#and now he has over 1mil. crazy things

[leave-your-body]

What's the furthest extent of yr sparky knowledge. Like the most obscure thing you can think of. For reference

uhhh maybe the original packaging for the tear jerky cd back when he first made it. w the shadow puppets !!

[thecatladyknits]

I need to write this out but I do not want or need advice. I just need to get it out and I need people to just... give me a hug. I repeat, no advice. No tips. No 'it could be worse'. No 'it takes time to adjust'. "No 'you're tough'. Please don't offer anything except love and hugs or I will go out of my fucking mind. Not that tons of people comment, but for the love of god please just don't. Just.please.listen.

(This is a c&p from a private fb post so this may repeat things, but I don’t care to edit). 

It's been one fucking thing after another.

A few weeks ago, I went to a skin clinic to look into acne treatment/laser/peels, whatever, for my back especially. I cried the whole way through the consultation, but it sounded like they could help. D doesn't want me to decide immediately and wants to help me think about it. He's totally suspicious and skeptical of the pricing as a package vs. ad-hoc and isn't being supportive at all, but I say fuck it and pre-pay A LOT of money for 12 various treatments. About a week ago, I got a chemical peel on my back, which was one of the most anxiety-inducing things ever. Show my disgusting back to someone who tells me NO PICK! NO PICK! AFTER THIS YOU NO PICK!! Yes, after 25 years, just yell NO PICK and I'm cure; it's just that easy.

The next day I finally go to a doctor for the rash bc I can't take the itching it anymore. I have to show her everything and she's like "oh, yes, I can see it on your chest" and I'm like "no, that's acne" and so I have to walk through my disgusting skin again pointing out what is acne and what is eczema. She tells me it could be due to change of environment and bc "it's so dry here" (lol you've never been in MI or OH in the winter; come back to me about dryness). Like fucking great, suddenly all the plants and trees in the West hate me??

The chemical peel doesn't seem to do much. It feels like a very mild sunburn for about 3 days and maybe I have a little extra skin slough off in the shower, but no difference (if you look up chemical peels on YouTube, people have literal sheets of skin peeling off... maybe that's not good, but it seems to work for them). They told me it will take time, but literally not the slightest bit of difference is apparent.

I sort of light-heartedly posted about the eczema on Friday but it is fucking DESTROYING me. Most of the hives are gone, but it was so fucking itchy that I have scabs all up and down my arms and my thighs. Prednisone helped tremendously, but today was my last day on it. It's making my appetite crazy and giving me wicked heartburn, but I'm so hungry I just keep eating anyway.

It seems like sweating exacerbates it; I walked around a bunch yesterday and I got a little sweaty (not insanely, but a little), but I didn't shower until evening like usual. Much more itchy yesterday and today. Also, I'm so ashamed that my arms and legs look so bad, I'm wearing long sleeves and pants outside the house even when short sleeve would be fine, but guess what, that makes me sweat more. Hell cycle.

I join a gym bc I'm fat and am sick of being fat, and I haven't been there in 2 weeks bc I'm too embarrassed by my scabby skin to go. So here I am, continuing getting fatter.

I joined Meetup.com to try to make friends, and I tried to go to one yesterday, and it was a failure. I took 2 bus rides for 45 mins to get there, and I got confused at the transfer, bc I had to go to a different bus stop and cannot read even a fucking Google map with dots and me as a moving dot on it to save my fucking life. I get to the meet up right on time, and I'm looking around for the one person whose photo is actual visible on the site, and I don't see her. No one has a sign or a water bottle with a sticker and it's just at a coffee shop with a zillion different groups of people there and I'm too timid to walk up to a rando group. I message the girl and she's like "oh I'm not there today” and “sorry they just left." So I wander around the park by myself, call my mom and have a fucking meltdown. I did make it back home okay, but not after getting turned around YET AGAIN bc I can't read a fucking map.

And bc I'm fat, I busted through the legs of my jeans not that long ago, so I bought 1 new pair and then went looking for non-jean lighter comfy pants. I found a brand I liked at TJ Maxx, and went back and bought 3 more pairs yesterday. Literally only 1 of the 3 fit; the other two don't go past my thighs DESPITE BEING THE SAME BRAND AND SIZE.

There's a Zumba class at 10 am on Mondays that I really like and the instructor doesn't teach at any other time and my boss says it's fine for me to go as long as I have the time free. So I purposely block the time on my calendar bc it was free forever. Today another team lead schedules recurring meetings at, you guessed it, 10 am every fucking Monday.

D has been gone for over a week and won't be back until Thursday. We talk on the phone and I firmly ask if we can PLEASE get a coffee table (we have a cardboard box rn), I know he is particular, but can we please get one? He says something about being broke (he is definitely NOT EVEN CLOSE TO BROKE), but then says yeah okay. He talks about finances a bit and I'm like haha if I had $1mil, I would buy a house here and he's like, you could make it there! You'd be surprised how quickly money rolls in when you don't have debt! and I'm just like lol k. Then I'm like wah I'm lonely, wish you could be home more and he gets mildly offended like, well, I don't have a choice and then is like YOU could always come travel with ME and I'm like ...I don't feel like I can do that financially. (Didn't he literally just talk about saving money by not having debts?) Then he's like well, guess I'll get going and I'm like great, we're ending on a grumpy note, super cool.

So. There are like 50 things going absolutely wrong here and I am trying my fucking HARDEST AS HARD to not lose my fucking shit, but I AM FUCKING LOSING IT.

I try to fix my terrible skin; it falls apart spectacularly in a totally different and unexpected way.

I try to get fit and now I can't go to the class I really enjoy OH and I also and too humiliated bc I LOOK LIKE A LEPER to be seen.

I try to make friends and I get fucking ditched.

I try to use the bus system and I can't read a simple map.

I try to make a request or discuss grown-up things with my boyfriend and he gets offended and contradictory about money.

I'M FUCKING LONELY, I JUST WANT TO LOOK HALFWAY NORMAL, NOT BE ITCHY CONSTANTLY, NOT BE ASHAMED 24/7 AND NOT FEEL LIKE I'M UNDER A FUCKING CURSE. FUCK.ME.

[zeta-in-de-walls]

Tommy’s still growing very quickly even on his main channel. His growth in the last year, and other CCs in his circle was so rapid that the current level of growth just seems less impressive. His growth has been slowing down more recently, at the start of the year he was gaining about 1mil/month, now its closer to 500k. 500k is still very great though xD, that like 15k subs/day. 

There’s probably a few reasons its slowed. Part of it simply that you can’t chase endless growth. Eventually all the people that your content appeals to will have found you and be watching you and you’ll be getting views but more views doesn’t always translate to new subscribers. You can try and change your content to attract more of an audience but you’ll also risk alienating your current fans. Funny minecraft videos are somewhat mass appeal but still pretty niche. And Tommy’s content won’t appeal to everyone either. Nor should that be an expectation - he makes content for his target audience. 

Additionally, his main channel content has started to stagnate some with weekly minecraft mod vids in that they’ve started to feel less fresh and more formulaic. The quality has remained great and everything but they’re far less of a must-watch. Tommy’s done little things to start to shake em up - different guests, custom maps, slightly different challenges but nothing really different. Something like a multi-part series to engage viewers with over one-shot vids is the kind of thing I’d personally love but there’s plenty of other directions to go while still keeping the humour and tone of a TommyInnit vid. Still, stuff like the you laugh you lose vid and meeting Drista in secret were cool. 

Tommy’s main channel was also growing a lot when he was streaming much more regularly so I think that has an indirect impact as well. More content can mean more new fans. Even if they find him through his streams, many would also check out his channel if they like him. A lot of people found him through the SMP and that’s not growing quite as much as it used to with content slowing down. Also, quarantine probably helped him a lot as so many people were looking for online content, but now things have been opening up more.

But yeah, Tommy has grown like crazy. I found him around this time last year. He was on ~300k then. Now he’s on 9.8mil. That’s insane. 

And yeah, Tommy’s not focusing so hard on the main channel right now cause he’s been putting so much of his effort into his vlogs. And his vlog channel has gained like 3mil in a month or so. He’s absolutely killing it.  

is it just me or has tommy stopped growing? like in subscribers? and his views have kinda gone down these past couple videos and i was just confused as to why that might be? feel free to ignore this if you want btw!! i am just wondering since i’m newer and people have said before about how fast he’s growing but it doesn’t seem like that to me? thank you!! /gen

two words: vlog channel

[realpqdiary]

03/19/19

02:57 am

*random thought: I have been going to sleep rather late nowadays. I have been working and getting late because of either the rough assignments, or I have been out late with carolyn and choose to go home after. The longs drives to work and back are starting to get to me, and i have to keep doing this until September. I can keep complaining but I would rather just keep going until I get to September. 

But tonight was different. As sleepy as I am writing this, i know I must write this down.This is what I will refer to in times that I want to remember how much my parents actually love their own children. 

My parents offered to pay my parent loans off, fully, by next month. With the help of their savings, my savings, and some compensation from my sister’s accident, we are able to put together enough money to pay off the biggest loans of our lives. I wondered what made my dad decide this, being that his initial plan was to pay off his own car loans first, and only give me a small sum of money. Then we both agreed that we would put all the amount to my fed loan and i’d pay the rest, AND pay both their cars off, while paying my student loan, and my own car loan.

I guess today I woke up and the first thing I said was, “Ama, i dont think we can go through the plan of putting all the compensation money into my parent loan. I can’t pay over 3K in loans a month. I wouldn’t even have money to spend to buy food. How am i ever gonna move out”. He didn’t say anything. He heard me though.

Tonight they came home from work, acting differently. Usually Ama would watch TV and blast the news or something, as him and ina both set up food for their midnight merienda. Tonight was different. They stayed in their room longer than usual, Ama never turned the tv on. I had to grab Prince in their room, and I saw them taking their time changing to home clothes, and it seemed like they were talking about something. I said, “you guys are being weird.”

A little while after, I went to the kitchen and Ama told me, “sit down. We have to talk”. My heart. dropped. It’s crazy that my initial reaction was, “did someone die?!”. I have really bad PTSD.

This time it was good news. My parents offered to give me not only the compensation money, but also their entire savings just so i can pay my parent loans. That with some of my savings, i will be off a loan!! 

(im falling asleep so i will finish this later. Here are topics i wanna discuss:)

- Carolyn and I talked until 3 am last night about everything: My finances, our connection, our plan of working at ICU or ER next, my “dark” side, her lack of response and effort at times, and me proposing that I will understand where she’s coming from in terms of being unable to always keep in touch as long as she makes me feel validated, important and loved at times. I told her im very sensitive, more so than i could ever show and she apologized for her lack of action, efforts, and that she was sorry for hurting me. Then we laughed about so many things. We cried, we talked about her life, her plans, my plans for this year and next, our plans for the future. We talked for so long and didnt notice til 3 am that we were the only ones left there. Everyone had left, and we never noticed til I had to stand up to use the bathroom. Sometimes I really do believe, this girl is my future wife. It’s just that now, we are good as friends. We are each other’s rock. Last night we both confessed that we didn’t want to lose each other. The other month she told me that when she first met me, “it was like I’ve known you for my whole life”.  I cant see myself sleeping with her though. But idk. 

-Talk about how thoughtful Ama is, and he actually pays attention in his own ways. He felt bad that I was worried about navient from what i just said. He noticed that my puppy likes to play and chew on things before he falls asleep. I never even noticed that. 

- Talk about how smart ina is. Neither me nor ama thought that we could just transfer the money directly to my account  and pay off my parent loan that way. 

- Talk about the 1mil house Ama sold in our property in the PI, even tho it was just worth 300K. Talk about how everything has worked out, and it seems it is because of our GOD!!

- Talk about them reminiscing on taking me, as a child, to the CFC meetings because I love the dinners/food. 

- Talk about them 

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