#and the things he says to mikasa are just so brutal

[watchmakermori]

the table scene in attack on titan season 4 hits just as hard the second time. even though eren has already gone so far off into the deep end by that point, that’s still the moment where you’re like ‘WOW i really hate this motherfucker’

[shikiii-skadi]

Hey can do yandere levi ackerman and hang Zoe and Erwin please

INCLUDES: levi ackermann, erwin smith, hanji zoe WARNINGS: Yandere content, unhealthy mindset, unhealthy relationship, abuse, possessiveness, obsessiveness, stalking, clinginess, delusion, paranoia, overprotectiveness, mentions of kidnapping, death, manipulation, gas-lighting, murder, suicide, cannibalism, mutilation NAVIGATION: Attack on Titan Masterlist | part 1 (eren, mikasa, christa, armin)

Levi Ackermann:

Typ of Yandere:

Overprotective: More than anything, he wants you to survive. More than anyone, he knows how brutal the world is out there. Man-eating titans or people who are as disgusting as animals, he has seen it all. And Levi also knows how weak you are in comparison. You could never get through this, not without him protecting you. That is why he has made it his mission to prevent you from being on the list of the dead as well. And he will do it as long as he is able to.

Rude: The biggest tsundere-yandere out there. He still calls you an idiot and is not above criticizing you harshly for doing something stupid in his eyes. Honestly, sometimes you really wonder if it's true when he says he loves you. But given the fact that he is a yandere, that is a question you ask yourself only briefly lol.

Dependence: Honestly, this man is just miserable. he lost everything so many times that he stopped counting. Is it an excuse for the way he treats you? No. But you can understand why. He clings to the little bit of luck he still has in his life. You are like the air he needs to breathe. Without you, he'd be like a fish trapped on dry land.

How and when started the obsession:

It takes a long time for Levi to let you get close to him, but once that hurdle is crossed, it doesn't take long for him to snap given the world you both live in.

Do they know that their feelings are unhealthy/not normal?

To a certain degree, yes. But he would consider it natural that he wants to protect you with every fiber of his being.

How far are they willing to go?

Murder: Levi is definitely capable of killing someone without much difficulty. And when it comes to your safety and well-being, he wouldn't hesitate for a second. However, Levi would not kill any potential rivals.

Hurting you: No, Levi would never hurt you physically. However, his blunt words are another story.

Blackmail: If something were to arise, then yes, but Levi wouldn't go out of his way to dig things up. But he would definitely use his position to make sure you are in his squad or don't participate in certain missions.

Kidnapping: It wouldn't be his first choice to kidnap you, because generally, Levi wants you to be happy and do the things you like (as long as you don't put yourself in danger that is). But if you two reach a point where Levi feels that you simply can't learn from your mistakes and continue to act recklessly over and over again, then he will see no other option than to physically restrain you. So that you are no longer a danger to yourself.

Final stage: Honestly the person who is responsible for your death, should just kill themselves before Levi has the chance to get them himself. He will not let them get away. It could take years and Levi would still be as adamant to make the person, who killed you suffer. He would never forget and in the end, he would get to them, no matter where they might try to flee to. The world is too small to hide from Levi Ackermann.

What is it overall like to have them as a Yandere?

As mentioned earlier, Levi is just miserable. He is so out of touch with his feelings that he would probably never confess his feelings to you on his own and you would have to make the first move. Which is why a scenario of rejection is unlikely. If you were to correctly interpret his behavior and tell him that you don't love him, it would hurt him a lot inside, but he wouldn't do anything to you. He wouldn't kidnap you or pressure you into a relationship. Levi doesn't have a high opinion of himself in that regard and probably doesn't think he's worthy of your companionship anyway. He would still stay by your side and protect you, but he doesn't expect anything in return. Knowing that you're safe is good enough for him.

Levi is probably one of the better Yanderes to have. Apart from his overprotectiveness he is pretty reasonable and will actually listen to you if you have complaints.

Erwin Smith:

Typ of Yandere:

Manipulative: This man has a way with words. He could bring someone to jump willingly off a cliff if he wanted to. The key word here is "if he wanted to". I have a hard time imagining that he would ever manipulate you. He is too controlled and aware of himself for that.

Stalker: Because of his position as the Commander of the Survey Corps, he doesn't have a lot of time to stalk you. But it is his favorite free time activity. Just watching you do your daily tasks fills him with more joy than you could ever imagine.

Disappearance: Every day anew he sends soldiers to their death. He is convinced that he does not deserve you and that you will be better off with someone else. Which is why he will eventually leave you. It is even more likely that he has never approached at all.

How and when started the obsession:

Erwin feels lonely deep down. And sometimes he finds himself wishing he had someone by his side. But because of his opinion of himself, he never brought himself to change your relationship as comrades into something deeper. It was only a matter of time before all these suppressed emotions grew into something unhealthy.

Do they know that their feelings are unhealthy/not normal?

Yes and no. He was already conflicted enough with his normal feelings, so he didn't notice the change in the beginning.

How far are they willing to go?

Murder: No, never. It would never even cross his mind.

Hurting you: He would never do that either.

Blackmail: Even if he doesn't like to admit it, there have been situations where he has taken advantage of his position and made sure that this one person, who obviously was interested in you, suddenly stays miles away from you.

Kidnapping: If he wanted, he would be able to make you disappear without anyone finding even a trace of you ever again. But before it would ever come to that, he would have already distanced himself from you.

Final stage: Not even a single hair on your head would be harmed during the whole time of his obsession. Even in the end, he would never think of killing you. Maybe he thought about ending his own life in desperate hours, but he never went through with it. After all, he still had a dream.

What is it overall like to have them as a Yandere?

Honestly, you probably never really noticed his intense feelings. The worst thing that can happen to you with him is that someone from your circle of acquaintances suddenly turns away from you for reasons unknown to you.

Hanji Zoe:

Typ of Yandere:

Manipulative: Hanji is a master of gaslighting and other manipulative tactics, due to their high intelligence. As soon as you have the slightest idea about their real intentions, they immediately make you doubt yourself. They twist stories, deny things, and immediately accuse you of those actions yourself. Hanji can predict your every move. They are always one step ahead of you. Not in a million years could you ever outsmart them. It's a game for them, honestly.

Bizarre-Seeking: Of course, someone like Hanji, who is already considered strange by many for her nature anyway, must have strange preferences. When it comes to things like strands of hair, you might be able to overlook it, but she definitely collects gross things too, like your fingernails or blood. Hanji has a whole shrine filled with your things. It is their most precious possession, next to you, of course.

Restraints: The amount of time you spend with Hanji is never enough for them. It was only a matter of time before Hanji decided that the best thing for you would be to never leave their side again. Preferably, they tie you directly to them, but if that's not possible, then a chair or the like is fine for a short time.

How and when started the obsession:

I mean, Hanji has always been a little…. strange. You probably never know them any other way. But their obsession with you started when you listened to them talk for hours about Titan experiments.

Do they know that their feelings are unhealthy/not normal?

No, they don't. Hanji thinks it's completely normal to feel this way about their significant other. They don't even think it's weird that they collect your fingernails and such. If you judge them for it, then they rather think that you are the weird one. After all, why should Hanji waste such precious things or not pay any attention to them at all?

How far are they willing to go?

Murder: Hanji would definitely kill people who stand in their way. And God have mercy on anyone they chose to kill. Hanji shows no mercy and no one will ever see the mutilated remains of their victims again. Unless they choose for their own amusement to send the victim's relatives the head.

Hurting you: Should you repeatedly try to leave their side, then Hanji is not above breaking your ankles, or legs, should she see it as more fitting. Just because you've won their love and affection doesn't mean you're saved from their more violent traits. In fact, it is quite the opposite - it just makes you more interesting. There are times when Hanji tortures you or acts out their strange tendencies and cuts off your fingers to add them to their shrine. If you cry the whole time and mess up your beautiful eyes with tears, then it's better if Hanji cuts them out for you to preserve their beauty, right?

Blackmail: In case of minor incidents or at the beginning of your relationship, Hanji usually manipulated you, not infrequently with blackmail. In the later stage, however, they rather choose physical violence. So they usually only blackmail you for fun.

Kidnapping: Hanji will definitely kidnap you and bind you to them forever. There is no other outcome.

Final stage: Hanji can accidentally kill you if she tries to cut anything off of you to be able to keep it. But if you keep rejecting them or even start hating them, they will see no other way than to kill you. Now she can shape you the way she wants. Your body will remain with her forever, as the most beautiful part of her shrine. Should you die due to natural causes, then she will eat your dead body so that you can finally be one again.

What is it overall like to have them as a Yandere?

Hanji is definitely the worst and most dangerous yandere of them all. Every one of your friends and family members runs the risk of being brutally murdered by them. And even you are not spared. The possibility that you die as her darling is incredibly high. And should you not be dead, then you are highly mutilated and disfigured. With them you always walk on eggshells, afraid of what they might do. In addition, you never have a free minute from them, because they always have you near them, if not directly tied to them.

[nicossunshine]

People give my girl Mikasa waaaay too much shit

“She’s too obsessed with Eren and keeping him safe” okay??? You would be too if you lived the life she’s lead???

First she witnessed her parents be brutally murdered when she was only 9, then she was kidnapped and heard about all of the terrible things the kidnappers were planning to do to her, then in rushed this kid she’d never met who rescued her, gave her the literal clothes off his body without hesitation, and immediately adopted her as part of his family.

Eren’s shared everything he has with her (and as a boy from Zhiganshina that’s really not a lot to begin with) and at some point he would’ve introduced her to his only friend in the world - Armin - sharing him with her as well. In the span of one evening this little girl had her entire life brutally ripped away from her and shattered beyond repair, and that very night Eren gave her a brand new life, with a new family who will love and look after her.

Mikasa often acts like Eren is her entire world, and that’s because he is. His life is now her life. They now share a home, parents, chores, friends, probably a room too.

Say what you will about Eren, he was an incredibly caring kid, and it makes perfect sense that this deeply traumatised child clung so quickly to this boy who saved her, and it makes sense that she develops a severe case of abandonment anxiety and safety anxiety for her new family after what literally just happened to her bio parents, and these anxieties can only get devastatingly worse when not even a year later she loses her surrogate parents in similarly traumatic ways.

In the span of one year this little girl had her life completely broken TWICE, and her only constant, her only safe place through it all was Eren.

I’m just sick of people writing off Mikasa as being Eren’s love-sick bodyguard. Yes, she’s in love with him. But her relationship with Eren isn’t just “I love him and thus would do literally anything for him” - it’s deeply tied to her complex trauma and the way she views the world.

[shiorihyuga]

The Devil's Bride

Aurora Jaeger, Eren's long-lost childhood friend, was taken from him when they were children. After years of suffering under Marleyan control, Aurora is reunited with Eren while he’s undercover in Marley, igniting a bond neither of them expected. Despite her gentle nature, Aurora breaks her vow of pacifism to save Eren’s life, solidifying their deep connection. Secretly married before the Raid on Liberio, Aurora is swept into Eren's world of chaos and destruction. As the Scouts learn of her existence, tensions rise on the airship home. Mikasa’s heart shatters, and Levi demands answers. And Eren will stop at nothing to protect the only light left in his dark world—his bride, Aurora.

In this journey of love, loyalty, and war, Aurora must reconcile her innocent heart with the brutal reality of the man she loves, while Eren faces the truth of what he’s become.

Chapter Sixteen

As soon as Levi left, Hange practically bounced back into the room grinning, her eyes gleaming with excitement. “These elixirs of yours, Aurora, they’re absolutely fascinating! I mean, I’ve seen plenty of Titan shifters, and Eren’s ability to transform three times during the Liberio raid was impressive, to say the least. But if your mixtures had a hand in that? Oh, the possibilities are endless!”

Aurora smiled nervously, still adjusting to the pace and intensity of Hange’s enthusiasm. “I didn’t think they’d work so well,” she admitted. “I just wanted to help Eren. He’s... always pushing himself beyond his limits.”

Hange nodded vigorously. “That sounds like him. But, oh! Imagine what we could learn if we tested these elixirs in different conditions, maybe even with other Titan shifters! I’d love to analyze the properties further, maybe even—”

Suddenly, a knock at the door interrupted Hange’s excited ramblings. The door swung open, revealing a Scout standing at attention. “Commander Hange,” he said, his voice formal. “Her Majesty is here. She’s asking to see Aurora Jaeger.”

The room fell silent. Aurora blinked, still getting used to the sound of her new last name. “Jaeger.” It felt both foreign and familiar all at once. She wasn’t sure she’d ever get used to it, but the warmth in her heart at being Eren’s wife outweighed the strangeness.

Hange’s eyes widened slightly, but before she could say anything, Levi reappeared, his sharp gaze darting between the Scout and Aurora. “Historia’s here?” he asked, his voice clipped. “Why?”

“She’s here to collect Aurora,” the Scout responded. “As promised.”

Levi’s eyes narrowed. He crossed his arms, his posture stiff. “Promised by whom?”

The Scout hesitated, then answered, “Eren Jaeger.”

Levi’s expression darkened instantly. “Of course,” he muttered under his breath. He turned back toward Aurora, his gaze hard. “So, Eren’s already pulling strings from his cell, is he?”

Aurora shifted uncomfortably. She wasn’t sure how to answer. This was all new to her, and she could sense Levi’s increasing suspicion.

But before anyone could respond, Queen Historia herself stepped into the room, her presence commanding despite her small stature. She was dressed simply but regally, her blonde hair framing her face, and her blue eyes were as calm and composed as ever.

“Captain Levi,” Historia greeted him, her voice steady. “I’m here to take Aurora with me.”

Levi’s jaw tightened, and he gave Historia a cool glance. “And why is that?” he asked sharply. “Eren didn’t speak a word during his interrogation, but it seems he’s more than willing to give you orders. What else did he tell you?”

Historia remained unflappable, her gaze steady as she met Levi’s intense stare. “Eren only asked me to ensure Aurora’s safety,” she said smoothly. “He trusts me to protect her, and that’s all there is to it.”

Levi wasn’t buying it. His eyes narrowed further, scrutinizing Historia. “You expect me to believe that? That’s the only thing he told you? You and Eren have been close ever since the Reiss chapel incident four years ago. You spent weeks together after that, trying to figure out how to activate the Founding Titan’s powers.”

Historia tilted her head slightly, her expression unchanging. “I’m the Queen of Paradis, Captain. Eren asked me for a favor, and I agreed. I don’t owe you any more of an explanation than that.”

Levi’s mouth pressed into a thin line. “He’s planning something. And if you’re involved, then I need to know what it is.”

Historia’s eyes remained calm, her authority as queen evident in every word. “You have your suspicions, and I understand that, but I have no intention of discussing Eren’s private matters with you. My only concern right now is ensuring Aurora’s safety, as per Eren’s request.”

Levi’s frustration was palpable, but Historia stood her ground. She stepped forward, gently placing a hand on Aurora’s shoulder. “Aurora will be safe with me. That’s all you need to know.”

Aurora glanced between Levi and Historia, feeling the tension in the air. She knew that Levi didn’t trust her, and now it was clear that his suspicions extended to Historia as well. The weight of being in this political web was suffocating, and all she wanted was to be with Eren again.

Levi studied Historia for a long moment before exhaling sharply. “Fine,” he said finally, his voice low. “But if anything happens—if you or Eren make a move that puts the Scouts or Paradis at risk—I’ll hold both of you accountable.”

Historia met his gaze without flinching. “Understood.”

Without another word, Levi turned on his heel and left the room again, his cloak swirling behind him. As the door closed behind him, the room settled into an uneasy quiet. Aurora glanced at Historia, who was watching her with calm, understanding eyes. Aurora had heard of Historia from Eren, had heard how this woman had pulled him from the depths of despair and given him the courage to move forward when all hope seemed lost. Eren had spoken of her with a level of respect and admiration that had made Aurora realize just how important Historia was in his life.

“Historia... Queen Historia,” Aurora started, her voice soft but steady. “Eren told me about you. How you helped him when... when he was at his lowest. He trusts you completely, and I’m grateful for that.”

Historia’s lips curved into a small, warm smile. “Just Historia is fine. And Eren has done as much for me as I have for him.” She stepped closer, gently taking Aurora’s hand in hers. “It’s a pleasure to finally meet you, Aurora. Eren spoke about you, too. I know how much you mean to him.”

Aurora blinked, a wave of warmth spreading through her chest. “He... talked about me?”

Historia nodded, her eyes kind. “Yes. He told me about how you two found each other in Marley, about how you gave him the strength to keep going when everything seemed impossible. He cares for you deeply.”

Aurora felt her cheeks warm as she glanced away for a moment, the weight of Historia’s words settling in her heart. “Eren is... everything to me,” she admitted quietly. “And if he trusts you, I do too.”

The two women shared a moment of silent understanding before Historia squeezed Aurora’s hand gently. “Eren wants you to be safe, and that’s why I’m here. We’ll make sure of that.”

Aurora nodded, still feeling a lingering anxiety about everything. "Did... did Eren tell you everything?" she asked hesitantly, her thoughts drifting to the plans for the Rumbling. "Do you know... what he's planning?"

Historia's expression remained calm, but there was a subtle shift in her eyes, a glimmer of something deeper. "Eren and I... we understand each other. I know what he's fighting for and what needs to be done. You don’t need to worry about that right now."

Aurora’s heart fluttered with uncertainty. Historia didn’t directly answer her question, but Aurora could sense that she knew more than she was letting on. Eren must have confided in her about the Rumbling, the same way he had confided in Aurora. The weight of that knowledge pressed down on her again, but she trusted Eren’s judgment. If he trusted Historia, so would she.

As they prepared to leave, Floch appeared in the doorway. His presence was always a bit intimidating, and Aurora noticed the way he exchanged a knowing look with Historia. There was something unspoken between them, an understanding about the events that were about to unfold.

Floch gave Historia a firm nod, his expression serious. “Everything’s in place. I’ll stay with the others and make sure everything goes according to plan.”

Historia nodded back, her expression one of quiet resolve. "Good. Keep an eye on things here. I'll take care of Aurora."

Floch’s eyes flickered toward Aurora, and for the first time, there was something softer in his usually hardened gaze. "Don't worry," he said to her, his voice surprisingly calm. "We’ve got this under control. Just stay with the queen."

With that, Floch stepped aside, allowing Historia and Aurora to walk past him and out into the corridor. As they walked together, Aurora couldn’t help but wonder what lay ahead. So much had changed in the last few months—her life had been turned upside down—and now she was walking alongside a queen, the wife of a man she loved deeply but who was on the verge of enacting a plan that would change the world forever.

The thought of the Rumbling weighed heavily on her mind. Did Historia truly know the full extent of Eren’s plans? And if so, how could she be so calm about it? How could any of them?

The corridors of the building were quiet as they exited, but the air felt thick with anticipation, like a storm was brewing just beyond the horizon. Aurora glanced at Historia as they walked side by side, wanting to ask more but unsure if she should.

Finally, as they neared the exit, Aurora spoke again. “Historia,” she said softly, her voice tinged with uncertainty. “What... what’s going to happen? After all of this?”

Historia paused, her gaze turning thoughtful as she looked at Aurora. “The world is changing, Aurora. Eren is trying to protect us, trying to ensure that we have a future. But what that future looks like... we’ll have to wait and see.”

The cryptic nature of Historia’s words left Aurora with more questions than answers, but she understood one thing clearly: Eren wasn’t just fighting for himself. He was fighting for Paradis, for the people he loved—and that included her.

Aurora held onto that thought as they stepped outside into the open air. She could feel the weight of history pressing down on them, but she also felt Eren’s presence in every step she took. Whatever happened next, she would face it with the same strength that had carried her this far.

And with Historia by her side, Aurora knew she wasn’t alone in this. They would protect each other, just as Eren had asked.

But Aurora’s thoughts kept circling back to him. The uncertainty gnawed at her, filling her with a sense of unease that she couldn’t shake. Every moment away from him felt heavier, as if the distance between them grew larger with every step she took. She couldn’t help herself.

“Historia,” Aurora said quietly, her voice almost tentative. “Do you think... do you think I can see him? Eren, I mean. Can you take me to him?”

Historia paused mid-step, her expression softening as she looked at Aurora. There was a brief silence between them, and then Historia shook her head gently. “I’m afraid that’s not possible right now, Aurora. Eren’s... in a delicate situation. He needs time.”

Aurora frowned, feeling the disappointment sink in. “But why? I know he’s in a cell, but... why can’t I just see him? He’s my husband.”

Historia sighed softly, her eyes sympathetic. “I understand how you feel. I know you’re worried about him, and I don’t blame you for wanting to see him. But Eren has his reasons. He will break out when the time is right. It’s all part of the plan. Right now, we just need to trust him.”

The word "trust" lingered in the air between them. Aurora swallowed, trying to steady the anxious fluttering in her chest. She did trust Eren—she trusted him more than anyone in the world—but the thought of not seeing him, not knowing what he was going through, was unbearable. They’d just reunited not too long ago, had been through so much together, and now she felt helpless, like she was losing him again.

“But what if something happens?” Aurora’s voice trembled slightly as she spoke, unable to hide the anxiety creeping into her words. “What if... something goes wrong? Eren’s always putting himself in danger, always sacrificing himself for others. What if this time...”

“Aurora,” Historia said softly, stepping closer and placing a gentle hand on her arm. “I know this is hard. Believe me, I’ve been where you are. Eren doesn’t always let people in, and he carries the weight of the world on his shoulders. But he’s stronger than you think. He has a plan, and we have to trust that he knows what he’s doing.”

Aurora bit her lip, her fingers gripping the strap of her bag tightly. She wanted to believe that everything would be okay, that Eren would come back to her soon. But the unknown was terrifying. The fear of losing him loomed large, no matter how much she tried to push it away.

Sensing Aurora’s continued distress, Historia gave her a reassuring smile and gently guided her to a nearby bench under a shaded tree. “Why don’t you sit with me for a bit?” Historia suggested, her tone calm and soothing. “Tell me more about yourself. Eren mentioned bits and pieces, but I’d like to hear it from you.”

Aurora hesitated for a moment but eventually nodded, taking a seat next to Historia. She wasn’t sure where to begin—so much had happened in such a short time. “I’m not sure what Eren told you about me,” she said quietly. “But... I wasn’t always like this. I used to live in Shiganshina. My family was... normal, at least for a while.”

Historia’s gaze remained attentive, encouraging Aurora to continue.

“My parents,” Aurora began, “they weren’t from Paradis originally. We were... we were hiding, I guess. We lived quietly in Shiganshina, and my mother was a herbalist. She taught me everything I know. My father was a researcher, but he... well, he did something that made powerful enemies, and they came for us.”

She paused, her throat tightening as the memories resurfaced. “When I was seven, they took my mother and me away. My father... I saw him get eaten by a Titan right in front of me. After that, we were taken to Marley, and I... I became a slave.”

Historia’s eyes widened slightly, her expression filled with quiet sympathy. “That’s horrible,” she murmured. “No one should have to go through that.”

Aurora nodded, her fingers twisting in her lap. “It was... it was hell. My mother died not long after. They treated her like she was nothing, and when she got sick, they refused to help. I spent years there, in that horrible place, until one day, Eren found me.”

Historia’s lips parted slightly in surprise. “Eren found you?”

Aurora smiled faintly at the memory. “Yes. He was undercover in Marley at the time, and he found me... sitting under a tree, singing to myself. I didn’t even recognize him at first, but then... it was like everything clicked. He saved me.”

Historia’s expression softened even more, her gaze warm and understanding. “Eren didn’t tell me everything, but I can see how much he cares about you.”

Aurora’s smile wavered. “He saved me in more ways than one. And now... now I feel like I owe him everything. He’s done so much for me, and I don’t want to lose him.”

“You won’t,” Historia said firmly. “Eren has a lot on his shoulders, but you give him strength. I can see that.”

Aurora met Historia’s gaze, her heart swelling with gratitude. “Thank you... for saying that. And for coming to get me.”

Historia smiled again, this time with a glint of determination in her eyes. “I promised Eren I would look after you, and I intend to keep that promise. But more than that, I want you to know that you’re not alone in this. I understand the weight of carrying someone else’s burdens.”

Aurora nodded, feeling a small sense of comfort in Historia’s words. The anxiety still gnawed at her, but knowing that someone like Historia was watching over her eased some of the tension.

“What about you?” Aurora asked, her curiosity piqued. “Eren told me you’ve been through a lot as well. He said you gave him the courage to keep going.”

Historia’s smile faltered slightly, a faraway look crossing her face as she remembered those difficult times. “I suppose I did,” she said softly. “When Eren was at his lowest, I... I think we found strength in each other. He was ready to give up, to let himself be killed, but I couldn’t let that happen. We both had too much to live for.”

Aurora watched her carefully, sensing the depth of Historia’s emotions. “It sounds like you and Eren have been through a lot together.”

“We have,” Historia admitted, her voice barely above a whisper. “We share a bond... one that was forged in some of the darkest moments of our lives. That’s why I trust him so much. No matter how hard things get, Eren always finds a way to move forward.”

Aurora nodded, understanding more now why Eren had such deep respect for Historia. She had been a guiding light for him when he needed it most, and now she was extending that same kindness to Aurora.

“I just want him to be okay,” Aurora said softly. “He’s always so focused on protecting everyone else, but I just want him to come back to me.”

“He will,” Historia said, her voice firm with conviction. “You’ll see.”

As they sat together under the shade of the tree, Aurora felt a small sliver of hope settle in her heart. Eren was strong. He had a plan. And as long as she trusted in him—and in the people who cared for him—they would make it through this storm.

~

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[sunlightandsuffering]

Padawan Mikasa subtly sending girls flying when they get too close to her Master Eren. She does it at stuff like crowded bars so noone can tell who even did it. But she's so smug when she sends a girl flying into a table of drinks because they were acting too flirty around her master. Eren ofc always knows it's her doing it, at first he didn't know why and thought she just had some violent habits.

But once she got older and Eren realised it was jealously fueling her actions, he'd manhandle her out of the area and find somewhere he can fuck the brattiness out of her until she's dazed and obedient. Maybe use the force to bounce her on his dick faster 🤭

omg okay anon i actually love this so much! imma write it! I saw it earlier before i went back to sleep and I was like damn this is cute!! TBH does starwars count for halloween?? Like should I do a bunch of star wars drabbles for halloween?? would that be cute?? But im imagining when obi wan and anakin are in the club in attack of the clones, looking for Padme's attempted assassin, that's the vibes.

They turn heads, wherever they go in the galaxy they turn heads, and why wouldn't they? Mikasa is beautiful, stunning, one of the most attractive women he's ever seen, and she's in the prime of their youth.

He's not surprised when people look at them, it's just unfortunate that they are also Jedi and well, sometimes stealth is required.

He turns back to his padawan before he enters the club, giving her a stern look, "Would you be willing to perhaps wait outside?" She gives him a wan look that tells him everything he needs to know, and the answer is a firm resounding no. Eren sighs, reaching over to yank at the hood on her head, fingers brushing over the soft apples of her cheeks in the process, tucking raven locks behind her ears. He looks at her face for a moment, heather grey eyes, cheeks flushed the softest shade of blush and full pink lips. She's stunned for a moment, looking up at him so earnestly and with so much affection it's hard not to kiss her.

She is temptation itself so without further delay he yanks her hood rather brutally over her head.

"Eren!" She protests and he grumbles to himself, "Pain in the ass padawan." "Hey!" "Keep the hood on Mikasa or we're gonna have words, you're too distracting."

He paces towards the club entrance, nodding at the bouncers, and just as he's about to step over the threshold he stops, and he hears a little 'oof' just as Mikasa bumps into him, her hands darting out to clutch his waist to steady herself, breasts pressed up against his back. He's quick to turn in her grip, unhooking her arms because the force knows he doesn't have the willpower to withstand her touching him for that long.

He looks at her sternly, his hand reaching out to snatch her lightsaber from her belt and Mikasa pouts at him, "And hide this will you, nothing says Jedi more than a lightsaber Mikasa, oh and don't lose it, that'll be the next thing." "Yes Master," she murmurs, her cheeks colouring pink as she takes the instrument back, eyes darting away at her earlier blunder of losing said lightsaber, but she can't resist a sassy little quip, "But I only learn my habits from you." Brat.

Eren huffs, but says nothing on the matter, but she just might be correct, he's lost his lightsaber more times than he'd care to admit.

He ignores her quip, stepping into the club, his own lightsaber tucked away and immediately he can feel Mikasa at his back, as close as she can get, always pushing her luck. The universe had laughed when she'd been chosen as his padawan, sweet divine intervention, payback for him being a hellion of an apprentice himself. Except Eren thinks Mikasa is much worse, because his master had never had to deal with sexual temptation, he only has so much self control and Mikasa tempts it at every turn.

"We're looking for information," Eren murmurs gruffly as they approach the bar, Mikasas taking his arm in her own, cuddling up to his bicep, an act she'll later claim is simply to keep up the ruse. Mikasa leans into him, waving down the bartender, the perky mounds of her breasts pressing up against his arm, and he knows without looking that she's allowed her robes to slip, just enough to reveal a hint of cleavage. And of course, she's not wearing the requisite undergarments, no she's a young padawan learner, likes to flagrantly flout the rules, thinks the jedi robes she's been issued are a bit too stuffy. And she knows he'd never admonish her about it, had heard tales of his own adventures before she'd even met him, had known how rebellious he'd been, so who is he to tell her what to do. God, had his rebellious phases been a mistake.

Especially when Mikasa leans over to take her drink and pay the bartender and the beige robes she's wearing slips more, revealing a delicate collarbone and just the hint of her shoulder, stretched taut around her left breast now, the beige edge of her robe just barely concealing dusky pink, just a hint. Fuck.

Everything he can't see he can feel though, pressed tightly against his side as she orders a drink to make the ruse seem believable, make them blend in.

She takes a sip of her drink, her robe slipping just a little more and Eren can't function, reaching over with his other arm to yank the robe back up into place irritably.

"We should split up," he tells her gruffly, pulling his arm from her grasp, he can't be in this scenario with her for much longer, she takes advantage and he's too weak to say no sometimes, lets things go on for much longer than they should. "I guess," she sighs, "but I'd feel much comfortable with you master." God that name, that fucking title, it does things to him, dirty things that are making his dick stand hard at attention, and he's thankful for the dark tunic he's wearing, covering up his arousal. It's so wrong, so, so very wrong, but the way she says it, the absolute adoration and devotion in those gray eyes, how he knows she'd look exactly the fucking same on her knees, his cock in her mouth, would probably whisper it, 'Master', pretty and breathless as she sucked him off, as he fucked her into the bed.

No!

Bad Eren!

"Master?" Mikasa questions again, the title lingering on her lips curiously, her hand reaching up to touch his arm, and he resists the urge to yank his arm away. "We're splitting up Miki." She pouts, and Eren feels bad for a moment, it's not her fault really, she's just so damn tempting. He reaches up, tucking a stray lock of hair thats fallen back behind her ear, making sure her hood is secured tightly. A silent ask of forgiveness for her percieved slight. He can't resist the intimate gesture, his finger trailing along her cheek affectionately, and Mikasa leans into him, her eyes fluttering shut.

Force she's so beautiful, so ripe, prime for the taking, it's a wonder he hasn't had her yet, especially with how obviously she'd be into it. In the last year of her apprenticeship she's changed. Where she used to be the perfect padawan, loyal and obedient, almost to a fault, now she was a brat. Like adulthood had changed her.

Freshly eighteen, she'd woken up on her birthday a different girl, the undergarments of her Jedi uniform gone, her new lightsaber, an alarming red almost pink colour that he'd chastised her for. But she'd pouted asking what was so wrong with the colour pink?

It wasn't red!

And tempting him beyond belief, it was like it was her mission in life to fuck with him now.

She'd always driven him nuts of course, just in different ways, it was irritating to have an apprentice that was so much better than him at things. What was he supposed to teach her if she was already good at everything?

She was almost a better sword master than him, and her attunement to the force was amazing, maybe better than his too, it had maddened him those first few months that she could so easily do things he had struggled with for years. And then, during a mission there'd been a close call and he'd realized that Mikasa wasn't perfect, she had things to learn just like everyone else, they were just different things. And now, he'd like to think he'd taught her pretty well, because what Mikasa had to learn wasn't battle techniques or how to use the force, it was how to think outside the rules of the Jedi temple, how sometimes not everything was cut and dry and made sense so easily. So of course, who better to teach her than the most rebellious Eren Yeager who even within the Jedi order was frowned upon for constantly breaking the rules.

People had been outraged, but here they are, with more successful missions than anyone else. "Eren," Mikasa whispers, pulling him out of his haze, her voice breathy, eyes still shut tight as she basks in his touch and he immediately rips his hand away. A frown mars her delicate features, silver eyes peering up at him with displeasure at the removal of his touch. "We're splitting up," he repeats, no remorse this time, physically removing himself from the situation with a step back. "See what you can find out." "Yes Master," she tells them, but this time there's a distinct note of sarcasm to her tone, and she marches off with a huff. Eren groans as he leans back into the bar, the force knows he doesn't deserve this. Well, maybe he does. A little. "Aye, she looks like a right pain in the ass," the bartender speaks from behind and Eren nods in agreement, "She is, can I get a beer?" The bartender chuckles, "She's pretty though." "That she also is," Eren agrees, dropping a few credits onto the bar top for his drink, "Now do you mind if I ask you a few questions about a patron of yours?"

An hour later Eren has gotten some information on their target, but not enough to be satisfied. And Mikasa, well he hasn't seen much of her since she left the bar, just brief moments out of the corner of his eye, her robe falling too low again, chatting up a bar patron a little too flirtatiously, tormenting him in any way she can find.

But he refuses to acknowledge it, can't give her the upper hand, he is the master here, he has to exhibit confidence, self control.

He's becoming a little suspicious about why all the women he talks too suddenly decide to get up and leave halfway through their conversations. If he didn't know any better he'd say someone was using the force to make them leave, but of course Mikasa would never do that. Right? But his suspicions are growing, especially when the third woman in a row suddenly up and leaves their conversation with barely a word.

And then he sees her, she's at the bar, talking to some guy but her gaze is focused on the woman he's with, her fingers moving marginally and of course, with Mikasa's command over the force, it doesn't surprise him when the pretty blonde girl he'd been talking to suddenly sets down her drink. "Sorry I have to go." And then she's gone and Eren doesn't even bother to be subtle as he figures her out, turning his his seat to glare at her. Their eyes lock and she knows she's been caught. Jealous brat, but he can't deny it pleases him just a little, even more so when she obeys his unspoken demand, leaving her conversation entirely to walk over to him. Her drink is clutched tightly in her hand as she awaits her punishment, her head dropped dutifully, "I'm sorry Master." Eren is feeling chaotic today, a little bit of his old rebellious spark fuelling his next actions. Instead of lecturing her about her use of the force he gives her a taste of her own medicine, grabbing her by the waist and bringing her to his lap, tucking her into his body. She makes the sweetest little noise of surprise as she's abruptly forced to straddle him, her face tucked into his neck and Eren chuckles darkly. "Isn't this what you wanted Miki? To pretend to be mine for a night." She squeaks, as he grabs her thighs, settling her how he likes, playing at being the couple that everyone envies, the most beautiful people in the bar that everyone wants to be or wants to fuck, but they have each other. He tucks her close against him, letting her have just a hint of what she does to him, his turn to flagrantly break the rules as he grinds her against his dick, lets her feel the full length her teasing has caused all night.

Because for all Mikasa's talk and bratty behaviour lately, she's still only eighteen, young and inexperienced, she talks a big talk but she can't follow through, too sweet, too shy.

"Master," she whimpers, her head buried in his neck, her hair covered by her robe, "I-I'm sorry." "Don't apologize Mikasa," his hands rove over her curves, cupping the plush of her ass under her robes, "You displayed excellent control over the force, even if you were being kind of a brat while you did it. Did you find out any information." She nods into his neck, her lips tracing along his clavicle and he shivers, "I did." "Good girl." He knows if he could see her face she'd be preening, it's a wonder what praise does to his young padawan, the way her eyes sparkle, and even now she relaxes into his hold, a soft sigh overtaking her. "I'm sorry though Master, I just I couldn't stand it, watching you with them when it should be me." There it is. Eren hums, massaging the plush of her ass gently, resisting the urge to dip down towards the warmth of her heat where he knows she's probably soaked. One hand slips up to her chin, forcing her gaze up to his, he tells her the truth,"You couldn't handle it."

"Master please," she looks up so earnestly, "If you'll let me, I'd like to try."

He says nothing for a moment and Mikasa moves against him, grinding the soft warmth of her cunt down against him where he lays hard and wanting in his robes, "Please Master, please?" He groans, shaking his head, "Pain in my ass." She bats her eyelashes, and Eren lets out a long suffering sigh, "Yeah, go get the ship." AN ATTEMPT AT JEDI EREMIKA !

[rivangel]

God damn, is there a reason why Wit Studios cut so much from the Uprising arc? ; - ;

There’s so much stuff happening in there that’s just watered down or straight-up removed it hurts my soul

i really honestly don't know!!! :((( as a result re-watching the uprising arc is always a bit disappointing because it feels more barren in comparison?

i don't approve at all the way wit stripped EVERYTHING down. ik ive been posting about levi a lot, but it's really most everyone. levi's character, mikasa's character, historia's character, even kenny and erwin.

did you know that historia actually has a reason to punch levi in the manga? it's because he was rough with her during that confrontation where he told her she had to be queen, and reeves told her to get back at him when she IS queen.

i understand why wit would cut out sannes' torture scene. but we learn so much more about why the MP do what they do to quash rebellions and such in extended monologues

everyone is mad at levi after he was rough with historia, and mikasa was the only one who defended him.

there's an important scene in the manga where (during the part where armin and jean are pretending to be eren and historia) armin is basically violated by one of the captors. later he tells armin that he used to be normal, but now that he knows armin is a boy, it's his fault that he's perverted. when he's already perverted for violating what he thought was a young girl. that's a major tipping point pointing to as to why in my mind armin had the guts to kill a person, and come up with a disturbing plan to get the wall citizens on their side during the revolution

kenny and levi have a longer conversation during the chase scene where they end up fighting in a bar. kenny talks about how they're both alive because they found something they "like to do". kenny has nothing against levi, but they took different paths in life. this adds IMPORTANT nuance to their relationship in my opinion

oh my god all the funny cute moments :(( like hange's knitting comment, mikasa getting snippy at armin because "i didn't raise you this way", the experiments with eren's titan had a part where he built a cabin in titan form just LOOK

erwin's conversation with nile where they talk about how important risking all their lives are. erwin saying how making gambles are the only thing he's good for, nile disagreeing because he values his family the most, the reveal that erwin DATED nile's now-wife but "he chose titans over marie"

AND JUST... THE ICONIC "MAYBE I AM" SCENE IN THE FOREST INCLUDES MORE IN THE MANGA AND ITS SOOO....

god i know im biased but im so mad that wit cut out SO MUCH levi content in the anime. this is a MAJOR supporting character (so much so hes usually included with EMA on merch and promo material) and now the time has come where we learn how he, hange, erwin, all ways the "old generation" thinks, as that's a MAJOR theme with the progression of the story. the young paying for the older ones sins, the young making better choices (how hange and levi are willing to brutally torture a man with the 104th readily against it; levi willing to be violent with historia if it means it'll save their world when he's arguably wrong for forcing that).

but also, COMPLETELY remove the fact that these inclusions would've made every major character amazingly complex and more interesting, levi specifically. levi is unarguably a popular character, but SO MUCH was cut. why NOT include more of him for the ratings? i really don't get it.

and i don't get why isayama would sign off on all of these things. ahhhhh i hate it

[cosmicjoke]

hi i was wondering if you could talk about levis and mikasas relationship and how it evolved from her hating her and how do you think it looks postwar

i also wonder since they are related do they see thems3lves as family in your opinion

For sure!

I think Mikasa's initial hostility toward Levi really just came from her being overly protective of Eren, and also her tendency to idealize Eren. She saw Levi as a bully who was beating up on Eren, I think, and with that perception of him, she developed a bias against him, and was constantly looking for things to justify that bias. Like when she lays into Levi during the Female Titan arc, blaming him for Eren getting captured by Annie, etc... Or after, when she says she always knew something was "wrong" with "that midget" during the Uprising arc. This after she displayed remorse for getting Levi injured having to rescue her from the Female Titan, asking him if his leg was better. She felt bad, but then she later makes the comment about something being wrong with him. That's her looking for justification for her own, bitter feelings. Mikasa was being brutally unfair, and even unkind, when she said those things to and about Levi. But I think, again, it was just coming from a place of seeing herself as Eren's guardian and lashing out at any perceived threat against him.

As the story progressed, and Eren's own culpability in his problems became more and more apparent, I think Mikasa started to understand that she'd judged Levi unfairly. I think we really see the culmination of this during the raid on Liberio. When she gets Eren onto the airship, and Levi kicks Eren, her initial instinct is to protect him, but when Armin holds her back, she quickly relents. She knows Eren deserved to get his face smashed in for what he'd done. She understands that Levi is justified and in the right for his reaction. Mikasa never would have understood that before. It's clear how her respect for Levi grows as the story progresses, until by the end, she very obviously trusts him implicitly, and shows real concern for him, like when she asked Floch what had happened to him, etc... She was worried.

I'm not entirely sure how their relationship would look post-war, since they both live in different parts of the world, Mikasa back on Paradis, and Levi, presumably, in Marley, or one of the surrounding countries. I liked to imagine that she would come to visit Levi whenever she got the chance, along with all the other members of the 104th. I'm sure that things between them would be much more relaxed and comfortable, now that they aren't having to fight for their and their friends and comrades survival.

I don't know if Levi and Mikasa ever saw each other as family. They are related, but how exactly isn't ever made clear, and we don't really get any exploration of their thoughts regarding coming from the same bloodline. I think the two of them started out in such separate worlds, with such different lives, that it would be difficult for them to see one another as family. For Levi, he had his mother, and after he lost her, he had to form his own family in Furlan and Isabel, while for Mikasa, she had to do the same with Eren and his mother and father. So both of them had to basically make their own families after losing their real ones, so I don't think either of them would necessarily connect through the idea of sharing the same blood alone. But again, maybe after the war, when they were finally able to breathe and have the luxury of processing all that had happened, they were able to talk about it and grow closer.

[onigiri-dorkk]

rivamika is my guilty pleasure but i know how the aot fandom is.. they can be brutal. have you had to deal with rivamika haters? i hope not 😭

Sweet fandom friend!! The AOT fandom can be harsh and frustrating, and I’ve seen fellow fandom people get bullied into leaving (sadly, it’s real), but I found a lot of solace coming here to the Tumblr #rivamika tags and connecting with others who love this ship. It’s something we’re all thankful for since everywhere else we get hate.

Tbh though I haven’t really dealt with a ton of intense haters. Yes, there are heated Twitter threads or a straggler hater who lurks our tag (and we also have… one Rivamika fan here…. who is a thorn in our flesh bc he harasses and accuses people of not being a rivamika purist lmfao… hELP). But it’s gotten to the point where when they come around we all just?? Roll our eyes?? Spit some facts real quick then leave it be LOL

I will say I have been lucky in that I haven’t received any hate comments or anything, especially on my writing/stories, which I’m actually extremely surprised about considering how blatant I am about my love for Rivamika on a place like AOT Twitter. You’d think the crazies would show up by now but hey, I am not complaining 😂

So technically yes there are always haters, but you kinda just learn to deal with them and it makes it easier to shrug it off when you have a whole safe community who will defend you and support you through it. No one should give anyone shit for what they like (especially from a fictional world!) and if they don’t like it, they can choose to ignore or not consume something. It takes so much time and effort to actively hate on something, when that time and effort could be spent in whatever ship or series makes them happy.

Another thing I’ll say is I’ve noticed a lot of Rivamika writers/artists/creators in the fandom rn have developed a strong backbone and I think it’s because 1) being a Rivamika fan comes with all the hate but 2) we know we have each other and that the positivity outweighs the negativity. Simply put we don’t give a FUCK 😂 And it has given us a sense of freedom to just enjoy this space.

And honestly doesn’t that feel very… Rivamika? 😂 In all our stories we know that Levi and Mikasa would know that their love would draw bad opinions, but knowing them they wouldn’t give a damn, would they? They saved the world and if anyone has an issue with it, Levi would tell them to fuck off and would go home to enjoy time w Mikasa LOL. LETS CHANNEL THAT ENERGY

If you like Rivamika, please enjoy it with us! It’s a fantastic ship, isn’t it? 🤍 The nervousness around being in this corner of the fandom is totally normal too btw. I felt all the same things when I first jumped on this ship and look at me now 😂 Shameless and happy! If you ever want to spill all your rivamika feelings my DMs/asks are always open, anon or not!

[m1ckeyb3rry]

Endure XII: Rage

Series Synopsis: You and Eren Jaeger have been best friends since the age of two, but the two of you are destined for an inevitable tragedy. The world you have been born into is cruel; it is one where friends are traitors and enemies are allies, one where you find yourself doubting everything you've ever known. In this life, mistakes are fatal, and you must be careful, lest you make one too many.

Chapter Synopsis: The walls of Trost are breached, and you are faced with a horrific loss.

Series Masterlist

Pairing: Eren Jaeger x Female Reader, Armin Arlert x Female Reader

Chapter Word Count: 4.7k

Content Warnings: swearing, canon-typical violence, sexual abuse (non-explicit), major character death, angst, original characters included

“I can’t believe I’m stuck doing this with you of all people,” Jean grumbled as you passed him a wrench. He banged it against the gate aimlessly, and you smacked him upside the head.

“You’re not fooling anyone when you do that, you know. And for what it’s worth, I don’t want to be here with you, either. I’d much rather be up with Tullia and Eren checking the cannons or something, not repairing a gate that isn’t even broken,” you said, pulling out a screwdriver and giving it a confused look.

“Right? It’s literally perfectly fine! This is just busy work,” Jean said.

“That much we can agree on. Well, whatever. This is just the last thing we have to do, and tomorrow we’ll have picked our branches and will never see each other again. I’m assuming you’re still going for the MPs?” you said, discarding the screwdriver with a sigh, deciding you weren’t going to get any meaningful use out of it.

“Of course I am, and you should too. Look, it isn’t like I care about whether you live or not, but joining the Scouts is a dangerous idea. Seriously, consider the MPs, yeah? It would be a shame for you to become a titan snack, if only because we all know how insufferable Jaeger would become. Sina, he’s already annoying and angry all of the time, I bet he’d just become worse. Do us all a favor, you hear me?” he said.

“I’m sorry, Jean, but my heart is set on the Scouts. You should join, too. You’re the most irritating person I’ve ever met, but I can’t deny that you are talented. If you ever tell anyone this, I’ll deny it, but...you’re really strong, and a good leader, too. You’re the kind of person that could change the world. Even if you did rank below me,” you said.

“You really think that about me? I’m nothing spectacular compared to, say, Armin or Mikasa or you or Tullia,” he said. You looked around, making sure nobody was around to see what you were going to do next before you hugged him.

“Maybe that’s what makes you so great. Now, like I said, never speak of this again. But remember it,” you said, letting go of him hastily and brushing yourself off. Jean seemed like he was processing your words before he nodded.

“Thanks, Y/N. For what it’s worth...you’re the kind of person that could change the world too,” he said.

Coming from Jean, this was high praise. You knew that he meant it, because Jean was brutally honest. He was not the sort to lie about things to make someone feel better, especially not to you. A compliment from Jean was hard-earned and always well-deserved, and so you accepted it with a smile on your face.

“You know what I’ve always wondered?” you said to Jean after a few moments.

“No, I do not,” Jean said.

“Why do they do it? The titans? Why do they eat people? It’s not like they need to. What’s more, why did the Colossal and Armored only break down Wall Maria? Like, why not go all of the way?” you said, your hands on your hips.

“Why are you thinking about that? Happy thoughts, Y/N! Happy thoughts!” Jean said, snapping in your face. You blinked.

“Sorry, Trost just reminds me of Shiganshina a lot, that’s all. I wonder what I’d be doing right now if it hadn’t happened. Probably talking to Dr. Jaeger, I suppose. I was going to work with him when I grew up. I wanted to be a doctor,” you said. Jean began to laugh at this.

“You can’t tell me there isn’t some sort of irony in the girl that wanted to heal people becoming a soldier,” he said when you frowned at him.

“Well, I guess it is pretty silly, but what other choice did I have?” you said.

“Yeah, I know what you mean. This whole world, it’s pretty shit, isn’t it?” Jean said.

A warm breeze blew your hair back as you stared at the looming gate in silence. The two of you, alone as you faced the walls, the bright sun hitting your faces.

“Yeah,” you agreed, “It is.”

And so it proved itself to be, as the face that haunted your nightmares, the face that took your family and your home and your future from you, that walls-damned face appeared again. The Colossal Titan stared down at you and Jean, and you screamed in terror.

“Y/N!” Jean shouted, “We have to get out of here before —”

Just like he had five years ago, the Colossal Titan kicked down the gate. You froze as the world came crashing down around you.

Had it not been for Jean’s quick thinking, you would have been killed by debris. The boy swept you into his arms before sprinting a safe distance away and engaging his ODM gear to take to the rooftops.

“He’s back, Jean, he’s back, he’s back,” you said, sobbing. This was it. This was the end of all humanity. If Wall Rose fell, there was no way you’d all be able to survive. Trost was gone, and it was only a matter of time before your old friend, the Armored Titan, appeared.

“Yeah, you really jinxed us there, Miss ‘Why-Didn’t-They-Go-All-The-Way.’ Let’s get back to Headquarters. I’m sure the higher ups have a plan! They must be prepared for this sort of thing,” he said, patting you on the shoulder and setting you on your feet.

“You think so?” you said, wiping away your tears. He nodded firmly.

“I know so. Come on, let’s make sure our friends are alright,” he said.

Your friends. Eren and Tullia had been up on the wall, had come face to face with the Colossal Titan himself. They were okay, they had to be okay, there was no way they were dead.

You and Jean jetted off towards Headquarters at record speed. Your panic caused you to push beyond every reserve of energy you had, use every last bit of gas in your canisters, until you landed in the courtyard of Headquarters where your fellow members of the 104th were milling about.

“Guys! Y/N and Jean are back!” Connie said.

“What the hell took you guys so long?” Tullia demanded, tackling Jean in a hug. He held her tightly, rubbing her back.

“We were by the gate when it fell, so we had to avoid the debris and stuff,” he said smoothly. You shot him a grateful look for not exposing your crying fit, and he gave you a grim smile. Even if you didn’t get along, you had each other’s backs.

“Are you okay?” Eren said.

“I’m fine, thanks to Jean. What about you? Did you do anything reckless? Actually, dumb question. What reckless thing did you do?” you said.

“He engaged with the Colossal Titan!” Sasha said from where Mikasa was checking her over for injuries.

“Almost had him, too, before the bastard disappeared,” Eren muttered.

“Disappeared?” you said.

“Into thin air,” he said.

“The hell? How does something that big just poof, vanish?” Jean said.

“Don’t know, but that’s what it did,” Sasha said, “Samuel almost died, but I caught him in time. Other than that, I think we’re all okay, for now at least.”

Mikasa kissed her on top of the head, “I’m glad. You guys could’ve...well, either way, you were all extremely brave.”

“Mikasa’s right. Facing the Colossal Titan and not freezing immediately? That’s incredible,” you said. Eren shrugged.

“I had to get revenge for what he did to Shiganshina. He took my mother from me. He almost took you from me,” he said.

“Still...” you trailed off before shaking your head and deciding it didn’t matter, “Anyways, does anybody have a clue what’s going on?”

“They sent an advance team of Garrison veterans out to deal with the titans. I expect they’ll hold them off until the civilians can evacuate, at which point we’ll attempt to seal the breach, though the only thing large enough to block the hole is that one boulder in the center of town, and no way can we move that thing! It’s huge,” Armin said.

“Oh, I’ve seen that thing around before! Yeah, it is huge. Like really-fucking-huge,” Jean said.

“Not helping morale here, Jean,” you said as Daz began to throw up. Krista rubbed his back soothingly and began to coo soft words of comfort at him, though it didn’t do much as he continued to retch.

“Soldiers, I regret to inform you all that the advance team has been wiped out. This means that we who are here now are the only ones left to defend Trost until such a time as the civilians can be completely evacuated! I will be assigning you all to squads. The cadets will be in the vanguard, taking care of the titans, while the remaining veterans will be in the rear guard to aid in evacuation. Remember that desertion is considered treason and is therefore punishable with death!” Captain Woermann shouted.

“Oh, Sina,” Jean muttered.

“We’re all going to die!” Daz wailed before dry heaving, the contents of his stomach having already exited a long time ago. Krista looked distressed but stayed with him, her celeste blue eyes wide and her delicate nose wrinkled at the stench of vomit. You gave her a sympathetic wince, and she frowned back at you in exasperation. The small moment of solidarity with the girl you barely spoke to felt nice, and so did seeing that she was a human with normal emotions, not some sort of untouchable goddess.

“Guys, come on, we’re not all going to die. Statistically, at least one of us will survive,” you said.

“Oh, wow, Y/N, real helpful!” Samuel snapped.

“Samuel, you don’t even have to fight, what with your injured foot and all of that. What are you so upset about?” Thomas Wagner said, raising an eyebrow at him.

“You think I tried to get injured on purpose just so I could get out of doing our duty?” Samuel said.

“Wouldn’t put it past you,” Milieus Zeremski said snarkily, crossing his arms.

“Says you! You’re scared of Y/N when she’s hangry!” Samuel said.

“I DON’T GET HANGRY!” you said.

“Why couldn’t the titans have waited one more day? I’d be safe in the interior by then!” Jean groaned, covering his ears in distress.

“All of you, shut up! Samuel, everyone knows you didn’t get hurt on purpose. Y/N, yes, you do get hangry. Daz, we’re not all going to die. Jean, the interior will still be there for you tomorrow!” Tullia said.

“Tullia is right. We made it through our training, didn’t we? We’re prepared to take these ugly fuckers on! All of us survived everything that Shadis put us through. We just need to do it again, for one more day,” Eren said.

“You make it sound real-fucking-easy,” Jean said.

“That’s because it is. Look, if I could survive the fall of Shiganshina as a ten year old, we can all survive this as highly trained soldiers,” you said.

“Oddly, that does make me feel better,” Milieus admitted.

“True. If baby Y/N could do it, then we can too,” Thomas said.

“You know what? I won’t take that as an insult,” you decided.

As Captain Woermann began to split everyone up into squads, Mikasa came over to where you and Eren were standing. She pulled you into a group huddle, her face serious.

“Do not die, understand?” she said.

“We won’t, Mikasa!” Eren whined.

“I’ll do my best to look out for you two, but I can’t be in two places at once. I need to know that you guys will be okay!” she said. You reached for her soft hand and squeezed it. She turned her worried gaze to you, and you understood. More than anything, you understood. She had been through this once before, and she had lost you. She couldn’t go through that again.

“We’ll be okay. Focus on yourself and doing your duty, yeah? I promise you, things will be fine. See you soon,” you said as Captain Woermann appeared to split you up.

“Cadet Jaeger! You will be in Squad 34 with Cadet Arlert and the others. Cadet L/N, join Squad 28 with Cadet Kirstein. Cadet Ackerman, I want you in the rear guard. We’ve heard about your prowess, and you’re equal to at least 100 soldiers, easily. Report to Ian Dietrich at once for your assignment,” he said before jogging off.

“Wait, I can’t be a part of the rear guard!” Mikasa called out helplessly.

“You heard him, Mikasa. You’re strong. You can do this!” you encouraged her.

“No, I need to be with you two, I need to protect you,” she said frantically. Eren growled and headbutted her. She stumbled backwards in shock, her eyes wide and filled with tears as she rubbed the spot where he had headbutted her.

“Mikasa. Your orders were to go to the rearguard, so you’ll go to the rearguard. I’ll take care of Y/N for you, but you have to remember that this is war. There isn’t any place for personal preference,” he said.

“We aren’t children,” you reminded her gently, “We’re soldiers, too. I think Sasha’s in my squad as well. I’ll look out for her, and she’ll look out for me, and Jean will as well, of course. This isn’t Shiganshina. We’re stronger now.”

She flew at you, flinging her arms around you and cutting off your airflow from how tight she hugged you.

“I’ll see you again,” she said before letting go and watching emotionlessly as you coughed, “Both of you. Soon. As soon as I’m done helping with the evacuations, I’ll come back for you.”

You and Eren exchanged looks, knowing this was the best you could get from the overprotective girl.

“See you soon, Mikasa,” you said again, kissing her cheek as she gave you one final glance before heading over to where Ian Dietrich was assembling the rearguard.

“Good luck,” you said, taking a deep breath and turning to Eren, who nodded at you.

“You too. Listen, before we go, I have to tell you something,” he said. You shook your head furiously.

“No. Tell me afterwards. This isn’t goodbye. Whatever it is that you have to say, it can wait,” you said. He looked like he wanted to argue, but at your fierce glare, let out a sigh of defeat, giving in without much protest.

“Fine. See you afterwards, then,” he said.

“That’s a promise.”

You were happy to see that your squad was full of your friends (and Jean). Sasha, Connie, Marco, and Jean made up the group, and you knew that you could count on each and every one of them in even the toughest of situations.

“Everyone ready?” Jean said. You checked over your ODM gear before nodding at him.

“I’m good,” you said.

“Me, too,” Marco said.

“Yup!” Sasha said, somehow still cheerful despite the fact that you were literally about to charge into a district overrun by titans.

“As ready as I’ll ever be,” Connie said, his normal humor suppressed by the seriousness of the situation, though he did manage to smile at you.

“Then let’s head out,” Jean said, taking charge effortlessly. He was the unspoken leader, and all of you were willing to let him have the role. Like you had told him earlier, he was good at it, at inspiring confidence in his comrades and assessing tough situations.

As you glided through Trost on your ODM gear, distracting the titans, you were reminded of that day so long ago, when Eren had taken you to the roof. The town had been lively then. It was so different now, debris littering the streets that had once been occupied by dancing children.

A single lily lay in the middle of the street, the white petals catching your eye as you soared over it. Blood was splattered against it, staining the pure color an ugly shade of crimson. You frowned and turned away, not wanting to think about whose blood had colored the flower.

All of a sudden, Jean screeched to a stop. You paused beside him, giving him a worried look. His face had gone white, very, very white, as he stared at something in abject horror.

“Jean, is everything alright?” you said as the rest of your squad continued onwards. He reached out with a shaking hand to point at something. You looked down before your jaw dropped. It was a little girl with red hair, crushed by a rock.

“We have to save her,” he said.

“Absolutely. I’ll cover you,” you said as you both dropped to the ground, running over to where the girl was trapped. You kept your fingers on the triggers of your blades, knowing you might need to release them at any moment if a titan picked up on your vulnerable position.

“Hey, Leah, is that you?” Jean whispered, lifting the rock aside. You wondered how he knew the girl. Well, he had grown up in Trost.

“Huh? H-how do you know my name?” she said woozily. You looked back before immediately wishing you hadn’t. The girl’s body was completely mangled from the bottom down, and bile rose in your throat at the way her small legs were contorted. Blood covered her, and you knew she wasn’t going to make it. She had lost too much, and if you had to guess, you’d only give her a few more minutes to live.

“It’s me, the clown from William’s birthday party, remember?” he choked out, cradling her in his arms, ignoring the way her blood covered his light grey shirt.

“Hey, Mr. Clown,” she said, a small smile forming on her face.

“Hey,” Jean said, tears forming in his eyes. The little girl frowned at him.

“Why are you sad? Clowns are supposed to be happy,” she reprimanded him. He gave her a watery smile. You watched silently, feeling like an intruder on this private moment.

“I’m sorry,” he whispered, “I’m so, so sorry.”

“It’s okay,” she said, her voice growing faint.

“No, wait, just hold on, kid! Hold on, please, hold on, we’ll get you to a doctor and you’ll be fine!” he said desperately.

“Bye-bye, Mr. Clown. Remember to smile!” she said cheerfully, her brow creasing in a frown for only a second before she smiled up at him.

“Don’t say bye,” Jean said, his face crumpling as the tears began to pour unashamedly down his face.

“Smile, just like I am!” she said. Jean began to cry harder.

“How can you ask me to smile at a time like this?” he said.

“Because. The only way to win at life is to be happy, so you have to try and be happy, see?” she said, coughing, blood trickling out of her mouth. She was at death’s door. There was only one reason she was still clinging to life instead of slipping into that peaceful darkness.

“Jean, you said quietly. He looked at you, his eyes red.

“What?” he said.

“Just do it. She won’t let go unless you do,” you said.

“I don’t want her to let go! She’s just a kid! She can’t j-just —”

“You know she’s going to,” you said, and though your words were blunt, your tone was gentle. Leah looked up at Jean innocently, though her eyes were beginning to glaze over as she reached her final few seconds alive. Jean closed his eyes before opening them again and smiling at the girl. She let out a delighted laugh.

“You have a nice smile, Mr. Clown,” she said.

“Jean. It’s Jean,” he said. She hummed before coughing again.

“Bye, Mr. Jean. You’re...a really brave person.”

Her breathing stilled, and you knew that she was gone forever. Jean stared at her still-warm body, frozen by shock.

“Fuck, Jean! Move!” you screamed as a five meter titan crept up behind him, taking advantage of his dazed state to reach out for him. You sprang into the air, releasing a set of blades.

Tighten your muscles. Latch onto something to gain momentum before letting go. Spin.

Levi’s voice talked you through what to do as you swung through the air, spinning and slashing into the titan’s nape. It collapsed to the ground beside Jean, who hugged Leah’s body to his chest and gazed at the fallen titan in shock before looking at you as you landed atop its corpse.

“You saved me,” he said.

“Anytime. We have to go, though. The others need us,” you said.

“What about her?” he said, hefting the girl’s body. You gave him a sad look, and his eyes widened before he began to shake his head.

“No, no, we can’t just leave her behind! Damnit, isn’t it good enough that she’s dead? Now we have to fucking leave her to be eaten or something?” he shouted wildly. You reached out to place a hand on his shoulder.

“Jean, you know you won’t be able to carry her. We’re running low on gas as it is. The extra weight will drag you down. I’m sorry,” you said.

“I hate you. I hate you, I hate you, I hate you,” he cried as he gently set the girl’s body down. You did not respond, allowing him to take his anger out on you, because you knew it was not you that he was truly angry with; rather, it was this shitty situation and this shitty world that he was raging against. It was unfair. It was so unfair. It was also a reminder that you oh-so-easily could’ve been Leah five years ago. If it hadn’t been for Petra, or if Petra had arrived even a few seconds later than she had, you’d be nothing more than one of the numerous casualties of Wall Maria’s fall.

“Wait here a second,” you said to him before shooting off.

You returned a few seconds later with the white lily that you had seen earlier. It must have been planted in one of the flowerpots people liked to keep on their windowsills, falling to the street as debris rained down.

Touching down next to Jean, you bent over and placed the lily on Leah’s stomach. A bloodstained flower for a bloodstained girl, from two bloodstained soldiers. You were sick of it, sick of it all. You wanted to scrub and scrub at your skin until the last residues of the thick liquid were gone, though you knew it wouldn’t be enough. Even once it was gone, the feel of it would remain, phantom rivers running down your arms and coating your hands until all you could see when you closed your eyes was that horrible, ugly sanguine shade.

“We need to go see how everyone else is doing. We’re both almost out of gas, too, so we have to find the supply team,” you said.

“Right,” he said with one final glance at Leah, “We have a job to do.”

You were silent as you made your way to the rooftop that it seemed everyone had decided to gather on. You noticed in dismay that your numbers were noticeably thinned. It seemed not everyone had made it back.

“Jean? Y/N? We thought you guys had died!” Sasha shrieked as she noticed you.

“What the hell happened to you? Jean, are you okay?” Tullia said, her voice shrill. Jean looked down at his shirt before meeting her eyes dully.

“It’s not mine,” he said.

“Then whose?” Connie said.

“That’s unimportant,” you said, knowing that Jean still needed time to process all that you two had seen, “Have any of you seen Eren, by any chance?”

“No. Ask Armin, they were part of the same squad, though he’s the only one that made it back,” Marco said.

“It’s obvious what happened,” Ymir said, rolling her eyes as you headed over to where Armin sat, curled up in a ball.

“Hey, Min-Min. What’s the matter? Where’s Eren?” you said, kneeling and placing a comforting hand on his shoulder. He stiffened under your touch before staring at you with haunted eyes the color of the sky.

“Squad 34 was wiped out. Every single one of them. Milieus, Nack, Thomas, Mina...and Eren.”

So, for the second time, you were forced to lose your best friend. Yet this time was different, because you were different. You had done this once before. You could do it again.

“I’m sorry, Y/N. It should’ve been me. He died saving me!” Armin sobbed. You scowled at him before grabbing him by the hand and yanking him harshly to his feet.

“Enough. That’s not true, and we both know it. Eren made the choice to save you, didn’t he? Don’t demean his sacrifice by saying that it was meaningless. Make it worth something. We’re all out of gas, aren’t we?” you said, turning to face everyone. Your fellow cadets gazed at you in shock. Meek little Y/N, Y/N who was never terrible but never exceptional either, Y/N whose only skills came from the advice she had gotten from people far better than her, that Y/N, was standing up.

“Did you think I would fall? Did you think I would break at the news of Eren’s death? You forget I’ve survived all of this before, and I’ll do it again. And so will all of you! I know things are tough right now. The supply team has abandoned us, for whatever reason. That means we have two options: wait here to die, or go get our gas,” you said.

“That’s suicidal!” Connie said.

“You all know the company I kept. Is it any wonder that I am the way I am? Perhaps this plan is suicidal, but it’s all we’ve got. It’s our only shot at success, and for what it’s worth, I think it’s a pretty good shot, too,” you said.

“You do? Why?” Sasha said.

“Because I know you guys. I can’t promise that things are going to be easy, because they won’t be. We aren’t veterans with years of battle experience, and none of us are inhumanly strong like Mikasa, either, but that’s okay. Strength, speed, intelligence, power: they are important, to be sure, but in the end, they don’t matter. None of it does. Each and every one of us possesses an incredible will to endure, and that is all we need to come out on the other side as the victors.”

Everyone was silent as they stared at you before Jean slowly walked over to your side. Jean, who was covered in blood; Jean, who was once spoiled and arrogant; Jean, who was different now, who had been different ever since you had stumbled upon Leah’s body.

“The circumstances we’ve been placed in are shit. This world is shit. I hate each and every one of us for being weak cowards that weren’t able to stop a little girl from dying, and I hate myself for it most of all. That girl died in my arms, and that means I am responsible for carrying on her legacy. She didn’t have a choice. She was a victim, but unlike her, we can choose to be victims, or we can stand and fight back against the monsters that kill us indiscriminately,” he said coldly. Nobody had been expecting to see this side of Jean, a side none of you even knew he had.

“Do you know what she told me before she died? ‘The only way to win at life is to be happy.’ Well, I am not a loser. I have never been a loser. I choose to win. I choose to be happy, if such a state is even achievable in this life. And all of you will join me, because I don’t make friends with losers, either,” he said, pointing at your comrades.

The cloud cover broke for only a second, the sun washing you and Jean in its bright gold light as you stared at the rest of the 104th, at your teammates, at your friends, and you fancied that it was Eren himself encouraging you, supporting you, telling you that this was the right thing to do.

“Fine, then,” Reiner said with a nod, “So what’s the plan?”

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Attack On Titan Music Headcanons!

just random headcanons of songs I think they would enjoy, and habits that I think come along with it!

Warnings: Bad Grammar!

includes: Eren, Armin, Mikasa, Jean, Connie, Sasha, Reiner, Bertholdt, Annie, Levi, Erwin, and Hange!

Wordcount: 1.3k

enjoy~

Eren

Kinda gives XXXTTENTACION vibes?? Also Lil Peep

Used to love the song Crisis by Jasiah and obnoxiously sang it, or played it really loud when he got the Aux cord in ANYONES car. Got to the point that everyone despised him for it. 

I feel like he listened to a mix of Deftones type music and also a little bit of rap? 

Listened to Can You Feel My Heart when he was 15. A lot. 

I can see him liking Fall Out Boy as well, especially when he was a young teen, and might have even liked a little bit of Twenty One Pilots.

BIGGEST MCR FAN THERE IS. like. He's OBSESSED. Specifically likes Dead!

Armin 

LOVVESSS the Cults, specifically Always Forever

Probably also liked harry styles

Seems like the type to gatekeeper music, but is like veryyyy passive aggressive about it. 

I can see him liking Tyler, The Creator, but specific songs, Like GONE, GONE / THANK YOU 

TV Girl. specifically Not Allowed and Lovers Rock

Eyedress, and he loves to listen to there music during summer, he feels like it has such a nice summer vibe.

Probably walks through the streets by himself with headphones on, and just listens to music and walks for hours. 

He almost seems like the type of person to constantly have an earbud in, but at the same time he really enjoys spending time with friends, and finds it very valuable. 

Mikasa

All The Things She Said, Bang Bang Bang Bang, Crazy Girls

Loves t.A.T.u and Sohodolls

A little bit of Ariana Grande, but its like a guilty pleasure for her, and the only one who knows is Sasha

Also Likes Doja Cat and Billie Eilish 

Hollaback Girl 

Alternatively, i think she might also listen to music that is completely contradictory to her appearance, like Kikuo and Hatsune Miku

Might even listen to a little bit of Rebzyyx, MAYBE. But specific songs. 

Jean

Cigarettes after sex for sureeeee

Probably cries to music. Frequently. 

Seems like a Harry Styles fan as well, specifically Sign Of The Times

Probably scream sings Brutal and Good 4 u by Olivia Rodrigo

Probably listens to a little rap, and WOULD start a fight over Eminem being the best Rapper

Also gives Tyler, The Creator vibes and Juice WRLD vibes 

When hes drunk or realllyyy in the mood he might aggressively sing Lady Gaga

Probably has multiple playlists instead of just one, each for a different mood or activity, and loves to make recommendation playlists for his friends 

Totally gives Cage The Elephant Vibes

Connie 

MF DOOM, Childish Gambino, Rae Sremmurd

Probably also liked Mrs. Hollywood by Go-Jo for a while as well

Bands By Comethazine and Rich The Kid gives such connie vibes its INSANE 

If people asked for music recs he would say stupid stuff like Fortnite Balls and Chug Jug With you

Odetari, Specifically GOOD LOYAL THOTS and LOOK DON’T TOUCH

Probably liked Cochise for a while, specifically Tell Em

Isn’t one to listen to sad music.

If people recommend songs he either forgets the name, or just forgets to listen to it because he gets so focused on his own music.

I actually think he probably rarely listens to music, and kind of just listens to whatever his friends may play, or whatever is on tik tok.

Definitely listens to tik tok edit audios and pretends he’s in an edit 

Also loves the Gorillaz

MOTHER MOTHER IS HIS FAVOURITE BAND.

Sasha 

The person who showed Jean Lady Gaga 

Kesha, specifically Backstabber

Also showed Mikasa Doja Cat??

Probably listened to Heat Waves by Glass Animals for MONTHS.

Cries to taylor swift's Folklore album

Armin showed her Marlboro Nights, and SHE LOVED IT

Probably went through a very long Lizzo faze

One of the only songs she's loved FOREVER and never lets people judge her on is July by Noah Cyrus. 

Really likes the album FIRE ON MARZZ by BENEE

Has a really long playlist because she puts entire albums onto it, and if she doesn't like the song she just skips it.

Reiner

Probably unironically likes Can You Feel My Heart

His guilty pleasure is Beach Bunny

Reiner (Season 1) probably listened to FNAF music but didn’t realise it was FNAF music until Armin told him, and was super embarrassed about it. Has never listened to any of those songs again.

Might like a little Roar? Mainly Christmas kids

BIGGG maneskin fan

Probably also loves Ghost, like A LOT. specifically Mary On A Cross

Also gatekeeps music, but unlike Armin, is VERY aggressive about it. 

Foo Fighters and Arcade Fire

LOVES THE SUBURBS. It reminds him of his family, and growing up, AND BERTHOLDT. 

Dabbles in My Chemical Romance and maybe. MAYBE ICP. maybe. 

Bertholdt

MGMT, Frank Ocean, Mac Demarco, Steve Lacy 

Dark Red was his favourite song for yearsss.

Is VERY shy about his music. Barley even lets his friends know about what he's into because he's so nervous they will judge him. He only tells Reiner, and that's still pretty rare

When he's alone, a LOVES to dance to music

Probably listened to the song The Perfect Girl by Mareux

I can see him fan boying over The Neighborhood, and knows every word to all of their songs.

Reiner showed him Foo Fighters, but the only song by them he liked was Everlong

Alien Blues by Vundabar was his favourite (Specifically season one Bertholdt)

TAME IMPALA

Tame Impala is the only band he talks about and he OBSESSES over it. Like once he's started talking the man WILL NOT STOP

Likes Scaled And Icy by Twenty One Pilots 

Run Boy Run by Woolkid 

Annie

I see her REALLY liking Crystal Castles, maybe even Pastel Ghost, but specifically Crystal Castles

Likes a little bit of Tame Impala. Only listened to them because Bertholdt would not shut up about it

Also likes Billie Eilish

I can see her liking a little Lady Gaga, but mainly just Government Hooker, Monster, and Poker Face

Peter McPoland, her guilty pleasure is Romeo and Juliet

Horror Scene by Xowie Jones and Aldn

7 Weeks & 3 Days was one of her favourite songs. 

HUGEE GRIMES FAN. really likes 4ӔM and Oblivion

Little Bit by Lykke Li

LOVES POISON TREE BY GROUPER. She listened to it a lot (Season 4) and listened to it when she was feeling down.

Might Like a little Memo Boy, Insomniac and Brian is the Most Beautiful

Levi

Lots of classical. He will stay up all night to listen to music. At first it starts soft, Moonlight Sonata and Fur Elise, and then later in the night he starts to listen to some more loud aggressive stuff, like Dies Irae. 

Likes aggressive Jazz. Sakuran by Sheena Ringo and Take 5 by Dave Brubeck

I don’t think hes one to avidly listen to music. Its rare, and when he does its the middle of the night, and hes sipping tea, swaying back and forth to the music a bit. Hes always alone. 

No one has ever caught him listening to music. 

HE CANNOT STAND COUNTRY. DESPISES IT.

Loud music. Not because hes deaf, but because he likes to feel completely surrounded by it. 

Has GREAT speakers. Invests in good quality music playing things. 

Erwin

Country. Luke Combs, Zac Brown Band.

Loves Chicken Fried and Fishing In The Dark

Chris Stapleton is his FAVOURITE.

He's the kind of person who always has the radio playing, whether it's from a google, his truck, or his phone. He loves the radio. 

Listens to it very quietly. It's like background noise. Somehow still knows all the words? 

Plays Tennessee Whiskey over and over again. 

NEVER lets anyone touch his music, his radio, his phone. NEVER. He's in the feels. 

Hange

Machine Girl, specifically Uzumaki. Just because it's different and she likes it. 

Suki Suki Daisuki By Jun Togawa 

City Pop, Mayonaka no Door/Stay with me, and 4:00A.M. 

Also likes Sakuran By Sheena Ringo, Levi was the one who showed it to her.

Just a very big fan of japanese music, especially older stuff, loves how it sounds. 

Definitely drives around listening to music in the middle of the night. 

Funnily enough, Levi doesn't mind the old japanese music, but he HATES Machine girl. A lot. 

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thank you for sending this in about 84 years ago, Vabe!! 🥹🤦🏼

this was such a fun challenge, and i ended up liking writing it so much once i got the idea for it!! it’s light on the erumike side, as discussed, but i tried my best hehe 😉

side note, a thousand thanks for helping me recover it when i accidentally deleted this entire thing this morning 😭♥️ i really do not learn from past mistakes, do i?

anyway, thank you, i love you, i hope you enjoy this ♥️♥️♥️

58. “you smell like a wet dog”

send me a prompt and a character/ship, and i'll write you a drabble!

Gossip Girl(s and Boys)

Relationships: yumihisu, erumike, eremika (implied, one-sided), jeankasa (implied, one-sided), levihan (implied, one-sided),

Tags: feat that s1 castle temporary HQ, eren pov, fluff, snk veterans, the 104th kids, everyone has a crush okay?? you figure it out, basically the scouts regiment is a big high school drama!, they/them pronouns for Hange Zoë, headcanon backstory for Hange Zoë, this is very very silly and fluffy really

Eren grunts as he sits down next to his friends, letting his head fall on the old wooden table in front of him and barely missing his plate thanks to Mikasa’s reflex of pushing it away. He hadn’t expected his life would get easier once he’d joined the Scouts, and although he is thankful deep down for all the work –he knows it’s only turning him into a better soldier to eradicate Titans and he’s glad he’s not being dissected to death by the MP like he almost did– he’s fighting even harder than usual to not skip dinner altogether tonight. To be fair, he’s had to handle both a particularly rough bit of Hange experiments this morning, and regular training with everyone else in the afternoon without having had a chance to rest in between, and without any of the warm up his comrades got before noon.

“You look completely worn out,” Armin says softly, worriedly, jolting him awake from the slumber he was falling into.

Eren sits up and puts one hand over his own face, sighing. Even Jean is looking at him with something that looks like concern in his eyes, and Eren doesn’t know how he should feel about that.

“I am. You know, at first I was thankful when Mike showed up and distracted Hange away from me. But I didn’t think I’d have to catch up with you all after that. They didn’t even tell me themself, just sent their assistant to let me know there wouldn’t be any more proding today,” he recalls, picking up his spoon and tasting the broth. “It was weird, even for them.”

“That does sound odd. And you know, I think it’s only the second of third time I see Squad Leader Zacharias showing up out here,” Sasha points out, already done with her share of dinner.

“He must have had something important to say to Hange-san,” Armin muses out loud, and Eren recognizes the usual faraway look he gets whenever he thinks something over on his face.

“Yeah, I bet he said a lot of things to them. All afternoon. In a closed room with no one else around to overhear,” Connie points out unexpectedly, smirking at his friends.

Sasha and Jean both roll their eyes at him and Eren frowns, shooting a curious glance Mikasa’s way. She shrugs, obviously not in on it.

“From what I understand, he spends most of his time with Major Erwin in HQ,” Armin replies, looking even more serious and deeper in thoughts than before, “so he may indeed have had sensible military intel to share with them regarding the next expedition.”

“I’m sure he shared a whole lot more with them than military intel, if you know what I–

"We get it, Connie, you think they’re boning,” Jean interrupts, flicking the back of his head.

Eren’s thankful he swallowed his mouthful before he heard that, because he’s pretty sure it would have sent his food down the wrong way. Mikasa arches an eyebrow in surprise, and Armin handles this brutal crash back to reality by blushing more furiously than even Eren’s ever seen him.

“That’s right, I do! And I still don’t understand why you guys disagree,” Connie retorts.

“I’ll admit they seem close, but Squad Leader Hange is always sweating and covered in various dirt,” Jean says, sounding weary and bored and like it’s far from the first time he’s having this argument. “Zacharias and his freaky nose would bail at the first attempted kiss.”

“I hate to agree with Horse-face over there, but I think I do,” Ymir admits out loud.

She winks at Eren who’s sitting directly to her right –as she always does when borrowing his favorite insult for their comrade– and draws her chair closer to Krista’s on her left. She ignores Jean’s raised middle finger and his answering jab about her freckles being a poor make up effect to hide acne spots, and throws her arm over the short blonde’s shoulders nonchalantly.

“He’d probably sniff loudly like he always does,” she picks up, doing exactly that above Krista’s hair, “and tell them something like, ‘sorry Zoë baby, but you smell like a wet dog’,” she says in a deep, unnatural voice, wiggling her eyebrows at Krista.

Eren joins his friends and laughs at her poor attempt at imitation.

Unlike them though, he doesn’t miss the creaking sound of the heavy door opening and revealing two silhouettes behind it.

“What’s all this noise, aren’t you brats supposed to be sleeping by now? Maybe we’re not working you hard enough.”

Captain Levi’s voice chills the atmosphere as he walks fully into the room, and even Eren can feel the hair at the back of his neck standing up although he knows they've done nothing wrong. Mikasa is the only one who doesn’t shy away from his stare, but she still doesn’t verbally react to his words.

The tense silence thankfully breaks when the other figure walks in and Nanaba chuckles, ruffling Levi’s hair like it’s not an offense punishable by death.

“Forgive him, gang,” she says, withdrawing her hand before Levi slaps it away like she’s had years of practice doing exactly that. “Heichou here gets restless when it’s been too long since he’s sliced up a Titan.”

Levi glares back at her, and everyone else shares a relieved sigh and an amused glance behind his back.

Ymir uses the distraction to bring her face even closer to Krista’s than it already was, and Eren preemptively cringes at whatever line he's going to overhear, sitting right next to them.

“You, for the record, do not smell like a wet dog at all,” Ymir whispers with her most flirty smile.

Krista sucks in a deep breath and immediately fails to contain a coughing fit, attracting everyone’s attention to them.

“Walls, take this to the dorm room, ladies!” Nanaba jokes when she notices how close they are.

“I’d rather they don’t,” Levi groans, uncrossing his arms and revealing a cup of tea he’d been holding in his peculiar way, hidden in the crook of his elbow. “And before you start, I know it’s not technically illegal to date another soldier, but do they have to be horny teenagers on your explicit orders?”

“It’s not against the rules? Fraternization amongst Scouts?” Mikasa asks hurriedly, her eyes widening at her own question.

Jean barely suppresses a groans and Eren pointedly ignores the glare he sends his way, just like he ignores the pitiful look Armin shoots between his two childhood friends.

“Why do you care, Ackerman?” Levi scoffs.

She bares her teeth at his mocking tone, and Eren almost feels scared for his Captain for a moment.

“We were just trying to settle a bet here,” Jean intervenes before she does or says anything she'd regret.

“We were!” Sasha confirms, giggling nervously to defuse the renewed tension. “Connie here thinks Squad Leaders Zacharias and Zoë may be an item.”

Nanaba blinks twice as she processes that information, before she explodes in laughter, holding her sides. Even Levi visibly pinches his lips together and quickly hides his mouth behind his cup.

“What the hell is wrong with you? They’re siblings!” the veteran Scout manages to say when the worst of her hilarity has subsided.

“But… they don’t have the same name, and they don’t look like each other at all,” Reiner points out while everyone else exchanges shocked looks.

“Well, they grew up together. They were both found as infants, and as you may know, it is common for orphanages under His Majesty’s authority to assign last names that start with the same letter to kids they take in during the same year!”

“That's enough details,” Levi chimes in.

But Nanaba casts him an unimpressed side glance, and he sighs in defeat.

“These guys are Scouts now, Levi. They're family,” Nanaba says with a warm smile directed at everyone of them, including Eren. “And Hans loves telling that story so much, I’m surprised they didn’t know it already. Or,” she adds, her voice switching to a much more mischievous tone suddenly, “are you just getting defensive because they thought your crush was dating mine?”

“You have a crush on Mike?” Sasha squeals out, her hand slapping the table so hard she makes her own empty plate jump up and spin on itself for a few minutes.

Eren wants to point out that if Nanaba does, it probably doesn’t have much to do with just how much food Mike can inhale in one sitting, unlike Sasha’s own… admiration for the veteran Scout. But he bites his own tongue and decides to only listen for a little longer.

“I don't,” Nanaba replies, grinning again. “It’s an old inside joke that started when we were recruits, back when Levi here wasn’t even in the picture; I spotted Mike from across the room on our first day of training and pointed him out to Erwin. And well, let’s just say, it’s never been relevant who has a crush on either of those two since then.”

A few shocked gasps echo in the room, and one of them might even have escaped Eren himself.

“Wait, why not?” Connie asks, frowning.

Jean, the first one to recover from those news, rolls his eyes again and bends to say something in his ear.

“No way! You’re kidding, right?” Connie asks, eyes even bigger and rounder than usual.

“Okay, that’s enough gossiping,” Levi calls out. “Brats, get to bed already. You’re starting especially early and with a special round of exercises tomorrow morning.”

They all leave the room one by one, Jean grumbling about the alluded promised suffering of the next day. Eren trails behind everyone else, his legs having trouble carrying him up and along the corridor that leads away from the dinner room.

“Oi, Levi,” he hears Nanaba call over the noise of plates getting stacked together.

“What now?”

“Notice how they were surprised about a lot of what I said, but no one batted an eye when I mentioned your crush on Hange?”

There’s a short a silence then, disrupted only by the sound of dishes clanking against each other again, followed by a surprised huff from Nanaba.

“Careful, don’t drop them. They’ll be harder to clean if they’re in pieces, and you know I’ll be checking that you did it right.”

“Wow, you're really making me wash the dishes in your place? Man, you must be really pissed to give up your favorite hobby like that.”

Eren walks away faster after he hears Levi swear, and Nanaba’s answering laughter follows him up into the stairs to the dorm rooms.

[ryuichirou]

Hi, Ryu!

I don’t know if you feel like talking about this, but if not, don’t worry and just ignore the ask❤️ It’s about SNK, and specifically the ending and the last arc in general (SPOILERS AHEAD).

Do you think the choices Isayama made were really planned since the beginning? In particular, do you think the way he managed Eren, Mikasa and Armin’s relationships and the ending was somehow influenced by the audience or worse by his editors (I’ve been hearing rumors about it and, honestly, it’s been helping me coping with the ending that I really disliked…)?

I felt the last arc so wrong, and everything got worse as Annie returned (cause somehow was also implied some romantic subtext with Armin - like wtf…?) and many important questions were left without answers or weren’t just well explained, like the Ackermans and the Ackerbond, the worm which started the titans’ curse, the influence of the memories on Titan shifters (like was Armin influenced or not by Bertold?)… And so on.

If you want to share your thoughts about it, I’d gladly hear your opinion! If not, I’ll just get the chance to tell you that I love your art and your blog, and I’m always waiting for a new masterpiece of yours to come out!

Have a nice day!🫶🏼

Hi Anon!

First of all, thank you so much for your kind words. It truly means a lot to hear that things that we post are so important and bring you joy. It’s also amazing that you are still invested in what we have to say about SnK, even though it’s been more than a year since we’ve stopped posting fanart of it. Makes me a bit sentimental about how special our time with SnK was.

The thing is, we haven’t read the ending properly and haven’t reread the manga yet, so please keep that in mind.

I think Isayama had a rough outline of the story since the very beginning, at least from a very early stage. But the way the story and characters progress is something that sometimes could get unexpected turns, so I wouldn’t be surprised if the way Isayama originally envisioned the finale was completely different from what he ended up with. What we know for sure is that he had a much darker ending originally planned. So I think it’s fair to say that he was influenced by others in a way..? I would assume that at some point he got anxious that he would disappoint his fanbase if the ending was too grim and brutal, which is truly a shame.

I also still think that it’s quite difficult to end a story, especially such a massive one, without disappointing anyone and with every question answered. Which isn’t an excuse, but a factor nonetheless.

When it comes to Armin/Annie, we feel you 100%, I think we even ranted about how stupid this is and how it doesn’t make sense for their characters and is just pure fanservice lol, and I still think so, and I don’t think reading the ending properly would change that. This was one of the most disappointing things about the ending for us.

A lot of things in the ending might not make sense, but it’s difficult to say something more specific without rereading the whole thing, so sorry about it. But I believe there are things that were meant to stay unanswered, like for us to think about, to interpret them in our own way, to keep wondering about it, etc. Like, I don’t really mind the ending being kind of an open one, but… I don’t know, we’ll definitely have much more to say when we reread it one day... But for now this is it, I think.

Thank you very much once again! Have a great day! Sorry for this non-answer, I hope you’ll stick around until we go back into SnK so we could reply to this question properly lol

[anothanobody]

I mean, Valentinian III, the Roman Emperor in question and brother of Honoria, is widely considered an incompetent ruler. There’s even a story (probably Ancient slander fanfic) that he had a pet bird called ‘Rome’. When the City of Rome was burned by the Vandals (Germanic tribe, and yes, thats the origin of the modern adjective) and his ministers told him about it, he had a panic attack because he thought they were taking about his bird. When it was clarified that the City burned, he was basically “Oh, well, anyway”. He also became enraged with Honoria’s letter, and only spared her from death due to their mother’s pleading (Galla Placidia, perhaps the greatest Roman woman, who was married to a smaller barbarian king herself). Valentinian III relied almost entirely on his only competent general, Aetius.

Normally Mikasa’s brother in fics is Levi, but he’s not incompetent. Maybe Mikasa saw that the Emperor was unfit to rule, and that he was a danger to what remained of the Empire. If he continued in power, he would destroy them all… so maybe some people were plotting a coup to put Mikasa on the throne, her brother found out, and she sent the letter to Eren. Eren is in only for land, gold and conquest. Maybe he almost deteats the Empire, reaches the gates of ‘Rome’ (Paradis?) and then is given Mikasa as his bride and a lot of gold and land to please go Back, don’t kill us all. (In reality the Roman capital at the time was Ravenna, but this is not relevant now).

So yes, there is Angst. Maybe Mikasa at first feels horrible about her mistake, but then sees that She’s their only hope against Eren in the end. She must do her duty as a princess and marry this foreing ruler for the well being (and survival) of her people. But then they fall in love because, however brutal he is in battle, he does care for the lands he own? For her as his bride and Empress now? And also, in their prime, werent the Romans themselves brutal conquerors too? They once had millions of slaves.

It’s just that I don’t know whats best - if Eren does conquer everything, and they deal with the fallout, or if they remain in a standstill. In many aspects this is “what if Eren won in the end and completed the rumbling?”. Maybe they can even learn to rule together their new enmeshed empire?

The idea of making it a historical chronicle is good! Or maybe Eren wins and becomes more Roman-like? For her sake? Because It’s up to You to decide if in his personality (not the ruler conqueror persona) he is bad or secretely a gentleman. I just know that they end up falling in love, even if its slow. I’m not a good writer, I hope this could help You

So we can make the original emperor something like Viserys Targaryen, meaning Daenerys’s brother. maybe when the emperor discovers that the people want her in the seat but doesn’t know that she doesn’t want it, he goes a bit mad, he’s like “you want the Empress seat? Be me bride then, we’ll see all these people get on fire under our reign.” so like some incest shit but it is the thing that makes it horrifying that pushes her to send the letter. like this is her set up.

so then she’s conflicted when eren arrives, he kills some of her people but he also executes the emperor freeing her, and he stops. now her reign won’t see more deaths but at the same time some people died already and all the former emperor allie’s are still being killed. she did the greater good for every innocent but still gave death to others. you feel what i’m saying?

when she gets to know eren as he takes her as his bride she sees the side of anything but a barbarian. and romance blooms. i think it would be an in between of gentleman and conqueror, he’s trying but didn’t have a gentle relationship never in his life. so it’s hard for him to learn as well. plus infatuation. like their first night makes them know they’re right sexually but need to explore the rest.

i think it’s a bit different from the canon rumbling because they knew each other before and deeply. here mikasa regards him as a barbarian and gets to know him as her arranged husband.

tell me what you think about it. 🧐🤔

[witswords]

" right, then i suppose we’ll have enough time to do the same — " it’s a bit of a relief, in a selfish sort of way, that it isn’t likely he’ll be asked to offer himself as eldia’s weapon again before he can nurse his guilty wounds, try to wash himself clean of it. he wonders acutely now whether levi feels the same way — how it must feel to give the orders, to land every fatal blow, to outlast every comrade. armin might bear the weight of the colossal, but the captain has always carried something far greater.

" to be honest, captain — " he says it almost sheepishly, as if it hasn’t been apparent since the moment he’d joined, clinging onto eren and mikasa, falling weakly behind the pack, that he’d always intended to fall on the sword, to be the losing dog. " i guess i never thought i’d make it this far. "

there was a kind of acceptance when he became a cadet that it was a suicide mission, that he was at the mercy of a ticking clock, bought extra time only by the strength and sacrifices of others.

to be here now is against all odds, every law of nature. the strong eat the weak, that’s what he learned in trost. jaws were meant to clamp down on him long ago. sometimes he thinks he can feel them looming over him still. he sighs, mourning what seems now like a brutal kind of simplicity, the dog-eat-dog of it all. " but i guess [ … ] i never thought things would be so complicated. they were simpler before we knew what the outside world was really like — when it was just us against the titans. "

there's a pause, and he feels himself almost reaching out for a kind of comfort in the next question, like a child unchanged, as if he's still as wide-eyed as he used to be, searching for something almost paternal in the one place he might still find it. " what did you think it would be like, captain? when you joined the scouts? " in his mind, levi is almost cemented there mythologically. something like a hero in a tragedy, a paradigm of ideals. he's a study in carrying the weight — armin would dissect himself to pieces and rearrange them in the same shape if he could, find solace in becoming an effigy of the one person strong enough to get through to the other side of it all.

he's known the blond long enough to know something is bothering him. they haven't gone through so much shit for nothing after all. it's been years since this whole journey has started and levi would consider all of his former cadets family. still, he's never been the best at comfort or talking about his feelings. the dark haired male only hopes that his presence can be somewhat of a reassurance, however much that is worth these days. he's their captain and he knows that most of them still look up to him. even if it makes him uncomfortable, he'll continue to try his best.

levi can only imagine that what they've just done must be weighing heavily on armin's mind. he can't say that he's any different. the screams of the civilians seems to echo in his mind, but their resolve as scouts must never waver. evne if levi can't deny he's got his doubts... this plan seems too risky, and in the same breath, if they don't do anything then they risk all that they have. one of those stakes is higher than the other. levi represses a shiver as he thinks of what erwin must be thinking from the other side of wherever death is.

"the only thing that we can do," levi says after a moment. he allowed the question to permeate the air between them before deciding on an answer. "prepare as best as we can. we've destroyed most of their armada and they'll be recovering from the massive damage caused. i don't doubt a response is imminent, but i also don't believe it'll be anytime during this week. they'll need time to gather reinforcements..." he purses his lips lightly and whispers under his breath, "i hope."

one hand comes up to push through black locks, tugging them up and out of his forehead as he groans quietly. "nothing can ever be simple these days..." he misses the old days when it was humans versus titans. everything turned out ten times more complicated since they discovered what lay hidden under eren's cellar door. levi purses his lips and a mirthless smirk plays on his lips, "you ever think that becoming a scout was going to be like this, arlert?"

[mitchiegonewild]

aot youtuber headcanons part 1

Eren: "jaegerbamb"

Eren games. ik this sounds like such a cop out answer but cmon...that dude would have streamy-worthy rage-quits, the best lives, and the most entertaining streams

he would repost all the edits people make of him

he moves to twitch after a while on youtube

all of his fans swear hes fine but everyone who's not is like "yeah hes like a 6"

he rarely collabs with anyone but when he does its always with either mikasa or armin who beat his ass, or connie just bc he loves connie

he HATES horror games and his subs know it so they always request those games and 9 times out of 10 he ends up crying

Mikasa: "wiccanest"

she does manifestation and spirituality stuff

she helps all her baby witches and is EXTREMELY avid about doing things the right way so her subs dont get hurt

she looks scary in her thumbnails but shes actually the softest person to ever exist in her vids

her cats are almost always featured in her videos. their names are keyboard and snufkin

shes also pinterest famous and uploads the most random yet aesthetic stuff

she did a gym vlog video with annie once and everyone went crazy bonkers bananas

Armin: "MinnieASMR"

an asmrist and i will die on this hill

he gives out studying tips on there too and does "study with me :)" videos

he did a mukbang once and never again because connie was in his comments like "ZAMN DADDY LOOKS GOOD WHILE HE MONCHIN??😍😍😍" & "THAT CRUNCH AT 8:29 IM ABT TO BUST A NUT😩"

does tiktok lives but falls asleep on them

choked on his water one time while the mic was at full vol still and woke up a good 2/3rds of his streamers

does the best energy plucks

Connie: "conman reacts"

a react channel

hes like coryxkenshin, but he only plays games with eren

hes actually really funny though, and he does a lot of streams so he can interact with people, and he also has a podcast that he hosts with sasha and jean

actually threw up on camera when someone asked if he and sasha were dating (that was the day they both came out LMFAO)

he is strong asf in every single try not to laugh challenge but the SECOND he hears "wenomechainsama" or any low quality meme and he loses it

he and mr beast did a video together once and connie blew a coke up in his face. he was not invited back

Annie: "Annie's How To's"

self defense videos and life inspiration

posts maybe once every four months because she forgets that she has a channel

got acrylics PURELY to show people with long nails how to knock a motherfucker out

actually ended up liking them and gets them when shes not filming

sometimes appears in mikasas videos to do yoga with her

has little 8-minute mindfulness videos

Sasha: "sasha.b"

sasha doesn't do food videos bc im tired of always seeing her with food shit, so i say she does a brittany broski type thing where she literally just does the most unhinged and wild shit whenever and its funny as hell

connie is her sarah schauer and jean is her bestie taylor

shes gone on literally so many podcast episodes and just gets drunk while telling literally the most outrageous stories from her childhood

was a born and raised tennessee girlie that moved to chicago

is mikasas roommate and photobombs her videos almost constantly, but just with a little wave

obsesses over medias and just will not stop talking about it for weeks on end and then moves on in a blink

Jean & Marco: "Jean & Marco V.S. The Paranormal"

they are literally buzzfeed unsolved

jean does not believe in ghosts. marco very much does and says his Catholic Prayers at least thrice in each video

jean twerked for annabelle and she threatened to brutally kill both of them

marcos super respectful and is always like "the dress you have in this picture is just lovely" and jeans like "first of all...youuurrreee nothing but a trashy hoe." and then gets surprised when the ghost targets him

marco fell through a haunted bar's roof and started singing "the lord is my shepherd" and jean stopped himself mid rescue to laugh

a rumor got started that marco was actually dead and a ghost and there is now a national funeral day for marco in the "Jean & Marco V.S. The Paranormal" fandom

Hange: "Science Rulez"

an account purely for middle school science teachers

theyre an actual scientist not just a youtuber but on their off days because they love their job so much they'll do tiny little videos

they are VERY passionate about teaching biology in schools

they have pet turtles and ferrets that they heavily feature and call them their "assistants" (moblit has a "hey, im right here!" voice bite that they usually play)

moblit is their begrudging camera and light man because he just wants to be able to go on vacation with them on their time off

hange covers EVERYTHING from astronomy to fucking quantum physics and always gets comments about how they changed students whole grades and they ALWAYS respond and/or like

[father-time-and-baby-new-year]

happy 200! i’m so glad to see your blog grow, it’s one of my favorites and i adore all your writing. i’ve never cried so much and i love the kind of unsettling feeling you write in your fics, it’s perfect in the category of yandere and dark content. in particular, i loved your drabble about shigaraki mourning over a dead reader and i’ve reread that one too many times to count haha! as for asks for headcannons and drabbles, it would be amazing to see that with bully!eren especially since he was such an awful person to the reader. i’d love to see him suffer honestly, but if you don’t want to write it, that’s completely fine! once again, i’m so proud of you for hitting 200! that’s such a huge milestone and hopefully, there will be many more in the future! :)

SYNOPSIS: bully!Eren has to navigate the world without you.

Pairing: Bully!Eren x Fem!Reader

A/N: I can't even explain in words how much I CHEESED at this message like my grin was ear to ear. can't explain how many times I read this. It singlehandedly made my day anon, and to repay you for my happiness....here is some angst. this is a slightly different route than the shiggy one but I hope it still suits you <3

TW: mentions of death, past dubcon/noncon, mentions of trauma, bullying, alcohol addiction, drunk driving, abusive behavior, revenge porn, nonconsensual photography/videography, mentions of infidelity, angst, so much of angst, violent behavior

WC: 2.5k

It's not like Eren had been doing a lot of soul-searching. He's not delusional enough to label his half-assed epiphany of "maybe I'm a shitty person" as soul searching.

It's just the conversation with his very sick mother burned holes through the back of his mind. Carla had asked about you and why you don't come by the house anymore. How she missed baking with you in the kitchen, and how you sweetly smiled whenever you would see soft creamy peaks form in the meringue.

Eren felt like he was swallowing needles as he assured his mother with false truths, that nothing was going on and distance between childhood friends is natural, and if it means so much--ok ok he'll bring you over.

He stays until he sees her chest slowly rising and falling into a gentle asleep. He touches the tip of his ears, unsurprised by how hot it was.

Eren, when you tell a lie, the tips of your ears turn red.

You're not at school the next day. Or the day after that. Or the day after that.

Guilt is not an emotion he feels often but the events of the past weekend replay in his mind. It was just a dumb party that Floch threw, and he was surprised to find you cornered by a trio of thee dunderheads. Like a distorted fairytale, he swept you away from the bad guys like a knight in shining armor, to only shove you in an empty room and demand compensation for playing hero.

Fuck, with that big mouth, you would think that you'd know how to suck cock.

Use your tongue stupid slut. If you use teeth, I'll shove this dick in your ass without any prep.

No, I don't care, you're taking all of it.

There's a video on his camera roll. How could he not record it? You're sobbing, mascara running down your cheeks, looking so beautiful and ruined with jizz smeared at the corner of your mouth. He was brutally fucking your mouth, making you take all of his length.

Breathe through your nose dumb whore. Or else you're gonna run out of air.

You were pleading with whatever garbled sounds you were constricted into producing.

Breathe through your fucking nose. This is for your sake. Otherwise, I don't mind face fucking your lifeless body. You'd be more useful that way anyways.

Eren is conflicted with muting the video because he can't stand to hear himself like that. But he didn't want to miss out on your pitiful whines.

He remembers the distraught expression on your face when he was finally done with you. He tucked himself inside, and sneered, "I've got a girl coming here. Get lost." You looked so fucking distraught. Why? All he did was make you suck his dick. He didn't even fuck you.

He should have. Eren thinks grimly when he stares at your empty desk on the first day you didn't show up to school. He's gotten off to the video more than enough times than he can count over the weekend, and he was aching to see your pretty face twisted into a terrorized expression when he flipped up your skirt to grope your ass.

Kindly, Eren decides he'd allow you to have a rest day. But the second day, Eren pays a visit to your house finding it dark and locked, like no one was home and hadn't been there for a while.

On the third day, you're declared missing.

Your incompetent workaholic mother who finally came home and decided to give a damn reported you missing to the authorities who had scratched their heads because as far as they knew, the pivotal 72 hours were up.

Paradis was surrounded by forests. No one wanted to say it, but they were all thinking it. If you got lost in there, chances are you wouldn't make it out.

Eren wasn't always this admired and fawned over. He had his fair share of behavioral issues that frightened people (not you though, not then at least, not when you were children, and you still came back every day to play).

But when he channeled that anger into sports, there was somewhat of a star in the making, especially for some small-town boy. He was becoming extremely popular, and that's nice and all, but at the end of the day, he has a mother whose health was taking a sharp decline. He was constantly under stress, stress that he took out on you.

Where did his favorite stress-ball go?

It's all fucking surreal. Having detectives in the school. Not that there were many students to question (because christ, did you even have any friends after Eren turned everyone against you?).

Eren was questioned. He can't help but mirthfully chuckle. Maybe this was your grand plan, maybe you were able to finally sort out a mountain of evidence against him. If you were going to fuck him over, didn't you want to see it happen with your own two eyes?

The dark-haired boy wishes that was true. If you had gotten your revenge, would you be here? No, revenge isn't the right word. If you got any justice for what he made you suffer, would you come back?

Hi, I'm Detective Hange. I would like to ask you some questions today. You're Eren Yeager, right?

Yes, that's me.

How do you know ___?

We were childhood friends. We're uh, we're not as close anymore.

When was the last time you saw her?

Friday night at Floch's party-

-Floch Forster right? There were a number of kids there from your school.

Yeah. It was a big party. She uh, doesn't usually come to parties but she was there that night.

You were the last person to be seen with her. Other kids have said that they saw you and her entering a room together, and then only her leaving the said room.

[Sigh] Yeah we sorta...hooked up.

I thought you said you guys weren't close anymore.

You can be not close to someone and still hook up with them.

But you guys were close once right?

Yeah. Once.

The dark-haired boy asks if he was under any suspicion. The detective waves their hand in a dismissive gesture, “If her diary tells us anything, it’s only that she really liked you.”

Were detectives even allowed to divulge that sort of information? Eren doesn’t know but the stray detail that they offered off-handedly made him feel like he was swallowing needles.

At that point, Eren honestly still doesn't believe you're gone. You had a habit of running away, even when you were little kids, but you always came back.

Still, he participates in the search parties with a renewed vigor, even going alone in the forest with a flashlight on most nights.

And he's just so fucking tired. The darkest crevice of his mind almost wishes you were dead because this ignorance was just agony. Almost. Because he still clings to the feeling that one day, he’ll stroll into class and find you in your seat in the back of the class, looking out the window like some cliche shojo manga protagonist.

There are folders and folders on his phone. Albums. The most recent one is dedicated to your crying face as you were choking on his dick. Earlier albums are composed of creepshots of your panties, of that obscene o-face, of your skirt flipped up and your ass cheeks, pictures of your cleavage, videos of you thrashing as he dunked your head into toilets like a villainous middle school bully.

Pictures of your neck covered in hickeys, your naked breasts, ass cheeks striped with red after getting spanked, your leaking cunt, just endless and endless media dedicated to pieces and pieces of your body like you were never a whole person.

The earliest ones though tell a different tale, from off-guards to your drooling face as you napped in the middle of the day.

He has a favorite picture. Your eyes are watery from the cold, snowflakes stuck between lashes, nose and cheeks flushed red, and you're smiling. Smiling right to the camera. Right at him.

"Eren, are you taking a picture?" You asked, bouncing in place, giddy that it was finally snowing.

"Not of you, shut up. Get out of the way." His voice is gruff but not harsh.

You laughed and jumped into frame anyway, and the bright streetlamp behind you made you seem like you were wearing a halo.

He wishes he had more pictures of you being...yourself. Because now your crying face displayed over countless pixels haunt him. But like a fucking degenerate, he still jerks off to all the nudes he coerced from you. Sometimes he cries when he's jerking off which is probably the most pathetic thing he's ever done. This is what you've reduced him to.

He hates the sound of his own voice.

Breathe through your fucking nose. This is for your sake. Otherwise, I don't mind face fucking your lifeless body. You'd be more useful that way anyways.

Eren goes through the motions of life without really feeling like he's in the moment. Seasons change and time flies. His mother dies, and his withdrawn father dies a year later. He proposes to Mikasa because it's something he was always supposed to do. She loves him unconditionally, so even when he doesn't put any effort into the relationship but proposes, she says yes hoping he'll change and be a good husband.

He doesn't go to his parents' funerals because they're already dead. What's the point. He doesn't visit the candlelight vigils in your honor either. After tearing his ACL again and a somewhat traumatic injury, he kisses his pro-football career goodbye. To be totally honest, he's relieved. Because he had gotten quite bored, and maybe he was looking for excuses to quit the entire time. It's not like you'd be cheering on the bleachers anyways.

Mikasa has an affair, more out of a desire to see her fiancé feel something for her as opposed to any burning lust. But when she asks him if he's ever cared at all, with tears springing out of her eyes, he's just calmly drinking his fifth of whisky.

The dark-haired man doesn't even look up, "Let's break up."

"Is this about her, huh? Fucking get over it already Eren. She's GONE. And you have some big fucking audacity moping about her death like you weren't making her cry in the bathroom stalls every fucking day you piece of shit."

"Get out."

"You know what, I bet she killed herse-"

SMASH

The dark-haired woman doesn't finish her rant because the whiskey bottle smashes on the wall next to her head, sending glass everywhere and staining the carpet amber. She's unharmed, knowing it wasn't Eren's intention to hit her but Jesus Christ, what a monster.

She packs her bags and leaves the town like she should have a long time ago. All her friends had left years before and she stayed behind because that's where Eren was. She thanks her lucky stars that they didn't marry.

It's funny because he had always imagined himself being the first to move out of their small town, but he's the one staying. He can't leave this place. feels too tethered to ever leave. Every diner and liquor store is saturated with memories of you. He remembers buying cigarettes and exhaling the smoke to your face to piss you off in empty parking lots.

Maybe he stays in case you'll come back.

Eren's days consist of alcohol-fueled hazes. He doesn't know how his liver is still functioning. He doesn't know he's still alive after crashing his car into a tree when he was drunk out of his mind. He was on his way to get some more vodka.

He barely recognizes himself in the mirror anymore, not that he looks at himself much. His hair is long, nestled around his shoulder because he couldn't be bothered to cut it, dark circles under viridian eyes, and a perpetual stubble on his jaw.

His parents had left quite a sizable inheritance so there's no need to work but he's good with his hands. Likes crafting up birdhouses and cabinets, and occasionally does odd jobs around the neighborhood, never charging the elderly.

He's under the sink, tinkering with a wrench against the pipes when he hears the old lady coo at him.

"We're so lucky to have you Eren. I'm surprised a handsome young man like yourself doesn't have a special lady. The girls must be lining up at your door!"

The dark-haired man winces, and offers no comment, knowing that that the older lady was susceptible to long tangents.

"You know, we're getting a new neighbor." Eren grunts as a response. "They're young, I've heard. Isn't that exciting? Oh my, Eren! I think they're gonna be living in the house right next to yours..."

He tunes out the rest of the conversation because doesn't really care. He just hopes his new neighbors are quiet.

It's Sunday noon when obnoxious noises of moving trucks and people wake him up from his deep slumber. Eren's annoyed to wake up despite the fact he's probably been sleeping over 15 hours. He oscillates between getting too much sleep and getting none, his sleeping habits completely dependent on his dreams.

His nightmares are too visceral, visions of your corpse asking him if he'd enjoyed hollowing your soul with his teeth.

His dreams are achingly sweet. You in your prom gown, shining so iridescently like diamonds were sewn into the silk. He's dancing with you, holding you close, and then after you guys go to your favorite diner and gorge on burgers and milkshakes.

There's a peal of distinctly feminine laughter that stirs up Eren's senses. He's so pathetic, was the mere sound of a woman laughing getting him excited?

He sighs. He thinks of the whore he's frequently visited because of her resemblance to you. Hair color, skin color, face shape--with enough alcohol, he could really convince the person beneath him, was you. Maybe it's time to give her a call, but she's gotten so fucking needy and he hated how her voice didn't match yours.

The green-eyed man peers from the lace curtains, irritated by the brats playing on his lawn. A full family next door? Great, just what he needs.

The friendly knock on his door breaks him out of his daze. He contemplates whether he should answer but on the second more muted knock, he lets his feet guide him.

He turns the knob.

And Eren Yeager completely shatters.

Because it's you isn't it? You're the person standing in front of him? He can hear what you're saying but he doesn't really register it, soaking in the cadence of a voice he had long forgotten because all he had were pleading whimpers and frenzied moans stored on his cell.

He's shaking. Is he dreaming? He's dreaming, right? He knows it's you. You're older, far more beautiful than he's ever seen you. You have a different hairstyle, wearing clothes he would have mocked you for, and there's this joyfulness within you that makes you glow.

There's a mess of emotions electrifying in the pits of his stomach from euphoria, anger, and dread. He could feel his skin growing clammy like he was about to vomit at any second.

"Hey, are you all right?"

Doe eyes full of concern peer up at him. He voices out the syllables of your name like a desperate prayer.

You tilt your head to the side, "How do you know my name?"