#and then i contemplated over posting this for majority of the rest lollllll

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Can I have a Shana fact pls 🤲 (I know u said there are no fun facts. So an Awful Fact would be good)

i will. try to give you something without feeling The Guilt TM. part of a deleted essay where i explain some of his basic story premise which might be good to know lol

though shana graduated a year later than planned, he almost immediately got accepted into a prestigious medical school due to otherwise perfect grades and extracurriculars and and and etc etc etc. while he prefers the social aspect of it, he is someone who does not have to try very hard to not just succeed but excel in academic settings. i mentioned this a while back but even before graduating he was already fairly certain of what he wanted to do later on, partially because he enjoys that dichotomy of being a monster and a doctor (the joy the wolf in sheep’s clothing gets from deceiving the sheep and such), with the other big reason being that he is simply very good with his hands on a kinesthetic level and learned that he likes cutting people up with them. he knows and likes what he likes.

i see shana as something along the lines of like a general or trauma surgeon primarily, but did undergo training for a specialty. something regarded as particularly difficult to master. you’ll see why in a minute. not fully decided the specifics here yet because i’ve been playing around with all of it in my headspace and such lol

i imagine he’d find a place to work in a more rural and/or poorer area, somewhere he is needed and absolutely irreplaceable, and like in all versions of his story, undoubtedly exploiting especially poor, mentally ill, and otherwise marginalised people in desperate need of medical care for his sick thrills. people that would not be listened to, be laughed out of the station at best even if they do remember and decide to speak out against his misdeeds against them. those primarily being deliberately fucking with his patients’ anaesthesia intending to have them paralysed but not nearly numb enough to not feel what’s happening. essentially deliberate anaesthesia awareness.

he’s insanely skilled at what he does and like. 9.5 out of 10 surgeries are not in uh. this style. especially in the beginning. (to his credit, even during those that are he doesn’t like. cut people up unnecessarily. he still “just” does the planned procedure.) this gets him enough respect and trust for certain uh. privileges. how he sees it at least. an insanely high pay that honestly is fucking predatory especially if you compare it to some of his underpaid coworkers (some probably even underpaid mainly just to pay him more) to keep him there instead of moving to a “better” area where someone of his “level” would certainly be accepted with open arms immediately, and this is certainly very nice and all, he can’t complain, but what shana’s really after is more. let’s say uh. privacy. this hospital is severely understaffed, no, the best of the best doesn’t need an anaesthesiologist surpervising the patient the entire time and this nurse and that nurse and those nurses could really be used better elsewhere. medical malpractice everywhere the eye can see. woo.

the worst part is that shana is genuinely extremely beloved and well regarded/respected not just in that specific community but enjoys an undeserved good reputation as a doctor/surgeon in general. eugh.

hope this is okay 👍 yay 👍 pukes