#and simon deserves someone who will give him back the unconditional selfless love he puts out into the world

[mymitochondriaforpresident]

Season THREE inherently will be the best season. I feel it. I feel it in my mitochondrias. 🙌🏼🙌🏼🙌🏼🙌🏼

The relief. The relief on their faces. 🥹💜

They are smiling. Together. 🥹💜

Now how am I supposed to function today after seeing Wilmon being so cute like that.. smiles and happy!!! 😭😭😭💜💜

Season 3 let's goooo! 🎉🎉

Source: Netflix

[nanf1c]

Annual Writing Self-Evaluation

I was tagged by beautiful @malecbane-wood thank you my dear! This ended up longer than I thought but it actually helped me to reflect on my year as a writer.

*All answers should be about works published in 2017

1. List of works published this year:

These Long Days Without You Have Me Missing Home (You)

Right Where We Are

Never Stop

The Magnus Babe

Kiss Me

Please Stay

A Helping Hand

Mr. Lightwood

Perfect

Rectify

Burning Bright

Unlikely Friends

So You Wanna Start A War

2. Work you are most proud of (and why):

I am very proud of my first fic posted, A Helping Hand, because what turned into me just having a quick oneshot of the season 2a finale turned out to be a multichapterd epic ending that wouldn’t have been written without the tremendous response from amazing readers who pushed me to write more, it has ranked number 1 in kudos and hits to this day.  I am also proud of Burning Bright, it is my first au i am still tackling to write, but putting the characters into my own universe and helping establish them as people in the real world falling in love is such a creative exercise, though it may get frustrating, i always learn something when i post a new chapter.  It is also highly liked by readers as well and it honestly makes me so extremely happy that they like reading these characters in my au.

3. Work you are least proud of (and why):

I am proud of everything I manage to write, post and get responses from, even if it isn’t liked by a lot of people I am still proud of myself for pushing to write more and more.

4. A favorite excerpt of your writing:

oh god dammit, okay, ummmmmm... probably from A Helping Hand after Madzie and Magnus save Alec:

Magnus hears Alec hum, trying to get his attention without waking the little warlock asleep on his chest. He turns and is met with full blown hazel eyes staring right back, a soft smile covering his face, his arm reached out, palm open, a silent plea to join him. Magnus allows a soft smile as he walks over and takes his hand, calloused and rough from years of training.

Alec notices Magnus’s hand is slightly shakes as he places it in his and his brow creases in concern, a silent question in his eyes. ‘We’re both alive and safe, what’s wrong?’

Magnus takes a deep breath and releases it raggedly as the events of the night plague his mind, questioning what if he and Madzie weren’t able to heal him. What if Alec bled out too quickly? He would have lost him tonight. His eyes gloss over with unshed tears, unable to stand the thought of losing Alec. He opens his mouth to explain, but can’t fathom the words and closes it. Alec senses this and releases his hand as he sits up to gently lift Madzie from his chest and places her sleeping form on the couch in his warm spot. He stands and tugs on Magnus’s shoulders, tightly embracing him and manifesting as much comfort as he can for this wonderful man.

He buries his mouth and nose in the space between Magnus’s shoulder and neck and just breathes him in, closing his eyes, feeling the rush of tears as he releases an equally ragged breath, unable to think about what would have happened if he didn’t wake up. He needed this just as much as Magnus did. Magnus squeezes him back just as forcefully and released a choked sob of relief for him being alive, of unconditional love he feels for this man that he would do anything for, of release from the stress and anxiety he was put in tonight. They both let their tears flow softly and unashamedly as they slowly swayed and rubbed comforting circles in each other’s backs.

They both lean back to look at each other but don’t go far, arms still clinging to the other’s body, their noses brushing softly. Alec takes a deep breath and releases it as he takes in Magnus’s soft features and closes his eyes, pushing them together temple to temple as they just take in this blessed moment of silence and comfort in each other’s arms. He runs his hands soothingly up and down Magnus’s arms. Magnus smiles to himself, of course Alec would be the one to almost die tonight and comfort Magnus instead of caring for himself. That was his Alexander though, selfless and endlessly caring toward the people he loved.

Alec had never uttered the words, but Magnus knew what he felt for this man was pure unconditional love, he would always love Alec and always be there for him, no matter what.  He releases one last shaky breath, tears subsiding as he notices movement behind Alec. He lets out a soft laugh and says, “I think it’s someone else's turn.”

Alec’s brow furrows in confusion and turns around. He’s faced with Madzie kneeling on the edge of the couch, arms outstretched in a silent plea, but not in a panic, rather in a soft way of asking if she could be a part of the moment.

Alec smiles softly and looks at Magnus, exhaustion written on his face, and looks at Madzie, sporting the same look. He cautiously crouches down to her level so she could wrap her arms around him as he lifts her up. She lays her head on his shoulder, eyes half open and fighting off sleep as much as possible. He holds her securely to his chest with one arm and grabs Magnus’s hand with his other, leading them toward the bedroom.

5. Share or describe a favorite comment you received:

I don’t call these comments, @blj2007 leaves fucking essays istg

I literally had to zoom out so much to fit this beautiful shit, she tells me she runs out of room for comments and I...???? how?? I don’t deserve her AT ALL also she betas for me and KNOWS what my stories look like before I post them and STILL writes these fucking essays for me, I love you B <3

Also anything written by @redappleblossom <3 I hope you don’t mind me posting this, it’s only one of many beautiful comments that make me so happy and want to write more and I can’t thank you enough for your support! Also usually any comment by @ladymatt and comments saying my stories helped them with something personally or would love to re read my stories on rainy days, it makes me so happy!!

 6. A time when writing was really, really hard:

summer was really hard, I didn’t have the motivation and the story i was working on (and still am) isn’t properly plotted out, i just write what comes to me and feels natural, if i don’t feel good about a chapter I won’t post it unless my betas kick my ass to do it.  Also right now, currently going through a rut, I wanted to post a malec christmas fic but just couldn’t, I had all the ideas in my head, even wrote a few down, but never did them. With the new year I plan on pushing myself more and practicing writing, even giving myself just basic prompts and going from that.  Any type of writing is always helpful.

7. A scene or character you wrote that surprised you:

Burning Bright is my first au and i’m honestly so surprised and pleased with the outcome of relationships between everyone.  I don’t usually incorporate every character from shadowhunters, but with BB I am trying to go that extra step. I really like the friendship i created with Alec and Simon and the bond between Alec and his dog Copernicus.  Writing about them makes me so happy and can honestly feel effortless sometimes!

8. How did you grow as a writer this year?:

I grew as a writer by becoming a fucking writer.  Before this year, I didn’t write at all.  I was honestly so inspired from years of reading fanfiction and falling in love with Shadowhunters, I couldn’t resist trying my hand and i am so grateful that I did, it has opened me up to a lot of things I didn’t know about myself, i’ve met some amazing people who have become very close friends and I will be forever thankful for that.

9. How do you hope to grow next year?:

I want to challenge myself by setting dates or laying out a plan to actually finish my stories, mainly Burning Bright.  I also want to challenge myself by writing more aus since they are difficult for me, but so fun to accomplish.  Also, reading more! You learn a lot when you read.

10. Who was your greatest positive influence this year as a writer (could be  another writer or beta or cheerleader or muse etc etc)?:

@damnyoudaddario and @blj2007 hands down.  They have inspired me, pushed me, helped me and motivated me in every way.  Not only do they listen to my ideas, they help me where help is needed and leave the sweetest comments on my stories.  We have an amazing connection and don’t go a day without talking, we all play parts of keeping the others sane in our insane lives <3 (usually just send them any gifs of matt or harry and their days are instantly better, there are a lot of matt attacks that happen)

11. Anything from your real life show up in your writing this year?:

Yes and it is honestly sometimes hard to write about, but it can also be theraputic.  That’s also why I find Burning Bright difficult to write about sometimes.  I share a few characteristics with Alec and when people comment about him and the courage he has or the lack of it due to trauma, those comments actually help me a lot too in my own life and it’s amazing.

12. Any new wisdom you can share with other writers?:

It can be difficult, but if you are ever in a writing rut, don’t be afraid to walk away from your story and focus on something else.  Sometimes walking away is what you need to do.  Don’t be afraid to get an outsiders perspective, it can be very helpful.  One thing that really helps me to get ideas is literally just going out in the world and writing from experiences of your own.  I daydream a lot and am constantly making up stories that could be going on right in front of me wherever i am, don’t be afraid to put your characters in your own universe.

13. Any projects you’re looking forward to starting (or finishing) in the new year?:

I’m looking forward to writing more of Burning Bright, can’t say i’ll finish it but i will definitely be writing more.  I wanna try malec and the boys in Jurassic Park and also malec as assassins based off of one of my favorite books series, The League by Sherrilyn Kenyon.  I am also excited for season 3 of Shadowhunters, I usually get inspired by events in episodes and try to write my own twist on them.

14. Tag five writers/artists whose answers you’d like to read:

don’t feel obligated at all! @damnyoudaddario @blj2007 @ladymatt @female-overlord-3 @imawriteriwrite