonna be a weird infodump about my brain problems just to try and trick my brain into being normal so like. feel free to ignore this lmao

i have been on tumblr for a literal decade now and this is my third main account (i think its like 7 years old now?) and i literally use it every day i just have Problems abt reblogging rip. like im Sure this started w a social anxiety thing, im constantly stressed about people Judging me for my blogs not being Perfect, like everything has to be perfectly tagged, post order Really matters like i cant have the same fandom twice in a row and there has to be a good variety of text to picture to art posts etc and its so STRESSFUL

i only managed to escape this on twitter by having a locked account and even then i stopped tweeting regularly for a few years

and then its like. i have a System of blogs and how i post and it goes- like post > sort through likes and put posts into different blogs drafts > unlike post (so i can keep track of what part of the process each post is on) > in drafts add appropriate tags to post > queue posts in appropriate order

and like! thats a whole deal! and THEN i had to go and fucking add a competionist element where i have all these sideblogs for various fandoms and i feel like i have to reblog All the posts for those fandosm (which is fucking stupid) but especially if i find a fanartist i like i have to reblog All of their art! but not all once in a row bc theyll judge me! so they sit in my likes/drafts until i build myself up to sorting it out for a while and manage to queue a whole load of posts at once in bursts til i get overwhelmed again

and a few months ago i had a meltdown bc i got so overwhelmed by my tumblr bullshit brain things and mum pointed out id gotten obsessive about doing everything Perfectly and it Wasnt Good for me (which seems like it should be obvious but hey) so i decided to take a break. but i still scroll tumblr everyday so ive still been doing the first step in my process which is to add the post to my likes so theyve been building up and up and i havent reblogged anything in months and [starts crying]

so yeah my autism has really fucked me over here. ive really shot myself in the foot. bc all of this is so fucking stupid and i know it and arghgh!!

[hatsunegarfield]

tumblrz cool cuz i kno none of yall kno me and the ones that do are too far away to gaf but man im abt to vent post on main

my god every night ive been dreaming of old friends. fully innocuous dreams, not of friends i had fallings out with but just those who drifted away. we go out to eat, go on road trips, ride roller-coasters and stay in cool creepy hotels together. they look the same age they did when we last interacted but ive grown. they know me, know the things we lived through together, the growth we've experienced together. im 21 now and so horrifically lonely that my unconscious mind is providing me with the only platonic connects ive ever known, the ones i desperately crave. they're such happy dreams, i wake up having enjoyed our outings til im brought back to the reality of it all. im not 16 anymore, we dont talk anymore. they dont confide in me anymore, laugh with me til their stomach hurts, quietly take in the scenery as we meander through spaces we obviously dont belong, learning, growing, seeing all that we can outside our scope. we arent sharing cigs or passing bottles on my back porch anymore. we arent middle schoolers sneaking boxed wine and messing with ouija boards anymore. we arent camping together, exploring together, learning together. but we still do in my dreams. we still get to be stupid teens and 20 somethings in my dreams.

i love my fiancé to death. he IS my best friend, my closest confidant, my 24/7, my everything. but its just not the same as having a friend. a best friend, who knows you inside and out beyond that romantic connection because they have seen you at your absolute worst. theyve seen you green out and smack your head into the corner of a wall at 14. theyve formed a barrier with their bodies in the PE locker room to make sure no one saw your body or your scars at 12, they posed for the cutest little picture of you in your halloween costumes together at 6, sitting in your kindergarten class. and we are all such different people now, and i miss them so dearly, but i know the distance was intended to be. but god i miss them so deeply theyve infiltrated my dreams and honestly i cant even be truly mad. as opposed to sleepless nights and physically torturous nightmares, im getting to be young again, with the people who knew me inside out and backwards, who knew me better than myself and loved me anyways. who ha# a much longer, much deeper, DRASTICALLY different connection to me than any romantic partner could truly have.

i miss them so badly. even the ones i resent for us falling apart, i miss them. i miss them so deeply that some nights the only place i feel at home is my own dreams.

i was warned adulthood would be lonely. i never bought it. i believed we'd be friends forever.

now im sitting in the bath drunk, posting on this hell site about how much i miss those i truly loved, truly adored, truly wouldve taken a bullet for.

god, GOD the loneliness aches in a way ive never felt before. please. please keep close to your friends. even dispite a natural, amicable distance, please check up on them once in a while.

my failure to do so has resulted in a pit in my chest that i dont think any therapy or substance could truly ever remedy fully. a deep ache that only really rears its head in my dreams.

please dont let yourself fade to nothing as i did.

[sonny-whorezik]

what really sucks is i wanted to hold out . i understood the situation and i knew they were struggling and i tried to let them know i was here as best i could long distance with minimal contact . but it had felt so Bad just getting maybe Maybe 15 - 20 texts a day it seemed with hours in between the majority while all i know here in colorado are couples who live together and call every day . i would just keep taking myself on errands , to coffee shops , bookstores , parks , ive felt like ive been dating myself towards the end because they just did not have the time for me and i understand why and i was willing to wait for it to pass and just be there for them if they needed me . but it has been hard . i even wrote in my list notebook that by jan 10 if it keeps going on to say something and if the behavior stays the same january 20th then i would be the one to break up for the sake of both of us . i was willing to do this another month and keep giving it a chance

typing all this out does help a bit , just moments ago i was sobbing in my car ; i still have 45 minutes of my break and when this post is over i will likely sob again . i just . idk . i feel like i tried all i could but i keep thinking i couldve somehow done more . like move back to where they live , or create things for them , mail letters again , say good morning instead of replying to last night's message and not hearing back until almost 4pm when my day is halfway over and theirs is just beginning . i wish i told them i love them more

they got nervous when i didnt acknowledge they were excited to see me in february because i was distracted christmas day dealing with my bank i should have told them how much i look forward to it , how it is what keeps me trying to be productive : seeing them in the future . i just had to hold out til february until i felt i couldnt , then it became january 20th as a last resort because i didnt know what to do anymore . i didnt know who they wanted me to be for them, how to be engaged when all they talked about was how hard it all is and how tired they are while i couldnt do a single thing it seemed but text , what could i do almost a thousand miles away ? im sorry i keep posting these i dont know what to do with these feelings and thoughts but purge them and have them acknowledged , whether or not someone reaches out which i dont really want , i think i just want to be heard . i cant tell my roommates due to our unorthodox situation i dont want to hear anything bad said about them from their ex , i dont care what he feels towards them or how he's never been supportive but still has been in my life knowing how involved they have been for my entire adult life . theyre not a bad person , ive never thought of them as abusive or toxic or bad or selfish or all these things people have told me to think when i just wanted to vent and be heard , not hear that they think we're incompatible . and i guess we are incompatible or else this wouldnt be happening . ive told myself this is just a situational issue and not The Relationship but maybe i have been wrong

i dont want that to be the truth . i swear it was just circumstantial , that it just got a little extra hard for a little while but we could get through it and they would know throughout this i would be there for them . i wanted to get them a promise ring while theyve been going through recovery just to give them something to remind them im there for them until the end , however that looks . i will never get the chance to do that for them now , it's too late and i am left just in horror it feels like . im so scared . im So , so scared of everything but ive always had them , now i do not and i know im capable of living without them , but why ? why do i have to do that now ? what could i have done different ? i just feel so , so sorry i couldnt be a better partner and i know they said its not my fault it's just where they are in life , but they didnt seem as sure as i feel about reuniting down the road after we work on ourselves. i just want to throw up but i havent eaten in 24 hours i dont feel hunger or anything but absence and anxiety . cant even listen to tmbg anymore everything i love reminds me of them and theyre not here anymore

[azlovesem]

Its funny to ypu not to Florida. Ha ha ha thats fuckn funny to me for sure. Ha ha ha ha haaaa again. Theyre yough like me theyll get over it. Ill never tell one way or another to your face do drop it gorget it its easy. Drop whatever any piece of rat shit ever said obviously God likes me better and they hate that fact because deep down theyre evil. Im bad ass gir acreason to crush any of Gods rnemies snywhere yhey slither around on their bellies. Signing shit unknown with King of that on earth. No eonder i killed do many. Qt. What are they gonna do? Incur more wrath? cause that and an eternel curse is all anyone who ever fought me got. Til they died or gave up fighting. Look at my cross though still everywhere. Some fights arent worth it, some beings cant ever be beat. Im one of them. Im Azriel after all my real name. Forget any earthly ones for now. Terrified thats what they really are. Theyve been backed up and off do quickly give rm time. I font know aboutbthat rlection still thinking we may just obstain. Let try die hardscand fate decide. Register then ho drinking. How im being treated is how a lot of my union ferl. Sometimes Emma we do dpeak of ending thiz argument militarily. I wrote a llannince i regret ever doing so. My writings vkearwr describes more with fewer words thsn anyone. Theyve used elements of my writings Emma nog just in the entertainment industry. Gabriel then approached me with a different plan.

[bbeelzemon]

god, i feel like every time i decide to wait for my parents to go upstairs, it just happens to be a one-in-a-hundred day that they decide to stay up super late

[kfkaesk]

im literally going through the five stages of grief bcuz theyre tearing down one of my fav buildings in town. shes already all covered in scaffolding and unrecogniseable. cant think of it too long ill cry

[creativebrainrot]

last post for this chain

after recovering he starts actively studying and training where he can because uh not gonna go through that again

and he gets real good at it. couple of months pass and hes really good at this now. not the best but on track for some kinda reputation. not many details for this time tbh sorry <3

he does bounties, climbs the ranks, helps the locals, and amnoons really likin this guy. life is pretty stable now. but

we arent out of the sad zone yet

him and jasmeen have been really really good friends up til now and they maybe perhaps mayhaps maybe wanted to be more than friends. theyve been slowly but surely working up to courting eachother and kind of living together, now that gwyn can afford his own place.

jasmeens family dont know she sought out a job that could get her closer to the underbelly. she wanted to try her own hand at being a bounty hunter to be able to support her family better. her family hasnt been having a good time lately. (this isnt the sad yet) shes been keeping her relationships under wraps and lying saying that the money shes earning is just Really Really good tips from That New Job. promise. (shes more convincing than that but you get the picture.)

its basically perfect. they love eachother. live together. good money, nice place, no worries, vibing.

and then this is... a couple years before the pact shows up i guess. the branded have gotten worse. the awakened are getting worse. the forged have just begun to show up and start patrolling. her family's homestead has been fucked over, so theyve gathered all their funds and items and theyre going to lions arch. Jasmeen goes with them.

after several conversations trying to get maelgwyn to come with her- failing, because his now legendary reputation wouldnt come with him, hed have to start all over and he couldnt handle all the suspicion, fear, and everything he hated about being a complete stranger to others coming back. despite how much he loved her. It was still an amicable parting, and they both always hoped to find the other again one day.

she and her family are accepted onto the ship and sail for amnoon. gwyn and jasmeen have exchanged their favorite jewelry pieces with eachother. Gwyn gave her his favorite ring and she gave him her favorite earring. this time in his life he felt miserable. Maelgwyn discovered early on when looking for love, while jasmeen and him were friends before they got together, that people wanted his image. consistently they would leave after a few weeks or months because they got Maelgwyn and not The Desert Beast.

it fucked with him, he still has this thought in his head that people will leave eventually because even jasmeen couldnt stay. hes fucked up relationships that were going pretty well because of this mindset.

he spends the next years of his life not even looking for someone who'll love him back. its just hookups.

and he thinks this is the rest of his life but actually :3

Then The Pact arrived.

my internets out so while i stare at the blinking lights on my modem and pretend theres a tiny xfinity man who lives in there currently trying to fix it to amuse my self,

im also gonna ramble about maelgwyn my beloved blorbo of all my blorbos

when he awoke he was in like a collapsed cavern temple to kormir thatd been abandoned for ages (he didnt know what it was until like 20 years later) and he stole clothes off of a sunspear's skeleton- a man whod been hiding out there for decades before his death.

gwyns tree was fucked up im talking Fucked Up, withered and barely alive. unknown to gwyn, he was supposed to be in that sylvari pod for way longer but his tree chose to atleast give him a chance- the other option being to risk both of them dying.

gwyn doesnt like thinking about his first decade alive- it was traumatic for him to adjust to Elona with absolutely no help at all. infact hes barely even told the closest person to him anything about it.

the sixth year of his life it got a bit better. he abandoned the cavern and went looking for ANY civilization. he found a temple of kormir and the people who lived there and cared for the temple and its worshippers helped him get his bearings. they helped him learn a little about common poisonous plants, enviromental dangers, helped him learn to read and write (he barely knew how to because his tree was too weak to even manifest a dream- it was just the broken whispers of the deceased sunspear's memories, that maelgwyn doesnt remember) they gave him a map to amnoon and said he could find work there

theyd sent him towards amnoon because 1. it would actually help him and 2. the villagers and some of the temple's devoted were frightened by his presence. theyd never met a Sylvari before so for all they knew this black bark-skinned 8'3 plantman(?) was another of joko's experiments or some weird shit they didnt want to deal with. but! it worked out. because maelgwyn hated their suspicious looks and frighten glances, the quick single word answers to get away from him and conversation. because that persisted even after hed helped the village and the temple. even after he offered as much kindness as the ones who helped him.

obviously not every single person there was like that. the priestess of kormir who helped him the most was sad to see him go and a few of the villagers put together a goodbye package so hed have something to eat and

MY NETS BACK YIPPEE!!!

[hanasnx]

HEY DEAR, it's ya boy, just wondering if you've seen tales of the Jedi yet because I think you'd love anakin's episode, HE'S RUTHLESS. Like you're telling me there's not just a little bit of sadism in there (I mean of course there is, that's literally Darth Vader)? I won't spoil anything that isn't in the trailer/common knowledge, but there's this lovely juxtaposition between him having a ruthless teaching style but speaking in a very caring and loving manner that's just so gooooood. Animated Anakin rarely feels like Hayden's Anakin (I still subscribe to the belief that prequels Ani is Ani as he is in internally, and CW Ani is how Ahsoka, the 501st, and the general public perceive him), but its always good to see some darkness in him. Anyway, hope you're well 😎💝

-👑

HIIIII i just finished totj tbh i’ve been taking a little break from writing sw stuff bcos i finished tcw and it obliterated me. so tales of the jedi wasn’t something i was ready to face til now BUT I WATCHED IT SO I COULD ANSWER THIS

spoilers under the cut for totj up til episode 5 <3

i love the description u added, where tcw ani is how people perceive him vs film ani is more intrapersonal. i dont have any problem with tcw anakin other than the fact he was created bcos the creators gave into the male power fantasy expectation of anakin. (still sad as fuck about the fact hayden wanted to voice tcw anakin and was not chosen for the role…. like his character … it feels so disrespectful just cos he didnt have a deep enough voice but whatever. not my circus not my monkeys)

i love tcw anakin he’s got good moments, but film ani portrayal is my fave

i did love how hard he was on ahsoka in that episode of totj! i felt like it was very true to him, and how he realizes how much harder a war is compared to normal jedi training. and since this war thing is a new thing for the jedi rn, its worth upping the stakes in the training in order to be prepared for actual war. he probably had his fair share of realizations when he was actually in battle how ill prepared he really was for such an event and didnt want that for his padawan.

i really cared for all the tender moments they had. how he spoke to her and touched her (i feel like anakin has a hard time with physical affection in any capacity. hes not a hugger, and he probably acts like he doesnt like being touched but secretly wants you to touch him) so it only added to my adoration for him when we got to see him reach out to her to help her up with his hand or put his hand on her shoulder etc. i really love anakin and ahsoka’s relationship in tcw its like my favorite thing.

also yes hes a sadist and a masochist and i feel like its not just in sexual contexts he is. so hes very hard on other people and himself with sometimes impossible standards bcos he feels as though pain builds a tolerance within you. he wants ahsoka to be untouchable, and she honestly is. as we’ve seen in the ending of tcw, ahsoka did the impossible.

i cant remember where i read it, but someone had said that crediting anakin’s training as ahsoka’s reason for being able to stay alive in the last episodes of tcw during order 66 had erased the specialness of rex’ resolve to tell her to find fives etc. id like to add my take

i dont think that it takes away any specialness. i think it simply adds more to the story. ahsoka was able to stay alive because of rex and rex’s help that much is true, but anakins strict training regiment didnt harm her either. it only aided. i liked that facet of the story tbh.

i like how star wars explores the lack of omniscience in force users. yes they can sense your intention, but why would they be on guard against allies? they explored that in the katri episode when dooku and mace investigated her untimely death in totj.

it only makes sense that jedi in order 66 were susceptible to fatality because why would they be on their guard with the allies theyve served alongside for years?

im sorry im all over the place i had a lot to say. bottom line I LOVED SEEING ANAKIN IN EPISODE 5 hes my sweet bbg