#and then adult sol being like. hm. seems bad. u kinda fucked this up kid

[hirokiyuu]

#everything w/nem is just like........ it's really........... hhhhhhhhh#i dont write much nem meta but ive seen a few ppl call her fash and im like.#do you know what trauma does. do u kno how it feels#do you kno how children react when they lose their favorite caretaker + sense of safety#do u kno how bad that fucks someones brain up#do you realize its not abt Oooh Vace or Oooh Helio its abt nem desperately trying to regain a sense of safety#and protect the people around her at the same time#bc if kom the best of EVERYONE could die then like#couldnt all her friends. couldnt everyone she loved. couldnt sol even#like. god

continuing on from this part ^ like. this is part of why i find hte dichotomy between her and cal so interesting like. theyre both right! they're both right abt it. on the one hand cal is right! the animals were here first, the colony put itself right in the middle of things w/o thinking of the consequences, and just because they did it to escape their own terrible situation is that fair? should they be killing the animals in retaliation?

but also at the same time. the colony IS being attacked. like. that's the reality of hte situation, and aside from dys adn sometimes sol, literally no one knows why or what they want. like. rhett and nem are right. SOMEONE has to defend the colony nad acting like you can just Refuse to fight even to save your own life is like...... shortsighted u kno. there's an enemy with purpose and intention gunning straight for everyone and everything you love, so what are you meant to do, lie down adn die about it? the actual Lived Reality is that no matter what you do, even if you try your very hardest, kom dies. like. inescapably. there's no way to get around it and acting like nem doesnt have a point is just kind of silly imo

i lov nem a lot im just thinking abt her.......... traumatized girls always end up being highkey faves of mine so like, no wonder