#and now im underwhelmed that idk if i will continue this

[kagsboyfriend]

realized that, even if something's in the way like a fic event of some sorts, I can't get to write something decent without getting tired of it

[loycos]

my head's a bit clearer, some thoughts about act 3

-my biggest gripe is episode 7- cool idea, love the concept of peaking into a different universe and seeing what our characters couldve been under different circumstances, but a WHOLE episode. when you only had 9 episode in this season, that already feel like theyre moving at a neck's pace. for a universe that ultimately doesn't matter to the main universe where the story takes place. the fact it had timebomb made it feel extremely fan service-y.

-no emotional resolution to a lot of characters. viktor and jayce are the only ones i can think of that felt like they got the screen time and care for an actual emotional closure.

-isha wasn't even mentioned in this act. in general she was already a martyr for jinx's character development but guys can you make it less obvious.

-it started in act 2, hence why i was so jaded on it, but it continues here: just where the fuck the political drama between 2 cities go? the conflict between zaun and piltover took a back seat since episode 4 and never came back. the resolution to it isn't bad per say, but when u got so little focus on it in the finale it just feels rushed.

-i loved the cait and jinx scene. but like, that was the resolution to it??? after act 1 thinking about it disappoints me. im not against a conversation being the climax to a story, but that is, and im not joking, the ONLY conversation these 2 have in the show one on one. in general the jinx\cait\vi arc ends with 1 conversation per duo (well caitvi got one fight and one very steamy sex scene but u won't catch me complaining). and after act 1, idk i think i wanted just a little bit more. im biased though- the jinx\vi\caitlyn dynamic is my favorite part about arcane. the teasers for s2 always had them front and center so i assumed it'll play a bigger part in the story???

-i felt like what the show was at its core, which is the conflict between the sisters and the cities, was completely sidelined this season. in general i can't really tell what the main theme of the show is anymore. but yeah look at the resolution to the jinx and vi story.did it feel like it had the emotional impact u expected? cause i felt like it was underwhelming.

-sevika?? didnt speak since episode 4???? huhh???

-maddie was pointless. why was she there?? i don't understand the point of that character. i dont understand her motives. she ended up not mattering at all to caitvi's story. the only thing i got from her inclusion is "caitlyn fucks" but is it that THAT important??? of a character trait??? to add to caitlyn of all people?? in THIS season??? this belongs in the realm of fanfiction.

-a lot here felt like fanfiction actually. every silco inclusion (except of him in the cell with jinx), the whole "nobody dies au" they threw in the middle, even the caitvi sex scene (IM NOT COMPLAINING THO). the caitvi scene at the end was dialog out of fanfiction, wtf was that.

-why did caitlyn lose her eye? im not like against the idea on a base level but losing an eye is very symbolic, and im not sure what its supposed to represent here. caitlyn is an observant person, its a big character trait for her. so youre basically saying she sees less now? that she's more laser focused? i sure hope not. wasnt her whole arc with giving up of revenge about seeing the "bigger picture"? her sacrifice didn't feel in character, because caitlyn is not really a "fight to the death" type of character like ambessa is. if she made that sacrifice for something like love, or for the betterment of other people, that would be more in line. idk, you couldve made me on board with it but im just very meh on it. also caitlyn only really emotes through her eyes, it sucks that we get even less of it now?? though i guess it doesnt matter at this point.

-what was the point of the enforcer that looked like vander?

-ambessa was so wasted in these last 2 acts its crazy. where's the "you have to be the fox and the wolf" mindset from her? she felt like she was wolfing only with no wit anymore by the 3rd act.

-mel????????????? it was. uhhh. maybe you shouldve saved it for another series, riot. but in this show, waste of time. the fight she had with caitlyn against ambessa was cool tho.

-i sound like im a hater but u have to understand. s1 of arcane was a political drama and a character study show. seeing all this discarded for magic and time travel shenanigans on like 4 different fronts was so jarring it took me out of the show multiple times.

-cant believe im saying that, but i wish they'd try to stick closer to the characters' current state in the source material (the cursed game). someof it felt out of left field and done for shock value, which isn't why we love the story or these characters to begin with.

good stuff:

-caitvi sex lmao ill take it babyyyyy

-jayce and viktor's scenes at the end were powerful.

-as usual, the visuals were phenomenal. the animation is gorgeous. fortiche u made this show what it is and youre still its saving grace.

-thank god they dropped the warwick\vander plot

-i liked the implication of the conclusion to jinx's story, even if it felt a little inconsistent with the character.

-the ending to jinx\vi\caitlyn was poetic and i did love it, even if it was rushed and didn't really hit the emotional highs i wanted it to.

[maryberry]

Iron Flame by Rebecca Yarros thoughts and things

‼️spoiler free‼️

WOW...Literally breezed through this book, I couldn't put it down. I thought it was a great continuation of the story and characters. I did think it was a bit slow at times, and could have been about 100 pages shorter but all in all, so pleased with this book.

I give it an 8/10

‼️‼️‼️‼️SPOILERS NOW LOOK AWAY‼️‼️‼️‼️

Okay here we go ...

I really loved Violet and Xaden in this book, which is amazing because I was scared of if I would get annoyed or anything from how much I liked them in the 1st book. I really love how this book showed just how intimate their relationship is. I loved how even when they weren't "together" we got some really beautiful scenes of them just being so comfortable in eachothers presence. Like them laying in the bed at Samara. With that being said, I think there was a lot of time spent on the same argument over and over, which started to feel like it was dragging on a bit long. They started the same conversation about Xaden keeping secrets like 10 times and got interrupted like 8 of those times lol. Other than that, love their relationship.

I really like that Violet started to get more of a grip on her power and was able to control it more. I loved seeing her get more confident.

I have a theory that she can maybe speak to the dead? Idk we only had that one incident while she was being interrogated and Liam showed up. But idk, that whole thing felt very specific and fishy for it to just be a hallucination. So maybe it's Andarna channeling? I'm not sure 🤷‍♀️ I also have this thought though, it's more out there, that Tarins previous rider was Violet and maybe Brennan and Miras, biological father? Because that could explain why he died for Brennan and maybe why Violet had a second signet if she does.

I really didn't guess Andarnas history and I'm excited to learn more about this 7th type of dragon. Cause like, were they wiped out? Did they leave? Why only leave one hatchling? So many questions.

XADEN wtf are you doing, my sweet, sweet child. First of all, I guessed that he's an intrinsic(however it's spelled) after reading the first one. But I thought Tarin knew, which he did not.

Obviously, it's not good that Xaden is now turning into a Venin but I think that plot line has potential to be super interesting. We really got to see that xaden would damn the rest of the world to save Violet, and this could open up a door for her to do the same. I would LOVE to see Violet go a little dark and to some extreme lengths to save him.

I definitely feel like I want to know more about the dragons and how their hierarchy and bonds with eachother work. I want to know more about Tarin and Sgyaels bond and if it's similar to the human emotion of love or if it's about power? Loved the scene of Violet and Tarin thinking something happened to X and S and Violet was overcome with protectivness and stuff(you know what other stuff 🥵🥵)

Loved that we got more bonding of Violet and her squad. I feel like I actually care about them now where as at the end of book one, I didn't really that much. Also, love Sawyer and Jesenia, I hope she helps him heel and they live happily ever after lol.

Brennan was a bit underwhelming for me. As of rn I wouldn't mind if he died lol.

Overall Im so excited for book three. I'm sure I'll think of more things to add but I'd love to hear everybody else's thoughts!!

[cecelianonymous22]

Okay i had to talk about this

So

Final fest just got announced a few hours ago

Squid sisters and oth look fire, more pearlina, new amiibos, the setting looks really cool and i like the visual of your inkfish being covered in ink splotches

However

The Splatfest theme has me concerned

Past vs present vs future

Now obviously present isn't going to win so its essentially just past vs future

Why is this concerning to me?

Im big into lore alright, i know almost every piece of lore (except about the bands), that kind of thing

I think no matter which side wins, I feel like its going to be really regressive going into the next game. For past, quite literally. it would probably be a load of retconning like Alterna was. But for future, i also feel like it would 1) mess with some sort of continuity or 2) just be really poorly executed

Which ties into another reason why im nervous about this last fest: the Splatoon devs most likely have in mind what side they want to win, and if that team doesn't win, we'll end up with a weird half-in half-out game like Splatoon 3

Let me explain

Chaos vs Order was HUGE

It was a big deal for a lot of different reasons, but everyone knew it would decide the fate of the next game.

I firmly believe that the Splatoon team wanted Order to win. Genuinely. Possibly they expected Order to win. So when Chaos won, they had to scrape together concepts and make the next game

Which leads Splatoon 3 to having (in my opinion) an uninspired main hub (whose chaos elements are rarely explored) and uninteresting idols (who i love but they feel so shallow to me compared to the other idols)

I think it's likely Alterna was meant to be the order-oriented story mode. Because if you remove the tutorial area, there's nothing "chaotic" about 3's campaign. The pristine, high-tech stages complete with an AI main character all scream Order.

Dont get me wrong, I think it's narratively fitting that Mr Grizz, the only one of three neutral parties in chaos vs order, is the antagonist of the most thematically ambiguous campaign.

But to have an entire order-esc campaign AND TO HAVE SIDE ORDER (which i could go on another probably controversial rant about) feels kind of redundant, and i to this day am upset that we didn't see more chaos elements beyond the hub, idols, and ig you could count the salmon run plotline? Idk man

Anyway, what im saying is im worried a potential Splatoon 4 would have the same sort theme confusion, where we wouldn't be able to just explore the aspect of the team that won and then maybe wait for DLC—we'd have a weird blend of the two that try telling their stories at the same time and end end up being ultimately underwhelming.

And lemme just say, this isnt hate, these are scattered thoughts ive been marinating on for a while because i love the Splatoon franchise. Its one of my special interests and ive been playing since the original. But theres so much i just straight up dont like about Splatoon 3 that im worried will continue in a sequel

I dont want to spark controversy, just constructive conversation. Be aware that it is 3 AM at the time of me writing all of this and its completely a train of thought type thing. I can get my thoughts together in the morning if anyone wants but yeah, im just worried

[kneeling-for-nines]

Beg for Permission

Relationship: Gavin Reed/Nines (RK900)

Rating: Explicit (18+, MINORS DNI)

Content Warnings: Nonbinary Upgraded Connor | RK900, Dirty Talk, Bladder Control, Watersports, Wetting, reed900’s piss kink, Dom Nines, Sub Gavin, that’s right Gavin pisses himself again, I just can’t help myself, Ass-Eating, Spit as Lube, but it’s android spit so it’s fine, Anal Fingering, Anal Sex, Semi-Public Sex, Wall Sex, Cum Eating, Aftercare 

Summary: Gavin has to ask Nines first every time he wants to use the bathroom while Nines, for whatever reason, just will not stop bringing him refreshments. It’s almost like his partner wants him to piss himself, but surely they would never plan for something like that to happen!

A/N: Nonbinary Nines returns! They use they/them pronouns, and words used for their sex characteristics are: cock and dick (kind of an underwhelming reveal but trust me they fuck for a WHILE)

Word Count: 2,352

AO3

Gavin’s car beeped as he and Nines crossed the DPD parking lot. For once, Gavin was in a chipper mood, because Nines had bought him a large order of his favorite coffee on the way to work, and he knew exactly what that meant: today was a holding day. 

He was already somewhat worked up, trying to mask his blush and giddy smile to seem like his usually cynical, bored self. Plopping down in his chair, Gavin turned on his terminal and got to work. 

—

As the day progressed, Nines brought Gavin coffee after coffee accompanied by water after water, excusing the excessive number of drinks as simply feeding their partner’s caffeine addiction and keeping him hydrated. 

Two hours and three cups of each drink later, Gavin started to feel the effects of having so much fluid in his system. He shifted in place, trying to relieve the slight pressure of his filling bladder, and pulled out his phone to text Nines (a requirement of holding days). 

gav > can i pls piss 

gav > i really gotta go 

tin can > No. 

Gavin felt a rush go through him, smiling down at his lover’s response before getting back to work. 

—

After another three hours and four cups of water, Gavin had his legs crossed under his desk, teeth gritted and thighs clenched as his belt cut into his now-swollen bladder. He was half-hard and unable to focus on anything other than holding in the torrent he knew was on its way. 

gav > my hands are shaking like crazy

gav > 9s idk if i can do this

tin can > You can, and you will. 

gav > kinky bastard

tin can > You seem to forget that, although this was initially my idea, it took absolutely no convincing to get you on board. 

gav > can i pleaseeee just go??

tin can > No.

A few heads turned his way, having heard Gavin’s groan of frustration. Downing his last cup of water, he masked the noise as his usual hatred of paperwork. All Gavin could do was try to look busy, typing different variations of, “i am soooo working and definitely dont HATE MY PARTNER >:((,” before looking up to see Nines glaring at him, who evidently saw it on their shared document. 

—

Half an hour of passive aggressive to downright slanderous comments on their documents had passed when Gavin’s phone buzzed with a new message from the main antagonist of his life (also known as Nines). 

tin can > You know, insulting me isn’t going to get you to the bathroom any sooner. 

gav > ughhhh youre the worst

tin can > That’s no better. 

gav > yk maybe i wouldnt be so rude if you would just let me go piss

gav > i feel like im gonna explode

tin can > Quit being dramatic; you’re fine. You can hold it. 

Gavin put his phone back on his desk, drumming his fingers and trying his hardest to keep the floodgates shut and locked. 

—

Ten minutes passed, and he’d continued his efforts to hold everything in, but to no avail. Suddenly, Gavin felt a few drops leak out of his fully hardened dick, finally having reached his limit. He squeezed his eyes shut, clenching his thighs together and willing it to stop, and luckily it did. Soon, though, hopes and prayers wouldn’t be able to tide him over. 

gav > 9s i swear to god i will piss myself RIGHT HERE if you dont let me go NOW

tin can > Fine. I suppose I wouldn’t want you making a mess of yourself. 

tin can > Not here, anyway. 

Somewhat relieved, Gavin turned his chair to get up. His phone buzzed again.  

tin can > Did I say you could leave?

With a huff, Gavin sat back down. Ignoring his glare, Nines came around to Gavin’s side of their shared desk and sat on the edge. 

“Gavin, you don’t look so well,” Nines said, feigning concern. 

“I wonder why,” Gavin muttered under his breath, rolling his eyes. 

“I think it’s in your best interest to leave early. Here, I’ll drive you home,” Nines suggested (though Gavin could tell it wasn’t a choice). 

The second he stood, however, he felt his cock dribble, wetting the front of his boxers; he immediately sat back down. His face must’ve turned beet red, because Nines’ look softened and they helped him up to his feet, slinging one of his arms over their shoulder for support and walking him slowly out of the precinct. 

To Gavin’s surprise, instead of going to his car, Nines steered him to the back-alley behind the precinct, just out of sight from prying eyes. As they rounded the corner to their final destination, Gavin doubled over, holding his groin and groaning as his bladder spasmed and ached for release. 

“Ni-i-i-i-nes,” the detective croaked. 

“I know, my love, just a bit longer for me,” Nines cooed. “You’re doing so well.”

In a blink, Nines pushed Gavin against the wall next to them and pressed their lips to his. He was trapped between them and the hard surface to his back, his hips held in place by his partner’s large hands and his bladder groaning as Nines ground into him, their height putting their cock right against it. 

“Ha-a-ah-” Gavin gasped, putting every fiber of his being into keeping everything inside him. It was incredibly difficult to focus with Nines shoving their tongue into his mouth, stealing the air from his lungs; another roll of their hips coaxed a few more drops out of him, finally dampening his jeans. The android must’ve heard the whimper he let out, because they instantly started palming at his very prominent bulge, squeezing it as they felt a small leak soak through and moaning softly into his mouth before pulling away to let Gavin breathe. 

“I don’t remember giving you permission to go,” Nines scolded. 

“I-I’m sorry,” their boyfriend stammered, furrowing his brow with the effort it took to stop. 

Nines stared down at him for a moment, most likely considering his punishment. One moment, they had him firmly in place with his back to the wall, and the next, Gavin’s face was squished against it, his legs kicked apart and his ass pushed out against Nines’ pelvis. The surprise of it all forced another spurt of piss out of him, and Gavin whimpered again. His partner took a moment just to feel him, running their hands up his chest, squeezing his tits, and pinching his nipples before moving down his sides to his waist. Nines brought them around to press on his swollen bladder, reveling in the moans they pulled out of him, all before unbuckling his belt and slipping the button out of his jeans, bucking their hips into his ass at the sigh of relief he let out.

Putting an end to the teasing, the android hooked the long fingers of one hand under the waistband of Gavin’s jeans and circled those of the other hand around the base of his cock to keep him from letting go – in any capacity – before he was allowed to. When it was clear Gavin wouldn’t lose control any time soon, Nines slowly pulled his pants to his ankles and dropped to their knees with them, groaning at the sight of their boyfriend’s plush ass. A yelp turned into a whine as Gavin felt sharp teeth sink into it. 

Cutting right to the chase, Nines licked a long stripe from his taint up over his hole, which was fluttering with the effort of holding. Gavin let out a loud groan as they pushed their long tongue past the ring of tight muscle, thrusting in and out to lubricate the area with their artificial saliva. The android soon thrust a finger in with their tongue to little resistance, probing for his sweet spot and finding it almost immediately, before pushing in a second and scissoring the digits to stretch Gavin out. By the third finger, he was whining for Nines to hurry up, but his pleads fell on deaf ears. After all, they needed to make as much room as possible for their dick; even with the prep, it would inevitably be just a little bit too big. 

Gavin was nothing but a squirming mess, just barely grasping what little dignity he had left, panting with the effort of holding for this long. All of a sudden, Nines stopped and stood up behind him, still clasping the base of his length. 

“I’m going to let go of your dick now, and you’re going to continue to hold it. We wouldn’t want you wetting yourself, now would we?” Nines whispered in his ear. 

A sob racked Gavin’s body. “I don’t know if I can…”

“You can, and you will,” Nines responded sternly. Then, softer, “Color?”

“G-green,” Gavin stuttered. Nines simply responded with a kiss to the cheek and got to work unbuckling their belt and unbuttoning their pants. 

Unlike Connor, who wore underwear as a courtesy in case he somehow got pantsed during an investigation, Nines had a complete disregard for basic public decency. This proved incredibly convenient for their and Gavin’s very healthy sex life, just one less layer for them to remove when they were in the mood. The human knew better than to turn around when he heard the slick sounds of Nines stroking themself to full mast, despite his curiosity; it’d only put more pressure on his bladder, and that was the last thing he needed. 

The sound stopped, and Gavin felt the moist head of the android’s cock rub over his aching hole, slowly rocking the tip in and out. Fucking tease. After a few more passes, they finally pushed fully into him at a torturously slow pace until they bottomed out. Gavin’s rasped groans echoed through the alley as he took every inch, wincing when they pressed against his bladder from the inside. Nines let out soft moans in time with their boyfriend’s clenches, allowing him to adjust to their size. 

Within seconds, Nines’ patience ran out, and they began to slam into Gavin with no remorse. Taking enough force to bruise, another sob racked his body. His partner was strategically hitting his bladder with every thrust, and he wasn’t going to make it much longer. 

“Please, Nines, can I please piss? I’ll be so good, I promise, just please let me piss!” Gavin begged them. 

“Just a little longer, my love,” Nines promised. 

When the android ran a large hand from their boyfriend’s hip to lay over his bladder and pressed, Gavin’s control began to slip. He sprung a leak, piss running down his length in a slow stream, soaking into his boxers and the crotch of his jeans beneath him. Nines noticed almost immediately, and promptly punished him with a hard slap to the ass. In shock from the blow, the human let out a full spurt, which hit the brick wall in front of him.  

“Please!” Gavin sobbed. 

“Alright, you can let go, baby. You know I can’t resist when you beg,” Nines cooed, pressing a soft kiss to his cheek. They adjusted their aim to hit his prostate directly at an inhuman pace, and Gavin was done for. 

Finally, finally, he could release, and so he did. Gavin started pissing full-force, letting out a long, drawn-out groan with the satisfaction of both emptying his bladder and Nines pushing hard into his sweet spot. His cock bobbed with every thrust, rhythmically spraying onto the lower half of his shirt, splattering against the wall, soaking the cuffs of his jeans, showering over his shoes, and coming back again. 

“God, I fucking love your pretty noises, and the smell- drives my olfactory sensors wild, honey,” Nines groaned. “Shit, do you even know the things you do to me? Dear god, you’re so fucking good, love you so much- unh, Gavin!”

Nines swearing and moaning was just about the hottest thing Gavin ever heard. When his bladder was finally empty, the human was completely enveloped in pleasure. Pre was dripping down his dick into his underwear, and he was so close to cumming; all he needed was permission. 

“Mmph, love you and your cock! Ohh, fuck, Nines! Can I cum? Please, god, can I cum? Need it so fucking bad!”

“Go ahead baby, you’ve been so good for me,” Nines moaned. 

A deep groan echoed throughout the alley as Gavin came, the fluid hitting the wall and falling into the puddle of piss below, his hole spasming around the android’s length. Nines pressed flush against him and came deep inside him with a grunt, an arm wrapped around him and a hand on his hip squeezing with a bruising grip. 

Gavin could feel their hot breath against his shoulder as his lover turned on their internal fans so as not to overheat. When the two finally came down, Nines pulled out; Gavin could feel their synthetic cum dripping down his thighs. Two fingers dragged across his leaking entrance, and he looked back in time to catch the android sucking their fingers clean, his cock twitching weakly at the sight. Gavin pulled up his jeans and underwear in an unnecessary attempt at modesty. 

“Oh, goddamn it,” Gavin mumbled, having forgotten about the cum and piss that soaked the wall until he turned around and leaned against it. 

“It’s not like that’s going to make you any more of a mess than you already are, dear,” Nines chuckled, an amused look on their face. 

“Shit, I am kinda gross, aren’t I?” Gavin noticed. 

“Don’t worry, I planned for this,” they assured. After helping their boyfriend out of his clothes, the android pulled a sealed bag from a conveniently placed cardboard box nearby, taking a pack of wet wipes out for Gavin’s sticky skin. They tenderly wiped him down, then pulled out a soft change of clothes for him to put on, offering their arm to keep him steady. 

Once Gavin was ready to leave, Nines draped their jacket and an arm gently over his shoulders and walked him to their car, holding him close and making sure he knew just how much they loved him. 



A/N: This was a fun one! It’s been a month in the making and I’m very happy to have it finished. 

[aisclosed]

okk so abt the match found final chapter

it was so amazingggg but im gonna be honest it didnt rlly live up to my expectations

IT CROSSED THEM, I WAS NOT EXPECTING IT TO BE THATTTTTTTT GOOD LIKE I LOVE UR WRITING SMMM BUT FOR SOME REASON NO AUTHOR HAS EVER GIVEN SERIES ENDINGS THAT MAKE ME FEEL AT PEACE BUT THIS EXCEEDED EVERY SINGE EXPECTATION

HOW DARE U WRITE THAT WELL I LITERALLY WENT INTO SHOCK, IM A REALLY REALLY REALLYYYYY FAST READER BUT I TOOK THE LONGEST TIME READING THIS CAUSE OF THE AMOUNT OF TIME I TOOK REREADING EVERY PART SO THAT I COULD PAUSE AND GIGGLE AND KICK MY FEET AROUND IT WAS ADORABLEEEEEE AND THE PERFECT CLOSURE LIKE IDK HOW TO EXPLAIN THIS BUT I FEEL SO AT PEACE WITH HOW IT TURNED OUT AND THIS IS ONE OF THE FIRST TIMES I'VE FELT THAT WAY SINCE USUALLY W SERIES I LOVE ALL THE CHAPTERS BUT THE LAST ONE LEAVES ME A BIT UNEASY IN A WAY LIKE I DONT FEEL SATISFIED W THE ENDING BUT THIS WAS SO PERFECT LITERAL CHEFS KISS AND ONE OF THE FIRST TIMES I DIDNT IMMEDIATELY ASK FOR A BONUS PART WHICH IS A RLLY GOOD THING SINCE IT HAD GIVEN A PERFECT CLOSURE. IDK WHAT PART U FELT WAS UNDERWHELMING BUT I ABSOLUTELY LOVED HOW IT WAS VERY SMOOTH SAILING LIKE DONT GET ME WRONG I DO ENJOY SOME DRAMA BUT OVER HERE IT DIDNT FEEL UNDERWHELMING AT ALL AND IT JUST LET ME ENJOY THE EPISODE WITHOUT HAVING TO GET ALL WORRIED AND SCARED AND IT MADE THE WHOLE THING REALLY PLEASANT AND FUN AND THE AMOUNT OF DETAIL AND EFFORT AND ACCURACY PUT INTO EVERYTHING SHOWS SO MUCH ITS INSANE, EVERY EPISODE OF MATCH FOUND WAS SO SATISFYING BC THE CLIFFHANGERS AND SUSPENSE WERE THERE AND I WAS SUPER CURIOUS BUT JUST THE RIGHT AMOUNT TO NOT GET ME ANNOYED BC OF THE AMOUNT OF SUSPENSE THERE WAS. I LOVED MATCH FOUND SO MUCH, WILL FOREVER REMAIN ONE OF MY FAVORITE(MAYBE EVEN MY TOP FAVORITE) SMAU

omg I saw the first few lines of your notif while driving and I had a heart attack lfmsosksj. but now I'm sitting in the Trader Joe's parking lot on the verge of tears.

This ask is possibly the sweetest thing anyone has ever said about my writing and I truly truly appreciate and luv u so much.

I also be kicking my feet and giggling writing my chaps so I'm so happy that it's a shared experience hehe . this message honestly put a lot of my worries to rest I'm so thankful u enjoyed match found <3 thank u for all your continuous kind messages throughout the series I genuinely looked forward to your comments every time.

I'm honored to have match found be one of your fav smaus 😭🫶🫶🫶 and im so relieved you liked the finale.

I hope we can continue to giggle and blush together <3 thank u thank u thank u!! Mwah!!!

[sheknowswhatnottosay]

I Feel So Small And I Actually Like It. Everywhere Around The Globe I Travel I Am Paid Attention To Somehow In Someway And When Im Honest Like This It’s Like No One Wants To Hear It. On Here There’s But A Few of You And The Platform Is Dead. Like The Only Person Walking Around Alone At Night. When I Used To Do That In LA My Mind Was SOOOO Happy. I Was Actively Fighting My Anxiety. Now That Doesn’t Fit My Schedule And I’m In A Foreign Country Where I Fear Getting Robbed and Being Black. I’ve Made Myself Small Too Many Times For Others Here Too. It’s Like You Take My Spirit And Put It On A Hamster Wheel. It’s Too Much. Those of You Who Knew Me, And Knew Who I Was On Here I’m So Grateful For. I Need Friends Who Tolerate And Run Wild With Me. I’ve Considered Medication a Few Times. Idk Whether Id Be Running From Or Towards The Problem With That One. I’m Overwhelmed or Underwhelmed And It All Makes Sense When The Stars Really Align Right. I Think We All Feel That Way. I Don’t Have Any Secrets, Just The Special Moments I’ve Shared With You. And If You’ve Left My Side Now I’m Sure You’ve Summed It Up To Some Personality Disorder That You’ve Disclosed To Those Closest To You. One Thing I’m Not Is A Mystery Nor A Man of Labels. Nothing Is Up For Assumptions, Not Even This Journal Entry I Share With You. And If I Were Frank Fucking Ocean I’d Probably Be Operating On Measures That Work Best For Me. If Someone Could Take It Away I’m Not Sure I’d Let It Happen. The Endless Unfoldment of Suffering Continues And We Rise And Fall At Each Others Feet, Praising High The One Who Placed Us Here. Sometimes I Cry At His Presence. Other Times I Look Back And Laugh At My Foolishness. Like What Are You Even Saying?? And Then I’m Like Well You Know What, Make The Mistakes And Correct Them As You Get Older. That’s Progress. I’m No Prodigy I’m A Man Beginning My Journey To The End. And For My Lovers, You May Take It Or Leave It! I’ve Never Even Been Enough For Myself So I Expect Nothing of You But To Feel The Same. You’ve Never Been Enough For Me Either! And We Seek For More Of Ourselves In Each Other Calling That Love? Is That Anywhere Near The Subject? I’m Not An Encyclopedia.

[welcome-to-the-shit-library]

@teabreaking OK SO. mainly im going to go through a bit

(ALSO this is JUST MY PERSONAL OPINION. stories are subjective personal investment is subjective etc etc)

was it just me. or was Zhongli's story. kind of underwhelming . im not super crazy informed with all the ins and outs of the lore but what we see in the quest is. just ok . I mean its Good but its not. everything its made out to be. he gives up his divinity and accepts the flow of time. he allows the people to rule and those are all great but theyre just not. that interesting afterward. theres less to expand and while im sure there'll be more on him later. for now, the way he left off, hes pretty static?? if that makes sense

Ei. is. ok so honestly the way the story AND the fans treat her is just. so fucking boring and annoying. like ok she gets No Consequences for completely screwing over her entire country . she just becomes another Hot Woman for people to Woobify which like FINE. the plot line with Makoto was good but also, her sister died it was sad... what else? she misses her sister and her friends and thats where the pursuit of eternity comes from but theres just so much missed potential, but thats the way the story's written.

moving on -

Nahida is pretty well loved in the fanbase and her story is as well ! and for good reason honestly ! the entrapment by the akademiya, the samsara loop, the duality between her and Rukkhadevata etc. this is mainly probably just a result of the writers finding their footing as the game continues but MAN the Sumeru quest was GOOD. i could talk more but its late and im tired

Now I feel like we dont talk about Venti that much?? idk in the fanbase I think his character gets dumbed down to 'haha weird alcoholic bard god" which . sure there's room for that. but also his story has so many loose ends and unresolved plot lines that just make him SUPER interesting . Like we KNOW he's lying to us, we know hes withholding information we know hes way more than he says he is. hes putting on a persona of being WAY more harmless than he actually is and I think we . forgot about that. collectively . anyway I think he's super interesting

oh wow this got. really long. anyway thats just my two cents and im sorry you had to read this really long post. :]

idk if its just me but when it comes to archons. Venti and Nahida are infinitely more interesting to me than Zhongli and Ei will ever be

[golbrocklovely]

So Celina is a tiktoker who sleepwalks, does comedy, and was a fan? I thought she did paranormal investigations and or was some type of medium. Not hating but aside from Josh and Seth or that Steve guy, i don’t see how having all these other people come along makes sense at all. They’re putting others in danger when they themselves dont know what they are doing. I mean Sam sitting in the pentagram pretending to be possessed, how many more times does he have to do that? He did it in England too.

It just feels like a repeat of old content and getting all these people to fill in for Corey and Jake… Aside from Amanda who seems the most unqualified, they don’t seem to believe anyone else and go against everyone else’s advice. Im just underwhelmed and disappointed, and upset they were so quick to give up on the 25x25 concept.

celina is into paranormal stuff too, but she's more known for her comedy. she even said in snc's video that she used to do spooky stuff, but it got too scary, so she moved into comedy, which is how she got her platform. and she's a sensitive, or at least is sensitive to the paranormal, but i don't think she would qualify herself as a medium.

snc just bring their friends along for funsies. i think it's nice to have other ppl to bounce off of. and i personally think the content they make now is a step up from the old videos they used to make with jake and corey. the ones with jake and corey were never as serious/taken as seriously as the ones they make now.

and while i would love for them to get actual protection and to also stop using amanda, idk if that will be happening anytime soon. they might need something bad to happen to them to realize that what they are messing with is serious and can harm them. i don't want that to happen, but they might need that jolt to see it.

i get the underwhelming and disappointed feeling, but don't get too worked up anon. this past video wasn't fantastic but i'm sure the next ones to come out are gonna be better. not every video is gonna be like the conjuring or something like it lol

also, while i would have loved for them to continue with 25x25 too, it made sense why they stopped it. at the end of the day, this is their job. they need to make money. and with the content they were making with 25x25, they just weren't getting the views. they were most likely losing money too. they had to pay for an editor, someone to film them, the travelling, and whatever the activity was for the video. i think a lot of fans, for whatever reason, weren't connecting with the content even tho it was good. it's a shame, bc i think there was a lot of potential. but i do enjoy the haunted stuff they do now.

[mightbewriting]

So I came to W&H and B&E in an odd way. I'm a long time Dramione fic reader who like many of us doubled down on in 2020 to find comfort in a bananas year. I kept seeing W&H on everyone's rec list, but for whatever reason kept putting it off. Then I heard about the prequel and decided to wait for that to be finished, read it, then do W&H. But once it was finished, I saw you recommended W&H first so I was like okay I'll do that. I struggle with impulse control but am trying to do better so when I saw the audiobook for W&H I was like perfect, I'll listen rather than read that way I won't gobble it up in a day. Ha well that did not work, I listened to the first 3 chapters (at that time those were the only chapters they had recorded) then instantly ran not walked to A03, reread said chapters, then continued on. At Chapter 4 of W&H, I thought hmm maybe I'll read them simultaneously. I continued that way maybe through Chapter 13 of B&E and Chapter 7ish then fully committed to W&H first. I cannot imagine reading these fics in real time because reading them in full, back to back was the most intense glutenous binge and it's taken over my life in the best way. I have been living in your fictional universe for the past two weeks. I started a list of all the parallels and callbacks and eventually had to call it because they are innumerable. I'm awed. In literal awe. Thank you, thank you, thank you.

Your writing - the individual words of your vast vocabulary, the way you string said words together into hilarious, heart breaking, heart stopping, beautiful, and visceral feelings is astounding. It's hard to explain but even good writers (and/or an intriguing plot) sometimes do not create an overall immersive feeling. But the feelings your words evoke are all encompassing and truly universe building. Like it's not just the wording or the plot or the charters but all of it together come to make something even greater than the sum of their parts. Your writing, your universe of W&H, S&S, and B&E live in my mind and heart and in an embarrassing amount of screenshots of passages on my phone and in voice memos to myself as I don't have anyone irl to fan girl with. When I think of your words and the world you built, I'm reminded of a Taylor Swift lyric: "it cut deep to know you, right to the bone". That is how I'd describe your writing's effect on me, but in the best way.

Your brain's capacity to plot, plan, and flawlessly deliver W&H THEN B&E? Idk how you kept all the threads and plot points and moments and timelines in check. My head aches just thinking about how you wrote these stand-alone but also inextricable works of art. Like how does one's brain function in such a level? And it's especially telling in B&E because we knew where we were going but I still gasped, screamed, squealed, giggled, had to put my phone down, clutched it to my heart, fist pumped, stopped half way through just for a minute to breath and take it all in, and overall looked and acted as an utter idiot during each and every chapter because while I knew where we were going I also had no idea! I'm just floored you managed to keep us at the edge of our seats with a prequel? Who does that? You do!

The texts in the final chapter of W&H devastated me, literal chills. I think about that daily. It's exactly what H and we needed. Just like a reminder of what they went through. It reminded me of Chapter 41 of B&E. Like a summary of where they had been and where they are now.

The other thing that rattled in my brain is the motifs of choice and time, life kind of boils down to those two things huh? But choice especially. It's funny because choice is so prominent but at the same time how W&H and B&E give off soulmate vibes even though this is not a soulmate fic (also are the rumors true...?!) because despite time turners, breakups, and lost memories, they always come back together. But more on choice: it's just as Draco says - in a million scenarios he'll always choose her and he feels lucky she chose him just once. But of course with W&H, she does it twice. And she does it in both timelines of B&E, and of course that's the problem when Draco realizes he has not done the same hence heartbreak 1.0. And just god - he wants her to have a choice with the potion, a choice with her memories, and stops the timey wimey madness by realizing he's taking her choice (and in a way H started it by taking away his choice and leaving the first time). And then those parts about how he chose her, she chose him, but they could not chose each other. This motif, these callbacks. I'm flabbergasted. It's just hitting me now that you extend the choice to us as readers - we get to choose whether H get her memories back or not.

Theo in all your Wait and Hope universe, but especially S&S broke me. Blaise asking who is taking care of Theo when he's taking care of everyone else? Theo's literal and figurative demons? Yikes. Those were unpleasant looks in the mirror for me. I'm glad Theo has his Blaise. Where's mine haha? Also just shout to your underrated Blaise. The fact that he might be my favorite of the Slytherians in your stories says a lot since he doesn't say a lot haha. But he packs such a punch in all your works.

Okay, after singing your well deserved praises and fan girling and marveling at your works (god this is so long, I'm so sorry!), at long last my ask. I still cannot get this out of my head: what did Theo mean in Chapter 1 of B&E when he suggests to Draco “I know that. Maybe you could—tell her some of—” some of what? I zeroed in on this as soon as I read it and it's been rattling in my brain ever since.

um. hi? holy shit. i dont know how to process this. i am resisting the impulse to cringe away from the level of praise happening here because i really need to learn how to take a compliment but oh my god? i am not...this is just...wowzers. you are very literally too kind to me. i have melted into a puddle of feelings in my reading chair here. 

so, first things first: thank you. these are some of the nicest things i’ve ever heard about my writing and i can guarantee i will come back to this ask when I'm feeling like i suck and need a motivation boost. i can’t deny...it feels really nice to know that at least one person out there caught and appreciated some of the insane attention to detail i forced upon myself lol. so thank you. truly, thank you so much for saying such amazingly kind things that have short circuited my brain!

and im sure my friends at @etl-echo-audiobooks will be over the moon to know that their recording work was such a hit! your trajectory reading these stories is so fun and hilarious and probably the most unique reading experience i’ve heard so far xD

also, please be advised that your analysis on choice in these stories is probably going to live in my head rent free for the rest of my life. i feel seen, you know? you just...picked up what i was putting down and it feels really nice to know that it worked for you! 

and ok. your question. that little dash of ambiguity i was planning on leaving open ended. but let it be known i can be plied with compliments. i can’t just *not* give you something in return for such a lovely and kind and thoughtful dose of joy you had absolutely no obligation to give me today. 

so, in my mind, after draco’s house arrest ended and before he went abroad for his mastery, he and theo had an extensive (most likely drunken. also blaise was probably there too) night of reflection where they kind of just looked back at their childhoods and the war and the history of blood purity and just sort of went: “what the fuck?” i imagine draco probably confided in theo that when he went abroad, he planned to just try and pretend like none of it mattered, to see if that was really true. and draco probably kept him updated via owl (even though draco did not write enough and theo had feelings about that) so that by the time draco returned and we have theo asking that sort of trailing question, the implication at the end is “what if you told granger some of your realizations about it all?” so...not all that exciting? but there you have it!

in conclusion: thank you! you are too kind! i appreciate your thoughtful commentary SO much! i’m so happy you enjoyed these stories. and i hope the explanation of what theo was going to say wasn’t too underwhelming.

[buttercupbuck]

I saw what you said in the tags of an ask about season 4 being so strong and then...yeah, I feel the same way. For me, season 4 was all about growth. Like Maddie and Chimney were starting a family together, something both characters have dreamt of since forever, you know, that kind of security; Eddie was learning to move on from Shannon; Buck was going to therapy and trying to get to the root of his issues; and then we had the lingering issue of Athena's attack in her relationship with Bobby, etc. The latter wasn't explored well imo. I adored their argument, it was long overdue and one of my fave scenes but one conversation afterwards was not going to fix their problems. Sure, they talked about the effect of Athena's attack but how about the way Athena feels about Bobby as a recovering addict? It's the first thing she thinks when he's secretive and she admits she doesn't understand his past. The writers started Maddie's ppd storyline in the two final episodes of the season...and then had a time jump at the end 🙃. We've barely heard about Buck's therapy since his parents visited and by the looks of it, it's not going as well as the audience thought since he intentionally put himself in harm's way in the finale. And I've heard that Tim said Eddie getting shot was to build Buck's character and storyline. No wonder the sniper storyline was so underwhelming. Which is truly a disgrace since Ryan puts so much effort and care into Eddie's character. Idk, I just feel like it all started out good and then fell apart truly.

i completely agree! i really hope that we continue to see them work through the issues that were brought up in the argument, because while their scenes together reaffirmed their love and understanding of each other, i don't think that it really resolved the issues still at the core of their marriage? but im also not holding my breath because the writers don't drag things out. even still, it'd be interesting to see him continue to be a sponsor to the driver and how that might affect/develop their relationship.

and yeah, for now i'm trusting that they'll handle maddie's ppd storyline with care, so i'm not trying to despair about that too much yet...and ig we probably would've had a time jump anyway since that's how they always start the season, but still...

and as for eddie, tim can talk out of his ass all he wants but i'm just praying the writers have something else planned for him in s5 that doesn't completely ignore the fact that he got shot (for the second time). im upset we didn't get a recovery storyline but i wasn't really expecting one since they never do that, but just?? don't completely sweep it under the rug?? like are you insane???? if it was purely for buck's development and we don't get to see how it affected eddie at all, idek...like that's genuinely awful

i think the main parts of the finale that felt really satisfying were buck and hen's storylines imo? like with buck, we know he's in therapy and working through his trauma, but it doesn't stop him from falling into the same spirals he used to (and lowkey i appreciate that we still see him having these insecurities, bc it would've felt really untrue if they were just resolved after buck begins), but i did appreciate the moment at the end where something finally gets through to him and he lets himself start to understand that his life matters. and then i loved all of hen's stuff with toni and that moment with evangeline, and it was just such a good cap to this season for her. idk why im saying all this but i just felt like i was being really negative so im just trying to offer some balance ahahha

[sigurdjarlson]

Hm I think WoW has hit a problem that both the MCU and shows like SPN are/did hit.

‘We need to keep making an increasingly bigger and badder villain but its getting increasingly more absurd.’

When you’ve fought Death itself what comes next? Ultra death? Super ultra death? Oh okay let’s go with fighting whatever created death and then wherever created the thing that created death and so on.

You can go back to smaller conflicts after but they seem petty and underwhelming as a result.

Ex: We went from fighting and defeating the Legion one of the biggest threats in the WoW universe to..a faction war in BFA. They had to add elements of the old gods and shit at the end to raise the stakes and it didn’t really work. It ended up being underwhelming and causing the conflict itself to feel petty and pointless in the grand scheme of things

BFA may have worked as a story in WoW’s earlier years but directly after Legion? It just doesn’t seem to work.

Maybe this is something that says hey your series’ lifespan has run it’s course you’re beating a dead horse’ or maybe it’s just that the media currently relies too much on ‘making a new powerful big bad’ rather than telling an engaging and gripping story.

I won’t pretend I know how to fix the problem or if they even can at this point I’m not a video game designer or a professional writer.

(this is all just me speculating at absurdly late hours of the night because my sleep schedule is fucked)

I’m not being as despondent as this sounds now that I’m reading it over. Im not saying I want WoW to end because honestly I don’t, I just want to see it continue to improve rather than decline

I’m not even saying the writing is all terrible. I think it varies in quality wildly actually but my opinion is not fact (and it’s also not a personal attack on people who disagree. It’s just my personal opinion. You don’t agree that’s cool, honest. Agree to disagree!)

It’s also important to note so much of what constitutes a good story snd expansion is subjective.

I loved Warlords of Draenor. It was one of my favorite expansions but it’s also often called one of the worst expansions by a lot of other fans. So, you know, personal taste does play a role.

Earlier I saw someone say Legion was a terrible expansion. Legion is also one of my favorite expansions.

Some aspects aren’t necessarily subjective like obviously you want your story to make sense. But again some people might agree and disagree on whether or not it does make sense lmao.

Is the majority of your fanbase enjoying your game is kind of a way to measure quality I suppose. Individual opinions are subjective but if the majority of your players are unhappy or leaving in droves there might just be some problems you need to fix 😂

So idk just some thoughts I guess

But my mind keeps coming back to that problem. Where do we go from here? [Shadowlands]

[darkelite020]

Bad Batch thoughts & predictions Ep 12

Continuing these written reactions/predictions somewhere cause itd be fun I think to see what actually ends up happening and remembering what I thought at the time so im dumping it here, youre welcome. (Feel free to discuss if you want) if you want to keep up with it im gonna be tagging these as #jay rambles about bb

- So I sort of expected it by the end of last episode but it seems like last episode was a start of an episode arc about hera's family, which, for rebel's fans I'm sure it's cool and exciting and maybe answers some questions or will actually show things discussed in rebels maybe, but as someone who hasn't seen rebels yet, I really hope this episode and the next few have more bad batch screentime, cause we were a little robbed last episode lol (but in a way I do still enjoy this stuff too, because im sure when I DO watch rebels it'll make the experience better). -- I'm not disliking this arc or anything, but up to this point we've kind of had almost mandalorian style 'one episode one adventure' sorts of episodes, and personally I really hope we get more of that (which I think we will), because while this is all new content and everything, we all have to admit clone wars had some less interesting filler arcs here and there, and I just hope bb doesn't fall the same way (across all of its seasons, im not very concerned about it so far from what we've seen of season 1) because if there is filler, I'd rather sit through a couple of the one episode stories, rather than a 3-4 episode story that takes nearly a month to get through if im disliking it, mostly for the fact that even if we got those 1 ep fillers, its more stories and more likely I'd like at least one. ---kinda rambling about this unnecessarily atm cause while again right now I think bb is fine, I just want the future to be that way too. - fffff every time I see howzer on screen I think of that fucking audio thats "here comes the boy, hello boy~" and honestly can you blame me he is so precious like ugh I swear dave you better be nice to him -- YOU CAN TELL HE FEELS SO BAD AND GUILTY LIKE IT HURTS - hey admiral can you not be MEAN to howzer when he is trying to be fucking helpful -- ;-; BRO im saying it so much already but I feel so bad for howzer like dude someone help him --- imo it feels like its sort of setting up howzer for something more important in the show kinda, at least for his character. Like we can clearly tell he doesn't really agree with the empire and I think they're going to do something with that. He's probably undercover for someone against the empire but I get the bad feeling they're gonna pull a Fives and have him go against the empire and help everyone else somehow but then he will probably end up dead because we cant have nice things. - hello cross... bet you wont be saved this episode - Ok good, some more bad batch here already. -- ALSO GONKY BEING DEFECTIVE!!!! EVEN GONKY IS DEFECTIVE LIKE BB THATS SO CUTE! - uh, im not the only one getting the leia transmission vibes from hera, right? -- ok, again I haven't seen rebels so I dont know BUT if hera has the ability to talk to bb, couldn't she have done so in rebels? Yeah she's older and im sure better at fighting and defending herself and all that, but wouldn't it still be possible for her to have gotten in some kind of rough situation in Rebels to ask for bb's help again? I super doubt bb made any appearance of any kind in Rebels, so doesn't that imply that she lost communications with them? What happens to bad batch >> - bad batch not wanting to help but because omega really wants to you can see its making hunter soften up and I appreciate it - bruh what??? Taa is dead af, like theres no way the show is gonna pull some magic and be like 'oh yep here he is' thing??? Like this has to be a lie, but even then, what even is the plan here?? Saying "oh hes recovering" well he can't be recovering forever, how does that seem like a good plan to lie about that?? People are gonna find out?? - "Great just what we need" from Wrecker about crosshair MAKES ME ANGRY LIKE??? YES?? DONT BE MAD AT HIM ITS NOT HIS FAULT??? SAVE YOUR FUCKING BOY??? -- oooo then the rest of bb doesn't comment about it literally gsjrkgbdkfbg why do they not care about him???? Like it seems they legitimately dont care about crosshair, even though theyve been together for so long like even before the show came out they

had history together and were all really close. I know people argue "oh well its just difficult to save him and its unrealistic for them right now" but so what? Even if they aren't trying to save him they should at least CARE about him. --- Which is also like the thing with echo and fives!!!! Like Echo didn't seem to care much at all when Rex mentioned fives even a little! Or even about seeing Rex that much!! Dave I'm gonna need some answers my guy, cause you humanized these characters but then you dont make them act that way so like whats up. - Lucky hunters abilities came in handy - Back to crosshair for a second im predicting they 100% arent saving him this season. There was a poster released part way through the season and he's not even on it... makes me so sad. - "I'd do the same for you." ;-; that didnt need to get that deep - CROSSHAIR BETTER NOT START SHIT WITH HOWZER - Howzer helping Hera's parents or at least implying that is good but that also means im right so far and therefore worried >> -- HES GOING TO GET FUCKING CAUGHT I BET TALKING TO THEM LIKE THIS AT SOME POINT AND HOW MUCH DO YOU WANNA BET ITS GONNA BE CROSSHAIR THAT CATCHES HIM --- Cham stfu its literally so obvious that howzer is trying to be genuine, also if he's kind of undercover for him like what the fuck do you expect howzer to do if he has to play along with the empire to keep his cover?? "Won't make that mistake again" Fuck off like honestly. ---- #stopbeingmeantohowzer2021 - "A little help" and the gentle "Hey" ahh love it - I'm really enjoying this whole them fighting in the ships sequence - "Stay here and guard the capitol" SCARES ME -- Please for the love of god bad batch don't get howzer killed --- or plot B Bad batch maybe run into howzer but save him and take him with you at least temporarily ---- oh god.... bb is helping heras parents escape and that means howzers gonna get in trouble.../probably replaced by crosshair - Crosshair is smart but thats also badddd - The scene of howzer and crosshair looking at each other is killing meeeeeeeee - Ohhh is howzer gonna stop them before they go out the door? -- YES HE IS SEE WHAT A GOOD BOY HE IS - (please fucking listen to him I beg) - Aw dude I just had a thought that breaks my heart... howzer cares about his squad and "trying to get through to them" but what if his squad is clones as well and the chips... that hurts me so badly... -- Like we all know howzer is a sweet boy by now but ughhh like the thought that he doesnt want to leave them even though they are doing whats wrong shows just how much he cares and I really hope he doesn't get into trouble because of what he's saying to them, but you know he totally would do it because he seems to care about them so much and :( bad batch more like sad batch --- This is the kind of compassion I wanted from bb for crosshair hunter kind of looks back at howzer as they leave him and I doubt itll mean anything but I really hope that maybe seeing how much howzer cares will make hunter care a little too... - *sigh* howzer is getting left behind by them which we know why but yeah... now he's definitely going to be in trouble... I just hope they don't hurt him... - OH GOD HOWZER BABY DONT -- He's making a speech and I know he's trying to sway them but you know damn well this is gonna go so badly for him because of the chips and crosshair is watching so you know howzer is gonna get fucked here and I know what hes trying for but I really wish he didnt just do that because now its blatantly obvious he's gonna be against them ;-; - Wow ok im kinda shocked people are siding with him (I guess cause theyre not all clones right) but I feel so bad for themmmmm - Crosshair missed multiple shots? Uh what? I didnt think that was possible lol - bb please come back for howzer and the others at some point.... -- I guess maybe if hera's parents are going to organize rebels against the empire maybe they will help them but I somewhat doubt it... - Ok I know that crosshair requesting to hunt them was supposed to be this big moment and all but I

can't help but feel like its a little underwhelming (but dont get me wrong still cool vibes) because he's kind of already been doing that anyway?? Or has tried to several times?? So I don't get why its a big deal, however, I do have a possible prediction: We know that bb got their chips removed, (crosshair doesn't, I know that) and so that eliminates the idea that they will get caught and actually go bad like crosshair, but it does leave a possibility where maybe they get captured and then *pretend* to be bad? And that could lead to a better possibility of helping crosshair (they wont) or maybe howzer and the other rebels or something? Cause I also feel like its significant that they brought up how the war will eventually come to them and bb will be a part of it no matter what eventually, and it makes obvious sense theyd be on the rebels side of it, so maybe something like that goes on, idk.

[hhuta]

can i ask why you don't like the 3D version of LBQFM? cause it was a bit underwhelming for me too tbh but i need to rewatch that proshot so i might like it more then

yeah of course! in summary its because they degayed it so much that it became flavourless.

i watched both the 2010 and the 2011 recordings side by side to 1. go insane and 2. show u what i mean. see how literally every single iconic part got cut off:

the guy at the beginning choking and pushing salieri around is not there at all anymore

again the male dancer is not there anymore so when salieri sings about the knife going through his heart he doesnt get symbolically stabbed by the dancer, he just bends down like he has arthritis or a stomach ache

wow would u look at that. yet again no male dancer to shove the score on his face so salieri just awkwardly grabs it

am i being repetitive yet?

this is the climax!!! the peak of the performance!!!!!!! and now hes just standing there ..........

and to finish it off once again he isnt being manhandled anymore, just awkwardly walking around.

but wait. u thought it was over? ha. lets not forget the atrocious continuity error, in the 2011 recording, of salieris cravat suddenly being gone when the song is over. this is the lAST STRAW TO ME. this could have been finally a good change... something with flavour.. and yet... its a mystery. idk if it was a mistake and it felt off or idk maybe a male dancer pulled it off so they had to cut the gay out!1!1 dkljaskl

(btw the editing problem isnt just in this scene. from the top of my head i remember that in the rehearsal part u can see how they clearly mixed together 2 different shots which obviously kills the vibe of it being a live performance. i mean this; salieri is uncrossing his arms in one shot and when it cuts to the next one he is fixing his coat)

but back to lbqfm. now this might just be me being biased cuz i already prefer the 2010 dvd for those reasons, but i also think that in that version they zoom in at the right parts and show the choreo, the stage and the lighting a lot better than in 2011. like in the instrumental part of the song, when the lighting changes from red and green to purple and blue u know? ugh in the 2010 dvd is so much cooler, they show everything in a wide shot... perhaps they changed the way they shot it to add a cOoL 3D effect but oh well i cant know that

anyways i had to check some youtube videos to see if the choreo changes were just for the new recording and nah u can see in this video from february 2011 how its the exact same but this one from june 2011 shows yet again more changes in the choreo, being a mix of both versions and i think my favourite one now?

so to be clear im not mad about the constant changes in basically every part of the show bc MOR isnt a the phantom of the opera situation (POTO). in replica productions of POTO (like broadway) the choreo/blocking etc etc is still the same from when it premiered 3 decades ago but the actors change all the time so it feels different, it still stays fresh. MOR is different; besides claire leaving, the cast remained the same for 3 years and i mean of course every single performance is unique, even when its the same choreo and people, but its minor stuff like the micro expressions i love to screenshot every week dlakjsk

its good that they kept trying new things to not only make people rewatch it, but also to try to improve the show and keep it interesting for the actors too tbh. some things work, others dont, so u can ignore the changes u dont like (and maybe someone else does like them) and enjoy what brings u joy

[lizparkcr]

ok so im trying to avoid having emotions about the shitshow that is the local elections so i dont yknow breakdown and ive been meaning to make a post for ages abt muriel’s route i have so many thoughts. obvious spoilers ahead not that i have more than like 2 followers who play arcana game

firstly....i was kinda underwhelmed with the second half/ending of his route. disclaimer i haven’t replayed it and haven’t got the reversed ending, only upright, and my memory sucks and i played it a while ago. SO, things that I....don’t understand:

1. SUCH a massive deal is made out of muriel (and MC) having to learn to fight, the plot literally hinges on it, only for it to swing off the plot all together into oblivion and for the final showdown to be....a series of literal games.* And I wouldn’t disagree with this as an ending tbh!!!! I think it’s fucking great actually -- a non-violent resolution to further signify Muriel’s journey from violence and isolation to peace and fun and family, and tbh sort of a massive fuck you to lucio; LITERALLY RETURNING to the coliseum only to BEAT Lucio WITHOUT returning to the violence that lucio forced on him, turning it into a place of actual joy. Like fuck!!  BUT with the whole first part it just doesn’t fucking fit lmao? Muriel could have faced his demons in the beginning without learning to fight at all, he still could have had that journey. Morga could have just traveled with them right? Or even better he could have refused to fight and then the ending would have been even better. We could have had a moment of Morga acknowledging their strength??? Acknowledging their non-violent victory WITH PRIDE??? Bringing her to reflect on her choices as a mother and a leader??? Devs why couldn’t we have had that :(  I may be remembering wrong but the apparent necessity of Morga teaching them to fight is the biggest source of tension for at least a book. It’s the reason for his first kiss with the MC!  Also yeah speaking of tension with Morga 

2. SUCH a big deal is made out of morga becoming/reflecting as (?) a mother figure to muriel (which in itself is a very bold way to go story-wise)....only for her to be killed off. Again, I don’t disagree with this decision, I like her but story-wise it could fit. But I can’t help feel like it was really premature. This is something I feel all routes suffer from, and perhaps I am expecting too much from a game that can be played for free very easily, but every single route has pacing problems, none more than Muriel’s imo. Considering the maternal aspect of Morga (for both her and Muriel!) is sooooo fucking loaded and intense like, you cannot drop that and then kill her and not really mention her for the rest of the story. Her “ghost” made an appearance sometime later and a few sentences were said and that was it. Her and Muriel’s past was so brushed over  and idk clearly they didn’t have the time or money or whatever to develop it which is a real shame. Their journeys could have run parallel or gone in opposite directions literally anything but Morga dying in a moment of weakness from a cheap trick by lucio :/ bc YEAH like that was not actually weakness but certainly what morga considers weakness!!! that mistake could have split her away from muriel+MC entirely OR brought them closer together. she could have been disgusted with herself and decided once and for all to let go of lucio as a son and go her own way to destroy him, or she could have woken up to what she can do differently now and work with Muriel and co and let go of lucio that way. idk man it was just a waste

Right then....onto the romance. or. lack of :( this is completely subjective, I know some people were v happy with it but like, this could not have been a drier route and im so fucking sad about it. There were definitely some sweet moments, but that was sort of it for me. I get what they were going for, but it’s personally sad to me that Muriel’s contentedness seems to have come at the expense of sensual intimacy/tension. like there was just absolutely no spice whatsoever. I saw someone describe the MC relationship as basically platonic and...yeah. Very little intimacy that wasn’t like, cuddling or holding hands, which since there wasn’t much to build on anyway just came across as nice but unexciting. It felt like it became too easy and too normal too quickly?  Naturally touch was such a precious and important thing in the beginning as Muriel was learning to trust, but that just did not get explored imo. The first kiss wasn’t...the worst, but it was sort of OOC to me. They could have got so deep with that first kiss -- the opportunity, the trust, the choice. “Happy accident” scenarios can be great and definitely could have worked for his story, but for the first kiss i was like oh ok we’re here now?? and..muriel’s ok with that considering we were just uhh sobbing about his forced servitude and violence?? idk how i haven’t mentioned it yet but the way the tone was all over the fucking shop in that book gave me serious whiplash. Anyway  it’s so disappointing bc c’monnnnn this whole relationship is brand new to BOTH mc and muriel.  At the start every touch is a small turning point and i think they did that so well, you feel excited at the development and where it will go, but then it’s like “ok well we’re together now so everything is easy and breezy”. you can create emotional tension (the good kind) through touch EVEN if they’re both ace. which the MC is not bc its the self insert character so. yeah. i feel like im probably being a bit harsh in retrospect but this is what has stuck with me. 

This leads me to Muriel himself, and what to me was the biggest opportunity to do blow everyone’s minds bc he was SUCH a mystery before his route. Dark and brooding but shy and caring, anti-social through anxiety and fear but lonely, his reluctant but consistent support of Asra and his friends. And that was all teased in the beginning! ....and then completely fell flat. Similar to my first point: they had some deep emotional development going, Muriel literally coming face to face with the past he never knew, and the past he wishes he could forget, learning to actually be around people, learning to trust people (and ngl i fucking loved the beginning stages with MC so much), and overcoming his anxiety and pessimism. He and MC literally travel together alone for weeks. WEEKS! And much of that is skipped by. We have big emotional scenes but not much in between. And then...and yknow im not sure where it changes...after khamgalai dies? (and dont get me started on that what the fuck was the point of THAT?) after MC goes to the arcane realms? I can’t remember but at some point it’s like...all tension is gone lmao. Including tension between MC and Muriel, and he becomes quite two dimensional. It was just rushed.  Vesuvia is in ruins, Nadia and co chased out of the palace, Lucio taking control etc but like...it doesn’t feel like it matters? Im really not saying that his route has to be all doom and gloom at all but don’t MAKE it doom and gloom and then do a 180 yknow? I remember Julian’s route in particular being so fucking tense, even though I knew I got the upright ending, that dinner scene was...phew. (and i do get that naturally the first 3 routes are bound to be a more exciting experience bc i was less familiar w the game etc but still, there was just 0 tension). 

im not even gonna talk about the MC’s past reveal bc i have issues with it in every route so whatever 

so yeah i love muriel and i still like the arcana but it’s writing and pacing is just so inconsistent and it makes me sad. I will continue to fanon Muriel’s route to death. 

*It’s occurred to me that the reversed ending may be more violent and actually fit with where the story seemed to be going in the start, but I stand by the opinion that it doesn’t matter because it still doesn’t make sense. I shouldn’t have to play the reverse ending to be like “oh ok that was the point of that” bc it should make sense and serve purpose in both endings, which i dont think it does.

[worldwidemochiguy]

Hello!! I just.. was hoping maybe I could get some advice on writing, I love your work so much! 💜

hi!!! thank you so much im rly glad you enjoy my shitty little unedited fics lmao

uhhhhhhh honestly i don’t have too much advice for writing and the stuff i do have to say is either a) painfully obvious b) copied from other advice posts lmao or c) stuff that i don’t even manage to do, buuuuuuut since you asked ill say anyway, but like, prepare to be severely underwhelmed

(ill add a read more thing when i can be bothered to fetch my laptop lol)

1. know what you want to write! this isn’t to say you can’t just like write whatever tf you want just for fun when the inspiration strikes bc you know, you do you, but it really does help if you know what you’re writing about. and not just, for example, ‘they go and get coffee together and then they flirt and then they kiss’ (although having a plot also helps obviously) but like - what are you trying to say with this fic? to its core - is it about loneliness? sadness? hope? companionship? (this is a tip i do not follow myself but wish i did lmao)

but also yeah remember what your plot is and make sure that everything makes sense basically. every scene should be there for a reason - plot development or character development. also, it’s really cool if you can intertwine these things. like, how does the character think and feel about what’s happening and how do they act to drive the plot forwards and why would they do that?

2. themes are cool, maybe not necessary or anything, but still cool. same rule applies to metaphors. however! if you feel like you have to shoehorn these things in and it doesn’t feel natural then don’t do it, and don’t add them just so that they’re in there, they should have like actual relave ce to the plot or character. each person has their own style and trying to force a certain way of writing probably won’t be fun to write or read. not to say that you can’t experiment with genres and/or style! but just, like, don’t think that you have to add something in to make it sound good. there are no rules for writing anyone who says otherwise is pedantic and you have no obligation to listen to them ! 💕

3. try and make sure you really know your characters. like, you could answer any question about them. a cool thing to do which can be fun and useful is to do personality quizzes in the character of who you’re writing, especially the meyers Briggs ones or like sorting hat quizzes. it can help you to get a deeper look at their personality also if they’re maybe not fully developed yet it forces you to think about these things and make decisions. this will also help with the plot and the character’s role in it! if you make them do actions that seem out of character it might feel less believable or engaging, but once you understand and develop the character more then this is less likely to happen.

4. i’ve said it before and i’ll undoubtedly say it again. practice makes perfect (or… improvement at least!). when i first started writing proper ‘fanfic’ i was 13 and it was about twilight if Bella and Edward actually had twins instead of just renesmee and the second child was kidnapped. as you can imagine, it was not very good!! but i continued to write and (im hoping lol) improve. i would even say i’ve improved in the nine months i’ve had this blog (omg almost a year now 🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺) even if you feel like you aren’t improving and you read your things and think they’re awful, that’s actually good! bc (bear with me lol) it means your mind is becoming more critical as you understand more about writing and you improve. it does however have the side effect of criticising whatever you write which is... not fun! lmao

5. read! i’ve also said this one before but idc. reading helps your own improvement so much and im literally not even going to elaborate bc like that’s it. reading rly rly helps. it widens your vocabulary and helps you get used to varying sentence structures and see how plots can come together and inspire you. idk why my brain is just failing to work properly and form sentences that make sense but yeah. reading good.

but yeah that’s kind of it. just write what you want to write honestly, and then everything else will start to happen after a while.