#and then I thought about phil making fun of him and d's fangirls by going ~they're touching~ every time they touched

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Phil Lester voice: They're Touching!!~

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A collection of unsent texts, first Dan’s side, then Phil’s

D: I can't believe we're moving in together! xD *jumps for joy*

P: I know, I'm so excited :D :D :D

D: Can it just be next week already? I miss you :( :( :( I don't want to wait any longer. I'm excited too :)

P: Hey, sorry I fell asleep during the movie last night. Thanks for the blanket :)

D: It's fine, you looked cute so I really didn't mind. we can finish the movie some other time.

D: When are you getting back from your parents? I miss you, the house doesn't feel the same without you. I'm bored and scared of the dark. Come back xD Soon, please.

D: Alright, I think I've got enough groceries to stock our new kitchen pretty well. Can't believe we're in London :D

P: Right? Did you get wine? I think I need to drink tonight xD To celebrate!

D: I'll grab some right now. Drinking sounds good, you're fun when you're drunk. We definitely should celebrate :) It's cute how touchy you get. Red or white?

P: How was your night? I saw you dancing with that girl ;) ;) ;)

D: Only because I couldn't stand seeing you with that jock and I wanted to make you jealous. No, it wasn't anything. I just drank a little too much. My night was fine... Did you go home with him? How was your night?

P: Good. Got a little too drunk and may have accidentally flirted with a random guy a bunch, but PJ pulled me back and I went home with him. Sorry for disappearing like that.

D: :D That's totally fine, next time you drink, just stick by me. I can handle your flirting ;) It's fine.

P: Dan, where are you?

D: Watching you hit on Tyler. I'm in the bathroom. Had too much to drink, and it's not going well with that Mexican food. Might just head back up to the room.

P: Oh okay... I'll come up soon.

D: Please do. Yeah, sure.

D: Do you remember what you told me last night? You got a little crazy last night, you feeling alright? Want me to bring you some water? Did you mean what you said?

P: God yeah I have a killer headache. I totally blacked out.

D: I'll be in with some advil. I wish you remembered...

P: What happened last night? Did I embarrass myself too much?

D: Well, you told me I was adorable and tried to kiss me. Don't worry, I stopped you. It wasn't right... not with you so drunk. No, you were fine.

P: Okay, good. Thanks, Dan, you're a good friend.

D: I'm really not. I only do this because you're not a friend to me. No problem, mate. I'll be right in with your water and drugs.

P: WE DID IT!!!! TATINOF IS DONE!!!!!! :D :D :D

D: I know :D It was fun, but I can't wait to go back home and just spend some time with you. I miss our domestic time. I'm ready to resume my browsing position in our sofa crease ASAP.

P: Daaaaaaannnnnn come homeeeee I'm lonelyyyyyyy I miss youuuuuuuuuuuu :(

D: I miss you too, I'll be home soon :) Phil I've been at the store for one hour. but it feels like longer :( you've got to kick this codependence thing lol

P: But you're my best friend!

D: It's funny. That used to make me so happy to hear... now it just feels... incomplete. It doesn't represent who we are to each other anymore. I know, I know, neither of us have any other friends because we're pathetic nerds. I'll see you soon.

D: Okay, I know we're just renting this time, but next time we move together can it PLEASE be the last? I'm sick of moving.

P: Me too *sigh* next time we move, we're buying.

D: Are you saying that next time we move it'll be together? :D And permanent? Definitely. Goddmmit Phil, you're getting my hopes up.

P: And we're getting a dog.

D: Of course. Phil, I don't know how much longer I can do this. You know I've always wanted to be a dad... I'm more than halfway to thirty. I just... I don't know... I should delete this.

P: Dan, I miss you. Screw that customs lady.

D: I know. I'd much rather be in Florida with you. Fuck airports. Fuck the Bahamas.

P: Come back soon?

D: I'll try... flight got cancelled it's gonna be tricky :( :( :(

D: Flight's back on... not sure I can make it, it's all the way across the airport, but I'm gonna try! Anything for you, Phil...

P: Good, please come back soon.

D: I made it, I'll see you soon. Will you come meet me at the airport? I don't want to waste another minute without you. See you back at the hotel.

P: Dan help me!!! I've been attacked by a mob of fangirls!!! I need you!!!

D: Tell them hands off, you're mine. I'll be right there.

P: It's so creepy to have 12yr olds flirting with you.

D: I think we should just tell the world we're dating. Cut down the drama, avoid the awkward flirting... acting like we're in a relationship wouldn't be too hard... Yeah ikr?

D: Phil...

P: Yeah?

D: I'm not ready for tomorrow. I can't believe I'm going to be thirty. I've spent twelve years waiting for you... I don't know if I can keep doing it.

P: Dan it's just a day. Do you want me to come to your room and talk?

D: Yes, so much. But if you do I'm going to say something I'll regret and I can't take that risk. I know I'd hate myself tomorrow if I lost you altogether. No it's fine.

P: You sure?

D: No. Yeah, I'm fine. Just thinking about the future too much is all.

P: ...our future?

D: WHAT THE HELL IS THAT SUPPOSED TO MEAN, PHIL? WHY DO YOU PLAY WITH ME LIKE THIS? FUCK YOU yeah I mean I guess. Just... the future.

P: Well our channels are doing well...

D: Of fucking course you're talking about youtube. Do you not fucking see... ugh whatever. I know. It's fine. Just forget I said anything.

P: ...and we're doing well...

D: What the fuck are those ellipsis for, Phil? I said just forget it.

P: Are we?

D: ...are we what?

P: Are we doing well?

D: What the fuck does that even mean? Yeah, I guess.

P: Good... I really care about you, Dan.

D: Don't you know that's like a punch to the gut? Yeah, me too.

P: You sure you don't want me to come in?

D: Of course I want you here. Do you even have to ask? Yeah I'm sure. I'm going to bed... goodnight.

P: Goodnight, Dan.

P: Hey

D: You're literally in the other room what do you want?

P: I need to talk to you.

D: Okay... just come in here?

P: I... I can't. Sorry I just... can we talk on here?

D: Okay whatever what did you want to say?

P: Dan... I. I'm almost 40.

D: I know.

P: We've known each other for 18 years...

D: Yeah

P: I... I need something more, Dan. I love you, and I know you love me too, but it's not in the same way, and I need to find someone who just loves me. Who I can start a family with. I've wanted that to be you, but... it's clear that's not going to happen. I can't wait any longer, I'm sorry...

D: Phil we are not talking about this over text. I'm not waisting another second keeping myself from kissing you.

(Phil's version)

D: I can't believe we're moving in together! xD *jumps for joy*

P: I know, I'm so excited :D :D :D I've wanted to live with you for so long I can't wait <3

D: Can it just be next week already? I'm excited too :)

P: Hey, sorry I fell asleep during the movie last night. Thanks for taking care of me <3 the blanket :)

D: It's fine, we can finish the movie some other time.

D: When are you getting back from your parents? I'm bored and scared of the dark. Come back xD

P: Not soon enough :( Turn on the lights, I don't care if our electrical bill is higher, I don't want you to be scared. I miss you :(

D: Alright, I think I've got enough groceries to stock our new kitchen pretty well. Can't believe we're in London :D

P: Right? Did you get wine? I think I need to drink tonight xD I need an excuse... staying away from you is getting too hard. To celebrate!

D: I'll grab some right now. We definitely should celebrate :) Red or white?

P: How was your night? Did you take that girl home? I went to PJ's just in case... I didn't want to intrude. Actually I didn't want to hear you through the walls... I don't know if I could take that. I saw you dancing with that girl ;) ;) ;)

D: No, it wasn't anything. I just drank a little too much. My night was fine... How was your night?

P: Oh thank god. Good. Got a little too drunk and may have accidentally flirted with a random guy a bunch, I thought he was you but PJ pulled me back and I went home with him. Sorry for disappearing like that.

D: It's fine.

P: Dan, where are you? I found Tyler, but he didn't see you leave either... I've been looking for you for ages.

D: I'm in the bathroom. Had too much to drink, and it's not going well with that Mexican food. Might just head back up to the room.

P: Oh okay... I'll come up soon. Don't worry, I'll take care of you <3

D: Yeah, sure.

D: You got a little crazy last night, you feeling alright? Want me to bring you some water?

P: God yeah I have a killer headache. I totally blacked out. Fuck, please tell me what I said.

D: I'll be in with some advil.

P: What happened last night? Did I embarrass myself too much? You were wearing that shirt I like... I must have said something I was so drunk...

D: No, you were fine.

P: Oh thank god, if I tell you I like you I do not want to forget that. Okay, good. Thanks, Dan, you're amazing, I couldn't ask for... a good friend.

D: No problem, mate. I'll be right in with your water and drugs.

P: WE DID IT!!!! TATINOF IS DONE!!!!!! :D :D :D Your smile at the end was the cutest thing I've ever seen.

D: I know :D I'm ready to resume my browsing position in our sofa crease ASAP.

P: Daaaaaaannnnnn come homeeeee I'm lonelyyyyyyy I miss youuuuuuuuuuuu :( Can we please just cuddle and watch a movieeeeeeeeeee? <3

D: Phil I've been at the store for one hour. you've got to kick this codependence thing lol

P: But what if I don't want to? But you're my best friend!

D: I know, I know, neither of us have any other friends because we're pathetic nerds. I'll see you soon.

D: Okay, I'm sick of moving.

P: Me too *sigh* next time we move, we're buying a house together and we're never leaving.

D: Definitely.

P: And we're getting a dog. And starting a family....?

D: Of course.

P: Dan, I miss you. You're too far away :( Screw that customs lady. If I'd been with you when you talked to her, I would have stood up for you <3

D: I know. Fuck airports. Fuck the Bahamas.

P: Come back soon? Please? <3

D: I'll try... flight got cancelled it's gonna be tricky :( :( :(

D: Flight's back on... not sure I can make it, it's all the way across the airport, but I'm gonna try!

P: Good, please come back soon. Should I wait in the airport with a sign? ;)

D: I made it, I'll see you soon. See you back at the hotel.

P: Dan there are like three girls who know me here but I'm feeling antisocial and I want you with me. help me!!! I've been attacked by a mob of fangirls!!! I need you!!!

D: I'll be right there.

P: Good. Don't leave again <3 It's so creepy to have 12yr olds flirting with you.

D: Yeah ikr?

D: Phil...

P: Yeah?

D: I'm not ready for tomorrow. I can't believe I'm going to be thirty.

P: Dan it's just a day. Do you want me to come to your room and talk? I want to be there for you

D: No it's fine.

P: You sure? I'll make you popcorn and we can watch Kill Bill like the night we met <3

D: Yeah, I'm fine. Just thinking about the future too much is all.

P: ...our future? fuck should I delete that idk ugh ok I'm sending it... well after deleting this.

D: yeah I mean I guess. Just... the future.

P: oh... Well our channels are doing well...

D: I know. It's fine. Just forget I said anything.

P: ...and we're doing well... aren't we?

D: I said just forget it.

P: Are we? fuck Phil what are you doing?

D: ...are we what?

P: Are we doing well? I wouldn't say great, but well. Great would mean we were together.

D: Yeah, I guess.

P: Good... I really love you care about you, Dan.

D: Yeah, me too.

P: You sure you don't want me to come in? I hate texting, I want to be with you.

D: Yeah I'm sure. I'm going to bed... goodnight.

P: Okay :( remember, I'm always here for you... Goodnight, Dan.

P: Hey...

D: You're literally in the other room what do you want?

P: I need to talk to you. I'm scared of what you're going to say

D: Okay... just come in here?

P: I... I can't. I'm terrified of the look on your face. Sorry I just... can we talk on here? It'll be easier to cry from the rejection without you watching.

D: Okay whatever what did you want to say?

P: Dan... I. I'm almost 40. All of our friends are married and have children, and we're still playing this stupid fucking game.

D: I know.

P: We've known each other for 18 years... And I've waited... I've waited for so long.

D: Yeah

P: I... I need something more, Dan. I love you, and I know you love me too, but it's not in the same way, and I need to find someone who just loves me. Who I can start a family with. I've wanted that to be you, but... it's clear that's not going to happen. I can't wait any longer, I'm sorry...

D: Phil we are not talking about this over text. I'm not waisting another second keeping myself from kissing you.