#and there are constant bitching posts about what we're not getting from ghost right now

[banishingsigils]

just learned today that thee ryan chang, tour photographer for ghost, is in one of my ghost fb groups.

someone tried to pass off a screenshot from tiktok of one of ryan's photos as theirs in their intro post, and ryan commented. some people have no shame, i guess, but people were already acting foolish in this group anyway.

[schnitzelsemmerl]

im watching dear evan hansen and i'm gonna edit this post every time i notice smth

- evan talks about trees (i know he tried to jump off one to do, yk, but i didnt know its referenced so many times) A LOT.

- connor's hair >>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>

- alanna (idk how to write her name) gives ocean o'connell rosenberg vibes

- connor's mom is trying her best

- SINCERELY ME

- jared 👍

- "There's nothing unrealistic about the love one man feels for another! SOME SAY IT MAY EVEN BE QUITE BEAUTIFUL-"

- smoking drugs! :D

Quick interruption! I, like many others, think that the characters have their flaws, like Evan for example. I'm only 30 minutes in, but rn, i don't think he's as bad as others in the DEH fandom say. He's not a good guy. But he's not downright evil. And neither is Connor. Right now, I feel like Evan is a good person who made a bad decision. I could be wrong, I'm just making this post to share my thoughts while I watch the musical. Anyway, let's get back to the list.

- JARED AAAAAAAAAAAAA

- YOU KNOW THAT GUY FROM OUR SCHOOL, JARED KLEINMAN?? THE INSANELY COOL JARED KLEINMAN!!!!!!!!!!!!

- connor and evan sync some of their moves in sincerely me omg

- "you're hyperventilating, do you need a paper bag or-" "ASDFFSAAAADFFDSSDKKJFSDFJKJGDSAA IM NOT HYPERVENTILATING JARED"

- "my sister's hot!" "what the hell" "my bad."

- THE AWKWARD STANCE WHILE SINGING ABOUT HOW THEYRE NOT GAY HELPP

- connor's sister knows

- REQUIEM IS SO GOOD OMG I LOVE IT SM

- alanna's constant "...acquaintances"

- the high notes in "if i could tell her" are ANGELIC.

- almost got emotional at "requiem", i just remembered to write that now

- OMG THEY KISSED

- nevermind :(

- jared and alanna act like angels devils that are sitting on evan's shoulder and giving him terrible advice, yk what i mean?

- WOW CONNOR'S GHOST????? :00

- "The role of vice president has already been filled." "Weeeeeeeeell, shit. I'll have to order new buttons."

- evan being nervous when holding his speech about connor

- YOU WILL BE FOUND

- 6239 people wow :0

- OH EM GEE ZOE AND EVAN KISS FOR REAL NOW YES

- THEYRE TALKING ABOUT TREES HELP LMAOO

- jared's hehehehe >:)

- I LOVE CONNOR HE MAKES ME LAUGH SO HARD EVERYTIME HE'S ON SCREEN

- connor bouncing around during the reprise of sincerely me >>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>

- THE INSANELY COOL JARED KLEINMAN!!!!!!!!!!!!

- wow i feel like this could actually have a happy ending!!

- i was so wrong

- "what no he doesn't wanna leave!" "yeah i don't wanna leave" (evan while looking at connor's dad's baseball stuff)

- alanna's kinda bitchy now

- "well uhm he's got his own toothbrush, we're not sendin him to bed with cavities 👍"

- jared screaming

- "good for you" is kinda heathers-coded and idk why

- connor's speech right before the reprise of you will be found.........i'm so very normal about it

- EVAN AND CONNOR ARE WEARING SIMILAR SWEATERS

- alanna's a bitch now

I was close to crying, so here's a summary of the whole thing: it's beautiful.

[sapphirerubycreates]

Marvin's Night (Spring Senior Year)

Missed Messages AU

Author's Note: Okay, so this is going to be done in parts. I'll reblog as an addition for each. It's one very long scene (~7.2k words), but I don't feel good splitting it up into separate posts, nor having one large thing. So, hope you enjoy this as it comes along (I am so scared to post this). Also fun fact, the working title for this in my doc is "We're just going from memory bitch". This is that scene I re-wrote seven times. As with this entire series, minor details may be different from previous posts cause I am flying by the seat of my pants. I'm working on trying to not do many retcons, but they will happen. Sorry :(

Summary: After a month of being ghosted by Robin, Marvin is finally going to confront her at her final project showcase. Yes it's a shitty thing to do, but he's been through enough shit already. And he needs an answer once and for all if he can be with her (if he ever asked her out) or if he just needs to give up and move on. It's going to be a roller coaster of a night.

Last Friday in April, senior year

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Marvin had turned it over again and again in his mind. Drafted too many texts that were deleted within minutes of writing them. Hesitated to ask for fear of the answer he didn’t want to hear. It wasn’t until that night he had finally decided he had to man up and see her. (Well, that’s a lie. He was always going to go to support her at the Capstone presentation. Never actually thought of not going. He was just silently loathing his current situation and, by proxy, going there). No dodging him this time. Even if he felt bad about cornering her, he deserved an answer about where they stood.

And even though he wasn’t the one in the limelight, Marvin found himself stuck at his closet. Casual clothes didn’t feel good enough. But he wasn’t supposed to dress up either. Nothing held the right gravity for his dilemma.

“Come on, we’re gonna be late!” Anti yelled from downstairs.

“In a minute!” Marvin yelled back, still paralyzed. Slacks? What about a plain shirt? Why were his jeans so off-putting?

“What is the hold up?” Anti was close now, probably on the other side of the bed.

“It’s stupid,” Marvin answered, the constant inability to do anything besides freeze stirring up his anxiety.

“What is?”

Marvin sighed, placing a hand on the closet door before facing his brother. “I don’t have an outfit.”

Anti’s jovial laugh added insult to injury. This was indeed a very silly problem. Of course he knew that. It just didn’t feel like it right now. “I’m serious.” Unfortunately. 

“I know,” Anti calmed himself down, getting out his last kick of it. “You’re hopeless.”

“Yes, now help.”

Marvin pushed aside the clothes hangers, trying to go back through them again. Maybe something would spark? He looked towards his dresser, expecting Anti to be digging up some obscure t-shirt, but found an empty space instead. Looking around, the room was empty, again. “God-” Marvin cursed under his breath, now angrily rejecting each piece of clothing for a third time.

Then his hair was pushed into his eyes and fabric against his head. “There!”

“Wha?” Marvin grabbed the front of the hat and tipped it up so he could actually see again and moved in front of his mirror. Dark gray fedora with a few specks of glitter that caught the light (glitter that wasn’t intentionally placed on the hat, he was certain).

“It’s a loan, but you look fine now.”

“This is...” Something wretched in his gut. It definitely was far from the unattainable perfect he had wanted, but just... the opposite of great. Felt almost like an insult, even if there was nothing actually objectionable about the hat. Paradoxically discordant between his emotions and reality, considering he’d been loaned this specific hat before and it really did snaz up any outfit.

“We’re gonna be late.” Anti grabbed his brother’s hand and pulled him downstairs. Then, finally, Anti, Marvin, and Jameson got into Anti’s car to drive to the showcase.

First words from Marvin only surfaced about a minute after the engine started. “Thanks, Jameson.” Marvin looks beside him to see the thumbs up from his brother. Jameson waited a few seconds before venturing a question.

“Are you excited?”

Marvin didn’t answer. Couldn’t really. Tonight, he could possibly l–... No, don’t think about it. “I’m sure she’ll do great. It’s her baby after all. Did almost the entire thing.” Jameson nodded encouragingly. “But uh, there’s other cool stuff too. I think one project was legos for skull reconstruction. So, make sure you get a chance to check out everything. Sure wish Henrik coulda come out. He’d probably have had a ball. ... Probably’s gonna have a lot of medical speak. I’ll make sure to stick by, in case you have questions.”

“He’s not a little kid,” Anti interjected. “Besides, I think we all have a good base cause of Hen. He’ll be fine.”

“Yeah,” Jameson tried to reassure Marvin. “Just enjoy yourself.”

“Enjoy myself, huh?” Marvin didn’t even know what that was supposed to mean for him at this point.