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On a boring day, I would just go to the airport and pick where I want to go without caring about the cost.
#only friends the series#ofts#only friends#raysand#sandray#first kanaphan#khaotung thanawat#rowan gifs#khaotunq#tuserhidden#tusersilence#tostrangers#this conversation is so important to me ;u;#it's a double whammy of sandray coming to a compromise about their money differences#and ray expressing an interest of his own (in the hostel)#my boy's going to live ;u;#and sand's Gonna get spoiled some day :>#(and these days. the guitar >>)
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Ok so what about big brother Rafe and the youngest cameron where she is like 3-5 years old, she is just loves her big brother so much, and dont understand why is everyone afraid of him. Also rafe is only soft when it comes to her😭💞
Big, Bad, and Scary?
Pairing: brother!rafe cameron x toddler!sister!reader
Warnings: none I guess?
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It was no secret that you love and look up to Rafe, of course you do, he's your big brother after all. It's just that with everyone else he seems to be intimidating, a crazy spoiled rich boy with short temper who only seeks his father's approval.
But with you, with you he's patient and almost instantly drops what he's doing the second he hears you call for him. Somehow only you get to see a side of Rafe that no one gets to experience. Maybe it's because you look at him like he's the only person in the world, that you just want to spend time with him.
He doesn't get it. With what does he deserve all your adoration and love for him? He didn't exactly do anything to deserve that except for listening to the things you got to say and simply existing.
Rafe can't complain though, it's nice to have someone who actually appreciates him or isn't judging him even if you're just a four year old who doesn't know better and only wants to spend time with her brother, not knowing how messed up he really is.
The scary thing is he could be shouting and having an angry fit in one second but the moment you enter the room he's calm again, afraid to scare you and destroy the bond he has with you.
"God, Top, could you stop your fucking whining already?" He snaps into his phone, standing on the balcony with one hand resting on the railing, the other gripping his phone tightly.
As Topper on the other line keeps complaining he hears your small feet toddle behind him, feeling you tug on his shirt a second later. He looks down, holding the phone away from his ear. "Yes?"
You only raise your arms in response, making grabby hands. The request is clear and Rafe sighs, balancing his phone between his ear and shoulder he bends down to pick you up.
As you place your head on his shoulder he focuses back on his call, taking a deep breath, your mere presence alone has him a lot calmer. "A'ight, listen, we both know who did that and make sure he regrets it. Just- I'll text you soon. Yeah, bye."
He ends the call, pocketing his phone and turns his attention to you. "So, what's up with you, hm?"
"S'nap time, Rafey." You mumble, a yawn escaping your lips and without another word he walks back inside, making his way to your room.
You would notice when people avoid looking at Rafe, rushing past him to not accidentally set him off somehow. Like at the beach, you're just building a sand castle with Rafe sitting beside you, busy on his phone when you see a group of boys walking past, glancing at you both and suddenly speaking to each other in hushed voices.
You furrow your brows, looking over your shoulder and watching them for a moment longer when Rafe pokes your side. You turn back to look at him. "Rafey?"
"Yeah...?"
"Why people look at you like that?" You ask, tilting your head.
"Like what exactly?" He puts his phone aside to give you his full attention.
"Dunno...they always look at you weird." You mumble, mindlessly working on your castle.
"Oh, uh-" He scratches his chin, thinking about how to explain it to you. "Y'know...some people are just- surprised I guess. It's nothing bad, you don't need to worry 'bout that."
You nod seeming to accept his explanation, placing the last sea shell on top of your sand castle to finish it up.
One day Rafe took you to that outdoor movie thing that has been organized. It's unsettling how he can still look intimidating with you sitting on his lap, your legs swinging back and forth on each side of his, giddy with excitement.
"When's it gonna start?" You ask craning your head to look up at him.
"Soon, kid. Just be- hold on. Top, look over there." Rafe stops mid sentence, nudging Topper's shoulder and pointing in the direction of Pope and JJ. "Told you they'd be here."
"Yeah, great, what do you think we can just go over there and give them a mindful?" He remarks sarcastically.
"Course not you dumbass." Rafe rolls his eyes, noticing you trying to reach for your cup that was on the ground beside his chair. He grabs it, handing it to you. "We gotta wait for the perfect moment to surprise them."
After it got dark, you were still engrossed in the movie that was playing and munching on the popcorn with your back resting against Rafe's front. You make a sound of protest when he suddenly stands up, placing you to sit on his seat before crouching down in front of you.
"I'll be right back. Stay here and don't talk to anyone, okay? I won't be long." He makes sure you nod before standing straight again, ruffling your hair and walking off with Topper.
Your moment of concern of them being away is gone the second you focus back on the movie. Everything was well when suddenly the screen caught fire, people jumping up gasping and shouting in surprise.
You jump in your seat at the sudden commotion, looking around frantically and tearing up but don't dare to get up. Rafey told you to stay.
Speaking of Rafe, he was behind said screen after his little altercation with the two pogues. His eyes wide as he notices the fire, snapping out of his adrenaline haze as Topper slaps his shoulder.
"Dude, your sister..." He reminds him.
"Shit-" Rafe doesn't think twice, running off to where he left you, his anger forgotten the second Topper mentioned you. Stupid, he is so damn stupid. Leaving his little sister alone just because he felt like messing with the pogues.
He quickly finds you, feeling guilty the moment he sees your distressed expression and the tears running down your cheeks. Immediately he picks you up, placing his hand on the back of your head to cradle you against his chest.
"Shh, you're okay. I'm sorry, I'm here now..." He murmurs, starting to walk towards where his truck is parked, rubbing your back the whole way there.
Your crying subside to quiet hiccups but still cling onto his shirt tightly. He leans against the truck, still trying to soothe you by murmuring softly in your ear and holding you securely in his arms.
"There we go, all good now?" He asks as you pull away, his thumb wiping away some of your tears. You nod, the moment of shock disappearing as exhaustion takes over. "Let's go home."
He turns around and opens the back door, getting you settled in your car seat and buckling you in. Rafe kisses the side of your head before shutting the door, running a hand through his hair with a sigh when he sees Topper approaching him.
"She good?" He asks, obviously concerned about you.
"Yeah...just a little spooked but she's fine. I'm gonna get her home now, see you on the golf course." Rafe pats him on the back, rounding his truck to get in the driver's seat, glancing at you in the rearview mirror. You're already knocked out cold and he smiles at that, turning on the engine.
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Just imaging hanging out with bff!jj on a hot summer day, relaxing at the beach. asking to try his popsicle and he obliges, holding onto it while you lick it before he pushes it further into your mouth until you gag ://
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“i see you lookin’ at my damn popsicle. i asked you if you wanted one n’you said no— n’now look at you.” jj shakes his head, turning his popsicle to the side to catch some of the syrup that was threatening to drip off. you whine petulantly, it had been an especially long and hot day— and now you were relaxing at the beach with the rest of the group, you felt a mood coming on. one when you were set on being difficult. as usual, jj was the only one who knew how to handle you.
“but i’m hot! jj!” you mewl, making a real show of rolling around dramatically on the towel by his side.
“y’can take my wallet n’go get yourself one but i ain’t gettin’ up again. told you that in the store.” he scolds lightheartedly, squinting across the beach at the sea where the rest of the pogues splashed about. you huff, lighting digging your nails into his thigh through his shorts.
“i want one.” you complain, spoiled and he winces — batting your hand away.
“hey, stop that. c’mere. ‘can have some of mine, god — you’re a nightmare y’know that?” he sits up a little straighter, tugging you to crawl closer to him onto his towel, bringing the popsicle to your mouth. he brings it to your lips and you happily begin to lick and suck at it, attitude diminishing by the second. “yeah, see? fussin’ over nothin’.” he comments in a low hum, shaking his head.
you get greedy, taking some of it into your mouth and he tsks at you, a smirk forming on his face at the audacity as you begin to quickly work through the popsicle without a care. “go on, have the whole thing. know you can.” he hears himself before he thinks it through— pushing the cylindrical treat further into your mouth until it hits the back of your throat. you almost seem oblivious to his doings, letting out a small whimper of complaint as you gag, an eye fluttering closed at the exertion.
your hand comes to weakly lay on top of his wrist as a half hearted attempt to slow his roll. he fucks your throat with it a few times, tonguing at the corner of his lip, cock jumping in his swim shorts. “jayj, tryna eat it.” you complain in a whiny groan, flattening your tongue along the base of it to collect the dollops of drool and syrup rolling down it. he hums, taking your hand and making you hold the stick instead of him.
“s’what you get for havin’ a slick mouth with me, ain’t it?” he presses his hands into the sand, pushing himself to stand and patting your head affectionately from above as you continue to enjoy the popsicle. “gonna go for a swim. s’all yours now, ‘kay princess?” he asks and you nod.
“‘kay.”
you watch as he jogs off to the cool water, jumping in to soothe his warm body from the growing arousal you caused. you were none the wiser, innocently enjoying the treat he generously donated to you. jj always took care of you.
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°•*⁀➷ BEACH DAY: CROCODILE
꒰ SYNOPSIS ꒱ : "Crocodile is a king, and kings don't fulfill anyone's wishes, unless that someone is you. The small, young and only son of one of the most feared pirates, a child who would never have his desires denied by his father.
꒰ WARNINGS ꒱ : Platonic! Crocodile, IT'S NOT A ROMANTIC STORY, Dad! Crocodile, Child! Reader, Male! Child! Reader, difficult childhood due your Dad's business, mentions a lonely childhood, mean children
꒰ WC ꒱ : 995
꒰ NOTES ꒱ : Trying to back in my schedule of posting and writing, I'm passing through some bad time with a lot of personal problems so my mind is kinda off for everything, but at least I gonna try to post what I already had (I always say that and never do) anyway enjoy :p
Firstly, your father would be extremely offended if his precious son asked to go to the beach. Dear, your father is the king of the desert and is literally made of sand, why on earth would you want to go to a beach full of stupid people with dirty sand?
Of course, just as Crocodile is unable to refuse your requests every time, what can he do? He spoiled his little boy a little… so soon he's planning a trip to the beach while putting up with you talking about it every day since you as a little child couldn't contain your excitement.
Initially he thought about going to a private beach, he could rent an entire island just to avoid other people, but when you looked at him with those huge puppy eyes saying “but then there won't be other children for me to play with?” He gave up and was at your feet again, bless you, your perfect son who had him wrapped around your finger.
He agreed to go to a public beach, but that doesn't change that he didn't want many people, so he planned to go to a less inhabited island and during a period when there would be fewer people, of course, he made sure the beach was very beautiful and big enough so you can have the most fun. He wasn't ruining her experience for his own selfish limits.
Father of sunscreen, Crocodile doesn't want to see you turning into a pepper, so he makes sure you're completely white from all the sunscreen. It's a little difficult to do this with just one hand, but you were always a patient child and helped your father without any problems, soon you were ready, with your crocodile themed children's swimwear, your colorful floaties and animation for a lifetime.
Crocodile wasn't very excited about swimwear either, so he just wore an open shirt and longer shorts. The problem was that everyone on the beach was staring at the seductive man, was it his fault for being so handsome? Of course, having Daz Bones next to him staring deathly at everyone ensured that no one bothered him, which was perfect for the pirate.
Swimming too deep is a big no, Crocodile can't swim and that means he can't rescue you if you start to sink, not only that, but most of his employees are also Devil Fruit users, which just makes it difficult for him to be sure you will be fine in the water. Now if he goes with you to the beach with a non-user, like Mihawk for example, he may be more comfortable with you going to the deeper parts, accompanied of course.
Crocodile is also very careful about keeping you well hydrated. He knows that children are more sensitive, so he is constantly calling you to drink water, juices or any other liquid. Luckily, you are very obedient and don't waste the chance to drink something delicious, so it was easy to keep it under control. Crocodile also didn't trust just any restaurant or food vendor, so he hired a chef to prepare everything you could want to eat on the beach, whether it was fried fish or ice cream, you had everything at your disposal, prepared by someone you trusted, so Crocodile knew you I wasn't taking any risks.
He gets a little apprehensive when you get close to other children, Crocodile is extremely protective of you. After all, you are his greatest treasure, he would kill and die to prevent you from getting hurt in any way, but when he sees you smiling while playing with the children, he feels his heart relax, in the end, you are still a child, and he doesn't want to in no way to deprive you of having a normal childhood. He already knows how terrible it must be for you to be the son of a pirate, to live on a ship without ever settling on an island for long, the lack of children for you to live with, you can't even go to school, and instead you study with him, his life is not normal like most children and any opportunity he has to give you some moments of a normal childhood he is definitely doing it. He just wants you to grow up happy, regardless of everything.
Now, that doesn't mean he won't be a protective father. All he has to do is see you building your beautiful sandcastle, which he may have helped to stand with his powers without you realizing, when another older child approaches. He is reluctant but doesn't want to act immediately, it's only when the child kicks his castle that he gets angry, then a wave of sand covers the child, knocking him to the ground, the boy has probably swallowed enough sand to never but forget the taste. As soon as the boy runs away crying to his parents, Crocodile rebuilds his entire sandcastle before you can even miss him or cry about it. Your bright smile along with a “thank you daddy” makes it all worth it.
Although he enjoyed the beach day, which basically consisted of him sitting around watching you being a normal kid and having fun and the occasional discussion about business with Daz, the best part for Crocodile is when it starts to get dark, and you're already too tired. He carries you in his arms, using his powers to clean all the sand from your body, you are completely exhausted and sleep like a rock, with the only detail of holding your father's shirt with your small hand.
Crocodile just puts pajamas on you, preferring that you take a shower when you're awake, then he puts you in his bed and covers you. You have a huge smile on your face and are probably having sweet dreams, he watches you for a few moments before leaving to finish some things and then going to sleep.
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Surprise
Too Young Masterlist Summary: Louis, YN and Arthur surprise Lottie on her birthday.
Based on this request.
“Shall we surprise Auntie Lottie for her birthday?”. Louis asked Arthur as they took a walk across the beachfront, leaving YN back at the hotel room as the heat was a bit too much for the pregnant lady.
“What? Like go home early or something?”. Arthur asked, excitement in his voice at seeing his Tomlinson family.
Louis nodded as they both continued to walk across the sand. “Yeah…she doesn’t think we can made her birthday meal so I thought it would he nice to surprise her”.
“Yes!”. He ran across the sand his arms waving in the air as his feet melted into the grains. Quickly wanting to know more, Arthur ran back over to his dad. “Who’s gonna be there?”.
“Well everyone lad!”. Louis let out a laugh realising if he named everyone then he would be there a while. But the curious Arthur decided to make it his mission to list each person.
“Nan and Grandad?”.
“Yeah…Nan and Grandad”. Louis agreed.
“Lewis and Lucky?”.
“Yeah!”.
“What about Auntie Dai Auntie Phee?”. Arthur continued his list as he kicked the sand with his feet.
“Yeah…everyone Arth”. Louis laughed but was starting to lose patience.
“Olive too?”.
“I’m sure she’ll be there lad…shall we go and see if your mum is up for the surprise trip to Doncaster?”.
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As much as YN loved being in Spain and supporting Louis at his festivals, at the mention of going back to a cooler England sounded like a dream for her 34 week pregnant body.
Being a popular singer-songwriter had its perks and one of them being that Louis was able to organise their trip back to England very quickly despite it being last minute.
As the little family waited in the airport to board their plane, YN was aware that they had been spotted by some fans who were getting excited at the sight of Louis.
“Lou?”. YN tried to call for his attention, as he checked the board for any delays.
“Yeah babe?”. Louis placed his arm around her shoulder, and left a peck to her head.
YN noticed that they were being videoed or taken photos of. “Some fans have spotted you and I’m worried they may spoil the surprise if they post anything”.
Before Louis could do or say anything, the groups of fans came to say hello.
“Hi Louis!”.
“Hey YN…how’s Harry?”.
“Arthur!”.
“Oi alright…what’s happening girls?”. Louis always tried to have positive interactions with his fans.
“We wanted to say hello and maybe have a photo if that’s alright please”. One of the fans asked.
“Yeah sure…but can I ask a big favour?”. The group all nodded, waiting eagerly to know what Louis was going to ask them. “We’re trying to surprise Lottie for her birthday…so can you not post anything until later or maybe tonight”.
The group shared their smiles at Louis wanting to surprise his sister on her birthday. “Oh that’s so nice…yes of course we won’t post anything…tell Lottie we said happy birthday”.
Louis stood in the middle of the group so YN snap the photo, smiling brightly back at his future wife.
“Wait!”. Arthur shouted, leaving YN’s side he ran over to his dad and joined the group in their photo. “Big smiles everyone!”.
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After almost six hours of travelling from Spain to London, and then London to Doncaster, a very excited Arthur, a giggly Louis and an exhausted YN arrived at the restaurant where the Tomlinsons were celebrating Lottie’s 26th birthday.
With help from the restaurant staff, they were able to time their surprise right. The restaurant manager snuck the three through the back so they could enter through the kitchen.
Louis helped Arthur to carry the lit birthday cake, trying to be careful not to drop it. As they approached the full and large table, they began to sing. “Happy birthday to you…happy birthday to you…”.
Noticing who was walking towards her carrying her birthday cake, Lottie covered her face as she hid her tears. Phoebe and Daisy were equally shocked and surprised and happy to see their brother and nephew.
“Happy birthday dear Lottie…happy birthday to you!”.
“Happy birthday Auntie Lottie!”. Arthur was the first one to reach her and she gladly took him into his arms, squeezing him tight.
“Oh I’ve missed you my precious boy!”. Lottie hugged him close, still in shocked that they had managed to surprise her.
Letting Arthur go and see other family members, Lottie wrapped her arms around YN, both laughing when their baby bumps got in the way making it harder than usual. “Happy birthday babe…we’ve got some cards and presents in the car for you…we’ll give them to you back and Nan and Grandads”.
Lottie teared up a little more, the pregnancy hormones in full swing as she was surrounded by her nearest and dearest. “Thank you for surprising me…you’re the best…you must be exhausted after all the travelling?”.
“I am and my feet are like balloons…but anything for you Lotts!”. YN joked, earning a giggle from the younger Tomlinson.
“Oioi…c’mere birthday girl!”. Louis interrupted, pulling Lottie in for a brotherly cuddle. “I hope you liked the surprise…we couldn’t not come home for your birthday!”.
“Honestly…it’s been the best birthday and you’ve just made it the best day!”. Lottie held onto her brother a little bit longer, afraid that it was a dream.
“Ouie…Ouie!”. A sweet little voice caused the three to look, toddling towards them was two tiny feet with a head full of blonde locks.
“Lucky ma boy!”.
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This Week In BL - These Are the Days of Our BLs
Aug 2023 Wk 2
Being a highly subjective assessment of one tiny corner of the interwebs. Organized by which ones (in each category) I’m enjoying most.
Ongoing Series - Thai
Laws of Attraction (Sat iQIYI) 5 of 8 - They cute making heart eyes at each other, but could we get back to punching & slutty silk shirts? OMG the poor rich kid & the bodyguard who wants to hug him SO BAD are KILLING me. I did giggle & yell “punchy punchies” during the fight scene before the fire. But Charn is a diamond-encrusted evil-gorgeous gremlin beastie, isn’t he?
Only Friends (Sat YT) ep 1 of 10 - NO SINGING, but also.. wristbands! Sand is great = smart, snappy & over this shit. (Tired Gay 2.0) Neo & Mark are a revelation, where’d that chemistry come from? Force playing a douchenozzle is damn delight. Plus a counter lift in the first ep? Boys, you’re spoiling me. Mew is the least interesting, but Book is still adorable. Ray is the least likable character, but since it’s Khao, he’s the most likable screen presence. In fact, I’m enjoying all the messy messy gays & I know all their types IRL. I wish we had some femme & swish rep tho. Is this Thailand’s Queer as Folk? Seems like. Is it good? Not sure. But it is FUN as hell. Still, I gotta say it… they all dance like straight boys.
Hidden Agenda that isn’t hidden (Sun GMMTV YouTube) ep 5 of 10 - Zo just wants to turtle & avoid but Joke is not gonna allow that. GMMTV keeps having sub issues (usually fixed within a few days).
Low Frequency (Sat iQIYI) ep 6 of 8 - I do like the psychic gay detective trope. It makes this show more interesting and enjoyable. But they solved the mystery awful fast. I guess different drama spins the final 2 eps?
Be My Favorite (Fri YouTube) ep 12fin - It was fine. I was fine with it. A kind of Vice Versa situation. The usual with Jittirain, as it turns out, is pretty simple: one of her main characters is going to be a manipulative liar or extremely unlikeable or both. It got an 8/10 from me, but probably should get a 7/10 just because I’m so exhausted by this. But I have to be fair and judge each BL on its own & not in light of repeat author mistakes. Not much of a trash watch here. Final full review here.
Dinosaur Love (Sun iQIYI) ep 7 of 10 eps - Boyfriend trip together. Terrible overalls. What the fuck? No. Meanwhile, perfect choice for college star. (Could Ton please lead out a new BL? I know I’m 0 for 2 with him but I’m willing to try again if he is.) I actually enjoyed this installment for a change. Perhaps “enjoy” is too strong a word. Not much happened, dog days of BL, perhaps that’s a good thing with Dino?
Be Mine Super Star (Mon Viki) ep 6 of 12 - Mostly I was excited to watch this week because of Ben but there wasn’t much of him. Sadness. OK, I know it has STIFF competition but does this show have the worst music in BL, or is it just me? I still like Big Daddy & Hot Doc as characters but I am despairing over their arc (would we call it an arc?). All in all this week... Whatever.
Wedding Plan (Weds YT & iQIYI) ep 4 of 7 - I am officially being driven to drink. Trash watch is happening!
Ongoing Series - Not Thai
Jun & Jun (Korea Thurs Viki) 4 of 8 - This show makes me laugh so much. It is so damn cute. And there’s so much language play going on. THEN . . . JUST ADD SIMON. I love a good Simon. Who doesn’t love a good Simon? I know SO MANY Simons. Now 3 boys are circling the ingénue (who I suspect is less innocent than he appears). So much delightful competition, postering & flirting. “My Jun,” is he, Simon? You are a precious angular stalk man, aren’t you? Pacing is great with this show. Every week I can’t wait for the next installment, that’s a hallmark of the best KBLs. If the language stuff confused you as much as it did me here is an EXCELLENT post on the subject that will help.
Stay By My Side (Taiwan Fri Gaga) 7 of 10 eps - Sweetest seme. He’s hurt & mad at his boy but still can’t help taking care of him. I do like the courting with snacks & sweet little notes. (It’d work on me.) YAY! Reunion kisses & nuzzles!!! Snuggling!!!! Gah! Taiwan, I love you. These 2 aren’t your best kissers but their cuddling is off the charts. I guess we are just gonna be plotless messy gay bfs for the final 3 eps? That’s cool with me.
Sing My Crush (Korea Weds iQIYI) 3-4 of 8 eps - it’s adorable, they’re adorable, I’m enjoying it a whole lot. It’s like a very soft, low-stakes Addicted.
Love Class Season 2 (Korea Fri Viki) 10 eps - I liked Love Class 1 (more than most on Tumblr) & I normally don’t want 2nd seasons. But this has an entirely new cast (in the “Replay” model). I’m fine with a 2nd season that has little or nothing to do with the first. J-min is an interesting choice of idols but he’s doing an unexpectedly good job. (He is a truly great rapper, by the way.) Trigger warnings out the gate... also this is complicated. Ready? We got 3 queer besties: artist gay Hyun (J-min), shy cafe gay Minwoo (in love with), sunshine gym bunny bi slut Maru (represent, my brother). Then we got Mr Put-upon-TA (+ boy who saw him nekid). And the twist = all black otaku Kim An (used to tutor artist gay in high school = exes ghosting DRAMA). This last reads as a hyung romance. Which you know I love. But it also feels v dark. All of which is to say, I am intrigued but a little nervous over the tone.
My Personal Weatherman AKA Taikan Yoho (Japan Sat Gaga) ep 1 of 8 - Classic JBL is back! This one is My Beautiful Man + Tokyo in April/Oh My Assistant. It’s odd and warped af but I like it. Very much has a the feel of old live action yaoi + VERY D/s. BRING IT JAPAN.
Minato's Laundromat Season 2 AKA Minato Shouji Coin Laundry Season 2 (Japan Thu Gaga) 6 of 12 eps - Shin is my sweet bean sprout and Minato should just boink him. Why all this waffling? I love the doctor. But mostly I’m as frustrated with this show as Shin must be in general. Minato 2- the season of blue balls.
Stay Still (Hong Kong Tues YouTube) 2 of 5 eps - I re-watched the first 2 eps & now find it a bit more comprehensible (yes 2: there is an ep 0). I don’t think we can expect this to end happy for either couple. It’s kinda sticky & grungy (in a way I’ve come to expect from the Philippines, although this is not as cluttered visually nor as brightly colored as the Pinoy stuff). I do kind of like that lived-in feeling, it reminds me of Taiwanese shorts. There is something very honestly queer about the primary leads (tattoo & babyface) in particular the way they dance queer? around each other: verbally, emotionally & physically - laying down breadcrumbs of gay for the other to follow. The secondary couple (reunion, cheating) is very sad. Although I do love a counter lift make-out sesh. (Occasionally Cantonese sounds like Vietnamese to me. Apparently I am not alone in this.)
Gossip - AKA P’ABL is Disappointed
I was gonna put a statement here but I just did it separately, earlier this week, since my ask box was overflowing regarding actor gossip and other stuff.
Meanwhile, Stay With Me ended exactly as expected. Can’t say I didn’t warn ya. You watched this anyway? You got what was coming to you. I am entirely unsympathetic.
Next Week Looks Like This:
Look at that PACKED week. NIIICEEEE.
Starting:
8/18 Dangerous Romance (Thai Fri GMMTC YT) 12 eps - Perth returns to lead out a BL, odds on that ever happening were slim. (Let alone Chimon.) Still here we are. Interesting times. Chimon plays a poor studious kid who hates the school bully but is forced to become his private tutor. Lurv results.
8/19 Love in Translation (Thai Sat One31) 10 eps - Two strangers start working in a cafe together. Looks very pulp. No idea on international distribution.
8/19 I Feel You Linger in the Air (Thai Sat Gaga) 12 eps - The time travel historical romance many of us have been waiting for. Adaption of y-novel by Violet Rain. Heartbroken architect is transported to the 1930s. From the producers of Lovely Writer.
8/20 My Universe series (Thai Sun iQIYI) 24 eps - This is sampler pack BL, 12 pairs, each pair gets 2 eps, not sure on the order they’ll drop. Known couples include EarthBank from Destiny Seeker and KaownahTurbo from Love Stage!!!, fresh faces otherwise. Jane to direct.
Still Coming in August 2023
8/22 Kisseki: Dear to Me formerly known as Miracle (Taiwan Tues ????) 13 eps - From screenwriter Lin Pei Yu (We Best Love, H3: Trapped) features a student doctor forced to take care of a gangster. I love the premise and like the writer, Viki or Gaga will get this one.
8/23 Why R U? (Korean remake iQIYI) is supposed to be out this month, filming started in sept 22. I find everything about this hilarious. I mean if Korea remakes it, we lose all the sexy and then... would we have a story at all? No we would not. Not even for six short eps. It’d be like one of those mesh shopping bags.
8/24 Man Suang (Thailand movie, domestic cinema release) - historical drama about Thai burlesque with KP’s MileApo.
2023 forthcoming BL master post (see comments, some are inaccurate, NOT KEPT UPDATED)
THIS WEEK’S BEST MOMENTS
Talking grandkids. Made me snicker. (Low Frequency.)
The waist grab that launched a thousand gifs (Laws of Attraction). Okay it was last week but I gotta chronicle it here in the weeklies. For science.
Sing My Crush. They are so damn cute.
Thank you for the counter action GMMTV, please Sirs, may I have another?
Captain snark in the house. Of course they handed the best and most complex pairing to these two. Well done GMMTV. (Only Friends)
I really did not expect J-Min to be this good. (Love Class 2)
(Last week)
#this week in BL#bl news#BL reviews#korean bl#japanese bl#taiwanese bl#thai bl#Rakutan Viki#gagaoolala#GMMTV#Laws of Attraction#Only Friends#Hidden Agenda#Low Frequency#Dinosaur Love#Be Mine Super Star#Jun & Jun#Stay By My Side#Love Class Season 2#Sing My Crush#Taikan Yoho#My Personal Weatherman#Minato Shouji Coin Laundry Season 2#Minato's Laundromat Season 2#Stay Still the series#hong Kong BL#Jun and Jun#Queer as Folk#NeoMark#ForceBook
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Beach Vacation headcanons with Rhys and Cass? I read Az's and loved it, your writing is wonderful, if you did it with our other boys I would glow with joy
Beach Vacation headcanon Cass & Rhys
A/n: thank you anon! I’m doing these two in one bc I feel like they we’re too short on their own but I’m still in love with this
Warnings: some smutty thoughts so 18+ please
Cassian
He’d want to talk you to the Summer Court bc he loved the beaches there but Tarquin said no
You didn’t mind not going you’d been to Summer a bunch of times with your parents
So you head to the Day Court instead, the beaches there are lovely
Like with Az, you and Cass rent a little house on the ocean
He would be so fun on vacation
He would be down for anything you want to do
Shopping? Yes absolutely! Just want to relax at the house? No problem! Sit on the beach at sunset with ice cream? Hell yes!
If you just wanted to lay and tan on the beach you would give Cass a shovel (like that TikTok I mentioned in the Az one)
He would spend hours digging on the beach. When you got up you couldn’t find him
You noticed the giant pile of sand which led you to see the hole which was about seven feet deep (he was very proud of himself)
Your favorite thing to do together was swim
Cassian would fly you a little above the water and either drop you or would hold you to him as he fell, tucking his wings in
You guys would stay in the water for hours just floating and playing games
He would play mermaids with you
Made sure you had sunblock on but would hate putting it on himself
You had to fight him to put it on, especially on his wings
“No! It’s cold! Please I’ll just sit in the shade!” “No Cass, because if your wings burn you’re going to complain you big Illyrian baby.”
He would also cover you with his wings so you wouldn’t burn
He helped you pick out your outfits everyday
Cassian is a sundress man, he loves seeing you in a cute lil sundress
It’s a huge turn in for him he literally can’t keep his hands off you when you’re in one
NSFW from here
If you guys were on the beach late after sunset you would absolutely have sex on the beach
He would have you on your hands and knees on your towel
He’d move your bikini bottoms to the side
“You gotta be quiet for me baby, or the whole court is gonna know who makes you feel this good.”
Cass would be such a little shit about it too
Like he’d want to end every beach day like that
Rhys
Unlike Cass, Rhys is allowed back into the Summer Court
He’d ask Tarquin if he could use his personal vacation house which he kindly lets you
Rhys would spoil you with all the latest Summer Court fashions
There wasn’t even a point in you packing bc you didn’t even wear what you brought
He’d take you shopping for everything under the sun
You guys would go to dinner at the fancy small restaurant in town
You’d sit outside to have a view of the ocean. It was a very romantic dinner
You spent most of your time on the beach
You never get to do anything like this in the Night Court so you take full advantage of the sand and sea
Rhys would only go in the water when you did
He’d hold on to you, occasionally kissing you and spinning you around in the water
Always made sure you were hydrated and had a fresh coat of sunblock on
Rhys is a tanning oil guy, you can’t convince me otherwise
He liked soaking in the sun. feeling the sun on his face was a feeling he didn’t take for granted after under the mountain
If you wanted a quick beach nap you’d hand him a beach shovel
At first he was confused but before he could ask you were fast asleep
He started moving sand around with it and then started to dig. By the time you woke up he dug a 5 foot deep hole and a little fort around it
NSFW from here
Since the beach you were at was Tarquin’s private beach he wasn’t worried about being seen or heard
The beach chairs you had were sturdy so you weren’t afraid to climb on him and ride him
As you bounce on him he’d untie your bikini top
He throws it to the side and grasp at your tits and pull at your nipples
“So fucking perfect baby.”
He’d winnow you back to the house and would fuck you on the closest surface and then in the shower
#acotar#acotar fanfiction#acotar reader imagine#acotar reader fic#acotar imagine#rhysand acotar#cassian acotar#cassian acosf#cassian acotar x reader#cassian imagine#cassian fanfic#cassian x you#cassian x reader#rhysand x reader#rhysand headcanon#cassian headcanons#rhysand imagine#rhysand#rhysand x reader imagine
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A proper Christman gift
S01E03 Doomed
“I made an exact mashed potato replica of principal coulson!” Sam smiled as he held out the faux head on a tray.
“...and a potato sculptor,” Peter thought to himself.
S01E09 Field Trip
“Hey check it out!” Sam turns over his shoulder to show the coloured sketch he drew to Peter. “Pretty cool right? I’m gonna see if Fury will pay for the spikes.”
S01E17 Snow Day
“Uhh my bad.” Sam frowned down at Luke as he dumped out the sand he intended to use on his now ruined sculpture.
S02E02 Electro
“You just got own-dizzled, old style!” Sam held out the large paper he'd been using for the game of pictionary.
AKA: no one talks about how much of an artist Sam is! / The first holiday episode made me mad, so I added a happy ending.
“Bunny slippers are just… ach!”
Danny and Peter made eye contact at Sam’s reaction. Pete had to bite the inside of his cheek to keep from laughing and spoiling everything, though he could see the tiny hint of mischief in Danny's smile.
After getting the oversized hat, Peter looked back at Sam’s disgruntled face, allowing himself to snerk and giggle. Sam made a glare and went to lash out at Pete being an ass but was cut off when Danny also gave a small huff. Peter took off the hat, smiled, and reached behind the couch. “Dude, we’re not that mean.”
Pete pulled out a large wrapped object. At seeing the colourful paper, Sam shoved the gag-gift and box onto the floor. The boy was skeptical given the relation between Spidey and Nova, but Danny was in on it too -and Peter said “we”- so Sam had some trust that whatever was in this box would actually be a gift. The fact that it was a semi large box didn’t hurt his intrigue, either. The box was about two by one foot but only three inches tall, give or take.
Peter stepped over to Sam's place on the couch and handed him the box, Sam's hand bobbed down, surprised at the weight. Not heavy, but heavi-er than he was expecting. Peter and Danny both had beaming smiles, they almost seemed more excited for Sam’s gift than he was.
“Ya gonna open it or what?” Ava snarked.
Sam rolled his eyes at her and tore into the paper. The first satisfying shred exposed a leathery texture. Sam ran his fingers over the surface, again surprised, before continuing. Revealed, was a large though thin case with golden coloured clasps and handle to carry.
“A brief case?” Sam had no issues this evening sharing displeasure.
“It’s what's inside the case, moron.” May nudged Peter lightly at his insult.
“We do believe you will be rather fond of its contents.” Danny’s smile had only grown bigger as the case was unveiled.
Sam flipped the latches in sinque and leant back as though something would jump out at him. He opened the case a crack to get a preview of what may be inside and was greeted with some odd shapes and bright colours. When the case was open fully, one would think it was full of cash with how Sam’s face lit up in wonder. His jaw dropped gently as his eyes practically sparkled.
“ih… It’s ok if you don’t like it.” Peter’s brow knit with worry.
Sam slammed the case closed and hugged it to his chest. “Don’t you dare!” He gave Peter a noticeably exaggerated expression of ‘I’m warning you’ and gave an extra lean away for emphasis.
“What is it, Sam?” May asked, almost coy. She knew of Peter's plan to do a gag gift but wasn’t aware of what the proper gift was.
Sam stumbled over words as an unbreakable smile stretched across his face. Not able to get out any coherent words, he opened the case back up and lay it flat on his lap. All along one side was a smooth gradient of coloured pencils. Stretched across the bottom, another pallet of oil paint tubes. White and metallic ink pens, oil pastels, a paint brush array, and collection of charcoal and graphite pencils.
“Damn,” Luke dragged out in approval.
Excited at Sam’s joy over something he did, Peter bounced with an open smile. “Oh it gets better.” Sam looked over in excitement and bafflement. How could this get even better?! “You see the little loops in the middle of the bottom? Pull.”
Sam did as instructed and the inside came out and split into two supported shelves. Underneath was again a full pallet of water colour paints and fancy markers. Sam sputtered and floundered over all the supplies.
“Sorry the top doesn’t open, too.” Peter teased apologetically.
Sam sputtered and waved his hands over the rainbows in his lap looking at Peter with a gleeful face. He, May, and Danny laughed happily at Sam’s reaction to the gift. Sam’s hands hovered over the different supplies, hesitant to disturb the pristine packaging each different material had.
Ava gave a light laugh as she said, “I think you broke him.”Sam sent a heatless glare at the girl before finally audibly laughing. He gave Peter and May an inquisitive look before giving a reverse not in Danny’s direction at the realization. This was no doubt expensive. There's no way the Parkers would be able to afford it without some juggling or over time but thankfully Pete went to Danny about it. If just Peter had busted his ass to make the cash, Sam would take it with no hesitation but seeing as May seemed in on everything, Sam didn’t like the idea of her putting in so much extra effort for something so frivolous. But Danny’s loaded, so forget all of that.
[continue?]
#i have ideas to extend it and add bits about pete being jewish - would anyone read it?#sam alexander#nova#peter parker#ultimate spider-man#ava ayala#danny rand#spider-man#luke cage#aunt may#christmas#holliday#fanfic#one shot
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our happy place
Nagi and Reo broke up two months ago. Nobody but them knows this. Now that they’re on vacation with their friends, they decide to hide it from them just a little longer. 𝘞𝘩𝘢𝘵 𝘤𝘰𝘶𝘭𝘥 𝘱𝘰𝘴𝘴𝘪𝘣𝘭𝘺 𝘨𝘰 𝘸𝘳𝘰𝘯𝘨?
The evening was golden and just a little bit chilly, perfect for a long walk on the beach. Everyone had wanted to join, so they made dinner arrangements for when they came back and embarked on a hike with no fixed destination or time of return. The backdoor of the house had direct access to a private sea entrance where they could begin to follow the shore that stretched on for miles.
Reo spent a good part of the walk engaged in conversation about stocks with Karasu and Yukimiya, a subject the rest didn’t seem to care much about as they soon left the three of them in the rear. They caught up with the group when Bachira and Hiori stopped to stare at a dead jellyfish that had washed up on the shore.
Bachira's voice was filled with excitement as he prodded the jellyfish with a stick. "It's so squishy! I wanna touch it!"
Isagi's quick reflexes slapped Bachira's hand away before his index finger could make contact. "Are you an idiot?! It may be dead, but it will still sting you!"
"Isn’t it about time we headed back?" Kunigami said. "It’s starting to get dark."
"Yeah, I agree, I’m exhausted," Nagi whined. With a theatrical sigh, he dramatically flopped onto the sand. "Reo, carry me?"
Reo's head snapped around, a sharp glare directed at Nagi, his annoyance evident. "What? You're a grown man, Nagi. Walk by yourself."
Silence hung in the air for a fraction of a second.
"Wow! Did I just hear that?" Bachira was the first to react. "I must've misheard."
"Did you just get rejected, Nagi?" Chigiri chimed in with a laugh, his tone teasing. "Looks like Reo's turned into the tough guy."
A flush of embarrassment crept up Reo's face at the attention. He was acutely aware that he used to spoil Nagi’s every whim, and that his tone just now had been a lot harsher than what any of his friends would’ve expected from him, but that was before. It had been two months since he and Nagi had been this close, since their breakup had reshaped the dynamics between them. The idea of carrying Nagi on his back now… His heart dropped to his stomach.
He looked at Nagi again, still lying on the sand. He was making grabby motions with his hands while holding Reo’s stare.
Oh you jerk. He was doing it on purpose.
Well, two could play this game.
Reo sighed loudly. "What am I gonna do with you, huh?" He pulled on Nagi’s raised hands until he stood up; then he turned around and wrapped Nagi’s arms around his neck as he bent forward. "Hop up."
It was torture. It was bliss. To be enveloped by Nagi’s warmth once again, to feel his weight against his body like an anchor. Reo had spent the last two months trying to forget how Nagi had always grounded him, filling his days with any kind of pastime just to keep his hands occupied and his mind away from longing thoughts.
Nagi climbed onto his back and Reo put his hands under his thighs to hold him up.
"Let’s go back, then," Reo said to the group.
He didn’t wait for the rest to start walking, hoping to get a headstart on them so that no one could hear him talk. When Reo considered they were far enough, he spoke.
"I should drop you into the sea and leave you there to drown."
He was joking, of course. Partially.
Nagi pressed himself closer, bringing his face next to Reo’s. "That wouldn’t work, I can swim."
Nagi’s breath tickled his ear. Reo cursed himself for ever thinking this was a good idea.
"I’ll smother you with a pillow tonight, then."
Maybe Reo’s grip was tighter than necessary, but Nagi had decided not to answer, burying his face in Reo’s neck instead, so Reo thought he deserved some credit.
They stayed silent the rest of the way home, the only sounds being the gentle lapping of the waves and the soft crunch of sand under Reo’s feet over the distant echo of their friends talking. Nagi’s breathing became deeper and slower at some point, the rise and fall of his chest more solid against his back. Reo risked a look over his shoulder and hated the way his heart swelled with tenderness at the sight of Nagi sleeping.
It was only then that Reo noticed the puffiness and dark circles under Nagi’s eyes, the paler-than-usual color of his lips. Had Nagi not been sleeping properly lately? He had always had a nasty habit of staying up too late playing his games, but Reo thought he had helped him settle into a more healthy routine while they were together.
Reo smiled, sadly. He felt protective over someone that was no longer his to protect.
Nagi didn’t wake up when they arrived at the house; he didn’t wake up as Reo slowly climbed up the steps to their room and gently left him on the king-sized bed.
He would take the couch this time.
~☀️~
The next day, Nagi woke up in an empty room. He felt… unusually well rested. He was also wet with sweat. He threw on the first swim shorts he could find and a t-shirt and walked down to the kitchen, where he found Isagi and Chigiri serving themselves some breakfast.
"Good morning, Nagi," Isagi greeted.
Nagi nodded as he let himself drop into a chair. His stomach grumbled.
He couldn’t recall having dinner last night; the last thing he remembered was the warmth and rhythmic movement of Reo’s body lulling him into sleep-
Oh. Right. That had happened.
Just as he was considering banging his head against the table in embarrassment - although certainly not regret -, a cheery voice next to his ear startled him.
"Good morning, my treasure!"
Nagi’s heart did a backflip at the sound of Reo’s voice so close to his ear, the use of what once had been an endearing nickname for him and the feeling of Reo’s hand patting his head. The contact was short-lived, as Reo continued walking on towards the fridge.
"Did you sleep well? I know I did. That bed was the best."
Nagi might have not woken up during the night, but he knew Reo hadn’t slept on the same bed Nagi had. The sheets on his side had been as straight as when they had arrived, and the stuff that they had placed on top of the couch had been moved onto the floor.
Nagi also noted the way Reo tried to hide the way he was trying to stretch his right elbow, a quirk that appeared when he had slept in a bad position.
"I’ll make breakfast for us."
Nagi watched as Reo moved around the kitchen, energetic even this early in the morning as he talked lively with Isagi and Chigiri about the plans for the day. Soon he had finished setting up a tray with enough food for two and he brought it to the table right in front of Nagi. Nagi raised his hand to take a piece of fruit from the tray, but Reo pulled it just out of his reach with a mischievous grin.
"Hey, where are your manners?" Reo asked. "Aren’t you gonna give me a good morning kiss?"
Nagi froze with his hand in midair. After a few seconds, he rose an eyebrow, hoping he was giving Reo the most ‘are you fucking serious’ look he had ever received. Reo only smiled in return, his mouth turned up in a sweet gesture, but his sharp eyes were daring Nagi to follow along.
So this is payback.
Nagi looked at the other two people in the room out of the corner of his eye; Isagi and Chigiri had stopped talking - or more like moving altogether - and their gazes were locked onto them. Nagi internally cursed Reo.
Reo had been the one to break up in the first place, and now he had been the one to suggest they keep up the façade in front of others, so he had no right to be mad at Nagi; he had no right to demand anything from him. Sure, maybe Nagi had pushed his luck just a little too far with the piggyback ride, but that was something they had been doing even before they began dating; it was the perfect move to keep everyone deceived. A kiss, however… That was crossing a line Nagi hadn't agreed to.
But you know what, fuck it. If it meant so little to Reo, who was prepared to do it in front of an audience just for the sake of their play-pretend, then so be it.
Reo had turned his head slightly to the side and was pointing at the corner of his lips with his finger, but Nagi stood up from his chair and walked around the table.
Before Reo had time to react, Nagi was pulling his head back by his hair - so soft -making his back arch against the chair, and his mouth was on his. Reo gasped in shock and Nagi took the chance to drive his tongue inside, letting it brush against Reo’s once, twice, before pulling back.
Nagi straightened himself, ignoring the groans that surrounded them - "Oh my god, get a room!" "Yeah, I’ve lost my appetite now, thanks". His attention was singularly fixed on Reo: breathless, flushed, hands trembling before his mouth. He looked overwhelmed.
Satisfaction coursed through Nagi’s body. Good.
Nagi snatched an apple from the table and headed toward the door. "I'll be at the swimming pool," he announced before making his exit.
☀️TBC☀️
#nagireo#reonagi#bllk#edel writes#nagireoweek2023#I started writing this for day 3#exes to lovers#“something short” she said#and then she wrote more than 2K words#this is only an excerpt akjhdksfjsf#inspired by emily henry's “Happy Place”#i had so much writing this i am now too attached#and i intend to polish it into a fully fledged fic#so look forward to that
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Day 6: Ocean's Delight, ft my dragon oc Gabriel and @angels-cake 's cat hybrid oc Jack
At the start of this vacation, Gabriel had been the only one really filling out his bathing suit, half hiding it with a belly that draped over the waistband.
But it had been a pretty long vacation.
Gabriel had money to burn and then some, and right now he was enjoying burning it on extending their stay at his beach house and spoiling his favorite little extramarital kitty.
"How's that fish feast?" Gabriel asked as he brought a fresh pitcher of margarita out to the patio table.
He smiled as Jack groaned and flopped back in his seat, pretending to be dead and sticking his tongue out. "I'm gonna burst, give me some of that now so I can get drunk enough to forget how much I just ate."
"Right, because this won't fill up your belly at all." Gabriel teasingly poured a little margarita onto Jack's tits before holding the pitcher to his mouth.
Jack mewed with surprise before starting to gulp it down, purring away as more and more icy booze joined all the shrimp, crab, and fish in his belly.
He giggled once his mouth was free. "You're really good at getting me drunk-" he hiccuped and groaned, putting a hand over his small but swollen belly. "-and making me fat, Jesus Christ..."
"If I was really that good at it, I'd make you have another bite." Gabriel picked up a coconut shrimp, dipping it into the sweet sauce before dangling it temptingly over Jack's mouth.
Jack drooled a little. "You know a cat can't resist seafood..." he snatched the shrimp with his teeth, whining with the pain of an overfilled belly as he chewed.
"I do know that." Gabriel rubbed his belly for him with a smile.
As the vacation stretched on, Jack only grew more spoiled and indulgent. He had his rich boyfriend taking care of everything, he never had to think. All he had to do was lay in the sun, get wasted, receive way more gifts than Gabriel's spouse did, and eat a whole lot of seafood.
At the moment he was eating crab cakes off a plate that was resting on his belly. Because it was resting on his belly, it was pretty high up, and helping his belly block his view of the ocean.
All he could see as he laid on a towel on the sand was his tummy and his treats, which was fine with him because filling his tummy was all he was thinking about right now.
He purred as he finished off his meal sized snack, and was about to start dozing when Gabriel called for him.
"Jack! Come try the rockfish!"
Jack gasped with excited delight and tried to sit up, grunting from the effort.
His empty plate fell forgotten onto the sand as he wiggled and rolled onto his belly, pushing himself up on all fours and feeling his plush gut drag in the sand. His bathing suit strained around his round ass as he got to his knees and then finally managed to- with much huffing and puffing- get to his feet.
"Coming!" He licked his lips and waddled towards the table.
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Everywhere - David Rice x Reader
David has taken you everywhere.
Italy, France, London you and David have travelled the world. He loved to spoil you. He would take you to the most fanciest restaurants, buy you the most expensive gifts and he would pick five star rated hotels where you and him would go and fuck passionately all through the night.
You would ask him about money but he would respond with a smirk and pat his bag where he stored his cash. Cash he stole from the banks. You always expressed your concerns about the stolen cash but he would kiss you and assure you that everything is going to be okay and they were not going to get caught. He then joked if he was caught he would escape anyway nothing can keep him locked up forever. Despite the worries you trusted him you felt safe around him you knew he wouldn't let anything bad happen to you.
One day he took you to Haiti. After booking into a villa the couple made their way down to the beach.
The view is breathtaking.
You smiled as you removed your flip flops and let your feet sink into the golden sand. David grabs a surf board and offers you to join him but you decline because all you wanted to do is relax under the sun.
After David went out into the ocean you slip on your sunglasses and lie down on the towel. You sigh and tilt your head back letting the sun shine down on your face. You laid there for a while and let your mind drift off. You let yourself go in a relaxed, mediated state.
The call of your name brought you out of your trance. You sit up and push your sunglasses on to your head.
Suddenly your eyes widen when you see him coming towards you.
David walked towards you with the surf board under his arm. He glowed under the sun. His smile is full of warmth and his sky blue eyes sparkled. Water rolls down his muscular, toned body towards his shorts.
Shorts you wanted to rip off him right here right now because God David Rice looked absolutely gorgeous.
Fuck!
You quickly cross your legs not wanting people to notice your sudden desire for him.
David runs his fingers through his wet strands as he sits next you.
"What a wave." He chuckled as he grabs the towel and dries his hair. "That was a big one."
You managed to put on a smile.
"You look like you had fun."
His lips tug upwards when he notices the pink creeping up your cheeks.
"You should have joined me." He says.
"Na." You shake your head. "I'm not into surfing."
He shrugs.
"Your loss."
He puts the towel next to him and leans back on his elbows. He then brushes his hand against your thigh. You look up sharply at him. He pretends to act dumb.
"Something wrong?"
Another brush against your thigh. You glare at him.
"Is the sand bothering you?" He asked with an innocent expression.
You saw through the act he was putting on you can see the mischief in his eyes. He can sense your desire for him and he is winding you up because of it he wanted to see how quickly you will give into him.
As much as you didn't want to admit it he is doing a pretty good job so far.
David gets closer to you. His leg hooks over yours. His body is pressed against yours. His face is inches away from yours. He then leans forward and kisses you on the lips.
"David." You scolded at him. "This is a public place."
"What?" That innocent expression is back on his face. "Am I not allowed to kiss my girlfriend?"
His hand lands on your stomach. You then tensed up as his hand moves under your shorts.
"David." You whispered.
He places a magazine between them both.
"Nobody is gonna know." He leans his head on your shoulder. "They will think we are reading..." He narrows his eyes. "How to make the Kalalou the haitian gumbo." He smiles. "We are just getting into the Haitian culture. Right Y/N?"
You gasp as he sticks his finger inside you. Your legs tighten as he sticks another finger inside you.
"Hmm." He buried his head into your neck. "This is a good read makes me wanna do some cooking right now." You bite your lip as he picks up the pace. "I can't wait to taste it." He whispered into your ear.
Fuck...FUCK!
You grit your teeth to stop yourself from screaming.
He continued to fuck you with his fingers. He smirks as your face now turns red. He can see you are frustrated and you are struggling to stay quiet. Your reaction encouraged him to carry on. He kept going until you spilled yourself all over his fingers. You bit down hard on your lip as you cum on to him. You groan as your panties turn soaking wet.
"Damm it." You cursed under your breath.
He laughs and removes his fingers from you. He raises his hand to his mouth and smirks.
"Bon Appétit."
He licks his fingers clean. As he licked them his eyes locked on to yours. His tongue sucks up every last ounce of you. He then licks his lips in a seductive manner. You felt the burning heat of desire returning between your legs again.
"Salty...but sweet." He nodded with a grin.
"I need to go and change." You said as you stand up.
"But wait." He raises his eyebrow. "What about dessert?"
He gives you a knowing look. Your eyes trail down his body again. You then look back up at his face. He wanted you and you wanted him. You couldn't resist him anymore so you decided to give into your desires.
"Let's go."
He grins and stands up. He takes your hand and leads you behind the trees. In one swift movement you suddenly found yourself falling through the sand on to the bed. You gasp as your back hits the mattress.
He appears on top of you and gives you a smirk. You shake your head. Although you have teleported many times the experience of it all still surprised you.
"You okay?" He asked.
You nod and smile at him.
"Saves getting the keys out right?" He smirked as he started to remove your shorts followed by your panties.
You remove your bikini top and you toss it on to the floor. He pushes his shorts down followed by his boxers. He then climbs on to the bed.
"So beautiful." He mumbled as his lips lock on to yours.
He started of soft and tender but then it became more passionate and eager.
You respond and push your tongue inside his mouth. He moans as his tongue rolls alongside yours.
David eventually pulls away and goes to your neck. He leaves a trail of kisses along your collarbone and bites down on your nipple. You moan. David moves to the other breast and sucks hard on your nipple. You cursed as he sucked and teased you.
His tongue goes down your stomach towards your legs. You moaned his name as his wet tongue made contact with your hot sweaty skin. When he reached your cunt he latched on to the folds and sucked hard at it. He then pushes his tongue in and hungrily licks you up and down.
"FUCK! DAVID...FUCK!"
You push yourself against his face as he continued to lick you down there.
After a few more strokes David removes his tongue and smirks at your flustered face.
"So nice and wet baby." He rubs your clit up and down with his thumb. "All for me." He then goes up and positions himself between your legs. His eyes then widen. "Almost forgot."
Within a second David teleports to his bag and grabs a packet of condoms out. You blink and David is back in front of you again. He rips open the package and gets the condom out. After he puts the condom on he returns to his position between your legs.
"All good?" He asked.
You nod.
Suddenly a gasp escapes your lips as he comes inside you. You arched your back as he started to thrust you.
"God AH!" You cried out loud.
Each thrust started to send you over the edge. You grip on to your boyfriend's hair and tug at it hard. David responded with a growl.
"Damm Y/N."
He then increased the pace. Your other hand goes to his back. Your nails dig into his skin. He gasped with pain and pleasure. His reaction made you weak to your knees.
As he continued to rock you, you started to feel that familiar heat down there becoming more intense and the need to release started to consume you.
You hold on to your boyfriend tight and you buried your head against his chest. You suddenly cried out as you again spill yourself all over him. Seeing you fall apart made him let go. He let out another growl as he let's it all out.
You loosen your grip and drop your head back on to the pillows. David stands up and goes to the bathroom.
You sigh and stare at the ceiling. You blink a few times to clear your vision. You then felt the mattress shift as David joins you on the bed again. He kisses your cheek and wraps his arms around you. You lean on his chest and smile at him.
"Never gets old."
He nods.
"Yeah." He runs his fingers through your hair and smiles. A few moments later David sits up. "I'm gonna take a shower." He raises an amused brow. "Care to join me?"
You smirk at him.
"I think you know the answer."
He grins and pulls you in. Within a second you are against the tile wall. David slides the door shut and switches the shower on. Your lips then return to his. You kiss each other as the water beats down on your shoulders.
"Damm I fucking love you Y/N!" David mumbled into the kiss.
You grin into the kiss.
"And I love you too David. "
The End
#fanfiction#one shot#smut#fanfic#reader#reader insert#jumper#david rice#hayden christensen#david rice x reader
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haiiiii!!!! I've been vv scatter brained, bUT. I HAVE SONGS-
they aren't all specific to characters, so you can pick n choose who gets what n where
The Ballad of Sara Berry: unsure of why i feel this, I'm thinking Mikey. the whole story of trying to be the best till you eventually decide I'm automatically the best if my competition are dead, and they're all bitches anyway.
Hadestown, but specifically the song "Word to the Wise" (at 59:55 in the video) gives me April w the gossip mill energy
Beetlejuice the Musical, specifically That Beautiful Sound (and the Girl Scout song if u wanna see what lead up to T.B.S). I get Donnie w Razor Sharp Grin w this because why not revel in the midst of fearful and distressful screams that you are responsible for.
Mean Girls Musical, World Burn. it gives pyromaniac Mikey w the burning, fire, destructive aspects (same Mikey-). and it could work w April as well w the gossip mill and airing dirty laundry when necessary.
Slap a Btch, Rico Nasty. Ralph. that's it, all I got, some parts of it lyrically works w him, but it's also just the general vibe he's got. like Jade West w her "I'll pop ur head like a pimple." but he can also be kinda like soft Blue's Clues energy.
Super Psycho Love gives Leo, unsure as to why cause like. idk, the genre doesn't fit w the puzzle pieces of his character that I have-
also just. Partners in Crime. that is all-
Hiiiii music <33
For the first one I definitely get both Leo and Mikey vibes. Honestly lowkey all the Hamatos LMAO like
Well, Sara Berry was a popular bitch // Hot bod', hot boy, cheer captain, plus she was rich
You taste the silver Sara, you taste the crown // You thirst for blood from the roses in hand // Whoa, you spoil for sash and scepter, music to dance
Some girls are rational but Sara was not // She stared in mirrors thinking one single thought (Julie) // There's seven reasons this crown's not good as got (Anne, Eunice, Raquel, Marianna) // And so the night of prom, mercy, thus went her plot (Patricia, Quiara)
ALL OF THESE MAKE ME THINK OF THE HAMATOS WISHWKSNS
And the April one is so real my girlfriend LOVES hadestown so I appreciate the recc >:]]
I need to listen to more of the Beetlejuice musical too cus you're spot on w/ the Donnie idea- these Lyrics are SO him
The sound of a scream, is music to me // A sound that says fifteen years full-time therapy // Trauma and fear, it sings in my ear // Ain't it the sweetest noise around, that beautiful sound?
Panic and stress // Oh ain't it the best? // The sound of heart // Exploding inside a chest // It fills you with pride // We're ruining lives
AND WORLD BURN- OOUGH- How I didn't see April and Mikey is BEYOND ME WKBWKWNS
My name is Regina George and I am a massive deal // I will grind you to sand beneath my Louboutin heel // This is what I get for helping, helping someone lame fit in
I wanna watch the world burn, I got the gasoline // I wanna watch the world burn and everyone get mean
Because you took me down // But you didn't finish me off // My name is Regina George // And in case you're keeping score // Cady may have won the battle // But I will win the war
For Smack a Bitch, I get Raph vibe wise but also it's SUCH a Mikey vibe like oh my GOD so I'll just add it to both their playlists snrk
I get what you mean about Leo tho!!! Like some are a lil funky but like. These lines are so real
You're gonna // Be with me // I know you want me too // I think you want me too // Please say you want me too // Because you're going to // Say that you want me every day // That you want me every way
And of COURSE Partners in Crime is the Hamatos Be REALLLLLLL
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What are the worst ways you have tortured your OCs?
Oh boy, where do I start? I'm gonna have to restrict this to what I've already written about because otherwise we'd be here all night. This is... long. Just warning you. I love angst.
Rae: watches her significant other fight for his life in an underground cage fighting ring, has her mutation forcibly expressed and falls two stories from the warehouse rafters, then is separated from her lover and her home, has to then fight him while he's brainwashed, has months of uncertainty wondering if he'll recover, gets into countless fights, gets into a plane crash, gets into a building explosion, nearly gets made into a mind-control puppet herself.... that's most of the main fic I think? Oh, and in a side piece I wrote, she loses her mutation entirely after getting drugged and restrained.
Robin: rescues her brother from being kidnapped and tortured, get kidnapped and tortured herself, has a lucid dream of all her friends and loved ones dying in gruesome ways, gets a severe TBI and has to recover for months, makes friends with a clone of her dead best friend... then watches as the clone slowly falls apart.
Madison: gets sexually assaulted as a teen which leads to her running away from home, watches her best friend nearly drown, gets shot with a catecholamine serum and blindly attacks her friends, then watches her lover get shot with the same serum, watches her sisters nearly get kidnapped, gets kidnapped and tortured herself, has her mutation forcibly enhanced and deals with identity issues after that... and more to come.
Jasper: Cheating a little bc some of this hasn't happened yet, but technically I've written around it with some side pieces: senses their lover die through an empathic link, then senses him coming back to life through necromancy, spends months helping him recover (it's a struggle), as well as a lot of benign hits like being misgendered and constantly flooded with others' emotions. It's death by a thousand cuts with Jasper
Ophelia: loses her mom, watches her father become a supervillain before losing him too, loses the man she saw as her uncle and the man she saw as her brother (and doesn't even witness that, he left her a voicemail a few days before it happened but she was too busy to call and didn't even say her goodbyes), loses one of her past S/Os through her own mistake, dies in a laboratory explosion, is brought into the multiverse to wonder if she'll die again, makes it back onto to be separated from her lover across the multiverse, has to rescue him once an alternate version of her kidnaps him as bait to then try and kill her for "breaking the rules of the multiverse", gets her knee irreparably damaged during the fight and ends up permanently disabled.
Quinn: long-burning angst of watching the man she loves be with another woman, falls 12 stories off a building and breaks both legs, her back, and gets brain damage; deals with constant pain and fatigue as well as hallucinations, gets drugged to force her to stay behind on a mission, and... well, I'm cheating again, but she'll get captured and nearly autopsied while she's still alive, injected with a chemical weapon that causes her to slowly fall ill (with no cure in sight), have to jump off another building and re-injure her back, etc.
Katherine: One of my lighter fics, but still has to watch her lover literally decay and rot as the magic keeping him alive begins to die, is pulled between worlds by the same magic, is used as a tool for the gods to speak through, is pushed to the brink until she literally begins crumbling into sand... there's more too but I haven't reached that part of the story and I don't want to spoil some pretty big twists in the story.
Kestrel: grows up as an outcast from being a changeling, believes they're incapable of love or trust for years, is perpetually seen as a monster/villain/animal/etc., takes care of their lover for 2 years after he becomes catatonic, gets accused for making him catatonic in the first place, gets put under truth serum to test their intentions, has to go into hiding, nearly dies being put through a gauntlet of challenges... and hoo baby there's so much more to come, this fic is still a fresh one.
Prometheus: claws their way out of being a nightmare, lives in a constant state of exhaustion because they won't let themself relax or recover, gets sent back to being a nightmare again, crawls back out again, realizes their lover has been literally uncreated from the world while they were gone.
Mira: is abused for her mutation coming in early, has to run away from home, enhances her own mutation after watching one of her patients die, has her mutation temporarily removed and then has to deal with the agony of her wings pushing through the skin when it comes back, believes her lover has cheated on her, identity crisis, self-esteem crisis, in an alternate future she watches her lover die before dying herself... there's more angst that lives in my head, but I've lost interest in her story so I don't think I'll write it. (it involved her having her memory wiped and being given a different, "human" identity, still a cool idea but I've outgrown the OC itself)
Indigo: grew up in an abusive situation, lives through a literal war, nearly has her life essence siphoned out of her, survives several assassination attempts, watches her best friend get reconditioned, gets shot in the stomach, gets head trauma, gets kidnapped and tortured, gets manipulated to believe her lover is dead (he's not), gets electrocuted until her heart stops, gets partially reconditioned, fights the most powerful Sith in the universe, has her heart stop again, finds her lover in a coma, has to decide whether she or her lover will live because they're linked, undergoes pacemaker surgery and deals with ongoing weakness/physical disability from it.
AJ: has her mother and pets killed when she's 13, gets half her face scratched up by knives, is manipulated and trained into becoming an assassin, identity crisis, identity crisis, gets kidnapped and tortured (are you sensing a theme?), watches her close friend/teammate get shot in the head in front of her, gets stabbed in the gut, identity crisis, gets stabbed through the calf and in the shoulder, is forced to kill the woman who manipulated her into seeing her as a mother figure.
#my friends!!!#answered asks#my ocs#rae mckinney#robin cassidy#madison douglas#ophelia octavius#jasper wilson#oc katherine johnson#oc kestrel#oc quinn/aces#oc indigo#aj campbell#mira hart#oc prometheus
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OMG everyone, Today was such a really great day!
It started out a little stressful. I haven't been able to sleep since the new job started. I even tried sleeping with the dogs, how sad is that? It's sad, I know it's sad. I'm just used to sleeping with Hanni Gustav.
The bed feels so cold and empty and awful, like a grave.
Like my grave. *Sigh*
So someone snuck in to give me a little night cap that first night, just so I could sleep. What can I say? He loves me. I'm spoiled, I'm ok with that.
I'm supposed to be emotionally honest here so I'm just gonna say, I miss him so much my soul feels out of alignment. Have you ever been in love like that? I didn't think it was possible until I was. So here I am! *Unenthusiastic yay*
I'm not brooding, ok hon? I can feel your professional psychologist face from here.
Like I was saying before I was so rudely interrupted by my own imagination, last night I had to sleep in a motel, and don't get me wrong. I knew that was coming but fuck me, maybe it's less that I miss my husband, and more that I miss our fancy sheets ok? If you tell anyone I said that I'll eat you deny it. The flannel sheets at Wolf trap my new house are ok. But these institutional industrial quality shitty motel sheets? I can feel every strand. I might as well be sleeping on fucking sand paper.
So I was grumpy this morning, my skin was raw from tossing and turning, I didn't have coffee or food or anything. Then here comes my knight in garish plaid armor, with coffee and a protein scramble.
When I was a kid I always got in trouble because I didn't like adults hugging me. It made me feel to crowded. Getting that close to people meant knowing things about them I didn't want to know, things they wouldn't want me to know. I never thought I could be touchy until I met Gustav. When he touches me, I feel so peaceful and rooted, like an old oak tree. I want to know his whole soul, his everything. He never feels oppressive or overbearing.
I've never wanted a hug so bad in my life. I might have disassociated into his chest hair for five minutes or five days *so close, so far away*
But the breakfast, was made from ingredients we picked together, it was as close to a hug as I could have just then, like a hug from the inside... Yeah I said that. fuck it. I'm leaving it.
So now we get to the fun part!
It was take your secret spouse to work day. I honestly don't know how I got through so many years of not taking my secret spouse to work with me. Work is so much better with my secret spouse.
secret spouse
secret spouse
secret spouse
Fuck, I gotta stop saying SECRET SPOUSE
Ok I think I have it out of my system.
So first we were doing some boring paperwork and that was whatever but then we got to do a... Let's call it a field exercise, together. For very valid professional reasons I have to be very vague about that. But it was so exciting.
And Gustav was so... Perfect, beautiful, graceful. Fellas is it gay to be hot for your husband when he's cool, calm, collected, and covered in blood brilliant under pressure? Asking for a friend...
So this was the first actionable step of the final phase of our plan & we did it! Together! God I'm so excited and relieved.
So this is it. We're doing it.
Now if only I could sleep in that GAWDAMN cold bed. I would feel perfect.
Wish me luck everyone, or don't Because we don't need luck. We have each other.
#hannibal au#hannibal fanfiction#hannigram smau#hannigram fic#hannigram fanfiction#hannibal smau#hannibal fic#will graham#will x hannibal#hannibal#hannibal and will#hannibal lector#hannigraham
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A Day at the Beach
Summary: Amalia and Luna both have plans for this day at the beach.
Notes: Around 700 words. It took me till my last fic for these two to actually put my mc's name in a fic. Their name's Luna and their nickname's Lulu. This fic is just sweet, enjoy!
It took a while, but they finally got that beach date together!
Well, okay, maybe it's more of a scavenger hunt, but Lia prepared it for them and let's be honest she can do anything for them and they'll be happy either way.
They have something planned for her that they'll do later anyways and this is a great way to get rid of some of their excess energy.
They were walking at the beach, hand-in-hand when Lia suddenly stopped.
"...I forgot something."
"What? Okay, what was it?"
"I can't exactly tell you what I forgot!"
Ohhh, it's a surprise. Alright, I'll play along, Lia.
"It's okay. We could get it later."
"No, no, it's important that I have this."
"Here take this," she hands them the paper.
"I'll be back as soon as I can, Lulu," she gives them a kiss on the cheek before leaving.
Well, let's take a look at this paper.
Treasure Hunting Hints
1. Where's the first spot? Near a marked palm tree.
2. If you can't find it, try to spot a cloth with the same colors as our friendship bracelet.
3. Looking for the next clue? There's a bucket with your name on it.
4. Left of the bucket, there's an arrow.
5. You're getting close. Just keep going!
6. On the way there, you'll see something sticking out of the sand.
7. Up a different palm tree is the clue to the next spot.
8. Marked with a couple of seashells is the next clue.
9. Are you getting tired? Don't worry, you're close to finishing it.
10. Run towards the x in the sand.
11. Reach inside to get the last clue.
12. You did it! There's no more to find after this.
13. Make sure to hold on to this paper; it's important.
14. Everything is collected, go back for your prize.
So that's a pretty long list of hints. Think they spoil a lot of what's gonna happen, but it's about the journey and all that.
Wonder what the prize is though? Guess they have to complete it to find out!
...
Well, that took a while. They have little items in the bucket in their hand that are a reminder of their time together with Lia. Each one even has a little paper attached with her recalling that moment.
It's so sweet. They wish that they could tease Lia about it, but she still hasn't come back.
They walk around the beach for a while, but then they spot her familiar curls.
They run towards her, bucket held close to their chest to prevent anything from falling from it.
"Hey Lia, I'm done! What's the–"
They see her; she's very nervous and very much kneeling in the sand.
"I have prepared for this day in so many ways, but nothing could prepare me for what's going to happen when I finish this."
She takes a deep breath and continues, "We've been through so much together, everything from late night studies to monster hunting."
"And saving the world?"
She laughs, "Yeah, and saving the world too." She has that soft look in her eyes as she continues, "You mean so much to me and I know that you can already guess what I'm about to say next, but why not read it for yourself."
"What?"
"Check the first letters."
They look down at the paper in their other hand to check it. Meanwhile, Amalia gets something from her pocket.
They start giggling.
Lia looks worried but...
Then they also kneel down and get the ring from their pocket.
"Will you marry me?"
They both start laughing.
"Did we both plan to propose today?"
"To be fair, I thought you proposed years ago. When you gave this ring to me."
"I mean, I did give it to you as a way to protect you."
"Yeah, we practically exchanged vows that day too."
"Guess we're just making it official."
"So, Amalia... what's your answer?"
She gets up and carries them in her arms, making them drop the bucket as she spins them.
"Yes, Luna!"
"We're getting married!"
Their laughter can be heard from afar.
They share a kiss as the sun sets, a perfect end to a perfect day.
#it lives within#playchoices#fanfic#amalia de león#amalia x mc#proposing at the same time my beloved#lia and lulu my beloveds#yes my last fic for them is fluffy and sweet they deserve a break
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useless complaint post literally you don’t have to bother reading this it will just help me to rant a bit
This is sooooo not a real issue I’m just in the throes of pmdd but like I have a bunch of semi-expected (but way earlier than I’d thought) unemployed time so I’m using its alignment with the warm weather to go backpacking/live out of my car in [nearby national park and national forests] but right now I feel zero enthusiasm and I really hope it’s not gonna suck bc my heart’s not in it…like if I’m kind of doing it out of obligation bc it’s unusual to have such an extended span of time off when you’re an adult, then am I going to have the drive to get thru the parts that suck, like the exhaustion of steep trail days, the days when it storms so hard you have zero dry gear, etc. but really the part that I’m the most trepidatious about is the loneliness. But it’s so weird bc I’m struggling socially here and I really think some extended alone time would help?? But it’s always hard and I don’t want to lololol. Honestly what would help this the most is to just wait until after my fucking period. But as it is right now I feel like I’m just going thru the motions. If I could fucking live in my house for the equivalent amount of time without my social life encroaching I absolutely would but I’m so burnt out from my close friends leaving and from my last dear relationship here being at times really tough (it’s one that feels like my well-being rides on it— when it’s good, I’m on top of the world, when it’s not I’m hurt and confused and crawling out of my own skin). I still have a community here but it feels like it’s my roommates’ world, and I’m a guest whose presence is like…anodyne at best? And I really think I’ve just latched onto the idea of my trip as a vague mental escape hatch and haven’t really grasped the idea of the fact that I’ll still be present in my ailing brain and treacherous body when I go on the trip— I’m not just taking a nap from my (admittedly spoiled little baby) problems. And when I did the same thing for 3 or 4 weeks last summer I was dropped off & picked up, which created a really nice incentive to stay on trail— to leave, I’d have had to somehow communicate & coordinate with the relatives who’d agreed on a set date to come pick me up, i.e. effectively trapping me in the woods so I’d stay when I got all grumpy or sad or began semi-hallucinating human voices or was ready to throw it all away to get my hands on a slice of pepperoni pizza and a big old kombucha lol.
Anyways this is such not a real problem but me ol’ paranoid ass is convinced a whole passel of my irls have this blog’s url so I can’t freely complain about what’s really bothering me, which is that I’m starting to see harbingers of the devastating dissolution of my closest relationship. Or, even worse, my relegation to a much more distant connection. And I’m trying desperately to convince myself I should stay in this fucking town, because I’m suuuuuuuuper prone to just fleeing when I start to feel [inaudible], which is a super unsustainable way to live my life and o know it’s not [city] I’m trying to flee but myself which scientists are telling me I can’t physically do…but is that the truth?? Or is the truth that I actually do need a clean break from [redacted]…or is that just a convenient lie I’m telling myself so I can flee again. Or is THAT a convenient lie I’m telling myself so that I can keep my head in the sand and keep [redacted]. It’s so cool how you can’t trust your own heart and mind and you might just suffer from uncertainty forever and you’ll die chasing happiness with the grass always greener but also like pmdd and I don’t really want to go on this trip but I think I must. I think…
#like. even this trip itself is evidence that my nature is just a fucking flee-er.#and I think I’d settle for love but like that would require someone to love me. lol#and I’ve got some semblance of it here but it’s not enough and it’s very fucking painful. like what happens if the strongest ties you may#ever render are just enough. bc you’re not enough. lol#also I think I have to leave when I said I’d leave bc my internal shameometer prevents me from telling my male roommate I’m staying#solely to use the toilet during um well you know.#and also the more I come to terms with the fact that I’m almost definitely autistic the more I really can see how much masking fucking#drains me.#and the friends who left were the ones around whom I didn’t really feel the need to mask. but these social things the past few weeks have#fucking walloped me and I’m just :-( ;-( :-(#oops did not mean to make him wink.#and it just feels like the rest of my life is going to be a cycle of masking for long enough that someone likes me. and then being#abandoned by them for romantic relationships or some geographical distance reason or like ummm fucking liability by lorde reasons#ugsjkskwnenwjsmz :-( :-/
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