#and she's so right honestly pistachios are bis

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friday kiss tag!!

thank u to @the-golden-comet for the cuteness that is Noah and Ali and @tragedycoded for delivering a gun-fucking cake with smooches baked in <3

Rules: Kiss: From your story/WIP, share a kiss. It can be any kiss, from familial pecks in the cheek, forehead kisses, platonic smooches, to full-blown makeouts. Non-kiss: Share a snippet of your writing!

i actually have a kiss to share this week! a sort-of kiss. an almost kiss? presenting Hoot and Lee and their *waves hand* dynamic:

It wasn't the first time she'd looked at him like that, like he was a pistachio that she wanted to roll on her tongue. She liked touching him, especially when she had a few glasses of wine and was angry about something. It made his skin feel warm, like he'd been laying in the sun. It made him shiver when she stepped closer and then closer still until the line of her body traced his. Chest against chest, he felt her every breath and matched it with his own. "Okay, buddy?" she asked, tracing her knuckles against his cheek. He knew that Callan wouldn't be happy if he pressed his lips against her cheek, against her jaw. If he drew a sigh from her, if he placed his palms against the small of her back and pulled her closer. He knew, and he did it anyway. "I missed you," he whispered to the skin of her throat, just above her pulse. She tilted her chin, an invitation. Her hands found his shoulders, his chest. And she— she was shaking. He pulled away. "We can just—" "Yeah." She dropped her hands and stepped back, toying with the hem of her shirt. "No, yeah. You're right."

tag!! show me the kisses >:)

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clicks my fingers to no humanly discernible rhythm as i strut bk onto the dash w chara number two!! (it’s me nai bk again bt this time wearing a stick on moustache). bradley’s pinterest is HERE n u kno the drill mre abt her under the cut n like this fr those Sweet Sweet plots!!

MARGARET QUALLEY / CIS-FEMALE — don’t look now, but is that bradley milligan i see? the 23 year old psychology student is in their junior year and she is a rochester alum. i hear they can be brave, resilient, destructive and ruthless, so maybe keep that in mind. i bet she will make a name for themselves living in off campus. ( nai. 23. gmt. she/her. )

aesthetics: singeing a hole in your fishnets with the cherry of a menthol, spitting a pistachio behind the bar just to hear it ping off the nozzle top bottles, lemon in a fresh cut, a war torn poppy standing alone in an empty field, poking bruises, stomping over flowerbeds when there’s a path right next to it, dangling over ledges just to feel your chest jolt, a snarling rottweiler that should be muzzled, limp feet poking out behind a door, ‘I PROMISE I DON’T BITE’ scrawled on a name tag, slapping a bald head in front of you at the cinema like it’s a bongo, not owning a single jacket that isn’t stolen, driving a stolen car in the wrong lane against the traffic, blowing coke in someone’s face after asking “hey, does this smell funny to you?”, hair more feral than a wolf cub and eyes smudgier than a coal mine.  

BACKGROUND:

father runs a gang n strip club in queens called ‘no angels’ tht fronts an affluent drug trade, primarily coke. his name is tony milligan n his gang is p infamous around there fr being jst like…. completely cutthroat n awful. they were nicknamed ‘tony’s rottweilers’ by locals bc he bsically has all of these trained dogs on leash at his command n they’re still a growing organisation tday

he’s pretty much the worst human being alive n bradley hs like….. a lot of issues with herself as a result of years of toxicity n abuse

in terms of more family bkground info her mum’s name was alyssa n she vanished when bradley was 12. jst like…. into thin air. nothing. no note. zilch. gan! n when bradley asked her dad abt it his response was essentially “guess she didn’t love us enough to stay”. as bradley’s got older tho n become (without intention) more involved in the business side of things, it’s become pretty clear there was far more to the story.

they had a horrible marriage n tony ws quite violent at the best of times, which didn’t help the fact tht alyssa ws struggling a lot w severe depression n rly just… not in the mindset to b dealing w anything else on top of tht, even where motherhood ws concerned. bradley p much… would look after her a lot n they’d both b scared of her dad n it was just a whole mess.

anyway im rambling bt basically tony (bradley’s dad) gt wind of alyssa sleeping w men tht worked fr him n he just… got rid. bradley’s kind of worked out over the yrs tht her mum didn’t jst leave on her own accord n tht something must hav happened to her bt she’s too scared of her dad to ever directly accuse him

when her mum went all of her dad’s cruelty pretty mch got channelled straight onto her. it ws diluted between two before bt as u can probably imagine her upbringing was jst…. a steep downhill decline frm tht point onwards

she learnt ways 2 deal w the incurring trauma bt they weren’t healthy ones at all! bsically jst. will do or take anything fr the distraction. chases a thrill like it’s the only way to remind her she’s alive. has absolutely no regard fr her own wellbeing n sometimes gets other ppl in trouble too bc she’s so insatiably reckless

she hd….2 separate stints of psychiatric hospitalisation n she never tlks abt it. like ever. acknowledging she’s been vulnerable is her worst nightmare n bc of the way her dad raised her she always thinks any sign of struggling within herself is weakness. truly does…. not kno how to properly emotion

CUT TO!!!! huntington beach. she’s currently living in a spacious loft above a rly busy bar tht i picture like. p close to campus so a lot of students prob frequent it?? she loves it bc she can sit on the window sill smoking n argue w ppl tht walk past drunk. jst randomly callin out like. nice chest hair Loser. i feel like she hasn’t even paid fr wifi she jst uses the bar’s free one n like. goes in there expecting free drinks all the time?? is jst like erm? i live here? let me drink? this is my house? aka she’s. a lot.

her dad’s opening up a new strip club (also called no angels bc he’s trying to lowkey make it like a chain) n he’s only allowed her to make the move bc she’s overseeing it kind of???? as well as a few guys tht worked fr him back in queens. one in particular called billy hs made the move n he’s a menace so. three cheers fr anarchy!

PERSONALITY:

the kind of sour cherry only certain people have a taste for

once drank a bottle of whiskey, insisted she could still do a cartwheel and accidentally kicked an old man’s front tooth out in the process. proceeded 2 collapse into a flower bed and laugh so much abt it that she cried

barely takes anything seriously 50% of the time and is angry the other 50%

if she was a coffee she’d be black with five grains of sugar that you couldn’t taste until the last sip

high functioning alcoholic. if u ever see her w a coffee cup u jst kno tht one sniff will confirm high alcohol percentage. honestly idk hw she does it her liver must b yellin

loyal to a point of fault. if she cares abt u and u murder a man in cold blood she’ll brawl anyone that says ur guilty

honestly wld probably fight a person over anything. sometimes she’ll jst be having a bad day n she’ll burst n take it out on whoever says the wrong thing. a minefield!

has the worst luck in romance…. ever. the majority of her past bfs hav been absolute beasts n as a result she kind of has the ‘romance is dead n love is a lie’ mentality

speakin of which i feel like she’s bi bt wldnt have dated a girl or anythin. like guys r probably…. her preference just bc historically theyv treated her worse n she hs a very self destructive personality like that. sexy!

dresses like courtney love, 2014 sky ferreira and a character from this is england had a baby. mostly wears stolen clothes from strangers and jackets that swamp her. hair is p much always a wild mess n she usually hd kind of smudgy/smoky makeup bcos apparently she’s allergic to combs and generally looking presentable… relatable content

she’s v sarcastic. sometimes blunt. kind of has a habit of…. assessing a person n she’s quite perceptive bc she’s been trained to b by the way she always has to monitor her dad’s expression fr the slightest emotion change. she’s quite confident n can p much mke a conversation out of whatever. sort of independent too like she hs a bunch of friends bt she doesn’t care abt going out places alone if she’s in a certain mood n jst wants…… to get into chaos. she’s probably kind of known around campus bt itd b a 50/50 balance between bein known as intimidating n bein known as that one girl tht always gets into anarchy

likes: fishnets, stealing cars, throwing watermelons off rooftops and whiskey

dislikes: amy schumer, honesty, yellow tulips and going home

PLOTS:

someone tht got a job at the new strip club her dad opened up in town?? either as a dancer or bartender or whtever. just a forewarning it’s probably gna b a pretty..... seedy and Not That Pleasant environment bc it’s like. a crime hotspot inevitably bc it’s a gang hangout so. ur chara wld truly be in fr a rollercoaster ride to say the least

she deals coke fr her dad’s gang bt it’s more like. a hobby than a steady source of income tht she Needs bc she just likes the thrill of the fact tht encounters in tht line of work can turn sour tbh. a Thrill Seeker! mayb she deals to ur muse??

anyone….. she’s brawled in the past like. she’s literally a menace i cnt express this enough. wil jst randomly throw a drink in someone’s face fr no reason bc she’s bored. she’s probably pissed off 1000 diff ppl in 1000 diff ways. the possibilities r endless n i jst think tht’s a sexy prospect!

fwbs perhaps??? exes??? (probably ws a tumultuous relationship wtever…. ur muse is like like bradley is. a handful)

mayb someone tht she met at an aa meeting when she hd to go fr a court mandated thing one time after bein arrested fr public indecency. i feel like there’s probably a rly expensive statue somewhere thts fancily Sculpted n she like. did a flying kick n kicked the dick of it off n gt arrested fr it

ppl she……. Goes Wild Goes Crazy w. truly jst the most self destructive person alive so anyone w a similar mindset wld b a hellish bt fun combination

on the contrary a gd influence cld b nice perhaps? like someone tht genuinely cares abt her n she jst doesn’t kno hw to compute it

um. honestly the world’s our oyster. hmu n we cn brainstorm if none of tht catches ur eye!

[gleeandshame]

Love Victor 2x09 Semi-liveblogging

Penultimate ep... getting in the homestretch, I think? Sports metaphors, never done it

Spoilers below obvi

Honestly never took a mental health day in school

Idk if I was more stable then or it was just easier to ignore in HS

That Isabel impression

huh, tachin, sounds interesting. I really need to check out more food places, I live in a decent size city

Why is everything restaurant I google that's even close to that general region of origin like two dollar signs :'(

I'll try this place next to this other place though, eventually

Rahim, horrible internet search game

surely these kids have better literacy than that

Lol, dates running into each other

Well Victor is not on a date, just playing hookey ? Hokey .. hookie ... how spell Hooky. hooky.

He'll figure out Rahim is good for him though

Well, Rahim does have a certain voice, back on the "finally" telling his parents

"Happy holidays, I just love pistachios"

I've only had a pedicure once? I am so ticklish

Rahim has a boy or

Oh no, please don't hook up with older men, like yeah sex positive blah blah, but y'all are kids

oh that's better, a high schooler, if he's telling the truth

DO not meet up in a private location the first time.

I think maybe they won't vibe? Idk I'm still thinking Rahim and Victor are gonna be a thing

OH no, this guy is gonna say Rahim is too gay gay

I don't see Rahim toning it down in his texts?

White gay boys sure have the audacity don't they

I mean i met like 3 out of 4 online dating ppl didn't look exactly how i expected so fair.

Rahim isn't even like wearing flamboyant clothes

boy must have just been se.xting? Like how does his personality not come up

*knife emoji* at this white boy, just... walking away? you already skipped school and came to a cafe? geez

Hmm a break and separation parallel

I do miss that gay bar scene from Love Simon now

Victor f*cking smiling the whole time while complimenting Rahim

I see you

I have not been to a gay bar yet, my dad mentioned a popular one when we passed by once, thanks awkward but supportive dad?

RIP to lesbian bars, none really exist anymore

Someone definitely had a Misty outfit whether intentional or not

"types" that a long convo

every girl is attractive

but girls I'm attracted to? that's different, hmmm. I do have a super specific type from my "first love" and my rebound who looked just like her. LOL

My current crush is just you know... sort of generic cute girl, looks wise, no offense

Very into her kindness and personality though

Yeah, Benji likes Victor back, but you shouldn't settle for availability

that's what I'm kinda wondering with my crush... if she just likes me because I like her. Lol, hate gay struggles

bi lighting for these gay men (I know it's just clubs and action movies and cyber punk but)

Oh... is... he gonna be his first kiss right now?

I didn't have my first kiss still 23, almost 24.

A gay show isn't a gay show without a musical number

Pose and Broken Hearts Gallery are two other things I watched recently with singing

Rahim what the hell, you sound like a professional

what the heck

Justin Bieber christian song, LOOOOl

Lol, did they get singing doubles or, maybe just Super Produced

There are the heart eyes... kiss after this song, wanna bet $20

Did she track his phone?

JK i didn't bet any of you, I'm keeping my 20. I was joking...

OKay Isa, i tear up a little

Aw, more specific wording :')

"I said outside of gay bars"

OH, when you drop off a friend and it feels like a date but it's a not-date and you don't know what to do, Relatable

they fluttered their eyelashes at each other, I Can Not

Lol, not talking One Day, relatable to my Almost GF

can victor, mia, lake, and felix, have like a good time again at the wedding tho... maybe not...

breaks need to be more than a day

heck a day is normal in busy life

Mmm, yeah, that's fine, also "Fall" by SG Lewis is good, moody. Yes.

Only the finale left, AHhhh