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number 7: here is greenwood

GREENWOOD!!!!!!!!! WOOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! okay i'm cool. "here is greenwood" is a shoujo manga serialized in hana to yume from 1986 to 1991 written and drawn by nasu yukie. in 1991 until 1993 it got adapted into a 6 episode ova and this is kinda where it ends i feel. i wouldn't say it has had any kind of major impact in the medium, the genre or any major group of individuals, but god i do think it did stir something inside me.

i either tend to gravitate towards stuff that isn't particularly popular, because i'm trying to come off as cooler than i am or simply because it just happens naturally. couldn't tell you, but finding that one little thing you end up enjoying so much without anyone else seemingly caring about it is always fun regardless of your personality. turns out it's a lot easier to become the biggest fan of a thing no one has seen, you know. a bit like becoming the world record holder of a game no one has cared to speedrun, it's just funny.

picking out what consists of "my favorite shows of all time" isn't so easy once you've been watching media more seriously after a while, those starting years will definitely shape you up and become a major part of the main stuff you like. even if you fully know it's bad, you hold it close to yourself because it was there at the start, and it's always nice to think back on that. so, it often happens with me where i certainly enjoy something enough to think of it as "this could be a favorite, but does it deserve the spot?". not even sure right now if greenwood deserves it, but i don't know if it matters that much. i decided to make a list of "favorites that aren't favorites" because of greenwood and even if it doesn't stay there and goes up into the list, it sure means something.

ironically, i don't quite think this show came out as a surprise to me as i'd been hyping myself up before even getting into it. it did, though, take turns i wouldn't have seen coming and i'm glad for that. these days i honestly tend to watch anime based on the soundtrack and it's no different here. the soundtrack showed up in online platforms on september of last year, which is around where i found out about it since i already follow nagata shigeru (even if i haven't even seen ocean waves, he just makes good tracks). my first mention of it over discord was me getting mad at my bank while i was dealing with my phone insurance after i tried reading one piece and got my phone stolen 13 pages into the first chapter, but that's a story for another day. i just said "this is the soundtrack of me killing a man" with a link to shun's theme , which is honestly accurate for any man killing activities. in context however, there's a bit more to the story.

this is why, to anyone caring to read, i want to do the longest and probably only essay / analysis / backtrack / retrospective / whatever the hell for "here is greenwood" you will find online. i HAVE to be that guy. otherwise, what have i been obsessing over this thing for around a month? the show has 6 episodes while the manga has 11 volumes (although viz squished it into 9 which is better), so i'll be basing myself on the pacing of the anime in relation to the manga, back and forth between them so the chapters match up. the manga does, however, have more stuff to it throughout half of its runtime so it's gonna be a lot of that i suppose. although, and i'll get into it later, the anime seemingly ends up being the more enjoyable version of the two. otherwise, skip to the tldr in bold letters to avoid reading the long ramblings of a crazy man skimming through a show and manga you probably haven't seen and read.

we begin with the hero of our story. he doesn't really have anything that would actually make him a hero, he's just a teenage boy just starting his first year of highschool at ryokuto academy. his name is hasukawa kazuya and i don't blame people for making him the least popular of the 4 central characters on myanimelist, but he's still technically the main character. our dear boy kazuya is moving into the ryokuto dorms, because it turns out he's kinda the unluckiest guy you'll ever meet. his older brother just married the girl he had a crush on, and since they don't have any parents left, they're all living under the same roof, something he simply can't stand anymore. he took the entrance exam for this prestigious boys only school and managed to get in, but in the process he: almost got ran over by a car while he was visiting the school, barely managed to take the entrance exam since the trains were stopped by a blizzard, had his acceptance letter delayed in the mail, and got an ulcer the day of the entrance ceremony that forced him to stay hospitalized for a month. even if god is against him, he persevered, and finally got in.

kazuya is hot headed (almost literally since he's prone to getting nosebleeds), overly serious yet still a bit of a goofus. he's not particularly smart, but he proves himself with the sheer effort he can put into the things he wants to achieve. he often feels like he needs to be stronger and grow on his own, failing to rely on others, as he doesn't really like getting pampered either.

he is introduced to the dorm head, ikeda mitsuru, and the president of the student council, tezuka shinobu. the two most popular, best looking, and important members of the dorms, currently on their second year of highschool. these two are the ones that will introduce him to "greenwood", as they call the dorms, since the full name is kind of a mouthful.

inside room 210 rests his roommate, which he's quickly informed is, in fact, a girl. according to them, kisaragi shun was born a girl, it's just that her birth certificate and every record lists her gender as male. by this point, 8 minutes into the first episode i'm already clocking out. i understand we're talking about japan here and it's the 1980s (rest assured, this becomes more evident as it goes on), but i have the sneaking suspicion that gender identity can't be this series' forte. from my understanding, hibari-kun does tackle these topics in a proper manner and it was also a manga from the 80s, so perhaps it's not completely unheard of. besides, shoujo manga isn't known to be scared of tackling stuff the rest would never dare, but still. me, the audience, and the guy on screen, kazuya, are being informed that he absolutely must keep this fact a secret from the all the boys at the school. if he does not, there will be consequences. added to the fact this guy is seemingly pissed off at his brother for not being "manly enough" since he "works as a nurse" at this school (and also the fact he got married to the woman he liked, even if she's at least a decade older than him), we're not looking too hot. whatever, i'll give it the benefit of the doubt.

3 days go by for kazuya living with a girl in his room, often going outside to let her change, being uncomfortable at night and trying to ignore people's comments of his situation. he finds out, however, that it was nothing more than a farce. shun isn't a girl, he's just a cute guy with long hair. this dude got tricked into thinking otherwise only so everyone in the dorms could bet on how long it would take him to figure out. "damn! i lost... if only it took one more day..." you hear a guy in the background. greenwood, refers to "a nest for bandits and villains" which is all this place is. as much of a prestigious school as this may be, it doesn't speak for the people actually attending it.

there's the guy that sleeps with his motorcycle, the club used to devote their time to a made up religion, or the duo that rent out their room as an arcade. the main trio that will share their time with kazuya stand out as much as anyone else, if not more, so we should get into them.

shinobu (on the right) is the son of a prestigious family. he's calm and collected, devious and cunning. not a lot seems to change his expression, as he's swift and decisive yet his has his mischievous side as he often enjoys messing with people, and specially his roommate. mitsuru (left), is the handsome, aloof guy that simply loves giving kazuya as hard of a time as he can.

shun, aka the most popular character in the show, is a confident, assertive and strong willed young man. it just so happens he kinda looks like a girl. it is very often played for jokes, but not once does he mind it and finds enjoyment in it himself. he is, in fact, "a guy with a gender", as you could say. he leaves his hair long because he likes it, he dresses up however he feels like and often more feminine because he finds it fun, and he just knows who he is and what he wants to be, which is highly respectable. i was mentioning earlier about his theme and it's honestly pretty fitting for the guy, there's something magical and cheery about it that really sticks out, while having a tone of that seemingly feminine side.

these four are the rag tag greenwood team, getting into trouble, helping others and messing with each other. guys that maybe wouldn't usually be friends with each other, but it's always the time and place that will bring people together.

most of volume 1 isn't too dissimilar from episode 1, they change around the order of some scenes for it to make more sense and remove or add dialogue for it to flow better, but most of the main events stay intact. kazuya's main goal is to stay far from his home to avoid thinking about sumire, the woman he loves and his now sister in law. this is what he's in greenwood for. it's not as simple as "running away" from it and his feelings, but trying to come to terms with it, get distracted, and find himself. the main overarching theme of this series is moving past a love that was not meant to be. whether it's by moving away, making new friends or finding new love, the goal is the same. ironically, the people around him don't really allow him to move past so easily, since his brother is still around all the time, his friends kinda make fun of him for it (because it is funny) and sumire herself is so oblivious to it that it keeps stabbing him in the heart which, yeah, i get it.

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not sure if you, dear reader, has had the experience of being in a dorm with other people, or going through a moment of unrequited love, but it doesn't get any realer than this! for one, living with people close to you for a while is just a nice experience. always having people to rely on, to hang out with, to talk to, at any given moment. almost to the point you may start depending on it. as a matter of fact, the room i shared with other people for a bit was 211, the same one mitsuru and shinobu are in! for the other, trying to move past something like that isn't the easiest. in fact, it may just be the aftermath that's the hardest and that takes the longest, that is, finding the same feeling somewhere else. filling that spot with something new, or someone new. cannot really blame a guy for trying so hard to change his life around.

kazuya decides to stay in the dorms for summer vacation, as he insists he does not want to set foot home, and sumire decides to pay him a visit. not only her but his brother kazuhiro also plays fun with him at times simply because he likes to see his reaction. he's kind of a goat, but he does genuinely care for his brother. later he's informed he can't stay in the dorms for winter holidays, which is what forces him to go back home for once.

half of the first volume doesn't get adapted probably to improve the pacing, although the extra chapters also don't feel too substantial to the story overall. in one of them the lights go off at the dorms and a couple of girls get in, which they initially think are ghosts, only to turn out they're not. it's not that exciting of a chapter and the show does a better version of this a bit later on. besides, i believe that not showing as many female characters in the ovas works better for the series, as opposed to the manga which starts doing it more often from here.

after kazuya goes back home for the first time in a while, the boys meet up out in the city. here, they find a strange looking girl being tailed by men in suits. it only turns out this girl is "nitta mieko", an idol that simply wanted to get some free time for herself while her agency wouldn't let her. uh, she becomes a bit of a prominent character throughout the manga, while she doesn't really appear at all in the anime. to the actual plot itself, she doesn't do a whole lot, she just comes and goes from time to time. not much against her, it only feels like she's just there.

for another chapter, they're already on valentine's day, meaning they will get chocolate. shun mentions he's straight and he had a girlfriend already which the rest find strange, i suppose. both mitsuru and shinobu get all the girls from other schools to wait outside and throw chocolates at them, to which they run away from. kazuya has one girl that's a bit obsessed with him, yet he doesn't remember her name nor who she is. she mistakes shun for a girl, so she gives up on him quick, though. i'm a bit iffy with this chapter because even if it is supposed to be a well known fact that mitsuru is constantly getting girls to ask him out (and he's generally also unlucky with said girls) the anime doesn't actually show much of that, unlike the manga. i don't think this is bad though, it's more of a thing they just say but never really show as you're kind of invited to fill in the blanks for yourself. since it is only 6 episodes they obviously skip around a lot of parts of the year, and i don't think it's quite necessary to see everything they do, as getting a glimpse around their life is all you need to understand how they're doing and what a random day in greenwood can be like. the manga almost incessantly needs to show both mitsuru and shinobu as the popular guys and since we're talking about an all boys school, even if they are popular, it doesn't feel like it's something that should happen so often and at such a big scale, in my opinion.

kazuya also simply not knowing who the girl that has a crush on him seems off and a bit too early. i suppose his mind is still focused on sumire, sure. so, he's probably not ready to move on that quick? even then, the situation kind of presents itself in front of him and he simply fumbles it for no major reason, he simply does not know the girl from his previous school.

the final chapter sets up the next volume, where mitsuru gets abducted by none other than shinobu's big sister. the anime does a funny thing here on episode 2 where they kinda tell you "go read the chapter for context" but it doesn't really matter. the episode centers around shinobu's sister, nagisa, kidnapping shun's little brother, reina, who obviously looks like a little girl because feminine looking boys is a staple of the kisaragi household. this is, in turn, a direct sequel to the manga chapter.

nagisa hates her brother because he's kinda just better than her really. she's stuck up, pretentious, demanding and selfish. since they were little she always wanted to be seen as the superior one, and because shinobu doesn't give a damn about anything, he never really cared about whatever she tried doing to him. part of their father's favoritism towards shinobu must certainly come from the fact she's a woman, i will not deny that, and she has the right to be mad. she's still an awful person though and only wants her to be the one to inherit the family business. so, to "take revenge" on him, she decides to kidnap his friend. genius!

part of the volume is dedicated to them finding out it's her and then going to save him. in the process mitsuru tries to escape and makes fun of her. he ends up with only his underwear on to, uh, make it worse for him? i guess? in the process of escaping mitsuru gets his face cut which was supposed to be something they planned on doing to ruin how pretty he was or something, but apparently mitsuru has superpowers so the skin on his face simply fixes itself instantly. now, greenwood isn't scared of the supernatural, weird things will happen. but having his face regenerate is a bit too much in my opinion. i think it would be a really solid joke for him to "suddenly be fine the next page" instead of it actually and legitimately being superhuman. would play on the meta and sell the ridiculousness of it even more. which seems even weirder considering nasu loves to play with meta jokes. she will often draw herself commenting on facts or details that don't really make sense so she can address them herself, or have the characters directly refer to her or the manga as a whole. in this same chapter in fact, she mentions how it doesn't make sense that they're still in their first and second year of highschool if holidays are already over. i think some of these jokes are fine, but nasu loves doing it a little bit too much for my taste.

anyway, what the anime does instead, as i mentioned, is have shun's little brother be the victim. nagisa decided that she won't deal with boys anymore and only cares about girls now, so he picks up reina instead (unbeknownst to her that he's actually a boy). i think this take on it is better, since shinobu ends up knowing what the deal is way faster and manages to figure out a plan for the rest of the boys to follow. reina does, too, mess with her and her agents by asking for food and to take a shower, which gets weirder than it should! these guys kinda get really flustered about the supposed little girl they've kidnapped which is extremely weird (one of them even trying to peep while he's taking a shower!). nagisa is also really weird about it at the start but we know for a fact she's a terrible person so whatever. it tries to follow with the joke that people often mistake the kisaragi boys for girls, but it could've been something else, you know. specially when it's grown ass adults we're talking about, but whatever, it's still a fun episode. all of this ends with shinobu giving his sister a final warning, effectively pointing a gun at her and saying he was gonna take care of her this time for sure. only to turn out it's a toy gun. a little detail that stands out at the end of this episode, in a strange way, is mitsuru making fun of kazuya for developing a crush on igarashi miya, a girl from an all girls highschool that will become relevant later. it's a bit funny because by this point they have never shown the two of them interacting, and the first time that he will see her is later on in the anime. however i think it's mostly working as a little nod of foreshadowing, as the events in the ovas don't really seem to be in chronological order.

what is honestly surprising is the chapter that follows this, still on volume 2. a side story about two guys from the dorms in room 117 ending up as a couple and finding out they're gay. i'd honestly recommend just reading this chapter, as it's surprisingly good and i'm almost left wishing they had adapted it. they sure do the "but it can't be, he's a guy!" / "there's no way i'm a homosexual!" and sure, one of the two guys also does look like a girl, but it's cute and well handled in my opinion. throughout both the show and manga kazuya stays as the guy that like, simply doesn't know gay people exist, i think. he's not inherently homophobic, i'd say. he's always genuinely shocked as if he doesn't know what just happened, almost to the point it's funny. it simply does not process in his mind and he resets.

next chapter is about girls from another school taking pictures of mitsuru with his shirt off because it's too hot? and shinobu has diarrhea. the one after that, the boys go to the pool. everyone there thinks shun is a girl (as usual) so they ask him to go into the women's dressing room, and the lifeguard gets disappointed to find out he's a guy, but their outfits are sick so it's fine.

we continue to see kazuya being the one taking care of dorm head duty since mitsuru is away for the week. reina rolls up to the dorm and he's actually way more of an annoying brat than in the anime. kazuya lowkey bullies the kid and thinks shun should be rougher with him, or something. he still kinda has that thing of being disappointed that his brother isn't tough for whatever reason.

volume 3 starts school sports festival, not a thing we see in the anime. shun is dressed up as a cheerleader, kazuya is the fastest runner alive, shinobu set up bets for each team. typical stuff. later we see a girl show up at the school because her girlfriend was going there to see someone else. every single one of the boys absolutely loses their mind at the sight of a "real lesbian" who they thought was nothing more than a myth, and then it just turns out the her girlfriend saw mitsuru dressed up as a woman as part of the festival event (which they never even showed) and she was interested. rest of the volume is mieko showing up again asking for a favor because someone is trying to assassinate her, the boys celebrating new year's, a kid trying to figure out if shinobu is evil to get into the journalism club, and the motorcycle guy getting a real girlfriend.

a thing the manga definitely does better over the anime is showing the rest of the people in the dorms. although i barely even up remembering their names, they sure are there and have their own things going on. they do become more prevalent and they're part of greenwood as a whole. i just don't particularly feel like they stand out as characters themselves? some of their stories are fine and all but they serve as a bunch of background dudes that chip in at stuff most of the time. while it is cool to see the dorms more lived in, they're also not so important that it makes them feel like they actually matter, if it make sense.

as the manga goes on it starts feeling like a bit of a bottleneck. by no means is it not entertaining, it's simply that it jumps around between stuff that doesn't feel like it amounts to a lot. probably the reason why as i continue explaining things here i go over these chapters with stuff to say about them. next is volume 4 though! so almost halfway through!

this volume shows us the woman that shinobu's older brother (because it seems he has one) was supposed to marry. i believe, she doesn't really amount to much in the story, so i won't even go into detail about her. they go into a flashback with how shinobu and mitsuru met in their first year and fought, to then end up respecting each other. it's cool.

the rest of the volume is half a dragon quest parody and the other half a ghost story. both of these do, in fact, appear in the anime. however, they do so in a different way. in the manga, the fantasy manga parody is really just that, a sort of spin off that goes for a couple chapters. in the ova, the boys at the dorms plan on filming a movie to show at the festival, which is honestly such a cooler idea. they show them going around planning and filming stuff. shinobu and mitsuru even have to go pose for the self insert manga author that uses them as reference for her next manga so they can get the outfits they need. it's a whole process of them showing how they're doing this indie movie at their own school while cutting into the actual scenes of the supposed movie, real neat stuff.

in the other chapters, they go to a hotel shun's family just acquired and stay for the night. it just so turns out it's haunted and a bunch of girls try to get the boys to become ghosts as well so they can be together. mitsuru, however, manages to exorcise them since his family runs a shrine and he simply knows how to do that (?). ironically, he's the one that needs to get an exorcism in the ova.

this episode is one of my favorites by far. the lights go dark in greenwood, just like they did in volume 1 long ago. this time, mitsuru gets haunted by a girl he doesn't know. what's funny about this is that she is just a normal, cute girl and nothing else. she hangs around, talks to them, plays games, etc. fully visible to everyone, you simply can't touch her. mitsuru gets into trouble for bringing a girl into the dorms since he's clearly not allowed to, but it's not like he can do anything about it. he gets really stressed out and consistently asks her to leave him alone (which, wow. rude). i'm almost definitely biased here but this girl is actually voiced by the same woman that does my favorite character in the trails series, so, yeah. she's just really cute and fun and doesn't really hinder his daily activities in the slightest so seeing him get really pissed off about it is entertaining. the way the episode starts is also my current favorite thing ever:

this episode perfectly encapsulates the charm that has me tied to greenwood. the music, the characters, the wacky situations that get oddly real for short spans. by the end of the episode, she reveals that there isn't any major reason for her to be haunting mitsuru besides the fact that he's good looking. she simply hadn't ever kissed anyone before dying, and she wanted to do that. he strictly refuses because he's a little baby bitch and she leaves. instead, a day later, she tricks him by picking up the cat and having him kiss it. except that she's actually not done with him because she still likes him, so she brings a bunch of other ghost girls to mess with them. really funny. again, ironic, how he's the one getting haunted this time and he can't do anything about it.

the two final episodes of the anime are the most relevant arc of the series, which won't happen until much later in the manga. so we keep moving.

volume 5 takes place around the school festival, the one they made a movie for in the ova. kazuya gets tricked into a game of ping pong to see who would get the main role for the play they're doing, while shun does also take part of a different play. basically, we get 3 of the 4 main guys to dress up as women. shun's play is lupin's castle of cagliostro, which did also happen in the anime as an extra special segment at the end of that episode and it's really neat.

the rest of the volume has a new guy show up claiming that kazuhiro isn't worthy enough to be married to sumire. this guy is just her cousin, which is also in love with her, so let's leave it there. at the end they show a flashback into how the two of them met back in college, to then get introduced into the hasukawa household. this flashback is neat overall, it gives further information on how they've been doing as a family of two brothers, and a bit of insight into both kazuhiro and sumire's relationship.

sumire has been with them since kazuya was around 14, while she was in her early 20s, which i suppose isn't too terrible for him to fall in love? it obviously wouldn't work out regardless of the circumstance, but this isn't something they actually ever try to push for or imply it could've happened. not a lot more than teenage love, you know. what is actually fun is getting the news that sumire is pregnant with a boy. it doesn't really shape the story at all, but in the large scheme of things it does try to show the shift between their relationship and kazuya's feelings, which is great to see.

volume 6 has one chapter of shinobu meeting an alien that tells him he has a specimen that looks exactly like him who recently escaped containment. shinobu shoots him and doesn't flinch at the idea of killing someone that looks exactly like him, maybe because he's more of a robot than whatever this alien made could be, but we're still stretching the logic of this manga the more we go.

following chapter is the boys playing baseball against a friend of mitsuru's, fun chapter. the dorms move on to the next year, and they do actually start their second and third year of highschool. kazuya is the one becoming the dorm head this time, either because mitsuru likes to mess with him and / or because he does genuinely respect the guy. kazuya isn't too sure himself, though. some new students show up like the kid from singapore who they keep trying to explain things to as if he's some sort of otherworldly being, and he also shows signs of being completely clueless on how stuff works like not even knowing what a school trip is. i asked someone i know if this is true and they said that people in singapore do know what a school trip is (as i assumed), but sure. the school trip does happen, where they meet mieko once again and she asks mitsuru to do some modelling for a tv ad. this becomes a whole thing with mitsuru not being sure whether or not he wants to do it because like, his brother will think that he's only doing it to attract the attention of his "real parents" because actually he feels that he's not really part of his family since he's adopted? it's weird, the adoptive part will come into place later (although it's not that big either).

in volume 7 kazuya's nephew is born and they need to take care of him because sumire was gonna give them a couple of tickets for the ice ring. in the ice ring, two girls try to trick shinobu and mitsuru into becoming their partners because they need a couple to do competitive ice skating, or something. the conclusion is shinobu saying "why doesn't one of you get a sex change?" and they think it's genius and leave it at that. hooray for surgery. there's another three side stories with an edo era spin off, the boys going into the kisaragi onsen, and the duo in the arcade room getting cursed by an evil videogame you have to beat in one go.

it doesn't end with, but midway through we got the start of the main final arc, the one with igarashi miya. miya is a girl mitsuru used to know back on his previous school, she seems to be a bit of a delinquent that got into trouble with some girls over turf conflicts. she needs a place to stay for the night and tries to get help at greenwood. kazuya insists in helping her and offering his room even if it's strictly forbidden, because he sees something in her eyes. there's a certain sadness and uncertainty he's not sure about, so he wants to know more.

she explains to kazuya about her situation, and it turns out, she's not as tough as she seems. she doesn't like that people see her as a delinquent, she's not strong, she's a bit of a scaredy cat and is always trying to keep herself from crying. in the process of helping her and getting the girls from the other school to stop annoying her, kazuya realizes that, whoops! he kind of likes her! unfortunate for him, she already has a boyfriend. she does really insist that he's a good guy since he's always been there for him. on the other hand, kazuya wonders why was it because of him that she turned into a delinquent, or why doesn't she ever feel loved by him. she feels that he doesn't like her for who she is but rather he believes he likes her because they've always been together. not a lot he can do about it though, as he doesn't really have an excuse to see her again.

the anime doesn't change much here, the episode starts with kazuya already dwelling about her as they usually do with these episodes, starting with the aftermath of the events and recapping on what happened to them. i do like this, i'll say.

volume 8 is the last one before overlapping with the final episode, so it's mostly filled with extra chapters. there's one about a boy not going to class because he hates one of the teachers, another one with mitsuru getting tailed by a girl (again) who loves the made up version of mitsuru she imagined while seeing his commercial, devilwood again with the dragon quest fantasy manga parody, and the sports festival once more. the thing i like about the sequel to the sports festival is how kazuya gets into the track team to distract himself from thinking about miya, which seems to work for a bit. not essential, but realistic.

another one of the chapters is him falling off a ladder and landing in an alternate dimension where everyone is female, which is actually kinda fun, if not a little bit short. they call it "cherrywood" instead of greenwood, and there's actually a version of this they had the voice actors record as part of the drama cds. there are a couple of these mainly for the special chapters like the sports festival and stuff, they're neat. once kazuya comes back to his world the boys in the dorm keep dropping themselves off the ladder to see if they can go there as well so it's pretty funny.

i think the girl that was obsessed with mitsuru is somewhat a different version of the ghost girl from episode 4, although this one gets so mad at so many things he does that he legitimately cannot go around doing anything without having this girl break into tears, so it's funny i'll let it slide. i insist that having mitsuru be overwhelmed by girls all the time doesn't give the vibe of the "all boys dormitory life" that most of the series tries to push forward, but only some of them wouldn't hurt too much, i suppose.

we arrive to the final volume, as well as the last episode. had you been reading and watching these alongside, you would have a decent grasp of all the activities these people have gotten involved with. the thing is that, the 6 ova episodes released some time after the manga was already finished, meaning that it's not like anyone actually expected you to go back and forth between each other. it would be impractical to do so anyway without knowing what actually gets adapted and not. i've seen people mention that the way these episodes are formatted makes it so only a fan of the original manga would be able to enjoy it, with how much time is skipped between each one. i can't really agree with this point, as it is very much structured in the normal episodic anime way, only with some details here and there that probably don't end up being super clear since they weren't addressed but don't actually hinder the overarching narrative or actual character interactions. after all, these dynamics work well enough on their own to be used in whatever situation they get in. it's not that the manga does not do this, but it often feels like they're there to fill time rather than to simply entertain. more often than not, the chapters feel disorganized, same-y and as if they don't have any major purpose to be there than simply "what if x thing happened". it happens, and it's over. probably not inherently a bad thing, i guess it's a matter of presentation after all. ironically, the manga may just feel like more targeted towards fans than the adaptation, as it really takes a long while for these relationships to grow and develop. if i get too many details, it'll get stale and won't feel like i'm really learning much until something major happens. if i just get the core elements, i can build the gaps myself. less can definitely be more. dudes will be dudes, after all.

in that regard, the episode starts with kazuya helping out at mitsuru's house. the place used to be a bigger temple, but over time the land was reduced and the place isn't what it used to be. not a big deal for them though, as they still maintain the place. it's a nice family of 4. mother, father and siblings. sho, mitsuru's younger brother is only a few weeks younger than him, as by the time they found mitsuru outside their house, it had already been a little bit since he was born.

adoption is usually treated as a careful subject matter, but i don't really think it should be. throughout the manga, mitsuru has his moments of doubting himself, his past, where he comes from and his family. he cares about them and they care about him, specially his brother, but there's always a weird air to it. since he is the older son, he would be the one to take over the shrine, which he's not really sure if he wants to do himself. his mother makes sure to tell him that he doesn't need to worry about it, he should just do whatever he wants to do. his brother misses him, but he needs to focus on himself too. sho seems to be angry at him because mitsuru mentions how he is trying to go live on his own as soon as he can. this is where we get a little bit iffy.

from what i am able to gather, mitsuru feels indebted to his family. they aren't blood related, so sure, he loves them but he knows that they had no right to take him in and they did anyway. it's not that they actually show any sign of it being a pain on them or anything, he is just a son to them. i suppose he feels bad for taking his brother's spot for the shrine, but he doesn't even need to take the place if he doesn't want to. so, in the end, "wanting to leave home as soon as possible" is kinda just a normal thing i believe. i mean sure, deep down it's probably because he doesn't want to be more of a burden, and even if he's not he still wants to make their life easier. this is fine. he makes it such a bigger deal than it should ever be, though. his brother gets pissed at him and his response is "i'm not trying to be an outsider, i am an outsider" my guy what are you saying. kazuya goes as far as to ask him if he ever thinks of his blood related parents and he says no, so what is even his deal? mitsuru wonders to himself if you can still be family even if you aren't blood related, kazuya says that it's love that matters. unfortunately this is literally where this ends and it will never be brought up again or be concluded, because miya appears in front of them. it's unfortunate that it doesn't really get any closure, i feel exploring the meaning of family, specially with kazuya's situation being a thing, could be a really cool addition to the series. nevertheless, it doesn't happen. mitsuru just says that, he feels like he has to leave home as soon as he can, his brother doesn't like this mentality, and that is it. not even the manga chooses to explore this further, that's all there is.

they bump miya and his boyfriend tenma on their way back to the dorms, kazuya still sees that expression in her face, as if she's about to cry but she's holding back. now before getting ahead of ourselves this guy isn't abusing her or anything, he is kind of just a dude. not the best dude, but a dude nonetheless. miya has been wanting to say thanks to kazuya for a while, but she never gathered the courage to go visit him and say thanks. she would go nearby the school and then run away, never sure herself of why she was doing that. this time with the opportunity right in front of her, the only thing she manages to say is "i'm sorry". inevitably, this almost kills kazuya and gets him sick for a couple of days.

"sorry" doesn't really cut it. sorry for what? she didn't do anything. kazuya decides to give her a call after his brother convinced him to. his counseling is essentially: "you shouldn't care about the other guy, focus on yourself", which is fair enough i suppose, but i think a situation like this is very much gonna depend on who you're talking about. kazuya doesn't want to ask a girl with a boyfriend out, no one wants to be the guy that steals someone else's girlfriend really. but you know, there's something going on here too, as she doesn't seem particularly happy with him either. i think this brother bonding is a good moment for the two of them, although not the most particularly touching. kazuhiro is a fun guy, he is confident and he would do anything he needs to get the girl he loves (he did, after all, get the girl his own brother loved). it does come off as a little weird piece of advice from his part, but it works in context so that's all he needs to call her. she does, however, say sorry again and hang up instantly.

"i heard hasukawa got rejected by that delinquent girl", no! he hasn't even said anything to her! so the guy decides to wait outside her school to see her. he stays for a week until he finds out she was hospitalized, they find where she's staying and she's already gone. he sends her a letter but tenma grabs it before she can read it. luck is never on his side. persistence, however, never fails. a little bit of a bizarre thing here, tenma explains how "you need a special permission from their parents to date the girls from this school" which i don't - know, if it's a real thing or not in some japanese schools and honestly i don't even feel like looking it up right now. they both leave and run away from kazuya, leaving him alone.

then, on their way home:

vimeo

which is an excellent moment, although my favorite part of this is how loud the trains are it's so funny to me i can't even begin to explain. tenma is a bit of a self centered prick, he mostly shows off his nice side but he's the guy that wants things to go his way all the time, you know. he didn't particularly do anything wrong, he's just a bit of a toxic influence on miya. he's the reason she became a delinquent so maybe he would care about her more (or get scared and dump her), he's the reason why she doesn't feel loved or particularly pretty, he's the reason why she's so sheltered. having a guy like him that won't let you do the things you want, always holding your hand and trying to keep you "safe" isn't part of a healthy relationship. kazuya is the one that incites her into being herself, opening up, finding her strength and dealing with her weakness. "i'm with you", is what he replies to her once she tells him how he feels. it's about finding that person that will be there for you, the one that will always be around and, most of all, love you unconditionally.

the rest of the manga has a little bit of the aftermath and how the people at greenwood are doing. it, once more, doesn't stand out from the crowd. they're not bad chapters, they're fun. the story is already over, though. the final chapter is actually nasu drawing a bunch of reader requests she never got to do and kazuya inviting some of his friends over to show them around greenwood and work on a project (friends we have never ever seen nor have been mentioned before now, but whatever). here is greenwood in all its glory.

if you didn't care to read all of that, great. this is the tldr; greenwood is about finding that next opportunity. mainly in love, but in most things in life. the anime adaptation takes things in some fresher directions, streamlining the experience and focusing on what is important. in the span of 6 episodes we get to know these guys, what their deal is and how their relationship works and shapes who they are. some more than others, but meeting new people you care about and will be there for you when you need it (for better or for worse) is what makes us human, and what inevitably helps us grow as people. grow out of pains, grow into understanding others and what makes us who we are.

there's something special about the serenity behind it all that i can't quite put into words, hence why i didn't go into much detail. the backgrounds are often soft and share a clean palette with a watercolor texture to it that makes it feel like a never ending dream. compared to the manga in this case, nasu's art is nice and specially with the covers and colored pieces, but it does take a while for characters to particularly pop or look like themselves as they often suffer from the same face syndrome shoujo manga can be known for. color goes a long way into helping battle this. the manga does also often rely on jokes that maybe aren't as funny in the current age, so there's that too.

the music helps sell the impact of it all, with the magical orchestra that follows around the almost play like scenarios that overcome greenwood on a daily basis. as the subtitle reads "under the tree of memories", like looking back on the moments that mattered the most and shaped the future. the theme of greenwood echoing behind this feeling. some of the other songs they made for the show sell the fun of it all as well i'd strike a comparison with ocean waves considering it's the same director and the same guy doing the music, but i haven't actually seen that so there isn't anything i can mention.

in retrospect, 6 episodes isn't really a whole lot. there's 3 of them that center around some plot and then the other 3 are extra content that focus on whatever the hell they felt like. it's obviously not something for everyone, i'm not gonna come out and say this is a must watch or anything like that, only how i feel about things. stuff doesn't need to be deep, it can just be for self fulfillment. it's often the mindless things that get the most enjoyment out of me, being there to have a good time before anything else. exactly what they do here at any moment, picking out a day at random and making the most out of it. a day where any one of these bandits will get into trouble and they'll come out of it with a smile.

i could wish it was a bit longer. maybe add some of the chapters with the other boys at the dorms, add the part with kazuya's nephew and then him entering the track team and idk, maybe the one with mitsuru and his commercial to actually give an ending to his whole adoptive family thing. alas, this is what we get, and i will not complain.

had it been at a different point in my life i watched this, i probably wouldn't care as much. it speaks to a part of me i hadn't learned about years ago, and would probably only look back on fondly into the future. those things that happen and make you rethink stuff for a good while and, in turn, open your horizons. so, feeling identified with media and connecting with stuff is a bit of what we do this for, i think.

#here is greenwood #koko wa greenwood #anime #review #media analysis #anime and manga #90s anime

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tarobii · 1 year

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I'm like only a bit sure nobody has sent this to you yet if someone has feel free to ignore this but here you go

1. who's your favorite oc?

2. who was your first oc?

3. how many ocs do you have?

4. have you kept all of your

ocs since the beginning?

5. are any of your ocs based

off of a show/book you like?

if so, who?

6. what is the species of the

majority of your ocs?

7. are any of your ocs an

original species? if so,

what's the species and who?

8. if you can, draw (oc name)!

9. write a few sentences as

(oc name)!

10. are any of your ocs part

of a story? if so, what is it

about and who's in it?

11. do you have any twin ocs?

12. are any of your ocs

siblings?

13. what is the gender of the

majority of your ocs?

14. make up a new oc right now

based on (concept/show/color/

etc.)!

15. would you ever give up any

of your ocs?

16. who is your oldest oc

(age-wise)?

17. have you ever roleplayed

as your ocs?

18. how many of your ocs were

adopted from someone else?

19. who is your least favorite

oc?

20. which oc do you think has

changed the most since you

made them?

21. who is your newest oc?

22. have you ever cosplayed

your own ocs? if so, who?

23. which oc do you think has

affected you the most as youve

grown with them?

24. have you gotten cosplayers

of your ocs? if so, of whom?

25. do you have any ocs that

you havent drawn/written as/

talked about in a long time?

if so, who?

OH MY STARS THANK YOU WAHAHAHA

OMG OK

ok. ok.o k

it's brainrot time :)

I've answered like 3 of these already so I'll just be copy-pasting the answers for those ones ^^

answers under the cut bc this is gonna be looooong hehe ☆*: .｡. o(≧▽≦)o .｡.:*☆

1. who’s your favorite oc?

Haruto: "Well obviously it's me. They haven't stopped thinking about me for like a month now~"

Raiden: "No, it's clearly me. Despite all the changes, I'm their longest lasting OC in terms of interest."

Haru and Den: *arguing* Olivier: "...?"

Olivier: "...What are they doing??"

Olivier's my favorite :)

2. who was your first oc?

uhhhh I think it was either Moonlight or Jasmine(??? I think that was her name)

3. how many ocs do you have?

182 and counting!

edit: more if you count the Undersociation cast, as well as the aus (yes, I've made aus of my ocs lol)

4. have you kept all of your ocs since the beginning?

[copied fr prev ask]

yep :)

every. single. one.

(I dont,,, use them anymore,,, but like they're still here lol)

addition from present me: there's actually a small group of ocs I had in elementary school that I had to let go bc I've pretty much completely forgotten about them, so I can't bring them back 😔

5. are any of your ocs based off of a show/book you like? if so, who?

[copied fr prev ask]

yep! Alice in Wonderland! I have ocs for the queen, the white rabbit, mad hatter, blue caterpillar, cheshire cat, and some in the same universe that aren't directly based on Alice in Wonderland characters.

I've only actually drawn two of them but here!

Haruto (Blue Caterpillar) and Chess (Cheshire Cat)

there's a bit more lore to it than them just. being the same characters from the story (bc,,, they're not,,,,,) (they're the descendants of the og cast) but yk lol

6. what is the species of the majority of your ocs?

Human, according to my spreadsheet. 57/182 are human. The rest are various other species lol.

7. are any of your ocs an original species? if so, what’s the species and who?

yes! a lot of them are original species just because,,, idk what species they are lmao,,,, for example: butterfly thing, fog thing, ghost??? monster????? thing??????

but do have a few original species ocs that I actually know what they are lol

these ones are the aureses ocudau! (these specific ones are named Tie and Zip!)

8. if you can, draw (oc name)!

random number generator go!

Florian!

he has my favorite name tbh ~Florian~ so fun

9. write a few sentences as (oc name)!

random number generator go! again!

Vesper! how thematic! Vesper is Florian's best friend, ehe

(I,,, am not a writer,,, oh no,,, here we go,,,,)

"Florian, are you kidding me?" "Ehehe, oops?" Vesper grabs Florian by the shoulders. "Florian. Florian. F L O R I A N. Did you seriously fall into a fountain chasing a cat???" "Haha. Perhaps..." Vesper gives Florian the Look™️. Florian flounders a little. "Listen..." "I'm listening." "In my defense... it was reaaaally cute." Vesper deadpans. "Seriously?"

10. are any of your ocs part of a story? if so, what is it about and who’s in it?

[copied from prev ask]

yesn't

they're all in one connected multiverse, and I like thinking of silly little scenarios, so technically they're all in a slice of life

with one exception!!

Undersocation!

which is a work in progress but the basic plot synopsis is that it starts as a slice of life and shenanigans with the association employees

but then the Catalyst happens and what's basically the apocalypse happens

our main characters are Sans (Spade) and Kyrian, and their main goal is to find their respective brothers, Papyrus (Clover) and Evelin

they don't know if Pap and Eve are okay or even alive, because they were out of town on a mission--but they were due to come back on the day the catalyst happened, so their status is unconfirmed

11. do you have any twin ocs?

yep! two pairs (that I remember lol) Moonlight and Midnight, and Yuuto and Yuki! (don't. question my naming conventions lmao. the first two are from when I was in elementary school and the second two have the Yu- "prefix" so to speak running through the whole family lol)

12. are any of your ocs siblings?

yes! many of them here are a few ^^ in a (slightly outdated) chart

these two (Keiran and Evelin) specifically have a new younger brother (Kyrian):

13. what is the gender of the majority of your ocs?

male, probably

14. make up a new oc right now based on (concept/show/color/etc.)!

her name is sabie :)

15. would you ever give up any of your ocs?

unless I specifically made them for that purpose (ex. adoptable, a gift) no <3

16. who is your oldest oc (age-wise)?

my oldest named oc is Haruto at a whopping 737 years old

but my actual oldest oc is his dad lol

17. have you ever roleplayed as your ocs?

yeah, kind of. I semi-roleplay as Olivier in a minecraft server I'm in

18. how many of your ocs were adopted from someone else?

none that I remember

19. who is your least favorite oc?

uhhhhhhhhhhhhh

I like all of them tho :(

20. which oc do you think has changed the most since you made them?

Raiden, hands down.

My guy got a complete design and backstory overhaul

before and after

(fuckin hell that lighting is trash lmao)

21. who is your newest oc? optional- doodle them to show!

sabie is lol

but besides her, them!

Siren!

they're Felix's older sibling (❁´◡`❁)

22. have you ever cosplayed your own ocs? if so, who?

yep! Nikolai (I only have videos of this cosplay lol, hence the blurry screenshot)

23. which oc do you think has affected you the most as youve grown with them?

[copied fr prev ask]

THIS FUCKING TWINK

his name is Raiden and he's my oldest oc that I still actually use and I am so very attached to him he's my bbg through and through

he's also the oc with one of the most batshit insane backstories lol (hint: all of those funeral pictures in the second one are *all* him)

24. have you gotten cosplayers of your ocs? if so, of whom?

nah, just me

25. do you have any ocs that you havent drawn/written as/talked about in a long time? if so, who?

[copied from prev ask]

yeah, almost everyone on my old deviantart

#tuxiasks #skele-things #ask game answers #thank you thank you thank you for sending the entire prompt list lmao #I am having the time of my life over here #this was so fun!!!#if anyone's curious about any of my ocs feel free to ask!!! I love talking about them <3333

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mathlann · 2 months

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2, 7, and 16 for Ligeia

Thank you! From this ask meme! I'm gonna say here I am currently doing a Demon run for Ligeia which may overtake her previous canon so I'll answer for that reality. These are going to be long so I'll throw them under the cut.

2. How do they feel about Areelu Vorlesh?

Ligeia's feelings about Areelu would take multiple therapists months to unravel completely. As another dynamic entirely changed by the introduction of Ulbrig into my save file, were it not for the fact of Ligeia's very particular mom issues, Areelu would be sitting in the bin next to Iomedae and Nocticula as "people who can go kick rocks" as far as Ligeia is concerned. Because so far as Ligeia's hard line on hating being manipulated, she has to respect Areelu's game when it comes to spiting the Gods. They aren't enemies when it comes to that goal, but Ligeia is frustrated by the fact that in her drive to get her child back, Areelu is essentially doing to Ligeia what she complains about the Gods doing to mortals. But then she is drawn to Areelu, and Areelu is impressed by her and also is the only Sarkorian who actually seems to accept Ligeia, eventually (or perhaps, the soul-thing of her child that she sees in Ligeia). I am planning to ascend this run but I haven't seen the demon-specific interactions yet so that may change things. But also Ligeia probably would have ascended without Areelu except for that last bit about being okay with dying if Ligeia lives. Absolute hammer to her insides because Ligeia already had one mother die so she could reach a greater purpose and all so. Look, Areelu is a tall, dark-haired semi-demonic Sarkorian lady in want of a daughter, and Ligeia is a tall, dark-haired Sarkorian lady in want of a mother. So, they can figure out whatever weird relationship this is in the God-Realm but right now, get in loser, we're ascending.

7. Is your KC religious? If yes, which deity do they follow? If not, what is their view on religion?

Answered here!

16. If applicable, who did they romance and why? If no one, why?

Ligeia romanced Daeran and Wenduag, although how things resolve with Wenduag is still up in the air. Wenduag and Ligeia clicked more immediately, because Wenduag's general attitude is one that's familiar to her but that kind of fawning praise wasn't something that's ever really been directed her way. But the longer things go on, the more Ligeia second-guesses things because while the physical aspect of the relationship is strong, she doesn't really see herself as the person Wenduag seems to want. Ligeia is someone who's much more out for herself and doesn't particularly care about being stronger than others or leading on the basis of strength. So she can't really trust Wenduag fully because what happens if someone comes around who Wenduag thinks is stronger than her? On my first (Trickster) run they broke up over Dyra, not because Wenduag murdered her, but because Wenduag lied about it and tried to talk around like she didn't. But we'll see what the breaking point is this run, or if there even is one.

Daeran took more dancing around, but he's the one she eventually stays with. Ligeia was initially a little skittish about being too close to him, not because of any curse-related things (who in Ustalav doesn't have family tragedy and hauntings?) but because of the mundane fact that she did not trust his abilities enough to not burn her up. But once she got over that, they became fast friends first and foremost. On the lighter level, being their respective families' "shitty irreverent hedonist" gave them a lot to bond over between reminiscing about operas and planning theoretical grand feasts. In heavier subjects, being members of the "dead mom/demon trauma" club also helped her understand him past the prickly exterior. Generally, Daeran is one of the few people she feels she can be herself around without feeling judged because neither of them particularly wanted to be here, and he's incredibly loyal to her even though given her background, by all reason he shouldn't be. They keep each other in good spirits, even though that also made it somewhat harder for her to take him seriously as a potential partner at first. His insubordinate flirtation towards her was something she took to be another part of the friendly dynamic they set up, and she very much put her own feelings in a box once they started turning romantic. There are so many individually opposing aspects to their identities that the idea of anything serious between them kind of felt like another joke they were both supposed to be in on. It wasn't until the Abyss that she really acknowledged the shift between them and could accept he probably wasn't going to pull any last-minute gotchas on her. And once she had that assurance, she wasn't going to let it go. Not Sorry Liotr.

#ligeia of karcau #undyingembers #asks

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creativepawsworld · 1 year

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Everything But You - Part 7

Pairing = Cillian Murphy x OC

Summary = It time for Brie to defend her All Ireland Championship. Aoife takes matters into her own hands when it comes to Cillian.

Warnings = Language, Grammar, 90s Cillian, Insults...

Word Count = 2747

Note = I cannot apologise enough for the lateness of this chapter! I have made it slightly longer than the past chapter to apologise. Hope you all enjoy and it helps with the Monday Blues I know I have.

I felt myself overcome with nerves as I stood with my back to the main dance floor. I was resting my back against one of the walls by the long corridor, reserved solely for the dancers.

I was currently listening to a mixed tape Billy had made me for my 18th birthday, filled with kick-ass, female, empowering women. Pat Benatar's – Love is a Battlefield -flooded through the soft headphones as I tried to control my nerves.

I was asked to return to the All-Ireland Irish Dancing Championships as the current Champion. But despite the amount I had practised throughout the weeks, I didn't feel up to the standard I should have been.

Muttering along to the words, I glanced down at the black, tightly wound pin curled wig with a long, drawn-out sigh.

Things had become a lot more difficult in my life since joining college. Everything I had known about others and myself had drastically changed in a space of a few months. I had found myself chasing after a guy I had no chance with.

On days like today, I found myself missing the communication I would receive from Andrew. He was a shitty boyfriend, but he was someone I could message and he would respond instantly - distracting me from my thoughts while I waited to compete.

Although thinking back, it would have been nice for him to show up to these competitions at least once.

Biting the sides of my lips I considered going out into the stands where I did have support. My father was here, but he was constantly taking phone calls – appearing and then disappearing to hear whoever was on the other end.

He had a huge court case defending a well-known businessman tomorrow but it was to be kept quiet. The hearing had already been brought forward to try and avoid the media circus that ensued as soon as the story of his arrest leaked.

Something about the world loved a good embezzlement case, especially against the rich.

Then there was my best friend Aoife, she managed to make the journey but not with my father and me. No, she travelled with her boyfriend Calvin, who as nice as he appeared to be – I didn't trust.

I didn't buy into his story that Andrew had been following the band to see me act. Andrew barely had time for me when we were together. There was no way he would travel up and down Ireland to watch a band I knew he didn't like just to see me. He didn't care that much, no matter how wounded his pride might be.

As for Billy, he developed the stomach flu from Marion. The pair were vomiting all week and the last thing I needed was for them to give it to me, so I warned them to stay as far as possible.

"Why are you hiding out here?" Aoife chuckled, rounding the corner. Her bright eyes stared into mine, a supportive smile on her face as I pushed the headphones around my neck. "You are going to sweat off your fake tan and makeup if you don't relax." She scolded, blotting my face gently with a clean tissue.

"Yeah well… I don't…" I struggled over my words before finally admitting my true feelings. "I don't think I am ready, I haven't been putting in the work I used to."

"Because you are studying for a law degree Brie, it's not easy keeping the two things going. You might have to look at choosing which is more important if this is how it's going to impact you."

"You don't think I can do both?"

"I'm sure you can but what about your other extra curriculum activities?" She trailed off, biting at her bottom lip. "Like a certain blue-eyed lead guitarist."

"Cillian and I are just friends." I rolled my eyes, turning away from her to check the time on my watch. I still had thirty minutes before I had to perform.

"I've seen the looks you give him, I'm not stupid."

After the night at the bar, our relationship had well and truly been fractured. I felt so stupid sleeping with him again. Yes we had both agreed it was 'just sex' but I had feelings, I was human and I felt something he didn't. At least not for me.

During the last few weeks in class, I moved seats to get my head together. I had to move to the other side of the classroom, just to get away for him. It was hard to do, seeing the hurt in his eyes when he noticed almost killed me. But he wasn't lonely for long, Emer was more than quick to jump in and take my spot.

Anytime he tried to talk to me, I had an excuse ready. I was due to meet someone in the library to go over our case study or Billy needed my help with his latest fashion project.

I simply felt like I couldn't be around him.

"It was a stress reliever"

It soon became obvious to my friends what was going on. Although they got the clip notes version from Billy, after our night in the bar they didn't buy for one second that I was okay.

They knew sex wasn't just sex for me.

"Right. A stress reliever that has you in your feels Brie what were you thinking?" Aoife asked with a sad smile, her hand coming up to gently squeeze my shoulder. "You have to talk to him, this isn't healthy for either of you."

"He doesn't care for me. He is only after getting his next…fuck. He wants a carefree life, with no responsibilities. He has told me several times."

"It might have been what he wanted but he surely didn't get that." Aoife laughed, folding her arms over her chest. "He feels…"

"I can't deal with this right now Eefs. Can we drop it?" I asked pulling the headphones from around my neck, wrapping them around my Walkman and stuffing it into my bag.

"I don't think we can."

"Why not?" I huffed out. Not giving the woman in front of me my full attention, I took the black wig into my hands, fondling the edges before pulling it over my naturally brown hair which was already pinned into place.

"Because I may have told him what today was and how important it was for you and he kind of showed up." She spoke so fast that it took me a few seconds to catch up on her words.

"Why would you do that?" I spat turning to face her, the wig almost falling from my head since I didn't have any clips to hold it in place.

"Well, he is our friend as well as yours. You can't expect us to go to all these concerts and not make connections Brie. The guys in the band are top fellas." Aoife scoffed, rolling her eyes. "Besides he wants to support you. Which is more than Andrew ever did."

"Why do you keep doing this? Bringing him around when I don't want to be anywhere near him." I growled, reaching up to place the black wig on my head properly once more.

"You have been different since you stopped spending time with him. You've been uptight, tense and honestly so fucking difficult to be around. You both need to sort out your shit and get it together." She scolded bending down and taking my purse of clips into her hands.

"I, I haven't been that bad."

"You've been unbearable" She chuckled, taking a handful of clips and placing some in her mouth before starting to pin the wig into place. "We still love you but please talk to him." She nodded, adding a few more clips. Her eyes cast off to the side with a slight nod.

Looking over my shoulder, Cillian stood awkwardly by the bleachers, a sad smile on his face as he looked in our direction. Feeling a hand on my shoulder, Aoife gently brushed her hand off, handing me the remaining clips before walking past Cillian, brushing a hand against his shoulder as she turned the corner.

"I can leave if you want?" Cillian breathed out the minute he reached me. The dark circles under his eyes are prominent as he stands before me. It was obvious, he wasn't sleeping well.

"No, I don't want that." I sighed, bouncing back and forth between the balls of my feet and my heels. "Thank you for coming, I know I've been a bitch the last few weeks, but I…"

"I deserved it." Cillian stopped me mid-sentence, one of his hands coming up to brush the longer pieces of his hair back away from his eyes. "I should have never invited Emer to that gig, I knew it was a bad idea but I went and did it anyway."

"No, no you should have invited her. You like her. I shouldn't have acted the way I did. It is just sex between us after all." I shrugged, the words felt like they were burning my tongue as they left my mouth. "How are things for you both? I hope I didn't ruin anything."

"Nothing to ruin." Cillian quickly corrected a soft pout on his lips. "Emer's a lovely girl but she isn't who I want. She isn't for me."

"Oh, oh okay. I didn't know, sorry. But she is out there somewhere Cill, you'll meet her one day." I encouraged, unsure of where the words came from. The thought of Cillian with someone else felt like a hard punch in the gut.

"I've already met her, I just keep fucking things up with her." He responded, a cheeky twinkle returning to his blue eyes, drawing me to him. There was something magical about those eyes.

"Why do you do that?" I whispered, taking a baby step forward towards him. Cillian followed in my lead, stepping forward until he was a few centimetres away from me. I could feel the body heat radiating from him.

"I'm a twat."

Nodding my head, my eyes travelled from his, down towards his lips before they returned to his eyes which now held a knowing look, the infamous cocky smirk growing on his face.

"Nice wig," Cillian smirked, his left hand coming up from his side to caress my cheek.

Leaning into his touch, I felt a calmness washing over my once anxious-ridden body, my heartbeat quickened when I noticed his tongue dart out from his lips to moisten them before his head began its descent towards my lips.

"Wait, are you sure about this?" I asked stopping the kiss from happening. He was mere inches from my lips, I could feel his breath brushing against my face. "What happened to living without responsibility? Letting go and being carefree?"

"I want to let go of Everything but You." He whispered, lips ghosting over my lips.

Pushing myself forward, I pushed my lips against his, allowing him to take the lead. Within seconds our tongues began to fight for dominance, I felt Cillian's fingers try and run through my wig but it was too tightly bound.

Pulling away with a laugh, he shook his head – hands still trying to penetrate the synthetic material. Reaching up, I brushed my thumb across his lips trying my hardest to remove the red lipstick that had transferred.

Smiling down at me, he leaned back down capturing my lips in one of the sweetest kisses I had ever experienced in my life. It was soft, and delicate like if he pushed too hard I would break but it had an overwhelming feeling of want rushing through my veins.

"For fuck sake couldn't you wait until after you performed to suck face?" Aoife's voice suddenly appeared next to me with a growl.

Pulling away from Cillian, my cheeks flushed red as she took my chin into her hand, pulling it in her direction to assess the damage.

"Can you fix it?" I asked as she moved my head in all directions under the awful corridor lighting, getting a good view of all angles.

"It's not that bad actually." Aoife nodded with a smile, tossing me a wink before looking over at Cillian. "Red lipstick is certainly not your colour." She laughed, reaching into her pocket and pulling out a clean tissue, handing it over.

*****

Throughout my performance, my eyes would fall on Cillian. He stood next to Aoife who stood next to my father, the three of them watched on with proud looks on their faces before erupting into the loudest cheers in the place when I had finished.

Taking the bottle of water Aoife had outstretched in her hands, I scurried over to them – grateful the whole thing was over. Inhaling through my nose, I allowed her to pull me into a hug, whispering in my ear how good I was before passing me off to my father.

"Your mother would be so proud of you Brie." He grinned, pulling me tightly against his chest. Upon pulling away his hands gripped onto my shoulders holding me in place as he cast an eye over towards Cillian who was engrossed in a conversation with Aoife and Calvin. "Does he treat you right?"

"Excuse me?... What?... Cillian and I are just friends." I laughed awkwardly with a shake of my head, my vision dropping to my feet.

"Ahhhh right, friends." My father trailed off with a playful eyeroll. "Your mother and I were just friends when I came to her first show as well." He laughed, gently pushing against my shoulder.

"Stop" I whined, drawing Cillian's attention towards me and my father. I instantly panicked when I noticed him make his way over towards us. My father had no filter, he would say it how it was – embarrassing not only me but also Cillian.

"You were brilliant" Cillian announced, placing a gentle hand on my shoulder as soon as he reached me. "Hello, Sir."

"Mr Murphy." My father nodded in response, looking between the two of us before excusing himself. Cillian and I stood next to each other, in an awkward yet comforting silence.

"Do you…" "How is…" Cillian and I started at the same time, both stopping after the second word with a laugh. "You go first." I allowed, gesturing towards him with my hand.

"I was going to ask if you wanted to grab something to eat after you win?" He asked, the cocky smile growing on his face, reaching his eyes. "But you have to wear the wig."

"Such an ass." I chuckled playfully slapping my hand against his chest. "I would love to but my dad's my lift home, if I left with you I would have no way home."

"A date?" I processed, eyes widening at the words. We never had a date before. Cillian never even mention the possibility of it happening, then again our entire relationship was based on friendship and sex.

My words confused him. Shoving his hands into the front pockets of his jeans, he glanced over to the side thinking over what I had just said.

"So you don't want to go on a date with me?" He asked turning back around for clarification. "Have I fucked this up again?"

"Yeah?" Cillian squinted, eyebrows falling causing frown lines to form on his forehead. "Look if that's not…"

"No, I would love to." I almost screamed out, forgetting where I was. "I mean, yeah we can go on a date. That would be nice."

"Nice recovery." Cillian joked, a deep shade of red filling my already pink-blushed cheeks.

"But wait what about getting home?"

"I'm sure we can miss one day of college Brie…" Cillian rolled his eyes, taking one hand from his pocket to take my hand into his, his thumb gently gliding over my knuckles. "But if it's such a big deal I have my father's car parked out front."

"You drive?" I asked with a louder gasp than I would have liked.

"No, I fly." He chuckled, his face pulled straight as he shook his head in my direction. "Of course, I drive, I just don't have a car."

"How did I not know that?" I questioned tilting my head to the side, a soft smile gracing my face.

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capricorndevil15 · 1 year

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🍂☕ Scarlet Hollow ask game ☕🍂

I really wanted to do this ask game, so I've done it! Scarlet Hollow is one of my favorite games right now (second only to Deltarune). And I just wanted to have some fun, so here we go! Original was made by @juleshollow (thank you!!).

TRAITS:

Your "canon" trait combination? I have a couple different runs, and I haven't decided yet which is my "canon" playthrough, if there ever will be one. Regardless, I'm Powerful Build/Hot and Powerful Build/Keen Eye! (Will shorten Powerful Build to PB from now on. 🥜🧈)

What third trait would you add for hardcore mode? Tbh I haven't messed with hardcore mode yet. It's not too appealing for me (I am just not the type of gamer this mode is made for) because I feel like the consequences don't match the "crime". Conversely, I'm one of those dirty hackers who goes into the game files and changes the rules so that I can play with all 7 traits unlocked with no drawbacks. I've done this for a couple of playthroughs, but there's no combination that I super-like yet (though I will admit Mystic is a nice add-on to any existing combo). Once the game is all finished, I want to do a playthrough where I have all 7 traits and save the town. Not the hero Scarlet Hollow wants, but the hero we need. B) I will fix everything, goddamn.

What trait are you least drawn to? Probably Talk to Animals (TTA)? There are just other traits that I like more. If this game had more snakes in it, though, I'd certainly feel a different way. 🐍💕 Also, I was wary of Hot before I tried it, and still have some gripes with certain writing choices, but it's become one of my go-to traits.

Coolest trait? Fuckin PB, dude!! The one thing you always wish you could do in a horror movie, right? Be strong enough to punch the monsters in the face, beat the killers up, and it actually works! You really are strong enough, you really can protect! Maybe this says something about my psyche, or maybe I am just small and frail in real life, but dude I love to be the strong friend in this game. Also, I'm often drawn to the "regular" characters in horror/fantasy settings. Like, how does the guy without supernatural powers hold their own? What are they doing here? That's impressive and compelling.

ROMANCE:

Who are you romancing? Reese. Once he starts talking about horror movies, it becomes impossible to not kiss him.

What romance are you least interested in? I dunno? I'm probably not gonna do a Stella playthrough because I'm gettin Stabby back together if it kills me (if it kills me!). I like all the characters and think their romantic lives are interesting (I also really like Kaneeka/Reese. They are so nigthmare before christmas.)

Who would you romance if every single character was eligible? Probably Reese again LMFAO. On the real, maybe Winnie? Or Janey?

MISCELLANEOUS:

What character would hurt you the most if something bad happened to them? Tabitha. :(

Would you stay in Scarlet Hollow when the week is over? So, my MC is basically a fancharacter w/ his own personality distinct from mine. That's probably assumed, but I wanted to clarify for this question. I think w/ how things are currently going, he'll either choose to stay in The Holler after the week is through, or make some arrangement where he frequently visits. Him and Tabby are very close, so they will keep contact somehow. (And if you're thinking "lol, Tabby will probably be dead by the end of the game" well, my phrasing still stands, because he will visit Tabitha's grave every month with two cans of cream soda for them to share!! So who is laughing now!!!)

Who would you vote for dog mayor? Scraps 4 sure.

#scarlet hollow #ask game #long post #hi scarlet hollow tag!! :3 #my MC's name is Magnolia Maggie Scarlet and he is a middle school english teacher/wrestling coach from Houston.

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xpiester333x · 9 months

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And finally, to complete my yearly game posts, here's what I plan on playing in the year 2024:

1. Assemble With Care - a short little game I should be able to knock out in a few hours but I picked it up in a bundle and I have wanted to play it so I will try to knock it out this year.

2. I'm more than half way done with Baldur's Gate 3 but I likely will be playing it through January. I hope to finish it at least once before P3R.

3. Bloodborne - help.

4. Borderlands 2 - since I had such a blast playing Borderlands with my boyfriend this year, I'm looking forward to giving this game a second chance and hopefully enjoying it much more.

5. Borderlands 3 - a little less hopeful for this one, since I haven't heard much good about it, but might as well knock out the main franchise.

6. Boyfriend Dungeon - I just got this for Christmas and I'm excited for the concept of romancing my weapons :)

7. I'm also more than halfway through Catherine, so I also intend to finish that in the coming month.

8. Cat Museum - something cute and short I picked up on mega sale and want to make an effort to play this year.

9. The Coffin of Andy and Leyley - I actually have no idea what this game is about or if I'll like it but it was a gift so dammit I'll play it.

10. Dragon's Dogma 2 - Dragon's Dogma is easily in my top 10 games of all time, and I am SO hype for this game. The only downside is it's coming in March, and the first quarter of 2024 is pretty PACKED with games for me.

11. Etrian Odyssey - because I never finished it when I owned it on DS but I'm in my Atlus Games era rn so

12. Far: Lone Sails - I was drawn to this game for the art and it seems like a quick little experience of a game.

13. Final Fantasy 16 DLC - blanketing over the currently available DLC and the up and coming DLC.

14. Hades - a carry over from 2023's list but THIS WILL BE THE YEAR (maybe)

15. Haven - I don't think (?) this game is very long but it looks very heartwarming so I'm here for it this year.

16. Little Nightmares 2 - another fairly short game that I have no reason not to play, especially when I'm obsessed with the first one.

17. Little Nightmares 3 - I don't know what the release date is yet but like Borderlands let's try to close out a franchise!

18. Metaphor: ReFantazio - it doesn't even have a release date and I'm already excited about it.

21. Nier Automata - another carry over from 2023, but I have a good feeling about it this year.

19. NEO: The World Ends With You - I hear only good things about this game but I will be walking into it 98% blind.

20. Nightingale - Idk how much I'll actually play this game but my friend and I have been watching its development for years and we are READY

22. Nier Replicant - I watched a friend play some of this and it looked fun, and since I saw it was free on PS plus... why not.

23. Octopath Traveler - this is to feed my JRPG addiction but break up some of my Atlus obsession

24. Opus: Echo of Starsong - This was a gift like 2 years ago and I really want to play it through this year.

25. Persona 3 Reload - I ALREADY TOOK VACATION FOR IT IM SO READY 38 MORE DAYS

26. Persona 4 Arena - Because I think it's the only readily available Persona game I haven't played yet.

27. Sea of Stars - I'm more than half through this too, I stopped playing it to play Tactica so I'll be finishing this soon as well.

28. Shin Megami Tensei 3: Nocturne - I put a fair amount of time into it this year, and I adore this game. I'm finishing it next year.

29. Shin Megami Tensei 5 - for real this year, I promise (🤞)

31. Undertale - why have I not played this? Why did it sit on my list last year untouched? Why did I install it and never play it? The world may never know.

30. Soul Hackers 2 - because again, I'm in my Atlus Games era and I bought it this year so time to play it.

32. Untitled Goose Game - for casual hijinks

I'm even more ambitious this year than last year and thats without knowing even half of whats to be released in 2024 sooo wish me luck.

#easy as pie #pie plays #games 2024

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carrie-tate · 2 years

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Top 22 of 2022 End of the Year Game Tag

Well, as I understand it, I, too, have been drawn into this tag game. At least I was to mention @otomiya-tickles and @happyandticklish, thanks for that, in any case, I'm glad to join)

Part 1: Fandom Faves

1. Favorite new fandoms of the year You know, there are no exclusively new fandoms this year. Rather, my love for a couple of old fandoms caught fire in a new way. Like Mob Psycho 100 or Psychonauts. Oh! Milo Murphy's Law, Kaitou Joker, Inside Job, Super 4 (this two actually new…) and Percy Jackson too btw! Balan Wonderworld is deserves a mention too Okay, okay, that's all, otherwise I'll just go into the enumeration of ALL fandoms in general, because I don't know how to choose my favorite

2. Favorite new ships since this year If I lower my impudent ships with s/i, then I will say: Milo/Amanda (Milo Murphy's Law), Annabeth/Percy (Percy Jackson) Well, obviously Terumob and Shoritsu (Mob Psycho 100), haha

3. Favorite anime/TV show of the year Oh I also started watching Supernatural this year and I should keep watching (while I'm stuck on the first episodes of season 4), I definitely like this show Speaking of anime - Mob Psycho 100 and Kaitou Joker, I haven't really watched anything else huh

4. Favorite movie of the year Complicated question, yet I watch a lot of things, but at the same time I remember a little… Only Klaus (2019) and Rise of the Guardians come to mind, which I'm going to review closer to the holidays

5. Favorite character of the year Shigeo Kageyama (Mob Psycho 100), Rasputin Aquato (Psychonauts), Mini-Mini-King (Kaitou Joker), Stoll Brothers (Percy Jackson), Brett Hand (Insider Job)… *mumbles in enumeration*

6. Favorite soundtrack of the year The Meat Circus from Psychonauts (this tune haunted my mind for a month while I was playing the second part and actively sat in the fandom, haha) Crazy Necross from Vangers GO GO REIGEN! from Mob Psycho 100 which I just found but I love it and want to set it as my ringtone lol The whole Gris ost (the ending of the game makes me cry when I need to…), the whole Beetlejuice east… I guess that's it, heh.

7. Favorite book/manga/comic of the year Percy Jackson book series (honestly, I promise myself to still find time and read the Mark of Athena from the second cycle TwT)

8. Favorite game of the year Psychonauts 2, this game literally became the first platformer (well, in general, a game where you need to run, jump and beat enemies) that I went through completely And Little Inferno too

9. Highlight of this year to remember Entrance exams and college admissions, god it was this summer but it feels like it's been YEARS

Part 2: Community Review

10. Favorite Tumblr moments of 2022 To be honest, I haven't been as active on tumblr this year, so I have no idea what happened here in a year. That is, perhaps I know, but most likely I do not attach any importance to this.

11. Favorite fan art of the year Oh, there were two memorable fanarts that come to mind here and here

12. Favorite fic of the year Can I just say that ALL of Kanene's MP100 fics are my favorites at the moment? Like, so much so that I can't remember anything else lol

13. Favorite ask game of the year It's not like I'm involved in a lot of that, is it..? Maybe that recent fandom thing? This was fun

14. My top achievements as a writer/artist/creator/blogger The fact that I was able to get out of the shell and start interacting with really cool people from tk community, and the fact that I literally carring the mp100 fandom with my sketches, lmao

15. My own best fic/post of the year If we talk about the post that I am proud of, then this is one of the last posts with the Kageyama bros. I think I did a really good job on the poses this time

16. My most underappreciated fic/post of the year My posts are related to mp100 Beetlejuice!AU, because I want to develop this idea, but I think that people are not very interested in it

17. A post of mine that got more popularity than expected I'm still surprised by the popularity of that art with Shoritsu, which was one of my first posts on mp100 here, and probably one of my most popular posts in general…

18. Something I changed on my blog since this year Well, my blog is only a year old, so I can't say anything definitive…

Part 3: Next Year

I have such a spontaneous lifestyle that I don't have anything planned for next year huh, so I can't seem to answer the questions below…

19. Something I didn’t post this year but would like to do next year 20. Goals for next year 21. 2023 releases I look forward to the most

Part 4: Spreading Love

22. Shoutouts to people who made my 2022 a better year Well, then I'll throw everything under keep reading

@candyheartedchy, thank you for the fact that formally it was with you that my acquaintance with the existence of such a thing as s/i and f/o began! Your art is amazing and inspiring! @kanene-yaaay, I am sincerely grateful for every reblog of yours, like, this is one of the main incentives why I draw now. You are so emotional and bright, it's just amazing! @misaki-just-doodles and @we-dont-talk-about-potato-nonono, yes, we haven't talked in a while, but I'm really grateful to you two for supporting my work this summer. It was a great time and I hope you are doing well! @otomiya-tickles @ssnicker-doodless @vqler @thecomfortable even if it's still a little embarrassing for me to tag you, I want to say that I admire your creativity and you are like those cool older comrades that you look at and think "I want to be like this when I grow up", thanks for that!

#tag game #talk #top 22 of 2022

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22nd March 2023

Day 9

I’m still slacking and to my horror others are struggling too here and there. Most of the cast is finding it tough to remember the new cues and lines and line distributions. We spent two hours on the first five lines today barely getting through the act one. Director is understandably furious. We got a proper yelling because we are just stumbling at every line. He reminds us we haven't even done the first two pages and we have 58 left. The song we open with is the one I made and I havent locked it, so we keep making mistakes on that first opening scene for over an hour.

I feel very angry with myself, even though my lackings are in a different place than others, M is correct when she says that we still haven’t jumped in fully. I wonder if I should stop writing the blog, it makes me feel like I’m still an outsider because I’m writing about it. But I also don’t want to stop because our director is really something and I would like to remember how I have been learning, how he is directing, and also these heightened emotions that I feel that may inspire me later. I already feel myself changing, my tolerance for inefficiency in my own teams is lowering. Even though I’m doing the same thing. Get to 100 percent AM!

We are on the 3rd version now. Originally we had thought it would be each person reads one part and is M1/M2/M3 turn by turn. 2nd version we played her at the same time, line by line like we are one person. Today's version seems final. There is only one M1/M2- though everyone else has dialogue its in 3rd person now. Sir seems to have picked M1/M2 as Sharm and Srab. They've played it the second day in a row. Sharm is doing super it I have to say. She’s the most experienced of the lot except M. shes able to stay in the zone and concentrate. We are working on act one which is basically pre 71, happisg times. I realise that we haven’t cried in a few sags. The first 6 to 7 days I was crying in rehearsal every day as we were learning the script. But as we are only figuring out the intros and beginning sequences none of it has been of the war of the crimes south so it’s very sort of mild. Md says that now we are forgetting the person who is actually telling the story. She is so right after rehearsal we are all feeling a bit down because I didn’t go well, I don’t blame the director for saying that he is going to see this for one more week before deciding if we will go through or not. Even though I know there’s a lot of preparation, the actual booking of the theatre, budgets, everything else is being done, so if you want to cancel you still can. After the rehearsal M calls me aside and says we need to fix that opening sequence, I’m very shame at least say yes let’s do it. She says come to our meeting tonight. I had plans to join the gym today because at this point I realise that we are no longer doing our morning exercise as we come in and go straight into the rehearsing of the play and I gained weight in the first nine days of rehearsals I’ve gained about 2 lb in any case postcode with my hunger is through the roof, stress from recent projects and personal stuff my hunger is through the roof, and though I still try to walk a little bit it’s not every day anymore like it used to be still only a few days week. also I missed the gym I haven’t been for over six months I used to love it so much. My plans though are now canceled. I go home and take a 20 minute nap and then I rush off to the meeting. Traffic is absolutely insane and I abandon my car and get a bike and thanks to a really nice bike I reach exactly at 7:29 when I am supposed to start the music work at 7:30. The meeting is in someone’s house, one of the core members of the group. I the first time see everyone in a more relaxed situation. The entire living room is split up the keyboard is kept open for me on one side on the other side people are making dinner on the other side the entire floor plan is being made with things draw been drawn to scale. The director seems to be in a better mood and everyone is figuring out logistics and planning things et cetera et cetera. everyone looks really nice they’re all dressed up in their normal clothes.

Did I ever mention that we have a sort of outfit that we wear ?. It’s T-shirts and pants that are not too loose or too tight; this is why you see me in a different T-shirt every day that is the actual uniform for rehearsal as it’s the one that is most flexible for all of our physical work. I’m the only one who still wearing my T-shirt and sweat pants. M is dressed in a sari and she keeps covering her head and I asked her why and she says that ever since the start of the play she dresses as a birangona at home. I have been considering doing a few things to keep the essence of the play with me when I go home, and I wonder if I can do the same or not I don’t know yet. I’ve considered giving up some of my favourite things to eat to do, just to channel a bit of the story is a bit more but A part of me realises that I might be best used to do the musical aspects then being a novice actor on stage, and the fact that I am in a Inner Circle meeting doing the structures for the music means that that’s also what everyone else is thinking. this is the first time that it is acknowledged at all in these circumstances that I have a sort of following all my own identity as a media person. Reference being we are trying to calculate how many shares to do how many tickets need to be sold how many tickets can be sold at certain prices and The host jokes that oh don’t worry Armeen will bring her own crowd. I have no idea if that’s true I know my friends would come. Overall it’s very light and jolly situation however once we wrap up our introductory song so I remind Sir that there is a second one to do and I actually feel like giving him ideas. I try to do a rap like spoken word piece and Azhar sort of points out doesn’t go. So I sort of give up for the day, I don’t know why I give up so easily these days. I don’t have a push sometimes when I don’t get my first brilliant idea naturally I give up very easily. The first song that I made for the intro it was literally the first thing that came out of my mind and it was based on a bunch of chords that I know that are good. The second song is different it’s not a soft song so not in my genre and obviously I am struggling with it and I just give up. but I admit it was nice to see The director a bit more relaxed; they all joke about each other and their romantic partners even Sir teases M, I’m a bit embarrassed so I just smile and sit in the corner. Our host is really sweet though she is evidently someone who has seen a lot of my work already and both the host chat with me a little bit. It feels weird to have references to my non-theatre life in theatre mode.

I’m struggling to fix my sleep schedule, when I go home it’s already pretty late, but I have my own things to do thoughts to have that I cannot ignore, I wish we were there were more days in the air, or more hours on the day that I could use to spend a little bit of time just thinking and also bloody apartment I don’t even have an AC right now and it’s getting really hot and I haven’t had the time to actually buy an AC and get it installed. Also I am dying to just organise my bookshelf it’s the first thing you see you when you enter my flat but despite the fact that I’ve had all the books nicely done I still do not have even 10 minutes to put the books in the order that I want to. I’m up till 2 am again with my own stuff. I haven’t memorised M2 either, I won’t say that I’m not enjoying being part of the music but I do realise it might lower my chances of getting any proper lines.

Oh God after disastrous rehearsal day I am a bit more relieved to see that the play is still being planned, they have decided to lower the number of shows from 25 to 19. M says it’s only physically durable to do the maximum 19 shows in a row. I have performed many many days in a row but never 19 shows I’m actually deeply looking forward to those 19 inches. Your girl hasn’t been on stage in awhile and it’s coming through.

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themysteriousphoenix · 2 years

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I posted 366 times in 2022

68 posts created (19%)

298 posts reblogged (81%)

Blogs I reblogged the most:

@bluelikeajay

@eveneechan

@thereadersmuse

@silvertonedwords

I tagged 97 of my posts in 2022

#tina goldstein - 26 posts

#tinagoldsteinmonth2022 - 22 posts

#newtina - 11 posts

#newt scamander - 10 posts

#personal post - 5 posts

#newtina fanfiction - 4 posts

#truth - 3 posts

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I'm going to write here because it's my anonymous safe space.

I am fucking tired. I forgot how trying these first few weeks with a new baby can be. He is wonderful and I love him, but he is on a nocturnal schedule and I am losing my mind. I got 90 minutes of sleep last night. My husband goes back to work today after his 2 weeks of paternity leave. I felt those cold fingers of PPD creeping in last night as I tried and failed for the 6th time to get him down to sleep in his bassinet. I'm medicated after my first pregnancy when PPD hit me hard, so I haven't felt it much, but last night it was fierce. There is just something about being alone and frustrated at 4:00 am that causes the tears to flow.

Motherhood is hard.

Here's a picture of those sweet cheeks to keep me on check. Because he really is wondeful.... ❤

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39 notes - Posted January 20, 2022

Tina Goldstein Month 2022: Day 7

Favorite Tina quote

Today I'm going with the moment she realized how wonderful Newts creatures could be... Swooping Evil to the rescue!

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Tina: "What is that thing?"

Newt: "Swooping Evil."

Tina: "Well, I love it!"

40 notes - Posted August 7, 2022

Tina Goldstein Month 2022: Day 10

Favorite Tina moment of all time

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Reuniting with Newt in FB3. I can't tell you how glad I was to see these two together again. I love them- their banter, their friendship, and their budding romance. She looks stunning and both actors absolutely nailed this scene. It wasn't much, but that little bit we got was gold.

62 notes - Posted August 10, 2022

Oh also 14 on a bruise because you know me and my hurt/comfort :)

Touch, pt. 1

After the wedding, a simple touch from Newt leads to just a little bit more.

Post-Secrets of Dumbledore cuteness.

/OS/

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“What– Tina?”

“Hmm?” Tina hummed as she turned to look at Newt, the low light of the case making his ruddy hair shine in that special way that reminded her of sunsets on rooftops and Paris sunrises. He was watching her, not with the smile that she expected, but with a look of concern. The smile she had been wearing since their long-awaited reunion in front of Kowalksi’s Quality Baked Goods hours earlier slowly melted from her face.

“What happened, Tina?” His eyes had been drawn to her upper back, the bruise there that had been covered by the higher neckline of her dress and the waves of her hair must look far worse than she thought. She had just pulled her hair out of her eyes with a ribbon while working with the creatures. She hadn’t been thinking.

“Oh. Oh, nothing. It’s just–” She paused, her eyes connecting with his. Deep brown to blue-green. “Work.” She shrugged. “I got hit by a stunner the other day. It’s fine.”

He said nothing as he stepped closer, closing the distance between them. The rapidly growing baby niffler in her lap continued playing with her locket unchecked. She had discarded her coat as soon as she had entered the warmer climate of the case, but as his breath brushed the skin of her arm, goosebumps flared across her skin and she shivered.

He moved slowly, tentatively, and raised his hand to touch her before his mind caught up with his body and he realized how intimate a gesture it was. She felt, more than saw, his eyes swing to her face as if to ask permission. She nodded her head ever so slightly.

Gently, his fingertips brushed her skin. She felt the tenderness and care in his touch and her eyes closed. The feeling of being touched, almost caressed, felt so foreign after months away from all of the people she loved. It was unfamiliar but so wanted, and she shivered as the sensation of touch fizzled down her spine, igniting every nerve ending. Her awareness was heightened, and she suddenly felt the unevenness of the tabletop where she had hopped up to sit, the humidity in the air, the shift of her dress as it stretched across her skin. She bit her lip and gripped the edge of the table with the hand that was not holding onto the niffler in her lap.

“Does it hurt?” he asked, unaware of the effect he was having on her. Or maybe he knew. He was observant sometimes– especially with her, it seemed. His thumb swiped across the darkened skin, now stained ugly shades of yellow and brown.

She shook her head. “No. Not anymore.” She turned her head to look at him, his face only inches from her own, and she looked up into his eyes. They were bright and concerned, but his expression also seemed a little…daring? Bold? She swallowed. “I honestly forgot it was there. It’s–” His fingers slid down her spine softly, sliding easily over the satin of her ice blue dress. “It’s almost two weeks old, so…”

“Hmm,” he hummed in acknowledgment. His eyes, which had held her gaze for far longer than he usually did, finally glanced down to momentarily settle on her lips. Could this be it? She had wondered if he would kiss her tonight. She was certainly open to the idea and she was pretty positive now that he wanted to as much as she wanted him to. She had wondered several times that night if that moment would finally be it, but nothing had seemed right. Not at the wedding. Not in front of all of those people.

His fingertips traveled down further, further, until he splayed his hand flat against her waist. It was warm and solid and she found that even with this one little touch, even without kissing him, she was already wanting more. She would always want more of him. She knew that already.

She turned toward him slightly, making herself open to him, so that they were face to face now. His breathing hitched a little. He was nervous. The corners of her mouth twitched into an encouraging smile as he came closer, inches from her now. She reached out to find his other hand and he readily gripped her lightly as she made contact. Her fingers twisted just so, sliding between his so that their palms met.

He leaned close to her, months of anticipation, want, and worry finally coming together in finale. She felt his breath wash over her features as her eyes fluttered closed. He hesitated for just a moment before he was there, his nose brushing against hers and his lips finally meeting her own.

It was soft and sweet and perfect. Tina smiled as he leaned in for a second quick kiss and she felt his mouth quirk into a grin in response. How had they never done this before now? How had they ever not known? How had there ever been a hint of misunderstanding or miscommunication when they had this? This one moment with unpracticed kisses and soft, breathy laughter felt like they were finally in sync. They finally knew that their feelings were reciprocated and it was beautiful.

He captured her lips in a longer kiss, the hand against her waist slowly, slowly inched up her spine. She tightened her grip on his hand and silently cursed the sleeping niffler that was still sitting in her lap, preventing her from pulling him closer. She could have cried as he skirted the skin at the neckline of her dress, just over her healing injury, showing care even amid their kisses. His fingers tugged at the ribbon holding her hair off her neck, letting it fall free. He slid his fingers into the silky waves, and she had a feeling that he had been wanting to do that for quite some time.

Then they heard them, voices coming closer, and Tina felt Newt stiffen and then his shoulders fall a little in disappointment. She leaned in and captured one more quick kiss before he pulled away. Her eyes opened and he was so close, so very close. He was everything and everywhere right now and she loved it. She squeezed his hand and leaned forward just slightly to whisper into his ear.

“Later.”

She pulled away and watched a grin spread across his face. He leaned forward to press a kiss lightly against her hairline as he heard his brother start calling for him.

“Hey, Newt! Newt!”

“Theseus…” Newt called back, still grinning at Tina who couldn’t help but smile widely back at him.

“We’ve got to– oh.” He came through the doorway to the bowtruckle habitat, Lally at his side, his eyes soft and glazed after an evening of Firewhiskey and laughter with friends. “Oh, I, uh…”

Lally took over, swatting Theseus lightly in the chest with a familiarity that struck Tina as interesting and highly amusing. “We are going to head upstairs. Pop one more bottle of champagne before the evening is over.” She smiled apologetically at them as she tilted her head toward the little shed, “Care to join us?”

“Yes, I think so.” Tina replied, hopping off of the table with ease and cradling the sleeping baby in her hand. “Let me just get this little guy put away for the night.”

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My #1 post of 2022

Okay, but really...Newt and Lally fangirling over each other is the best ever. I want them to be best friends. They could just sit and nerd out with each other for hours.

Tina can come too. Obviously. For reasons. 😍

388 notes - Posted April 16, 2022

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seoz-seoz · 2 years

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7/18

Hey Nisi!!!💜

7. Is there something you're good at drawing but don't enjoy?

Yeah definitely. For years I have drawn traditional portraits for commissions and I've gotten super burnt out on it. Portraits in general can be kinda stressful at times. Some people are really particular about capturing the exact likeness of their pet/person. I am definitley skilled at doing this but I haven't taken many commissions like this in a few months because it's just not enjoyable at all anymore and I was recovering from major surgeries. Sigh.

18. Do you experience art block? If so how do you deal with it?

Yeah I frequently run out of motivation and ideas. I am very on and off with my personal art. I'll draw draw draw for months and then suddenly fizzle out and not be able to draw again for a while. It sucks.

Here are some of the tips I use that may help others: I often take breaks and not draw/post for a few days, even when im not super art blocked. This allows me to not get burnt out as quickly. I also will just make simple unfinished sketches that I have no intention of sharing/posting. This takes off some of the pressure and allows me to still practice my skills. Also, drawing things that I like and that make me really happy is definitely helpful. Like I may not feel like working on bigger projects but i can still draw fanart lol. And it's fun so it kinda rejuvenates me.

I mean these aren't foolproof and I've gotten super bad art block before where I didn't draw much for months. But hopefully this was helpful...

Thanks for asking 💙 hope you have a nice day tomorrow.

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I was gonna ask about the Tech Thriller one, but Bella beat me to it, so please tell me more about the Quaratine fic (signed by me, who had covid around a month ago)

My idea was to write a story inspired by the below news article. I wrote 800 words on April 18 2020 and haven't come back to it since. This is one that probably won't ever get written (never say never, though). I think I just wasn't in the headspace to write about pandemic life; it was too depressing.

I'm sorry to hear you had covid and hope you are feeling better! I am still one of the rare few who has never had it.

🌟Ask me about my WIP folder🌟

Here's the 800 words I wrote below the cut, if you anyone is curious:

Chapter 1: If you want to sing out, sing out

“We’re going to be the only ones out there, Rachel!” Kurt protested. “If you want to look like an idiot far be it from me to stop you but I’d like to survive this pandemic with my dignity intact.

“If we’re the only ones out there, then there won’t be anyone to look like an idiot in front of, genius!” she countered.

Kurt let out an exasperated sigh. “Fine!”

Rachel immediately brightened up, took Kurt by the hand, and yanked him over to the back door of their tiny New York City apartment. They burst out onto the fire escape, suddenly thrust back into the world. Kurt inhaled the fresh air and soaked in the sense of space that had been in short supply lately.

“Okay, here, look. I pulled up the lyrics, just in case.”

Kurt gave her a scornful look. “Don’t insult me.”

“Do you see anyone?” she asked nervously.

Kurt looked around for signs of life. They could only see a handful of other apartments from their vantage point; the odds didn’t look good.

“Well, it’s 7 o’clock. I guess we start?” Kurt was unsure. Should they wait longer to see if anyone else decided to join or should they just begin.

The lone pair fumbled their way through the first verse, forgetting where the song actually started, but once they got their footing Kurt forgot about looking a fool and just let the song fill him up.

She says, we've got to hold on to what we've got

It doesn't make a difference if we make it or not

We've got each other and that's a lot for love

We'll give it a shot

Woah, we're half way there

Woah, livin' on a prayer

Take my hand, we'll make it I swear

Woah, livin' on a prayer

Then Kurt heard it! Another voice! They weren’t alone after all. The figure must have noticed them too because he began to wave frantically. Kurt couldn’t help waving back just as energetically. There was such joy in the simple act of seeing another person, of bridging the distance between them through song.

On the line “take my hand,” the figure reached his arm towards them over the balcony railing. Rachel giggled and Kurt felt himself drawn as if by some invisible force to reach back.

In the distance, Kurt could hear other unseen voices join their song. He might be apart but he wasn’t alone.

After the last notes of Bon Jovi had faded, Rachel and Kurt looked out over the quiet street below them for a few more minutes, soaking in the final rays of sunshine before returning to their enclosure.

Rachel folded her arms across her chest, looking smug. “Admit it. You had fun.”

“I just wasn’t sure if it was really going to be a thing, you know? But yeah, it felt like a moment.”

Rachel’s expression softened and she joined Kurt on their living room couch.

“Did I tell you that Aaron finally got his diagnosis confirmed? I mean his understudy has taken the role for the past three weeks, but still this makes it official.”

“Wow, yeah, that’s intense. He’s doing okay, though, right?”

“Yeah, the director updated everyone after the 8pm show yesterday. He’s recuperating at home. I think his wife is looking after him.”

They had all but assumed that Aaron had the virus at this point, considering his symptoms, but it still shook Kurt to have it confirmed. Someone he knew, even tangentially, was part of this thing now. At first, Rachel had insisted that her director was overreacting by putting the entire cast and crew in quarantine for two weeks but now… well, Kurt was supremely grateful that Rachel had been as protected as possible from exposure.

Kurt suddenly glanced over at his roommate, as if to double check she wasn’t in respiratory distress and he was just noticing.

Correctly interpreting his expression, Rachel reached out to give his hand a squeeze. “I’m fine, Kurt. If I was going to get sick it would have happened already. Besides, you know I keep my immune system operating at peak performance.”

Kurt snorted.

*bzzz*

“One sec, Rach.” He pulled his phone out from his back pocket, eyes growing wide at the cryptic text message from Santana. “Turn on the news.”

He fumbled with the remote for a moment, before getting their antique television turned on and locating the local news.

“…has been and will continue to be the health and well-being of Broadway theatregoers and the thousands of people who work in the theatre industry every…”

Rachel gasped and pointed to the ticker tape rolling across the bottom of the screen.

Broadway Goes Dark

Rachel’s hand was clammy in his, clutching at him, breathing irregularly. “No, no, no. This isn’t happening. This can’t be happening Kurt!”

#wip folder #untitled quarantine fic #asked and answered

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onebangtanstan · 4 years

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Power Style - Chapter Six : The organization

« Are you okay, Ms Douglas? »

« Um, yes I guess. » I lie. « I'll just have to make adjustments for the campaign. »

I have no idea how I'm going to figure this out. I have to cram 2 months worth of work in 2 weeks. This is going to be intense.

We talk for a bit before I leave his office. As I walk back to my desk, I have an idea. I head for my phone and look for Tae.

"Hi Tae! I just found out about the launch being brought up. I need to be in contact with everyone to organize the shootings. Can you help me out?"

Send.

I start brainstorming ideas after letting my team know what's going on. We share all our ideas on an online drive. I add what I gathered last night from Tae.

A few minutes later, my phone dings. It's from a groupchat created by Taehyung. All members are in it, plus me. I start typing a text to say hello to everyone, but something appears on the screen. It's from RM "Is this necessary?". I figure this is Namjoon, and oh my God he infuriates me! I decide to not react and send my text anyway.

"Hi all! I'll be using this groupchat to let you know what's going on with the campaign, and give you details for shootings and all that. Have a good day!"

Someone answers immediately "I can't wait!! This is gonna be epic". It's from J-Hope. I'm still not familiar with all their stages names but from the energy of the text, I'm guessing it's Hoseok. Another text comes in from Jimin. "Whatever".

This is going to be hard. I'm used to dealing with clients, but usually there's only one person at a time. Right now I have 7 people with their own personalities to handle. I can't let my emotions get the best of me.

I get back to work, and head for a meeting with the whole team. We spend 2 hours figuring out what the campaign will be like and the schedule.

I grab my phone as soon as we're out and type a text to the band.

"Ok guys, things will happen very fast. Starting on Thursday, we will have individual shoots for each one of you. I'll send you the schedule. Next Friday is the group shoot. Sorry about the rush."

I put my notes from the meeting back in my office and head for lunch. I'll be eating it in my office though. Thursday is 2 days away, and I have so much to do.

DING.

I check my phone.

"Hey, about what you said last night, could we meet tomorrow maybe? Yoongi"

I'm glad I came through to him. We decide to go for dinner in the city center.

The next hours are only dedicated to finding the perfect settings for shootings. Every individual shoot needs to be different, but the feel of the campaign has to be the same.

I don't think I've had a harder job to do.

The next day is the same. Meeting on top of meeting with every designer, stylist, photographer and everyone needed for the shoot. My team and I are exhausted, but we finally have everything planned out.

I get home at 5 pm and get ready for my dinner with Yoongi. I go for something casual, but chic. My black and red dress if perfect for tonight. I pair it with my long black coat and knee-high boots.

Gina’s outfit for the evening

He's already there when I get to the restaurant. I sit down in front of him in silence. We both feel awkward being around each other, but also at ease.

He looks very cute like this. He's wearing all black clothes, a cap covering his hair. His golden jewelry contrasts with his look, and make his eyes pop.

"So, how's work?" He starts, trying to break the ice. I can tell he doesn't feel like he belongs here.

"Well, you guys have got me running all over the place, but it's interesting."

"Yeah sorry about that, there was a mix in our tour dates" He looks as annoyed as I am by the change.

"That's okay! Let's just say it's showbiz. Plus, it gives me an opportunity to challenge myself." He's looking down, but I see him smile. "Please, tell me about your ideas!"

He looks up and starts exposing his thoughts. The more he talks, the more his face opens up. He's more relaxed on his chair too. He loves his job, I can tell. This is where he's comfortable. Talking about work. It's probably the same when he talks about music, or performs.

I take notes while he talks me through his vision. It's amazing. It corresponds with the vibe we've already set, so we can definitely integrate his ideas into his solo shoot.

We start eating, and make awkward smalltalk, each of us understanding that the other one isn't comfortable talking about their lives. But as we talk we feel ourselves getting looser around each other. We seem to be similar on certain aspects.

Both our phones bing at the same time. I'm guessing it's the groupchat. He looks at his phone and I think I see a sparkle in his eyes. He smiles as he reads the text.

"Hobi is excited for tomorrow" He lets me know. Hoseok is the first one to shoot and I think it's going to be fun. I think about his reaction when he saw it was a text from Hoseok. Weird..

"Are you close with the guys?" I ask him, hoping my question won't close him off again.

"Very" He answers after a few seconds. He hesitates to keep going, but he does so anyway "They're my family. I love them with all my heart, but like with all families, we have our ups and downs. By the way, I would like to apologize to you on behalf of Namjoon and Jimin. Jimin is not great these days, with the tour coming and the-" He stops himself. I question him with my eyes.

"It's not my story to tell" He continues "And Namjoon is just an asshole towards strangers. But he's particularly an asshole towards you, I don't understand why..."

"That's okay" I reassure him "We don't have to like each other, just act professionally. If I'm being honest, I don't like his vibe so I won't be talking to him unless it's for the campaign."

"Haha I like you, Gina" I can't help but smile as he says that. "I'm not the type to open up easily, but I feel drawn to you, in a soothing way."

"Weirdly I feel the same."

We look at each other for a second but quickly turn away from each other.

We just sit there in silence, while the restaurant empties itself. We leave too, and start walking through the streets of Seoul. His turtleneck and hat (and the fact that he's walking with me) cover the fact that he's an Idol. The city center is lovely tonight. There are still a lot of people in the streets, everything is lit up. The weather is nice too. Don't get me wrong it's fucking freezing, but it's not that bad for the end of February.

We don't say much while we walk. We just enjoy each others company. I haven't felt this comfortable around someone since Sarah. It's nice. It's weird to think a few hours ago we could barely have a conversation without feeling awkward, but right now we're walking around together.

"I had a great night" His voice is soft, and seems peaceful. Not like the rest of the time. I could sense the anxiety in him as soon as I saw him. I know too well what it looks like.

"Me too" I say back.

He hails a cab for me and gives money to the driver.

"Let's do this again" He opens the door for me and waves awkwardly goodbye. Aaaand he's back. I'm glad I got to see a glimpse of the real Yoongi tonight, even if it was for a few words.

I almost fall asleep in the cab. The intense days of brainstorming are catching up with me. I go straight to bed when I get home, knowing tomorrow is going to be a long day.

I can't wait though. Shootings are my favourite part of the job.

#bts #fanfic #bts fanfic #suga #yoongi #suga x oc #yoongi x oc #kpop #seoul

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punkscowardschampions · 5 years

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Cosmo & Amber

Cosmo: Glad you didn't lie about how unique you are Cosmo: looks good Amber: would be appropriate if there were 8 other Ambers but no Cosmo: get 10 more and we could play some time Amber: ⚽ ? or..... Cosmo: 😂 Cosmo: that'd be a pretty specific fetish don't you think Amber: I don't know what you're saying to me, boy Amber: & you hate assumptions more than anyone I've ever met Cosmo: I refuse to believe you know anyone that likes them Amber: when you're that stoned whatever helps shit flow is a blessing Cosmo: less human more 🥔 Amber: 👽✌ Cosmo: intelligent lifeform might be pushing it Amber: calling me unintelligent is gonna push me towards 😠 Cosmo: I weren't talking about you Amber: it's what I do too Cosmo: yeah well Cosmo: you're self-described different Amber: you put that label on me Cosmo: Did I? Cosmo: sounds more like something you'd say Amber: how many headers do you do at training? maybe take a break & just kick the ball Cosmo: 😏 any more reference and can accuse you of swotting up Amber: ⬆ not unintelligent Cosmo: 🤓 Amber: yes & I have questions like why 9? Cosmo: its to do with position, at least on our team Cosmo: goalie is 1 and it goes from there Amber: if you change position, am I gonna have to wear a different necklace? you said you can Cosmo: I won't, I'm the best Cosmo: but when I get on the main squad somewhere, when I'm 18, then might be different Cosmo: keep you posted Amber: 💌 Cosmo: right Cosmo: reckon you'll have changed address by then? Amber: if my mama breaks up with her boyfriend, potentially Amber: we came here because my dad's girlfriend wanted 👶s & he didn't Cosmo: isn't it hard Cosmo: where you live depending on so many people Amber: if we go somewhere that has no clean water or electric again Amber: it's hard when nobody speaks the same language Cosmo: do you like it Amber: yes & no Cosmo: like, would you prefer to just live in a house with your mum, or dad, whoever Amber: sometimes we do Cosmo: why do they do it Amber: they go where they feel needed Amber: my mama's a midwife, she's saved women's lives before Cosmo: How long have you been here? Amber: it'll be 7 months in about a week Amber: they don't up & go as often since they left me in India & I nearly died Cosmo: you what Amber: 🐍 it's when & why I got the tattoo Cosmo: bullshit Amber: come sleep over & you'll see me wake up in the middle of the night thinking there's one in my bed Cosmo: that's fucked Cosmo: who did they even leave you with Amber: friends Amber: they went ahead to Vietnam Cosmo: that's ridiculous Amber: they didn't know I was gonna get bitten Cosmo: not really the point Amber: let me guess, the point is they are bad parents? Cosmo: I didn't say it Amber: you're being confrontational & I have another ⚽ question Amber: 🤫 Cosmo: go on Amber: can anyone come & watch you risk your short term memory & ability to refocus your 👀 doing too many headers or is it only the matches that get an audience? Cosmo: We have 2 matches a week, friendlies out of season but you can come to that Cosmo: coach doesn't like people coming to training though Amber: I would be trouble Amber: diverting the attention of the players Cosmo: Oh really Amber: yes really Amber: but I'll try and blend into the crowd at matches Amber: hide behind whatever sign I've made that week Cosmo: if you have a sign, you won't be blending in much Amber: [pouty face selfie] Amber: there's etiquette? share the dos and don'ts with me Cosmo: 😏 Cosmo: big teams might have signs Cosmo: I'll give you a lowdown and you can get out the poster paints for whoever Amber: what about this... Amber: [selfie of her with gold stars and a 9 drawn on her face looking so cute] Amber: allowed or not allowed? Cosmo: did you really just do that Amber: yes? Cosmo: you're crazy Amber: but if that a do and don't? Amber: you're keeping me waiting Cosmo: yeah, I am Cosmo: maybe you'll pout again Amber: or maybe I'll hit you instead of your brother Amber: is this a game you wanna play, boy? Cosmo: you'd have to find me for that Cosmo: I'm harder to reach in all the ways Amber: I'll reach out when you're ⚽ Amber: that schedule is easy to find with what you've already told me Cosmo: when you're a master stalker like you Amber: true Amber: but thank you for leaving the crazy out on that occasion Cosmo: I think its implied Cosmo: but you're very welcome Amber: so many things are with you Cosmo: Or are you hearing implications where they ain't Amber: how many kinds of crazy are you saying I've got, huh? Cosmo: 🤔 Amber: 😏 Cosmo: you like crazy, you're that type Amber: I like authentic Amber: whatever that means to whoever I'm with Cosmo: So you change person by person Cosmo: howis that authentic Amber: how is that what I said Amber: I like people who are themselves, whether that's crazy or not Cosmo: That's not saying anything Cosmo: everyone is themselves Cosmo: and no one likes everyone Cosmo: its compatibility, simple as Amber: you were closer to being onto something when you said people change person to person Amber: plenty of the everyone are scared to be themselves Amber: or unable for other reasons Cosmo: you would say that Amber: what are you implying with that? Cosmo: that you can be yourself without living in a yurt for a year Cosmo: sometimes you is a lot like what you're meant to be, doesn't mean its any less real Amber: & you can be fake living in a yurt for two Amber: plenty of the people at the farm would dial up their 'hippie bullshit' when talking to you and be less deliberately 'quirky' later talking to me Amber: I'm not saying I'm always bringing 110% realness, just that that's how I prefer it Amber: when I am Amber: and people around me are Cosmo: its easier to take people as they come Cosmo: why am I putting in the legwork Cosmo: if that's how you wanna be seen, how you present yourself, then who am I to try and dig deeper and say you're lying Amber: too busy for genuine connection, boy, I know Amber: called it in our first conversation Cosmo: nah fuck that Cosmo: it ain't your business Amber: I'm not getting into yours, breathe out Cosmo: people like you piss me off Amber: maybe you'd be less angry if you followed your own advice & took people on an individual basis Amber: you don't need to categorise me Cosmo: whatever, you piss me off Cosmo: if you'd like to make it more personal than it is Amber: I've said something to piss you off Amber: it's only me & you talking Cosmo: well there's no need now Amber: quit being the rudest boy I've ever met Cosmo: that's just who I am Amber: that 🌟 is Dash's Amber: don't start sibling rivalry there wasn't on my account Amber: competing for it Cosmo: don't compare us Amber: you aren't comparable, that's the point Amber: he thinks my name is Anna Cosmo: he's not the sharpest Cosmo: there's only one, how do you fuck it up, like Amber: 🚬🌿 in large quantities messes with your memory Amber: but that's not it Cosmo: you don't need to tell me Amber: I'm not gonna Cosmo: good Amber: do you really not want to talk to me at all though? Cosmo: we've got nothing in common Cosmo: what would we talk about Amber: we barely know each other Amber: there's plenty to talk about Cosmo: but why Amber: why do I wanna know you? why don't you wanna know me? Cosmo: 🙄 come on Amber: it's a question, why don't you? Amber: because you're too busy, because I slept with your brother, because of something else, what? Cosmo: Jesus, do you ever stop Cosmo: because we're not the same, it doesn't work in any way, so there's no point starting anything Amber: if you want it like that Amber: I'll green light it Cosmo: its just how it is Amber: I don't have to be convinced to respect what you think Amber: do I get a goodbye then? Cosmo: Don't be like that Amber: that's how I end conversations Amber: how do you? Cosmo: I don't know Cosmo: fine Amber: ✌🕊👋 Cosmo: for fuck sake Amber: what's wrong? Cosmo: you don't care about anything yeah Amber: of course I care about things Amber: 👽 isn't the same as 🤖 Cosmo: then why is everything so easy for you Amber: why do you wanna make shit hard for me? Cosmo: you twisted it Cosmo: that's not what I said Amber: there's no way to twist you calling me a waste of your time Cosmo: I said a mutual waste of our time Amber: it's not up to you how I spend mine Cosmo: like I said, why Cosmo: why are you happy to waste yours Amber: I don't see it as a waste of time to meet and get to know people Cosmo: even people you don't like Amber: I've never expressed any dislike for you Cosmo: well you have Cosmo: but you should so it's okay Amber: I haven't Cosmo: I'm rude Cosmo: and a prick and whatever else Cosmo: the truest shit you've said Amber: maybe I like rude pricks Cosmo: all your ther mates are like me, yeah Amber: get to know me & find out Cosmo: I told you, I can't come there alright Amber: I'll come to you Amber: where & when? Cosmo: You're Amber: I'm ? Cosmo: really annoying Amber: [even more pouty faced selfie than before] Amber: are you this annoyed when any girl wants to spend time with you or just me? Cosmo: why do you want me to be gay so bad, hurt your ego? Amber: it's not about ego Cosmo: well I'm not Cosmo: gay, that is Amber: okay Cosmo: glad you approve Amber: how would you like me to respond? Amber: it's not a big deal if you are or you aren't Cosmo: I'd say its fairly important Amber: are you a time traveller? Cosmo: no Cosmo: its a massive part of your identity and life Amber: that depends on your identity and life Cosmo: exactly Cosmo: you've proved my point, not your own Amber: it's not a big deal for everyone, you wanna fight about it to fight about it Cosmo: you wanna be right but you ain't Amber: I don't wanna be friends with you because you're gay or not gay Amber: & I'm not gonna act like getting to know you means finding out your sexuality & being done Cosmo: its not irrelevant Cosmo: and I don't see how you dismissing anything and everything I say as such is any more conducive to getting to know each other but you know best, Amber Amber: I didn't put a word like that to it, stop trying to drag me Amber: if you took some of your precious time to listen instead of deliberately misunderstanding me at every turn, that would be Cosmo: I'm good Amber: I'm setting context for you, like in the realm of us being friends it doesn't matter to me who you sleep with Cosmo: We aren't friends and we never will be, that's the reality unfolding right before us so Cosmo: fuck a hypothetical Amber: ⬆ if that's how you want it Amber: we could be anything Cosmo: If we could, we would Amber: if you're shutting it down we can't & we won't Cosmo: I'm not shutting anything down, this is what I'm saying Cosmo: we talk different, we make friends different, nothing is compatitible Amber: we aren't friends and we NEVER will be is what you said Amber: that's not being open Amber: you don't have to have everything be compatible or agree with everything your friends think Cosmo: there has to be some common ground Amber: we haven't looked for it, it's been a whole minute since you've known me Cosmo: are you a time traveller? Amber: you had a good time, I was there Amber: stop it Cosmo: I know Cosmo: but that's weird Cosmo: who the fuck are you Amber: it can be weird but it can't be you making out I've lost my fucking mind Cosmo: I'm trying not to fuck you over here Amber: you're not trying to do anything Amber: why did you even give me your number? Cosmo: I am Cosmo: I don't know Cosmo: it was Cosmo: it felt right at the time Amber: & now it doesn't Amber: so do you want it back? Cosmo: no Cosmo: you don't have to keep it but I don't Cosmo: you wants yours back Amber: it's yours now Cosmo: it looks special, are you sure? Amber: I already gave it to you Amber: I wouldn't have if I didn't wanna Cosmo: no one's ever given me anything like that before Amber: that's what this is, I've creeped you out Cosmo: no, that's not what I was saying, honestly Amber: I didn't like how we left shit, because of Dash & because I upset you before he got there Amber: it wasn't meant to be a new ending but it can be Cosmo: You didn't upset me Cosmo: I didn't know what to do, and I still don't now Cosmo: its not your fault Amber: I'm sorry Amber: it wasn't meant to be some big, confusing situation either Cosmo: its really not your fault Cosmo: you don't need to say sorry Amber: I feel like I do Cosmo: You're too nice Cosmo: I can't be that, Cosmo: but I don;t want to make you feel like shit Amber: you haven't Amber: it's my mistake Cosmo: it weren't a mistake Cosmo: to me Amber: thinking that we were gonna hang out again, that's where I misjudged it Amber: It's okay Amber: things can just be what they they were and have a . after them Cosmo: I want to Cosmo: but you Cosmo: I don't know how to act around you Amber: act however you want Amber: authentic Cosmo: That isn't what I wanna be around you Cosmo: that's this Cosmo: or worse Amber: it doesn't have to be Cosmo: but if I fake being nice to you Cosmo: isn't that just as bad Amber: I'll decide how I feel about how you are and what you do Amber: what do you think I want? Amber: fake is never gonna come into it Cosmo: I have no idea, that's half the problem Cosmo: its usually obvious Cosmo: not even a question Amber: so I need to spell it out for you? Cosmo: don't take the piss, like Amber: I'm asking Cosmo: Fuck it, I've already gone this far Cosmo: go on Amber: there's no conspiracy, I just wanna see you again Amber: get more time to figure out if the vibe is more than just that Cosmo: Okay Cosmo: when Amber: fit me around training Amber: I'm not busy Cosmo: I will Cosmo: expect my 💌 Amber: I will Cosmo: have you been able to avoid my brother then Amber: no Amber: but he wants to talk about me not TO me, no big deal Cosmo: he's immature as fuck Amber: enough girls hang on his every word at the farm he expects me to, even after....everything you don't wanna hear about Cosmo: he's never got a girl that hasn't drank the kool-aid Cosmo: he dunno how to act either Amber: if they like the taste that's chill but I didn't Cosmo: no amount of sugar is detracting from the 💀 Amber: 😋 Cosmo: if you're still talking about my brother you can shut up though Amber: 😂 Cosmo: 😒😏 Amber: I know I'm supposed to wait but a little 🐦 told me you like clubbing Amber: can't we go? Cosmo: do 🐜 like clubbing too? Amber: if you wanna wear the necklace you don't need my say so Amber: it's yours Cosmo: what do you wanna be then? Amber: what animal? Cosmo: yeah Amber: 🦇 Cosmo: alright drac, do you like clubbing? Amber: I don't know yet Amber: I've never been Cosmo: forreal? Amber: Yes Amber: you gonna pop my 🍒 or not? Cosmo: have to now Cosmo: be rude not to Amber: when? Cosmo: cute Cosmo: maybe we could go this friday Amber: [a selfie like yeah I am cute] Cosmo: don't you wanna hit your socials with that Amber: you've seen it now Cosmo: you're rude Amber: that's not true Cosmo: nah Cosmo: what do you call looking like that then Amber: you're not ready to take me clubbing if that's your reaction to what I look like atm Cosmo: oh really Cosmo: you're ditching me already Cosmo: see, rude Amber: I can't carry you when you get all 😳 & hit the ground, boy Cosmo: please Cosmo: I won't be looking at you, like Amber: yes you will Cosmo: you'd know Cosmo: 👀 on me Amber: you're level with the sky Amber: where else am I gonna look, at my own feet? Cosmo: no skyline in the club, hippie Cosmo: you manage? Amber: find out on Friday Cosmo: Its a date Amber: 💞 Cosmo: 👍 Amber: what do you like to drink? Amber: 🍾? 🍹? 🍺? 🍸? 🍷? Cosmo: Yeah, shots mostly Cosmo: not wasting calories or time, obviously Cosmo: someone will usually get some bottle service too Amber: 👌 we can be friends Cosmo: that was the key bit of info you were waiting for Cosmo: fair 'nuff 😂 Amber: 😏 Cosmo: priorities, like 👌 Amber: tequila deserves it for being delicious Cosmo: salud Amber: ជល់មួយ Cosmo: pardon Amber: cheers Cosmo: what language Amber: Cambodian Cosmo: how many do you know Amber: I can only speak English 'properly' Amber: a handful of words in plenty of languages doesn't really count Cosmo: still impressive party trick Amber: the boys love it Cosmo: I bet Amber: 😂 Cosmo: leads to so many quality chatup lines 'bout what else that mouth do, duh 🙄 Amber: trigger warning Amber: yes my 👅 can do plenty of impressive things but if that's how anyone is trying to find out Amber: they won't be Cosmo: that's just standard shit club chat, but I know you've heard it other places, so no need for the warning Amber: if I can hear it at the club the 🎶 isn't loud enough Cosmo: you ain't the only one with persistence Cosmo: soz to say Amber: [the pout he loves so dearly] Cosmo: 👊 Amber: pardon Cosmo: 😂 Amber: are you trying to scare me away from the club or you? Cosmo: its only digital, it can't hurt ya Cosmo: you've given me my 🌟 for not hitting women so Amber: but the suggestion is 💔 Cosmo: come on Cosmo: that lip is just asking for it Amber: I don't accept you putting any part of me & asking for it in the same sentence Cosmo: s'a joke Cosmo: you're safe Amber: you're not getting a 🌟 for comedy Cosmo: If you ever make me IRL 😂 either I'll let you know Amber: I'm not doing 🤡 makeup on Friday Amber: you're safe Cosmo: I won't be the one getting looks Amber: I get looks with or without Cosmo: surprised anyone can see you all the way down there Amber: 🤫 so unoriginal Cosmo: just 'cos I'm doubting how original you are Amber: why?! Cosmo: 😏 Amber: let me defend myself by giving me an answer Cosmo: I meant, you're cute, but are you THAT cute Amber: what's your definition of THAT cute? Cosmo: you don't need to know Amber: I can't tell you if I am if I don't Cosmo: nice try, drac Amber: 🙄 Cosmo: what's yours then Amber: it's about how he makes me feel Cosmo: hmm Cosmo: copout Amber: I'll hit you with a lie next time if you like Cosmo: I'm just glad I didn't answer truthfully if that's the way we're going at it Amber: you didn't answer so I don't know how you can say I copped out Amber: did you want me to describe my last boyfriend's looks? Cosmo: looks is what I meant, obviously Cosmo: clubs too loud, like you said Amber: it makes sense except the only thing they've had in common was being 'tall' which at my height allows for plenty of variation Cosmo: 🚫 hobbits allowed Amber: you're silly Cosmo: you Amber: you even more Cosmo: you to the 🌙 and back Amber: stop being Cosmo: what? Amber: adorable 🤓 Cosmo: I'm 💪 Amber: not atm Cosmo: oi Cosmo: you can't see Amber: I was going on how you were acting Amber: but let me 👀 Cosmo: [a lowkey 💦 trap moment] Amber: okay Cosmo: it's alright, I can easily hold you up when you 😳 Amber: I can literally 👀 your 😏 you prick Cosmo: you ain't mad Amber: you can't see, boy Cosmo: pout at me one more time Amber: no Cosmo: why not Amber: because you like it Cosmo: oh do I Amber: I was there, you know Cosmo: Yeah, I remember Amber: 🌟 Cosmo: 💫 Amber: 🌠 Cosmo: 🌌 Amber: what club? Cosmo: I'm still debating Amber: which is your favourite? Cosmo: I like baseline Cosmo: you might prefer utopia Amber: take me there, I wanna go where you feel like Cosmo: okay Amber: do you take anything? Cosmo: 🚬💊🍄? Amber: if you want it, I'll get it Cosmo: I can do some molly or white on Fridays Cosmo: as long as its out my system by Monday Cosmo: we get drug-tested Cosmo: s'for steroids obviously but if they see anything you're out so Amber: it's up to you Amber: I'm not trying to fuck with your training Cosmo: are you gonna be 🚬🌿? Amber: I'll do what you do Cosmo: we don't need anything your first time Amber: if we don't, I'll remember it better Cosmo: better or worse, batgirl Amber: you think I won't enjoy myself? Cosmo: I think you enjoy yourself anywhere Amber: except school Cosmo: well yeah, you're not totally insane Amber: what's yours like? Amber: do you have to memorise famous footballers? Cosmo: 😂 Cosmo: that'd be better Cosmo: its the same basically, we just do more sports Amber: do they let girls go there? Cosmo: yeah, we have women's teams Amber: what colour is your team though? Cosmo: ☘ Cosmo: of course 🙄 Amber: is your mascot a leprechaun too? Cosmo: we don't have some poor bastard in a giant foam suit, nah Amber: any Irish dancers on the sidelines? Cosmo: 😑 Cosmo: no Amber: have you always lived here? Cosmo: Yep Cosmo: no yurts in my past, I'm afraid Cosmo: I'm not even convinced that's what I mean but you've not corrected me so Amber: because I know what you mean Amber: it's heavily implied Cosmo: s'all the same Cosmo: fabric over some sticks so you don't 💀 Amber: essentially Cosmo: unless a 🐍 gets in Amber: it's not funny Cosmo: I know Cosmo: crazy though Amber: I was really fucking scared Cosmo: obviously Cosmo: it was venomous? Amber: yes Cosmo: christ Amber: I didn't keep it as a pet, you're safe Cosmo: Yeah I'm well concerned for myself here Amber: & I do appreciate it but it was 2 years ago Cosmo: that's alright then Amber: I just mean there's nothing you can do unless you are a time traveller Cosmo: might be Amber: are you? Cosmo: you think you've got access to that info now? Cosmo: don't think so Amber: 🍒 please share the info 🍒 Cosmo: I'd have to 🔫 ya Amber: BOY Cosmo: GIRL Amber: 😠 Cosmo: 😟 Amber: you're being unfriendly again Cosmo: No I'm not Cosmo: that's a water pistol that Amber: tell me your secrets Cosmo: that work with your ex, girl Amber: he wasn't a time traveller Amber: 95% sure Cosmo: I never saw him at the secret meetings Amber: how far back through my pics have you scrolled? Cosmo: 95% sure Cosmo: Haven't Amber: then you don't know what he looks like 👥 Cosmo: I can guess Amber: presumptuous Amber: 100% Cosmo: Not wrong though Cosmo: guaranteed Amber: are all footballers this smug or did I just luck out with you? Cosmo: ☘ Cosmo: don't categorize me, Amber Amber: I'm asking if any of your friends are worth my time Amber: less about you Cosmo: You ain't gonna meet 'em Amber: not through you Amber: but if I come & watch you play, they'll also be there Cosmo: you aren't their type Cosmo: I wouldn't bother Amber: 🙄 Amber: what % sure are you on that? Cosmo: 100% Amber: for the whole team? Cosmo: Yeah? Amber: what's their 'type' then? Cosmo: you can't chameleon your way into it Cosmo: even with a lot of hair dye and the highest heels going Amber: I'm curious but not to that degree Cosmo: its not something you need to devote any brainspace to, they don't Amber: understanding how a group of superficial time travellers banded together for ⚽ sounds like it's worth a few moments of quite contemplation Amber: quiet* Cosmo: 🙄 Cosmo: you're so used to being everyone's type Cosmo: leave your bubble a bit more Amber: you're rolling your 👀s at me but not high heels and highlights being considered a 'type' Cosmo: what's wrong with either Amber: they aren't personality traits, they're aesthetics Cosmo: and? Amber: ⬆ superficial Cosmo: maybe Cosmo: so are they Cosmo: you 😢 over it is unnecessary Amber: because I'm a girl I must be crying... Cosmo: no, 'cos you're crying Cosmo: you don't know them, why are you bothered Amber: you know them, why don't you think they should get out of their bubble? Cosmo: like I said, that doesn't mean they have to go down to commune and hang out with yous Cosmo: people like what they like Amber: not a suggestion I was making either Cosmo: so what, you're all for 💕 suddenly Cosmo: people can do what they like, freedom, remember Amber: you want my bubble popped but you don't like my questions Cosmo: what questions, you're moaning Amber: ... Cosmo: I'll give you fake next time Cosmo: if you can't hack it Amber: next time? presumptuous Amber: I'll find someone else to 'moan' to Cosmo: you're not coming clubbing then Amber: of course I am Amber: we won't be talking Cosmo: you can go by yourself then Amber: I will then Cosmo: 👍 Cosmo: have fun Amber: thank you Cosmo: 👋 around Amber: ✌🕊👽

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