#and then the microdosing: low-stim intellectual puzzles and chilling with people close enough to treat me normally no matter how weird i am

[kiralamouse]

I've tried to describe it to other people as being like those times when you're so hungry that the thought of any food makes you nauseated, or so tired that you can't fall asleep. This is how I learned that most normal people don't experience those states, either.

yall with adhd or autism or such ever just get…. bored. like so Painfully bored. like its not “oh hehe i was so bored and i made this” to flex or “oh im so bored bc i have nothing to do” but like a “i am physically incapable of ending this horrible understimulation with any activity i might attempt” and its genuinely fucking painful