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beanghostprincess · 11 months ago

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The heartbreaking thing about Yamace isn't really Yamato not being able to do anything about Ace's death, helpless and on his knees, and realizing he couldn't be free yet. Or Ace dying realizing he wasn't able to keep his promise. But the fact that it was the first time Yamato had ever felt real love and he will never be able to feel that again, his love for Ace remaining still forever because everything stopped that day for them. Ace gave him the gift of feeling so much love in one single night and Yamato spent years without being able to do anything with it.

#'there's love that doesn't have a place to rest but it would've buried you if it had settled on you shoulders' yeah #there's just something about ace's death and the people around him because he was SO loved #and now they have so much love for somebody who can't hold it anymore for them #actually the three things are heartbreaking #sorry i've been watching yamace edit with my fiancé #and now we're both sad #one piece #portgas d. ace #yamato #yamace

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hellomagicalsouls · 8 months ago

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i had a dream about Klaus and Five fighting then five brought up Klaus being a junkie and thennnnn

Klaus brought up how Five is the reason every bad thing has happened to him. five LITERALLY did it to himself.

nobody pushed him out the door to go attempt to jump into the future infact everyone tried to stop him because they called after him.

five literally made his life the way it is because he's a stubborn bitch who thought he knew better

i woke up @ 4am after this dream and haven't slept since

also he called Klaus a junkie who has no idea what it's like being alone but Klaus literally was on the streets for like 12 years so he probably understands better than anyone

cause five and Klaus both probably had no food and had to eat out of dumpsters and do things they absolutely didn't want to do in order to survive

dream verse has it out for me honestly

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eepy-samzie · 6 months ago

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ok, so with this new app releasing in NB.. i've been thinking abt it and had a sort of scary thought

we know how og is slowly but surely declining?? no otaku camps, no exchange, less rewards in ur cards, cuz most of the goodies are in NB.. i actually think this new app might be a full collection of og om's story + event stories for those who completed them. basically finally giving them an excuse to shut down og completely.

what do you guys think the app might be? id be happy to be proven wrong tbh

#it's sad and kinda angering #when nb was announced and the official account did that stream they were so quick to reassure everyone that og wouldn't shut down #that they were capable of running both games side by side #and i swear i remember the official acc saying at some point that nb would be just a spinoff story #(on reddit)#and look where we're at now!!! companies lying to their customers naaww never heard of that concept ever before wym.#what do u ppl think #obey me #obey me nightbringer

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arctic-hands · 5 months ago

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No for real tho re: my last tags on that being traumatized by your parents post. my parents are my role models when it comes to a hypothetical future where I have a child, in that I'll take everything they did, showed me, and taught me and do the complete opposite. Like I'm not going to pretend that I'll be perfect and I know it'll be stressful and no matter how careful I am i will inevitably make mistakes, but like I'm committed to not screaming at my child every time they knock something over or drop or spill or even break something. I need it ingrained in my mind if it ever happens that my first priority is to make sure the kid didn't get hurt and then after making sure they're okay, teach my child how to clean up the mess. That's infinitely more of a grace that I was ever shown growing up where I was screamed at the very second I clumsily dropped or knocked over something, unable to take a breath to steady myself bc my mother would be screaming at me if I didn't clean it at lighting speed the very moment it happened. Like is a slightly stained carpet worth all that terror?

#the biggest approval i ever sought and did in fact did miraculously get was both my parents recently saying I'd be a better parent than them #we're on good terms now after i went no contact with them for almost a decade each #and covid really freaked them out bc I'm medically vulnerable and they didn't want me to die resenting them #i got sincere apologies from both of them which is rare in this kind of situation #I'm not angry at them anymore but i still get sad when i think about my childhood

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widevibratobitch · 6 months ago

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something about being told im 'the leading person at this whole academy when it comes to interpretation and stage intelligence' by the husband of the woman im trying (not really. but i mean. who knows) to seduce... ok boy you got me. lets make it a polycule.

#im playing it all cool and funny now but atm i legit burst into tears lol #like he said i have a 'good voice too of course' but i know realistically that is not my strongest asset #and even if i were technically perfect. which im NOT lol. the voice itself is just nothing special. it's there ig but that's about it #but its nice to know i may not be 100% useless after all #(just 90%)#also apparently the most feared and respected professor who came to the concert said. again. that he likes me the most.#which again. crying real actual tears about this all rn this means literally the world to me this is everything i have #and i have no one to share this with because im not gonna say it to my uni friend cause i dont want her to feel like im boasting or sth #(even tho she has no such qualms herself but probably because i know how. not great. it feels when someone keeps talking about themselves #and about how great they are and how easy everything is for them. i dont wanna do it back at her.#well there's also the fact that i dont think im great and this is not fucking easy to me at all lol #but idk i think the difference between us is that she actually admitted she sees no point in singing if she cant show off (thus she hates #the duet we're singing because she sings the lower part and cant show off her high notes or coloratura.#which is like. an insane take to me. i mean it i get it. kinda. if i had a voice like hers maybe id be like that too fuck knows.#but that just feels so. idk. sad to me. so self obsessed and empty. like you dont care about the music itself? about you being a part of it?#also immediately made singing with her not fun anymore. i thought we were creating something TOGETHER. but thanks for the confirmation #that you only really care about being 'better than'. yikes.#like idk this behaviour is funny and iconic in old school opera legends like yes go bite each others dicks off.#but it hits completely different when it's your own colleague let alone your friend. like damn girl. damn)#) anyway. the husband is kinda hot too now that i think of it. i really should seduce them both.#except its realistically not possible since they've both seen me cry now (she saw it like a hundred times lol)#so ive lost the hot and mysterious card alas. no uni professors romance for me

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cractasticdispatches · 10 hours ago

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Blorbo Poll

Rules: make a poll with five of your all-time favourite characters and then tag five people to do the same. See which character is everyone's favourite.

tagged by: @im-not-a-monster

EDT: ah shit we forgot to tag ppl like a dumbass. uh..... you. you reading this right now (if u want to anyway)

#we tried to mostly limit ourself to fav characters ppl might have a chance of knowing lol #but we did include the fandom/series they're from #and the Firekeeper series - which we assume is the one most ppl won't know - is a v good book series #like. if u were ever a Wolf Girl TM (or anything even close to one) u should go read that series right now #we also tried not to double dip into fandoms which is why Luke Leia and Han aren't up there too lol #man this was honestly so hard we have so many favorites xD #good challenge #other favs/honorable mentions include: Kel (also Tortal) Astarion (yes we know shut up he's so well done) Joe Becker from the Acorna series #also like. every main character from both Avatar cartoons bc those slap #also fucking Juhani from the star wars knights of the old republic game stars we lovelovelove that sad lesbian kitty #also most of Liam's characters from critical role. and Beau and Ashton and Laudna and Fearne #lol yeah. see why this was hard? we're so bad at picking just five

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sysig · 7 months ago

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The most fun you can have, barring the pain and torture (Patreon)

#Doodles #SCII #Damned #Helix #ZEX #Teisel #Max Vyer #Zack Fair #Vlad Masters #Weird fun fact??? The last time I posted Vlad was also in the same set as ZEX so uh????? Lol #I could not have possibly planned that so please just enjoy the serendipity - I certainly am lol #Anyway <3 Mostly leftover doodles for now! There's still more especially planned/in my notes but we're at a lull #And it's time for some silliness! :D Love silliness!#Starting with a very cute tiny ZEX ??ing at slippers - he really didn't wear footwear much - or at least it wasn't mentioned so lol #Max has barefoot energy too it's fine lol #And ZEX only wears shoes in his VUX form sometimes! Surely it's just as unnecessary for humans! Hehe #After I doodled him holding a pencil like half-properly I realized oh yeah - he wouldn't do that unless directed would he haha #Much more natural to curl - or at least as close as possible with fingers - around his writing implement :D #I do wonder what he'd think of human calligraphy brushes hmm - more natural? Less? He'd certainly enjoy watching but when doesn't he <3 #Oh I loved him sitting and enjoying the rain ♥ Reminded me of Gaster :D Though this came well-first hehe <3 #Just a very pleasant detail - amphibious lad loving precipitation hehe #Another simple one of hanging out with Teisel ugh he kicked his legs in the absence of his tail he's so cute weh ;;♥#Hey Max is actually here for a change!! I want to give him more attention he deserves it - especially with everyone being so mean to him :')#He just wants friends! He's barely here be nice to him while he is! At least Peter was nice to him haha #You only think he's creepy because you think he's fake and ZEX is real - they're both real don't be mean #Max's clinginess is so sad here haha :') Protect him pls <3 #I love ZEX's asides with Vlad lol ♪ Man I really haven't drawn him in ages too long!#Okay but the image of ZEX in a nurse costume? Amazing he'd rock it - Max even moreso since he'd understand the context <3 #Get this man in a skirt and heels stat he'll look So pretty ♫

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3416 · 11 months ago

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getting the mitch marner sads is the worst feeling in the world btw

#like sorry but my head is saying Bad things. BAD THINGS !!!!!!!!! THINGS I DONT APPROVE OF NOR WOULD EVER WANT IN A MILLION YRS #he deserves better than real life and the ominous trajectory that refuses to leave my mind #i believe in him. watching any of ur favorites go through a stretch where theyre not #~living up to their potential~ is such nightmare fuel like all of last season w auston was hell on earth #n i was just waiting it out til both he and mitch were healthy again #and now theres htis. and its not even like ----. ANyway anyway.#i refuse to believe or give into that. it just makes me sad that so many ppl fucking want it lol #that so many ppl think it would Fix™ smth like. hes some kind of problem. like youre evil bro #i desperately need him happy #things are so much less fun #also despite hot starts for others. this season does not feel like we're doing our best on the whole or even that good tbhglksdj which #another point toward my we-go-as-mitch-goes analysis #we're sitll winning the stanley cup tho. i believe

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justafriendofxanders · 8 months ago

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the real star-crossed lovers of btvs are xander and spike, because xander would have been dtf most days if a flimsy enough heterosexual excuse provided itself, except for that one time when he was going after spike for sleeping with anya. unfortunately for him, that is probably also the only time spike would have been down to smash.

#not a s4 spander truther because i think if they had fucked both of them would have left town #(obv without telling the other and then they would run into each other when someone's car breaks down #and then they'd REALLY be stuck together. isolated from the rest of the scoobies. you know for the drama/comedy)#that one ends on a pretty toothless 'we're not FRIENDS now but we do have a begrudging respect for each other'#anyways in general i think spike could only be attracted to a xander that's not insecure and repressed #but xander could only be attracted to spike while insecure and repressed #sad!#buffyposting #btvs

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natjennie · 6 months ago

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does anyone out here have a dad that isnt an asshole all the fucking time. like is it even possible.

#thinks we're ungrateful and incapable and lazy for lemme check. being disabled #and then when we rightfully call him out on his dick behavior he gets mad and slams things and mutters under his breath #and is like 'oh great so its MY FAULT'#and tries to push the narrative that now we've upset him and he's gonna feel like dogshit for the next two hours like.#congrats. that's how we live our whole fucking lives because of you. im always thinking about what he's gonna get pissed off at next #and how im not enough for him and how he's gonna be mad i couldnt do something #when he says shit like 'we need to teach them to sponge-wash the dishes'#like we're morons. like we dont know #we tried to LOAD the dishwasher and got so nauseous and yucked out we had to switch off every couple items #and both heaved over the trashcan #you think im not doing it specifically to make you upset? you think I CAN and im just choosing not to?#god he makes me so mad. and sad. and full of grief.#and worried for my sister #because she's bipolar and his provocation has a very real not unlikely chance at making her suicidal #it's such a mess #and its unfair for her and its unfair for me

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girlivealwaysbean · 1 month ago

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so sad for absolutely no reason

#👆 girl who stayed up till 3 am talking to her bestfriend about how depressed and trapped we both are for about 4 hrs #it's like that gracie lyric #you have to laugh before you start to cry😭😭#like ab toh funny bhi nahi lag raha jokes bhi nahi banaye ja rahe #oh but i love her so much i absolutely LOVE people with whom i can just be sad #im tired of people who constantly try to make the sadness go away or try to cheer me up #like sometimes you just gotta sit with your feelings na #at one point she was ranting and i said mere paas kuch kehne ke liye bhi nahi hai kyunki it literally feels like im listening #to my own thoughts on my own lying in bed at 2 am like hum itna same kaise sochte hai😭#and she laughed and was like but ye sahi hai na aise sochna like it feels wrong but it's the truth and im like i don't even #know but oh it's so good to not pretend to be okay #we're so similarly hopeless and tired cause like one point mein inevitably we talked about #the future living together our apartment and then i was like mujhe bhi ye chahiye but mujhe itni umeed uth chuki hai life se #ki koi excitement bhi nahi aa rahi like i already know ye sab kuch nahi hone wala and she's like haina same like i want to say #ki we'll do this and that but im like lol not gonna happen ab i can't look forward to things in the future im like if im living it then ok #then i can accept ki oh ok this is really happening im happy now wow but usse pehle nope #and we were talking about ki like yaar future toh ab dikhta hi nahi hai kya hoga it all feels so blurry and like a dark tunnel #atleast bachpan se we knew what was next school college but now it's like now what?#i know all these thoughts and feelings are pretty common and probably everyone's facing this but bhai.#it's fucking hard i didn't know life was gonna be like a constant battle where it kicks you down #again and again and again and you're bloody and no energy can't get up but you still have to because if you don't you'll sink #soooo deep in that state ki bahar nikal hi nahi paoge #OKAY 8 hrs sleep mandatory for me what the fuck why am i writing a ventpost at freaking 11 am girl go have lunch or something 😭

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silverselfshippingchaos · 10 days ago

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ugghhh wintertime sucks!! I'm sad and tired and sad all the time.. I need a nap.. and f/o cuddles.. and another nap..

#ash rambles 💚#negative #part of it is definitely the weather #it's so dark and dreary and i never wanna leave my bed #but also just. my mood akdjajs I'm kinda down in the dumps today #im recovering from being sick which always fucks me up #and i just cant shake this feeling of anxiety..? and i feel kinda a lot like my f/os wouldnt like me or would fall out of love or never see #me as more than a friend and other stuff like that #i.. actually got broken up with yesterday irl!#it wasnt messy. he said that this isnt what he wanted and it was fine and we're back to being pals. i wasnt sad at all in the moment and #i dont think i am now..? it's weird. we were laughing like always literal minutes after having the chat. when we got together we said that #if things domt work out we wanna keep being friends. and we're doing just that. honestly i saw it coming and idek if i LOVE him anymore #what even does love feel like..? regardless I'm not upset or sad at my breakup since i saw it coming and I'm honestly happy he just. Talked #to me about it. we communicated and then three minutes later went back to talking about x.enoblade LMAAOO it was fun!#but it is ridiculous for me to expect to feel NOTHING at no longer being in a relationship. i cant just feel nothing. i dont feel sad per s #just... in my thoughts i guess? I don't think the feeling of my f/os not liking me stems from me being dumped though. i think thats just me #being me sjdjaksj I'm very insecure a lot of the time. i dont think being dumped helpd very much though LMAAAOO #I'm doing okay i promise. and I'll be alright. theres just both a lot and nothing going on at the same time and i feel... idk what i feel.#i hope my f/os love me 😭 i hope that a lot #and honestly i know this community is ass and I'm more than happy in my own corner with my couple of followers but. ngl I've really felt as #though I'm not valued here and all that junk as of late. yeah just.. i think everything is happening at the same time and I'm tired and #i feel like I'm a confused kiddo who doesnt know anything anymore BAHAHAHA #holy shit it just sounds like i need a shower and a nap huh- I'll be alright I'm just. dealing with stuff akdjsks but i also hate to always #bring the mood down like this! i always try my best to be haha silly and all that shit. I'm just gonna try to daydream about f/o cuddles #(and try to convince myself they dont hate me ofc)#oh and. i know i mentioned this but. i hate the weather. so much. I'm sad all the time. November is actually my least favorite month too 😭#I've gotta study a lot today and I'll try to sneak in some k.urohyou and hopefully start watching monster too but yeah i apolgize if #I'm acting off these days ajdjajs I'm very stuck in my own mind these days. not exactly the most fun place to be 😭#delete later #i mean akdjajs i literally started crying the other day because my friend said that my husband (k.yohei) loves me ajdkahdb come on ash..

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truecorvid · 12 days ago

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god, 9 months on t and my brain is telling me i've never looked more like a woman. love it can't get enough of it

#teeth.txt #maybe i have to shave my head again #been growing my hair out pretty long in a hashtag masc way #but hmmmmmm idk how we're feelin abt it #i know that this is like Not True but i think that i just don't have a winter wardrobe that is like uhhh gender affirming i guess #pulled out the classic tshirt over turtleneck fit for today because it was chilly and i wanted to look nicer #and then was like ah. this is not my beautiful cut off sleeves tank top. this is not my beautiful wife.#it's not even a feminine outfit lolllll #anyways whateverrrrrr i have been feeling more and more like i'll never get to a good place in my transition and i'm gonna look like #androgynous in a way that is upsetting to me personally forever #and that is also upsetting to everyone around me as well #i'm scared my family is really disappointed and sad with me for taking steps to transition #i know that it is like hard for them on some level. like to understand #also i know it had to happen this way but i wish i had come out to them as a trans guy instead of nonbinary #i am nonbinary (kind of. i don't really use that label to describe my gender but it is definitionally true)#but i think it would have been easier/truer/better if i had just said 'i am your son now'#even if that isn't like ~my true self~ it's what i want to project to the world for both dys/euphoria and personal safety reasons #whateverrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr ok that's it thanks for reading all that if u got this far i guess

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a-god-in-ruins-rises · 1 month ago

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sucks to think i'll never play football or halo 2 or anything with my brother ever again

#he's not dead or anything #we're both just growing up and having our own lives now #i've never been particularly close to him #but still i'm very sentimental and the thought of it is just sad to me #like man....we're really never gonna play games together again #honestly it's a little funny-sad precisely because we were never that close #like if you had told me 15 years ago there'd come a time when i'd miss playing games with him #i'd have laughed at you #and yet here i am #life's weird

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5qui99l3draws · 1 year ago

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guess who recently joined the Characters Whom I Loved So Dearly Whose Campaigns Were Doomed And Discontinued club :'>

#ocs #oc maevla #oc dahlia #mae has been here a long time and is both happy to see a new face #and a bit sad because she knows what this new arrival means #now I have said this several times before bc the dm of dahlia's campaign is a good friend and mutual #I don't hold this against them and totally understand that they had to take a break from dming #it takes a lot of time and energy and we're all busy adults with hellbrains #this vent art is just me being emo and missing my characters #with no blame attached #and I am posting this because I kinda like how the art turned out. not to guilt anyone #much love let's play again some time

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misslisamiray · 3 months ago

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Oh, hi. I uploaded Chapter 11 of Down With the Rickness over a week ago on Ao3, ff dot net, and of course here on Tumblr, but I just realized today I didn't post the links. Sorry - between work at pays-the-bills-job being crazy more often than not, having four posts to work on for the social media part of my volunteer job, and then me getting sick, It. Has. Been. A. Week.

Anyway, here's the Ao3 link for Chapter 11! Ff dot net link will be up in a few minutes. Chapter 12 is mostly typed out and should be posted in a few days (barring real life throwing some bullshit at me to delay that happening).

Also, here -have this picture of me and Rick Bear from a few nights ago.

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