#and remember if/when he brings jt back

[thewalrusespublicist]

Went to see Paul last night. I’m still on cloud 9 and can’t articulate anything so here are some disparate thoughts in no particular order:

The last hour is non stop banger after banger so if he tours again go to the bathroom BEFORE (missed Obla di 😭😭)

I like Come on to Me, sue me 

The crowd took a bit to warm up which was very annoying like c’mon even Jet they were mid energy (it got way better by the end)

Oh Darling playing before he came on in the context of all the Get Back graphics on stage made me suddenly very tinhat about that song. Not that they did it on purpose ofc but my brain connecting the contextual images and the lyrics was… well. All interpretation of course!

Not a big response to I’ve just seen a Face or Drive my Car! Incorrect crowd again. 

I loved In Spite of All the Danger. It got me weirdly emotional though with it being the first song they recorded and it having the line ‘I would do anything for you’ and the last words John said about Paul reportedly being ‘I would do anything for him’. Again not saying the initial song is about each other, it’s just one of the cosmos’ tragic little bookends 

Have the lyrics to Let Me Roll It been officially changed from she to he? Because it was he again tonight. I wasn’t hearing for it but it shot out when he sang it.

The graphics could do with some work, Paul you’re a billionaire gets some people on that. Though Get Back just being everyone smiling in the studio was so cute.

Reminded once again that McBeardy was the hottest man alive.

Weird that Something got a montage of George but Maybe I’m Amazed and Here Today had no pictures of Linda or John. I can see why with Linda in terms of jt being awkward for Nancy but still.

Hey Jude lasts forever but it was magic and I wanted it to go on longer. 

Paul forgot My Valentine and thought the guy reminding him was showing him a heart to say he loved him lmaoooo. He added it back in but it was wild to go from My Valentine to Maybe I’m Amazed. (Also why was Johnny Depp there?!!)

Paul was at his cuntiest and it was so funny. Just casually mocking peoples whooping and I love you’s (alpha bitch is at it again). 

Whoever that guy in the audience was that had gone 135 times I salute you. Wish it could be me. 

1985!!! My soul left my body my hands started seizing it was so SO good. 

Jet is a banger, sorry to that crowd I had a great time.

The girls with the ‘I love you more than yesterday’ sign I know what you are and you are so funny for that. 

Cried and beamed at Now and Then, it hits different in the arena (and a crowd favourite). It obviously means so much to Paul as well. Just emotional all round. 

Live and Let die is incredible but Paul the fire!!! The banging!! I was so stressed the entire time, how can he still hear?

HELTER SKELTER

Simply Having a Wonderful Christmastime for those who enjoy whimsy (Paul telling the kids they did great was cute as hell) 

Ohhh that last medley really got to me (carry that weight…)

As a lot of others have said Paul’s voice is inconsistent. Sometimes it’s great and you can’t believe he’s doing it and other times he shows his age. 

Which brings me to…

I’m not sure Here Today would stay on the set list if it wasn’t the song for John. In fact I’m certain it would be off it as it’s too hard for Paul to sing now. That being said, I think he may have broke down a bit. I wish I had videod it because either he did the ‘no, no, no’ that he’s done the past couple of performances or it was just a singular emotional no. I can’t remember which but It took me off guard and it didn’t seem intentional. :(( Edit: seen it again by people who have kindly posted it online and it was just him struggling with the notes, yay for video, not yay for Paul’s vocal chords).

I did laugh when Paul was talking about telling people you love them and the crowd just started screaming I LOVE YOU at him like it’s not what he means guys.

Overall 10/10 one of the best nights of my life. 

[highdefinitions]

Mitch is the punching bag of Leafs fans. Do not know when this immense hate train started with him. I don’t remember being that bad years ago. I know he was criticized for being “childish” (like doing the griddy or doing fortnite dancing or playing video games), and the criticism of not being “manly enough” was always there. However, the past 2 seasons, the social media fans have been insane. He used to be a favorite with the young-ish and young adults fans. He was supposed to be the “relatable one” and “people’s princess”. But it took a turn.

i don’t really get it either. i don’t know if it’s the frustration of not bringing the cup home in so long or if they just blindly fed off the fact that babcock didn’t want the org to draft mitch but the guy’s been getting abused since he’s been drafted…. i think it’s just something about that city that their media that believe there needs to be someone to blame and a scapegoat for it all and since mitch doesn’t quite fit the picture of their ideal hockey player he gets the abuse despite him consistently being one of, if not their best player every season. they won’t blame jt, former captain, the hero who came home to play, cursebreaker. they won’t blame matthews because he scored four goals in his first game and then nearly 70 last season and god forbid you pin it on a first overall. can’t blame nylander because well oh he proved himself.

i don’t know. it’s just tough seeing someone who seemingly clearly loves his sport and his team get shit on by people that are supposedly fans. like god forbid the guy expresses that he has fun and has a silly personality. he just seems happy to be there and it shocks me how angry people get about it. idk maybe i’m biased because he’s my favorite player and got me back into watching hockey but it definitely has gotten so much worse the last 2-3 seasons

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Jaybin putting J 🖤 D and Jason Grayson in the margins of his school books like every love struck teenager and hiding them in his draws where no one can find them.

Only years later when Dick can finally bring himself to enter pass the threshold of a room that has been sitting untouched does he come across them. Dozens of little drawings and hearts hidden in plain sight. At first it’s like a game for Dick, trying to find as many of these little mementos of Jason’s love for him left, he’s filled with so much love and the cuteness of it might just make him explode.

He looks up, a tease on the tip of his tongue before he remembers. And then suddenly it’s the usually guilt and grief but this time he’s also mourning what could’ve been.

- - -

Anyway Jason coming across them at the back of their wardrobe in a box and being found by Dick surrounded by evidence of his puppy crush. Face red and head in his hands and omg Dick why did you keep these get rid of them this so humiliating.

Dick finally getting to tease Jason just to see what shade of red he’ll turn and how far it’ll travel.

Oh, but Dick seeing the little J 🖤 D scribbled into the margins of Jason's notes even before Jason was taken from them. And Dick teases him then and there because there's nothing more darling than puppy love.

Dick wouldn't know it's him though. So he would badger Jason about it. Relentless with his teasing and questions as Jason blushes, spitting and sputtering as he complains at Dick.

The reaction only spurs Dick on though. He adores it, so he persists with it regardless of how Bruce and even Babs tell him to go easy on the poor kid.

The little affections persist for years. For Jason's entire tenure as Robin before he's taken away from them. And it doesn't take Dick by surprise that Jason is the sort to fall so hard and stay so devoted, but at the same time it does. Whoever this 'D' is - they're a lucky little bastard. Or they would have been.

The above being a thought that occurs to him when Dick comes across those notebooks years after the fact. And it's as he's flipping through the pages that he stumbles across those more telling affections: DG 🖤 JT & Jason Grayson and - oh.

It's him. Dick is the lucky bastard. It's him.

And it takes his breath away. It wrecks him, leaving him staggering to kneel on the ground beside Jason's desk, notebook in hand. Ink bleeding as Dick cries over all this youthful, innocent love meant for him.

It's a mournful thing at first, but then Dick remembers how he'd make Jason blush all the time and he laughs because there's more context for that now and it's silly. It's sweet.

But Dick regrets that Jason wasted his time on Dick. Then again, Jason was only fifteen - still so young; a child - maybe being taken from them while still having such a pure love untainted by expectations or heartbreak is a small mercy.

And yes. Jason comes back and that puppy crush hasn't gone away. Dick recognizes it if only because he's in the know now and it never fails to make him smile because Jason might have changed to the point he's unrecognizable, but with this - he's the same. It's a catalyst for recognizing a lot of Jason's other qualities, too. Just Dick being very aware of Jason and subconsciously smitten.

Then they get together and it's nice, but Jason finds those notebooks and he doesn't screech, necessarily - but it's a near thing because wtf are these, Dick? Omfg burn them what the hell when did he find out???! Then Dick cheekily says, 'Well, Mr. Grayson - ' and Jason takes Dick down and out because no no nope. Meanwhile Dick cackles and it's sweet and ahhhhhhh. Precious.

[serpercival]

@goofo is truly my number one enabler so let's talk about the OC I've quickly gotten unbearably tender about in the foxtrapverse. I had a five hour drive yesterday by myself so I was rambling about him in voice notes in the group chat and got so attached so quickly.

As Trapper, Hawkeye, and BJ establish themselves in the San Fran medical community, everyone starts referring curse patients to them, sometimes because those doctors don't want to deal with those cases or because they know that anyone associated with Trapper is going to be kind and polite in a way some other doctors might not be.

One day, a few months after JT starts kindergarten, a mom brings in her kid—Jesse—who's newly cursed. He's the same age as JT.

He's also a red fox.

His is temporary. Trapper takes a look at the test results and it seems like Jesse's curse is going to last about a decade, maybe a little bit more. Long-term, but not permanent.

Trapper remembers how lonely his own childhood was. JT's made friends, but Trapper had friends when he was in elementary school, too. It took a little while for kids to adopt their parents' ideals and start being scared of him.

He pulls some strings, talks to Jesse's mom, and they start setting up playdates. Jesse and JT get along absolutely fantastically. They have a built in connection and can communicate in a way they can't with anybody else.

The next year, they're at the same school. They spend damn near all their time together. JT's got a little bit of a crush, but Jesse's never shown any interest in guys, so he leaves it alone. And because Jesse's is temporary, he doesn't get the heat (but does get a little bit worked up during February), so JT doesn't even have "we can go through it together." They have a few other friends through high school, but mostly, they're leaning on each other.

A month or so into senior year, Jesse's curse finally wears off. And god, the grief of that. It's all he remembers, and suddenly he's missing pieces of himself. He can't understand when JT speaks in fox anymore. His senses are so much worse. God, he misses his tail! He took a lot of pride in keeping his fur nice, and now... what the hell is he supposed to do?

He desperately wants to stay friends with JT, but it's hard. Every time he looks at JT, he remembers what he lost. And... people treat him differently, now. They smile back at him. A couple of girls flirt back.

So they drift apart. They're both mourning so much and they want each other back, but they don't know how to start forging that connection again. By the end of the year they don't even acknowledge each other in the halls.

At graduation, they say goodbye.

JT's sure he's never going to see him again.

Nearly a decade later, JT's interning at San Francisco Memorial, and Jesse comes into the emergency room after a car crash. JT begs Stan to put him on the case, and Stan agrees before anyone who knows the whole story can warn him against it.

JT's the one there when Jesse wakes up after surgery.

It's awkward, at first. They have the kind of conversation you have with someone when you don't know them anymore. Jesse teases JT for taking after his old man, JT asks Jesse what the hell he's doing with himself these days..

And then JT slips, and he says Jesse's name in fox, and every old ache comes flooding back.

Jesse apologizes for how things ended. He's thought about him... god, three times a week, minimum, for the past eight years. He still sits down weird, like he's going to sit on his tail if he's not careful. And he could have died without ever seeing him again! He's never had another friend he was so close to. He wants that back. He was so scared, in high school, and the idea of being Normal was so alluring, that he pulled back.

But it doesn't have to be like that anymore.

They start hanging out again. It's, again, awkward at first, but Jesse's trying this time. Once a week, when JT has the time in his schedule, he'll go over to Jesse's apartment, they'll have dinner and play a board game and talk about their weeks, and... JT starts to remember how bad his crush was. He can't hide the interested body language, this time around, and he can tell that Jesse can still read it like a book.

But Jesse doesn't tell him to stop.

So JT starts assuming they're dates.

A few weeks before Christmas, JT asks Jesse if he wants to come over for the holiday. When Jesse agrees... JT kisses him. Just on the cheek. Chaste. but Jesse still shies away.

JT assumes he's fucked everything up again. He figures he's never going to see him again, again, and tries to cut ties first.

When JT doesn't show up for their weekly hangout, Jesse calls him asking him where the hell he is.

So he goes.

Jesse kisses him back the second he's through the door.

"I'm sorry," he says, sliding his hands into JT's. "This is... new, for me."

JT squeezes his hands back. "Yeah, well. As long as you let me stick around through the new stuff, this time."

[mpsansy]

Just to establish the timeline of when the ghosts were able to turn corporal (Manifestation, able to interact with the living world/remember, etc.), feel free to correct me, but it seems like the trio was first judging by the TikTok of Stretch putting JT in his place. Most likely due to the shear animosity the three most certainly share, if not Stretch having the most himself over Casper. Casper is next by the fact that he’s not oblivious to his father’s… less than stellar record of being an actual father. But because he seems aware of JT’s attempts to resurrect him and his mother… And it be fitting. JT’s greatest failure, wandering the halls of his mansion, an apparition of a life JT could have had… If his selfish ambition wasn’t thicker than blood. But seeing his dad trying helps Casper to still have a generous view of his father… At least until he meets Wendy, and being a witch, hooboy, she can practically taste how THICK the curse is over the McFadden family. Next is Casper’s mother, I feel like I missed the reason why, but I’m going to chalk it up to that because she died so suddenly from the curse her spirit hadn’t really collected itself until much later.

Is any of this slightly correct?

Mm, a little bit of it. But to be fair, I need to be more clear on my posts over there on TikTok. I’m finally starting to get the picture of what I want out of these characters, so I’ll be soon compiling all the things I need to tell about these characters. And having to write it more accurately here will be a big help to translate it into my videos over there!

Anyway, getting back into this. None of these ghosts were ever able to interact with J.T. The trio specifically weren’t even in the manor except for Casper, who saw a man desperately seeking a way to get his family back. Casper had a hunch that this man was perhaps referring to him and another person, but… he didn’t know him. Like at all. It was mixed feeling for the child, but he really did want to help the man.

However the interactions were so small, so faint. It irritated the child. But perhaps irritating J.T more cause now he knew something- someone was there with him. Casper had lashed out and broke some things due to the invisible barrier. Both equally tried to talk, but something was there to say “NO”.

Though this was for the better for Casper. Because this man, the man that was indeed his biological father. In all the years of attempting to bring his wife and child back, he was still thinking of himself. Always had, always will. A reality I don’t think he saw until Wendy came into his life.

Now with what you’re saying there, kinda feels like you pulled it out of my brain. Wendy is not only great friend to Casper, but a spectacular magical genius. Knowing all things about curses and secret spells. And she does see it. All the things that happened to her friend and his family.

It might have actually upset her cause, as you said, she can taste how thick the curse is. I happen to take that literally. With Wendy describing the taste as blood and sticky like tar. Almost suffocating if you wanted her honest opinion. And she feels for this family. She really does cause it seems like all the horrible deaths that happened to the McFadden family, it all occurred because of J.T’s crazed obsession with power. And all of them paying the price for it.

And I kind of said something about Casper’s mother that I’ll be happy to repeat. She was lost in all this time. And with your thought about the curse having a play in that would be appropriate to sum it up to.

She'd be the very first affected by the curse and it pushed her so far away that she split apart. Barely managing to collect herself and trying her best to call out to her family.

Took long enough, but the trio finally heard her calls.

[prismagalaxy514]

Big confession time

After seeing @mrultra100 's post regarding his stance to JT, I decided to come clean with something. Be warned though, this is gonna be a long one.

As he pointed out in his post, JT is pretty much dead, given with the history. Even the fandom seems to be dead.

But here's the thing. I'm incredibly stubborn to believe in that. Mostly because, this show holds a very special heart to me. I remember watching it a lot on Nickelodeon as a kid and being mesmerised by everything. Sure, I also remember watching Spongebob and TLA as well and I do remember them fondly, but somehow, Johnny Test, despite its budget cuts and mixed seasons, has enticed me to such a degree, it influenced me to create art and stuff.

Keep in mind, I'm autistic, so my connection to my hyperfixations are incredibly deep. And while I have other stuff, I enjoy, such as Winx Club, The Penguins of Madagascar, Kamen Rider, etc., Johnny Test is the one, I'm really obsessed with. I couldn't stop smiling, everytime I see the characters, love the dynamic and the character himself, Johnny, has resonated with me to have fun. (He is my Nr. 1 favourite character BTW)

In the beginning, I was very secretive online, since at the time, the hatedom was really huge. Not to mention, my artworks back then were....pretty terrible. But as time went on and opinions changed, I evolved and matured, acknowledging its flaws and making plans on making it better myself.

In short, this show made me into what I am today. There is a reason, why I'm known as the queen of Johnny Test.

Besides, I keep bringing up attention to the series by making lots of fanart, stories, headcanons, cosplay and even a spinoff concept, I really want to make it official, when I get into the animation industry. This is when I do the most unconventional method of doing lots of crossover stuff with JT, mostly with Winx, but also with other shows and media as well. I did MLP, Sonic and the list doesn't stop there.

It may sounds odd, but this, along with talking about the series online and making more fanmade content, are the only methods for me to spread about its existence, while also connecting with my friends. Shoutout to @arti-squid , @rominadrawsart16 , Oreostuffing11, @thetickler85 and @akcartoonist2004 for being the most awesome JT moots ever!

As for my plans for "Johnny Test - Power Up!", I have plans of more content. I have yet to draw Dukey and the remaining two new characters, while also planning to do concept art of the other characters, locations, lore, etc. Basically creating a very detailed show concept to pitch to studios and hopefully, getting the rights of the series for a new chance.

And as for the Prismaverse, it'll also develop further as well. Like I have more plans for more headcanons, stories, friendships and artworks for the cast and even plans on expanding it further by adding more series, I'm interested with.

All of this may sound really farfetched, but this show really defined me to keep evolving, experimenting and believing in myself and my dreams. I found new friends along the way, while also fighting some hardships in my life at the same time.

Just because the series and by extention, the community is dead by a majority of people, that doesn't mean, it's fully dead. There is still a spark, waiting to be blossomed to a inferno. In other words, as long as there are dedicated fans like me and my friends, that spark will last to the end of time.

In short, never give up your obsessions and dreams, even when there is doubt. Keep doing, what makes you happy.

This has been the Cosmic Queen speaking, I hope this post gives you some insight about my opinions about it.

Stay Radiant and Sparkle on, starlets. ✨️

[dailyautophagy]

Thank fuck the election is over soon

And thank fuck we have off next Monday

11/11 make a wish day wish for work off you got it dude

And also thank fuck for the lil Read MORE options because these walls of text are about to get more frequent I guess lol

I can’t make someone want to hang out with me so I just don’t lol you wanna stare at me then yay you wanna stare at screens then BET lol I can too

Granted I don’t have a weird cyber video chat room thing to interact with so i ramble at tumblr but

I mean I washed my clothes I made breakfast and dinner I did the things I was supposed to do lol and then he’ll get offended when I reject his penis offering later like bitch iiiii again don’t like feeling like I have a child so im not gonna be tryna touch penis lol he don’t be remembering shit like bud you gotta get off Obamacare lol that shoulda been done months ago lol I can’t write in your PCP name because I don’t know it and I can’t bring the papers to your HR lol so like you have to fucking do it. 😑 child behavior like no wonder I do not want kids lol already got a manchild

BUT U DISHRESS

So if you type in all caps your phone (or my phone lol) doesn’t be correcting the mf spelling errors?

SO YOURE SAYING EVERYINE WILL KNIW JOW KUCH I JUST FAT FINGER MY FUCKING KEYBOARD AND THERE IS NOTHING I CAN DO ABOUT JT

nice

that’s fun

I mean besides the IM YELLING KIND OF A LITTLE BIT ASPECT ITS ORETTY NEAT

im not yelling by the way lol

I CANT CONTROL THE VOLUME OF MY VOICE

I miss Robin Williams

Mrs Doubtfire hits different as an adult

Like as a kid when they’re at dinner at the end and he’s changing back and forth for his business dinner and his family dinner and you’re like holy shit that’s intense and he forgot he had lipstick on cause of all the switching around …

But as an adult you’re like oh he’s just shit faced lol

So basically I melted (warped, really) the side of one of my 5 gallon jug water bottle things and it was empty so it doesn’t matter that much but I hate plastic despite how useful

Water in and of itself doesn’t really “leach” plastic but our salvia does - it can break it down and then we got it in us lol

Yo Neal Brennan is silly he said all brown people or black people or indigenous people can pray to their ancestors and all us white people should never lol and he is kinda right

I am not saying I started trauma flexing but I think I was the first person to be like “why can’t i brag about an abortion the same we people brag about pregnancy” I used to have a hefty liberal mindset lol i mean i do still kinda think a fetus can’t exist without you so you’re kind of a host so like.. not murder to the degree murdering a thing that actually exists yet just the potential lol but you can’t give someone the ingredients for a cake and say happy birthday lol i mean you can but WORK has to be done before it’s a real thing so like

Anyway the military kills strangers and men fight tooth and nail to defend the right to kill people who are in their homes without their consent or knowledge or whatever so I think women should be able to kill someone in their body without their consent or knowledge or whatever lol bill burr and louis ck takes on the issue but they are both right

And if you pretend to care about climate change guess what / it is preferred if you don’t make more carbon footprints lol

And another thing lol just from a logistics standpoint … the people who are like “don’t kill babies” are generally religious and republican and white …. It’s mostly brown/black people doing abortion and ALL are mostly democrats so like why do you want them to not?? More competition later? You love the colored babies but not once they’re adults? I don’t get it lol just again bc logistically you want less of those types anyway and this has been helping that so like

Whatever

I am sleepy

He has stopped cackling lol i will rest my head and see how it goes

Unions are good? Or nah?

NATO is bad and nato kinda feels like a union 😂

I’m not saying smart things it’s okay I don’t have to say smart things all the time

I don’t even have to say true things lol im not speaking directly to anyone and therefore I ain’t really lying

The sky is green and grass is blue and shoes go on your hands

Oh no did we die

Not yet

Not

Just

Yet

[fromtenthousandfeet]

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Jimin is emotionally mature, he also has this quiet confidence and sureness about his work and ideas. His creative process is actually very interesting to me: he makes all his songs from scratch, literally from 0. We saw in his documentary how LC was born out of him playing with an instrument, same with his other tracks. It brings me back to what you said in a previous ask: he’s not trying to emulate or reference any other artist (like MJ, JB or JT). He is his own bank, his own source, and therefore his own standard. It’s interesting because usually producers bring in some tracks or pre-made songs, or even some existing songs by famous artists that were hits. Not him though, that’s why you can’t compare him with no one else.

I think besides whatever status quo that the company or fandom has created about the group, the members are all genuinely fond of JK because he is the youngest. For Jimin, he’s like a younger brother, so besides being an empath I think he naturally tries to nurture him as well.

And about Jk’s attitude, it might be different things. I think he is still immature because he’s been coddled all his life, praised constantly to the point where he gets angry when he doesn’t win or gets what he wants. He has admired Jimin for a long time (jealousy or admiration, I think it can be both), but he doesn’t publicly complement him because of his ego. Especially now because he’s a global pop star, he was always the one who was meant to be #1 , that is his fixed role. But when he’s alone he’s watching Jimin’s videos and listening or studying his songs (remember those lives in 2023 and the copycat jokes?), or searching his own name online to see people’s reactions. I’m not trying to drag him by the way, I just understand him. I think people having huge expectations for you since an early age can turn you into a perfectionist, an insecure person afraid to underperform or someone arrogant. Or everything at the same time, because not being able to compliment others comes from insecurity, but so does being a perfectionist. Him being defensive about the songwriting topic also comes from a wounded ego IMO.

I’m an artist myself, I always encourage artists to stand firm and know their worth. But I think humility and being open to growth, knowing that you’re not always right is KEY to creative work. Jimin has that already, also the fact that most people just see things face value and don’t expect him to break from the role he has in the group was exactly the reason why his solo debut was so shocking. Most people didn’t expect those songs, his songwriting or the chart success. Most even thought he wasn’t even interested in making solo music simply because he didn’t brag or talk about it.

He just needs more assertiveness and to be a little bit more selfish, because always being the one giving can take a toll on you, especially if it’s not reciprocated. I genuinely feel like the military service could help him with that and become a learning experience too. I’m not glamorizing it, but I think being in a different environment where there is no company push or roles to play can help him grow his confidence and step up more. Just look at the way he got that #1 trainee award.

I appreciate all the points you've made, and I don't have much to add beyond a few comments about military service.

Sometimes we women need to put our opinions about military service aside. While it's probably not like going to summer camp, there are definitely men (and women!) who either choose to serve in the military willingly or end up there out of necessity and find that they actually enjoy it. Look how men seek out single-sex spaces. They gleefully join fraternities despite the possibility of hazing. They play on sports teams. For the most part, I think men really enjoy a sense of group brotherhood. It's entirely possible that military service is not all bad. I think Korean men are also proud of their service and the bonds they form while enlisted.

When Jin was discharged, I noticed he had a moving and tearful goodbye with one of his fellow trainers. The moment was honestly more emotional than his reunion with the other BTS members. Hobi has looked happier and healthier than I've ever seen him. Teahyung certainly seems to be digging the military life and the new muscles that accompany it. Namjoon keeps posting group photos with his fellow soldiers, all full of smiles.

Going to the military might actually be a great thing for the BTS boys. For the first time in their adult lives, they are surrounded by regular Korean men instead of all the weirdos in the k-pop industry (I'm looking at you, BSH). Also, their accomplishments are their own. They are treated as individuals instead of just cogs in the BTS machine. In short, they are living what is the closest they will probably ever come in their adult lives to a “normal” existence.

Jin seems to be advocating for himself more forcefully since his return to civilian/BTS life. He insisted on the hug-a-thon despite the company's objections. He's got his new show where he's forging relationships with people outside the BTS sphere. All of this feels like a positive step in the direction of a future solo career.

As for JK in the military, for the first time in his teenage and adult life, he is no longer the youngest. He will be expected to act in a mature manner and be a good example to the younger recruits. And while I'm sure the leaders on their base are probably star struck, theoretically, both Jimin and Jungkook should be treated like any other soldier there. I'm so curious to see what both of them will be like once they've been discharged.

[gordontheengineswifenirmal]

Saw arsehat yesterday

Things are getting better. I have no desire to be in love with him anymore. And honestly, I’m fine with that. To be honest, as much of a shock the divorce was, I was glad he initiated it. It was something I had considered, but never wanted to bring up.

However, I’m coming to terms more n more with the pain he caused me after. I was NEVER jealous of him having a kid. I’ve never wanted kids. I was hurt by his secrecy, and his weird behaviour. Furthermore, his lack of ability to be responsible for his actions hurt. He did a stupid, and still can’t own up to it. He also tends to flip flop on things (like kids!)

The pain is lessening, and that’s good. He doesn’t feel so awkward to be around. He is in many essences, still a child.

He picked me up from auntie n uncles place last night. He says to me ‘I didn’t know adulting would be so hard. I don’t have time for anything. Does it ever go away or get better? You remember how badly I wanted to leave auntie n uncles n be in my own?’ I said we’ll move back then lol. He says ‘I can’t, because their place is a mess n it made me sick.’ I said well that’s fair, but then u gotta deal with adulting lol

He then says he still would like a kid. I said if u think adulting alone is insane, adding a kid multiplies it. I didn’t say jt, but I thought If you’re having trouble doing basic adulting, having a kid is not for u.

I’ll let that sink in.

He kept the baby thing secret, because he was afraid he’d be judged by friends and family, because in Indian culture, gossip is particularly common n takes on a certain flavour. The problem with this is that he deserves it. He did something shady, and was afraid to own up to it. He made things worse by being shady. If he hadn’t been so shady, he might not have to worry as much.

Also, if u havnt done anything shady, then have confidence. When people falsely accused me of being a paedophile, racist, misogynist, etc. (different occasions over the years) I stood me ground, because I knew I had never done any of these things, and they were manipulating the story for their benefit. They purposely misinterpreted my actual intentions. I had nothing to be guilty of, and was gaslit. Their accessions often contradicted themselves and made no sense in reality. (Such as above, when people thought I was jealous of Arsehat for having the kid, or when they thought I was sexually into kids. I have stated many times that I never wanted kids, and I prefer them kept away from me, and fully clothed. I was actually more into older men, and that’s why I like the engines. I see them as older men with a variety of personalities. Yes, even Percy.) As for racist - I actually like all cultures. I don’t like when people manipulate or exploit others, and I hate gratuitous attention seekers. These things often work hand in hand, especially on social media soap boxes. So yeah. I have pure intentions, n I stand by that. Me physical record can attest - I’ve never been arrested, n I try to avoid drama, but I do try to help n guide others to do right n be happy. When I feel they are deserving of/ are willing to b helped.

Anyhoo, it feels good to be processing the lingering confusing feelings, and allowing them to go their way as well. I’m finally starting to move on from it more emotionally, n it feels good. I feel less uncomfortable being around him. This is why I don’t like being around men who belong or belonged to other women and why male virginity/purity is important to me. They make me feel deeply uncomfortable in an unsettling way. They make me feel always on guard. I don’t trust them. This is what causes the panic attacks to get ugly and cycle. It’s me body warning me that there’s danger ahead, and that if I don’t get out fast, she’s gonna blow.

This is not to say that blokes who have never had relationships and are virgin cannot create problems or drama, but there’s less of a chance that others get involved n make it worse. I have a long history of experience with abuse. I have ptsd. This is what I deal with. To be fair, I don’t have this issue with gay blokes (whether they have/had a man or not) or with sex/romance repulsed blokes who havnt been with anyone. Im not interested in them sexually or romantically, but i do feel I can trust them more.

I used to trust arsehat in that way. Though he wasn’t particularly sexual towards me most of the time, he also wasn’t a womaniser. I felt secure with that. When he had the secret baby, and I wasn’t filled in on details, it wasn’t the baby party that really disturbed me. It was the leaving out of details that got to me. I found out when me own roommate discovered his roommates instagram posts. If he had been honest n clear from the start, and maybe if I’d heard from her, I’d have felt better from the get go. But whatever. It’s hard to let go, and I’ll never forget the experience- however, I’m processing those negative feelings, and starting to finally let go of them. It feels good. He’s still an immature weirdo, but that’s what makes him family I guess. lol. He’s not a bad guy….hes just Peter Pan with a turban.

And me, I’m happier with me trains. And cats. And without sex/romance. Me own imagination is satisfying enough.

[hackedbyawriter]

Speaking of Patrochilles/FinnPoe I just had an epiphany

I might actually write this as a proper oneshot

TW: Major Character Death

Okay so I know we all don’t want either Finn or Poe to die (unless ur a certain FinnPoe Snippets account) but hear me out.

In the next movie they’re in an established relationship (or maybe they’re in this weird in between or something idk). I’d say personality wise Finn is more like Patroclus and Poe more like Achilles but for this we’re gonna switch the narrative roles.

So idk at some point Finn either clashes with Rey or Poe about some ethics and refuses to go into battle (maybe he has to fight a one on one combat thing with a long lost family member or something).

So Poe gets pissed bc to him it feels like a regression and he doesn’t understand Finn’s turmoil. So he tells Finn that he’ll go instead wearing Finn’s armour and he’ll do it whether Finn liked it or not.

So Finn helps him get into the armour (And let’s say Finn wears a mask of sorts as Jedi kinda as a homage to his fellow troopers that got out of the system) and gives him his lightsaber. He wishes him luck ignoring dread in his stomach and he refuses to watch the fight.

Poe goes out and fights and just like Patroclus he almost wins. But the Force whatever binds the system together has other plans. Just as he’s about to claim victory he feels a sharp stab through the unprotected area of his/Finn’s armour. He feels himself crumble to the floor and slowly fades away until there is no life left in his body.

Everyone is stunned to silence befor chaos interrupts. Rey much like in the Iliad protects Poe’s body throughout the chaos bringing it back to the camp they had set up.

At that very moment Finn emerges and sees Rey. He’s about to ask her what’s happening before he realises she is half dragging half carrying something. It takes a moment for him to realise a moment for it all to sink in. But when it does he’s running. Running towards the man he had loved still loved. The man he had let go.

He takes him up in his arms, removes the helmet, searching for signs of life, begging him to wake up, holding him, sobs wracking praying for the force, fate, the stars anything to bring him back to life.

But Poe is dead. And jts Finn’s fault. He shouldn’t have let him go. Should have just fought instead.

And Finn finds himself paralysed.

I wanted to end it here but then I remembered the aftermath in the Iliad and it could be all the more painful.

Finn doesn’t let go of Poe’s body not for days. He stays locked in his cell trying to bring him back to life. Not knowing that it can’t be done. Finally knowing why the Jedi warned against attachments.

Eventually Poe’s appears to him, it’s unclear whether he’s a force ghost or whether it’s a figment or Finn’s imagination. But he reminds Finn why they are here what they are fighting for and assures him that it wasn’t Finn’s fault.

Finn realises then that Poe can’t come back to him. But it was up to Finn to make sure the sacrifice wasn’t meaningless.

And so he decides to fight.

[purplemninja]

I wanna know your thoughts on some of the animatics/AMVs in the fandom honestly there’s so many great ones, I’ve only seen one amv that made me question my sanity, so I think they are overwhelmingly amazing

To be honest, I don't think I really saw that many. Spoilers ahead for some LN fan content.

The AMVs that come to mind (for me) are the JT Music songs animated by Harry101UK, RenLII and ooCatoo's 'Open up your eyes'. Ren and Cat made amazing LN stuff, but they sadly retired from LN (Cat moving onto other fandoms, and I think Ren left the internet entirely (or moved on to another fandom under a different name)).

I watched Harry101UK years ago when I was in my 'portal' phase, though I still wish he'd make the next part of 'going home', so it took me by surprise when he made his Portal - Little Nightmares crossover video. I love the crossed over enemies and obstacles in it, like the Patient P-Bodies and tiny cubes and cores, and the section of Six wearing the long-fall boots. Not to mention the amazing cover of LN2's theme, the turret vocal cover of the Six's theme part of it was epic. And I also wasn't expecting it to be big enough to reach the LN subreddit or for Harry to then make animated videos for JT's LN songs.*

As for animatics, I've seen even fewer. I only really remember watching some of Burnt Paws' videos like 'Heart heart head' and 'Happy halloween'. I also watched Mai's video 'Six's guilt' and was sad that she wouldn't continue it due to the reveal of LN2 being a prequel. Then she made her animatic 'Old Friends Anew', and since it was post-LN1, thus Six has her powers, and she encounters Mono again, I was hooked. I love it whenever the fandom brings Mono and Six back together again, but with Six also having powers this time, putting her on more equal ground with Mono.

When part 2 finally came out, I liked that when Mono mentioned that she left him, Six got to finally speak up about some of the things Mono did that made her lose trust him, as most of the time the things Six went through gets ignored and overshadowed by what Mono went through. But Six unfortunately gets interrupted and she doesn't continue, which disappointed me a bit (Though in ScruffiBerri's 'Togetherness AU', she manages to voice the things Mono did wrong to her without interruption, which is one of the breaths of fresh air from Scruffi's AU).

And then Mai made the third and final part of 'Old Friends Anew' much sooner than I expected, but... it honestly was pretty underwhelming because it was just basically like a business transaction between Thin Man and the Lady. And the odd transition makes it more so, because part 2 ends with Mono and Six reunited in the tower (albeit, Mono snatched Six into a TV), and then it suddenly is a conversation between Thin Man and the Lady. Pretty underwhelming ending in my opinion.

That's all I really have to say on AMVs and animatics.

*Also a little ramble is that Harry's Portal - Little Nightmares crossover made my mind conjure up a 3-way crossover AU between LN, Portal and Undertale. Basically Six drops Mono in the Signal Tower as usual, but Mono ends up falling through a portal and landed on the yellow flower bed at the start of Undertale and proceeds to go through the events of the game in Frisk's stead (since Frisk isn't there). While Six went through the screen portal after dropping Mono, but instead of the apartment living room, she ends up flying out of a monitor of (would-be) Chell's cell. Glados notices Six, is confused about the unexpected appearance, but goes along with it and Six goes through the events of Portal 1 and 2 in Chell's stead (since like Frisk, Chell isn't there either). At some point, Mono wonders how things are going for Six, and Six is having fun falling through a portal on the floor and another on the ceiling like every player did at one point. And when Mono is standing in the sunset with Toriel, Sans, Papyrus, Alphys, Undyne and Asgore at the end of the pacifist route, he again wonders how Six doing wherever she is, and it crosscuts to Six walking out in the sunny wheat-field after Glados finally gave her her freedom post dealing with Wheatley.

I probably won't ever make anything for this 3-way crossover but others are free to do so if they want.

[spiderman616]

OKAY regarding your Archie survey it is EXACTLY what I thought as well. I love surveys. People who started out with Archie either as their first Sonic media OR at a very young age like it. People who read it later in life tend not to. Archie is very different from the games, and focuses mostly on teen relationships (And also saving the world). You probably already know what I'm going to say but I want to say it anyways because I love analyzing and reading into things. Archie can be like a shock of cold water to people who only played the games (Which is most of the fanbase) and even most of the shows too. Along with the fact that it focuses mostly on teenagers and their complex relationships, this means it isn't relatable to adult fans (Who are reading it for the first time). Seeing teen squabbles and drama can even be bothersome! Being a teenager SUCKS and I don't think most people don't want to be reminded how messy and tough it was. The writing also is niche. It gets BAD but it's also super good in places, along with all the Lore can make it a very unique reading experience (If you aren't a comic fan). The bitter parts can be very off-putting (IGNORING like, the bigotry) and when you're an adult, certain plots or character moments can seem more out there. As in, you may notice that Sonic can be an absolute shit, but he also constantly saves everyone from Eggman (Robotnik I SEE YOU MONKEY KHAN). This could bring up a cool plot element of how his behaviour affects his friends, and their complicated feelings on him. Such as that arc where Sonic is a bitch ass motherfucker to Tails. It would've been cool to see a moment where Tails questions why he sticks around Sonic. Yes he apologized but what he did was awful, but also he SAVES THE WORLD he can't be that bad. The way he can be a shit to his close friends but does such great selfless acts... Going back to how teens would relate more to the story, having a character rationalize complex feelings in a friendship could help teens reading it rationalize their own complex friendship. If someone is really nice but does some awful things to you, this is a part of being human, but do you want to stay friends with them? Do the pros outweigh the cons? I don't remember seeing any of this though. Sonic's actions affect the people around him drastically, but I don't think any reflection of Sonic's friends ever happen. That would've been SO cool and a great way to add complexity to both Sonic and his friends while talking about things teens may encounter. (Ignore if this does actually happen.) Anyways I love analyzing Archie Sonic it's a wonderful part of Sonic history. Like yeah I don't particularly like most of the characterizations but that's what makes it so unique and so much fun to read into. Like you can't get this Sonic shit anywhere else. I bet I would've fucking LOVED Archie Sonic if it was my first intro to Sonic and I was a teen again.

No yeah if you're a comic Booker then you WILL like archie. Jts comic bookie. And as for your analysis on teen friendships I agree but you need to understand that the freedom fighters were friends when they were like. 3. And then they formed the team out of necessity because they are the only survivors. They're basically family for most, and they're not going to abandon someone just bc hes a dick or whatever. Like yeah they're all flawed but they're never presented as BAD people, just people who make mistakes sometimes

[justablah56]

yeah<3 this was where i stopped writing and eventually forgot about jt 😭😭😭🌽🌽 OOPS DIDNT MEAN THE CORN oh whatever ANYWAYS !!! DAMN I WISH I WROTE MORE CUZ I WOULD READ THIS AS A FIC EUAOEIAO3IW2.... maybe i have to come back to it HSOFOSNPEFN...... anyways ummm so yeah taylor starts panicking IMMEDIATELY and he is shivering because he is freezing cold because when your body temp is really high then everything feels way colder bc of the contrast !!! that's why he's shivering <3 also like. swiftli ♡♡♡ link is trying to calm him down but kinda failing at it and he's really out of it and irritable and freaking the fuck out and the others being in the room too is making taylor even more anxious because. who wants to be Seen during a panic attack really? no one. HFUOSKTHHRT so anyways link somehow subtly gestures for them to leave when he picks up on taylor's anxiety about them being There 👍👍👍 and i honestly.... my memory is kind of fuzzy but i think i remember something like planning for link to have. A LOT of trouble calming taylor down and eventually settling for putting on an anime on his phone or tablet or smth so taylor can watch it because <3 comfort show <3 good for grounding <3 and it helps taylor calm down

and meanwhile norm has been texting asking if hes ok 😭👍 . i think i actually brainstormed this idea w/ happi and it was her idea that norm is texting link every 5 seconds when hes trying to calm taylor down and scary snatching the phone from him HEIAIE9WI3WORJ

anyways link messages them back and norm brings water cuz taylor is still overheating 😭 and yeah . cute i guess ♡

abwhdjsn I'm already completely obsessed w this btw <33 but auhhhgghh Lincoln realizing that everyone being there was just stressing Taylor out 🥺 and him trying everything to try n help Taylor calm down even if its not easy 🥺🥺 and normal texting link every 5 seconds to see if Taylor's ok 🥺🥺 ough I love this sm <333

[writingsinashes]

Groaning softly, JT raised his hand to his face to rub his eyes only to gasp in pain as he pulled at the stitches. “I did not work my ass off for you to mess it up, boy.” He heard next to him, causing him to squint and watch the elderly woman soak a rag in water before she sat back down and wiped the dirt away from the cuts. “Who are you?” The highest he could bring himself to speak was a soft whisper and even then he wasn’t sure he was actually…. speaking.

“I’m the lady who’s set your bones and stitched you up, child. The real question here is who are you?” She shook her head and looked at JT, raising an eyebrow. “Not that I don’t mind that and all, but you kinda have pissed yourself once. I’d rather that didn’t happen again…”

Ignoring his half hearted glare, she continued, trying to hide her smile, “And even though it has been quite some time since I’ve had such a good looking man in this house, I’m thinking that there’s someone else that wants you back? Or are you going to let me be selfish?” Marge asked him, reaching up and swatting his hand away from his forehead. “Stop touching it. You’ll get infected.”

Once he realized that she was teasing him, he tried to push himself up against the head board, quickly pulling his broken hand away from the bed as he put pressure against it. “’m JT. I…what happened?” He asked softly, accepting her help after fighting it for a few seconds and letting her help him sit up.

Leaning his head against the headboard, he closed his eyes for a moment. “Dunno. My husband found you sprawled on the river banks lookin’ like you’ve been straight through hell.” Marge told him, resting a clean rag on his forehead as he blinked a few times.

“C'mon, kid. Someone has to be lookin for you.” He looked at her, frowning silently as he tried to think clearly. “Daisy, my Dais-..” He winced as he tried to lean over the side of the bed, trying to move to get up. “I have to- I need to go to her. She’s probably worried and-” He muttered, glaring at Marge when she pushed his leg back onto the bed.

“You’re not moving a damn inch offa this bed, boy. Here, all you kids have phones right? Give the woman a call. She needs to come get you or no dice.” Pressing a landline phone into JT’s good hand, she leaned back and waited.

Blinking a few times, he tried to remember the number before slowly punching it in, raising the phone to his ear, and listening to the ringing.

Unusual Daisies

The second time JT woke up was when Ted happened to be checking on him. As expected, the old man hardly got anything that would…. make even the smallest of sense to him. All he understood was that this young man had an unusual obsession with daisies. It was the only thing the boy would say, “Daisy. Want-…please. Daisy..” and it was driving him insane.

The kid was lucky enough to be alive, and he wanted damned daisies? What sense did that make? With nothing accomplished other than finding that out, Ted finished cleaning the cuts and related the unusual information to his wife, rolling his eyes and handing her the rubbing alcohol. “He’s much more alert, at least?”

The third time JT woke up, the world became much more focused. Meaning that he could actually fucking feel the goddamn burning and cringe-worthy pain that included an alcohol-soaked rag cleaning the deep gash on his leg, causing him to childishly whine and pull away from the pain.

“Hush up, boy.” Marge scolded with a slight smile on her face as she watched JT huff and whine softly, unaware of the surroundings he was in. It seemed that he was still almost out of it, and she would have continued to think that if it weren’t for him speaking up. “’-ot boy,” JT mumbled through his haze,

“JT.” His eyelashes fluttered as he tried to stay awake, his breathing calming down as he turned his head and was caught by the sight of a vase on the nightstand table.

A vase containing only daisies.

Pain. That’s all he felt. A sharp, BURNING pain radiated throughout his entire body, causing him to gasp in agony, his body twitching as he curled up into himself. Even through his pain-hazed mind, he refused to realize that he had been whimpering about one name and one name only. “Daisy. Daisy- help”

It took over 24 hours before JT woke up, if only for a few brief minutes. Of course, seeing as his luck was shot to shit, no one was around to take notice of him. Over the course of the next day, he would come back to consciousness, lasting longer and longer each time. 

He had even managed to pull himself off the table in an ill attempt at standing when he put pressure on his leg, the pain that shot through his body nearly crippling him as he shouted out in a haze.

His cry snagged the attention of Marge, who had been doing laundry out back, drawing her back into her small house to see what had happened.

It couldn’t have been Ted that made the noise because he had gone out earlier and since the boy hadn’t woken up in days, she didn’t think it was hi- “Oh! What are you doing, boy?” She exclaimed, dropping the towels she had carried in so she could quickly wrap her arms around JT’s midsection, pulling him up as much as she possibly could.

“We need to get you to a bed.” She muttered, glancing around before hooking one arm around him and carefully guiding him to a room. “Don’t put weight on your left leg, boy. I’ve already set it once, I don’t want to set it again.” She scolded him, wincing under the weight of JT.

Once they made it to the room and she had helped him lay down, JT finally let himself speak up, now that the pressure had receded from his leg. “W-” Cutting himself off with a deep cough, JT curled up on his side as much as he could, not knowing where he was, what had happened, who he was with or even what day it was. “Where..” He slurred, forcing himself to stay awake as the blackness seeped into his vision.

“You’re safe, boy. We found you on the bank of the river all beat up. Come now, rest. You need to rest now that we know you’re not brain-dead.” Marge said to him, laying a wet towel on his forehead as JT closed his eyes, muttering, “Daisy… call Daisy…” He trailed off, finally drifting into sleep as Marge sighed, shaking her head. “That didn’t help me none, boy.”

“Marge, we need to take him to one of those doctors.” Ted said over his wife’s shoulder, peering down at the unconscious boy on their kitchen table.

“Hush up, you old man. I was the nurse, not you, remember? His head has stopped-” Marge cut herself off as she began to cough, turning her body away from JT’s and tucking her head against Ted’s shoulder until the coughing subsided.

“His head. It stopped bleeding. I’ve set his bones and splinted his leg. We shouldn’t move him at all, Ted. He could have a head wound!” She exclaimed, huffing in annoyance and pushing Ted away from her to continue to wrap JT’s wounds.

“Of course, he has a head wound, you bat! Do you not see the damn cut on his head? We had to cut half of his hair off just to stem the wound. Crazy woman,” Ted muttered, handing Marge the supplies she needed as she sat near JT, needle in hand to sow up the long gash on his chest.

“Poor boy. How do you think he ended up in the water?” She asked Ted in confusion, only to see him shake his head. “Who knows. We don’t even know who he is.

With all that hair, you’d think he was a regular hooligan that just got in with the wrong crowd, but this one… this one isn’t as beat up as those boys. He’s scared, that’s for sure. But… I don’t know.” Ted said, glancing at his wife as she finished stitching one wound.

“I wonder who he is,” Marge said softly, shaking his head as she reached up to brush the hair away from a cut on JT’s forehead. “I just hope he wakes up soon. It’s not good for him to be unconscious for too long after a trauma like that….”

The Cliff

“Fury... I’m going to ask Daisy to marry me.”

What.

If Daisy was happy, he was delighted. But she could do so much better. She deserved so much better.

“Congratulations.” he gruffly mumbled, clapping the man on the back…more like a shove.

A shove powerful enough to knock JT back a few feet…off the edge of the cliff.

It wasn’t that…only like a…30 ft. drop…

Fury himself was unsure of whether or not it was an accident. So he claimed, when the medics arrived.

“…He slipped…”

JT didn’t know why he said it. He had no reason to even bring it up to the old bastard. So why did he? Maybe it was because telling that man would be the only…. thing that he knew he should do correctly. Daisy looked up to this one-eyed bastard as a father, and everywhere he looked, he realized that what he was giving Daisy wasn’t conventional.

It wasn’t normal, and fuck, he didn’t really care. Look at their lives. They were happy. They were pleased, at least to his knowledge, which is why he found himself bringing it up to Fury. 

And it’s also why he found himself hanging twenty feet from the floor after falling fifteen. “YOU FUCKING BASTARD!” He screamed out, grunting in pain when the corner of the rock he was holding onto started to cut into his palms.

“Fuck, fuck, fuck.” JT muttered, glancing up at the sky before looking under him, closing his eyes tightly and exhaling slowly.

If he could make it up to that branch, maybe he could pull himself up.

That’s all that he could think, that’s it. So that’d be why when he let go with one hand to grip the branch, he didn’t think to shift his footing and that’s why he lost his grip on the rock, propelling him down the cliff, his body pressed against the mud as his clothing slowed him down considerably enough for him to be semi conscious when his body entered the water of the ravine at the base of the cliff.

The fact that he could periodically feel the water enter his nose or mouth was the only reason he kept remembering what was going on. He had hit his head enough for him to know it was bleeding horrible and it felt as if the bones in his left hand had been snapped by the amount of pain he was in, and he didn’t even know why he couldn’t feel his leg. He couldn’t bring himself to calling out for help because taking a breath was painful enough, what would screaming do to him?

After some amount of time, he finally closed his eyes and let himself drift in the water, his body submerging now and then, his breathing shuddered and shallow, only ceasing in shock when the water pushed him onto the shore.

He needed to…. he needed to pull himself out of the water. He shouldn’t leave his body half in the water; he needed to pull himself up, and that’s all he could think of; that’s all he could afford to think of right now because if he thought of Daisy, then… no. No, no, no. Not now. When he was out of this shit, then he could think about her, and only then. So, with that in mind, he reached up in front of him and dug the fingers of his good hand into the mud to pull himself up, dragging his body over the banks slowly and carefully until he safely could close his eyes, finally passing out in pain and exhaustion.

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It was only hours later that a man wandered upon the body of JT, his breathing slow and shallow as the man tried to wake him up, to no avail.

They were miles and miles away from any sort of law enforcement or medical support, which is the only reason that the man carefully propped JT’s body up and carried, or dragged, him back to his truck in the thought that his wife could help the boy.

[halalgirlmeg]

Me doing a lot of incoherent rambling under the cut, something something Grey's and Bridgerton sucks

They should've let me write the series and tell Julia Quinn that her material is garbage and we're changing everything and she's lucky our first choice Ms. Beverly Jenkins was unavailable:

And you know not to defend Owen or anything (although this is more about writing i guess) but I remember I saw a Grey's clip and it was about that one episode where like there was a gas explosion and this kid his Mom had passed and his Dad was in a coma and basically Owen became close with him but obviously bc it Grey's they pulled the bait and switch the Dad wakes up and all is well yay happy ending but then I saw people saying 'this is why Owen is horrible, he wanted the kids Dad to die so he could take him' like do me a favor and please take a step back because I've noticed more than when shows do things write there's like an overarching message that's tends to be built up from little things whether we're talking like in one episode or over the arc of a season.

And that is a way too simple of a way of looking at the plot right because this is season 9 so cristina is leaving in season 10 so I think they needed to really hint at them breaking up for good. And wanting and not wanting kids is like this dark cloud that hangs over Cristina and Owen and really brings out the ugliest parts of Owen imo. But that whole thing with like Ethan its like now Owen realizes he can't just sacrifice wanting kids for Cristina, like obviously Cristina is worthy of every single good thing however irl, which is like what this is trying to mimic. Having kids is not something you compromise on, not if you aren't willing to accept a major change of how you wanted things to go. That's why I love the Do You Know? episode because it shows what each character will sacrifice and jts not am easy one and either way, it ends up ending badly for them.

And I say all that to say like it kind of makes me think of Bridgerton because I hate Season 1 and The Book its based off of (ironically enough I stopped at the same parts in both mediums because I was digusted) because Simon lies about shooting blanks and not being able to have kids because he doesn't want to, because it's very clear in the show and book that his father is a vile man who treated him like shit and he refuses to give that man the satisfaction of having an heir, and Daphne ol evil ass was like omg he lied let's (redacted cause you already know) like WHAT??? Again was worse enough in the book, 10x worse in the show because now they added the racial implications cause you got dumbasses who think colorblind casting fixes every problem (but I digress, cause that's another point in a different post). And it also makes me mad cause why must he have a baby in either genre cause naive white woman wants it WHY? And it really makes me mad too because obviously someone thought bridgerton was good enough to get a TV adaption and people eat it up every season because it's such good romance but bitch no tf its not. Romance is about the journey, it is about the people within. Daphne couldn't have sat down and talked to Simon maybe learn more about his Dad? No, she just needed to have her way and because white women girl boss feminism, she right even when she's dead ass mf wrong. Julia Quinn is hailed as a romance novelist to be liked when she fucking sucks (and she didn't write Black people until it was money in it for her) but because bridgerton has plenty of sex in it its so revolutionary (omg shall throw a party?). Like where am I going with this??? IDK I'm just talking but I keep thinking about how Bridgerton fumbled so bad, even worse than the book series that already sucked, and how like TV Simon (who i care about first) was subjected to assault because he lied about being infertile (???) and book Simon too?? And so called writers want to like, just make it his fault, and then make us be on Daphne's side (bullshit) like where was the actual romance? No we just get no thought into what actually makes these characters who they are and have them be real actual adults and I keep seeing people act like bridgerton is the best romance ever when its vilely antiblack because almost all the Black male characters are vilified as partners (except for the one guy, but they're not main characters so) but even when Simon is vilified he's good enough to get the white women's rocks off so like they can stare at him while also shit talking rege jean page.

Again lost my point but TLDR:

Was rewatching Grey's s9 and s10 and was thinking

Bridgerton sucks as a romance series all around as a show and literature

White women suck as a whole

I hate Owen hunt always but that one episode made sense and the writing hits me each time very ah ha moment

[muwapsturniolo]

✯EX For A Reason✯

summary: y/n realizes that Chris still has feelings for Dessi despite being in a relationship with him for two years

warnings: cheating, lying, fighting. auto vandalization, blood.

PT1 MWW1

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"Lord you know how hard it is, dealing with the pain day to day over one man." y/n mumbles to herself as she lifts herself off the wall. She was currently at a party with her boyfriend of 2 years, and his brothers.

It was one of the triplets' close friend's birthday parties, meaning people she didn't know were there. The one person she does know but has never talked to is Dessi.

Chris's ex.

Currently, Chris was in the corner talking to Dessi, laughing as if the girl had never done him wrong. Y/n gives him the benefit of the doubt. Like she said, Dessi had done Chris dirty, dragged him to hell and back. Y/n was the one that had to lift him up and show him love again. Instead of being dramatic and popping off, she decides to get another drink. She knows Dessi will never amount to her, Chris would never leave her for Dessi.

A few days later, Y/n was lying in Chris's bed, waiting for him to get out of the shower. As she was waiting, Chris's phone was blowing up, ringing back to back with calls and texts.

"Who the fuck is that?" She mumbles in irritation. She snatches the phone from the nightstand. Looking at the notification bar, she sees Dessi's name with a heart next to it. She wants to go through the phone so bad, wanting to know why his ex is blowing up his phone. She eyes the bathroom door before unlocking the device. She goes to the messages and she's in disbelief.

Chris and Dessi have been texting.

For weeks.

The shower stops and she quickly puts the phone back where it was, relaxing back into the bed. Chris walks into the room, sweatpants hanging low on his waist. He's quick to lay on the bed, cuddling up to Y/n.

"You ever think about Dessi?" Chris snaps his head up, the question catching him off guard. "What the hell? Why would yo-Is she ever on your mind? Be honest." She watches Chris with hard eyes as he sits up. She knows he's going to lie to her like every guy does when they get caught up.

"N-No! I never think about her! Why are you asking me?" She notices how his eyes dart towards his phone. She scoffs and picks up the phone slamming it to his chest. Chris winces at the impact, wishing he put on a shirt. "Don't fucking play with me Chris! I'm not playing any games! Why the fuck are you texting and calling that bitch?!"

"S-She just wanted to tal-I don't give a fuck!" By now Y/n is yelling, leaving Chris nervous and concerned. "That bitch treated you like shit and broke you down! She's your ex for a reason, I give absolutely no fuck about what she wanted to talk to you about!" Chris has never seen Y/n this angry, it's honestly scary.

"Y-You're right! I'm sorry! I'll tell her to leave me alone." He attempts to calm her down, not wanting this to blow up more than it already has. "You fucking better! Cause if yall keep trying me I'm beating everybody's ass! Tell that bitch she better understand the consequences 'cause I'm not above spinning the block Chris, I'm not fucking playing!"

"Ok, ok! I'm sorry! Please just calm down! I'll tell her tomorrow let's just relax." He pleads, rubbing on Y/n's arms. It works, she calms down and settles back into the bed.

But little did she know, he was lying.

The calls and texts didn't stop, in fact, Chris never told Dessi to stop.

"That Bitch is just mad because Chris moved on and you got him in the end," Lani states firmly

"I just don't understand why he even bothered to speak with her! Like does he not know you don't play that shit and never have? I remember when you popped off on Jason!"

"I'm trying not to act like that with him. I don't like acting out, but I swear he's going to bring it out of me." Lani shakes her head, not liking what her friend is going through at all. Suddenly Y/n's phone rings and she picks it up.

"Hey Ma- Oh fuck..." Y/n frowns hearing Matt's words. Lani turns to her and mouths "Who is it?"

Y/n puts the phone on speaker and answers Matt, "Matt what's going on?"

She hears shuffling before Nick's voice is heard, "You know you're like a best friend to me right?" Lani and Y/n look at each other before she answers,

"Yeah?"

"Ok well me and Matt came home and saw a car parked in the driveway. We thought you got a new car, but you would never get a bright red car, I know you too well! So we come through the front door and we hear moaning..."

Y/n's heart falls to her stomach, not believing the words.

"And like, not to sound like a fucking creep, but I've heard you moaning and your shit is not that high pitched. Whoever it is could break fucking gla-Yall still at home?" Y/n cuts Nick off, her hands clenching the phone tightly.

"Yeah, we are outsi-I'm on my way. Don't go in that fucking house." She hangs up the phone, demanding Lani to drive to the triplet's house.

As they arrive, Y/n sees the bright red car in all its glory, sitting in the driveway. She recognizes the car from the party,

It's Dessi's.

She's hurt, feeling betrayed by the actions of Chris. She poured all this love and affection into him and this is how she is repaid?

Everyone gasps seeing her grab a rock and smash the windows of the red car. The car alarm goes off as she keeps vandalizing the vehicle. "Y/n stop!" Matt yells in panic, he can't believe Nick and Lani are laughing at this. Suddenly the front door opens, Chris and Dessi running out.

Chris stops seeing everyone in the front yard.

"What the hell are you doing?!" Dessi screams seeing her beaten-up car. She moves forward and pushes Y/n away. The two girls get into a screaming match, pushing each other. Chris snaps out of his shock and runs towards them, pulling them apart and holding Y/n back. "Don't fucking touch me!' She screams pushing him away, not wanting his hands that were once on Dessi to touch her.

"Y/n calm down! You're being unreasonable!''

"I'm being unreasonable?! ain't no motherfuckin' to be reasonable! You decided to lie to me, and fuck your ex! I should slap the fuck outta you Chris! I should actually slap the both of y'all!" she barks.

"You're not gonna do shit to me!" Dessi screams back.

Y/n snaps her head back to Dessi, "bitch keep playing with me and imma snap!"

"You're just mad that he was texting me and fucking me while you two were toge-"

Y/n blacks out.

She rushes forward, throwing a punch to Dessi's jaw. She falls to the ground and Y/n stands over her, throwing punches left and right. Everyone but Lani stands there in shock, they have never seen Y/n act like this. She's usually sweet and goofy, never this angry and aggressive.

But Lani knows how Y/n gets down. She's not the type to let anybody or any bitch punk her.

Dessi tries to fight back but it's no use, Y/n is overpowering her in every way. She grabs a handful of Dessi's hair and drags her across the driveway, landing palmed punches to the girl's face, "Stop fucking playing with me bitch!"

By now Dessi is crying, blood dripping from her nose.

Matt and Chris dart forward, finally having enough of this fight. Chris wraps his arms around Y/n's waist, trying to get her away as Matt tries to get Dessi away. Y/n continues to hold on to Dessi's hair, screaming profanities left and right.

They eventually separate the two girls, but not without Y/n ripping out some of Dessi's hair.

Dessi stands up, tears running down her face, "I'm pressing charges!"

"Do it then bitch! Ion give a fuck!" Y/n shouts back as Chris drags her inside the house. He slams the front door and holds her against it, preventing her from moving.

"Y/n stop ple-" Chris's head whips to the side.

Y/n had slapped him.

When he lifts his head to look at Y/n, he sees the tears forming in her eyes.

"I deserved that," he mumbles softly.

"You're damn right you did! You fucking cheated on me, and according to that bitch out there, it was more than once!" Chris says nothing.

"Why did you do it?"

silence.

"Fucking answer me Chris!" She screams.

"I-I don't know." His voice cracks. Y/n laughs, throwing her head back in disbelief. "I'm sorry ok, I really fucked up and I'm going to do my best to make it up to yo-You won't have the chance to make it up to me." She says with a straight face.

If it didn't already, his heart drops to his stomach. "W-What? Y/n please," he begs. He knows he fucked up big time, but he thought he could fix it. He thought he could make everything better.

"Come on, Please? Don't- don't do this." His hands begin to shake as his eyes burn from the salty water forming. "You made your bed, and now you're lying in it. I'm done. I have zero tolerance for it."

"Please Y/n, I-I love you!"

"No you don't. You love that I look like her."

Chris's mouth runs dry as she states a thought that has run through his head multiple times.

"You think I'm stupid Chris? The first time we met and fucked, you moaned her name. And you want to know the crazy part? You continued to do it!"

He looks away from her out of guilt.

She was right.

There were multiple times when the two were having sex he would accidentally moan Dessi's name. He tried to play it off, acting like he never said it. He thought it worked, Y/n never said anything.

Until now.

"And the crazy part is, her and I are vastly different! So no, you don't love me. But it's fine. I'm not going to give you any type of ultimatum, because I'm done."

She goes to open the door and leave, but Chris stops her, pulling her into a hug. "Y/n, please! I'm sorry I'm so so sorry!" Chris pleads, tears finally running down his face.

"Please, it won't happen again I'll make it up to you! I'll block her, I'll tell her it was a mistake! J-Just don't leave me!" Y/n gives him a look of pity and opens the door, walking out of the house and Chris's life.

Nick and Matt watch as the girl they started to consider a sister walks out of the house with a stoic face that doesn't match the tears in her eyes.

"Let's go Lani"

Lani throws a glare toward Dessi, before getting in the car with Y/n, and driving away.

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2nd post for muwap week !!!! kinda wanna make a part 3 but idk!!! let me know what yall think!!!

the next fic for muwap week is.......

✯bestfriends brother ft nick sturniolo✯

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