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yutadori · 4 years ago

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ah i have this playlist of a handful of sumika songs that i really love that i made when i first got into them last summer and i remember listening to it on repeat a lotttt when i would go to therapy/go home from therapy and... :/ sometimes ill listen to it mindlessly and other times ill be hit with a moment of nostalgia? and a bit of sadness because my life was so different a year ago,,,, that was around the time where i started seeing my (now) prev therapist and i remember how happy and appreciative i was to be able to see her again.... and the long 2 hour rides to therapy and 2 hours back... waiting for the buses just waiting and waiting while i spent time just thinking and reflecting on what we'd talked about that day or id be on my phone scrolling and scrolling because the buses were taking too long.... i really miss that and i remember my friends would question if i minded going there and if it was worth it since it took up a good portion of my day but i really miss it.... it was time where i got to be on my own and in an area i was unfamiliar with, yet familiar with because i went there every week.... but yeah,,,, idk where this post is going LOL but i really miss that summer ):

#it was full of a lot of learning about myself and processing stuff but like.... SIGH it was nice ):#i cant believe i took it for granted.....#i loved just sitting on the bus and spacing out and just thinking #and i remember this one time where i was on my way home and it was pretty late and the bus had to stop bc something happened. to this dsy i #still dont know what it was bc the driver didnt really say but... idk i just remem random stuff like thst jdjdjdd #h..... i miss my therapist ):#wtf how to find an adult thatll csre about me like that again </3 #anyway dungeon meshi time #sun texts #wait a min also i cant believe ive been into sumika for a year omg thank you wotakoi #also ty to whatever got me into wotakoi i really cant remember bdjdjdmx #also hm idk how to explain thst feelijg but #like i loved waking up early at like 8/9 and then 10/11 when we changed the time later on #and just traveling by bus for long periods of time on my own #i feel like ppl would find thst boring or bothersome but like . i had time djdkdjd #and it was nice idk if its the feelijg of like . being responsible and sufficient enough on my own to be able to travel such a far distance #on my own and not get lost? and to be able to think and not drag anyone down #and bc the area i went to was new id often go to different places to check out #like i remember going to the library near my therapists plsce and to get there i walked through a residentjal area and it was so big #and pretty and diff from my area. and even the target nearby was diff in its own way and judt wandering aimlessly was so nice...#i miss it....#also that feeling where it was unfamiliar yet familiar is such... an interesting feeling. bc i barely knew anything abt the area but bc i #went there every week i begsn to recognize some of the places but . i still didnt know thst place and never would bc i was only there for #one purpose and kinda felt a little unsafe wandering around on my own djdkdkd

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