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[lucygraysboy]

“do  you  really?”  his  voice  is  laced  with  a  combination  of  disbelief  and  outright  skepticism,  but  his  heart  still  clings  to  that  fleeting  hope  that  maybe  she  does,  in  fact,  understand  him.  it  would  be  impressive  when  all  these  conflicting  feelings  that  have  been  brewing  inside  his  chest  since  his  ma’s  passing  make  little  to  no  sense  even  to  him,  but  he  wants  to  convince  himself  that  it’s  possible.  after  all,  there  was  a  point  in  his  life  when  lucy  gray  knew  him  better  than  anyone  else.  maybe  some  of  that  magic  is  still  here  today.  “oh,  so  you  didn’t  throw  my  name  out  there,  but  i  did  inspire  you?  lovely,”  he  sighs,  frustration  coiling  deep  inside  his  belly,  threatening  to  spill  out  of  him  but  her  laugh  disarms  him  before  he  can  reach  that  point.  instead  of  snappy  comments,  a  chuckle  slips  past  his  lips.  “i’m  nor  sure  if  i’m  honored,  terrified,  heartbroken  or…  disappointed  with  myself.”  when  they  were  younger,  he’d  sometimes  dream  about  being  her  muse  but  not  in  that  way.  he  wanted  to  be  the  inspiration  behind  every  love  song,  not  breakup  anthems.  “yeah?  that’s  good,  good.”  he  can’t  explain  why  but  it  annoys  him  how  protective  she  is  of  joe.  no  one  was  ever  this  protective  of  them  while  they  were  growing  up,  has  she  already  forgotten  how  many  valuable  life  lessons  those  experiences  taught  them?

“you—?”  he  softly  teases,  tucking  away  any  negative  emotions  that  are  lurking  in  the  darkest  corners  of  his  mind  and  putting  on  a  soft  smile.  his  arm’s  growing  numb  and  so  he  rolls  onto  his  back  once  more  and  puts  his  hand  on  his  abdomen.  “were  you  sayin’  somethin’,  birdie?  sounded  like  you  bit  off  too  much  of  that  chocolate  cake  of  yours?  you  know,  the  one  that  you  wouldn’t  share  with  me?”  there  might  be  a  lot  of  unresolved  tension  between  them,  but  he  still  wants  to  make  her  laugh  or  at  least  smile.  it’s  part  of  his  nature.  “mhm,  yeah,  i  did  but  it’s  not  for  a  role,  unfortunately.  i  haven’t  landed  anything  big  yet.  just  felt  the  need  to  change  somethin’.  new  york  new  me  that  kinda  thing.”  his  voice  gives  him  away,  he’s  sure  of  it  but  he  still  chooses  to  fib  instead  of  admitting  that  he  had  a  mental  breakdown  after  their  last  conversation.  it’s  less  embarrassing.  “you  should  ice  it,”  he  offers  after  a  moment,  sensing  she  doesn’t  really  want  to  talk  about  charlie  or  his  new  life.  “your  cheek,  i  mean.  to  make  the  swellin’  go  down.”  sadness  creeping  into  his  very  bones  when  the  picture  she  sent  him  earlier  appears  before  his  eyes.  he’ll  make  billy  taupe  pay  for  this. 

"i understand." no she didn't, because she was still deep down angry about it. one day she'd learn to accept it, but not tonight. she was left to fulfill these dreams that had died and change into something new for him so suddenly while she stayed behind and didn't have her best friend that loved these animals as much as her and wanted to do something together to help them anymore. she always daydreamed her life would go like that... she'd be lucy gray bonney one day, they'd have their own farm to play on, they'd have plenty of horses and then they'd have a family. but like he said, those were little boy dreams. those were just little girl dreams. in reality, life was cruel and never went the way you planned it. "huh?" getting caught up in her thoughts, she came back to reality. "oh. no. i would never drop any names, at least. even if i did." the songstress sheepishly laughed, feeling embarrassed he was really going to check those songs that are definitely about him out. that he'd figure out she was a second taylor swift. but again... least she would never name drop him. "i don't have to ask him, he does help me with a lot. him and maude ivory both. they're great babies and i love takin' care of them." lucy gray bragged, they did they're typical childish shenanigans time to time but for the most part they were great kids and she loved and adored them more than life.

"i-" voice trailing off, about to thank him for calling her sunshine, didn't even know he had a single nice thing to say about her and there he is... continuing to surprise her. and before she can let his change of personality dwell on her mind and the sadness that came about him losing his mother, she was stunned at the news about his hair. "you cut your hair? shaved it?" she wonders....what does THAT possibly look like? and WHY? had she said something to him that made him cut his hair, since that's why she cut her own. "is that for a role or something?" since that was only the other explanation she could think of. "okay, yeah, i will." she says just to agree, getting a drink of water and then rummaging for an advil before taking one and getting another drink of water. hopefully he's at least a better friend than jesse.