#and the hospital that employed me hasn't given me a contract to start working bc there aren't enough contracts for everyone

[simonghostrileys]

i wish i could just die in my sleep but i guess i'm not that lucky

[attic-mouse]

i'm supposed to start my new job on monday and i still haven't received my contract and i'm stressing bc i don't really know much about the job at all :// all i know is my hours each week and one of my responsibilities. i don't know if i'll be expected to do anything else (but it's likely i will). i was told the owner was looking into whether me being listed as self-employed or an employee would be better for her business, but she hasn't told me what she's decided. if she wants me listed as self-employed, i'll need to pay for an accountant, won't get holiday pay, won't be able to get a loan, won't be able to get a mortgage, as well as other issues. i've left my old job for this and now i'm panicking.

And people would probably wonder why i've left my job without any of this info first, but the owner runs her own business on her own. she's absolutely jam-packed, and that's the reason she needed help. she told me on the day she offered me the job that she was working on my contract, so i gave her a bit of leeway because she's doing everything solo and it's my dream job in an environment that seems like it'd suit my needs as an autistic person. and usually i'm desperate for info, like i need every little detail asap and get stressed if people don't respond within a day, but because i've been told by others that that's not how life works and there needs to be a bit of trust that people will get that info to you before following up, i've tried to be flexible. but now i know nothing about what i'm going into, i've given up my income, and i'm not getting any response from the owner because she was in hospital overnight. idk i'm just stressing outtt D: